The Darkest Room
The second book in the A-land series, 2009
Originally published as Nattfåk by Wahlström & Widstrand, Stockholm, in 2008.
Copyright © 2008 by Johan Theorin.
Translated [from the Swedish] by Marlaine Delargy.
The dead gather every winter to celebrate Christmas. But on one occasion they were disturbed by an old spinster. Her clock had stopped, so she got up too early and went to church in the middle of the night on Christmas Eve. There was the murmur of voices as if there were a service going on, and the church was full of people. Suddenly the old woman caught sight of her fiancé from the days of her youth. He had drowned many years ago, but there he was, sitting in a pew among the others.
SWEDISH FOLKTALE FROM THE NINETEENTH CENTURY
This is where my book begins, Katrine, the year when the manor house at Eel Point was built. For me the manor was more than a house where my mother and I lived, it was the place where I became an adult.
Ragnar Davidsson, the eel fisherman, once told me that large parts of the manor were built with salvaged cargo from a German vessel carrying timber. I believe him. On the wall at the far end of the hayloft inside the barn, the words
IN MEMORY OF CHRISTIAN LUDWIG
are carved into one of the planks.
I have heard the dead whispering in the walls. They have so much to tell.
Valter Brommesson is sitting in a little stone house at Eel Point, praying to God with his hands clasped together. He prays that the wind and the waves sweeping in from the sea this night will not destroy his two lighthouses.
He has experienced bad weather before, but never a storm like this. A white wall of snow and ice that has come howling in from the northeast, stopping all building work.
The towers, O Lord, let us get the towers finished…
Brommesson is a builder of lighthouses, but this is the first time he has built a lighthouse with a prism lens in the Baltic. He came to Öland in March the previous year and set to work at once: taking on workmen, ordering clay and limestone, and hiring strong draft horses.
The fresh spring, the warm summer, and the sunny fall were glorious on the coast. The work was going well, and the two lighthouses were slowly growing toward the sky.
Then the sun disappeared, it became winter, and when
the temperature dropped, people began to talk of blizzards. And in the end it came, the blizzard. Late one night it hurled itself at the coast like a wild animal.
As the dawn approaches, the wind finally begins to subside.
Then all of a sudden cries are heard from the sea. They come out of the darkness off Eel Point-drawn-out, heartrending cries for help in a foreign language.
The cries wake Brommesson, and he in his turn wakes the exhausted builders.
“It’s a shipwreck,” he says. “We have to go out.”
The men are sleepy and reluctant, but he gets them on their feet and out into the snow.
They plod down to the shore, their backs bent in the ice-cold headwind. Brommesson turns his head and sees that the half-finished stone towers are actually still standing, down by the water.
In the other direction, to the west, he can see nothing. The flat landscape of the island has become a billowing desert of snow.
The men stop on the shore and gaze out to sea.
They can see nothing in the dark gray shadows out on the sandbar, but they can still hear faint cries mingled with the roaring of the waves-and the creaking sound of splintering wood and nails being torn free.
A big ship has run aground on the bar, and it is sinking.
In the end the only thing the builders can do is to stand there listening to the sounds and the cries for help from the ship. Three times they try to get one of their boats out to sea, but every attempt fails. The visibility is too poor and the breakers too high, and besides, the water is full of heavy wooden beams.
The grounded vessel must have been carrying a huge load of timber up on deck. When she began to go down, the wood was wrenched free by the waves and tumbled overboard.
The beams are as long as battering rams and are washed ashore in great shoals. They have begun to fill up the inlets around the point, scraping and banging against one another.
When the sun rises behind the misty gray cloud cover, the first body is discovered. It is a young man, floating in the waves a dozen or so yards from land with his arms outstretched, as if he were still trying to grab hold of one of the beams around him right up to the very last moment.
Two of the lighthouse builders wade out into the shallow water, take a firm grip of the rough woolen shirt the body is wearing, and tow the dead man ashore across the sandbank.
At the water’s edge each man grabs hold of one ice-cold wrist and pulls hard. The dead man comes up out of the water, but he is tall and broad-shouldered and difficult to carry. He has to be dragged up the snow-covered grassy shore, with the water pouring from his clothes.
The builders gather around the body in silence, without touching it.
In the end Brommesson bends down and turns the body onto its back.
The drowned man is a sailor with thick black hair and a wide mouth that is half open, as if he had given up in the middle of a breath. His eyes are staring up at the gray sky.
The foreman guesses that the sailor is in his twenties. He hopes he is a bachelor, but he may have a family to provide for. He has died off a foreign shore; he probably didn’t even know the name of the island where his ship went down.
“We must fetch the pastor in a little while,” says Brommesson, closing the dead man’s eyes so that he will no longer have to meet that empty gaze.
Three hours later the bodies of five sailors have drifted ashore around Eel Point. A broken nameplate has also washed up: CHRISTIAN LUDWIG-HAMBURG.
And timber, lots and lots of timber.
The flotsam is a gift. It belongs to the Swedish crown now, the same crown that is paying for the lighthouses on Eel Point. Suddenly the builders have access to top-quality pine worth many hundreds of riksdaler.
“We must all help to bring it ashore,” says Brommesson. “We’ll stack it up out of reach of the waves.”
He nods to himself and looks up toward the snow-covered plain. There is very little in the way of forest on the island, and instead of the small stone house they were planning for the lighthouse keepers and their families on Eel Point, he can now build a much bigger house made of wood.
Brommesson has a vision of an impressive, enclosed manor with the house itself full of large, airy rooms. A secure home for those who will be looking after his lighthouses here at the end of the world.
But it will be a house built on the spoils of a shipwreck, and that can bring bad luck. Some kind of sacrificial offering will be necessary in order to counteract this bad luck. Perhaps even a prayer room. A memorial room for those who died at Eel Point, for all those poor souls who have not been buried in consecrated ground.
The thought of this bigger house remains in Brommesson’s mind. Later that same day he begins to measure out the ground with long strides.
But when the storm has abated and the frozen lighthouse builders start heaving the timber out of the water and stacking it up on the grass, many of them can still hear the echo of those cries from the drowning men.
I am certain those lighthouse builders never forgot the cries of the drowning sailors. And I am equally certain that the most superstitious among them questioned Brommesson’s decision to build a large house using timber from a shipwreck.
A house built with timber that dying sailors had clung to in despair before the sea took them-should my mother and I
have known better than to move in there at the end of the 1950s? Should you and your family really have moved there thirty-five years later, Katrine?
– MIRJA RAMBE
CHANGE YOUR LIFE-MOVE TO THE COUNTRY!
Property: Eel Point estate, northeastern Öland
Description: Magnificent lighthouse keeper’s manor house from the middle of the nineteenth century in an isolated and private location with fine views over the Baltic, less than 300 yards from the shore and with the sky as its nearest neighbor.
Large garden above the shore with flat lawned areas-perfect for children to play-surrounded by sparse deciduous forest to the north, a bird sanctuary to the west (Offermossen), with meadows and fields running down to the sea in the south.
Buildings: Attractive manor house on two floors (no cellar), comprising in total some 280 square yards, in need of renovation and modernization. Wooden frame, joists, and façade. Tiled roof. Glass veranda facing east. Five tiled stoves in working order. Pine flooring in all rooms. Communal water supply, separate waste.
Annex (limestone outhouse) on one floor, approx. 80 square yards, water and electricity, ideal rental property after some renovation work.
Outbuilding (barn made of limestone/wood), approx. 450 square yards, more basic and in relatively poor condition.
A high voice called through the dark rooms.
The cry made him jump. Sleep was like a cave filled with strange echoes, warm and dark, and waking up quickly was painful. For a second his consciousness could not come up with a name or a place, just confused memories and thoughts. Ethel? No, not Ethel, but… Katrine, Katrine. And a pair of eyes blinking in bewilderment, seeking light in the blackness.
A second later his own name suddenly floated up from his memory: Joakim Westin. And he was lying in the double bed in Eel Point manor house on northern Öland.
Joakim was at home. He had been living here for one day. His wife, Katrine, and their two children had been living on the estate for two months, while he himself had only just arrived.
1:23. The red digits on the clock radio provided the only light in the windowless room.
The sounds that had woken Joakim could no longer be heard, but he knew they were real. He had heard muffled complaints or whimpers from someone sleeping uneasily in another part of the house.
A motionless body lay beside him in the double bed. It was Katrine; she was sleeping deeply and had crept toward the edge of the bed, taking her coverlet with her. She was lying with her back to him, but he could see the gentle contours of her body and he could feel her warmth. She had been sleeping alone in here for almost two months-Joakim had been living and working in Stockholm, coming to visit every other weekend. Neither of them had found it easy.
He stretched a hand out toward Katrine’s back, but then he heard the cry once again.
This time he recognized Livia’s high voice. It made him throw aside the cover and get out of bed.
The tiled stove in one corner of the bedroom was still radiating heat, but the wooden floor was freezing cold as he put his feet on it. They needed to change things around and insulate the bedroom floor as they had done in the kitchen and the children’s rooms, but that would have to be a project for the new year. They could get more rugs to see them through the winter. And wood. They needed to find a supply of cheap wood for the stoves, because there was no forest on the estate where they could go and cut their own.
He and Katrine needed to buy a whole lot of things for the house before the real cold weather set in-tomorrow they would have to start making lists.
Joakim held his breath and listened. Not a sound now.
His dressing gown was hanging over a chair, and he put it on quietly over his pajama trousers, stepped between two boxes they hadn’t unpacked yet, and crept out.
He immediately went the wrong way in the darkness. In their house in Stockholm he always turned right to go to the children’s rooms, but here they were to the left.
Joakim and Katrine’s bedroom was small, part of the manor house’s enormous cave system. Outside was a corridor with several cardboard boxes stacked up against one wall, and it ended in a large hall with several windows. They faced onto the paved inner courtyard, which was flanked by the two wings of the house.
The manor house at Eel Point was closed off to the land, but open toward the sea. Joakim went over to the windows in the hall and looked out toward the coast beyond the fence.
A red light was flashing down there, coming from the twin lighthouses on their little islands out at sea. The beam of the southern lighthouse swept over piles of seaweed at the water’s edge and far out into the Baltic, while the northern tower was completely dark. Katrine had told him that the northern lighthouse was never lit.
He heard the wind howling around the house and saw restless shadows rising down by the lighthouses. Waves. They always made him think of Ethel, despite the fact that it wasn’t the waves but the cold that had killed her.
It was only ten months ago.
The muted sounds in the darkness behind Joakim came again, but they were no longer whimpers. It sounded as if Livia were talking quietly to herself.
Joakim went back toward the corridor. He stepped carefully over a wide wooden threshold and into Livia’s bedroom, which had only one window and was pitch dark. A green roller blind with five pink pigs dancing happily in a circle covered the window.
“Away…” said a girl’s voice in the darkness. “Away.”
Joakim trod on a small cuddly toy on the floor next to the bed. He picked it up.
“No,” said Joakim. “Just Daddy.”
He heard the faint sound of breathing in the darkness and detected sleepy movements from the small body beneath the flowery coverlet. He leaned over the bed.
“Are you asleep?”
Livia raised her head.
Joakim tucked the cuddly toy in the bed, right beside her.
“Foreman had fallen on the floor.”
“Did he hurt himself?”
“Oh no…I don’t think he even woke up.”
She placed her arm around her favorite toy, a two-legged animal made of fabric that she had bought when they were on Gotland the previous summer. Half sheep, half man. Joakim had named the strange creature Foreman, after the boxer who had made his comeback at the age of forty-five a couple of years earlier.
He reached out and gently stroked Livia’s forehead. The skin was cool. She relaxed, her head fell back onto the pillow, then she looked up at him.
“Have you been here long, Daddy?”
“No,” said Joakim.
“There was somebody here,” she said.
“You were just dreaming.”
Livia nodded and closed her eyes. She was already on her way back to sleep.
Joakim straightened up, turned his head and saw the faint glow of the southern lighthouse again, flashing through the blind. He took a step over to the window and lifted the blind an inch or two. The window faced west and the lighthouses weren’t visible from here, but the red glow swept over the empty field behind the house.
Livia was breathing evenly again; she was fast asleep. Next morning she wouldn’t remember that he’d been there.
He peeped into the other bedroom. It was the one that had been renovated most recently; Katrine had decorated and furnished it while Joakim was in Stockholm taking care of the final move and cleaning the house.
Everything was silent in here. Gabriel, aged two and a half, was lying in his little bed over by the wall, a motionless
bundle. For the last year Gabriel had gone to bed around eight o’clock every evening, and slept almost ten hours straight through. The dream of every parent with small children.
Joakim turned away in the silence and crept slowly back along the corridor. The house creaked and knocked quietly around him, the creaks almost sounding like footsteps crossing the floor.
Katrine was still fast asleep when he got back to his own bed.
That morning the family had been visited by a quietly smiling man in his fifties. He had knocked on the kitchen door on the north side of the house. Joakim had opened it quickly, thinking it was a neighbor.
“Hi there,” the man said. “Bengt Nyberg-I’m from the local paper, Ölands-Posten.”
Nyberg was standing there on the porch steps with a camera resting on his fat belly and a notebook in his hand. Joakim had somewhat hesitantly shaken hands with the journalist.
“I heard some big moving vans had come out to Eel Point over the last few weeks,” said Nyberg, “and I thought I’d take a chance on you being at home.”
“I’m the only one who’s just moved in,” said Joakim. “The rest of the family have been living here for a while.”
“Did you move in stages?”
“I’m a teacher,” said Joakim. “I had to work until now.”
The reporter nodded.
“We do have to write about this,” he said, “as I’m sure you understand. I know we were informed last spring that Eel Point had been sold, but of course now people want to know who’s bought it…”
“We’re just an ordinary family,” said Joakim quickly. “You can write that.”
“Where are you from?”
“Like the royal family, then,” said Nyberg. He looked at Joakim. “Are you going to do what the King does, and just stay here when it’s warm and sunny?”
“No, we’re here all year round.”
Katrine had come into the hall and stood next to Joakim. He glanced at her, she gave a brief nod, and they invited the reporter in. Nyberg shambled over the threshold, taking his time.
They chose to sit in the kitchen; with its new equipment and polished wooden floor, it was the room they had done the most work on.
When they were working in there in August, Katrine and the man laying the floor had found something interesting: a little hiding place under the floorboards, a box made of flat pieces of limestone. Inside lay a silver spoon and a child’s shoe that had gone moldy. It was a house offering, the fitter had told her. It was meant to ensure many children and plenty of food for the inhabitants of the manor house.
Joakim made coffee and Nyberg settled down at the rectangular oak table. He opened his notebook once again.
“How did this all come about, then?”
“Well… we like wooden houses,” said Joakim.
“We love them,” said Katrine.
“But wasn’t that a big step… buying Eel Point and moving here from Stockholm?”
“Not such a big step,” said Katrine. “We had a house in Bromma, but we wanted to swap it for a house here. We started looking last year.”
“And why northern Öland?”
Joakim answered this time:
“Katrine is from Öland, kind of… Her family used to live here.”
Katrine glanced at him briefly and he knew what she was
thinking: if anybody was going to talk about her background, then it would be her. And she was rarely prepared to do so.
“Oh yes, whereabouts?”
“Various places,” said Katrine without looking at the reporter. “They moved about quite a bit.”
Joakim could have added that his wife was the daughter of Mirja Rambe and the granddaughter of Torun Rambe-that might have got Nyberg to write a much longer article-but he kept quiet. Katrine and her mother were barely speaking to each other.
“Me, I’m a concrete kid,” he said instead. “I grew up in an eight-story apartment block in Jakobsberg, and it was just so ugly, with all the traffic and asphalt. So I really wanted to move out to the country.”
At first Livia sat quietly on Joakim’s knee, but she soon got tired of all the chat and ran off to her room. Gabriel, who was sitting with Katrine, jumped down and followed her.
Joakim listened to the little plastic sandals, pattering off across the floor with such energy, and repeated the same refrain he’d chanted to friends and neighbors in Stockholm over the past few months:
“We know this is a fantastic place for kids too. Meadows and forests, clean air and fresh water. No colds. No cars churning out fumes… This is a good place for all of us.”
Bengt Nyberg had written these pearls of wisdom in his notebook. Then they went for a walk around the ground floor of the house, through the renovated rooms and all the areas that still had tattered wallpaper, patched-up ceilings, and dirty floors.
“The tiled stoves are great,” said Joakim, pointing. “And the wooden floors are incredibly well preserved…We just need to give them a scrub from time to time.”
His enthusiasm for the manor might have been infectious, because after a while Nyberg stopped interviewing him and started to look around with interest. He insisted on seeing the
rest of the place as well-even though Joakim would have preferred not to be reminded of how much they hadn’t yet touched.
“There isn’t actually anything else to see,” said Joakim. “Just a lot of empty rooms.”
“Just a quick look,” said Nyberg.
In the end Joakim nodded and opened the door leading to the upper floor.
Katrine and the reporter followed him up the crooked wooden staircase to an upstairs corridor. It was gloomy up here despite the fact that there was a row of windows facing the sea, but the panes were covered with pieces of chipboard that let in only narrow strips of daylight.
The howling of the wind could be heard clearly in the dark rooms.
“The air certainly circulates up here,” said Katrine with a wry smile. “The advantage is that the house has stayed dry-there’s very little damage because of damp.”
“Well, that’s a good thing…” Nyberg contemplated the buckled cork flooring, the stained and tattered wallpaper, and the veils of cobwebs hanging from the cornices. “But you do seem to have plenty left to do.”
“Yes, we know.”
“We can’t wait,” said Joakim.
“I’m sure it’ll be fantastic when it’s finished…” said Nyberg, then asked, “So what do you actually know about this house?”
“You mean its history?” said Joakim. “Not much, but the real estate agent told us some things. It was built in the middle of the nineteenth century, at the same time as the lighthouses. But there have been quite a lot of alterations… the glass veranda at the front looks as if it was added around 1910.”
Then he looked inquiringly at Katrine to see if she wanted to add anything-perhaps what it had been like when her mother and grandmother were tenants here-but she didn’t meet his eye.
“We know that the lighthouse masters and keepers lived in the house with their families and servants,” was all she said, “so there has been plenty of coming and going in these rooms.”
Nyberg nodded, looking around the dirty upper floor.
“I don’t think many people have lived here over the past twenty years,” he said. “Four or five years ago it was used for refugees, families who had fled from the wars in the Balkans. But that didn’t last long. It’s a bit of a shame it’s stood empty… It’s such a magnificent place.”
They started back down the stairs. Even the dirtiest rooms on the ground floor suddenly seemed light and warm compared with those upstairs.
“Does it have a name?” Katrine asked, looking at the reporter. “Do you know if it has a name?”
“What?” said Nyberg.
“This house,” said Katrine. “Everybody always says Eel Point, but I mean, that’s the name of the place, not the house.”
“Yes, Eel Point by Eel Shallows, where the eels gather in the summer…” said Nyberg, as if he were reciting a poem. “No, I don’t think the house itself has a name.”
“Houses often have a nickname,” said Joakim. “We called our place in Bromma the Apple House.”
“This doesn’t have a name, at least not that I’ve heard.” Nyberg stepped down from the bottom stair and added, “On the other hand, there are plenty of stories about this place.”
“I’ve heard a few… They say the wind increases off Eel Point when someone sneezes in the manor house.”
Both Katrine and Joakim laughed out loud.
“We’d better make sure we dust often, then,” said Katrine.
“And then, of course, there are some old ghost stories as well,” said Nyberg.
“Ghost stories?” said Joakim. “The agent should have told us.”
He was just about to smile and shake his head, but Katrine got there first:
“I did hear a few stories when I was over at the Carlssons’ having coffee… our neighbors. But they told me not to believe them.”
“We haven’t really got much time for ghosts,” said Joakim.
Nyberg nodded and took a few steps toward the hall.
“No, but when a house is empty for a while, people start talking,” he said. “Shall we go outside and take a few pictures while it’s still light?”
Bengt Nyberg ended his visit by walking across the grass and the stone paths in the inner courtyard and quickly inspecting both wings of the house-on one side the enormous barn, with the ground-floor walls made of limestone and the upper story of timber painted red, and across the courtyard the smaller, whitewashed outhouse.
“I assume you’re going to renovate this as well?” said Nyberg after peeping into the outhouse through a dusty window.
“Of course,” said Joakim. “We’re taking one building at a time.”
“And then you can rent it out to summer visitors!”
“Maybe. We’ve thought about opening a bed-and-breakfast, in a few years.”
“A lot of people here on the island have had the same idea,” said Nyberg.
Finally the reporter took a couple of dozen pictures of the Westin family on the yellowing grassy slope below the house.
Katrine and Joakim stood beside each other, squinting into the cold wind and the two lighthouses out at sea. Joakim straightened his back as the camera started clicking, and thought about the fact that their neighbors’ house in Stockholm had merited a spread of three double pages in the glossy monthly Beautiful Homes the previous year. The Westin family had to make do with an article in the local paper.
Gabriel was perched on Joakim’s shoulders, dressed in a green padded jacket that was slightly too big. Livia was standing between her parents, her white crocheted hat pulled well down over her forehead. She was looking suspiciously into the camera.
The manor house at Eel Point rose up behind them like a fortress made of wood and stone, silently watching.
Afterward, when Nyberg had left, the whole family went down to the shore. The wind was colder than it had been, and the sun was already low in the sky, just above the roof of the house behind them. The smell of seaweed that had been washed ashore was in the air.
Walking down to the water at Eel Point felt like arriving at the end of the world, the end of a long journey away from everyone. Joakim liked that feeling.
Northeastern Öland seemed to consist of a vast sky above a small strip of yellowish-brown land. The tiny islands looked like grass-covered reefs out in the water. The island’s flat coastline, with its deep inlets and narrow points, slipped almost imperceptibly into the water and became a shallow, even seabed of sand and mud, which gradually sank deeper, down into the Baltic Sea.
A hundred yards or so away from them, the white towers of the lighthouses rose up toward the dark blue sky.
Eel Point’s twin lighthouses. Joakim thought the islands on which they were standing looked as if they were somehow man-made, as if someone had made two piles of stone and gravel out in the water and bound them together with bigger rocks and concrete. Fifty yards to the north of them a breakwater ran out from the shore-a slightly curved jetty made of large blocks of stone, doubtless constructed in order to protect the lighthouses from the winter storms.
Livia had Foreman under her arm, and she suddenly set off toward the wide jetty leading out to the lighthouses.
“Me too! Me too!” shouted Gabriel, but Joakim held him tightly by the hand.
“We’ll go together,” he said.
The jetty split in two a dozen or so yards out into the water, like a big letter Y with two narrower arms leading out to the islands where the lighthouses stood. Katrine shouted:
“Don’t run, Livia! Be careful of the water!”
Livia stopped, pointed to the southern lighthouse, and shouted in a voice that was only just audible above the wind, “That one’s mine!”
“Mine too!” shouted Gabriel behind her.
“End of story!” shouted Livia.
That was her new favorite expression this fall, something she had learned in preschool. Katrine hurried over to her and nodded toward the northern lighthouse.
“In that case, this one’s mine!”
“Okay, then I’ll take care of the house,” said Joakim. “It’ll be as easy as pie, if you all just pitch in and help a little bit.”
“We will,” said Livia. “End of story!”
Livia laughed and nodded, but of course for Joakim it was no joke. But he was still looking forward to all the work that was waiting during the course of the winter. He and Katrine were both going to try to find a teaching post on the island, but they would renovate the manor house together in the evenings and on weekends. She had already started, after all.
He stopped in the grass by the shore and took a long look at the buildings behind them.
Isolated and private location, as it had said in the ad.
Joakim still found it difficult to get used to the size of the main house; with its white gables and red wooden walls, it rose up at the top of the sloping grassy plain. Two beautiful chimneys sat on top of the tiled roof like towers, black as soot. A warm yellow light glowed in the kitchen window and on the veranda; the rest of the house was pitch black.
So many families who had lived there, toiling away at the walls, doorways, and floors over the years-master lighthouse
keepers and lighthouse keepers and lighthouse assistants and whatever they were called. They had all left their mark on the manor house.
Remember, when you take over an old house, the house takes you over at the same time, Joakim had read in a book about renovating wooden houses. For him and Katrine this was not the case-they had had no problem leaving the house in Bromma, after all-but over the years they had met a number of families who looked after their houses like children.
“Shall we go out to the lighthouses?” asked Katrine.
“Yes!” shouted Livia. “End of story!”
“The stones could be slippery,” said Joakim.
He didn’t want Livia and Gabriel to lose their respect for the sea and go down to the water alone. Livia could swim only a few yards, and Gabriel couldn’t swim at all.
But Katrine and Livia had already set off along the stone jetty, hand in hand. Joakim picked Gabriel up, held him in the crook of his right arm, and followed them dubiously out onto the uneven blocks of stone.
They weren’t as slippery as he had thought, just rough and uneven. In some places the blocks had been eroded by the waves and had broken away from the concrete holding them together. There was only a slight wind today, but Joakim could sense the power of nature. Winter after winter of drift ice and waves and harsh storms on Eel Point-and still the lighthouses stood firm.
“How tall are they?” wondered Katrine, looking toward the towers.
“Well, I don’t have a ruler with me-but maybe sixty feet or so?” said Joakim.
Livia tipped her head back to look up at the top of her lighthouse.
“Why is there no light?”
“I expect it’ll come on when it gets dark,” said Katrine.
“Does that one never come on?” asked Joakim, leaning back to look up at the north tower.
“I don’t think so,” said Katrine. “It hasn’t done since we’ve been here.”
When they reached the point where the breakwater divided, Livia chose the left path, toward her mother’s lighthouse.
“Careful, Livia,” said Joakim, looking down into the black water below the stone track.
It might only be five or six feet deep, but he still didn’t like the shadows and the chill down there. He was a decent swimmer, but he had never been the type to leap eagerly into the waves in summer, not even on really hot days.
Katrine had reached the island and walked over to the water’s edge. She looked in both directions along the coastline. To the north, only empty beaches and clumps of trees were visible; to the south, meadows and in the distance a few small boathouses.
“Not a soul in sight,” she said. “I thought we might see a few neighboring houses, at least.”
“There are too many little islands and headlands in the way,” said Joakim. He pointed to the north shore with his free hand. “Look over there. Have you seen that?”
It was the wreck of a ship, lying on the stony strip of shore half a mile or so away-so old that all that was left was a battered hull made of sun-bleached planks of wood. Long ago the ship had drifted toward the shore in a winter storm; it had been hurled high up onto the shore, where it had remained. The wreck lay to starboard among the stones, and Joakim thought the framework sticking up looked like a giant’s rib cage.
“The wreck, yes,” said Katrine.
“Didn’t they see the beams from the lighthouses?” said Joakim.
“I think the lighthouses just don’t help sometimes… not in a storm,” said Katrine. “Livia and I went over to the wreck a few weeks ago. We were looking for some nice pieces of wood, but everything had been taken.”
The entrance to the lighthouse was a stone archway some three feet deep, leading to a sturdy door of thick steel, very rusty and with only a few traces of the original white color. There was no keyhole, just a crossbar with a rusty padlock, and when Joakim got hold of the side of the door and pulled, it didn’t move an inch.
“I saw a bunch of old keys in one of the kitchen cupboards,” he said. “We’ll have to try them out sometime.”
“Otherwise we can contact the Maritime Board,” said Katrine.
Joakim nodded and took a step away from the door. The lighthouses weren’t part of the deal, after all.
“Don’t the lighthouses belong to us, Mommy?” said Livia as they made their way back to the shore.
She sounded disappointed.
“Well, yes,” said Katrine. “Kind of. But we don’t have to look after them, do we, Kim?”
She smiled at Joakim, and he nodded.
“The house will be quite enough.”
Katrine had turned over in the double bed while Joakim was with Livia, and as he crept beneath the covers she reached out for him in her sleep. He breathed in the scent of her, and closed his eyes.
All of this, only this.
It felt as if they had drawn a line under life in the city. Stockholm had shrunk to a gray mark on the horizon, and the memories of searching for Ethel had faded away.
Then he heard the faint whimpering from Livia’s room again, and held his breath.
Her drawn-out cries echoing through the house were louder this time. Joakim breathed out with a tired sigh.
Beside him Katrine raised her head and listened.
“What?” she said groggily.
“Mom-mee?” Livia called again.
Katrine sat up. Unlike Joakim, she could go from deep sleep to wide awake in a couple of seconds.
“I’ve already tried,” said Joakim quietly. “I thought she’d gone back to sleep, but…”
Katrine got out of bed without hesitating, slid her feet into her slippers, and quickly pulled on her dressing gown.
“I’m coming, brat,” she muttered.
This wasn’t good, thought Joakim. It wasn’t good that Livia wanted to sleep with her mother beside her every night. But it was a habit that had started the previous year, when Livia had begun to have disturbed nights-perhaps because of Ethel. She found it difficult to fall asleep, and only slept calmly with Katrine lying beside her in her bed. So far they hadn’t managed to get Livia to spend a whole night on her own.
“See you, lover boy,” said Katrine, slipping out of the room.
The duties of a parent. Joakim lay there in bed; there was no longer a sound from Livia’s room. Katrine had taken over the responsibility, and he relaxed and closed his eyes. Slowly he felt sleep stealing over him once more.
All was silent in the manor house.
His life in the country had begun.
The ship inside the bottle was a little work of art, in Henrik’s opinion: a three-masted frigate with sails made out of scraps of white fabric, almost six inches long and carved from a single piece of wood. Each sail had ropes made of black thread, knotted and secured to small blocks of balsa wood. With the masts down, the ship had been carefully inserted into the old bottle using steel thread and tweezers, then pressed down into a sea of blue-colored putty. Then the masts had been raised and the sails unfurled with the help of bent sock needles. Finally the bottle had been fastened with a sealed cork.
The ship in the bottle must have taken several weeks to make, but the Serelius brothers destroyed it in a couple of seconds.
Tommy Serelius swept the bottle off the bookshelf, the glass exploding into tiny shards on the new parquet flooring of the cottage. The ship itself survived the fall, but bounced
across the floor for a couple of yards before it was stopped by little brother Freddy’s boot. He shone his flashlight on it with curiosity for a few seconds, then lifted his foot and smashed the ship to pieces with three hard stamps.
“Teamwork!” crowed Freddy.
“I hate things like that, fucking handicraft stuff,” said Tommy, scratching his cheek and kicking the remains of the ship across the floor.
Henrik, the third man in the cottage, emerged from one of the bedrooms where he had been searching for anything of value in the closets. He saw what was left of the ship and shook his head.
“Don’t smash anything else up, okay?” he said quietly.
Tommy and Freddy liked the sound of breaking glass, of splintering wood-Henrik had realized that the first night they worked together, when they broke into half a dozen closed-up cottages south of Byxelkrok. The brothers liked smashing things; on the way north Tommy had run over a black-and-white cat that was standing by the side of the road, its eyes glittering. There was a dull thud from the right-hand tire as the van drove over the cat, and the next second the brothers were laughing out loud.
Henrik never broke anything; he removed the windows carefully so they could get into the cottages. But once the brothers had clambered in, they turned into vandals. They upended cocktail cabinets and hurled glass and china to the floor. They also smashed mirrors, but hand-blown vases from Småland survived, because they could be sold.
At least they weren’t targeting the residents of the island. From the start Henrik had decided to select only houses owned by those who lived on the mainland.
Henrik wasn’t keen on the Serelius brothers, but he was stuck with them-like a couple of relatives who come to call one evening and then refuse to leave.
But Tommy and Freddy weren’t from the island, and were neither his friends nor his relatives. They were friends of Morgan Berglund.
They had rung the doorbell of Henrik’s little apartment in Borgholm at the end of September, at around ten o’clock when he was just thinking of going to bed. He had opened the door to find two men of about his own age standing outside, broad-shouldered and with more or less shaven heads. They had nodded and walked into the hallway without asking permission. They stank of sweat and oil and dirty car seats, and the stench spread through the apartment.
“Hubba bubba, Henke,” said one of them.
He was wearing big sunglasses. It should have looked comical, but this was not a person to be laughed at. He had long red marks on his cheeks and chin, as if someone had scratched him.
“How’s it goin’?”
“Okay, I guess,” said Henrik slowly. “Who are you?”
“Tommy and Freddy. The Serelius brothers. Hell, you must have heard of us, Henrik… You must know who we are?”
Tommy adjusted his glasses and scratched his cheek with long, raking strokes. Henrik realized where the marks on his face had come from-he hadn’t been in a fight, he had caused them himself.
Then the brothers had taken a quick tour of his one-bedroom apartment and slumped down on the sofa in front of the TV.
“Got any chips?” said Freddy.
He rested his boots on Henrik’s glass table. When he unbuttoned his padded jacket, his beer belly protruded in a pale blue T-shirt with the slogan SOLDIER OF FORTUNE FOREVER.
“Your pal Mogge says hi,” said big brother Tommy, removing the sunglasses. He was slightly slimmer than Freddy and was staring at Henrik with a little smile playing at the corners of his mouth and a black leather bag in his hand. “It was Mogge who thought we should come here.”
“To Siberia,” said Freddy, pulling the bowl of chips Henrik had provided toward him.
“Mogge? Morgan Berglund?”
“Sure thing,” said Tommy, sitting down on the sofa next to his brother. “You’re pals, right?”
“We were,” said Henrik. “Mogge’s moved away.”
“We know, he’s in Denmark. He was working in a casino in Copenhagen, illegally.”
“Dirty dealing,” said Freddy.
“We’ve been in Europe,” said Tommy. “For almost a year. Makes you realize how fucking small Sweden is.”
“Fucking backwater,” said Freddy.
“First of all we were in Germany-Hamburg and Düsseldorf, that was fucking brilliant. Then we went to Copenhagen, and that was pretty cool too.” Tommy looked around again. “And now we’re here.”
He nodded and put a cigarette in the corner of his mouth.
“Don’t smoke in here,” said Henrik.
He had been wondering why the Serelius brothers had left the big cities of Europe-if things had indeed been going so bloody well down there-and traveled up to the isolation of small-town Sweden. Had they quarreled with the wrong people? Probably.
“You can’t stay here,” said Henrik, looking around his one-bedroom apartment. “I haven’t got room. You can see that.”
Tommy had put the cigarette away. He didn’t appear to be listening.
“We’re Satanists,” he said. “Did we mention that?”
“Satanists?” said Henrik.
Tommy and Freddy nodded.
“You mean devil worshippers?” said Henrik with a smile.
Tommy wasn’t smiling.
“We don’t worship anyone,” he said. “Satan stands for the strength within human beings, that’s what we believe in.”
“The force,” said Freddy, finishing off the chips.
“Exactly,” said Tommy. “‘Might makes right’-that’s our motto. We take what we want. Have you heard of Aleister Crowley?”
“A great philosopher,” said Tommy. “Crowley saw life as a constant battle between the strong and the weak. Between the clever and the stupid. Where the strongest and cleverest always win.”
“Well, that’s logical,” said Henrik, who had never been religious. He had no intention of becoming religious now, either.
Tommy carried on looking around the apartment.
“When did she cut and run?” he asked.
“Your girl. The one who put up curtains and dried flowers and all that crap. You didn’t do it, did you?”
“She moved out last spring,” said Henrik.
A memory of Camilla sprang unbidden into his mind, lying reading on the sofa where the Serelius brothers were now sitting. He realized that Tommy was a bit smarter than he looked-he noticed details.
“What was her name?”
“Do you miss her?”
“Like dog shit,” he said quickly. “Anyway, like I said, you can’t stay…”
“Chill out, we’re staying in Kalmar,” said Tommy. “That’s all sorted, but we’re thinking of working here on Öland. So we need a bit of help.”
“Mogge told us what you and he used to do in the winter. He told us about the summer cottages…”
“He said you’d be happy to start up again.”
Thanks for that, Mogge, thought Henrik. They had quarreled about the division of the money before Morgan left-perhaps this was his revenge.
“That was a long time ago,” he said. “Four years… and we only did it for two winters, really.”
“And? Mogge said it went well.”
“It went okay,” said Henrik.
Virtually all the break-ins had been problem free, but a couple of times he and Mogge had been spotted by the people next door and had to make their escape over stone walls, like kids stealing apples. They had always worked out at least two escape routes in advance, one on foot and one in the car.
He went on: “Sometimes there wasn’t anything of value… but once we found a cupboard, it was really old. A seventeenth-century German cabinet, we got thirty-five thousand kronor for that in Kalmar.”
Henrik had become more animated as he was talking, almost nostalgic. He had actually had quite a talent for getting in through locked veranda doors and windows without smashing them. His grandfather had been a carpenter in Marnäs and had been equally proud of his expertise.
But he also remembered how stressful it had been, driving around northern Öland night after night. It was bitterly cold up there in the winter, both in the wind outdoors and inside the closed-up houses. And the holiday villages were empty and silent.
“Old houses are real treasure troves,” said Tommy. “So you’re in? We need you to find our way around up there.”
Henrik didn’t say anything. He was thinking that a person who has a miserable, predictable life must be miserable and predictable themselves. He didn’t want to be like that.
“So we’re agreed, then,” said Tommy. “Okay?”
“Maybe,” said Henrik.
“That sounds like a yes.”
“Hubba bubba,” said Tommy.
Henrik nodded, hesitantly.
He wanted to be exciting, to have an exciting life. Now that Camilla had moved out, the evenings were miserable and the nights were empty, but still he hesitated. It wasn’t the risk of being caught that had made Henrik give up the break-ins before, it was a different kind of fear.
“It’s dark out in the country,” he said.
“Sounds good,” said Tommy.
“It’s bloody dark,” said Henrik. “There are no streetlights in the villages, and the power in the cottages is usually switched off. You can hardly see a thing.”
“No problem,” said Tommy. “We pocketed some flashlights at a gas station yesterday.”
Henrik nodded slowly. Flashlights got rid of the darkness, of course, but only to a certain extent.
“I’ve got a boathouse we can use,” he said. “For storage, until we find the right buyer.”
“Great,” said Tommy. “Then all we have to do is find the right houses. Mogge said you know some good places.”
“Some,” said Henrik. “It goes with the job.”
“Give us the addresses, then we can check if they’re safe.”
“What are you talking about?”
“We’ll ask Aleister.”
“We usually chat with Aleister Crowley,” said Tommy, placing his bag on the table. He opened it and took out a narrow, flat box, made of dark wood. “We contact him using this.”
Henrik looked on in silence as Tommy unfolded the box and placed it on the table. Letters, words, and numbers were seared into the wood on the inside of the box. The entire alphabet was there, plus numbers from zero to ten and the words YES and NO. Then Tommy took a small glass out of his bag.
“I tried this out when I was a kid,” said Henrik. “The spirit in the glass, isn’t it?”
“Like fuck it is, this is serious.” Tommy placed the glass on the unfolded box. “This is a Ouija board.”
“A Ouija board?”
“That’s what it’s called,” said Tommy. “The wood is from the lid of an old coffin. Can you turn the lights down a little?”
Henrik smiled to himself, but went over to the light switch anyway.
All three sat around the table. Tommy placed his little finger on the glass and closed his eyes.
The room fell silent. He scratched his throat slowly and seemed to be listening for something.
“Who’s there?” he asked. “Is Aleister there?”
Nothing happened for a few seconds. Then the glass began to move beneath Tommy’s finger.
Henrik had gone out to his grandfather’s boathouse the very next evening, at twilight, to get it ready.
The little wooden hut was painted red and stood in a meadow a dozen or so yards from the shore, close to two other small cottages owned by summer visitors; no one came near them after the middle of August. You could be left in peace here.
He had inherited the boathouse from his grandfather, Algot. When he was alive, they would both go out to sea several times every summer to put out nets, then spend the night in the boathouse and get up at five to check them.
Out here on the Baltic shore he missed those days, and thought it was sad that his grandfather was no longer around. Algot had carried on with his carpentry and little bits of building after his retirement, and had seemed perfectly content with his life right up until the last heart attack, despite the fact that he had left the island only a few times.
Henrik undid the padlock and peered into the darkness
inside. Everything looked more or less as it had done when his grandfather passed away six years earlier. Nets hung along the walls, the workbench was still standing on the floor, and the iron stove was rusting away in one corner. Camilla had wanted to clear everything out and paint the inside walls white, but Henrik thought it was just fine the way it was.
He cleared away oilcans, toolboxes, and other things that were on the wooden floor and spread out a tarpaulin ready for the stolen goods. Then he went out onto the jetty on the point and breathed in the smell of seaweed and brackish salt water. To the north he could see the twin lighthouses at Eel Point rising up out at sea.
Down below the jetty was his motorboat, an open launch, and when he looked down into it he could see that the floor was covered in rainwater. He climbed down into the boat and began baling out.
As he was working he thought back over what had happened the previous evening, when he and the Serelius brothers had sat down in the kitchen and held a séance. Or whatever it might have been.
The glass had moved constantly across the board, providing answers to every question-but of course it was Tommy himself who had been moving it. He had closed his eyes, but he must have been peeping to make sure the glass ended up in the right place.
At any rate, it had turned out that the spirit of Aleister wholeheartedly supported their plans to break into summer cottages. When Tommy asked about the village of Stenvik, which Henrik had suggested, the glass had moved to YES, and when he asked if there were valuable things in the cottages up there, he had been given the same answer: YES.
Finally Tommy had asked, “Aleister, what do you think… can the three of us trust one another?”
The little glass had remained still for a few seconds. Then it had slowly moved to NO.
Tommy gave a brief, hoarse laugh.
“That’s okay,” he said, looking at Henrik. “I don’t trust anybody.”
Four days later Henrik and the Serelius brothers had made their first trip north, to the cluster of summer cottages that Henrik had selected and Aleister had approved. There were only closed-up houses there, pitch black in the darkness.
Henrik and the brothers weren’t looking for small, expensive objects when they broke open a window and got into a cottage-they knew no summer visitors were stupid enough to leave cash, designer watches, or gold necklaces behind in their cottages over the winter. But certain things were too difficult to transport home from the country when the holiday was over: televisions, music systems, bottles of spirits, boxes of cigarettes, and golf clubs. And in the outbuildings there could be chain saws, cans of gas, and electric drills.
After Tommy and Freddy had smashed the ship in the bottle and Henrik had finished muttering about it, they split up and carried on searching for treasures.
Henrik carried on into the smaller rooms. The front of the house faced the rocky coastline and the sound, and through a picture window he could see the chalk-white half-moon suspended above the water. Stenvik was one of the small empty fishing villages on the west coast of the island.
Every room he went into met him with silence, but Henrik still had the feeling that the walls and the floor were watching him. For that reason he moved carefully, without making any mess.
It was Tommy, and Henrik called back: “Where are you?”
“Here, just off the kitchen… it’s some kind of office.”
Henrik followed Tommy’s voice through the narrow
kitchen. He was standing by the wall in a windowless room, pointing with his gloved right hand.
“What do you think about this?”
He wasn’t smiling-Tommy hardly ever smiled-but he was looking up at the wall with the expression of someone who might have made a real find. A large wall clock was hanging there, made of dark wood with Roman numerals behind the glass covering the clock face.
Henrik nodded. “Yes… could be worth something. Is it old?”
“I think so,” said Tommy, opening the glass door. “If we’re lucky, it’ll be an antique. German or French.”
“It’s not ticking.”
“Probably needs winding up.” He closed the door and shouted, “Freddy!”
After a few seconds the younger brother came clomping into the kitchen.
“Give me a hand with this,” said Tommy.
Freddy had the longest arms of the three of them. He unhooked the clock and lifted it down. Then Henrik helped to carry it.
“Come on, let’s get it outside,” said Tommy.
The van was parked close to the house, in the shadows at the back.
It had kalmar pipes & welding on the sides. Tommy had bought plastic letters and stuck them on himself. There was no such welding company in Kalmar, but driving around in a company van at night looked less suspicious than some anonymous old delivery van.
“They’re opening a police station in Marnäs next week,” said Henrik as they were lifting the clock out through the veranda window.
There was almost no wind tonight, but the air was fresh and cold.
“How do you know?” said Tommy.
“It was in the paper this morning.”
He heard Freddy’s hoarse laugh in the darkness.
“Oh, well, that’s it then,” said Tommy. “You might as well ring them and rat the two of us out, then you might get a reduced sentence.”
He dropped his lower lip, showing his teeth; that was his way of smiling.
Henrik smiled back in the darkness. There were thousands of summer cottages for the police to keep an eye on all over the island, besides which they usually worked only during the day.
They placed the clock in the back of the van, alongside the collapsible exercise bike, two large vases made of polished limestone, a video player, a small outboard motor, a computer and printer, and a television with stereo speakers that were already in there.
“Shall we call it a night?” said Tommy when he had closed the back door of the van.
“Yes… I don’t think there’s anything else.”
Henrik went back to the house briefly anyway, to close the window. He picked up a couple of small pieces of shale from the ground and pushed them into the gaps in the wooden frame to hold the window in place.
“Come on,” shouted Tommy behind him.
The brothers thought it was a waste of time, closing the place up after a break-in. But Henrik knew it could be months before anyone came to the cottage, and with the window open the rain and snow would destroy the décor.
Tommy started the engine as Henrik climbed into the passenger seat. Then he lifted off a section of the door panel and reached inside. Wrapped in small pieces of paper towels was ice-crystal meth.
“Want another?” said Tommy.
“No. I’ve had enough.”
The brothers had brought the ice with them from the Continent, both to sell and for personal use. The crystals were like a kick up the backside, but if Henrik took more than one hit per night, he started quivering like a flagpole, and found it difficult to think logically. The thoughts thudded around in his head, and he couldn’t get to sleep.
He wasn’t a junkie, after all-but nor was he boring. One hit was fine.
Tommy and Freddy didn’t seem to have the same problem, or else they were planning to stay awake all night when they got back to Kalmar. They stuffed the crystals in their mouths, paper and all, and washed the whole lot down with water from a plastic bottle on the back seat. Then Tommy put his foot down. He swung the van around the house and out onto the empty village road.
Henrik looked at his watch-it was almost twelve-thirty.
“Okay, let’s go to the boathouse,” he said.
Up by the main highway Tommy stopped obediently at the stop sign, despite the fact that the road was completely clear, then turned south.
“Turn off here,” said Henrik after ten minutes, when the sign for Enslunda appeared.
There were no other cars or people around. The gravel track ended at the boathouses, and Tommy backed the van up as close as possible.
It was as dark as a cave down here by the sea, but up in the north the lighthouse at Eel Point was flashing.
Henrik opened the van door and heard the rushing of the waves. The sound drifted in from the coal-black sea. It made him think of his grandfather. He had actually died here, six years ago. Algot had been eighty-five years old and suffering from heart disease, but he had still crawled out of bed and taken a cab out here one windy winter’s day. The driver had dropped him off on the road, and soon after that he must have had a major heart attack. But Algot had managed to
get to his boathouse, and he had been found dead just by the door.
“I’ve got an idea,” said Tommy as they were unloading the stolen goods by the beam of the flashlights. “A suggestion. Listen up and tell me what you think.”
Tommy didn’t reply. He just reached into the van and pulled something out. It looked like a large black woolen cap.
“We found this in Copenhagen,” he said.
Then he held the black fabric up to the flashlight, and Henrik could see that it wasn’t a cap. It was the kind of hood robbers wear, a balaclava, with holes for the eyes and the mouth.
“My suggestion is that we put these on next time,” said Tommy, “and move on from the summer cottages.”
“Move on? Move on to what?”
“Houses that aren’t empty.”
There was silence for a few moments in the shadows by the shore.
“Sure,” said Freddy.
Henrik looked at the hood without saying anything. He was thinking.
“I know… the risks increase,” said Tommy. “But so do the gains. We’ll never find cash or jewelry in the summer cottages… only in houses where people live all year round.” He dropped the hood back in the van and went on: “Of course we need to check with Aleister that everything’s okay. And we need to choose safe houses that are a bit out of the way, with no alarms.”
“And no dogs,” said Freddy.
“Correct. No bloody dogs either. And nobody will recognize us with the hoods on,” said Tommy, looking at Henrik. “So what do you think, then?”
“I don’t know.”
It wasn’t really about the money-Henrik had a good
trade these days-it was mostly the excitement he was after. It chased away the tedium of everyday life.
“Freddy and I will go solo, then,” said Tommy. “It’ll bring in more money, so that’s no problem.”
Henrik shook his head quickly. There might not be many more outings with Tommy and Freddy, but he wanted to decide for himself when to stop.
He thought about the ship in the bottle, smashed to pieces on the floor earlier that evening, and said, “I’m in… if we take it easy. And nobody gets hurt.”
“Who would we hurt?” said Tommy.
“The house owners.”
“They’ll be asleep, for fuck’s sake… and if anybody wakes up we’ll just speak English. Then they’ll think we’re foreigners.”
Henrik nodded, not completely convinced. He pulled the tarpaulin over the stolen items and fastened the padlock on the boathouse door.
They jumped into the van and set off south across the island, back toward Borgholm.
After twenty minutes they were in town, where rows of streetlamps drove away the October darkness. But the sidewalks were just as empty as the country roads. Tommy slowed down and pulled in by the apartment block where Henrik lived.
“Good,” he said. “In a week, then? Tuesday night next week?”
“Sure… but I’ll probably go out there before then.”
“You like living out here in the middle of nowhere?”
“Okay,” said Tommy, “but don’t start trying to do any deals of your own with the stuff. We’ll find a buyer in Kalmar.”
“Fine,” said Henrik, closing the door of the van.
He walked toward the dark doorway and looked at his
watch. Half past one. It was pretty early despite everything, and he would be able to sleep in his lonely bed for five hours before the alarm woke him for his ordinary job.
He thought about all the houses on the island where people lay sleeping. Settled.
He’d get out if anything happened. If anyone woke up when they broke in, he’d just get out of there. The brothers and their fucking spirit in the glass could fend for themselves.
Tilda Davidsson was sitting with her bag containing the tape recorder in a corridor at the residential home for the elderly in Marnäs, outside the room of her relative Gerlof Davidsson. She wasn’t alone; on a sofa further down the corridor two small white-haired ladies had sat down, perhaps waiting for afternoon coffee.
The women were talking nonstop, and Tilda found herself listening to their quiet conversation.
It was conducted in a discontented, troubled tone, like a long series of drawn-out sighs.
“They’re always on the move, flying all over the place,” said the woman closest to Tilda. “One trip abroad after another. The further away, the better.”
“You’re absolutely right, they certainly don’t begrudge themselves anything these days,” said the other woman, “indeed they don’t…”
“And the money they spend… when they’re buying
things for themselves,” said the first one. “I rang my youngest daughter last week and she told me she and her husband were buying another new car. ‘But you’ve got a lovely car,’ I said. ‘Yes, but everybody else in our street has changed their car this year,’ she said.”
“That’s all they do, buy, buy, buy, all the time.”
“That’s right. And they don’t keep in touch, either.”
“No they don’t…My son never rings, not even on my birthday. It’s always me who rings him, and then he never has time to chat. He’s always on his way somewhere, or there’s something he wants to watch on TV.”
“And that’s another thing-they’re always buying television sets, and they have to be the size of a house these days…”
“And new refrigerators.”
Tilda didn’t get to hear any more, because the door to Gerlof’s room opened.
Gerlof’s long back was slightly bent and his legs were shaking just a little-but he was smiling at Tilda like an old man without a care in the world, and she thought he looked more alert today than when she had seen him the previous winter.
Gerlof, who was born in 1915, had celebrated his eightieth birthday in the summer cottage down in Stenvik. Both his daughters had been there, his eldest daughter, Lena, with her husband and children, and her younger sister, Julia, with her new husband and his three children. That day Gerlof’s rheumatism had meant that he had to sit in the same armchair all afternoon. But now he was standing in the doorway leaning on his stick, wearing a waistcoat and dark gray gabardine trousers.
“Okay, the weather forecast has finished,” he said quietly.
Tilda got up. She had had to wait before going into Gerlof’s room, because he had to listen to the weather forecast.
Tilda didn’t really understand why it was so important-he was hardly likely to be going out in this cold-but presumably keeping an eye on the wind and the weather was a routine left over from his days as captain of a cargo ship on the Baltic.
“Come in, come in.”
He shook hands with her just inside the door-Gerlof wasn’t the kind of person who hugged people. Tilda had never even seen him pat anyone on the shoulder.
His hand was firm as it grasped hers. Gerlof had gone to sea as a teenager, and despite the fact that he had come ashore twenty-five years ago, the calluses were still there from all the ropes he’d hauled, all the boxes of cargo he’d lifted, and the chains that had torn the skin from his fingers.
“So what’s the weather got in store, then?” she asked.
“Don’t ask.” Gerlof sighed and sat down on one of the chairs by his small coffee table, his legs stiff. “The radio station has changed the time when the forecast starts yet again, so I missed the local temperatures. But in Norrland it’s going to get colder, so I should imagine it will down here too.” He cast a suspicious glance at the barometer next to the bookcase, then looked out of the window toward the bare trees, and added, “It’s going to be a hard winter this year, a cold, early winter. You can see that by the way the stars shine so brightly at night, especially the Big Dipper. And by the summer.”
“A wet summer means a hard winter,” said Gerlof. “Everybody knows that.”
“I didn’t,” said Tilda. “But will it make any difference to us?”
“It certainly will. A long, hard winter influences just about everything. The shipping on the Baltic, for example. The ice delays the ships and the profits fall.”
Tilda moved into the room and was confronted by all the memories of Gerlof’s time at sea. On the walls were
black-and-white pictures of his ships, oiled nameplates, and framed ships’ certificates. There were also small photographs of his late parents and his wife.
Time stood still in here, thought Tilda.
She sat down opposite Gerlof and placed the tape recorder on the table between them. Then she plugged in the flat table microphone.
Gerlof gave the recording equipment the same look as the barometer. The tape recorder wasn’t very big, but Tilda could see his eyes flicking back and forth between it and her.
“Are we just going to… talk?” he said. “About my brother?”
“Among other things,” said Tilda. “That’s pretty straightforward, isn’t it?”
“Well, to preserve the memories and stories… before they disappear,” said Tilda, and added quickly, “Of course you’re going to be around for years yet, Gerlof, that’s not what I mean. I just want to record them to be on the safe side. My dad didn’t tell me much about Grandfather before he died, you know.”
Gerlof nodded. “We can talk. But when something’s being recorded, you have to be careful what you say.”
“There’s no problem,” said Tilda. “You can always record over a cassette tape.”
Gerlof had agreed to the recording almost without thinking when she had called him in August and said she was moving to Marnäs, but it still seemed to be making him a bit tense.
“Is it on?” he said quietly. “Is the tape running?”
“No, not yet,” said Tilda. “I’ll tell you when.”
She pressed down the Record button, saw that the tape was running, and nodded encouragingly at Gerlof.
“Right… we’ve started.” Tilda straightened up, and it seemed to her that her voice was more tense and formal than usual as she went on: “This is Tilda Davidsson, and I am in
Marnäs with my grandfather Ragnar’s brother Gerlof, to talk about our family… and about my grandfather here in Marnäs.”
Gerlof leaned forward a little stiffly toward the microphone and corrected her in a clear voice: “My brother Ragnar did not live in Marnäs. He lived on the coast outside Rörby, south of Marnäs.”
“Thank you, Gerlof… and what are your memories of Ragnar?”
Gerlof hesitated for a few seconds.
“There are a lot of good memories,” he said eventually. “We grew up together in Stenvik in the twenties, but then of course we chose completely different professions… he bought a little cottage and became a farmer and a fisherman, and I moved down to Borgholm and got married. And bought my first cargo ship.”
“How often did you see each other?”
“Well, whenever I was home from sea, a couple of times a year. Around Christmas and sometime in the summer. Ragnar usually came down to us in town.”
“Were there celebrations then?”
“Yes, especially at Christmas.”
“What was it like?”
“Crowded but good fun. Lots of food. Herring and potatoes and ham and pig’s trotters and dumplings. And of course Ragnar always brought plenty of eel with him, both smoked and pickled, and lots of cod soaked in lye…”
The more Gerlof talked, the more he relaxed. And so did Tilda.
They carried on talking for another half hour or so. But after a long story about a windmill fire in Stenvik, Gerlof raised a hand and waved feebly. Tilda realized he was tired, and quickly switched off the tape recorder.
“Fantastic,” she said. “It’s amazing how much you remember, Gerlof.”
“The old family stories are still in my head, I’ve heard
them so many times. Telling stories like this is good for the memory.” He looked at the tape recorder. “Do you think it got anything?”
She rewound the tape and pressed Play. Gerlof’s recorded voice was quiet and slightly grumpy and repetitive, but it could be heard clearly.
“Good,” he said. “That’ll be something for those researchers into ordinary people’s lives to listen to.”
“It’s mostly for me,” said Tilda. “I wasn’t even born when Grandfather died, and Dad was no good at telling stories about the family. So I’m curious.”
“That comes with the years, as you acquire more and more of a past to look back on,” said Gerlof. “You start to get interested in where you came from, I’ve noticed that with my daughters too…How old are you now?”
“And you’re going to be working here on Öland?”
“I am. I’ve finished all my training.”
“How long for?”
“We’ll see. Until next summer, at any rate.”
“That’s nice. It’s always good when young people come here and find work. And you’re living here in Marnäs?”
“I’ve got a one-bedroom place just by the square. You can see south along the coast…I can almost see Grandfather’s cottage.”
“It’s owned by another family now,” said Gerlof, “but we can go down there and take a look at it. And at my cottage in Stenvik, of course.”
Tilda left the Marnäs home just after half past four, with the tape recorder in her rucksack.
When she had fastened her jacket and set off on the road toward the small center of Marnäs, a young lad drove past her on a pale blue puttering scooter heading in the opposite
direction. She shook her head at him to show what she thought of scooters driving fast, but she didn’t catch his eye. Twenty seconds later he was long gone.
Once upon a time Tilda had thought that fifteen-year-old boys on scooters were the coolest thing in the world. Nowadays they were more like mosquitoes, she thought-small and irritating.
She adjusted her rucksack and carried on toward Marnäs. She was intending to call in at work for a while, even though she didn’t officially start until the following day, and then go back to her little apartment and carry on unpacking. And ring Martin.
The puttering of the scooter behind her hadn’t completely died out, and now it was getting louder again. The young rider had turned around somewhere over by the church and was on his way back into town.
This time he had to pass Tilda on the sidewalk. He slowed down slightly, but revved the engine menacingly and tried to swing past her. She looked him in the eye and positioned herself directly in his way. The scooter stopped.
“What?” yelled the boy over the noise of the engine.
“You’re not allowed to ride a scooter on the sidewalk,” said Tilda just as loudly. “It’s illegal.”
“Yeah, right.” The boy nodded. “But you can drive faster along here.”
“You can also run over someone.”
“Whatever,” said the boy, giving her a bored look. “Are you going to call the cops?”
Tilda shook her head. “No, I’m not, because-”
“There aren’t any cops here anymore.” The boy twisted the accelerator on the handle of the scooter. “They shut the cop shop two years ago. There are no cops anywhere in the north of Öland.”
Tilda was tired of trying to shout over the puttering engine. She leaned quickly forward and pulled the cable out of the ignition. The scooter immediately fell silent.
“There are now,” she said, quietly and calmly. “I’m a cop and I’m here.”
“I start today.”
The boy stared at her. Tilda took her wallet out of her jacket pocket, opened it up, and showed him her ID. He looked at it for a long time, then he looked back at her with a respectful expression.
People always looked differently at someone when they knew they were a police officer. When Tilda was in uniform, she even looked at herself differently.
Tilda got out her notebook and wrote down his name.
“This is just a warning, but next time it’ll be a fine,” she said. “Your scooter has been modified. Have you bored out the cylinder?”
“Then you’d better get off and walk home with it,” said Tilda. “Then you can sort out the engine so that it’s legal.”
Stefan climbed off.
They walked in silence side by side toward the square in Marnäs.
“Tell your pals the cops are back in Marnäs,” said Tilda. “The next modified scooter I see will be impounded, and there’ll be a fine.”
Stefan nodded again. Now he’d been caught he seemed to regard it as something of a coup.
“You got a gun?” he asked as they arrived in town.
“Yes,” said Tilda. “Under lock and key.”
“A Sig Sauer.”
“Have you shot anybody with it?”
“No,” said Tilda. “And I’m not intending to use it here.”
Stefan looked disappointed.
She had agreed with Martin that she would call him around six, before he went home from work. Before that she had time to take a look at her future workplace.
The new police station in Marnäs was on a side street a couple of blocks from the square, the police shield above the door still wrapped in white plastic.
Tilda took the station keys out of her pocket. She had collected them the previous day down at the police station in Borgholm, but when she got to the front door it was already unlocked. She could hear men’s voices inside.
The station consisted of just one room, with no reception area. Tilda vaguely remembered that there used to be a candy store here when she visited Marnäs as a child. The walls were bare, there were no curtains, and no rugs on the wooden floor.
Two burly middle-aged men were standing inside, wearing jackets and outdoor shoes. One of them was in the dark blue police uniform, the other in civilian clothes with a green padded jacket. They fell silent and quickly turned toward Tilda, as if she had interrupted them in the middle of an inappropriate joke.
Tilda had met one of them before, the one in civilian clothes-Inspector Göte Holmblad, who was in charge of the local police. He had short gray hair and a permanent smile playing around the corners of his mouth, and he seemed to recognize her.
“Hi there,” he said. “Welcome to the new district.”
“Thank you.” She shook hands with her boss and turned to the other man, who had thinner black hair, bushy eyebrows, and was in his fifties. “Tilda Davidsson.”
“Hans Majner.” His handshake was firm, dry, and brief. “I guess the two of us will be working together up here.”
He didn’t sound completely convinced that this would work out well, thought Tilda. She opened her mouth to say something in agreement, but Majner carried straight on:
“Of course I won’t be around too much to start with. I’ll look in now and again, but I’ll be working mostly from Borgholm. I’m keeping my desk there.”
He smiled at the local police chief.
“Right,” said Tilda, suddenly realizing that she was going to be more alone as a police officer on northern Öland than she had thought. “Are you working on a particular project?”
“You could say that,” said Majner, looking out of the window at the street, as if he could see something suspicious out there. “Drugs, of course. That kind of crap comes onto the island, just like everywhere else.”
“This is your desk, Tilda,” said Holmblad from over by the window. “We’ll be getting computers installed, of course, fax machines… and a police radio unit over here. For the time being, you’ll just have to manage with the telephone.”
“In any case, you’re not going to be sitting around in the office much; quite the opposite, in fact,” said Holmblad. “That’s the idea of the local policing reforms: you need to be out there, a visible presence on the streets. The focus is traffic offenses, criminal damage, petty theft, and break-ins. The less complex investigations. And youth crime, of course.”
“Suits me,” said Tilda. “I stopped a modified scooter on the way here.”
“Good, good.” Her boss nodded. “So you’ve shown that there’s a police presence here again. And next week is the official opening ceremony. The press have been invited. Newspapers, local radio… You’ll be available then?”
“Good, good. And I expect your work here will be… well, I know you’ve just come from Växjö, and here on the island you’re bound to be working more independently. For
better or worse. More freedom to organize your working day as you wish, but also more responsibility… I mean, it takes half an hour to get here from Borgholm, and the station there isn’t manned all the time. So if anything happens, it could take a while before you get any help.”
Tilda nodded. “At the police training academy we often practiced situations where backup was delayed. My tutors were very keen on-”
Majner snorted over by his desk. “The tutors at the training academy haven’t got a clue about the reality of the situation,” he said. “It’s a long time since they were out on the job.”
“They were very competent in Växjö,” said Tilda quickly.
This was like sitting right at the back in the police van as a new recruit-you were expected to keep your mouth shut and let the older ones do the talking. Tilda had hated it.
Holmblad looked at her and said, “All I’m saying is that it’s important for you to bear in mind the long distances here on the island before you go into a problematic situation alone.”
She nodded. “I hope I’ll be able to deal with any problems that arise.”
The police chief opened his mouth again, possibly to continue his lecture-but at that moment the telephone on the wall rang.
“I’ll get that,” he said, striding over to the desk. “It might be from Kalmar.”
He picked up the phone.
“Marnäs police station, Holmblad.”
Then he listened.
“Where?” he said.
He was silent again.
“Right,” he said eventually. “We’d better get out there.”
He put the phone down.
“That was Borgholm. The emergency number has had a call about an accidental death on northern Öland.”
Majner got up from his empty desk. “Local?”
“By the lighthouses off Eel Point,” said Holmblad. “Anyone know where that is?”
“Eel Point is south of here,” said Majner. “Four or five miles, maybe.”
“Okay, we need to take the car,” said the chief of police. “The ambulance is already on its way… evidently it’s an accidental drowning.”
Once the two lighthouses had been built, there was a sense of security around Eel Point, for both ships and people. At least that’s what the men who built them believed, they believed that life on the coast was safe and secure for all time. The women knew this was not always the case.
Death was closer in those days, it came into the houses.
In the hayloft of the old barn there is a woman’s name, hastily carved into the wall: BELOVED CAROLINA 1868. Carolina has been dead for more than a hundred and twenty years, but she has whispered to me through the wall about what could happen at Eel Point-in what is sometimes referred to as the good old days.
– MIRJA RAMBE
The manor house is large, so large. Kerstin goes from room to room, searching for Carolina, but there are so many places to look. Too many places on Eel Point, too many rooms in the house.
And the blizzard is on its way, it feels like a weight in the air outside, and Kerstin knows there isn’t much time.
The manor house is solidly built and will not suffer in the storm, but the question is how the people will be affected. A blizzard makes everyone gather around the stoves like lost birds, waiting for it to pass.
A difficult summer with poor harvests on the island has been followed by a harsh winter. It is the first week in February, and so bitterly cold on the coast that no one goes outside unless they have to. But the lighthouse keepers and the ironworkers still have to do their shifts over in the towers, and today every fit man except Karlsson, the master lighthouse
keeper, is out on the point getting the lighthouses ready for the snowstorm.
The women have remained in the house, but Carolina is nowhere to be found. Kerstin has searched every room on both floors, and has been up among the beams in the attic. She cannot talk to any of the other maids or the wives of the lighthouse keepers, because they are not aware of Carolina’s condition. They may have their suspicions, but they do not know for certain.
Carolina is eighteen, two years younger than Kerstin. They are both housemaids working for Sven Karlsson, the master lighthouse keeper. Kerstin regards herself as the one who thinks things through and is more careful. Carolina is more lively and more trusting-in some ways she is just as adventurous as Kerstin’s older sister Fina, who went to America last year-and that means she sometimes has problems. Recently Carolina’s troubles have increased, and she has told only Kerstin about them.
If Carolina has left the manor and gone out into the forest or off toward the peat bog, Kerstin will not be able to find her. Carolina knew there was a blizzard on the way-is she still so desperate?
Kerstin goes outside. In the snow-covered inner courtyard the wind comes sweeping down from the sky, whirling between the buildings, unable to make its escape. The blizzard is approaching; this is just a premonition.
She hears a scream that quickly falls silent. That wasn’t the wind.
It was a woman screaming.
The wind tears at Kerstin’s kerchief and pinafore, making her lean forward. She forces open the door of the barn and steps inside.
The cows moo and move uneasily as she searches among them. Nothing. Then she climbs the steep staircase up to the big hayloft. The air is freezing cold up here.
Something is moving over by one of the walls, below
the big mound of hay. Faint movements in the dust and the shadows.
It is Carolina. She is lying on the hay-covered floor, her legs immobile beneath a dirty blanket. Her breathing is weak and wheezing as Kerstin comes closer; her expression is one of shame.
“Kerstin… I think it just happened,” she says. “I think it came out.”
Kerstin walks over to the blanket, full of foreboding, and kneels down.
“Is there anything there?” whispers Carolina. “Or is it just blood?”
The blanket over Carolina’s knees is sticky and wet. But Kerstin lifts one corner and nods.
“Yes,” she says, “it’s come out.”
“Is it alive?”
“No… it’s not… complete.”
Kerstin leans over her friend’s pale face.
“How are you feeling?”
Carolina’s eyes are flickering all over the place.
“It died without being baptized,” she mumbles. “We have to… we have to bury it in consecrated ground so that it won’t walk again… It will be a lost soul if we don’t bury it.”
“We can’t,” says Kerstin. “The blizzard is here… we’ll die if we go out on the road.”
“We have to hide it,” whispers Carolina, struggling to breathe. “They’ll think I’ve been whoring… that I tried to get rid of it.”
“It doesn’t matter what they think.” Kerstin places her hand on Carolina’s burning forehead and says quietly, “I’ve had another letter from my sister. She wants me to go to America, to Chicago.”
Carolina doesn’t seem to be listening any longer, she is just panting faintly, but Kerstin goes on anyway:
“I’m going to go across the Atlantic to New York, then travel on from there. She’s even deposited the money for the
ticket in Gothenburg.” She leans closer. “And you can come with me, Carolina. Would you like to do that?”
Carolina does not reply. She is no longer struggling to breathe. The air is simply seeping out of her, barely audible.
In the end she is lying there motionless in the hay, her eyes wide open. Everything is silent in the barn.
“I’ll be back soon,” whispers Kerstin, her voice full of tears.
She pushes the thing lying in the hay into the blanket, then folds it over several times to hide the marks of the blood and the birth fluid. Then she stands up and takes the bundle in her arms.
She goes out into the courtyard, where the wind is still increasing in strength, and battles her way back to the main house, pressed against the stone wall of the barn. She goes straight to her little room, packs her few possessions and Carolina’s, then puts on layer after layer of clothes, ready for the difficult journey that awaits her when the blizzard has abated.
Then Kerstin walks without hesitation to the large drawing room, where oil lamps and the tiled stove spread warmth and light through the winter darkness. Master lighthouse keeper Sven Karlsson is sitting in an armchair by the table in the center of the room, his black uniform straining at the seams over his belly.
As a servant of the crown, Karlsson is one of the privileged members of the parish. He has almost half the rooms in the manor house at his disposal, and has his own pew in the church over in Rörby. Beside him his wife, Anna, is enthroned on a fine chair. A few maids are hovering in the background, waiting for the blizzard to pass, and in a dark corner sits Old Sara, who came from the poorhouse in Rörby after the master lighthouse keeper put in the lowest bid at the auction to establish who would take care of her.
“Where have you been?” says Anna when she sees Kerstin.
Her voice is always loud and sharp, but now it is shriller than usual in order to be heard above the howling wind.
Kerstin curtsies, positions herself in silence in front of the table, and waits until everyone’s eyes are on her. She thinks about her older sister over in America.
Then she places the bundle she has brought with her on the table, right in front of Sven Karlsson.
“Good evening, sir,” says Kerstin loudly, unfolding the blanket. “I have something here… something you appear to have lost.”
Joakim’s third morning in the manor house at Eel Point was the beginning of his last completely happy day for many years-perhaps ever.
Unfortunately, he was too stressed to register how good he felt.
He and Katrine had had a late night. Once the children had gone to sleep, they had walked through the south-facing rooms on the ground floor, pondering how their different personalities could best be brought out in their choice of colors. White would of course be the base color throughout the whole of the ground floor, both on the walls and ceiling, while the wooden details like cornices and doorframes could vary from room to room.
They had gone to bed at half past eleven. The house had been silent then, but a couple of hours later Livia had started calling out again. Katrine had merely sighed and got out of bed without a word.
The whole family got up just after six. The horizon in the east was still pitch black.
The great winter darkness was drawing closer, Joakim realized. Only two months to go until Christmas.
The family gathered at half past six in the kitchen. Joakim wanted to make a quick getaway to Stockholm, and had finished his cup of tea almost before Katrine and the children had sat down. As he placed his cup in the dishwasher, he saw an orange strip of light from the sun, which was still hidden by the sea, and higher up in the sky the V-shaped formation of a flock of birds, bobbing slightly as they flew out over the Baltic.
Geese or cranes? It was still too dark to see them clearly, and he wasn’t very good at identifying birds in flight.
“Can you see those birds out there?” he said over his shoulder. “They’re doing just what we’ve done… moving south.”
Nobody answered. Katrine and Livia were munching their sandwiches; Gabriel was drinking concentrated baby rice out of his bottle.
The two lighthouses down by the water rose up toward the sky like two fairy-tale castles, the south tower regularly flashing its red glow. From the panes of glass at the top of the north tower came a fainter white light that didn’t flash.
This was slightly odd, because the northern lighthouse hadn’t shown a light before. Joakim leaned closer to the window. The white glow might have been a reflection of the sunrise, but it appeared to be coming from inside the tower.
“Are there more birds moving south, Daddy?” said Livia behind him.
Joakim stopped looking at the lighthouses. He went back to the breakfast table to clean up.
The migrating birds had a long journey ahead of them, just like Joakim. He would be driving some two hundred and seventy miles today, to pick up the last of their possessions
from the house in Bromma. He would stay the night with his mother, Ingrid, in Jakobsberg, then drive back to Öland the next day.
This was his last trip to the capital, at least for this year.
Gabriel seemed bright and cheerful, but Livia looked as if she was in a bad mood. She had got up with Katrine’s help, but was still sleepy and quiet. She was holding her sandwich in one hand, elbows on the table, staring down into her glass of milk.
“Eat up now, Livia.”
She certainly wasn’t a morning person, but when she got to nursery school she usually cheered up. She had changed to an older playgroup the previous week, and seemed happy there.
“So what are you going to do at nursery school today?”
“It’s not a nursery school, Daddy.” She looked up at him with a truculent expression. “Gabriel goes to nursery school. I go to school.”
“Preschool,” said Joakim. “Isn’t that right?”
“School,” said Livia.
“Okay… so what are you going to do today?”
“Don’t know,” said Livia, staring down at the table again.
“Are you going to play with a new friend?”
“Okay, but drink up your milk now. We’re off into Marnäs soon… to school.”
By twenty past seven the sun was on its way up over the horizon. Its yellow beams were feeling their way cautiously across the calm sea, without giving any warmth. It would be a sunny but cold day-the thermometer on the wall of the house was showing plus three degrees.
Joakim was out in the courtyard scraping frost from the
windows of the Volvo. Then he opened the back door for the children.
Livia settled herself in her child seat with Foreman in her arms. Joakim fastened Gabriel into the smaller seat beside her. Then he got into the driver’s seat.
“Wasn’t Mom going to wave us off?” he asked.
“She’s gone to the bathroom,” said Livia. “She’s gone to do a big one. She likes to sit there for a while when she does a big one.”
Livia had quickly cheered up after breakfast and become more talkative. Once she got to playgroup, she would have tons of energy.
Joakim leaned back in his seat and looked at Livia’s little red two-wheeler and Gabriel’s three-wheeler, standing out in the courtyard. He noticed the bikes weren’t locked. This wasn’t the big city.
Katrine came out a couple of minutes later, turned off the light in the hallway, and locked the door behind her. She was wearing a bright red winter jacket with a hood and blue sweatpants. In Stockholm she had usually dressed in black, but here on Öland she had begun to go for roomier and slightly more colorful clothes.
She waved to them and gave the red-painted wooden wall next to the door a friendly pat. Lack of sleep had smudged dark shadows beneath her eyes, but she still smiled toward the car.
Their manor house. Joakim waved at Katrine and smiled back.
“Okay, let’s go,” said Livia from the back seat.
“Go! Go!” yelled Gabriel, waving goodbye to the house.
Joakim started the engine and the headlights came on, illuminating the house. A thin layer of glittering frost covered the ground, an early sign of winter. He would soon have to change over to studded tires.
Livia quickly pulled on her headphones so that she could listen to the adventures of Bamse the bear-she had been
given a tape recorder of her own, and had quickly learned how the buttons worked. When there were songs on the tape, she let Gabriel listen too.
The route to the main coastal highway was a gravel-covered track running between a small, dense deciduous wood and a ditch running along the bottom of an old stone wall. The track was narrow and twisting, and Joakim kept his speed down, gripping the wheel firmly. He hadn’t gotten to know all the bends yet.
Out by the main highway their new metal mailbox was hanging on a post. Joakim slowed down and looked to see if there was any sign of lights from other cars. But everything was dark and silent in both directions. Just as deserted as the opposite side of the road, where a yellowish-brown bog extended into the distance.
They didn’t meet any other cars on their way into Marnäs through the little village of Rörby, and there weren’t many people out and about when they drove into town. A fish van drove past them and a couple of schoolchildren aged about ten were running toward the school, their rucksacks bumping on their backs.
Joakim turned onto the main street and headed for the empty square. A few hundred yards further on was the Marnäs school, and next door, in an enclosed yard with slides and sandboxes and a few trees, was Livia and Gabriel’s preschool. It was a low wooden building with a warm yellow light shining from the big windows.
Several parents were dropping off their children on the sidewalk in front of the school, and Joakim stopped at the end of the row of vehicles without switching off the engine.
Some of the other parents smiled and nodded at him-after the previous day’s article in Ölands-Posten many people in Marnäs now knew who he was.
“Watch out for the cars,” said Joakim. “Stay on the sidewalk.”
“Bye!” said Livia, opening the car door and maneuvering
herself out of the child seat. It wasn’t a protracted farewell;
she was used to him being away.
Gabriel said nothing; when Joakim helped him out of the seat, he just charged away.
“Bye then!” Joakim called after them. “See you tomorrow!” By the time the doors closed, Livia was already several yards away, with Gabriel right behind her. Joakim put the car in gear and swung across the road, back toward Eel Point.
Joakim parked next to Katrine’s car in front of the house and got out to pick up his overnight bag and say goodbye.
“Hello?” he called out in the porch. “Katrine?”
No reply. The house was completely silent.
He went into the bedroom, picked up his case, and went outside again.
Out on the gravel he stopped:
There was silence for a few moments, then he heard a muted scraping from the inner courtyard.
Joakim turned his head. It was the sound of the big black wooden barn door being opened. Katrine stepped out of the darkness and waved to him.
He waved back and she came over.
“What were you doing?” he asked.
“Nothing,” she said. “Are you leaving now?”
Katrine leaned over and quickly pressed her mouth against his-a warm kiss in the cold. He breathed in the scent of her skin and her hair for one last time.
“Say hi to Stockholm from me,” she said, giving him a long look. “When you get home, I’ll tell you about the loft.”
“The loft?” said Joakim.
“The hayloft in the barn,” said Katrine.
“What about it?”
“I’ll show you tomorrow,” she said. He looked at her.
“Okay…I’ll call you from Mom’s tonight.” He opened the car door. “Don’t forget to pick up our little lambs.”
At twenty past eight he pulled into the gas station by the turning for Borgholm to pick up the rented trailer. It was already booked and paid for, so all he had to do was hook it up and set off.
The traffic was heavier after Borgholm, and Joakim ended up in the middle of a long line of cars-most were presumably commuters who lived on the island but worked in Kalmar, on the mainland. They maintained a leisurely country speed.
The road curved to the west, and when the ground disappeared beneath it, he was up on the bridge. He liked driving across it, over the span between island and mainland, high above the water in the sound. This morning it was difficult to see the surface of the water down below; it was still too dark. By the time he came off the bridge and joined the coast road toward Stockholm, the sun was rising higher above the Baltic. Joakim could feel its warmth through the side window.
He switched on a radio station playing rock music, put his foot down and headed north at speed, past the small communities along the coast. It was a winding road, beautiful even on a cold, overcast day. It passed through dense pine forests and airy groves of deciduous trees by the water, past inlets and streams that headed out to sea and disappeared.
The road continued to curve gradually westward, and left the coast to head in toward Norrköping. Just outside the town Joakim stopped for a couple of sandwiches in an empty hotel restaurant. He had a choice of seven different bottled mineral waters in the chilled display case-Swedish, Norwegian, Italian,
and French; he realized he was back in civilization, but chose water from the faucet.
After he’d eaten, he carried on, first toward Södertälje and then into Stockholm. He reached the tall apartment blocks in the southwest suburbs of the city at around half past one, and his Volvo and trailer became just one of a multitude of vehicles, large and small, heading for the city center in lane upon lane, past long rows of storage depots, apartment blocks, and stations used by the commuter trains.
Stockholm looked beautiful from a distance, a big city on the Baltic, built on a series of large and small islands, but Joakim felt no real pleasure at being back in the city of his childhood. All he could think of were the crowds and the queues and the struggle to get in first. There was a constant lack of space here; too few places to live, not enough places to park, a shortage of daycare places-even a shortage of burial plots. Joakim had read in the paper that people were being encouraged to cremate their dead nowadays, so that they would take up less space in the churchyard.
He was already missing Eel Point.
The freeway split repeatedly into a boundless labyrinth of bridges and intersections. Joakim chose one of the exits, turned off, and entered the network of the city, with its traffic lights and noise and dug-up streets. At one intersection he sat there trapped between a bus and a garbage truck and watched a woman shoving a child in a buggy across the street. The child was asking something, but the woman was just staring straight ahead with a sullen expression.
Joakim had a couple of things to do in the capital. The first was to call in at a small gallery in Östermalm to pick up a landscape painting, an inheritance he didn’t really want to be responsible for.
The owner wasn’t in, but his elderly mother was there and recognized Joakim. When he had given her his receipt, she went off to unlock a security door and bring out the Rambe painting. It was in a flat wooden box, fastened with screws.
“We looked at it yesterday before we packed it,” said the woman. “Incomparable.”
“Yes, we’ve missed it,” said Joakim, although that wasn’t strictly true.
“Are there any of the others left on Öland?”
“I don’t know. The royal family has one, I think, but it’s hardly likely to be hanging in some drawing room at Solliden.”
With the painting safe in the trunk Joakim drove west toward Bromma. It was half past two and the rush-hour traffic hadn’t yet begun to snarl up. It took him just about quarter of an hour to get out of the city and turn off toward the area where the Apple House lay.
The sight of his old home awoke a greater sense of nostalgia within him than Stockholm had done. The house was only a few hundred yards from the water, in a big garden surrounded by a fence and thick lilac hedges. There were five other big houses on the same street, but only one of them was visible through the trees.
The Apple House was a tall, airy wooden house that had been built for the director of a bank at the beginning of the twentieth century. But before Joakim and Katrine bought the house, it had been lived in for many years by a collective of New Age individuals, young relatives of the owner who had allowed people to rent rooms and had clearly been more interested in meditating than in painting or general maintenance.
No one in the collective had shown any kind of staying power or respect for the house, and the neighbors in the houses around them had fought for many years to get rid of them. When Joakim and Katrine finally took it on, the house was dilapidated and the garden almost completely overgrown-but both of them had tackled the renovation of the Apple House with the same energy as they had devoted to their first shared apartment, on Rörstrandsgatan, where a crazy eighty-two-year-old had lived with her seven cats.
Joakim had been working as a craft teacher and had devoted himself to the house in the evenings and on weekends; Katrine had still been working part-time as an art teacher, and had spent the rest of the time on the house.
They had celebrated Livia’s second birthday along with Ethel and Ingrid in a chaotic mess of ripped-up floorboards, tins of paint, rolls of wallpaper, and various power tools-with only cold water because the hot water system had broken down that same weekend.
By the time Livia turned three, however, they had been able to have a proper old-fashioned children’s party on newly stripped wooden floors, with walls that had been smoothed down and papered, and staircases and banisters that had been repaired and oiled. And when Gabriel celebrated his first birthday, the house had been more or less finished.
These days the place looked like a turn-of-the-century house again, and could be handed over in good order, apart from the leaves in the garden and the lawn that needed mowing. It was waiting for its new owners, the Stenbergs, a couple in their thirties with no children, who both worked in the city center but wanted to live on the outskirts.
Joakim pulled up by the gravel driveway and reversed so that the trailer ended up by the garage. Then he got out and took a look around.
Everything was quiet. The only neighbors whose house was in sight were the Hesslins, Lisa and Michael, and they had become good friends with Katrine and Joakim-but there were no cars in their driveway this afternoon. They had repainted their house last summer, this time in yellow. When the magazine Beautiful Homes had done a feature about it the previous year, it had been white.
Joakim turned to look over at the wooden gate and the gravel path leading to the Apple House.
His thoughts turned involuntarily to Ethel. Almost a year had passed, but he could still remember her calling out.
Beside the fence a narrow track led through a grove of trees. No one had seen Ethel walking down the track that evening, but it was the shortest route down to the water.
He started to walk up to the house, and looked up at the white façade. The luster was still there, and he remembered all those long brushstrokes when he had gone over it with linseed oil two summers ago.
He unlocked the door, opened it up, and walked in. When he had closed the door behind him, he stopped again.
He had cleaned up over the last few weeks in preparation for the move, and the floors still looked free of dust. All the furniture, rugs, and pictures from the hallway and the rooms were gone-but the memories remained. There were so many of them. For more than three years he and Katrine had put their souls into this house.
You could have heard a pin drop in the rooms around Joakim, but inside his head he could hear all the hammering and sawing. He took off his shoes and moved into the hallway, where a faint smell of cleaning fluid still hung in the air.
He wandered through the rooms, perhaps for the very last time. Upstairs he stopped in the doorway of one of the two guest bedrooms for a few seconds. A small room, with just one window. Plain white wallpaper and an empty floor. Ethel had slept here when she was living with them.
Some of their things were still down in the cellar, those there hadn’t been room for on the moving van. Joakim went down the narrow, steep staircase and started gathering them together: an armchair, a few chairs, a couple of mattresses, a small ladder, and a dusty birdcage-a souvenir of William the budgerigar, who had died several years ago. They hadn’t managed to finish cleaning properly down here, but one of their vacuum cleaners was still there. He plugged it in and quickly vacuumed the painted cement floor, then wiped down the cupboards and ledges.
The house was empty and clean.
Then he collected up the cleaning equipment-the vacuum
cleaner, buckets, cleaning fluid and cloths-and placed them at the foot of the cellar stairs.
In the carpentry workshop on the left, many of his spare tools were still hanging. Joakim started packing them into a cardboard box. Hammers, files, pliers, drills, squares, screwdrivers. Modern screwdrivers might be better, but they weren’t as solid as the old-fashioned ones.
Brushes, handsaws, spirit level, folding rule…
Joakim was holding a plane in his hand when he suddenly heard the front door opening on the floor above. He straightened up and listened.
“Hello?” came a woman’s voice. “Kim?”
It was Katrine, and she sounded anxious. He heard her close the front door behind her and walk into the hallway.
“Down here!” he shouted. “In the cellar!”
He listened, but there was no reply.
He took a step toward the cellar stairs, still listening. When everything remained deathly silent up above, he quickly went upstairs, realizing at the same time how improbable it was that he would see Katrine standing there in the hallway.
And of course she wasn’t there. The hallway was just as empty as when he had come into the house half an hour before. And the front door was closed.
He went over and tried the handle. It was unlocked.
“Hello?” he shouted into the house.
Joakim spent the next ten minutes going through the entire house, room by room-despite the fact that he knew he wasn’t going to find Katrine anywhere. It was impossible, she was still on Öland.
Why would she have taken her car and driven after him all the way to Stockholm, without even calling him first?
He’d misheard. He must have misheard.
Joakim looked at the clock. Ten past four. It was almost dark outside the window.
He took out his cell phone and keyed in the number for Eel Point. Katrine should have picked up Livia and Gabriel and be back home by now.
The phone rang out six times, seven, eight. No reply.
He rang her cell phone. No reply.
Joakim tried not to worry as he packed the last of his tools and carried them out to the trailer along with the furniture. But when everything was done and he’d turned out all the lights in the house and locked up, he took out his cell phone again and rang a local number.
His mother, Ingrid, always sounded worried when she answered the phone, Joakim thought.
“Hi, Mom, it’s me.”
“Hi there, Joakim. Are you in Stockholm now?”
“When will you be here?”
He heard the pleasure in her voice when she realized it was him, and just as clearly the disappointment when he explained that he couldn’t come over and see her this evening.
“But why not? Has something happened?”
“No, no,” he said quickly. “I just think it’s safer if I drive back to Öland tonight. I’ve got our Rambe painting with me in the trunk and a load of tools in the trailer. I don’t want to leave them out overnight.”
“I see,” said Ingrid quietly.
“Mom… has Katrine called you today?”
“Good,” he said quickly. “I was just wondering.”
“So when are you coming to see me?”
“I don’t know,” he said. “We live on Öland now, Mom.”
As soon as they’d hung up, he rang Eel Point.
Still no reply. It was half past four. He started the engine and pulled out onto the street.
The last thing Joakim did before he headed south was to hand in the keys of the Apple House at the real estate office.
Now he and Katrine were no longer property owners in Stockholm.
The rush-hour traffic heading for the suburbs was in full swing when he hit the freeway, and it took him forty-five minutes to get out of the city. By the time the traffic finally thinned out it was quarter to six, and Joakim pulled into a parking lot in Södertälje to call Katrine one more time.
The phone rang four times, then it was picked up.
It was a woman’s voice-but he didn’t recognize the name.
“Hello?” said Joakim.
He must have keyed in the wrong number.
“Who’s calling?” said the woman.
“This is Joakim Westin,” he said slowly. “I live in the manor house at Eel Point.”
She didn’t say anything else.
“Is my wife there, or my children?” asked Joakim.
A pause at the other end of the phone.
“And who are you?”
“I’m a police officer,” said the woman. “I’d like you to-”
“Where’s my wife?” said Joakim quickly.
“Where are you, Joakim? Are you here on the island?”
The policewoman sounded young and slightly tense, and he didn’t have much confidence in her.
“I’m in Stockholm,” he said. “Or rather on the way out… I’m outside Södertälje.”
“So you’re on your way down to Öland?”
“Yes,” he said. “I’ve been to pick up the last of our stuff from our house in Stockholm.” He wanted to sound clear and lucid and make the policewoman start answering questions. “Can you tell me what’s happened? Have any of-”
“No,” she interrupted him. “I can’t say anything. But it would be best if you got here as quickly as possible.”
“Watch your speed,” said the policewoman, breaking off the conversation.
Joakim sat there with the silent cell phone to his ear, staring out at the empty parking lot. Cars with their headlights on and lone drivers whizzed past him out on the freeway.
He put the car in gear, pulled out onto the road, and carried on heading south, doing twelve miles above the speed limit. But when he began to see pictures in his head of Katrine and the children waving to him outside the house at Eel Point, he pulled off the road and stopped the car again.
The phone rang only three times on this occasion.
Joakim didn’t bother saying hello or introducing himself.
“Has there been an accident?” he asked.
The policewoman didn’t speak.
“You have to tell me,” Joakim went on.
“Are you still driving?” asked the woman.
“Not right now.”
There was silence at the other end of the phone for a few seconds, then came her reply:
“There’s been an accident. A drowning.”
“A… a death?” said Joakim.
The policewoman was once again silent for a few seconds. Then she replied, sounding as if she were reciting a formula she’d learned by heart:
“We never give out that kind of information over the telephone.”
The little cell phone in Joakim’s hand seemed to weigh two hundred pounds; the muscles in his right arm were trembling as he held it.
“Possibly. But this time you have to,” he said slowly. “I want a name. If someone in my family has drowned, you have to give me the name. Otherwise I’ll just keep on calling.”
Silence at the other end of the phone.
“Just a moment.”
The woman disappeared again; it felt to Joakim as if several minutes passed. He shivered in the car. Then there was a scraping noise on the phone.
“I have a name now,” said the woman quietly.
The policewoman’s voice was mechanical, as if she were reading out loud.
“The victim’s name is Livia Westin.”
Joakim held his breath and bowed his head. As soon as he had heard the name, he wanted to get away from this moment, away from this evening.
“Hello?” said the policewoman.
Joakim closed his eyes. He wanted to put his hands over his ears and silence every sound.
“I’m here,” he said. “I heard the name.”
“Good, so we can-”
“I have one more question,” he interrupted her. “Where are Katrine and Gabriel?”
“They’re with the neighbors, over at the farm.”
“Okay, I’m on my way. I’m setting off now. Just tell… tell Katrine I’m on my way.”
“We’ll be here all evening,” said the policewoman. “Someone will meet you.”
“Do you want us to send for a priest? I can-”
“That won’t be necessary,” he said. “We’ll sort things out.”
Joakim switched off his phone, started the car, and pulled quickly out onto the road again.
He didn’t want to spend any more time talking to some policewoman or priest, he just wanted to get to Katrine right now.
She was with the neighbors, the policewoman had said. That must be the big farm to the southwest of Eel Point,
whose cows grazed on the meadows down by the shore-but he didn’t have the telephone number, and right now he couldn’t even remember the name of the family who lived there. Evidently Katrine must have had some kind of contact with them. But why hadn’t she called him herself? Was she in shock?
Suddenly Joakim realized he was sitting there thinking about the wrong person.
He could no longer see anything. The tears started pouring down his cheeks, and he had to pull over to the side of the road, switch on his hazard lights, and rest his forehead on the steering wheel.
He closed his eyes.
Livia was gone. She had sat behind him in the car listening to music this morning, and now she was gone.
He sniveled and looked out through the windshield. The road was dark.
Joakim thought about Eel Point, and about wells.
She must have fallen down a well. Wasn’t there a well lid in the inner courtyard?
Old wells with cracked lids-why hadn’t he checked to see if there were any around the place? Livia and Gabriel had run about wherever they wanted between the buildings; he ought to have talked to Katrine about the risks.
Too late now.
He coughed and started up the Volvo. He wouldn’t stop again.
Katrine was waiting.
When he was back out on the road, he could see her face before him. It had all started when they met while they were viewing the same apartment. Then Livia had come along.
Becoming responsible for Livia had been a big step, he recalled. They both wanted children, but not quite yet. Katrine wanted to do things in the right order. They had intended to sell the apartment and buy a house outside the city in plenty of time before the first child came along.
He remembered how he and Katrine had sat at the kitchen table talking quietly about Livia for several hours.
“What are we going to do?” said Katrine.
“I’d love to take care of her,” Joakim had said. “I’m just not sure the timing is quite right.”
“It isn’t right,” Katrine had said crossly. “Far from it. But we’re stuck with it.”
In the end they had decided to say yes to Livia. They had bought the house anyway, and three years later Katrine had gotten pregnant. Gabriel had been planned, unlike Livia.
But just as Joakim had predicted, he had loved watching her grow up. Loved her bright voice, her energy and her curiosity.
How must she be feeling right now? She had called to him inside his head, he had heard her.
Joakim changed gear and put his foot down. With the trailer behind the car he couldn’t drive to Öland at top speed, but almost.
The most important thing now was to get to the manor house on the island as quickly as possible-home to his wife and son. They needed to be together.
He could see Katrine’s bright face floating in the darkness in front of the car.
By eight o’clock in the evening everything was quiet again around the lighthouses at Eel Point. Tilda Davidsson was standing in the big kitchen of the manor house.
The whole house was absolutely silent. Even the slight breeze from the sea had died away.
Tilda looked around and got the feeling she was in the wrong era. Apart from the modern kitchen equipment it was like traveling back to a household at the end of the nineteenth century. A wealthy household. The dining table was large and heavy, made of oak. On the shelves stood copper pans, porcelain from the East Indies, and hand-blown glass bottles. The walls and ceiling were painted white, but the cupboards and wooden cornices were pale blue.
Tilda would have loved to walk into a Carl Larsson kitchen like this every morning, instead of the little kitchenette in her rooms on the square in Marnäs.
She was completely alone in the house now. Hans Majner
and two other colleagues who had traveled from Borgholm up to the scene of the accident had left Eel Point at around seven. Her boss, Göte Holmblad, had come along with them to the scene, but had kept a low profile and left at five, almost at the same time as the ambulance.
The father of the family who lived at Eel Point, Joakim Westin, was due to arrive by car from Stockholm late that evening-and it had been obvious that Tilda was going to be the one to stay behind and wait for him. She was the only one who had offered, and her colleagues had quickly agreed.
It wasn’t because she was a woman, Tilda hoped, but because she was the youngest and had the shortest service record.
The evening shift was okay. The only thing she had needed to do all afternoon, apart from answering the radio and the telephone, was to stop a reporter from Ölands-Posten from approaching the scene of the accident with his camera. She had referred him to the duty press officer in Kalmar.
When the paramedics went down to the shore with their stretcher, she had followed them, stood out by the jetty and watched as they slowly lifted the body out of the water between the jetty and the northern lighthouse. The arms hung there lifeless, water pouring from the clothes. This was the fifth death Tilda had been involved in during her time with the police, but she would never get used to seeing lifeless bodies pulled out of the water or out of smashed-up cars.
It was also Tilda who had answered when Joakim Westin rang. It was really against police procedure to inform relatives of a death over the telephone, but it had gone okay. The news had been bad-the worst imaginable-but Westin’s voice had sounded calm and collected throughout the conversation. It was often better to hear bad news as quickly as possible.
Give both the victims and the relatives as much accurate information as possible, as quickly as possible, she had learned from Martin at the Police Training Academy.
She left the kitchen and went into the house. There was a
faint smell of paint here. The room closest to the kitchen had new wallpaper and a newly polished floor and was warm and cozy, but when she went on along a corridor she could see rooms that were cold and dark, with no furniture. It made her think of condemned apartments she had been into shortly after she became a policewoman, apartments with no heating where people lived like rats.
The house at Eel Point wasn’t really a house Tilda would want to live in, particularly not at this time of year, in the winter. It was too big. And no doubt the coast was lovely when the sun was shining, but in the evening the desolation was complete. Marnäs, with its single shopping street, felt like a densely populated metropolis in comparison to the emptiness of Eel Point.
She left the light on, went out into the glassed-in veranda, and opened the outside door.
A damp chill was drifting in off the sea. There was just one lamp outside, a single lightbulb covered with a cracked glass shade, casting a yellow glow over the cobblestones and rough tufts of grass in the inner courtyard.
Tilda stood in the shelter of the big barn’s stone wall, next to a pile of wet leaves, and took out her cell phone. She really wanted to hear another voice, but she hadn’t got around to ringing Martin this evening, and now it was several hours too late-he would already have gone home from work. Instead she called the number of the neighbors, the Carlsson family, and the mother picked up after two rings.
“How are they?” asked Tilda.
“I’ve just had a look at them and they’re both asleep,” said Maria Carlsson quietly. “They’re in our guest room.”
“That’s good,” said Tilda. “How long will you be up tonight? I was intending to come over with Joakim Westin, but I don’t think he’ll be back from Stockholm for three or four hours.”
“Just come over. Roger and I will stay up for as long as necessary.”
When Tilda had switched off her phone, she immediately felt lonely again.
It was eight-thirty now. She thought about going home to Marnäs to rest for an hour or so, but of course there was the risk that Westin or someone else might telephone here.
She went back into the house through the veranda.
This time she continued along the short corridor and stopped in the doorway of one of the bedrooms. This was a small, cozy room, like a bright chapel in a dark castle. The wallpaper was yellow with red stars, and along the walls sat a dozen or so cuddly toys on small wooden chairs.
This must be the daughter’s room.
Tilda went in cautiously and stood on the soft rug in the center of the room. She guessed that the parents had fixed up the children’s rooms first, so that their son and daughter would quickly feel at home in the manor house. She thought about the room she had grown up in, a small room she had shared with one of her brothers in a rented apartment in Kalmar. She had always longed for a bedroom of her own.
The bed in this room was short but wide, with a pale yellow coverlet and lots of fluffy cushions with cartoon figures on them: elephants and lions wearing nightcaps and lying in their own little beds.
Tilda sat down on the bed. It creaked slightly, but it was soft.
The house was still completely silent around her.
She leaned back, was received by the pile of cushions, and relaxed, her gaze fixed on the ceiling. If she let her thoughts run free, the white surface could become like a movie screen, showing pictures from her memory.
Tilda could see Martin on the ceiling, the way he had looked when he had slept beside her in bed for the last time. It had been in her old apartment in Växjö almost a month ago, and she hoped he would come over to visit her soon.
Nothing is as warm and cozy as a child’s bedroom.
She breathed out slowly and closed her eyes.
If you don’t come to me, then I’ll have to come to you…
Tilda sat up with a start, in the middle of a breath, with no idea where she was. But her father was with her, she could hear his voice.
She opened her eyes.
No, her father was dead, his car had gone off the road eleven years ago.
Tilda blinked, looked around, and realized she had been asleep.
She smelled the aroma of newly polished wood and saw a freshly painted ceiling above her, and realized that she was lying on a little bed in the manor house at Eel Point. And straight after that an unpleasant memory of running water flashed into her mind-the water pouring from the clothes on the body down by the shore.
She had fallen asleep in a child’s bedroom.
Tilda blinked away the sleep, glanced quickly at the clock and saw that it was ten past eleven. She had slept for over two hours and dreamed strange dreams about her father. He had been there with her, in the child’s bedroom.
She heard something and raised her head.
The house was no longer completely silent. She heard faint noises that rose and fell, as if someone-or more than one person-was talking.
It was the sound of low voices.
It sounded like muted mumbling. A group of people talking, quietly and intensely, somewhere outside the house.
Tilda got up silently from the bed, with the feeling that she was eavesdropping.
She held her breath so that she could hear better, and took a couple of silent steps toward the door, out of the bedroom, and listened again.
Perhaps it was just the wind between the buildings?
She went out onto the veranda again-and just when she
thought she could distinguish the voices clearly through the glass, they suddenly fell silent.
Everything was dark and still between the large buildings of the manor.
The next moment a bright light swept through the rooms-the headlights of a car.
She heard the faint sound of an engine approaching and realized that Joakim Westin had arrived back at Eel Point.
Tilda took a final glance back into the house to make sure everything looked as it should. She thought about the sounds she had heard and had a vague feeling of having done something forbidden-despite the fact that waiting for the owner inside the warm house had seemed like the obvious thing to do. Then she pulled on her boots and went out into the darkness again.
As she stepped outside, the car with its trailer was just swinging around to stop in the turning area.
The driver switched off the engine and got out. Joakim Westin. A tall, slim man aged about thirty-five, dressed in jeans and a winter jacket. Tilda could barely make out his face in the darkness, but she thought he was looking at her with a grim expression. His movements as he left the car were rapid and tense.
He closed the car door and came over to her.
“Hi,” he said. He nodded, but without extending his hand.
“Hi.” She nodded too. “Tilda Davidsson, local police… We spoke earlier.”
She wished she had been wearing her police uniform, not civilian clothes. It would have felt more appropriate on this dark night.
“Is there only you here?” said Westin.
“Yes. My colleagues have left,” said Tilda. “And the ambulance.”
There was silence. Westin just stood there, somehow indecisive, and she couldn’t think of a single decent question to ask.
“Livia,” said Westin eventually, gazing up at the lit windows of the house. “Is she… is she not here?”
“She’s being taken care of,” said Tilda. “They’ve taken her to Kalmar.”
“What happened?” asked Westin, looking at her. “Where did it happen?”
“By the shore… next to the lighthouses.”
“Did she go out to the lighthouses?”
“No, or rather… we don’t know yet.”
Westin’s eyes were flicking between Tilda and the house.
“And Katrine and Gabriel? Are they still at the neighbors’?”
Tilda nodded. “They’ve fallen asleep, I rang and checked a while ago.”
“Is that the place over there?” said Westin, looking toward the lights in the southwest. “The farm?”
“I’m going over there.”
“I can drive you,” said Tilda. “We can-”
“No thank you. I need to walk.”
He walked past her, clambered over a stone wall, and strode off into the darkness.
The bereaved should never be left alone, Tilda had learned during her training, and she quickly set off after him. It was hardly appropriate to try to lighten the situation with questions about his journey from Stockholm or other small talk, so she just walked in silence across the field toward the lights in the distance.
They should have brought a flashlight or lantern; it was pitch black out here. But Westin seemed able to find his way.
Tilda thought he had forgotten she was behind him, but suddenly he turned his head and said quietly, “Careful… there’s barbed wire here.”
He led them around the fence and closer to the road. Tilda could hear the faint rushing of the sea to the east. It sounded almost like whispering, and it made her remember the sounds back at the house. The quiet voices through the walls.
“Does anyone else live in the manor house?” she asked.
“No,” said Westin tersely.
He didn’t ask what she meant, and Tilda didn’t say any more.
After a few hundred yards they came up onto a gravel track that led them straight to the farm. They walked past some kind of silo and a row of parked tractors. Tilda could smell manure, and she heard the sound of faint lowing from a dark barn on the other side of the farmyard.
They arrived at the Carlsson family house. A black cat walked down the steps and slunk off around the corner, and Westin asked quietly, “Who found her… was it Katrine?”
“No,” said Tilda. “I think it was one of the staff from the preschool.”
Joakim Westin turned his head and gave her a long look, as if he didn’t understand what she was talking about.
Tilda realized later that she should have stopped on the steps and talked more to him then. Instead she took two more steps up to the door and tapped gently on one of the panes of glass.
After a minute or so a blonde woman dressed in a skirt and sweater came and opened the door. It was Maria Carlsson.
“Come in,” she said. “I’ll go and wake them up.”
“You can let Gabriel sleep,” said Joakim.
Maria Carlsson nodded and turned away, and they both followed her slowly through the hallway. They stopped just inside the door of the large room, which was a combination of a dining room and TV room. Candles had been lit in the windows, and quiet flute music was playing on the stereo.
There was a kind of ceremonial, funereal atmosphere in the air, thought Tilda, as if someone had died here in the house, not over by the lighthouses on Eel Point.
Maria Carlsson disappeared into a dark room. It took a minute or two, then the little girl came out into the light.
She was wearing pants and a sweater, clutching a cuddly toy firmly under her arm, and her expression was sleepy and
uninterested as she looked at them. But when she realized who was standing at the other side of the room, she quickly brightened up and began to smile.
“Daddy!” she shouted, scampering across the floor.
The daughter didn’t know anything, Tilda realized. Nobody had told her yet that her mother had drowned.
Even more remarkable was the fact that her father, Joakim Westin, was standing stiffly by the door, making no attempt to move toward his daughter.
Tilda looked at him and saw that he no longer looked tense, but frightened and confused-almost terrified.
Joakim Westin’s voice was filled with panic.
“But this is Livia,” he said, looking at Tilda. “But what about Katrine? My wife, where’s… where’s Katrine?”
Joakim was sitting waiting on a wooden bench outside a low building at the district hospital in Kalmar. The weather was cold and sunny. Beside him sat a young hospital chaplain dressed in a blue winter jacket, a Bible in his hand. Neither of the men spoke.
Inside the building there was a room where Katrine was waiting. Beside the entrance was a sign with the words Chapel of Rest.
Joakim was refusing to go in.
“I’d really like you to see her,” the junior doctor had said when she met Joakim. “If you can cope with that.”
Joakim shook his head.
“I can tell you what you’ll see in there,” said the junior doctor. “It’s very dignified and respectful, with low lighting and candles. The deceased will be lying on a bier, with a sheet covering-”
“-a sheet covering the body, leaving the face visible,” said Joakim. “I know.”
He knew, he had seen Ethel in a room like this the previous year. But he couldn’t look at Katrine lying there like that. He lowered his eyes and silently shook his head.
Eventually the junior doctor nodded.
“Wait here, then. It will take a little while.”
She went into the building, and Joakim sat down in the pale November sunshine and waited, gazing up at the blue sky. The hospital chaplain next to him was moving uneasily in his thick jacket, as if the silence were unpleasant.
“Were you married long?” he said eventually.
“Seven years,” said Joakim. “And three months.”
“Have you any children?”
“Two. A boy and a girl.”
“Children are always welcome to come along and say goodbye,” said the priest quietly. “It can be good for them… help them to move on.”
Joakim shook his head again. “They’re not going through this.”
Then there was silence on the bench again. After a few minutes the doctor came back with some Polaroid photographs and a large brown package.
“It took a little while to find the camera,” she said.
Then she held out the photographs to Joakim.
He took them and saw that they were close-ups of Katrine’s face. Two were taken from the front, two from the side. Katrine’s eyes were closed, but Joakim couldn’t fool himself into thinking she was just sleeping. Her skin was white and lifeless, and she had black scabs on her forehead and on one cheek.
“She’s injured,” he said quietly.
“It’s from the fall,” said the doctor. “She slipped on the rocks out on the jetty and hit her face, before she ended up in the water.”
“But she… drowned?”
“It was hypothermia… the shock of the cold water. This late in the year the temperature of the Baltic is below ten degrees,” said the doctor. “She took water into her lungs when she went below the surface.”
“But she fell in the water,” said Joakim. “Why did she fall?”
He didn’t get a reply.
“These are her clothes,” said the doctor, handing over the package. “And you don’t want to see her?”
“To say goodbye?”
The children fell asleep in their bedrooms every night in the week following Katrine’s death. They had lots of questions about why she wasn’t home, but eventually they fell asleep anyway.
Joakim, however, lay there in the double bed, gazing up at the ceiling, hour after hour. And when he did fall asleep, there was no rest. The same dream recurred night after night.
He dreamed that he was back at Eel Point. He had been gone for a long time, perhaps for several years, and now he had returned.
He was standing beneath a gray sky on the deserted shore by the lighthouses, then he began to walk up toward the house. It looked desolate and completely dilapidated. The rain and snow had washed away the red, leaving the façade pale gray.
The windows of the veranda were broken and the door was standing ajar. Everything was dark inside.
The oblong stones forming the steps up to the veranda were cracked and askew. Joakim walked slowly up them and into the darkness.
He shivered and looked around in the gloom of the
porch, but everything was just as shabby and run-down inside as it was outside. The wallpaper was ripped, gravel and dust covered the wooden floors, all the furniture was gone. There was no trace of the renovation he and Katrine had made a start on.
He could hear noises from several of the rooms.
From the kitchen came the murmur of voices and scraping noises.
Joakim walked along the corridor and stopped in the doorway.
At the kitchen table sat Livia and Gabriel, bent over a game of cards. His children were still small, but their faces had a network of fine wrinkles around the mouth and eyes.
Is Mom home? asked Joakim.
Livia nodded. She’s in the barn.
She lives in the hayloft in the barn, said Gabriel.
Joakim nodded and backed slowly out of the kitchen. His children stayed where they were, in silence.
He went back outside, across the grass-covered inner courtyard, and pushed open the door of the barn.
There was no reply, but he went in anyway.
At the steep wooden staircase leading up to the hayloft, he stopped. Then he began to climb. The steps were cold and damp.
When he got to the top, he couldn’t see any hay, just pools of water on the wooden floor.
Katrine was standing over by the wall, with her back to him. She was wearing her white nightgown, but it was soaking wet.
Are you cold? he asked.
She shook her head without turning around.
What happened down by the shore?
Don’t ask, she said, and slowly began to sink through the gaps in the wooden floor.
Joakim walked over to her.
Mom-mee? called a voice in the distance.
Katrine stood motionless by the wall.
Livia has woken up, she said. You need to take care of her, Kim.
Joakim woke up in his bedroom with a start.
The sound that had woken him up was no dream. It was Livia calling out.
He opened his eyes in the darkness, but stayed in bed. Alone.
Everything was silent once again.
The clock by the side of the bed was showing quarter past three. Joakim was certain he had fallen asleep just a few minutes ago-and yet the dream about Katrine had lasted an eternity.
He closed his eyes. If he stayed where he was and didn’t do anything, perhaps Livia would go back to sleep.
Like a reply the call echoed through the house once more:
After that he knew it was pointless to stay in bed. Livia was awake and wouldn’t stop calling until her mother came in and lay down beside her.
Joakim sat up slowly and switched on the lamp on the bedside table. The house was cold, and he felt a crippling loneliness.
He knew he had to take care of the children. He didn’t want to, he didn’t have the strength, but there was no one else to share the responsibility with.
He left his warm bed and moved quietly out of his bedroom and over to Livia’s room.
She raised her head when he bent over her bed. He stroked her forehead, without saying anything.
“Mommy?” she mumbled.
“No, it’s just me,” he said. “Go to sleep now, Livia.”
She didn’t reply, but sank slowly back onto her pillow.
Joakim stood there in the darkness until she was breathing evenly again.
He took a step backward, then another. Then he turned toward the door.
“Don’t go, Daddy.”
Her clear voice made him stop dead on the cold floor.
She had sounded wide awake, despite the fact that she was lying in bed like a motionless shadow. He turned slowly to face her.
“Why not?” he asked quietly.
“Stay here,” said Livia.
Joakim didn’t reply. He held his breath and listened. She had sounded awake, but he still thought it seemed as if she were asleep.
When he had been standing there, silent and motionless, for a minute or so, he began to feel like a blind man in the dark room.
“Livia?” he whispered.
He got no answer, but her breathing was tense and irregular. He knew she would soon call out for him again.
An idea suddenly came into his head. At first it felt unpleasant, then he decided to try it out.
He crept out of the door and into the dark bathroom. He groped his way forward, bumped into the hand basin, then felt the wooden laundry basket next to the bathtub. The basket was almost full; nobody had done any washing for almost a week. Joakim hadn’t had the strength.
Then he heard the call from Livia’s room, as expected:
Joakim knew she would carry on calling for Katrine.
This was how it was going to be, night after night. It would never end.
“Quiet,” he muttered, standing by the laundry basket.
He opened the lid and started burrowing among the clothes.
Different aromas rose up to meet him. Most of the items were hers; all the sweaters and pants and underclothes she had worn in the final days before the accident. Joakim pulled out a few things: a pair of jeans, a red woolen sweater, a white cotton skirt.
He couldn’t resist pressing them against his face.
He wanted to linger there among the vivid memories the scent of her brought into his mind; they were both blissful and painful-but Livia’s plaintive cry made him hurry.
Joakim took the red woolen sweater with him. He went past Gabriel’s room and back into Livia’s.
She had kicked off the coverlet and was waking up-she raised her head when he came in and stared at him in bewildered silence.
“Sleep now, Livia,” said Joakim. “Mommy’s here.”
He placed Katrine’s thick sweater close to Livia’s face and pulled the coverlet up to her chin. He tucked her in closely, like a cocoon.
“Sleep now,” he repeated, more quietly this time.
She mumbled something in her sleep and gradually relaxed. Her breathing was calmer now; she had placed her arm around her mother’s sweater and buried her face in the thick wool. Her sheep from Gotland was lying on the other side of the pillow, but she ignored it.
Livia was asleep again.
The danger had passed and Joakim knew that next morning she wouldn’t even remember that she had been awake.
He breathed out and sat down on the edge of her bed, his head drooping.
A darkened room, a bed, the blinds pulled down.
He wanted to fall asleep, to sleep as deeply as Livia and forget himself. He just couldn’t think anymore; he had no strength left.
And yet he couldn’t sleep.
He thought about the laundry basket, about Katrine’s clothes, and after a couple of minutes he got up and went back into the bathroom. To the laundry basket.
The thing he was looking for was almost right at the bottom: Katrine’s nightgown, white with a red heart on the front. He took it out of the basket.
Out in the corridor he stopped and listened outside both the children’s rooms, but all remained silent.
Joakim went into his room, put the light on, and remade the double bed. He shook and smoothed the sheets, plumped up the pillows, and folded back the coverlet. Then he got back in, closed his eyes, and breathed in the smell of Katrine.
He reached out and touched the soft fabric.
Morning again. Joakim woke to the stubborn beep of the alarm clock-which meant that he must have slept.
Katrine is dead, he said to himself.
He could hear Gabriel and Livia starting to move about in their beds-and then he heard one of them padding barefoot over the wooden floor to the bathroom-and he realized that he could smell the scent of his wife. His hands were holding on to something thin and soft.
In the darkness he stared at it with something close to embarrassment. He remembered what he had done in the bathroom during the night, and quickly pulled up the coverlet to hide it.
Joakim got up, took a shower, and got dressed, then dressed the children and settled them at the breakfast table.
He glanced at them to see if they were watching him, but they were both concentrating on their plates.
The darkness and the cold in the mornings seemed to make Livia more lively. When Gabriel had left the kitchen to go to the bathroom, she looked at her father.
“When is Mommy coming back?”
Joakim closed his eyes. He was standing at the counter with his back to her, warming his hands on his coffee mug.
The question hung there in the air. He couldn’t bear it, but Livia had asked the same question every morning and evening since Katrine’s death.
“I don’t really know,” he replied slowly. “I don’t know when Mommy’s coming back.”
“But when?” said Livia more loudly.
She was waiting for his answer.
Joakim didn’t speak, but eventually he turned around. The right time to tell her would never come. He looked at Livia.
“Actually… I don’t think Mommy will be coming back,” he said. “She’s gone, Livia.”
Livia stared at him.
“No,” she said firmly and decisively. “She has not.”
“Livia, Mommy isn’t coming-”
“She is too!” screamed Livia across the table. “She is coming back! End of story!”
Then she went back to eating her sandwich. Joakim lowered his eyes and drank his coffee; he was beaten.
He drove the children into Marnäs at around eight in the mornings, away from the silence of Eel Point.
The sound of joyous laughter and screams met them as they walked into Gabriel’s nursery school. Joakim had no strength whatsoever. He just gave his son a tired hug as they said goodbye. Gabriel quickly turned away and ran off toward the cheerful voices of his friends in the soft playroom.
But the children’s energy would disappear with time,
Joakim thought; they would grow old and their faces would become gray and sunken. Behind those bright faces lay pale skulls with empty eye sockets.
He shook his head to push the thought away.
“Bye, Daddy,” said Livia when he left her in the cloakroom at preschool. “Is Mommy coming home tonight?”
It was as if she hadn’t heard what he had said at the breakfast table.
“No, not tonight,” he said. “But I’ll come and pick you up.”
Livia always wanted to be picked up early-but when Joakim did turn up early, she never wanted to leave her friends to go home.
“Sure,” he said. “I’ll come early.”
He nodded, and Livia ran off to join the other children. At the same time a gray-haired woman looked out of the cloakroom.
“Hi there, Joakim,” she said, her expression sympathetic.
He recognized her; it was Marianne, the head of the preschool unit.
“How’s it going?”
“Not so good,” said Joakim.
He had to be at the funeral director’s office in Borgholm in twenty minutes, and moved toward the door. But Marianne took a step toward him.
“I understand,” she said. “We all do.”
“Does she talk?” said Joakim, nodding toward the other rooms.
“Livia? Yes, she-”
“I mean, does she talk about her mother?”
“Not much. And nor do we. Or rather, what I mean is…” Marianne stopped for a second or two, then went on: “If it’s okay with you, the staff are no different with Livia now than they were before. She’s just like all the other children in the class.”
“If you didn’t already know…I was the one who found her in the water,” said Marianne.
Joakim had no questions, but she carried on talking anyway, as if she needed to tell him:
“There was just Livia and Gabriel left here that day… it was after five, and still no one had come to pick them up. And there was no answer when I telephoned. So I put them in my car and drove out to Eel Point. The children ran into the house, the door wasn’t locked… but the place was silent and empty. I went out looking, and then I saw something red down in the water, by the lighthouses. A red jacket.”
Joakim was listening and at the same time wondering what Marianne’s head looked like beneath the thin skin. A fairly narrow cranium, he thought, with high white cheekbones.
She went on: “I saw the jacket, and then I saw a pair of pants… and then I realized there was someone floating out there. So I rang the emergency number, then I ran down to the water. But I could see it was… too late. It just seems so strange… I mean, I’d been talking to her the day before.”
Marianne lowered her eyes and fell silent.
“And there was no one else there?” said Joakim.
“What do you mean?”
“The children weren’t there. They didn’t see Katrine.”
“No, they were still in the house. Then I took them over to the neighbors. They didn’t see anything.”
“Children live in the present, they adapt,” said Marianne. “They… they forget.”
As Joakim walked back out to the car, he knew one thing for certain: he didn’t want Livia to forget Katrine.
And he mustn’t forget her either. To forget Katrine would be unforgivable.
The light in the northern lighthouse at Eel Point went out this year. As far as I know, it has never been lit since.
But Ragnar Davidsson told me that a light can still be seen in the tower sometimes-the night before someone is going to die.
Perhaps it is an old fire that sometimes flares up in the lighthouse. The memory of a terrible accident.
– MIRJA RAMBE
Two hours after sunset, the light in the northern lighthouse at Eel Point goes out.
It is the sixteenth of December, 1884. The storm that has swept in across the island during the afternoon has reached its peak, and the thunderous roar of the wind and the crashing waves brushes aside any other sound in the area around the lighthouses.
Mats Bengtsson, the lighthouse keeper, is on his way out into the storm, heading for the southern lighthouse; it is only because he is outside looking toward the shore that he can see through the thickly falling snow that something has happened. The southern lighthouse is flashing as usual, but there is no light in the northern tower-it has gone out, just as if someone has blown out a candle.
Bengtsson just stares. Then he turns back and runs across the inner courtyard, up the steps to the manor house. He tears open the porch door.
“The light is gone!” he yells into the house. “The northern light is out!”
Bengtsson hears someone reply from the kitchen, perhaps his own wife, Lisa, but he doesn’t linger in the warmth. He goes back outside into the blizzard.
Down in the meadow by the shore, blasted by the snow, he has to lean forward like a cripple; it feels as if the arctic wind is blowing straight through him.
Up in the tower the assistant keeper, Jan Klackman, is on watch alone; his shift began at four o’clock. Klackman is Bengtsson’s best friend. Bengtsson knows that he might need help to get the light going again, whatever has happened.
At the beginning of winter a rope was attached to a line of iron posts to show the way from the house down to the lighthouses, and Bengtsson clings to it with both hands, like a lifeline. He fights his way down to the shore, straight into the wind, and makes his way out onto the jetty leading to the lighthouses. Out here there is a chain he can hold on to, but the stones are as slippery as soap and covered in ice.
When he finally reaches the little island where the northern lighthouse stands, he looks up at the dark tower. Despite the fact that the lamp has gone out, he can see a faint yellow glow from the large panes of glass at the top of the tower.
Something is burning up there, or glowing.
The paraffin. The new fuel that has replaced coal-the paraffin must have caught fire.
Bengtsson manages to open the steel door leading into the tower, and goes inside. The door slams shut behind him. Everything is still but not silent, because the storm is still roaring outside.
He hurries up the stone staircase that runs along the wall in a spiral.
Bengtsson begins to pant. There are 164 steps-he has run up them innumerable times and counted them. On the way up he can feel the storm shaking the thick walls the whole time. The lighthouse seems to be swaying in the blizzard.
Halfway up the stairs an acrid stench hits his nostrils.
The stench of burned meat.
“Jan?” shouts Bengtsson. “Jan!”
Twenty steps further up he sees the body. It is lying with
its head pointing down the steep staircase, like a rag that has been cast aside. The black uniform is still burning.
Somehow Klackman has lost his balance up in the lighthouse, and ended up with the burning paraffin all over him.
Bengtsson takes the final steps toward him, takes off his coat and begins to put out the fire.
Someone is coming up the steps behind him and Bengtsson calls out, without looking around, “He’s burning!”
And he carries on smothering the fire on Klackman’s body, to get rid of the burning paraffin.
He feels a hand on his shoulder. It is assistant keeper Westerberg; he has a rope with him and quickly loops it under Klackman’s arms.
“Now we can lift him!”
Westerberg and Bengtsson quickly start carrying Klackman’s smoking body down the spiral staircase.
At the bottom it is possible to breathe almost normally again. But is Klackman breathing? Westerberg has brought a lantern, which is standing on the floor, and in its glow Bengtsson can see how badly burned his friend is. Several of his fingers are blackened, and the flames have reached his hair and face.
“We have to get him outside,” says Bengtsson.
They push open the door of the lighthouse and stagger out into the storm, with Klackman between them. Bengtsson breathes in the fresh, ice-cold air. The snowstorm has begun to subside, but the waves are still high.
Their strength gives out when they reach the shore. Westerberg lets go of Klackman’s legs and sinks to his knees in the snow, panting. Bengtsson also lets go, but leans over his face.
“Jan? Can you hear me? Jan?”
It is too late to do anything. Klackman’s badly burned body lies there motionless on the ground; his soul has departed.
Bengtsson hears cries and anxious voices approaching and looks up. He sees master lighthouse keeper Jonsson and
the other four keepers hurrying through the wind. Following behind them are the women from the house. Bengtsson sees that one of them is Klackman’s wife, Anne-Marie.
His head feels completely empty. He must say something to her, but what do you say when the worst has happened?
A woman comes running. She is beside herself with grief and bends over Klackman, shaking him in desperation.
But it is not Anne-Marie Klackman-it is Bengtsson’s wife, Lisa, who is lying there weeping beside the lifeless body.
Mats Bengtsson realizes that nothing is as he thought.
He meets his wife’s eyes as she gets up. Lisa has come to her senses now and realizes what she has done, but Bengtsson nods.
“He was my friend,” is all he says, as he turns his gaze toward the dark tower of the lighthouse.
“S’o you think everything was better in the old days, Gerlof?” said Maja Nyman.
Gerlof lowered his cup onto the coffee table in the home at Marnäs and pondered his reply for a few seconds, as he always did.
“Not everything. And not always. But a great deal was certainly… better planned,” he said eventually. “We had time to think before we did something. These days they don’t.”
“Better planned?” said Maja. “Is that what you think?… Don’t you remember the shoemaker down in Stenvik? The one who was in the village when we were little?”
“You mean Shoe-Paulsson?”
“Arne Paulsson, that’s right,” said Maja. “The worst shoemaker in the world. He had never learned how to tell the difference between right shoes and left shoes, or else he thought it was unnecessary. So he just made one kind of shoe.”
“So he did,” said Gerlof quietly, “I remember them.”
“You remember the pain, if nothing else,” said Maja with a smile. “Paulsson’s wooden clogs managed to pinch and fit too loosely at the same time. And they always came off when you ran. Was that better?”
Tilda was sitting at the table in the dining room at the home, listening in total fascination. She had almost forgotten her troubles at work.
Conversations like these about the old days should be preserved, she thought, but the tape recorder was in the drawer of Gerlof’s desk.
“No, no,” said Gerlof, picking up his coffee cup. “Perhaps people didn’t think ahead too much in the old days. But at least they thought.”
Twenty minutes later Tilda and Gerlof were back in his room, and her tape recorder was up and running once again. The wall clock was ticking in the background as Gerlof began to talk about his early days as a teenage skipper on the Baltic.
Life wasn’t dreary and uneventful at the home, Tilda realized-it was restful. She felt more and more contented in Gerlof’s little room, because there she could almost forget what had happened over the last few days. Everything that had gone wrong at Eel Point.
Wrong name, wrong information about the deceased, wrong approach-a grieving husband who was refusing to speak to her and doubtless plenty of gossip among her colleagues in her first few days as a local police officer.
And yet she wasn’t the only one who’d done something wrong.
She suddenly noticed that Gerlof had stopped chatting and was looking at her.
“That’s the way it is,” he said. “Everything changes.”
The cassette tape was turning in the machine on the table.
“Yes, these are modern times,” said Tilda loudly. “And the
old times… what do you think about when you remember the old times?”
“Well… for me it’s shipping, of course,” said Gerlof, looking suspiciously at the tape recorder. “All the beautiful cargo ships slipping in and out of the harbor at Borgholm. The smell when you went aboard… wood tar and paint and fuel oil… stagnant bilgewater from the hold and frying food from the galley.”
“So what was the best thing about those days?” said Tilda.
“The calmness… and the silence. The fact that things could take their own time. When I sailed on the cargo ships, there were small engines on most of them, of course, but on those that had only sails there was nothing to be done when the wind dropped of an evening. You dropped anchor and waited for the wind to get up again next day. And nobody knew exactly where the cargo ships were, before the telephone and short-wave radio came in. One day they would just turn up off the coast again, on their way to their home harbor in full sail. And then the wives could relax, for this time.”
Tilda nodded. Then she thought again about the information she’d gotten wrong the previous week, and asked, “What do you know about the manor house at Eel Point, Gerlof?”
“Eel Point? Well, a little. It was on the wrong side of the island from Stenvik, but your grandfather was a neighbor, after all.”
“More or less. His cottage was a mile or so further north. Ragnar used to fish for eels off the point, and he was a watchman for the lighthouses.”
“Are there any special stories about the place?”
“Well, the manor house does have something of a reputation,” said Gerlof. “They say that the foundations are made of granite from an old abandoned chapel, and that the timber in the house came from ships wrecked on the rocks. They were recycling even in those days.”
“Why is there only a light in one tower?” said Tilda.
“There was some kind of accident there, I think it was a fire… The twin lighthouses were built to distinguish Eel Point from other lighthouse locations around Öland, but in the end I suppose it got too expensive to have them both working every night. One was enough.” Gerlof thought for a while, then added, “And of course these days ships navigate with the help of satellites, so even that one is no longer necessary.”
“Modern times,” said Tilda.
“Exactly. Right shoes and left shoes.”
There was silence in the room.
“Have you been out to the point?” asked Gerlof.
Tilda nodded. They had finished talking about the Davidsson family now, so she switched off the tape recorder.
“I was at the house last week,” she said. “Someone drowned.”
“Yes, I read about it in Ölands-Posten. A young woman. I suppose it was the mother of the family who bought the manor house?”
“So who found her?”
“I shouldn’t really say much.”
“No, of course not. It’s a police matter, after all. And a tragedy.”
“Yes. Especially for the husband and children.”
In the end Tilda told him most of it anyway. How she’d been called out to the scene of the accident. The body being pulled out of the water by the lighthouses.
“This woman, Katrine Westin, was alone. She had her lunch and put the dishwasher on. Then she walked down to the shore and out along the jetty. And slipped, or threw herself in the water.”
“And drowned?” said Gerlof.
“Yes. She drowned straightaway, despite the fact that the water is shallow there.”
“Not everywhere. It’s deeper out by the jetty; I’ve seen sailing boats moor there. Did anyone see it happen, this accident?”
Tilda shook her head. “No witnesses have come forward, at any rate. The coast was deserted.”
“The Öland coast is almost always deserted in the winter,” said Gerlof. “And there was no trace of anyone else at Eel Point? Someone who could have pushed her?”
“No, she was alone out on the jetty. You have to go across the shore to get onto the jetty, and there were no footprints in the sand.” Tilda looked at the tape recorder. “Shall we talk about Ragnar now?”
Gerlof didn’t seem to be listening to her. He got up with some difficulty and went over to the desk. He took a black notebook out of one of the drawers.
“I always make a note of the weather,” he said. He flicked through to the page he wanted. “There was hardly any wind that day. It was blowing at between three and six feet per second.”
“Yes, I guess it was. It was calm out at Eel Point.”
“So no waves can have raced up the shore and wiped out any traces,” said Gerlof.
“No. And the footprints from the woman’s shoes were still there in the sand-I saw them myself.”
“Was she injured in any way?”
Tilda hesitated before answering. Pictures she didn’t want to see came into her mind.
“I only saw her briefly, but she had a small wound on her forehead.”
“Yes… it was probably from the fall, she probably hit her head on the stone jetty when she fell.”
Gerlof slowly sat down again. “Any enemies?”
“Did she have any enemies… the woman who drowned?”
Tilda sighed. “How am I supposed to know that, Gerlof?
Do mothers with small children usually have mortal enemies here on the island?”
“I was just thinking that-”
“We need to change the subject now.” Tilda looked at her elderly relative with a serious expression. “I know you like mulling things over, but I shouldn’t be talking to you about this sort of thing.”
“No, no, you’re a police officer after all,” said Gerlof.
“Local police, yes. Not a murder investigator.” She added quickly, “And there is no murder inquiry anyway. There is nothing to suggest a crime has been committed, no motive. Her husband doesn’t seem to believe it was an accident, but even he can’t come up with a reason why anyone would have killed her.”
“Yes, well, I’m just doing a bit of thinking,” said Gerlof. “I enjoy it, as you said.”
“Good. But now we need to do a bit more recording.”
Gerlof was silent.
“I’m switching the tape recorder on now. Okay?” said Tilda.
“What about from the sea?” said Gerlof.
“If someone came along the coast in a boat and moored by the jetty on Eel Point,” said Gerlof. “Then there wouldn’t be any footprints in the sand.”
Tilda sighed. “Okay, so I’d better start looking for a boat, then.” Tilda looked at him and asked, “Gerlof, are you finding these recordings difficult?”
“I find it a bit difficult to talk about relatives who have died,” he said eventually. “It feels as if they’re sitting and listening in the walls.”
“I think they’d be proud.”
“Maybe. Maybe not,” said Gerlof. “I suppose it depends what I’m saying about them.”
“It’s mostly Grandfather I want to talk about,” said Tilda.
“I know.” Gerlof nodded seriously. “But he might be listening too.”
“Was he hard work as an older brother, Ragnar?”
Gerlof didn’t speak for a few seconds.
“He had his moments. He had a long memory. If he felt someone had cheated him, he would never do business with that person again… He never forgot an injustice.”
“I don’t remember him,” said Tilda. “Dad hardly remembers him either. At any rate, he never talked about him.”
Silence once again.
“Ragnar froze to death in a winter storm,” Gerlof went on. “The body was found on the shore to the south of his cottage. Did your dad tell you that?”
“Oh yes, he was the one who found Grandfather. He was going out fishing, wasn’t he? That’s what Dad said.”
“He’d been checking his nets on the seabed that day,” said Gerlof, “and then when the wind got up he had gone ashore at Eel Point. He was the watchman, after all, and people had seen him out by the lighthouses. The boat must have broken up in the waves, because Ragnar walked home along the shore… and then the blizzard came. Ragnar died in the snow.”
“Nobody is dead until they are warm and dead,” said Tilda. “People have been found frozen stiff and with no pulse in snowdrifts, but they’ve come back to life when they’ve been brought into the warmth.”
“Who told you that?”
“Martin? Who’s that?”
“My… boyfriend,” said Tilda.
She immediately regretted using that word. Martin would not have liked being described as her boyfriend.
“So you’ve got a boyfriend?”
“Yes… or whatever you want to call it.”
“I should think ‘boyfriend’ will do perfectly well. What’s his surname?”
“His name is Martin Ahlquist.”
“Nice,” said Gerlof. “Does he live here on the island, your Martin?”
My Martin, thought Tilda.
“He lives in Växjö. He’s a teacher.”
“But perhaps he’ll come and visit you sometimes.”
“I hope so. He has talked about it.”
“Nice.” Gerlof smiled. “You look as if you’re in love.”
“Your face lights up when we talk about Martin; it’s lovely.”
He smiled encouragingly across the table, and Tilda smiled back.
Everything seemed so simple when she was sitting here with Gerlof talking about Martin, not complicated at all.
Livia fell asleep each night with Katrine’s red woolen sweater beside her in the bed, and Joakim lay with her nightgown under his pillow. It gave him a feeling of calmness.
Life at Eel Point went on, at half speed. The children had to be taken into Marnäs and picked up each weekday, and Joakim took care of that job. In between he was alone at the manor for seven hours, but there was no peace. The funeral director called him several times with different questions before the funeral, and he had to contact banks and various companies to get Katrine’s name removed from their records. Relatives got in touch, both Katrine’s and Joakim’s, and friends from Stockholm sent flowers. Several of them wanted to come to the funeral.
What Joakim really wanted was to unplug all the telephones and lock himself in at Eel Point. Shut down.
Of course, there was a huge amount of renovation to be done inside the house, and in the garden and to the outside
of the house-but all he really wanted to do was to lie in bed, breathe in the scent of Katrine’s clothes, and stare up at the white ceiling.
And then there was the police. If he had been able to find the strength, he would have spoken to them to find out who was responsible for internal investigations, if there was such a person-but he just couldn’t do it.
The only one who got in touch from that particular authority was the young local policewoman from Marnäs, Tilda Davidsson.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I really am very sorry.”
She didn’t ask how he was feeling, just kept on apologizing for the mix-up over the names. The wrong name was on the note she was reading from, she said-it was a misunderstanding.
A misunderstanding? Joakim had come home to console his wife, but had found her dead.
He listened to Davidsson in silence, answered in monosyllables and asked no follow-up questions. The conversation was a short one.
When it was over, he sat down at the family computer and wrote a letter to Ölands-Posten, giving a brief outline of what had happened after Katrine’s death. In conclusion he wrote:
For several hours I believed that my daughter had drowned and my wife was alive, when in fact the reverse was true. Is it too much to ask that the police should be able to distinguish between the living and the dead?
I don’t think it is; that’s what the relatives have to do, after all.
Joakim Westin, Eel Point
He hadn’t expected anyone in the police to accept responsibility after that either, and he wasn’t disappointed.
Two days later he met Åke Högström, the priest in Marnäs who was to bury his wife.
“How are you sleeping?” the priest asked over coffee after they had gone through the ceremony one last time.
“Fine,” Joakim replied.
He tried to remember what they had decided. They had called the cantor to choose which hymns were to be played, he remembered that, but he’d already forgotten what they’d decided on.
The parish priest from Marnäs was in his fifties, with a gentle smile, a little beard, a black jacket, and a gray polo-neck sweater. The walls in his study at the vicarage were covered with shelves full of books of all kinds, and on the desk stood a picture of the priest holding a gleaming perch up to the camera.
“The light from the lighthouse doesn’t disturb you?” he asked.
“The light?” said Joakim.
“The constant flashing at night, from the lighthouse tower out on Eel Point?”
Joakim shook his head.
“I suppose you get used to it,” said Högström. “It’s probably similar to having traffic noise just outside your window. You lived in the middle of Stockholm before you came here, didn’t you?”
“A little way out,” said Joakim.
It was only small talk, an attempt to lighten the heavy conversation, but for Joakim it was still a huge effort to find the words.
“So it’s hymn number 289 to begin with, hymn 256 after the prayers, and hymn 297 to finish off,” said Högström. “That was what we said, wasn’t it?”
“That’ll be fine.”
A dozen or so guests from Stockholm arrived the evening before the funeral: Joakim’s mother, his uncle, two cousins, and some close friends of his and Katrine’s. They
moved cautiously around the house and talked mostly to one another. Livia and Gabriel were excited by all the visitors, but didn’t ask why everyone had come.
The funeral took place at eleven o’clock on a Thursday in the Marnäs church. The children weren’t there-Joakim had dropped them off as usual at eight o’clock, without saying anything. For them today was like any other, but Joakim had driven home, put on his black suit, and lay down on the double bed again.
The wall clock was ticking out in the corridor, and Joakim remembered that it was his wife who had wound it up. It shouldn’t be ticking now she was gone, but it was.
He had stared at the bedroom ceiling thinking about all that was left of Katrine in and around the house. Inside his head he could hear her calling to him.
An hour later Joakim was sitting on an uncomfortable wooden pew, his eyes fixed on a large mural. It showed a man of his own age nailed to a Roman instrument of torture. A cross.
The church in Marnäs was high and filled with echoes. The sound of quiet weeping hovered beneath the vaulted stone ceiling.
Joakim was sitting right at the front next to his mother, who was wearing a black veil and weeping with small, careful sniffles, her head bowed. He himself knew he wasn’t going to cry at all, just as he hadn’t shed a single tear at Ethel’s funeral last year. The tears always came later, late at night.
It was two minutes to eleven when the church door opened and a tall, broad-shouldered woman strode in. She was wearing a black coat and a black veil that concealed her eyes, but her lips were painted with bright red lipstick. Her heels echoed on the stone floor, and many heads turned in the church. The woman marched up and sat down in the pew
at the front on the right, next to Katrine’s four half sisters and brothers.
She was their mother and Katrine’s mother: Mirja Rambe, Joakim’s mother-in-law, the artist and singer. He hadn’t seen Mirja since their wedding seven years earlier. In contrast to that particular day, she appeared to be sober now. Just as Mirja sat down, the bells began to toll up in the church tower.
Less than forty-five minutes later it was all over, and Joakim could hardly remember anything about what Pastor Högström had said, or what hymns they had sung in the church. His head had been filled with images and sounds of crashing waves and running water.
Afterward, when they had crossed the bitterly cold churchyard and gathered in the community hall, lots of people came over to talk to him.
“I’m so sorry, Joakim,” said a bearded man, patting him on the shoulder. “We were very fond of her.”
Joakim focused his gaze and suddenly recognized the man-it was his uncle from Stockholm.
“Thank you… thank you very much.”
There wasn’t much else to say.
Several other people wanted to stroke his back or give him a stiff embrace. He let them carry on; he was everybody’s pet.
“It’s so awful… I was only talking to her a few days ago,” said a weeping girl aged about twenty-five.
He recognized her behind the handkerchief she was using to wipe her eyes; it was Katrine’s younger sister. Her name was Solros-Sunrose, he recalled. Mirja had given all five of her children unusual second names; Katrine’s was Månstråle, Moonbeam, but she’d hated it.
“And she’d been so much happier lately,” Solros went on.
“I know… she was glad we’d moved down here.”
“Yes, and she was pleased she’d found out about her father as well.”
Joakim looked at her.
“Her father?” he said. “Katrine never had any contact with her father.”
“I know,” said Solros. “But Mom’s written a book and revealed who he was.”
The tears came again; she hugged him and went off to join her brothers and sisters.
Joakim stayed where he was and saw Albin and Viktoria Malm, friends from the center of Stockholm, sitting at a table with the Hesslin family, their neighbors from Bromma.
He also saw his mother, sitting alone at another table with a cup of coffee, but didn’t go over to her.
When he turned around, Pastor Högström was talking to a small gray-haired woman on the other side of the room. He went to join them.
Högström turned his kindly gaze in his direction. “Joakim,” he said. “How are you feeling?”
Joakim just nodded, several times. It was an appropriate response, it could mean anything. The little elderly lady smiled up at him expectantly and nodded as well, but didn’t seem to know what to say either. Then she took two tentative steps backward and disappeared.
That’s the thing about the bereaved, thought Joakim, they smell of death and are best avoided.
“I’ve been thinking something over,” he said seriously to Högström.
“If you hear someone calling for help here on the island, when you yourself are on the mainland, miles and miles away, what does that mean?”
The priest looked at him blankly. “Miles and miles away… how could you possibly hear that?”
Joakim shook his head. “But that’s what happened,” he said. “I heard my wife… Katrine, when she died. I was in
Stockholm at the time, but I heard her when she drowned. She called out to me.”
The priest looked down into his coffee cup. “Perhaps you heard someone else?” He had lowered his voice, as if they were talking about forbidden matters.
“No,” said Joakim. “It was Katrine’s voice.”
“I know I heard her,” said Joakim. “So what does it mean?”
“Who knows, who knows,” was all Högström said, patting him gently on the shoulder. “Get some rest now, Joakim. We can talk again in a few days.”
Then he left.
Joakim stood there staring at a poster on the wall advertising a charity collection for those affected by radiation in Chernobyl. Ten years had passed since the catastrophe.
OUR DAILY BREAD FOR THE VICTIMS OF THE RADIATION, said the heading on the poster.
Our daily Chernobyl, thought Joakim.
Finally it was evening again and he was back at Eel Point. This long day was coming to an end.
Inside the house Livia and Gabriel were being put to bed by their grandmother. Lisa and Michael Hesslin were standing by their car out at the front. It was late and they had a long journey back to Stockholm, but they had still come back to the house with him.
“Thanks for coming,” said Joakim.
“No problem,” said Michael, placing his black suit in its plastic covering on the back seat.
There was a tense silence.
“Come up to Stockholm soon,” said Lisa. “Or come over to Gotland with the children, to our cottage.”
“We’ll be in touch, Joakim,” said Michael.
Joakim nodded. Gotland sounded better than Stockholm. He never wanted to go there again.
Lisa and Michael got into the car, and Joakim took a step back as they drove off.
When the car had pulled out onto the road and the glow of its lights had disappeared, he turned and looked down toward the lighthouses.
Out on its little island the southern tower flashed its red light across the water. But the northern tower, Katrine’s tower, was just a black pillar in the darkness. He had only seen a light in it once.
After a few attempts he found the path down to the shore and followed the same route he had taken with Katrine and the children several times during the fall.
He could hear the sea in the darkness, feel the bitterly cold wind. Carefully he made his way down to the water, across the tufts of grass on the shore and the strip of sand, out onto the big blocks of stone that protected the lighthouses from the waves.
The waves were like slow breaths in the darkness tonight, thought Joakim. Like Katrine when they were making love-she would pull him down toward her in bed, holding him tight and breathing in his ear.
She had been stronger than him. It was Katrine who had decided they were moving here.
Joakim remembered how beautiful it had been on the coast when they came here for the first time. It had been a clear, sunny spring day at the beginning of May, and the manor house had looked like a wooden palace up above the glittering water.
When they had finished looking at the house, they had walked down to the shore, hand in hand along a narrow path through a field of wood anemones in full bloom.
Beneath the open sky on the coast the flat islands in the north seemed to magically float out at sea, covered in fresh
grass. There were birds everywhere: flocks of flycatchers, oystercatchers, and larks, soaring and diving. Small groups of black-and-white tufted ducks were bobbing along beyond the lighthouses, and closer to the shore swam mallards and grebes.
Joakim remembered Katrine’s face in the bright sunshine.
I really want to stay here, she had said.
He shivered. Then he clambered cautiously out onto the furthest block in the jetty and looked down into the black water.
This is where she’d stood.
The footprints in the sand had shown that Katrine had gone out onto the jetty alone. Then she had fallen or thrown herself in the water, and quickly sunk beneath the surface.
He had no answers. He only knew that at the moment when Katrine drowned, he had been standing in a cellar in Stockholm and heard her come in through the door.
Joakim had heard her calling. He was sure of it, and that meant that the world was even more incomprehensible than he had thought.
After half an hour or so in the cold, he went back up to the house.
His mother, Ingrid, was the only member of the family left after the funeral. She was sitting at the kitchen table and turned her head with a start when Joakim came in, a furrow of anxiety across her forehead. The furrow had got deeper and deeper over the years, first of all during her husband’s illness and then with every new crisis Ethel brought home.
“They’ve all gone now,” said Joakim. “Have the children gone to sleep?”
“I think so. Gabriel finished his bottle and fell asleep straightaway. But Livia was restless… she raised her head and called out to me when I crept out the first time.”
Joakim nodded and went over to the counter to make a pot of tea.
“She plays possum sometimes,” he said. “She pretends to be asleep to fool us.”
“She talked about Katrine.”
“Right. Do you want some tea?”
“No, I’m fine, thank you. Does she often do that, Joakim?”
“Not when she’s going to sleep.”
“What have you told her?”
“About Katrine?” said Joakim. “Not much. I’ve told her… that Mommy’s away.”
“That she’s gone away for a while… just like when I stayed in Stockholm while Katrine and the children were here. I can’t cope with telling her any more right now.” He looked at Ingrid and suddenly felt uneasy. “And what did you tell her tonight?”
“Nothing. That’s your job, Joakim.”
“I will tell her,” he said. “When you’ve gone… when there’s only me and the children here.”
Mommy’s dead, Livia. She drowned.
When would he be ready for that? It was just as impossible as the idea of slapping Livia across the face.
“Will you move back now?” asked Ingrid.
Joakim stared at her. He knew she wanted him to give up, but he still pretended to be surprised.
“Back? Back to Stockholm, you mean?”
Leave Katrine? he thought.
“Yes… I mean, I’m there after all,” said Ingrid.
“There’s nothing for me in Stockholm,” said Joakim.
“But you could buy back the house in Bromma, couldn’t you?”
“I can’t buy anything,” he said. “I haven’t got the money, Mom, even if I wanted to. All the money went into this place.”
“But you could sell…” Ingrid stopped and looked around the kitchen.
“Sell Eel Point?” said Joakim. “Who’d want the place in this state? It needs fixing up first… and Katrine and I were going to do that together.”
His mother said nothing as she gazed out of the window, her expression morose. Then she asked, “That woman at the funeral, the one who arrived late… was that Katrine’s mother? The artist?”
Joakim nodded. “That was Mirja Rambe.”
“I thought I recognized her from your wedding.”
“I didn’t know if she would turn up.”
“Well, of course she was going to turn up,” said Ingrid. “Katrine was her daughter, after all.”
“But they hardly had any contact with each other. I haven’t seen her once since the wedding.”
“Had they fallen out?”
“No… but I don’t think they were exactly friends. They called each other from time to time, but Katrine hardly ever talked about Mirja.”
“Does she live here?”
“No. She lives in Kalmar, I think.”
“Aren’t you going to get in touch with her?” said Ingrid. “I think you should.”
“I don’t think so,” said Joakim. “But we might bump into each other sometime. This is a small island, after all.”
He looked out of the window at the darkness of the inner courtyard. He didn’t want to see anyone at all. He wanted to lock himself in here in the manor house at Eel Point and never go out again. He didn’t want to look for a new teaching post, nor did he want to carry on working on the house.
He just wanted to sleep for the rest of his life, next to Katrine.
The November night was dry, but it was cold, dark, and foggy. The only light in the sky came from a pale half-moon behind a film of cloud as fine as silk.
Perfect weather for break-ins.
The house on the rocky northwest coast of the island lay up on the ridge and had been built recently; it was only a couple of years old. It had been designed by an architect, with lots of wood and glass. Commissioned and built by summer visitors with too much money, thought Henrik. He remembered that his grandfather had called rich people from the mainland “Stockholmers,” wherever they came from.
“Hubba bubba,” said Tommy, scratching his neck. “Let’s go.”
Freddy and Henrik followed him in the direction of the graveled slope below the house. All three were dressed in jeans and dark jackets, and Tommy and Henrik were carrying black rucksacks.
Before they set off northward from Borgholm, the Serelius brothers had had another session with the Ouija board in Henrik’s kitchen. An hour and a half before midnight they had lit three candles, and Tommy had set up the board on the kitchen table, with the glass in the middle.
Everything went quiet; the atmosphere thickened.
“Is there anybody there?” asked Tommy with his finger on the glass.
The question hung in the air for perhaps ten or fifteen seconds, then the glass jerked and moved to the side. It stopped on the word YES.
“Is it Aleister?”
The glass didn’t move.
“Is it a good night tonight, Aleister?” asked Tommy.
The glass remained on yes for a few more seconds.
Then it began to move toward the letters.
“Write it down!” Tommy hissed at Henrik.
Henrik wrote, with a cold, unpleasant feeling in his stomach.
Finally the glass was still again in the middle of the board. He looked down at the paper and read what he’d written:
“EEL POINT EEL POINT WORKS OF ART EEL POINT ALONE WALKS THERE,” he read.
“Eel Point?” said Tommy. “What the fuck is that?”
Henrik looked at the board. “I’ve been there… it’s the site of a lighthouse.”
“Is there a lot of art there?”
“Not that I saw.”
At around midnight Henrik and the Serelius brothers had parked the van behind a boathouse five hundred yards away, then remained among the rocks down by the shore until the last of the lights were switched off behind the shining picture windows on the upper floor. Then they had
waited for almost another half hour and each swallowed a dose of ice crystals before pulling the black hoods over their heads and beginning to move toward the house.
Henrik was a bit cold, but the ice had increased his pulse rate. The greater the risk, the greater the excitement. He hardly thought about Camilla at all on a night like this.
The sound of the waves, rhythmically swirling in over the gravel behind them, muffled the sound of their footsteps as they made their way almost silently up the steep slope.
An iron fence surrounded the whole garden, but Henrik knew there was an unlocked gate on the side facing the sea. They were soon in the shadows by the wall of the house.
The sliding door to the ground floor was made of glass, fastened with a simple catch, and Henrik took a hammer and chisel out of his rucksack. All it needed was a short sharp blow, and the catch was open.
The small wheels squeaked faintly as Tommy pushed the door to one side on its steel track, but the sound was barely louder than the sighing of the wind.
No alarm reverberated through the darkness.
Tommy stuck his masked head through the doorway. Then he turned and nodded to Henrik.
While Freddy stood guard by the door, they went into the warmth. The sound of the wind from the sea faded away, and the shadows in the house enveloped them.
They walked across a painted concrete floor into a fairly large cellar. There was a table in the middle of the room, a billiard table. There was plenty of stuff here.
Like a commando, Tommy indicated with a hand signal that they should split up, and Henrik nodded and went off to the left. There was a small bar along one side of the room, with a dozen or so bottles lined up. Five of them were unopened, and he carefully pushed them down into his rucksack, one after the other. Then he went further into the house, past the wooden staircase leading to the upper floor.
He went into a television room with a leather sofa. The
sofa was facing a small television and video, and he carried those over to Freddy by the outside door. Then he went back and took a look under the sofa.
There was something large and shiny under there. A set of golf clubs?
He bent down and pulled out a folded tarpaulin, with some effort. On top of it lay a complete set of diving equipment, with flippers, yellow oxygen tanks, some kind of pressure meter, and a black wetsuit. The stuff looked as if it had never been used; perhaps it had been bought the previous summer for some bored teenager who wanted to learn to dive but had changed their mind.
There was something else on the tarpaulin as well: an old hunting gun.
The rifle seemed to be well looked after, with a polished wooden butt and a shoulder strap of well-oiled leather. A small red cardboard box containing cartridges lay beside it.
Henrik took one thing at a time. He started by carrying out the oxygen tanks and bumped into Tommy, who was carrying a computer monitor to the outside door.
Tommy saw the tanks and nodded his approval.
“There’s more,” whispered Henrik, and went back.
He put the rest of the diving equipment under one arm and slung the gun over his shoulder. He pushed the box of cartridges into his rucksack. Then he went back to the sliding door, where Tommy was busy carrying out an exercise bike. That looked brand new as well, but Henrik shook his head.
“No room,” he whispered.
“It’ll fit,” said Tommy, “we’ll take it apart and-”
They heard a thud in the darkness.
A thud, followed by footsteps. The noise came from upstairs.
Then the light on the staircase was switched on.
“Hello?” called a man’s voice.
“Forget the bike!” hissed Henrik.
They all took to their heels at the same time. Out through the glass door, across the lawn, out through the gate and down to the shore. All three were laden with stolen goods, but it wasn’t far to the van across the pebbles.
Henrik put down what he was carrying, took a deep breath and looked around. There were lights everywhere in the house now, but no one seemed to be following them.
“Load up!” shouted Tommy, pulling off his hood and climbing in behind the wheel.
He started the engine without putting the headlights on.
Henrik and Freddy quickly pushed everything into the back of the van-rucksacks, TV, diving equipment…They had managed to bring everything down from the house, everything except the exercise bike. Henrik still had the gun over his shoulder.
Tommy floored the accelerator and the van shot away. Up onto the road and south along the coast. Not until they were out of sight of the house did he switch on the lights.
“Take the east road,” said Henrik.
“What are you scared of?” said Tommy. “Roadblocks?”
Henrik shook his head.
“Take it anyway.”
It was one-thirty now, but Henrik was wide awake, his heart pounding. They had done it. They had found gold on the coast. It was almost like before, like his outings with Mogge.
“We must do this again,” said Tommy once they were out on the main highway. “It was so fucking easy!”
“Reasonably easy,” said Henrik beside him. “We woke them up.”
“So what?” said Tommy. “What could he do? We were quicker, straight in and out.”
They came to a sign on the eastern road pointing down to a side track, and Tommy slammed on the brakes. Then he turned the wheel.
“Where are you going?”
“Just one last thing. Something really simple, before we go home.”
A tall white stone building appeared among the trees to the left of the track. Long and narrow and illuminated by spotlights.
A church, Henrik realized.
It was the white medieval church in Marnäs. He vaguely remembered that his grandparents were married there many decades ago.
“Is it open?” said Tommy, pulling in by the churchyard wall. He continued on for a few yards to a small graveled track next to the church, and braked in the shelter of some close-growing trees. “You can usually walk straight in.”
“Not at night,” said Henrik.
“So? In that case we’ll just have to break in.”
Henrik shook his head as Tommy switched off the engine.
“I’m not coming in,” he said.
“You two can do this on your own.”
Henrik had no intention of saying anything about his grandparents’ wedding in the Marnäs church. He just stared at Tommy, who nodded.
“Okay, you sit there and keep an eye open, then,” he said. “But if we find anything in there, it’s ours. Mine and my brother’s.”
Tommy took out the rucksack containing the tools, slammed the door of the van, and headed for the church, disappearing into the darkness with Freddy trailing along behind.
Henrik leaned back and waited. The darkness was dense among the trees. He thought about his grandmother, who had grown up around here.
The door of the van suddenly opened, and Henrik jumped.
It was Freddy. His eyes were shining, as they did after a particularly successful raid, and he was talking fast.
“Tommy’s on his way,” he said. “But look at this! There was a cupboard in the sacres… sacarest… What the fuck is it called?”
“The sacristy,” said Henrik.
“What do you think these might be worth?”
Henrik looked at the old candlesticks Freddy was holding out. Four of them; they looked like silver. Had they been there when his grandparents got married? There was a good chance.
Now Tommy was back at the van, sweaty and excited. “You can drive,” he said to Henrik. “I need to count all this.” He jumped into the passenger seat to the sound of clinking.
He had a plastic bag in his hand, which he emptied onto the seat between his legs. Coins and notes came pouring out.
“Their collection box was made of wood,” he said with a laugh. “It was right by the door, all I had to do was give it a kick.”
“Hundred-kronor notes,” said Freddy, leaning forward between the seats.
“I’m going to count them,” said Tommy, with a look at Henrik. “Just remember, this belongs to us.”
“You keep it,” said Henrik quietly.
He didn’t feel so good now. It was just too much, breaking into churches and stealing money that was meant to go to pensioners or people in Somalia with leprosy or whatever. Too fucking much. But what was done was done.
“What’s this?” said Tommy, bending down.
He had discovered the gun on the floor under the seat.
“I found it in the house,” said Henrik.
“Fucking hell.” Tommy picked it up. “It’s an old Mauser. Collectors love this sort of thing, but people still use them for hunting. They’re very reliable.”
He looked curiously along the barrel and pulled back the bolt.
“Take it easy with that thing,” said Henrik.
“It’s fine… the safety catch is on.”
“So you know about guns?”
“Sure,” said Tommy. “I used to hunt elk. When Dad was sober, we were always out in the forest.”
“You might as well take care of it, then,” said Henrik.
He started up the van and switched on the lights. He swung around and slowly drove out of the trees.
“Not too many more,” he said when they were back on the road.
“These trips, I can’t cope with many more.”
“We have to do a few more. Four more.”
“Two,” said Henrik. “I’ll go out with you twice more.”
Henrik was silent behind the wheel.
“A couple of places I know,” he said. “A priest’s house where there could be some jewelry. And maybe the manor house at Eel Point.”
“Eel Point?” said Tommy. “The one Aleister gave us a tip about.”
Henrik nodded, even thought he believed that the person moving the glass around the board was called Tommy, not Aleister.
“We can go up there and see if he was right,” said Tommy.
“Sure… but then that’s enough.”
Henrik stared gloomily at the empty road. Fuck. This was completely out of control-not at all like the trips with Mogge.
He should have tried harder to stop that last break-in.
Stealing from churches brought bad luck.
“The police are back in Marnäs now, and we’ve got our eye on every criminal. I want everyone in northern Öland to be aware of that fact.”
Inspector Holmblad certainly had a gift for public speaking, Tilda realized as she listened to him, and he seemed to like being in the center of things. He gazed out over the audience of a dozen or so who had gathered in the cold wind on the street outside the new police station in Marnäs-journalists, colleagues, and perhaps a couple of ordinary residents-and continued his inaugural speech:
“The local police is a new aspect of police work, a more personal police force… comparable with the beat constables in the old days, who knew everyone in the community where they worked. Of course, our society has become more complex since then, there are more networks, but our local police officers here in northern Öland are well prepared. They will be working together with clubs and companies and will be
devoting particular attention to crimes committed by young people.”
He paused. “Any questions?”
“What are you going to do about the graffiti around the square?” said an elderly man. “It’s a disgrace.”
“The police will be bringing in anyone who is caught spraying graffiti,” replied Holmblad. “We have the right to search them and to confiscate any aerosols, and we will of course be applying a zero tolerance approach in this matter. But vandalism is equally an issue for schools and parents.”
“And what about the thieving, then?” asked another male voice. “All these break-ins into churches and summer cottages?”
“Breaking and entering is one of the key targets for the local police force,” said Holmblad. “We will be making it a priority to solve these cases and to bring the perpetrators to justice.”
Tilda was standing behind her boss like a dummy, her back stiff and her eyes fixed firmly ahead. She was the only woman present, but would have preferred to be anywhere but Marnäs on this particular day. She would also have preferred to be someone else-not a police officer, at any rate. The uniform was too thick and too tight; it was suffocating her.
And she didn’t want to stand so close to her new colleague, Hans Majner.
The father of the family over on Eel Point, Joakim Westin, had written a critical letter to Ölands-Posten three days ago, about the police mix-up between his dead wife and his living daughter. He hadn’t mentioned anyone in particular by name, but after the letter had appeared Tilda thought that people on the streets of Marnäs had begun to stare at her in a different way, scrutinizing and judging her. And last night Holmblad had called her to say that she had to go out to Eel Point with him-to apologize.
“… and finally I have a couple of items for our new local police team, Hans Majner and Tilda Davidsson. The keys to the station and this…” Inspector Holmblad picked up a rectangular brown parcel that had been leaning against a desk. He opened it and took out an oil painting of a sailing ship, a three-masted ship out at sea in the middle of a violent storm. “This is a gift from Borgholm… a symbolic way of showing that we are all in the same boat.”
Holmblad handed over the painting and a bunch of keys each to Majner and Tilda with great ceremony. Majner unlocked the station door and invited everyone in with a sweeping gesture.
Tilda stepped to one side and let the men go in first.
The office had recently been cleaned, and the floor was spotless. On the walls were maps of Öland and the Baltic. Holmblad had ordered open-faced prawn sandwiches, which were laid out on a coffee table between Majner’s and Tilda’s workstations.
There were already several piles of paper on Tilda’s desk. She picked up one of the plastic folders and went over to her colleague.
Majner was standing by his own desk tucking into the sandwiches. He was talking to two male colleagues from Borgholm, who were laughing at something he’d just said.
“Hans, could you spare a moment?”
“Absolutely, Tilda.” Majner smiled at his colleagues and turned to her. “What is it?”
“I’d really like to talk about your message.”
“The message about the death at Eel Point.” Tilda moved to one side and Majner followed her. “You recognize this, I presume?”
She held up the piece of paper she had placed in the folder the day after she had received it from Majner. This was her proof.
Three names were written in ink on the note. The first was Livia Westin. The second was Katrine Westin. The third was Gabriel Westin.
Next to Livia’s name was a cross: †
“So?” said Majner, nodding. “Those were the names I got from the emergency call center.”
“Exactly,” said Tilda. “And you were supposed to mark the name of the person who drowned. That’s what I asked you to do.”
Majner was no longer smiling.
“You put the cross in front of Livia Westin’s name.”
“But that was wrong. It was the mother, Katrine Westin, who had drowned.”
Majner speared a few prawns with his fork and stuffed them in his mouth. He seemed completely uninterested in the conversation.
“Okay,” he said, munching on his prawns. “A mistake. Even the police make a mistake sometimes.”
“Yes, but it was your mistake,” said Tilda. “Not mine.”
Majner looked up at her.
“So you don’t trust me?” he said.
“Well, yes, but…”
“Good,” said Majner. “And just remember…”
“Are you two getting to know each other?” a voice interrupted them.
Inspector Holmblad had come to join them. Tilda nodded.
“We’re trying,” she said.
“Good. Don’t forget we’re going out after this, Tilda.”
Holmblad nodded and smiled and moved on, over to the reporter and photographer from the local paper.
Majner patted Tilda on the shoulder.
“It’s important to be able to rely on a colleague, Davidsson,” he said. “Don’t you agree?”
“Good,” said Majner. “Right or wrong… a police officer must be sure that he or she will always have backup. If anything happens.”
Then he turned his back on her and returned to his colleagues.
Tilda stood there, still wishing she was somewhere else.
“Right, Davidsson,” said Göte Holmblad half an hour later, when three quarters of the sandwiches had been eaten and the rest put away in the refrigerator. “We’d better get to our little meeting. We’ll take my car.”
At this point Tilda and the inspector were alone in the newly opened police station. Hans Majner had been one of the first to leave.
By this stage Tilda had decided she wasn’t even going to try to like him.
She put on her uniform cap, locked the station door, and went out to the car with Holmblad.
“We’re under no obligation to make a visit like this,” Holmblad explained when they were sitting in the car. “But Westin has called Kalmar a couple of times wanting to speak to me or someone else in authority, so I thought it would be a good idea to have a conversation with him face-to-face.” He started the car, pulled away from the sidewalk, and went on: “The important thing is to avoid official complaints and investigations. A visit like this isn’t an official gesture, but it usually clears up most misunderstandings.”
“I contacted Westin a few days after his wife’s death,” said Tilda, “but he wasn’t interested in talking at the time.”
“I can try to reason with him on this occasion,” said Holmblad. “That might work better. I mean, it isn’t a question of apologizing, but rather-”
“I have nothing to apologize for,” said Tilda. “I wasn’t the one who supplied the wrong information.”
“It was a colleague who gave me a note with a mark next to the wrong name. I just read it out.”
“Oh? But as you know, it’s best not to inform relatives of a death over the telephone. I think we all have to accept responsibility for the fact that routine procedure wasn’t followed on this occasion.”
“That’s what my colleague said,” said Tilda.
They left Marnäs and drove along the coast road, south toward Eel Point. The road was completely deserted this afternoon.
“I’ve been thinking about buying myself a house on the island for a long time,” said Holmblad, glancing across at the meadows along the shoreline. “Here on the eastern side.”
“It really is beautiful here.”
“Yes,” said Tilda. “This is where my family comes from, the villages around Marnäs. My father’s side of the family.”
“I see. Was that why you came back?”
“One of the reasons,” said Tilda. “The job was attractive too.”
“The job, yes,” said Holmblad. “Today it begins in earnest.”
A few minutes later they reached the yellow sign for Eel Point, and Holmblad turned off onto the winding gravel track.
They could see the lighthouses now, and the red buildings. This time Tilda was able to see the lighthouse keepers’ estate in daylight, even if gray cloud cover was hiding the sun.
Holmblad pulled up in front of the house and turned off the engine.
“Remember,” he said, “you don’t have to say anything if you don’t want to.”
Tilda nodded. Bottom of the heap-so keep quiet. Just like when she was little, at the dining table with her two older brothers.
In daylight the house at Eel Point seemed more appealing, thought Tilda, but it was still much too big for her to like the idea of living there.
Holmblad knocked on the glass pane in the kitchen door; the door opened after a minute or so.
“Good afternoon,” said Holmblad. “Here we are.”
Joakim Westin’s face had become even more gray, Tilda thought. She knew he was thirty-four, but he looked like a fifty-year-old. His eyes were dark and tired. He simply nodded at Holmblad and didn’t even acknowledge Tilda. Not even with a glance.
Westin disappeared into the darkness, and they followed him. Everything was neat and clean, no dust bunnies, but when Tilda looked around it was as if a gray film had settled over everything.
“Coffee?” asked Westin.
“Thank you, that would be good,” said Holmblad.
Westin went over to the coffeemaker.
“Are you on your own here now… you and the children?” asked Holmblad. “No relatives?”
“My mother has been staying with us,” said Westin, “but she’s gone back home to Stockholm.”
There was a silence. Holmblad adjusted his uniform.
“We’d very much like to start by expressing our regrets… and saying that this sort of thing simply shouldn’t happen,” he said. “The procedures with regard to informing relatives about a death fell down somewhat in this case.”
“You’ve got that right,” said Westin.
“Yes, we do regret what happened. But…”
“I thought it was my daughter,” said Westin.
“I thought my daughter had drowned. I thought that for several hours, all the way from Stockholm to Öland. And the only consolation… it wasn’t much of a consolation, but the only consolation was that my wife, Katrine, would be
there when I arrived, and she would be feeling even worse than me. Then at least I would be able to try and console her, for the rest of our lives.” Westin paused, then went on very quietly: “We would have each other, at least.”
He fell silent, gazing out of the window.
“As I said, our sincere regrets,” said Holmblad. “But it’s happened now… and we have to make sure that it doesn’t happen again. To a relative of someone else, I mean.”
Westin hardly seemed to be listening. He was studying his hands as Holmblad stopped speaking, then he asked, “How’s the investigation going?”
“The police investigation. Into my wife’s death.”
“There is no investigation,” said the inspector quickly. “We carry out investigations or preliminary investigations only when a crime is suspected, and in this case there are no grounds for suspicion.”
Westin looked up from the table. “So what happened was nothing out of the ordinary?”
“Well, of course it wasn’t exactly normal,” said Holmblad, “but…”
Westin took a deep breath and continued: “My wife said goodbye to me outside the house that morning. Then she went inside and scraped windows. Then she made herself some lunch, and after that she went down to the shore. And then she walked right to the end of the jetty and jumped into the water. Does that seem normal to you?”
“Nobody’s saying it was suicide,” said Holmblad. “But as I said, there are no grounds to suspect any kind of crime. For example, if she’d had a couple of glasses of wine with her lunch and then walked along stones that were slippery…”
“Do you see any bottles around here?” Westin interrupted him.
Tilda looked around. There were in fact no bottles of wine in the kitchen.
“Katrine didn’t drink,” Westin went on. “She didn’t drink alcohol. You could have checked that out with a blood test.”
“I don’t drink either. There is no alcohol here at all.”
“May I ask why?” said Holmblad. “Are you religious?”
Joakim looked at him, as if the questions were insolent. And perhaps they were, thought Tilda.
“We have seen what drink and drugs can do,” he said eventually. “We don’t want that kind of stuff in our house.”
“I understand,” said Holmblad.
There was silence in the big kitchen. Tilda looked out of the window toward the lighthouses and the sea. She thought about Gerlof, about his constant curiosity.
“Did your wife have any enemies?” she asked suddenly.
From the corner of her eye Tilda could see Holmblad looking at her as if she had suddenly appeared out of nowhere at the kitchen table.
Joakim Westin also seemed surprised by the question. Not annoyed, just surprised.
“No,” he said. “Neither of us has any enemies.”
But Tilda thought he seemed hesitant, as if there were more to say.
“So she hadn’t been threatened by anyone here on the island?”
Westin shook his head. “Not as far as I know… Katrine has been living here alone with the children over the past few months. I’ve only come down from Stockholm on the weekends. But she hasn’t mentioned anything like that.”
“So she seemed perfectly normal before she died?”
“More or less,” said Joakim Westin, looking down into his coffee cup. “A bit tired and low, maybe… Katrine was finding it quite hard to be alone while I was working in Stockholm.”
Silence fell again.
“May I use your bathroom?” said Tilda.
Westin nodded. “Out through the porch and it’s to the right along the corridor.”
Tilda left the kitchen. She found her way easily; after all, she had been in the house before.
The smell of paint had almost gone from the porch and corridors now, and the house felt a little more lived in.
In the corridor leading to the bedrooms a painting had been hung up recently. It was an oil painting depicting a grayish-white landscape-it looked like northern Öland in the winter. A snowstorm was swirling over the island, blurring all the contours. Tilda couldn’t remember having seen the island depicted in such a dark, forbidding way before, and remained standing in front of the picture for a while before she went on to the bathroom.
It was small but warm, tiled from floor to ceiling, with a thick blue rug on the floor and an old-fashioned bathtub standing on four lion’s paws made of cast iron. When she had finished, she went back into the corridor and past the closed doors leading to the children’s rooms. She stopped at the next bedroom along; the door was half open.
A quick look?
Tilda poked her head in and glimpsed a small room with a big double bed. There was a small bureau next to the bed, with a framed photograph of Katrine Westin, waving from a window.
Then Tilda saw the clothes.
A dozen or so hangers with women’s clothes on them were hung around the bedroom walls like pictures. Sweaters, pants, tops, blouses.
The double bed had been neatly made, and a white nightgown lay tidily folded on one pillow-as if it had been placed there in the expectation that the woman who owned it would come and put it on when darkness fell.
Tilda looked at the strange collection of clothes for a long time, then backed out of the bedroom.
On the way back to the kitchen she heard the inspector’s voice:
“Well, time we were getting back to our duties.”
Göte Holmblad had finished his coffee and got up from the table.
The atmosphere in the room seemed less tense now. Joakim Westin stood up and glanced briefly at both Tilda and Holmblad.
“Fine,” he said. “Thank you for coming.”
“No problem,” said Holmblad, and added, “Of course you are at liberty to pursue this matter, I want you to know that, but of course we would very much appreciate it if…”
Westin shook his head. “I won’t be taking it any further…
He accompanied them into the hallway. Out on the steps he shook hands with both officers.
“Thanks for the coffee,” said Tilda.
Dusk had fallen, and there was a smell of burning leaves in the air. Down by the shore the lighthouse was flashing.
“Our constant companion,” said Westin, nodding toward the light.
“Do you have to take care of the lighthouses in any way?” asked Holmblad.
“No, they’re automated.”
“I heard the stones they used to build them were taken from an old abandoned chapel,” said Tilda, pointing toward the forest in the north. “It was somewhere down by the point.”
It felt as if she were showing off and trying to play the tourist guide, but Westin was actually listening.
“Who told you that?”
“Gerlof,” said Tilda, and explained: “He’s my grandfather’s brother over in Marnäs; he knows quite a bit about Eel Point. If you want to know more, I can ask him…”
“Sure,” said Westin. “Tell him he’s welcome to come over for coffee sometime.”
When they were back in the car, Tilda looked over at the big house. She thought about all those silent rooms. Then she thought about the clothes hanging on the walls in the bedroom.
“He’s not feeling too good,” she said.
“Of course he isn’t,” said Holmblad. “He’s grieving, after all.”
“I wonder how the children are doing?”
“Small children forget pretty quickly,” said Holmblad.
He pulled out onto the coast road heading for Marnäs and glanced over at Tilda.
“Those questions you asked in the kitchen were a little… unexpected, Davidsson. Did you have something in particular in mind?”
“No… it was really just a way of making contact with him.”
“Well, maybe it worked.”
“We could probably have asked him a lot more.”
“I think he had things to tell us.”
“I don’t know,” said Tilda. “Maybe… family secrets.”
“Everybody has secrets,” said Holmblad. “Suicide or accident? That’s the question… but it’s not our job to investigate.”
“But we could look for traces,” said Tilda, “quite impartially.”
“Traces of what?”
“Well… of someone else at the scene.”
“The only traces that were found were of the dead woman,” said Holmblad. “Besides which, Westin was the last person to see his wife. He said that, after all. In which case, if we’re going to look for a murderer, we need to start with him.”
“I was thinking, if I have time to…”
“You’re not going to have any time, Davidsson,” Holmblad
went on. “Local police officers are always short of time. You’ll be visiting schools, picking up drunks, stopping the graffiti, investigating break-ins, patrolling the streets of Marnäs, and keeping an eye on the traffic on the roads outside town. And you’ll also be sending reports to Borgholm.”
Tilda thought for a moment.
“In other words,” she said, “if there’s any time left after all that, I can knock on doors in the properties around Eel Point and look for witnesses to Katrine Westin’s death. That would be okay, wouldn’t it?”
Holmblad looked out through the windshield, without a smile.
“I suspect I’ve got a future inspector sitting next to me,” he said.
“Thanks,” said Tilda, “but I’m not looking for promotion.”
“That’s what they all say.” Holmblad sighed, as if he were contemplating his own career choices. “Do what you want,” he said eventually. “As I said, you’re responsible for organizing your own time, Davidsson, but if you find anything you must hand it over to the experts. The important thing is that you report all activities to Borgholm.”
“I love paperwork,” said Tilda.
When the abyss suddenly opens up, Katrine-what do you do then? Stay where you are, or jump?
At the end of the 1950s, I was sitting on a train in northern Öland next to an old woman on her way to Borgholm. Her name was Ebba Lind; she was the daughter of a lighthouse keeper, and when she heard that I lived at Eel Point, she told me a story about the manor house. It was about what happened the day before she went up into the loft with a knife and carved her brother’s name and dates into a plank in the wall: PETTER LIND 1885-1900.
– MIRJA RAMBE
It is the first year of the new century. There is not a breath of wind on this sunny Wednesday, the last in January, but Eel Point is completely cut off from the outside world.
The blizzard moved in across Öland the previous week, and for twelve hours the entire coast was covered in snow. Now the wind has died away, but the temperature outside is minus fifteen degrees. The road has disappeared under great mounds of snow several feet deep, and the families at the manor have received neither mail nor visitors for six days. The animals still have plenty of fodder in the barn, but there aren’t many potatoes left and as usual there isn’t much wood.
Brother and sister Petter and Ebba Lind have gone out to chop up blocks of ice, which will be buried in the food cellar at the manor to keep the food cool when the spring comes. They clambered over the white ramparts of ice and snow down by the shore at Eel Point after breakfast. The sun was just coming up, shining over an unbroken sea of ice covered in snow. They went past the last island at about nine o’clock,
out into a sparkling world of great expanses of snow and sunbeams.
They are walking on the water now, just as Jesus did. The snow that covers the ice crunches beneath their boots.
Petter is fifteen, two years older than Ebba. He leads the way, but stops and looks back from time to time.
“Okay?” he asks.
“Fine,” says Ebba.
“Are you warm enough?”
She nods, almost too out of breath to talk.
“Do you think we’ll be able to see southern Gotland out there?” she asks.
Petter shakes his head. “I think it’s too flat… and a bit too far away.”
After another half hour or so they can finally see open water beyond the ice. The crests of the waves glitter in the sun, but the sea is coal black.
There are many birds out here. Flocks of long-tailed ducks have gathered out at sea, and closer to the ice a pair of swans are swimming. A sea eagle is circling above the line dividing the water and the ice. Ebba thinks it is watching something, perhaps the ducks-but suddenly the eagle swoops and soars upward again with something slender and black in its talons. She shouts to Petter:
“Look at that!”
Eels, there are lots and lots of shiny eels wriggling on the ice. Hundreds of eels that have crawled up out of the sea and can’t get back. Petter hurries over to them and puts his ice saw down in the snow.
“We’ll catch some,” he calls, bending down and opening his rucksack. The eels slither away from him, try to wriggle away, but he follows them and grabs hold of one. Then he picks up more, half a dozen, and his rucksack comes to life and starts writhing around as the eels wind themselves around one another trying to find a way out.
Ebba moves further north and starts to collect some eels
of her own. She picks them up by their flat tails to avoid their sharp little teeth, but they are slimy and difficult to get hold of. But there is plenty of meat on them; every female weighs several pounds.
She pushes two into her rucksack and chases a third, which she also manages to catch eventually.
The air has grown colder. She looks up and sees that the feathery cirrus clouds have drifted west from the horizon and settled like a veil over the sun. Lower, darker rain clouds have followed them, and the wind has gotten up once again.
Ebba has not noticed that the wind has increased, but now she hears the sound of breaking waves out in the open sea.
“Petter!” she shouts. “Petter, we have to go back!”
He is over a hundred yards away among the eels on the ice, and doesn’t seem to hear her.
The waves are getting higher and higher, they are beginning to swirl in across the white edge, making the ice cover slowly begin to rise and fall. Ebba can feel it swaying.
She lets go of the eel she has caught and begins to run toward Petter. But then she hears a terrible sound. Cracks like thunder-not from the clouds in the sky, but from the ice beneath her feet.
It is the deep roar that comes when the waves and the wind make the ice cover break apart.
“Petter!” she shouts again, more afraid than ever.
He has stopped catching eels now and turned around. But he is still almost a hundred yards away from her.
Then Ebba hears a sharp explosion like a shot from a cannon very close by, and she sees the ice opening up. A black crack has appeared in all that whiteness, a dozen or so yards closer inland.
The water is pushing the ice apart. The crack is widening rapidly.
Instinctively Ebba forgets everything else and begins to run. When she stops at the crack, it is almost three feet wide, and it is growing all the time.
Ebba cannot swim, and is afraid of water. She looks at the crack and turns around in despair.
Petter is on his way to her; he is running with his hand over his rucksack but is still more than fifty steps away. He waves toward the land.
She leaps, straight over the black water.
She just manages to land on the far edge of the ice, stumbles and rolls over.
Petter is left alone on the big ice floe. He reaches the edge just thirty seconds or so after Ebba, but by now the crack is several yards wide. He stops and hesitates, and it grows even wider.
The brother and sister stare at each other in terror. Petter shakes his head and points toward the shore.
“You have to fetch help, Ebba! They need to get a boat out!”
Ebba nods and turns away. She races off across the ice.
The wind and the waves continue to break up the ice, and the cracks pursue her. Twice new abysses open up in front of her, but she manages to leap across.
She turns around and sees Petter one last time. He is standing alone on a gigantic ice floe beyond a black gulf that is growing all the time.
Then she has to start running again. The thundering roar as the ice breaks up echoes along the coastline.
Ebba runs and runs with the increasing wind at her back, and now finally she can see the manor between the lighthouses-her home. But the big estate is just a little dark red clump on the land; she is still far out on the ice. She prays to God, for Petter and for herself, and prays to Him to forgive them for going so far out.
She leaps across a fresh crack, slips, but carries on running.
Eventually she reaches the ramparts of ice at the edge of the sea. She gets down on all fours and scrambles over them, sniveling and sobbing. She’s safe now.
Ebba gets up and looks back. The horizon has disappeared behind a veil of fog.
The ice floes have gone too. They have drifted east, off toward Finland and Russia.
Ebba carries on up the shore, sobbing. She knows she must hurry back to the house now and get the lighthouse keepers to put out to sea in their boats. But where are they to look for Petter?
The last of her strength gives out, and she falls to her knees in the snow.
Up on the hill the house at Eel Point looks down on her. The roof of the manor house is white with snow, but the windows are as black as coal.
As black as holes in the ice, or as black as angry eyes. Ebba imagines that God has eyes like that.
One day at a time.
They never talked about it, but Livia and Gabriel seemed to be under the impression that their mother had simply gone away, and would be back. It wasn’t good, but at the same time Joakim had almost begun to believe it himself.
Katrine had gone away on holiday, but perhaps she would come back to the manor house.
The day after the police officers’ visit to Eel Point, he was standing in the kitchen looking out of the window. There were no birds heading south over the house on this November day, just a few stray gulls circling over the sea.
He had driven the children into Marnäs a couple of hours earlier and had planned to do some food shopping afterward. He had gone into the store on the square, but had just stood there.
So many things for sale, so many advertisements.
A poster over by the meat counter seemed to be offering lean bone fever, only 39:50 a pound.
Lean bone fever? He must have misread it, but he was suddenly afraid to go closer and find out what it really said. He backed slowly out of the store.
Joakim couldn’t cope with shopping for food.
He had driven back home. He had walked into the vast silence and taken off his outdoor clothes. Then he had gone over to stand by the window. He had no other plans, just to stand here as long as possible.
In front of him on the pale wood of the kitchen counter lay a forgotten lettuce on a dish. Had he bought it, or Katrine? He couldn’t remember, but over the past few days it had begun to turn black inside its plastic bag. Putrefaction in the kitchen wasn’t a good sign; he ought to throw it away.
He hadn’t the energy.
He took a last glance out of the kitchen window, toward all the grayness that was empty water and an overcast sky off Eel Point, and came up with a new plan: he would go and lie down, and never leave his bed again.
Joakim went into the bedroom and lay down full length on the double bed. He stared up at the ceiling. Katrine had taken down the ugly sheets of plasterboard that had been nailed up there, and had re-created the original white ceiling that had been there before, perhaps since the nineteenth century.
The ceiling looked good, it was like lying beneath a white cloud.
Suddenly he heard a tentative knocking through the silence. Hard knuckles against rattling glass.
Joakim turned his head.
Bad news? He was always ready for more bad news.
The knocking came again, more energetic this time.
It was coming from the kitchen door.
Slowly he got up from the bed, went through the kitchen and out into the hallway.
Through the glass he could see two people dressed in dark clothes standing on the steps outside.
It was a woman and a man of Joakim and Katrine’s age. The man was wearing a suit, the woman a dark blue coat and skirt. Both smiled pleasantly at him as he opened the door.
“Hi,” said the woman. “We’re Filip and Miriam. May we come in?”
He nodded and opened the door wide. Were they from the funeral director’s office in Marnäs? He didn’t recognize them, but several people from the office had been in touch over the past few weeks. They’d all been very nice.
“Oh, this is lovely,” said the woman as they walked into the kitchen.
The man looked around, nodded and turned to Joakim. “We’re traveling around the island this month,” he said, “and we noticed someone was home.”
“We live here all year round… my wife and I and our two children,” said Joakim. “Would you like some coffee?”
“Thank you, but we don’t use caffeine,” said Filip, sitting down at the kitchen table.
“What’s your name?” said Miriam. “If you don’t mind my asking.”
“Joakim, we would really like to give you something. Something important.”
Miriam took something out of her bag and placed it on the table in front of Joakim. It was a brochure.
“Look at that. Isn’t it beautiful?”
Joakim looked at the slim brochure. On the cover was a drawing of a green meadow beneath a blue sky. In the meadow sat a man and a woman in white clothes. The man had his arm around a lamb that had lain down on the grass, and the woman had her arm around a big lion. They were smiling at each other.
“Isn’t that paradise?” said Miriam.
Joakim looked up at her. “I thought this place was paradise,” he said. “Not now, but before.”
Miriam looked at him in confusion for a few seconds. Then she began to smile again.
“Jesus died for us,” said Miriam. “He died so that things could be as wonderful as this for us.”
Joakim looked at the drawing again and nodded. “Wonderful.” He pointed at the huge mountains in the background. “Fantastic mountains.”
“It’s the kingdom of heaven,” said Miriam.
“We go on living after death, Joakim,” said Filip, leaning across the table as if he were revealing a great secret. “Eternal life… isn’t that fantastic?”
Joakim nodded. He couldn’t stop looking at the drawing. He had seen brochures like this before, but had never realized how beautiful the pictures of paradise were.
“I’d really like to live in those mountains,” he said.
Fresh mountain air. He could have lived there with Katrine. But the island they had moved to was completely flat; there were no mountains. And no Katrine…
Joakim suddenly found it difficult to breathe. He leaned forward, feeling thick tears welling up in his throat.
“Don’t you feel… don’t you feel well?” said Miriam.
He shook his head, leaned over the table, and began to cry. No, he didn’t feel well. He wasn’t well, he was suffering from lean bone fever.
Oh, Katrine… and Ethel…
He wept and sniveled uncontrollably for several minutes at the kitchen table, shut off from the outside world. Somewhere in the distance he could hear whispering voices and the gentle scraping of chairs, but he couldn’t stop weeping. He felt a warm hand on his shoulder, which remained there for a few seconds before it was removed. Then the outside door closed gently.
When he finally blinked away the tears, he was alone. He heard the sound of a car starting up outside.
The brochure with the people and the animals in the meadow was still on the table. When the sound of the engine had died away, Joakim sniveled in the silence and looked at the drawing.
He had to do something. Anything.
With a tired sigh he stood up and threw the brochure in the trash can under the sink.
The house was completely silent around him. He went along the corridor into the empty drawing room and looked for a long time at the tins, bottles, and rags that were lined up on the floor. Katrine had obviously started cleaning the window frames the week before.
She had had much clearer views on the décor than Joakim, and had chosen all the colors, wallpaper, and wooden detailing throughout. And the material had already been bought; it was lying on the floor by the walls waiting to be used.
Joakim sighed again.
Then he opened a bottle of cleanser and picked up a rag. He started working on the window frames, stubborn and focused.
The sound of the rag rubbing against the wood sounded desolate in the silence.
Don’t press too hard, Kim, he heard Katrine saying in the back of his head.
The weekend came. The children were at home, playing in Livia’s room.
Joakim had finished the windows in the big room, and this Saturday he was going to start wallpapering the room in the southwest corner. He had set up a table and mixed a bucket of wallpaper paste after breakfast.
This was a smaller bedroom, that, like many of the others, had a 120-year-old tiled stove in one corner. The flower-patterned wallpaper in most of the rooms looked as if it dated
from the beginning of the twentieth century, but unfortunately it was too badly damaged to be preserved. There were a huge number of damp stains, and in some places the paper had been hanging off in long strips. Katrine had pulled them away earlier in the fall and then smoothed down the walls, filled in the holes, and prepared everything ready for wallpapering.
Katrine had particularly liked this little corner room.
But Joakim wasn’t going to call up any more memories of her right now. He wasn’t going to think, he was just going to wallpaper.
He picked up the rolls of zinc-white paper, a heavy English handmade wallpaper of the same type they had used in the Apple House. Then he picked up the knife and the long ruler and started cutting lengths.
He and Katrine had always done the wallpapering together.
Joakim sighed, but started working. It wasn’t possible to get stressed out when you were wallpapering, and so the work turned into something close to meditation. He was a monk; the house was his monastery.
When he had put up the first four lengths and smoothed them down with a brush, Joakim suddenly heard a faint thudding noise. He got down from the ladder and listened. The thuds were regular, with a few seconds in between, and they were coming from outside.
He went over to the window facing out from the back of the house and opened it. Bitterly cold air swept in.
A boy was standing on the grass down below, perhaps a year or two older than Livia. At his feet he had a yellow plastic soccer ball. The boy had curly brown hair, poking out from underneath a woolen winter hat; his padded jacket was inaccurately buttoned, and he was looking up at Joakim with some curiosity.
“Hi,” said Joakim.
“Hi,” said the boy.
“It’s not a good idea to kick your ball around here,” said Joakim. “You could break a window if your aim isn’t great.”
“I’m aiming at the wall,” said the boy. “I always hit what I’m aiming at.”
“Good. What’s your name?”
The boy rubbed his nose, red with the cold, with the palm of his hand.
“Where do you live?”
He pointed toward the farm. So Andreas was one of the Carlsson family’s children, out and about on his own this Saturday morning.
“Would you like to come in?” said Joakim.
“You can say hello to Livia and Gabriel,” said Joakim. “They’re my children…Livia’s the same age as you.”
“I’m seven,” said Andreas. “Is she seven?”
“No. But she’s almost the same age as you.”
Andreas nodded. He rubbed his nose again, then made a decision.
“For a little while. We’ll be eating soon.”
He picked up his ball and disappeared around the side of the house.
Joakim closed the window and went out of the room.
“Livia, Gabriel!” he shouted. “We’ve got a visitor.”
After a few seconds his daughter appeared, clutching Foreman in her hand.
“There’s someone here who wants to meet you.”
“A boy?” Livia opened her eyes wide. “I don’t want to meet him. What’s his name?”
“Andreas. He lives on the farm next door.”
“But Daddy, I don’t know him.”
There was panic in her voice, but before Joakim had the chance to say something sensible about the fact that meeting new people isn’t going to make you ill, the outside door opened and Andreas walked into the porch. He stopped on the doormat.
“Come on in, Andreas,” said Joakim. “Take off your cap and your jacket.”
The boy took off his outdoor clothes and dropped them on the floor.
“Have you been in this house before?”
“No. It’s always locked.”
“Not now, it’s open now. We live here now.”
Andreas looked at Livia and she looked back, but neither of them said hello.
Gabriel was peeping out shyly from his room, but he didn’t say anything either.
“I helped bring our cows in,” said Andreas after a while, looking around the room. “From the enclosure out there.”
“Today?” said Joakim.
“No, last week. They have to stay in now. Otherwise they’d freeze to death.”
“That’s true, everybody needs heat in the wintertime,” said Joakim. “Cows and birds and people.”
Livia was still staring curiously at Andreas without joining in the conversation. Joakim had also been shy when he was little; it was a shame if she had inherited that particular characteristic.
“You could kick the soccer ball around for a while,” he said. “I know a great room you could use.”
He led the way into the house, with the children following along behind. They trooped into the large drawing room, which was still almost completely unfurnished; there were just a couple of dining chairs and few cardboard boxes on the floor.
“You can play in here,” said Joakim, stacking three of the boxes in front of the window to protect it.
Andreas dropped the ball, dribbled it tentatively, then kicked it across the wooden floor to Livia. Dust swirled up like a fine gray mist.
Livia kicked at the ball as it came speeding toward her. She missed. Gabriel scampered after it, but couldn’t catch up.
“Stop it with your foot first,” said Joakim to the children, “then you’ll be able to control it.”
Livia gave him a sour look, as if she could do without the good advice, thank you. Then she quickly turned and captured the ball between her feet in one corner of the room and kicked it back hard.
“Good shot,” said Andreas.
Little flirt, thought Joakim, but Livia was smiling contentedly.
“Go and stand over there,” said Andreas, pointing to the other doorway. “You can be in goal and we’ll shoot.”
Livia quickly ran over to the double doors, and Joakim left the room and went back along the corridor to his wallpapering. He could hear the ball bouncing across the floor behind him.
“Goal!” he heard Andreas shout, and Livia and Gabriel shrieked before all three of them started laughing.
Joakim loved the happy noises spreading through the house. Very good, he had sorted out a friend for his children.
He stuck his brush in the bucket of paste, stirred it around, and made a start on the long wall. Length after length of paper went up; the room changed color and gradually became lighter. Joakim smoothed out the bubbles and wiped away the excess paste with a damp sponge.
When only a couple of feet of the old wallpaper remained, he realized that the echoing children’s voices could no longer be heard from the drawing room.
The house was completely silent again.
Joakim climbed down from his ladder and listened.
“Livia?” he called. “Gabriel? Would you like some juice? And cookies?”
He listened for a while longer, then went out of the room and along the corridor. But halfway to the drawing room he looked out of the window into the courtyard and stopped.
The door to the big barn was standing ajar.
It had been shut before, hadn’t it?
Then he saw that Andreas Carlsson’s outdoor clothes had gone from the floor.
Joakim pulled on a jacket and a pair of boots and went out into the courtyard.
The children must have pulled the heavy door open together. Maybe they had gone inside too, into the darkness.
Joakim went across and stopped in the doorway of the barn.
Were they playing hide-and-seek? He walked across the stone floor, breathing in the smell of old hay.
They had talked about turning the barn into a gallery, he and Katrine, sometime in the future when they had cleared out all the hay, the dung, and all the other traces of the animals who had lived there.
He was thinking about Katrine again, although he shouldn’t. But on the morning of the day she drowned, he had seen her coming out of the barn. She had looked embarrassed, as if he had caught her out.
Nothing was moving inside the barn, but Joakim thought he could hear a tapping or creaking noise from the hayloft up above, like footsteps.
A narrow, steep wooden staircase led up to the loft, and he grabbed hold of the sides and began to climb.
Coming into the loft from the dark passageways and stalls down below was almost like walking into a church, he
thought. Up here there was just a big open space for the hay to dry-an open-plan solution, as the agents liked to call it-and the roof arched high above him in the darkness. Thick beams ran the length of the loft several feet above Joakim’s head.
Unlike the upper floor of the main house, it was impossible to get lost up here, even if it was difficult to pick your way through all the garbage that had been piled up on the floor.
Heaps of newspapers, flowerpots, broken chairs, old sewing machines-the hayloft had become a dumping ground. A couple of tractor tires, almost as tall as a man, were leaning up against a wall. How had they got those up here?
When he saw the untidy loft, Joakim suddenly remembered dreaming that Katrine was standing up here. But the floor had been clean, and she had been standing over by the far wall with her back to him. He had been afraid to go over to her.
The winter wind was like a faint whisper above the roof of the barn. He didn’t really like being alone up here in the cold.
“Livia?” he shouted.
The wooden floor creaked in front of him, but he got no other answer. Perhaps the children had hidden in the darkness; they were probably spying on him from the shadows.
They were hiding from him. He looked around and listened.
“Katrine?” he said quietly.
No reply. He waited in the darkness for several minutes, but when the silence in the hayloft remained unbroken, he turned and went back down the steps.
When he got back into the house, he found his children where he should have looked in the first place-in Livia’s bedroom.
Livia was sitting on the floor drawing, as if nothing had happened. Gabriel had obviously been given permission by
his big sister to be in there, because he had fetched some toy cars from his room and was sitting beside her.
“Where have you been?” Joakim asked, more sharply than he had intended.
Livia looked up from her drawing. Katrine had never painted for pleasure even though she was an art teacher, but Livia enjoyed drawing.
“Here,” she said, as if it were perfectly obvious.
“But before…Did you go outside? You and Andreas and Gabriel?”
“For a little while.”
“You mustn’t go in the barn,” said Joakim. “Did you hide in there?”
“No. There’s nothing to do in the barn.”
“He went home. They were going to eat.”
“Okay. We’ll be eating soon too. But don’t go outside again without telling me, Livia.”
The night after Joakim had been out in the barn, Livia started talking in her sleep again.
She had gone to bed with no trouble that night. Gabriel had fallen asleep at around seven, and while Joakim was helping Livia to brush her teeth in the bathroom she had studied his head at close quarters with considerable curiosity.
“You’ve got funny ears, Daddy,” she said eventually.
Joakim put his daughter’s mug and toothbrush back on the shelf and asked: “What do you mean?”
“Your ears look so… old.”
“I see. But they’re no older than I am. Have they got hair in them?”
“Good,” said Joakim. “Hair in your nose and ears isn’t exactly cool… or in your mouth.”
Livia wanted to stay in front of the mirror for a while pulling faces, but Joakim gently led her out of the bathroom. He put her to bed, and read the story twice about Emil getting his head stuck in the soup bowl, then turned off the light. As he was leaving the room he could hear her wriggling further down the bed and snuggling her head into the pillow.
Katrine’s woolen sweater still lay beside her in the bed.
He went into the kitchen, made himself a couple of sandwiches, and switched on the dishwasher. Then he turned out all the lights. In the darkness he groped his way back to his own bedroom and switched on the main light.
There it stood, the cold, empty double bed. And on the walls above it hung clothes. Katrine’s clothes, which by now had lost all trace of her scent. Joakim ought to take them down, but not tonight.
He turned off the light, got into bed, and lay there motionless in the darkness.
Livia’s voice made Joakim raise his head, wide awake.
He listened. The dishwasher in the kitchen had finished, and the clock radio was showing 11:52. He had slept for over an hour.
The cry came again; Joakim got out of bed and went back to Livia’s room. He stood in the doorway until he heard her again:
He went over to the bed. Livia was lying under the covers with her eyes closed, but by the glow of the light out in the corridor Joakim could see her head moving restlessly on the pillow. Her hand was clutching Katrine’s sweater, and he carefully released it.
“Mommy isn’t here,” he said quietly, folding up the sweater.
“Yes, she is.”
“Go to sleep now, Livia.”
She opened her eyes and recognized him.
“I can’t sleep, Daddy.”
“Yes, you can.”
“No,” said Livia. “You have to sleep here.”
Joakim sighed, but Livia was wide awake now, and there was nothing else for it. This had always been Katrine’s job.
Cautiously he lay down on the edge of the bed. It was too short, he’d never be able to get to sleep.
He fell asleep after two minutes.
There was someone outside the house.
Joakim opened his eyes in the darkness. He couldn’t hear anything, but he could feel that they had a visitor.
He was fully awake again.
What time was it? He had no idea. He might have slept for several hours.
He raised his head and listened. The house was silent and still. The only sound was the faint ticking of a clock-and the barely audible breathing in the darkness beside him.
He sat up silently and carefully got off the bed. But after only three steps he heard the voice behind him:
“Don’t go, Daddy.”
He stopped and turned around.
Livia was lying motionless, facing the wall. But was she awake?
Joakim couldn’t see her face, just her blonde hair. He went back to the bed and sat down cautiously beside her.
“Are you asleep, Livia?” he asked quietly.
After a few seconds came the reply:
She sounded awake, but relaxed.
“Are you sleeping?”
“No… I can see things.”
“In the wall.”
She was talking in a monotone, her breathing slow and calm. Joakim leaned closer to her head in the darkness.
“What can you see?”
“Lights, water… shadows.”
“Can you see any people?”
She was silent again, before the reply came:
Joakim stiffened. He held his breath, suddenly afraid that this was serious-that Livia was asleep, and really could see things through the wall. Don’t ask any more questions, he thought. Go to bed.
But he had to carry on:
“Where can you see Mommy?” he asked.
“Behind the light.”
“Can you see-”
Livia interrupted him, speaking with greater intensity:
“Everybody’s standing there waiting. And Mommy’s with them.”
“Who? Who’s waiting?”
She didn’t reply.
Livia had talked in her sleep before, but never as clearly as this. Joakim still suspected that she was awake, that she was just playing games with him. But he still couldn’t stop asking questions:
“How’s Mommy feeling?”
“She wants to come in.”
“Tell her…” Joakim swallowed, his mouth dry. “Tell her she can come in any time.”
“Can’t she get to us?”
“Not in the house.”
“Can you talk to her?”
Silence. Joakim spoke slowly and clearly:
“Can you ask Mommy… what she was doing down by the water?”
Livia lay motionless in the bed. There was no response, but he still didn’t want to give up.
“Livia? Can you talk to Mommy?”
“She wants to come in.”
Joakim straightened up in the darkness and didn’t ask any more. The whole thing felt hopeless.
“You must try-”
“She wants to talk,” Livia broke in.
“Does she?” he asked. “About what? What does Mommy want to say?”
But Livia said nothing more.
Joakim said nothing either, he just got up slowly from the bed. His knees creaked; he had been sitting in the same position with his back rigid for too long.
He moved silently over to the blind and peeked out from the back of the house. He could see his own transparent reflection in the windowpane, like a misty shape-but not much beyond it.
There was no moon, no stars. Clouds covered the sky. The grass in the meadow rippled slightly in the wind, but nothing else was moving.
Was there anyone out there? Joakim let go of the blind. To go outside and take a look, he would have to leave Livia and Gabriel alone, and he didn’t want to do that. He stayed by the window, unsure what to do, and eventually turned his head.
No reply. He took a step back toward the bed, but saw that she was fast asleep.
He wanted to carry on asking questions. Perhaps even wake her up to find out if she could remember anything about what she’d seen in her sleep, but of course it wasn’t a good idea to press her.
Joakim pulled the flowery coverlet up over her narrow shoulders and tucked her in.
He returned silently to his own bed. The coverlet felt like a shield against the darkness as he crept in.
He listened anxiously for noises from the corridor and from Livia’s room. The house was silent, but Joakim was thinking of Katrine. It was several hours before he managed to fall asleep.
A Friday night at the end of November.
The big vicarage at Hagelby was almost two hundred years old, and lay at the end of a forest track half a mile or so outside the village. The Swedish church no longer owned the vicarage. Henrik knew it had been sold to a retired doctor and his wife from Emmaboda.
Henrik and the Serelius brothers had parked their van in a grove of trees up by the main highway. They had left everything in it except for two rucksacks containing just a few tools, with plenty of room for anything they might pick up. Before they set off through the forest, past the stone wall by the church and the graveyard, they had each knocked back a dose of crystal meth and washed it down with beer.
Henrik had drunk more beer than usual; his nerves were at breaking point tonight. It was all the fault of that fucking board-the Serelius brothers’ Ouija board.
They had conducted a quick session in Henrik’s kitchen at around eleven o’clock. He had turned off the main light, Freddy had lit the candles.
Tommy placed his index finger on the glass.
“Is there anybody there?”
The glass began to move straightaway. It ended up on the word YES. Tommy leaned forward.
“Is it Aleister?”
The glass moved over to the letter A, then L…
“He’s here,” said Tommy quietly.
But the glass carried on to G, then to O and T. Then it stopped.
“Algot?” said Tommy. “Who the fuck is that?”
Henrik stiffened. The glass had begun to move across the board again, and he quickly reached for a piece of paper and wrote down what it was spelling out.
ALGOT ALGOT NOT GOOD ALONE HENRIK NOT GOOD NOT LIVING NOT GOOD HENRIK NOT
Henrik stopped writing.
“I can’t do this anymore,” he said quickly, pushing the piece of paper away.
He took a deep breath, got up and switched on the main light, then breathed out.
Tommy took his finger off the glass and looked at him.
“Okay, chill out,” he said. “The board is just supposed to be a help…Let’s go.”
It was twelve-thirty when they finally arrived at the vicarage. It was a cloudy night, and the house was in darkness.
Henrik was still pondering over the board’s message. Algot? His grandfather’s name had been Algot.
“Are they home?” whispered Tommy in the shadows among the birch trees in the lower part of the garden. Just
like Freddy and Henrik, he had pulled the black hood over his head.
Henrik shook himself. He must pull himself together, focus on the job.
“I’m sure they are,” he said. “But they sleep upstairs. Up there, where the window’s open.”
He pointed up at a window that was slightly ajar in one of the corner rooms.
“Good, let’s go,” said Tommy. “Hubba bubba.”
He led the way up the stone path and the steps. Then he leaned forward and peered thoughtfully at the lock.
“Looks pretty solid,” he whispered to Henrik. “Shall we go for a window instead?”
Henrik shook his head. “This is the country,” he whispered back. “And they’re seniors… look.”
He reached out, silently pushed down the handle, and opened the door. It wasn’t locked.
Tommy said nothing, he simply nodded and went inside. Henrik followed, with Freddy right behind him.
This wasn’t good-three men inside the house was one too many. He signaled that Freddy should stay and keep watch outside, but he just shook his head and walked in.
Tommy opened the next door and disappeared into the house itself. Henrik followed.
They were in a big, dark hallway. It was warm inside-seniors were a chilly breed, thought Henrik, and they always had the heating turned up high.
The floor was covered with a dark red Persian carpet that muffled the sound of their footsteps, and on one of the walls hung a huge mirror with a gold frame.
Henrik stopped. A thick black leather wallet was lying on the marble table below the mirror. He quickly reached out and tucked the wallet into his jacket pocket.
When he looked up, he could see himself in profile: a hunched figure in dark clothes, with a black hood covering his head and a big bag on his back.
Thief, he thought. He could almost hear Grandfather Algot’s voice in the back of his head. It was all down to the hood-it would make anyone look dangerous.
There were three doors leading off the hallway, two of them ajar. Tommy had stopped by the middle door. He listened, shook his head, and opted for the right-hand one.
Henrik followed him. He could hear Freddy’s breathing and heavy footsteps right behind him.
The door led into a drawing room-an elegant room, with several small wooden tables crowded with objects. It looked as though a lot of it was garbage, but on one of the tables stood a large Småland crystal vase. Good. Henrik pushed it into his rucksack.
Tommy was whispering from the other side of the room. He had opened a bureau, pulled out the drawers, and made a real find, Henrik saw: rows of silver cutlery and a dozen or so napkin rings made of gold. Necklaces and brooches, even some bundles of hundred-kronor notes and foreign currency.
A treasure trove.
They all pitched in to empty the bureau, without saying a word. The cutlery clinked slightly as they gathered it up, and Henrik wrapped it in some linen napkins from the bureau to muffle the sound.
Their rucksacks were heavy and well filled by now.
Anything else that might need a new owner?
Paintings covered the walls, but they were too big. Henrik caught sight of something tall and narrow in one of the windows. He pulled back the curtain.
It was some kind of old lantern with panes of glass and lacquered wood, perhaps twelve inches high and six inches wide. Rather charming. It would go nicely in his apartment if a fence didn’t want to buy it. He wrapped a tablecloth around the lantern and pushed it into his rucksack.
There was no sign of Freddy when they emerged into the hallway. Had he gone further into the house?
A door opened slowly-it was the door leading to the kitchen, and Henrik was so sure it was Freddy that he didn’t even turn his head-but suddenly he heard Tommy gasp.
Henrik turned and saw a white-haired gnome standing in the doorway.
The man was wearing brown pajamas and was just putting on a pair of thick glasses.
Fuck. Caught again.
“What are you doing?”
A dumb question that didn’t get a reply. But Henrik felt Tommy stiffen beside him, like a robot switching to attack mode.
“I’m calling the police,” said the man.
Tommy moved. He was a head taller than the man, and pushed him back into the kitchen.
“Don’t move!” shouted Tommy, kicking out.
The old man dropped his glasses as he stumbled in the doorway and collapsed just inside. The only sound he made was a long drawn-out wheezing.
Tommy followed him; there was something sharp in his hand. A knife or a screwdriver.
Henrik hurried over to try and stop Tommy but stumbled over a rag rug-and ended up standing on the old man’s hand with his heavy boot. There was a crunching sound.
“Come on!” somebody shouted, perhaps Henrik himself.
Henrik stumbled backward and banged into the marble table in the hallway. The big mirror fell to the floor with a series of crashes. Fuck. Everything was blurred like on a dance floor, fast and unplanned. It was impossible to control things anymore. And where the hell was Freddy?
Then he heard a more high-pitched voice behind him.
Henrik whirled around. He saw a woman standing by the man on the floor. She was even shorter, and looked terrified.
“Gunnar?” she called, bending down. “Gunnar, I’ve called the police.”
Henrik fled, without even looking to see whether Tommy was obeying his order or not. There was still no sign of Freddy.
Out through the veranda and out into the night.
Henrik ran across the grass, which was hard with frost, came around the corner of the house and raced into the forest. Branches tore at his face, his rucksack was chafing his shoulders, and he couldn’t find the track, but he still kept on running.
Something grabbed hold of his foot and suddenly he was flying through the air.
Straight down into the shadows, where the wet leaves and undergrowth received him.
Something hit the back of his head hard. The night became blurred.
He felt really bad.
When Henrik came to, he was crawling on all fours. He was moving slowly forward across the ground, his head aching, aiming for a black shadow that was growing up ahead of him. A little cave. He crept in through the opening and curled up. Someone was after him, but in here he was safe.
It took several minutes for Henrik’s mind to clear. He raised his head and looked around.
Silence. Total darkness. Where the fuck had he ended up?
He felt earth beneath his fingers and realized that he had crawled into an old stone-covered cellar in the forest near the vicarage. It was cold and damp.
It smelt of fungus, kind of moldy.
Suddenly he got the idea that he was lying in an old death
chamber. An earth cellar for the dead, where they lay waiting to be buried over in the graveyard.
Some kind of insect with long legs landed on his ear. A spider that had just woken up. He knocked it away quickly with his hand.
Henrik was beginning to feel claustrophobic, and slowly crawled out of the cellar. His rucksack got hooked on the roof, but he turned sideways and made it out onto the frozen ground.
Fresh winter air.
He got up and set off through the undergrowth, away from the lights shimmering in the windows of the vicarage through the trees. When he reached the wall of the graveyard, he knew he was heading the right way.
Suddenly he heard a van door slam. He listened.
An engine started up far away in the darkness.
Henrik moved more quickly through the trees, came out onto a broad path and began to run. The trees thinned out and he saw the Serelius brothers’ van. It was just reversing out onto the road.
He got there just in time and ripped open the side door.
Freddy and Tommy turned their heads quickly, and realized who it was.
Henrik jumped in and slammed the door. Once the van was moving, he finally breathed out and leaned back, his head pounding.
“What the fuck happened to you?” asked Tommy over his shoulder. He was breathing heavily, clutching the wheel very tightly. The stiff rage was still there in his shoulders.
“I got lost,” said Henrik, shrugging off his rucksack. “Fell over a tree root.”
Freddy chuckled to himself.
“I had to jump out of a window!” he said. “Straight down into the shrubbery.”
“Still, we got some good stuff,” said Tommy.
Henrik nodded, his jaws rigid with tension. The old guy Tommy had knocked down-what had happened to him? He didn’t want to think about that right now.
“Take the east road,” he said. “To my boathouse.”
“The police are going to be out this way tonight,” said Henrik. “When there’s violence involved, they come tearing over from Kalmar… I don’t want to bump into them up on the highway.”
Tommy sighed, but took the turn down to the eastern coast road.
It took them a good half hour to unload everything and hide it in the boathouse, but it was worth it to feel safer. All Henrik had left in his rucksack when they got back in the van was the money and the old glass lantern.
They took a detour along the east coast to Borgholm, but didn’t see any police activity. On the outskirts of the town Tommy ran over a cat or a hare, but this time he seemed too tired to take any pleasure in it.
“We’ll take a break,” said Tommy as they reached the streetlights of the town. “A little bit of time off.”
They pulled in by Henrik’s apartment block. It was quarter past three.
“Okay,” he said, opening the door. “And we need to go through the money… make sure it’s all sorted.”
He wasn’t about to forget that the Serelius brothers had been about to drive off and leave him up in the forest.
“We’ll be in touch,” said Tommy through the open window of the van.
Henrik nodded and walked toward the building.
It wasn’t until he was inside his apartment that he realized how filthy he was. His jeans and jacket were covered in black stains from the soil. He threw them in the laundry basket, drank a glass of milk, and stared blankly through the window.
His recollections of the night in the vicarage had been vague from start to finish, and he had no desire to go over them again. Unfortunately, his clearest memory was of the old man’s hand crunching beneath his boot. He hadn’t meant to do that, but…
He turned the light off and went to bed.
It was difficult to get to sleep, his forehead was aching and his nerves were buzzing all over his body, but sometime after four he slipped into the mists.
A couple of hours later Henrik was woken by the sound of knocking in the apartment.
The sound of knocking on glass. Then silence.
He raised his head from the pillow and looked around the darkness of the room in confusion.
The soft sound of knocking came again. It seemed to be coming from the hallway.
Henrik left the warmth of his bed and staggered out into the shadows to listen.
The knocking was coming from his rucksack. Three knocks, then silence. Then a couple more knocks.
He bent down and unzipped the bag. The old lantern from the vicarage was inside, still wrapped in the tablecloth.
Henrik lifted it out.
The wooden frame of the lantern had cooled down in the van, presumably. Now it was getting back up to room temperature. That’s why it was clicking and knocking.
He placed the lantern on the kitchen table, closed the door, and went back to bed.
The sound of faint knocking could be heard from the kitchen from time to time. It was just as irritating as a dripping faucet, but Henrik was so tired he eventually went to sleep anyway.
The important thing was never to forget Katrine.
Every time Joakim forgot her, even if it was only for a moment, the pain returned inexorably when he suddenly remembered that she no longer existed. For that reason he tried to keep her in his thoughts all the time-just beyond the border where grief took over, but keeping her constantly present.
On the Sunday three weeks after the accident, he took the children on a long trek in the area around the manor house. They started by heading west, inland, and Joakim could feel the presence of Eel Point behind him; he imagined that Katrine had stayed behind indoors to put up some wallpaper. Maybe she would soon come out into the fields and catch up with them.
It was a windy but sunny November day, and they had pastries and hot chocolate with them. Joakim’s rucksack had a built-in child’s carrying seat where Gabriel could sit when
he was tired, but most of the time he was running across the meadows with Livia.
When they reached the main highway, Joakim shouted to them to stop, and they all crossed over together after looking in both directions, as Livia and Gabriel had learned.
Livia had slept more peacefully for the last few nights and didn’t seem the least bit tired, but Joakim could feel the constant lack of sleep like a swollen weight behind his eyes. He felt slightly better during the day now he had set to work on the house again, but the nights were still difficult. Even when Livia was fast asleep, he lay there awake in the darkness, waiting. Listening.
Talking in her sleep didn’t seem to have any negative effects on Livia-almost the reverse.
But she had started bringing home drawings she’d done at preschool. Many of them showed a woman with yellow hair, sometimes standing in front of a blue sea, sometimes in front of a big red house. Above the picture she had written mommy in sprawling letters.
Livia still asked almost every morning and evening when Katrine was coming home, and Joakim always gave the same answer: “I don’t know.”
An old stone wall ran along the other side of the road, and when they had climbed over it they found themselves at the edge of a flat, gray landscape with open water between patches of reeds and clumps of pale yellow grass. The water was black and still; it was impossible to tell how deep it was.
“This is called a peat bog,” said Joakim.
“Can you drown here?” asked Livia.
She tried pushing a stick down into a muddy puddle, and didn’t notice that the question had made Joakim tense up.
“No… only if you can’t swim.”
“I can swim!” shouted Livia.
She had been to four swimming lessons in Stockholm during the summer.
Gabriel suddenly screamed and started to cry-he had
sunk down and got his galoshes stuck in the grass by the water. The muddy ground let him go with a disappointed slurp when Joakim pulled him out. He put Gabriel down on firm ground, looked out over the black water, and suddenly remembered something the agent who showed them around the house at Eel Point had told them as they were driving past the peat bog.
“Do you know what they used to do out here in the Iron Age?” he asked. “Hundreds and hundreds of years ago?”
“What?” said Livia.
“I’ve heard that they used to sacrifice things to the gods.”
“Sacrifice-what does that mean?”
“It means that you give away things you like,” said Joakim. “In order to get even more back.”
“So what did they give away, then?” asked Livia.
“Silver and gold and swords and that kind of thing. They threw them into the water as a gift to the gods.”
According to the agent, animals and human beings had also been sacrificed sometimes-but stories like that were definitely not for the ears of the children.
“Why?” said Livia.
“I don’t know… but I suppose they believed it would make the gods happy, and they would make life easier.”
“What kind of gods were they?” said Livia.
“What does that mean?”
“Well, it means they were… a bit nasty sometimes,” said Joakim, who wasn’t too good on the history of religion. “Norse gods like Odin and Freya. And nature gods in the earth and the trees. But they don’t exist any longer.”
“Because people stopped believing in them,” said Joakim, setting off again. “Let’s go. Do you want to sit in the rucksack seat, Gabriel?”
His son shook his head cheerfully and scampered off after Livia again. A narrow path ran along the side of the bog, and
they followed it northward. At the end of the bog lay fields, and beyond them was Rörby with its white church rising up on the horizon.
Joakim would have liked to walk much further, but by the time they got to the fields the children had slowed down considerably. He took off his rucksack.
“Time for a snack.”
It took them a quarter of an hour to empty the flask of hot chocolate and eat up all the pastries. They found dry rocks to sit on, and everything was silent all around them. Joakim knew that the peat bog was a bird sanctuary, but they didn’t see a single bird all day.
After they had eaten, they crossed back over the main road. Joakim chose a path alongside the little wood that grew northwest of Eel Point. The wood was low growing and bushy, like all the woods he had seen on the island. It consisted of pine trees, all leaning slightly inland, away from the harsh winds coming off the sea. Among them grew thickets of hazel and hawthorn.
They continued on down to the sea, where the wind grew stronger and colder. The sun was starting to set, and the sky had lost its blue glow.
“There’s the wreck!” shouted Livia when they had almost reached the shore.
“The wreck!” echoed Gabriel.
“Can we go out there, Daddy?”
From a distance it still bore some resemblance to the hull of a ship, but as they got closer it looked more like a pile of broken old planks of wood. The only thing that hadn’t been smashed to pieces was the keel: a warped wooden beam half buried in the sand.
Livia and Gabriel walked all the way around the wreck, but came back disappointed.
“It can’t be fixed, Daddy,” said Livia.
“No,” said Joakim, “I think it’s had it.”
“Did everybody on the boat drown?”
She was always talking about people drowning, thought Joakim.
“No, they survived,” he said. “I’m sure the lighthouse keepers helped them get ashore.”
They walked southward along the damp sandy shore. The waves swirled up onto the sand, and Livia and Gabriel tried to walk as close to them as possible without getting soaked. When a big wave came rushing toward them, they jumped out of the way, screaming and laughing.
After a quarter of an hour they had reached the stone jetty that sheltered the lighthouses. Livia ran over to it across the sand and clambered up onto the first block of stone.
This was where Katrine had gone just three weeks ago. Straight along the jetty and down into the water.
“Don’t go up there, Livia,” called Joakim.
She turned and looked down at him. “Why not?”
“You might slip.”
“You might. Come down, please!”
In the end she climbed down again, silent and sullen. Gabriel looked at his sister and his father, unsure which of them was right.
They walked past the stone pathway out to the lighthouses, and Joakim had an idea that might put Livia back in a good mood.
“Maybe we could go and look inside one of the lighthouses,” he said.
Livia turned her head quickly. “Can we?”
“Sure we can,” said Joakim, “as long as we can unlock the door. But I know where there’s a bunch of keys.”
He led the way back up to the house, unlocked the kitchen door, and as usual quelled the impulse to call out to Katrine as he walked in.
In one of the kitchen cupboards was a metal box that the agent had passed on, containing documents relating to the history of the house. The old bunch of keys was also in
the box-an iron ring with a dozen or so keys, some of them larger and heavier than any he had seen before.
Gabriel wanted to stay indoors where it was warm; he wanted to watch a video of Pingu the penguin. Joakim inserted it into the machine.
“We won’t be long,” he said.
Gabriel just nodded, already caught up in the film.
Joakim picked up the clanking bunch of keys and went out into the cold again, with Livia beside him.
“So, which one shall we choose?”
Livia thought it over and pointed. “That one,” she said. “Mommy’s lighthouse.”
Joakim looked at the north tower. That was the one that no longer flashed-even though he did think he had seen a light there just once, at dawn on the day Katrine had walked out along the stone jetty.
“Okay,” he said. “We’ll try that one.”
So they walked out into the sea along the stone pathway and took the left fork where it split.
They reached the little island. In front of the metal door of the lighthouse stood a polished slab of limestone, big enough for both father and daughter to stand on.
“Okay, let’s see if we can get in, Livia…”
Joakim looked at the padlock and chose a key that looked as if it might fit, but it was too big for the keyhole. The second key he chose fit into the hole, but wouldn’t turn.
The third key fit too, and when Joakim got a firm grip he was actually able to turn it, although it took some effort.
He pulled on the handle as hard as he could.
The door opened slowly on stiff hinges, but stopped after six or seven inches.
It was because of the big limestone slab. The winter waves and ice-or perhaps the grass growing around it-had pushed it upward over the years, and the bottom of the door was catching on it.
When Joakim grabbed hold of the upper part of the steel
door, it bent outward an inch or two more, but refused to open.
He peered inside, with the sense that he was looking into a black mountain crevice.
“What’s inside?” asked Livia behind him.
“Wow,” he said, “there’s a skeleton on the floor.”
He turned and smiled at her wide-eyed expression.
“I’m only joking. I can’t see much… it’s almost pitch black.”
He stepped back onto the stone slab and let Livia take a look.
“I can see some stairs,” she said.
“Yes, that’s the staircase leading up into the tower.”
“It’s curved,” said Livia. “It goes round… and up.”
“Right up to the top,” said Joakim, and added, “Wait here.”
He had spotted a rectangular piece of rock down by the water, and went down and fetched it. This gave him a good threshold to stand on.
“Can you move back a bit, Livia?” he said. “I’m going to try and climb in and push the door open from the inside.”
“I want to come in as well!”
“After me, maybe,” said Joakim.
He stood on top of the piece of rock, bent the upper part of the door outward as far as he could, and squeezed in through the opening. He just managed it-he was glad he didn’t have a beer gut.
The daylight disappeared once he was inside the lighthouse, and he could no longer hear the wind from the sea. He stepped down onto a flat cement floor, and felt thick, curved stone walls around him.
Slowly he got used to the darkness and looked around. How long was it since anyone had been inside the lighthouse? Several decades, perhaps. The air was dry, as in all buildings made of limestone, and every surface was covered with a powder of gray dust.
The stone staircase Livia had seen started almost at his feet and spiraled up along the walls, around a thick pillar in the center of the tower. It disappeared up into the darkness, but somewhere up there he had the impression of a faint light, presumably from the narrow windows in the tower.
Someone had left things on the floor. A couple of empty beer bottles, a pile of newspapers, a red and white metal can with the word CALTEX on it.
Next to the stone staircase was a low wooden door, and when Joakim pushed it open a little way he saw even more trash: old wooden boxes piled on top of one another, empty bottles, and dark green fishing nets on the walls. There was even something that looked like an old mangle in there.
Someone had been using the lighthouse as a dumping ground.
Livia was calling him.
“Yes?” he replied, and heard the echo of his voice bouncing up the spiral staircase.
Her face peered in through the doorway. “Can I come in too?”
“We can try… Can you climb up onto the rock, then I can try and pull you in?”
As soon as she began to squeeze herself through the opening, he realized he wouldn’t be able to bend the door outward and pull her inside at the same time. She could easily get stuck.
“I don’t think this is going to work, Livia.”
“But I want to come inside!”
“We can go over to the southern lighthouse,” he said, “and maybe we can-”
Suddenly Joakim heard scraping noises from above. He turned his head and listened.
Footsteps. It sounded like echoing footsteps high up on the spiral staircase.
The noise was coming from the tower. It was his imagination,
but it sounded like heavy footsteps-and it sounded as if they were slowly but surely coming down the stairs.
This wasn’t Katrine, this was someone else.
Heavy footsteps…It sounded like a man.
“Livia?” called Joakim.
She was still outside, and Joakim thought about how close she was to the water; if she took a couple of steps back and happened to fall…And Gabriel, Gabriel was alone up in the house. How could he have left him?
“Livia?” he called again. “Stay where you are, I’m coming out.”
He grabbed the doorframe and heaved himself up. The steel door seemed to want to keep him there, but he forced his way out through the opening. It might have looked quite funny, like a parody of a birth, but his heart was pounding and Livia was standing there looking at him with fear in her eyes.
Joakim climbed down onto the stone outside and breathed in the fresh, cold sea air.
“There we are,” he said, and quickly pushed the steel door shut behind him. “Let’s get back to Gabriel. We can look inside the other lighthouse another day.”
As he quickly replaced the padlock and locked the door, he was expecting protests, but Livia said nothing. She took his hand in silence and they walked back along the jetty and up onto the shore. It was almost twilight.
Joakim thought about the noises in the lighthouse.
It must have been the wind from the sea blowing around the tower, or the beak of a gull scraping against the glass. Not footsteps.
The dead are trying to reach us, Katrine. They want to talk to us, they want us to listen.
What do they want to say to us? Perhaps that we should not seek death too early.
In the loft above the barn there is a date from the time of the First World War carved into the wall: December 7, 1916. After that there is a cross, and the beginning of a name: † GEOR-
– MIRJA RAMBE
Alma Ljunggren, the wife of the master lighthouse keeper, is sitting at her loom in the room at the back of the house. A wall clock is ticking behind her. Alma cannot see the sea from here, and that suits her very well. She doesn’t want to see what her husband, Georg, and the other lighthouse keepers are doing down by the shore.
There are no voices to be heard in the house; all the other women are down on the shore. Alma knows that she too should be there to support the men, but she dare not go. She hasn’t the strength to be any kind of support; she barely has the courage to breathe.
The wall clock continues to tick.
A sea monster has drifted ashore at Eel Point this winter morning, in the third year of the Great War. The monster was discovered after last night’s fierce snowstorm: a black monster with pointed steel spikes all over its round body.
Sweden is a neutral country as far as the Great War on the Continent is concerned, but is still affected by it.
The monster on the shore is a mine. Presumably Russian, dropped the previous year in order to stop the Germans from transporting ore across the Baltic. But of course it doesn’t
matter what country it comes from, it is just as dangerous anyway.
The ticking in the room suddenly stops.
Alma turns her head.
The wall clock behind her has stopped. The pendulum is hanging straight down.
Alma picks up a pair of black sheep shears from a basket beside her loom, gets up, and goes out of the room. She throws a shawl around her shoulders and walks out onto the veranda, at the front of the manor house. She still refuses to look down toward the shore.
The waves must have torn the mine free of its mooring out at sea during the blizzard over the past few days, and slowly washed it toward the land. Now it is stuck fast in the sandy seabed and the slushy ice only fifty yards or so from the southern lighthouse.
The year before, a German torpedo drifted ashore just north of Marnäs. It was shot to pieces, and the naval authorities now insist that mines be dealt with in the same way. The Russian mine must be destroyed, but it is not possible to blow it up so close to the lighthouses. It must be towed away. The lighthouse keepers are going to place a rope around the mine and then carefully tow it away from the lighthouses.
Master lighthouse keeper Georg Ljunggren is leading the work at sea. He is standing in the prow of an open motorboat, and up on the veranda Alma can hear her husband’s booming orders echoing out across the shore, all the way up to the house.
When she opens the door, she can hear him very clearly.
Alma goes out into the cold and walks across the courtyard, recently cleared of snow, toward the barn, without looking down toward the shore.
There is no one in the barn, but when she opens the heavy door and walks in, the cows and horses start to move in the darkness. The storm makes them uneasy.
Alma slowly walks up the steps to the hayloft. There is no one here either.
The hay reaches almost to the roof, but there is a small passageway along the wall so that she can make her way across the wooden floor.
She walks over to the far wall and stops. She has stood here several times over the past few years, but now she reads the names once again.
Then she takes the sheep shears, places the point against one of the planks of wood, and begins to carve today’s date: December 7, 1916. And a name.
The shouts from the shore fall silent.
Everything is quite still, and up in the loft Alma drops the shears. She clasps her hands together by the wall and prays to God.
Everything is silent at Eel Point.
Then comes the explosion.
It is as if the air all around the manor house is compressed, and at the same time the thundering roar from the shore rolls inland. The blast wave comes a second later; it cracks several windowpanes in the barn and deafens Alma. She closes her eyes, sinks back into the hay.
The mine has exploded too soon. Alma knows it.
When the blast wave has passed, she gets to her feet in the hayloft.
After a few frozen seconds the cows begin to bellow down in the barn. Then comes the sound of loud voices from the meadow by the shore. They are getting closer to the house very quickly.
Alma hurries down the steps.
Both lighthouses are still standing, she sees; they haven’t been touched. But the mine is gone; all that is left is gray, murky water where it lay. And there is no sign of the lighthouse keepers’ boat.
Alma sees the other women coming: Ragnhild and Eivor,
the wives of the lighthouse keepers. They stare at her, their expression numb.
“The master?” asks Alma.
Ragnhild shakes her head stiffly, and now Alma can see that her pinafore is wet with blood.
“My Albert… was standing in the prow.”
Her knees give way. Alma rushes toward her along the stone path and catches her as she falls.
Livia slept peacefully that Sunday night. Joakim woke up as dawn was breaking after three hours of dreamless sleep. He could never sleep any longer than that at a stretch these days, and he woke with his head pounding with exhaustion.
In the morning he drove the children to Marnäs as usual, and when he got home the house was silent and empty. He carried on wallpapering the bedrooms at the southern end of the house.
At around one o’clock he heard the muted sound of a car engine approaching Eel Point. He looked out.
A large wine-red Mercedes was driving up the gravel track at high speed. Joakim recognized it; he had seen it leaving the church in Marnäs, one of the first cars to depart after the funeral.
Katrine’s mother had come to visit.
Even though the car was big, the woman who was driving
it seemed even bigger somehow. She struggled to get out of the car, as if she were stuck between the steering wheel and the driver’s seat. But eventually she was standing in front of the house, dressed in skin-tight jeans, pointed boots, and a leather jacket covered in buckles. A woman of about fifty-five, wearing red lipstick and thick black eyeliner and mascara.
She adjusted her pink silk scarf and looked over at the house with a forbidding expression. Then she lit a cigarette.
Mirja Rambe, his mother-in-law from Kalmar. She hadn’t been in touch at all since the funeral.
Joakim took a deep breath, let the air out slowly, then went through the house to open the kitchen door.
“Hello, Joakim,” she said, blowing smoke out of the corner of her mouth.
“Hi there, Mirja.”
“I’m glad you’re home. How are you?”
“Not so great.”
“I can understand that… this sort of thing makes you feel like shit.”
That was all the sympathy he got from her. Mirja dropped her cigarette on the gravel and moved toward the kitchen door; he stepped aside and she swept past in a miasma of tobacco and perfume.
In the kitchen she stopped and looked around. Joakim knew it was completely different from when she had lived in the house more than thirty years ago-but when she made no comment on all the work they had put in, he felt compelled to ask:
“Katrine redid most of this room last summer. What do you think?”
“It’s good,” said Mirja. “When Torun and I rented one of the rooms in the outbuilding, there were single men living in here, in the main house. It just looked like shit. Dirt everywhere.”
“Did they work in the lighthouses?” asked Joakim.
“The lighthouse keepers were gone by then,” said Mirja tersely. “These were just drifters.”
She shook herself, as if she wanted to change the subject, and asked, “So where are my little grandchildren, then?”
“Livia and Gabriel are at school. In Marnäs.”
“Well, it’s preschool. Livia’s doing activities for six-year-olds.”
Mirja nodded, but without smiling. “New names…” she said. “Same dog kennel.”
“Preschool isn’t a dog kennel,” said Joakim. “They love it.”
“I’m sure they do,” said Mirja. “In my day it was called little school. Same old crap… day after day.”
Suddenly she turned around again. “Speaking of animals…”
She went back outside.
Joakim stayed in the kitchen, wondering how long Mirja was intending to stay. The house felt much smaller when his mother-in-law was there, as if there weren’t enough air.
He heard a car door slam, and she came back into the kitchen with a bag in each hand. She held up one of them, a gray box with a handle.
“It was free, I got it from my neighbor,” she said. “I had to buy all the bits and pieces.”
Joakim realized that the box was a cat basket, and it wasn’t empty.
“Are you joking?” he said.
Mirja shook her head and opened the basket. A fully grown gray tom cat with black stripes jumped out and stretched on the wooden floor. He looked mistrustfully at Joakim.
“This is Rasputin,” said Mirja. “He’ll live like a Russian monk here, won’t he?”
She opened a big bag and took out several tins of cat food, a dish, and a tray with some cat litter.
“We can’t have him here,” said Joakim.
“Of course you can,” said Mirja. “He’ll liven things up.”
Rasputin rubbed up against Joakim’s legs and went out into the hallway. When Mirja opened the outside door, he shot off.
“He’s gone looking for rats,” she said.
“I haven’t seen a single rat here,” said Joakim.
“That’s because they’re smarter than you.” Mirja took an apple out of the bowl on the kitchen table and went on: “So when are you coming to Kalmar to visit me?”
“I didn’t know we were invited.”
“Of course you are.” She bit into the apple. “Come whenever you like.”
“Katrine never got an invitation, as far as I know,” said Joakim.
“Katrine wouldn’t have come anyway,” said Mirja. “But we called each other sometimes.”
“Once a year,” Joakim corrected her. “She called you at Christmas, but she always closed the door when she was on the phone to you.”
Mirja shook her head. “I talked to her just a month ago.”
“Nothing special… my latest exhibition in Kalmar. And my new boyfriend, Ulf.”
“The two of you talked about you, in other words.”
“And about her.”
“So what did she say?”
“She felt lonely here,” said Mirja. “She said she didn’t miss Stockholm… but she did miss you.”
“I had to carry on working there for a while,” he said.
He could of course have resigned from his teaching post earlier. He could have done a whole lot of things differently, but that wasn’t something he wanted to discuss with Mirja.
She wandered further into the house, but stopped at the Rambe painting outside Joakim’s bedroom.
“I gave this to Katrine for her twentieth birthday,” she said. “Something to remember her grandmother by.”
“She really liked it.”
“It shouldn’t be hanging here,” said Mirja. “The last picture by Torun that was sold at auction went for three hundred thousand kronor.”
“Really? But nobody knows we’ve got it here.”
Mirja stared intently at the picture, following the gray-black lines of the oil paint with her eyes.
“There are no horizontal lines at all, that’s why it’s so difficult to look at,” she said. “This is the way you paint if you’ve been out in the blizzard.”
“And Torun had?”
“Yes. It was our first winter here. They had issued a warning about snowstorms, but Torun went off to the peat bog anyway. She liked walking inland and then sitting down to paint.”
“We were there yesterday,” said Joakim. “It’s lovely by the bog.”
“Not when the blizzard comes,” said Mirja. “Torun’s easel blew away before she had time to take it down, and suddenly she could see only a few yards in front of her. The sun disappeared. There was nothing but snow, everywhere.”
“But she survived?”
“She was on her way out onto the bog and stumbled into the water, but then the snow eased for a moment and she caught sight of the flashing light of the lighthouse.” Mirja looked at the painting and went on quietly: “It was just in the nick of time. She said that when she was squelching about on the bog, she could see the dead… those who were sacrificed during the Iron Age. They rose up out of the water and reached out for her.”
Joakim was listening intently. He was beginning to understand where the atmosphere in Torun’s paintings came from.
“She had problems with her eyesight after that,” Mirja went on. “That was when it started. And of course she went blind in the end.”
“Because of the blizzard?”
“Maybe…At any rate, she couldn’t open her eyes for
several days. The blizzard lifted sand from the fields and mixed it with the snow… it was like having pins stuck in your eyes.”
Mirja took a step away from the painting.
“People don’t want dark paintings like this,” she said. “Here on Öland it has to be an open sky, blue sea, and great big fields full of yellow flowers, nothing else. Bright pictures in white frames.”
“The kind of thing you produce,” said Joakim.
“Absolutely.” Mirja nodded energetically, apparently not in the least annoyed. “Sunny summer paintings for the summer people.” She looked around. “But you don’t seem to have any Mirja Rambe paintings here. Or have you?”
“No. Katrine has postcards of some of them somewhere.”
“That’s good, postcards bring the money in too.”
Joakim wanted to leave the vicinity of the bedrooms-it felt too private. He moved back in the direction of the kitchen.
“How many of Torun’s paintings were there to start with?” he asked.
“A lot. There must have been fifty.”
“And now there are only six, is that right?”
“Six, yes.” Mirja’s expression was grim. “The six that were saved.”
“And people say-”
Mirja interrupted crossly: “I know what people say… that her daughter destroyed them. A collection that would be worth several million today… they say I put them in the stove one cold winter and burned them so we wouldn’t freeze to death.”
“Katrine said that wasn’t true,” said Joakim.
“She said you were envious of Torun… and that you threw her paintings in the sea.”
“Katrine was born the year after it happened, so she wasn’t there.” Mirja sighed. “I hear the gossip here on the
island: Mirja Rambe is a difficult old woman… her boyfriends are too young for her, she’s an alcoholic… I suppose that’s what Katrine said as well?”
Joakim shook his head, but he remembered how Mirja had staggered around at their wedding in Borgholm, trying to seduce his younger cousin.
They were out on the veranda now. Mirja fastened her leather jacket.
“Come with me,” she said. “I want to show you something.”
Joakim followed her into the courtyard. He saw Rasputin slinking through the fence, heading down toward the sea.
“This hasn’t changed much,” said Mirja as they walked over the uneven stones. “Just as many weeds.”
She stopped, lit a fresh cigarette, then looked in through the dusty windows of the outbuilding.
“Nobody home,” she said.
“The agent called it the guesthouse,” said Joakim. “We’re going to fix it up in the spring… at least, that was the plan.”
From the outside the whitewashed building looked like a rectangular single-story block with a tiled roof. Inside was a woodstove, a carpentry workshop, a laundry room with a floor damaged by damp, a sauna built in the 1970s, and two guest rooms, each with a shower. In the past families had stayed in the guest rooms in the summer, when it got too hot in the main house.
Mirja looked at the building and shook her head.
“We lived out here for three years, Torun and I. Among the mice and the dust bunnies. It was like living in a refrigerator in the winter.”
Mirja turned her back on the outbuilding.
“This is what I wanted to show you… over here.”
She went over to the barn and pulled open the door leading into the vast darkness.
Mirja stubbed out her cigarette and switched on the lights,
and Joakim followed her over the stone floor. She pointed toward the loft.
“It’s up there,” she said.
Joakim hesitated for a few moments. Then he followed Mirja up the steep steps. Everything was just as untidy as the last time he’d been up in the loft.
“You can’t get through here,” he said.
“Sure you can,” said Mirja.
She made her way without hesitation among all the suitcases, boxes, old pieces of furniture, and bits of rusty machinery. She found narrow passageways between all the trash and went all the way over to the wall on the far side of the loft. Then she stopped and pointed at the broad planks of wood.
“Look… I found this thirty-five years ago.”
Joakim moved closer. By the faint light from the window he could see that someone had carved letters into the bare wood of the wall: a series of names and dates, and sometimes a cross or a biblical reference:
BELOVED CAROLINA 1884 was carved into a plank just below the ceiling. Beneath it came JAN, MUCH MISSED, GONE TO THE LORD 1884, and a little further down IN MEMORY OF ARTHUR CARLSSON, DROWNED JUNE 3, 1911, john 3:16.
There were many more names on the wall, but Joakim stopped reading and turned to Mirja.
“What is this?”
“These are the people from the manor house who have died,” said Mirja. Her voice, which had been quite loud, was now much quieter, almost reverential. “Those who were close to them have carved their names. They were already here when I was young… but these are new.”
She pointed to a couple of names close to the floor: it said ciki in thin letters in one place, and slavko in another.
“They could be refugees,” said Joakim. “Eel Point was a camp some years ago.” He looked at Mirja. “But why did people carve them here?”
“Well,” said Mirja. “Why do people put up gravestones?”
Joakim thought about the granite block he had chosen for Katrine the previous week. It would be delivered before Christmas, the stonemason had promised. He looked at Mirja.
“So that… they won’t forget,” he said.
“Exactly,” said Mirja.
“Did you talk to Katrine about this wall?”
“Oh yes, way back in the summer. She was definitely interested… but I don’t know if she came up here.”
“I think she did,” said Joakim.
Mirja ran her fingers over the characters carved into the wood.
“When I found these names as a teenager, I read them over and over again,” she said. “And then I began to wonder who they were. Why they had lived here and why they died… It’s difficult to stop thinking about the dead, isn’t it?”
Joakim looked at the wall and nodded silently.
“And I used to hear them,” Mirja went on.
“The dead.” Mirja leaned closer to the wall. “If you just listen… you can hear them whispering.”
Joakim kept quiet, but couldn’t hear a thing.
“I wrote a book about Eel Point last summer,” said Mirja as they were on their way back through the loft.
“I see,” said Joakim.
“I gave it to Katrine when she moved in here.”
“Did you? She never mentioned it.”
Suddenly Mirja stopped; she seemed to be looking for something on the floor. She moved a broken box and looked down.
Beneath the box two names had been carved into the floor, very close together, along with a year:
MIRJA & MARKUS 1961
“Mirja…” Joakim read, and looked at her. “So you carved this?”
“We didn’t want to carve our names into the wall, so we did it here instead.”
“So who’s Markus?”
“He was my boyfriend. Markus Landkvist.”
Mirja didn’t say any more. She merely sighed and strode over the two names, back toward the steps.
They said goodbye in front of the house. Mirja’s energy was almost gone by now. She took a last long look at the house.
“I might come again,” she said.
“You do that,” said Joakim.
“And as I said, you must come to Kalmar with the children. I can find them some juice.”
“Fine… and if the cat doesn’t settle, I’ll bring him with me.”
Mirja smirked. “Just you try it.”
Then she got into the Mercedes and started the engine.
When Mirja had disappeared in the direction of the coast road, Joakim walked slowly back across the courtyard. He looked down toward the sea-where had the cat gone?
The big door to the barn was still ajar; they hadn’t closed it properly behind them.
Joakim was drawn toward it, and in the end he went back inside, into the darkness. The silence in here was like a cathedral.
He climbed up the steps again and went over to the far side of the loft. He read all the names on the wall, one after another.
He put his ear close to the wall and listened, but heard no whispering.
Then he picked up a nail that was lying on the floor and
carefully carved the name katrine westin and her dates into one of the lower planks.
When he had finished, he stepped back to look at the whole wall.
The memory of Katrine was preserved here now. It felt good.
The children loved Rasputin, of course. Gabriel patted him and Livia gave him a saucer of milk. They didn’t want to be separated from the cat for a minute, but the evening after Mirja Rambe’s visit, the family was invited, without the cat, to visit their neighbors at the farm to the south. The older children weren’t at home, but seven-year-old Andreas joined them at the dinner table before he and the Westin children went into the kitchen for some ice cream.
Joakim stayed in the dining room, drinking coffee with Roger and Maria Carlsson. The topic of conversation was fairly inevitable: looking after and renovating houses by the sea that were exposed to all kinds of weather. But he also had another question, which he eventually asked:
“I wondered if you’d heard any stories about our place? About Eel Point?”
“Stories?” said Roger Carlsson.
“Yes, ghost stories or other tales,” said Joakim. “Katrine said she’d talked to you last summer about… about the fact that it was haunted.”
That was the first time he had mentioned her name all evening-he took care not to talk too much about his late wife. He didn’t want to seem obsessed, after all. He wasn’t obsessed.
“She didn’t talk to me about any ghosts,” said Roger.
“She did talk to me about it when she came over for coffee,” said Maria. “She was just wondering whether Eel Point had a bad reputation.” She looked at her husband. “I mean, when we were little the adults used to talk about a secret
room at Eel Point that was haunted… do you remember, Roger?”
Her husband just shook his head-obviously ghosts weren’t one of his major interests-but Joakim leaned forward.
“Where was this room? Do you know?”
“No idea,” said Roger, drinking his coffee.
“No, I don’t know either,” said Maria. “But my grandfather said something about the ghosts haunting this room every Christmas. The dead came back to the manor and gathered in a particular room. And then they took-”
“That’s just ridiculous nonsense,” said Roger, picking up the coffeepot and offering it to Joakim. “More coffee?”
Tilda Davidson lay naked and sweaty on her thin mattress.
“Was that good?” she asked.
Martin was sitting on the edge of the bed with his back to her.
“Yes… I suppose it was.”
As he quickly pulled on his underpants and jeans after getting out of bed that Sunday morning, Tilda should have realized what was coming, but she didn’t.
He had sat down on the edge of the bed and was looking out of the window.
“I don’t think we can do this,” he said eventually.
“Do what?” she asked, still naked under the covers.
“This… all this. It’s not working.” He was still looking out of the window. “Karin’s asking questions.”
Tilda still didn’t realize she was in the process of being dumped. Screwed and then dumped-classic.
Martin had arrived late on Friday, and everything had seemed just the same as usual. Tilda hadn’t asked what he’d told his wife-she never did. That evening they had stayed in her small apartment; she had made fish stew. Martin had seemed relaxed, telling her about the new cohort of recruits that had started at the police training academy this term, some good and some less suitable.
“But I expect we’ll knock them into shape,” he said.
Tilda nodded, thinking back to her early days at the academy; she had been one of twenty recruits. Mostly boys, just a few girls. They had quickly divided their new tutors into three categories: old tutors who were members of the police force, nice but a little fusty; civilian tutors who taught law and hadn’t a clue about real police work; and then the young police tutors who were mainly responsible for the practical work. They came from the field and had exciting stories to tell; they were the role models for the students. Martin Ahlquist was one of them.
On Saturday they had traveled north in Martin’s car, right up to the most northerly point of the island. Tilda hadn’t been there since she was little, but she remembered the feeling of having reached the end of the world. Now, in November, a bitterly cold wind was blowing off the sea, and there wasn’t a soul in sight around the lighthouses. The chalk-white tower rising above the point, Long Erik, had reminded her of the twin lighthouses at Eel Point. She wanted to discuss the case with Martin, but didn’t bring it up-this was her weekend off.
They ate a late lunch at the only restaurant in Byxelkrok
that was open in the winter, then went back to Marnäs and stayed in for the rest of the evening.
It was after that that Martin became more reserved, Tilda thought, despite the fact that she tried to keep the conversation going.
They fell asleep in silence, but then in the morning Martin sat down on the edge of the bed and started talking. Without looking at Tilda once, he said he had done a lot of thinking since she moved to Öland. He had thought about the choices in his life. And now he had decided. It felt like the right decision.
“It’ll be good for you too,” he said. “Good for everyone.”
“You mean… you’re leaving me?” she said quietly.
“No. We’re leaving each other.”
“I moved here for your sake.” Tilda looked at Martin’s naked, hairy back. “I didn’t want to leave Växjö, but I did it for you. I just want you to know that.”
“What do you mean?”
“People were talking about us. I wanted to put a stop to it.”
“Everybody likes gossip,” he said. “But now there’s nothing for them to talk about.”
There wasn’t really anything more to say. Five minutes later Martin was dressed; he picked up his bag from the floor without looking at her.
“Right then,” he said.
“So it wasn’t worth it?” she asked.
“Yes, it was,” he said. “For quite a long time. But not now.”
“You’re so afraid of conflict,” she said.
Martin didn’t respond. He opened the front door.
Tilda suppressed the impulse to send her best wishes to his wife.
She heard the door close, and footsteps disappearing down the stairs. He would go out to his car in the square and drive home to his family as if nothing had happened.
Tilda was still in bed, naked.
Everything was silent. A used condom lay on the floor.
“Are you good enough?” she asked her blurred reflection in the windowpane.
No, did you think you were?
You’re just the Other Woman.
After sitting there feeling sorry for herself for more than half an hour, and getting over the urge to shave off all her blonde hair, Tilda got up. She had a shower, got dressed, and decided to go over to the home to see Gerlof. Old people without romantic complications were what she needed right now.
But before she could set off, the telephone rang. It was the duty officer in Borgholm calling her out; there had been a break-in at a vicarage north of Marnäs over the weekend. A retired couple living in the house had surprised the burglars, and the man was in hospital with head injuries and several fractures.
Work dulled Tilda’s pain.
She got to the house around two, when the daylight was already beginning to fade over the island.
The first person she met at the scene was Hans Majner. Unlike her he was dressed in full uniform and was walking around with a roll of blue-and-white tape and signs that said police no entry in his hand.
“So, where were you yesterday?” he asked.
“I wasn’t working,” said Tilda. “Nobody called me out.”
“You have to check for yourself whether there’s anything going on that you need to know about.”
Tilda slammed the car door. “Shut your mouth,” she said.
Majner turned around. “What did you say?”
“I told you to shut your mouth,” said Tilda. “Stop criticizing me all the time.”
She had definitely ruined things with Majner now, but she didn’t care.
He stood there motionless for several seconds, as if he didn’t really understand what she had said.
“I’m not criticizing you,” he said.
“Really? Give me the tape.”
Silently she began to cordon off the back of the vicarage, looking for impressions left by shoes to cover up out in the garden. The crime scene technicians would be over from Kalmar on Monday morning.
There were in fact several prints left by shoes in the muddy ground around the house. They looked as if they came from men’s boots or shoes with grooves in the soles-and further in among the trees there were traces in the undergrowth indicating that someone had fallen headfirst, then crept along on their hands and knees.
Tilda looked and counted the tracks. It looked as if there had been three visitors to the vicarage.
A woman came out from the veranda. It was the lady from next door; she had a key to the house and was keeping an eye on it for the elderly couple who were in the hospital in Kalmar. She asked if they would like to come over to her house for a cup of coffee.
A coffee break with Majner?
“I’d rather take a quick look inside, thanks,” said Tilda.
When she had sent the neighbor home, she went up the stone steps.
On the floor of the hallway past the veranda lay a mosaic of shards of glass from a mirror that had fallen down. The rug was in a heap and blood had splashed across the doorway and over the wooden floor.
The door to the large drawing room was half open, and she stepped over the broken glass and looked in.
It was a mess. The doors of glass-fronted cabinets stood wide open, and every drawer in an old bureau had been pulled out. Tilda could see the marks left on the polished wooden floor by muddy shoes-the technicians would have plenty to work with here.
When they had finished at the vicarage, the two police officers went their separate ways, without exchanging a single word. Tilda got into her car and drove down to the home where Gerlof lived.
“A break-in,” said Tilda to explain why she was late.
“Really?” said Gerlof. “Where?”
“The vicarage at Hagelby. They beat up the owner.”
“Pretty badly, he was stabbed as well… but I’m sure you’ll be able to read more about it in the paper tomorrow.”
She sat down at his little coffee table, took out her tape recorder, and thought about Martin. He would be home by now; he would have walked in through the door, hugged his wife, Karin, and the kids, and complained about how dull the police conference in Kalmar had been.
Gerlof said something.
Tilda hadn’t been listening. She’d been thinking about how Martin had walked out of the door without looking back.
“Have you been looking for traces of the people who did it?”
Tilda nodded, without going into details.
“The crime scene team will go over the place tomorrow.” She switched on the microphone. “Shall we talk about the family now?”
Gerlof nodded, but still asked, “So what do you do, then, at the scene of a crime?”
“Well… the technicians preserve any traces,” said Tilda. “They take photographs and film what’s there. They look for fingerprints and hairs and traces of textiles-fibers from clothing. And for biological traces like blood, of course. And then they make plaster casts of any footprints outdoors. They can preserve prints left inside the house from shoes as well, if they make an electrostatic-”
“You’re very conscientious,” Gerlof interrupted her.
Tilda nodded. “We try to work methodically. We’re assuming they came in a car or a van. But we don’t have much to go on at the moment.”
“And of course it’s important that you find these villains.”
“Could you get me a piece of paper from the desk?”
Tilda did as he asked and looked on silently as Gerlof wrote a few short lines on the piece of paper. Then he handed it to her.
There were three names, in Gerlof’s neat handwriting:
Tilda read through them and looked up at Gerlof.
“Okay,” she said. “Are these the thieves?”
“No. They’re old friends of mine.”
“They can help you,” said Gerlof.
“They see things.”
“They all live near the road, and they keep an eye on the traffic,” said Gerlof. “For John and Edla and Dagmar a car is still a big event, particularly at this time of year, in the winter. Edla and Dagmar drop whatever they’re doing to look out and see who’s driving past.”
“Okay. Then I’d better have a chat with them,” said Tilda. “We’re grateful for any information.”
“Quite. Start with John down in Stenvik, we’re friends… Say hi from me.”
“And ask about strange cars,” said Tilda.
“Exactly. John’s bound to have seen a few driving along the coast…Then you can go over to Dagmar, she lives by
the turning for Altorp, and ask her the same thing. And Edla Gustafsson, Edla in Hultet, is also worth talking to. She lives on the main road, near Speteby on the way to Borgholm.”
Tilda looked at the list of names.
“Thanks,” she said. “I’ll call in if I’m in the neighborhood.”
Then she pressed Record.
“Gerlof… when you think about your brother, Ragnar, what comes into your mind?”
Gerlof was silent, mulling the question over.
“Eels,” he said eventually. “He liked to be out in his little motorboat checking his nets on the seabed in the fall. He liked to dupe the eels as well… to try out different kinds of bait to lure the females into the nets at night and get them into the pots.”
“You only catch female eels.” Gerlof smiled at her. “Nobody wants the males, they’re too small and feeble.”
“So are a lot of men,” said Tilda.
“When will it be Christmas Eve, Daddy?” asked Livia one evening when Joakim was putting her to bed.
“Soon… in a month.”
“How many days?”
“In…” Joakim looked at the Pippi Longstocking calendar above her bed and counted, “twenty-eight days.”
Livia nodded and looked thoughtful.
“What are you puzzling out?” he asked. “Are you thinking about Christmas presents?”
“No,” said Livia. “But Mommy will be home then, won’t she?”
Joakim didn’t say anything at first.
“I’m not so sure about that,” he said slowly.
“No, I don’t think we should get our hopes-”
“She will,” said Livia more loudly. “Mommy will come back then.”
Then she pulled the coverlet up to her nose and refused to talk anymore.
Livia had developed a new sleep pattern-Joakim had discovered this after just a couple of weeks at Eel Point. She would sleep peacefully for two nights, but on the third she would become restless and start calling out for him.
It would usually start an hour or so after midnight, and however deeply Joakim was sleeping, he was instantly wide awake.
Livia’s cries also woke the cat, Rasputin. He would jump up onto a windowsill and stare out into the darkness, as if he could see something moving between the buildings.
At least there was some progress, thought Joakim as he went toward his daughter’s room. She no longer called out for Katrine.
This Thursday night he sat down on the edge of Livia’s bed and stroked her back. She didn’t wake up, just turned to face the wall and slowly relaxed again.
Joakim stayed where he was, waiting for her to start talking. After a couple of minutes she began, in a calm and slightly monotonous voice.
“Yes?” he answered quietly. “Can you see anyone, Livia?”
She was still lying with her back to him.
“Mommy,” she said.
He was prepared now. But he was still unsure if she was really asleep, or simply in some kind of half-awake trance-and he was just as unsure if this conversation was really any good for her. Or for him.
“Where is she?” he asked. “Where’s Mommy?”
Joakim watched her lift her right hand from the coverlet and wave it feebly. He turned his head, but of course saw nothing in the shadows.
He looked down at his daughter again.
“Can Katrine… does Mommy want to say anything to me?”
No reply. When he asked longer questions, there was hardly ever a reply.
“Where is she?” he asked again. “Where’s Mommy, Livia?”
Still no reply.
Joakim thought for a moment, then asked slowly, “What was Mommy doing on the jetty? Why did she go down to the sea?”
“She wanted to… find out.”
“Find out what?”
“The truth? Who from?”
Livia was silent.
“Where’s Mommy now?” he asked.
“Has she… is she in the house?”
Livia didn’t respond. Joakim could feel that Katrine was not in the house. She was staying away.
“Can you talk to her now?” he asked. “Is she listening?”
“Can she see us?”
Joakim held his breath. He searched for the right questions.
“What can you see now, Livia?”
“There’s someone on the shore… by the lighthouses.”
“That must be Mommy. Has she-”
“No,” said Livia. “Ethel.”
Joakim went completely cold.
“No,” he said. “That can’t be her name.”
He had raised his voice, almost yelled.
“Yes. Ethel wants to talk.”
Joakim was still sitting on the bed, incapable of moving. “I… don’t want to talk,” he said. “Not to her.”
“No,” said Joakim quickly. His heart was pounding, his mouth was dry. “Ethel can’t be here.”
Livia was silent again.
He couldn’t breathe anymore-he just wanted to escape from this room. But he stayed there on the edge of Livia’s bed, stiff and terrified. And all the time his eyes were flicking over toward the half-open door.
The house was completely silent.
Livia lay motionless beneath the covers now, her head still turned away from Joakim. He could hear the faint sound of her breathing.
In the end he managed to stand up, and forced himself to go out into the dark corridor.
The night outside was light; the full moon had found itself a place among the clouds and was shining in through the freshly painted windows. But Joakim didn’t want to look out; he was afraid he might see the thin face of a woman staring in at him, her expression filled with hatred.
He kept his eyes firmly fixed on the floor and went into the porch, where he saw that the outside door to the veranda was not locked. Why could he never remember to lock it before he went to bed?
Well, from now on he would definitely remember.
He quickly walked over and turned the key, with a brief glance toward the shadows in the inner courtyard.
Then he turned around and crept back to bed. He pulled Katrine’s soft nightgown from under his pillow, clutching it tightly beneath the covers.
After that night Joakim decided not to ask Livia about her dreams anymore. He didn’t want to encourage her any longer, and had begun to be afraid of her answers.
On Friday morning, after driving the children to Marnäs and before carrying on with the renovation of the ground floor, he did something that felt ridiculous yet at the same time important. He went around the manor talking to his dead older sister.
He went into the kitchen and stood by the table.
“Ethel,” he said, “you can’t stay here.”
Talking to her should have made him feel foolish, but all Joakim felt was grief and loneliness. Then he went outside, blinking against the cold wind blowing off the sea, and said quietly, “Ethel… I’m sorry. But you’re not welcome here.”
Finally he went over to the barn, pulled open the big door, and stood in the doorway.
“Ethel, go away.”
He didn’t expect a reply from his dead sister, and he didn’t get one. But he felt better, just a little bit better-as if he were keeping her at a distance.
On Saturday the family had visitors: their former neighbors from Stockholm, Lisa and Michael Hesslin. They had called a few days earlier and asked if they could stay over on Öland on their way back from Denmark. Joakim had been pleased-both he and Katrine had enjoyed having Lisa and Michael as their neighbors.
“Joakim,” said Lisa when they had parked the car and come into the hallway. She hugged him, for a long time. “We really wanted to come and see how… Are you tired?”
“A little,” he said, patting her.
“You look a little tired. You must make sure you get some sleep.”
Joakim just nodded.
Michael patted him on the shoulder and moved into the house, his expression curious.
“I see you’ve been carrying on with the work here,” he said. “Fantastic skirting boards.”
“They’re original,” said Joakim, following him out into the corridor. “I’ve just sanded them down and painted them.”
“And you’ve chosen exactly the right wallpaper border. It really fits in with the soul of the house.”
“Thanks, that was the idea.”
“Are you doing all the rooms in white?”
“Down here on the ground floor, yes.”
“Looks good,” said Michael. “Cool and harmonious.”
For the first time Joakim felt a faint pride in what they had achieved so far. He had carried on with what Katrine had started, in spite of everything.
Lisa walked into the kitchen and nodded approvingly.
“Wonderful… but have you had a feng shui consultant here?”
“Feng shui?” said Joakim. “I don’t think so… is it important?”
“Absolutely. It’s really important to know how the flow of energy works, particularly here on the coast.” Lisa looked around and placed a hand on her chest. “There are powerful earth energies here too…I can feel them. And they must be able to flow without any kind of impediment, in and out of the house.”
“I’ll bear it in mind.”
“We’ve got a fantastic feng shui consultant who reorganized our cottage on Gotland. I’ll give you her number.”
Joakim nodded and heard Katrine giggling inside his head. She had always laughed at Lisa’s spirituality.
They had an excellent dinner at the kitchen table that evening. Joakim fried some plaice, which he had bought in
Marnäs. The guests had brought a bottle of white wine, and he drank a glass for the first time in many years. It didn’t taste particularly good, but he relaxed a little and was almost able to forget Livia’s talk of his dead sister in her sleep.
Livia herself was bright and cheerful this evening. She sat at the table with them and told Lisa about her three teachers at preschool-how two of them would nip outside for a secret cigarette, although they told the children they were just going out for some fresh air.
Michael told the children about a female elk and her calf they had seen running along the road as they were driving through Småland. Gabriel and Livia listened avidly.
Both children were excited by the visit from the big city, and it was difficult to get them to change into their pajamas and go to bed. Gabriel fell asleep straightaway, but Livia asked Lisa to read her a story about Emil’s mischievous adventures.
After twenty minutes Lisa came back into the kitchen.
“Has she gone to sleep?” asked Joakim.
“Yes, she was worn out… she’ll sleep like a log all night.”
“I hope so.”
He stayed in the kitchen chatting to Lisa and Michael for another hour, then helped them take their bags to the corner bedroom beyond the large drawing room.
“I’ve just finished this room,” he said. “You can be the inaugural guests.”
He had lit the tiled stove earlier in the day, and the guest room felt warm and welcoming.
Half an hour later they had all gone to bed. Joakim lay in the darkness listening to the murmur of Lisa’s and Michael’s voices from the guest room. It felt really good to have them here. Eel Point needed more guests.
He thought about the stories the Carlsson family had told him about the dead at the manor house. And Livia had said
the same thing about Katrine-that she would come home on Christmas Eve.
To see her again. To be able to talk to her.
No. He mustn’t think that way.
After a few minutes there was silence in the house.
Joakim closed his eyes and fell asleep.
Loud cries could be heard throughout the house.
Joakim woke up with a start and an instant thought:
No, it was a man’s voice.
He stayed in bed, sleepy and confused, then remembered he had guests staying.
It was Michael Hesslin calling out in the darkness.
Then he heard the sound of rapid footsteps and Lisa’s questioning voice in the corridor.
It was twenty to two when Joakim got out of bed, but first he went to check on the children. Both Livia and Gabriel were fast asleep, but of course Rasputin had jumped out of his basket and was slinking uneasily along the walls.
Joakim went toward the kitchen. The light was on in the hallway, and when he got there Lisa was just putting on her coat and boots. She wasn’t smiling now.
“What’s happened?” he asked.
“I don’t know… Michael woke up and started yelling. He ran out to the car.” Lisa buttoned her coat. “I’d better go and see what’s wrong.”
She went outside, and Joakim went into the kitchen, still half asleep.
Rasputin had disappeared and the house was completely silent now. He put on some water to make tea.
When the tea was ready, he stood by the window with his cup and saw Lisa sitting next to Michael in the car. It was snowing lightly, the flakes glittering as they fell through the air.
Lisa seemed to be asking Michael questions; he was sitting behind the wheel just staring out through the windshield and shaking his head.
After a few minutes Lisa came back inside. She looked at Joakim.
“Michael had a nightmare…He says someone was standing next to the bed watching him.”
Joakim held his breath. He nodded and asked quietly, “Is he coming back inside?”
“I think he wants to stay in the car for a while,” said Lisa, and added, “I think we’ll probably drive down and stay the night at the hotel in Borgholm. It is open in the winter, isn’t it?”
“I think so.” Joakim paused, then asked, “Does he usually… sleep badly?”
“No,” said Lisa. “Not in Stockholm… but he has been a bit on edge. Work isn’t going too well right now. He doesn’t say much about it, but…”
“There’s nothing dangerous around here,” said Joakim. Then he thought about what Livia had said in her sleep. He added, “Of course, things have been pretty miserable here over the last few weeks. But we wouldn’t stay here if we didn’t feel… safe.”
Lisa glanced around quickly. “There are powerful energies here,” she said, then asked tentatively, “Have you felt as if Katrine were still here? As if she were watching over you all?”
Joakim hesitated before nodding. “Yes,” he said. “I do feel something at times.”
He fell silent again. He would have liked to talk about the things he’d experienced, but Lisa Hesslin wasn’t the right person to talk to.
“I have to pack,” she said.
A quarter of an hour later Joakim was back at the kitchen window watching the Hesslins’ big car driving away. He watched them for a long time, until the taillights had disappeared up on the main road.
The house was still silent.
Joakim left the light on in the hall and went back to his bedroom, after checking that the children were still sleeping peacefully. He climbed back into bed and lay there in the darkness, his eyes open.
On Monday morning he drove the children into Marnäs, then started sanding down, painting, and wallpapering the penultimate bedroom still to be renovated on the ground floor. As he worked he listened for noises, but heard nothing.
It took five hours, including a short lunch break, to finish three of the walls. At around two o’clock he stopped for the day and made some coffee.
He went out onto the veranda with his coffee cup, breathed in the cold air and saw that the sun had already gone down behind the outbuilding.
The inner courtyard lay in darkness, but Joakim could see that the door to the barn was half open. Hadn’t he closed it on Friday, before the Hesslins arrived?
He pulled on a jacket and opened the outside door.
It was twenty steps over to the barn. When he got there, Joakim pushed the huge door open wide and stepped into the darkness. The old black switch was in the middle of the shorter wall. When he turned it on, two small bulbs spread a pale yellow light across the stone floor, the empty stalls, and feeding troughs.
Everything was silent. It didn’t look as if any rats had moved in, despite the cold.
Every time he came in here, he discovered something new, and now he noticed that the floor inside the door looked as if it had been freshly swept. Katrine had mentioned something about the fact that she had been cleaning the barn when they were discussing the various buildings in the fall.
Joakim looked over toward the wooden steps up to the hayloft and thought about the last time he had been up there,
with Mirja Rambe. He would like to see the wall she had shown him again, the memorial to the dead.
Just a quick look.
When he got up there, he could see the rays of the sun again. It was just above the roof of the outbuilding, shining in through the small panes on the southern side of the barn.
Joakim moved slowly across the floor, picking his way among all the trash.
Finally he was standing in front of the far wall. In the glow of the yellow winter sun the names carved in the wood stood out sharply, their contours filled with shadows.
And on a plank almost at the very bottom were Katrine’s name and dates.
His Katrine. Joakim read the name over and over again.
The gaps between the boards were narrow and pitch black, but as he stood beside the broad planks he had a sense of darkness behind them. He suddenly got the idea that this was not in fact the outside wall of the barn he was standing next to.
Despite its being almost time to go and pick up Livia and Gabriel, he quickly went outside again. He took a few steps away from the barn and counted the small windows on the upper floor. One, two, three, four, five. Then he went up into the loft again.
There were four windows, high up below the roof. The last one must be on the other side of the wall.
There was no door or gap in the wall. Joakim pressed several of the thick planks, but none of them moved.
This is a letter from someone who wishes you no ill, but simply wants to open your eyes. This is the way things are: Martin has been deceiving you for a long time. More than three years ago he took over responsibility for a class at the Police Training Academy in Växjö; there was a woman in this class who was almost ten years younger than him. After a party at the end of the first academic year, Martin started a relationship with her which has continued until now.
It ended just a few days ago.
I know this for certain because I am the younger woman in question. I couldn’t put up with Martin’s lies any longer in the end, and I hope you won’t either when you find out the truth.
Perhaps you need some kind of proof to convince
you completely? I don’t want to get too intimate, but I can for example describe the two-inch scar above his right groin after the hernia operation he had a few years ago. He had been moving rocks at your country place outside Orrefors when it happened, isn’t that right?
And don’t you agree that he ought to wax his hairy back and ass now and again, when he’s so vain about the rest of his perfectly honed body?
As I said, I don’t want to hurt anyone, even though I know it will be painful for you to find out the truth. There are so many lies in the world and so many treacherous liars. But together you and I can at least fix one of them.
Best wishes from “The other woman”
Tilda leaned back in her chair and read through the letter on her computer screen one last time.
It was quarter to eight in the morning. She had arrived at the police station at seven in order to produce a clean copy from the draft she had scribbled down on a piece of paper the previous evening. The station was empty-as usual Hans Majner wasn’t in this early. He usually arrived about ten, if he bothered to turn up at all.
Tilda had seen Karin Ahlquist only once. It was when Martin had had to have his son Anton with him at the police academy for a few hours before Karin could pick him up. At about four o’clock she had come out to the exercise area where they were practicing traffic control. She was a head taller than Tilda, with dark, curly hair. She remembered how Martin’s wife had smiled at her husband, proud and loving, as they said goodbye that day.
Tilda looked out of the station window at the empty street.
Did she feel better now? Was her revenge on Martin really sweet?
She was tired, but she did actually feel better now the letter was written. She quickly printed off a copy.
When she had taken out a plain white envelope, she felt unsure again. Martin had told her that Karin worked in the county environmental department, and Tilda thought about sending the letter there so that it wouldn’t fall into Martin’s hands. But mail that came to the county office was usually opened and noted in the diary, so in the end she put Karin Alhquist’s home address, printing it neatly in capital letters; she didn’t think Martin would recognize her writing. No sender’s name.
She pushed the letter into her cotton bag along with the tape recorder, put on her jacket and police cap, and left the station.
There was a yellow mailbox on the sidewalk near the police car. Tilda stopped, but didn’t take the letter out of her bag.
She hadn’t sealed it or put a stamp on it, and she didn’t want to mail it just yet.
Today she was giving talks on law and order to three school classes after lunch, but before that she had time to go out in the car for a while, check the traffic and knock on a few doors out in the country.
Edla Gustafsson lived near Speteby, in a little red house with a view across the alvar. There weren’t many trees around, and the main road went right past her house.
Time had stood still here. This is how people ought to live, thought Tilda, in the wilderness far away from all men.
She took her rucksack with her and rang the doorbell. A sturdy-looking woman opened the door.
“Hi, my name is Tilda-”
“Yes, yes, that’s fine,” the woman interrupted her. “Gerlof said you’d be calling. Come in, come in.”
Two black cats slipped away into the kitchen, but Edla
Gustafsson seemed pleased to have a visit from a relative of Gerlof’s. Edla was cheerful and energetic, hardly bothering to listen to Tilda’s explanation of why she was there. She quickly put some coffee on and fetched some small pastries from the larder. Pastries with jelly, with pearl sugar, with chocolate-ten different kinds altogether on a silver dish, all laid out beautifully in the small parlor. Tilda stared at the coffee table as she sat down.
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen this many pastries.”
“Really?” said Edla in surprise. “Have you never been to a pastry shop?”
“Well, yes, but…”
Tilda looked at a black-and-white wedding photograph on the wall and thought about the letter to Martin’s wife. She had decided to send it that evening. Then Karin Ahlquist would receive it at the end of the week and have all weekend to kick Martin out.
She cleared her throat.
“I have one or two questions, Edla. I don’t know if you’ve seen the newspaper, but there has been a break-in with serious violence in Hagelby, and the police could do with some help.”
“I’ve had a break-in as well,” said Edla. “They got into the garage and took a gas can.”
“Really?” said Tilda. “And when was this?”
“It was the fall of ’73.”
“I remember, because my husband was still alive and we still had the car.”
“Okay, but we’re looking at more recent break-ins at the moment, over the last few months.” Tilda held up her notepad. “So I have a few questions about unfamiliar cars on the main highway… Gerlof tells me that you keep an eye on the traffic.”
“Through the window, that’s right. I always have done; I
can hear them getting closer. But there are so many nowadays.”
“But I don’t suppose there are too many cars at this time of year, in winter?”
“No, it’s easier now than when the tourists come… but I don’t write the numbers down anymore, I haven’t time. They drive past so quickly. And I’m no good at identifying the make of a car.”
“But have you seen any cars you didn’t recognize over the past few days? Late at night… last Friday, for example?”
Edla gave it some thought.
“Probably. In some cases they have stolen quite a lot, so they would have needed a car with plenty of space to stow everything.”
“Trucks often drive past here. Garbage trucks too, and tractors.”
“I don’t think they’re driving a truck,” said Tilda.
“A big black car came past here last Friday. It was heading north.”
“Like a van? Was it late at night?”
“Yes, it was just before twelve, after I’d switched the lights off up in the bedroom,” said Edla. “A big black van, that’s what it was.”
“Good… did it look new or old?”
“Not particularly new. And there was some kind of writing on the side. ‘Kalmar,’ and something to do with welding.”
Tilda made a note of that.
“Great. Thank you so much for your help.”
“Will there be a reward if you catch them?”
Tilda lowered her notepad and shook her head sadly.
After visit to Edla, Tilda headed back toward the north and turned onto the coast road south of Marnäs. It
went past Eel Point, but that wasn’t where she was going. She wanted to take a quick look at her grandfather Ragnar’s old place in Saltfjärden before she went back to the police station.
PRIVATE ROAD, it said on a piece of wood by the side of the road. An icy, overgrown track led down toward the sea, and Tilda’s police car bounced along in the wheel ruts.
The track led past an old Iron Age burial ground covered in round stones, and ended at a closed gate in front of a white cottage. She could just catch a glimpse of the sea through a grove of pine trees.
Tilda parked by the gate and walked in among the overgrown grass in the yard. Her memories were vague, and everything seemed smaller than when she had last been here with her father, fifteen years earlier. At that time Ragnar was long dead and Tilda’s grandmother had been taken into the hospital. The house had been for sale. She vaguely remembered the smell of tar, and that there had been several old eel tanks in the yard. They were gone now.
“Hello?” she called out into the soughing wind.
The house itself was small, but it was just one of several buildings. There was a boathouse with closed shutters at the windows, a woodshed, a barn, and something that might have been a sauna. It was a fantastic location, right by the shore, but the whole place needed painting and there was an air of gloom and abandonment about it all.
She knocked on the door of the cottage. No reply there either, as expected. The house was probably just a summer residence now, as Gerlof had thought. All traces of the Davidsson family were gone.
Eel Point wasn’t visible from here, but when Tilda had passed the pine trees and walked out onto the meadow by the shore, she could see the old wreck a few hundred yards away and the twin lighthouses on the horizon to the south.
She moved closer to the water, and a large bird that had
been sitting on a rock on the shore took off slowly, its wings beating heavily. A bird of prey.
On the edge of the wood there was another cottage, she noticed, and in front of it on the lawn was a chair where someone had placed a pile of blankets.
Then the blankets moved. A head poked out and Tilda realized there was a person wrapped up in them. She went closer and saw that it was an elderly man with a gray beard and a wooly hat, with a thermos flask beside him and a long, dark green telescope in his hands.
“You scared off my Haliaeetus albicilla,” he called out.
Tilda went over to him.
“The sea eagle,” said the man. “Didn’t you see it?”
“I did, yes,” said Tilda.
A birdwatcher. They turned up along the coast at all times of the year.
“It was watching the tufted ducks,” said the ornithologist. He pointed his telescope out to sea, where a dozen or so black-and-white birds were bobbing along on the waves. “They swim here all year round and hang out with the birds of prey. They’re tough little devils.”
“Very exciting,” said Tilda.
“It sure is.” The man in the blankets looked at her uniform and said, “This has to be the first time we’ve ever had a cop out here.”
“Well, it does seem very quiet out here.”
“It is. In the winter, at least. Just cargo ships passing by, and a few motorboats now and again.”
“This late in the year?”
“I haven’t seen any here this winter,” said the man. “But I’ve heard them further down the coast.”
Tilda gave a start. “You mean around Eel Point?”
“Yes, or even further south. You can hear the sound of an engine several miles away, if the wind is in the right direction.”
“A woman drowned over by the lighthouses at Eel Point a few weeks ago,” said Tilda. “Were you here then?”
“I think so.”
Tilda looked at him, her expression serious. “You remember the case?”
“Yes. I read about it… but I didn’t see anything. You can’t see the point through the trees.”
“But can you remember if you heard the sound of an engine on that particular day?”
The ornithologist thought it over.
“Maybe,” he said.
“If a boat went past going south out in the bay, would you have seen it?”
“It’s possible. I often sit out here.”
It was a vague testimony. Edla Gustafsson’s supervision of the highway was much better than this birdwatcher’s monitoring of the Baltic.
She thanked him for his help and set off back to the car.
“Perhaps we could keep in touch?”
Tilda turned around. “Sorry?”
“It’s a bit lonely here.” He smiled at her. “Beautiful but lonely. Perhaps you’d like to come back sometime?”
She shook her head. “I don’t think so,” she said. “You’ll have to find a whooper swan to keep you company.”
After lunch Tilda spent almost three hours at the school talking about law and order with the pupils. She had several traffic reports to write up when she got back to the station, but couldn’t quite let go of the drowning at Eel Point.
She collected her thoughts, then picked up the telephone and rang the manor house.
Joakim Westin picked up after three rings. Tilda could hear the sound of a ball thudding and happy children’s voices in the background, a good sign. But Westin himself
sounded tired and distant when he answered. Not angry-it was just that there was no strength in his voice.
Tilda didn’t bother with any small talk.
“I need to ask you something,” she said. “Did your wife know anyone who has a boat here on Öland? A boat owner close to your place?”
“I don’t know anyone at all who has a boat here,” said Westin. “And Katrine… she never mentioned anyone with a boat either.”
“What did she do during the week when you were in Stockholm? Did she talk about it?”
“She was renovating the house and furnishing it, and looking after the children. She had her hands full.”
“Did she ever have any visitors?”
“Only me. As far as I know.”
“Okay, thanks,” said Tilda. “I’ll be in touch if-”
“I have a question too,” Westin interrupted her.
“When you were here, you said something about a relative of yours who knew Eel Point… someone from the local history society in Marnäs.”
“That’s right, Gerlof,” said Tilda. “He’s my grandfather’s brother. He’s written a few things for the society’s yearbook.”
“I’d really like to have a chat with him.”
“About the manor?”
“About its history… and about a particular story about Eel Point.”
“A story about the dead,” said Westin.
“Right. I don’t know how much he knows about folk stories,” said Tilda, “but I can ask. Gerlof usually likes telling stories.”
“Tell him he’s very welcome to come over.”
By the time Tilda hung up, it was four-thirty. She switched on the computer to do some work on new cases and her own
reports, including the one about the black van. It was a reasonably concrete piece of information in the investigation into the break-ins. Everything the birdwatcher had told her about the sound of motorboat engines around Eel Point was too vague to put in a report.
She wrote and wrote, and when she had finished the reports it was quarter to eight.
Hard work-that was the best way to avoid thinking about Martin Ahlquist. To drive him out of her body and soul.
Tilda still hadn’t mailed the letter to his wife.
When the Second World War broke out, the manor at Eel Point was taken over by the military. The lighthouses were extinguished and soldiers moved into the house to guard the coast.
In the loft in the barn there is one name preserved from this time, but it is not a man’s name.
IN MEMORY OF GRETA 1943 it says, carved in thin letters.
– MIRJA RAMBE
The alarm is raised at the air-monitoring station at Eel Point the day after the great blizzard has passed by-a sixteen-year-old girl is missing.
“Lost in the blizzard,” says the director of the station, Stovey, when the seven men gather in the kitchen in the morning, wearing the gray uniform of the crown. Stovey’s real name is Bengtsson, but he has acquired his new name because he prefers to sit indoors next to the iron stove when there’s a cold wind outside. And there is almost always a cold wind outside in the winter at Eel Point.
“I shouldn’t think there’s much hope,” he goes on. “But we’d better search anyway.”
Stovey himself stays inside to coordinate the search-everyone else sets off in the snow. Eskil Nilsson and Ludvig Rucker, who is nineteen years old and the youngest at the station, are sent off to the west to search in the area around the peat bog, Offermossen.
It is only fifteen degrees below zero and there is just a light breeze today-considerably milder than previous winters during the war, when the thermometer has sometimes dropped to somewhere between minus thirty and minus forty.
Apart from the blizzard the previous night, it has been a quiet winter at Eel Point. The German Messerschmitts have more or less stopped appearing along the coast, and after Stalingrad it is the Soviet Union’s supremacy over the Baltic that Sweden fears most.
One of Eskil’s older brothers has been sent over to Gotland to live in a tent all the year round. Eel Point is in radio contact with southern Gotland-if the Soviet fleet attacks, they will be the first to know.
Ludvig quickly lights a cigarette when they get outside, and starts plowing through the snowdrifts in his boots. Ludvig smokes like a chimney, but never offers anyone else a cigarette. Eskil wonders where he gets hold of all his supplies.
Most things have been rationed at the manor for a long time. They can get fish from the sea and milk from the two cows at the manor, but there is a severe shortage of fuel, eggs, potatoes, cloth, and real coffee. Worst of all is the tobacco rationing, which is now down to three cigarettes a day.
But Ludvig seems able to get hold of tobacco with no problem, either in the mail or from someone in the villages around Eel Point. How can he afford it? The conscripts’ pay is just one krona per day.
When they have gone a few hundred yards, Eskil stops and looks for the main highway. He can’t see it-the blizzard has made it magically disappear. Bundles of fir branches had been pushed into the ground to mark out the route for the sledge teams, but they must have blown away during the night.
“I wonder where she came from?” says Eskil, clambering over a snowdrift.
“She came from Malmtorp, outside Rörby,” says Ludvig.
“Are you sure?”
“I know her name too,” says Ludvig. “Greta Friberg.”
“Greta? How do you know that?”
Ludvig merely smiles and takes out a fresh cigarette.
Now Eskil can see the western watchtower. A rope has
been fixed up to lead the way there from the highway. The tower is built of wood, insulated with pine branches and camouflaged with gray-green sheets of fabric. The snow has been driven up into an almost vertical wall against the eastern side by the blizzard.
The other air-monitoring watchtower at Eel Point is the southern lighthouse, which was converted to electricity just before the war broke out; it has heating and is a very comfortable place to sit and watch for foreign aircraft. But he knows that Ludvig prefers to be alone here out on the peat bog.
Of course Eskil suspects that he is not always alone in the watchtower. The Rörby boys hate Ludvig, and Eskil thinks he knows why. The girls from Rörby like him too much.
Ludvig goes over to the tower. He sweeps the snow from the steps with his glove, climbs up, and disappears for a minute or so. Then he comes back down again.
“Here,” he says, handing over a bottle to Eskil.
It’s schnapps. The alcohol content is high; it hasn’t frozen, and Eskil unscrews the cork and takes a warming gulp. Then he looks at the bottle, which is less than half full.
“Were you drinking in the tower yesterday?” he asks.
“Last night,” says Ludvig.
“So you walked home in the blizzard?”
Ludvig nods. “More like crawling, really. You couldn’t see your hand in front of your face… good job the rope was there.”
He puts the bottle back in the tower, then they plow on northward through the snow, toward Rörby.
Fifteen minutes later they find the girl’s body.
In the middle of a vast expanse of snow north of Offermossen, something that could be the slender stump of a birch tree is sticking up. Eskil peers at it and moves closer.
Suddenly he sees that it is a little hand.
Greta Friberg had almost reached Rörby when the snow caught her. Her rigid face is staring up at the sky when they scrape away the snow, and even her eyes are covered in ice crystals.
Eskil can’t stop looking at her. He falls to his knees in silence.
Ludvig stands behind him, smoking.
“Is this her?” says Eskil quietly.
Ludvig knocks the ash off his cigarette and leans over for a quick look.
“Yes, that’s Greta.”
“She was with you, wasn’t she?” says Eskil. “Yesterday, up in the tower.”
“Maybe,” says Ludvig, and adds, “I’d better varnish the truth a bit for Stovey about all this.”
Eskil gets to his feet. “Don’t lie to me, Ludvig,” he says.
Ludvig shrugs his shoulders and stubs out his cigarette. “She wanted to go home. She was freezing cold, and she was terrified of getting stuck in the tower with me all night. So she went her way in the blizzard and I went mine.”
Eskil looks at him, then at the body in the snow. “We have to fetch help. She can’t stay here.”
“We’ll use the tow sled,” says Ludvig. “We can put her on that. We’ll go and fetch it.”
He turns and heads toward Eel Point. Eskil walks slowly backward so that he won’t be turning his back on the dead girl too quickly, then catches up with Ludvig.
They plow along silently in the snow, side by side.
“Are you going to carve her name up in the barn?” he asks. “Like we did with Werner?”
Werner was a seventeen-year-old who had been called up for military service; he fell into the water from a boat and drowned off the point in the summer of 1942. Greta’s name should be carved next to his up in the hayloft, in Eskil’s opinion. But Ludvig shakes his head.
“I hardly knew her.”
“It was her own fault,” says Ludvig. “She should have stayed with me in the tower. I’d have warmed her up.”
Eskil says nothing.
“But there are plenty of girls in the villages,” Ludvig goes on, looking across the far side of Offermossen. “That’s the best thing about girls, they never run out.”
Eskil nods, but he can’t think about girls right now. He can only think of the dead.
It was a new month, the month of Christmas, and it was Friday afternoon. Joakim had returned to the hayloft in the ice-cold barn, and was standing in front of the wall with the names of the dead carved in it. In his hands he held a hammer and a newly sharpened chisel.
He had gone up into the loft an hour or so before he was due to pick up Livia and Gabriel, just as the sun was going down and the shadows were gathering in the inner courtyard. It was a kind of reward that he allowed himself if the renovation work had gone well.
Sitting up here in the loft felt quiet and restful, despite the cold, and he liked studying the names on the wall. He read Katrine’s name over and over again, of course, like a mantra.
As he began to learn many of the names by heart, so the wall itself, with its knotholes and the convoluted rings in the wood, was becoming familiar to him. On the left, in the corner, a deeper split ran along one of the middle
planks, and in the end it tempted Joakim to go and take a closer look.
The plank had split along one of the rings, showing the age of the original tree. The crack had then widened downward in a diagonal line, and when he pressed his hand against it the wood cracked and gave way.
That was when Joakim had gone to fetch his tools.
He pushed the chisel into the crack, hit it with the hammer, and the sharp metal went straight through the wood.
All it took was a dozen or so hard blows with the hammer to loosen the end of the plank. It fell inward, and the dull thud when it landed proved that the wooden floor continued on the other side of the wall. But it was impossible to see what was in there.
When Joakim bent down to look through the hole, just a couple of inches wide, a definite smell struck him. It rushed toward his face, making him close his eyes and lean against the wall.
It was Katrine’s smell.
He got down on his knees and pushed his left hand into the opening. First his fingers, then his wrist, and finally the whole of his forearm. He groped about, but could feel nothing.
But when he lowered his fingers, they touched something in there, something soft.
It felt like coarse fabric-like someone’s pants or jacket.
Joakim quickly withdrew his hand.
The next moment he heard a dull rumbling on the track outside, and a beam of light illuminated the windows of the barn, white with frost. A car was driving into the courtyard.
Joakim cast a final glance at the opening in the wall, then went over to the steps leading down from the loft.
In the courtyard he was dazzled by the headlights of a car. A door slammed.
“Hi there, Joakim.”
It was a brisk voice that he recognized. Marianne, the head of the preschool.
“Has something happened?” she asked.
He stared at her in confusion, then pulled up his sleeve and looked at his watch. In the beam of the headlights he could see that it was already half past five.
The school closed at five. He had forgotten to pick up Gabriel and Livia.
“I missed… I forgot what time it was.”
“It’s okay,” said Marianne. “I was just so worried that something might have happened. I tried to call, but there was no reply.”
“No, I’ve been… out in the barn doing a bit of carpentry.”
“It’s easy to forget the time,” said Marianne with a smile.
“Thanks,” said Joakim. “Thanks for bringing them home.”
“No problem, I live in Rörby anyway.” Marianne waved and went back to her car. “See you Monday.”
When she had reversed out of the courtyard, Joakim went inside, feeling ashamed of himself. He could hear voices from the kitchen.
Livia and Gabriel had already taken off their boots and outdoor clothes and thrown them down in two separate heaps. They were sitting at the kitchen table sharing a clementine.
“Daddy, you forgot to come and get us,” said Livia as he walked in.
“I know,” he said quietly.
“Marianne had to drive us home.”
She didn’t sound cross, more surprised at the deviation from the normal routine.
“I know,” he said. “I didn’t mean for that to happen.”
Gabriel was eating his clementine segments, apparently unconcerned, but Livia gave her father a long look.
“I’ll make us something to eat,” said Joakim, and went quickly over to the larder.
Pasta with tuna sauce was a favorite, and he boiled some water for the pasta and warmed the sauce. Several times he glanced out of the window.
The barn loomed up on the far side of the courtyard like a black castle.
It had secrets. A hidden room without a door.
A room that, for a moment, had been filled with the scent of Katrine. Joakim was sure he had felt her presence; the smell of her had poured out through the hole in the wall, and he had been unable to defend himself.
He wanted to get into that room, but the only way seemed to be to attack the thick planks of wood with a saw or crowbar. But then the carved names would be destroyed, and Joakim could never do that. He had too much respect for the dead.
When the temperature dropped below freezing, the cold began to creep into the house as well. Joakim relied on radiators and tiled stoves on the ground floor, but there were strips of coldness along the floor and around some of the windows. On windy days he searched for drafts along the floor and walls, then blocked the gaps by loosening sections of the outer paneling and pushing flax fiber in between the timbers.
The first weekend in December the thermometer hovered around minus five when the sun was shining, but dropped down to minus ten in the evening.
On Sunday morning Joakim looked out of the kitchen window and discovered that there was a layer of black ice out at sea. The open water was now several hundred yards away. The ice must have formed by the shore during the night, then slowly crept around the headland and out toward the horizon.
“We’ll soon be able to walk across the water to Gotland,” he said to the children as they sat at the breakfast table.
“What’s Gotland?” said Gabriel.
“It’s a big island further out in the Baltic.”
“Can we walk there?” asked Livia.
“No, I was just joking,” said Joakim quickly. “It’s too far away.”
“But I want to.”
It was impossible to joke with a six-year-old-she took everything literally. Joakim looked out of the kitchen window and an image came into his mind of Livia and Gabriel walking out onto the black ice, going further and further out. Then suddenly it cracked, a black hole opened up, and they were pulled down…
He turned to Livia.
“You and Gabriel must never go out onto the ice. Not under any circumstances. You can never be sure it will hold.”
That night Joakim called his former neighbors in Stockholm, Lisa and Michael Hesslin. He hadn’t heard a word from them since the night they left Eel Point.
“Hi, Joakim,” said Michael. “Are you in Stockholm?”
“No, we’re still on Öland. How are things?”
“Fine. Good to hear from you.”
And yet Joakim thought Michael sounded wary. Perhaps he was embarrassed over what had happened the last time they met.
“You’re feeling okay?” said Joakim. “And what about work?”
“Everything’s going really well,” said Michael. “Lots of exciting projects. Things are a bit hectic right now, coming up to Christmas.”
“Good… I just wanted to check up, make sure everything was okay. I mean, it was a bit of a hasty departure last time you came down here.”
“Yes,” said Michael, and hesitated before going on: “Sorry about that. I don’t know what it was…I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t get back to sleep…”
He fell silent.
“Lisa thought you’d had a nightmare,” said Joakim. “That you dreamed someone was standing by the bed.”
“Did she say that? I don’t remember.”
“You don’t remember who you saw?”
“I’ve never seen anything strange around here,” said Joakim, “but I’ve felt things sometimes. And out in the barn I’ve found a wall in the hayloft where people-”
“So what about the renovation?” Michael interrupted him. “How’s all that going?”
“Have you finished the wallpapering?”
“No… not quite.”
Joakim was confused, until he realized that Michael had no desire whatsoever to discuss unusual experiences or bad dreams. Whatever had happened to him that night, he had closed and locked the door on the memory.
“What are you doing at Christmas?” Joakim asked instead. “Will you be celebrating at home?”
“We’ll probably go to the cottage,” said Michael. “But we’re intending to be at home for New Year.”
“Maybe we can get together, then.”
The conversation didn’t last much longer. When Joakim had hung up, he looked out of the kitchen window, toward the film of ice on the sea and the empty shore. The frozen desolation almost made him miss the crowded streets of Stockholm.
“There’s a hidden room here,” said Joakim to Mirja Rambe. “A room without a door.”
“Up in the hayloft. It’s big… I’ve paced out the barn, and the floor of the loft stops almost four yards before the outside wall.” He looked at Mirja. “You didn’t know?”
She shook her head.
“The wall with all those names on it is enough for me. That’s all the excitement I need.”
Mirja leaned forward on the big sofa and poured Joakim a steaming cup of coffee. Then she picked up a bottle of vodka and asked, “A drop in your coffee?”
“No thank you. I don’t drink spirits and-”
Mirja gave a short laugh. “Then I’ll have your ration,” she said, pouring the vodka for herself.
Mirja lived in a spacious apartment close to the cathedral in Kalmar, and had invited the family over for dinner this evening.
Livia and Gabriel finally got to meet their maternal grandmother. Both were quiet and wary when they walked in, and Livia looked suspiciously at a white marble statue of the upper half of a man’s body, standing in one corner. It was a while before she started talking. She had brought Foreman and two teddy bears with her, and introduced all three to her grandmother. Mirja took the family into her studio, where finished and unfinished paintings of Öland lined the walls. They all showed a flat, blossoming green landscape beneath a cloudless sky.
For someone who had hardly bothered about her grandchildren up to now, Mirja was remarkably interested in them. When they had eaten their meat-filled dumplings, she worked hard to get Gabriel to come and sit on her knee, and finally succeeded. But he only stayed put for a few minutes before running off into the TV room to watch children’s programs with Livia.
“So it’s just the two of us,” said Mirja, sitting down on the sofa in the main room.
“Fine,” said Joakim.
Mirja had none of her own paintings on the walls, but two of her mother Torun’s pictures of the blizzard hung in the main room. Both depicted the snowstorm approaching the coast, like a black curtain about to fall on the twin lighthouses. Just like the picture at Eel Point, these were winter
paintings that exuded hidden menace and the premonition of evil.
Joakim looked in vain for traces of Katrine in the apartment. She had always loved bright, clean lines, but her mother had decorated the rooms with dark, flowery wallpaper and curtains, Persian rugs, and black leather sofas and chairs.
Mirja had no photographs of her dead daughter or her half siblings. She did, however, have several large and small pictures of herself and a young man, perhaps twenty years her junior, with a blond goatee beard and spiky hair.
She saw Joakim staring at the pictures and nodded toward the man.
“Ulf,” she said. “He’s off playing indoor hockey, otherwise you could have met him.”
“So you’re a couple…” said Joakim, “you and the hockey player?”
A stupid question. Mirja smiled.
“Does that bother you?”
Joakim shook his head.
“Good, because it bothers a lot of other people,” said Mirja. “Katrine, certainly, even if she never said anything… Older women aren’t supposed to have a sex life. But Ulf doesn’t seem to be complaining, and I’m certainly not.”
“On the contrary, you seem proud of it,” said Joakim.
Mirja laughed. “Love is blind, or so they say.”
She drank her coffee and lit a cigarette.
“One of the police officers in Marnäs wants to carry on with the investigation,” said Joakim after a while. “She’s called me a couple of times.”
He didn’t need to explain which investigation he was talking about.
“Right,” said Mirja. “She’s welcome to do that, I suppose.”
“Sure, if it provides any answers… but it won’t bring Katrine back.”
“I know why she died,” said Mirja, drawing on her cigarette.
Joakim looked up. “You do?”
“It was the house.”
Mirja laughed briefly, but she wasn’t smiling. “That damned house is full of unhappiness,” she said. “It’s destroyed the lives of every family that has ever lived there.”
Joakim looked at her, surprised by the comment. “You can’t blame unhappiness on a house.”
Mirja stubbed out her cigarette.
Joakim changed the subject.
“I’m having a visitor next week, a retired guy who knows the house. His name is Gerlof Davidsson. Have you met him?”
Mirja shook her head. “But I think his brother lived close by,” she said. “Ragnar. I met him.”
“Anyway… Gerlof is going to tell me about the history of Eel Point.”
“I can do that, if you’re so curious.”
Mirja took another huge gulp of her coffee. Joakim thought her eyes were already beginning to look slightly glazed from the alcohol.
“So how did you end up at Eel Point?” he asked. “You and your mother?”
“The rent was low,” said Mirja. “That was the most important thing for Mom. She spent the money she earned from cleaning on canvases and oils, and she was always short of money. So we had to find places to live to fit in with that.”
“Was the place already looking shabby by then?”
“It was getting that way,” said Mirja. “Eel Point was still owned by the state at that stage, but it was rented to someone on the island for a small amount of money… some farmer who didn’t put a penny into fixing it up. Mom and I were the only ones who were prepared to live in the outbuilding in the winter.”
She drank some more of her coffee concoction.
The children were laughing loudly at something in the TV room. Joakim thought for a while, then asked, “Did Katrine ever talk to you about Ethel?”
“No,” said Mirja. “Who’s Ethel?”
“She was my older sister. She died last year… almost exactly a year ago. She was a user.”
“Drugs,” said Joakim. “Anything, really, but mostly heroin over the last few years.”
“I’ve never really been into drugs,” said Mirja. “But of course I agree with people like Huxley and Tim Leary…”
“About what?” asked Joakim.
“That drugs can open doors in your mind. Particularly for artists like us.”
Joakim stared at her. He thought of Ethel’s blank expression, and realized why Katrine had never told Mirja about her.
Then he quickly finished his coffee and looked at his watch: quarter past eight.
“We’d better get back.”
“So what do you think of your grandmother, then?” asked Joakim as they drove back across the Öland bridge.
“She was nice,” said Livia.
“Will we be going there again?” she asked.
“Maybe,” said Joakim. “But probably not for a while.”
He decided not to think about Mirja Rambe anymore.
“My daughter called me last night,” said one of the elderly ladies on the sofa next to Tilda.
“Oh yes, what did she say?” asked the other elderly lady.
“She wanted to talk things through.”
“Talk things through?”
“Talk things through, yes,” said the first lady. “Once and for all. She says I’ve never supported her. ‘You only thought about yourself and Daddy,’ she said. ‘All the time. And us kids have always been in second place.’”
“That’s what my son says as well,” said the other lady. “Although with him it’s the exact opposite. He rings before Christmas every year and complains and says that I gave him too much love. I destroyed his childhood, according to him. Don’t you give it another thought, Elsa.”
Tilda stopped eavesdropping and looked at her watch. The weather report should be over by now, and she got up and knocked on Gerlof’s door.
Gerlof was sitting by the radio when Tilda went in to collect him. He had his coat on, but didn’t seem to want to get up.
“Shall we go?” she said, holding her arm out ready to support him.
“Maybe,” he said. “Where was it we were going?”
“Eel Point,” said Tilda.
“Right… and what exactly is it we’re going to do out there?”
“Well, I suppose we’re going to talk,” said Tilda. “The new owner wants to hear some stories about the place. I said you knew lots of stories.”
“Stories?” Gerlof got up slowly and looked at her. “So now I’m designated as some kind of canny old man, sitting in a rocking chair with twinkling eyes telling tales of ghosts and superstitions?”
“It’ll be fine, Gerlof,” said Tilda. “Just look on yourself as a spiritual mentor. To someone who is grieving.”
“Oh yes? There’s no pleasure in grief, said the old man who sat weeping beside the wrong grave.”
Gerlof set off, leaning on his stick, and added, “We’ll just have to talk some sense into him.”
Tilda took his other arm. “Shall we take the wheelchair?”
“Not today,” said Gerlof. “My legs are working today.”
“Do we need to tell anyone we’re going?”
Gerlof snorted. “It’s nothing to do with them.”
It was Wednesday, the second week in December, and they were on their way out to Eel Point for coffee. Gerlof and the owner of the manor were to meet at last.
“How are things going at work, then?” asked Gerlof as they drove through the center of Marnäs.
“I only have one colleague at the station here in Marnäs,” said Tilda. “And he tends to keep out of the way… he’s usually down in Borgholm.”
Tilda remained silent for a few seconds.
“You tell me… but I happened to bump into Bengt Nyberg from Ölands-Posten yesterday, and he told me that the new police station in Marnäs already has a nickname.”
“They call it the old women’s station.”
Gerlof shook his head wearily. “That’s what they used to call the train stations on the island that only had female staff in the old days. The male stationmasters didn’t think the women could do the job as well as them.”
“I’m sure they did it better,” said Tilda.
“Well, no one ever complained, as far as I know.”
Tilda drove out of Marnäs and down along the deserted road. The temperature was zero, and the flat coastal landscape seemed to have stiffened into a gray and white winter painting. Gerlof looked out through the windshield.
“It’s so beautiful here by the sea.”
“Yes,” said Tilda. “But you’re biased.”
“I love my island.”
“And you hate the mainland.”
“No, I don’t,” said Gerlof. “I’m not some narrow-minded local patriot… but love always begins at home. Those of us who live on the island have to preserve and defend the dignity of Öland.”
Gerlof’s sullen mood gradually lifted and he became more and more talkative. As they were passing the little churchyard in Rörby, he pointed toward the side of the road.
“Speaking of ghosts and superstitions… would you like to hear a story that my father told every Christmas?”
“Sure,” said Tilda.
“The father of your grandfather and my father was called Carl Davidsson,” Gerlof began. “He worked as a servant over in Rörby when he was a teenager, and he once saw a very strange thing here. His older brother had come to visit
him, and they were out walking here by the church in the twilight hour. It was around New Year, very cold and with plenty of snow. Then they heard a horse-drawn sleigh coming up behind them. His brother glanced over his shoulder, then cried out and grabbed hold of Carl’s arm. He pulled him down off the road and out into the snow. Carl didn’t understand what was going on until he saw the sleigh, which was coming closer along the road.”
“I know this story,” said Tilda. “My father used to tell it.”
But Gerlof carried on, as if he hadn’t heard her:
“It was a load of hay. The smallest load of hay Carl had ever seen, and it was being pulled by four tiny horses. And up in the hay little men were clambering around. They were less than three feet tall.”
“Goblins,” said Tilda. “Weren’t they?”
“My father never used that word. He just said they were little people dressed in gray clothes and hats. Carl and his brother didn’t dare move, because the men didn’t look friendly. But the load drove past the boys without anything happening, and once it had passed the churchyard the horses turned off the road and disappeared out into the darkness on the alvar.” Gerlof nodded to himself. “My father swore it was a true story.”
“Didn’t your mother see goblins too?”
“Yes indeed, she saw a little gray man run straight out into the water when she was young… but that was in southern Öland.” Gerlof looked at Tilda. “You come from a family that has seen many remarkable things. Perhaps you’ve inherited the ability to see things?”
“I hope not,” said Tilda.
Five minutes later they had almost reached the turning for the manor, but Gerlof still wanted to take a break and stretch his legs. He pointed through the windshield to the grassy landscape on the other side of the stone wall.
“The peat bog has started to freeze. Shall we take a look?”
Tilda pulled up at the side of the road and helped Gerlof
out into the cold wind. A thin layer of shining ice covered the watery patches all over the bog.
“This is one of the few old peat bogs left on the island,” said Gerlof as he looked out over the stone wall. “Most of the others have been drained and have disappeared.”
Tilda followed his gaze and suddenly saw a movement out in the water, a black shiver between two thick tussocks of grass that made the film of ice quiver and crack.
“Are there fish in here?”
“Oh yes,” said Gerlof. “I’m sure there are a few old pike… and the eels make their way here in the spring, when the streams created by the melting ice run down into the Baltic.”
“So you can catch them?”
“You can, but nobody does. When I was little, I was told that the flesh of fish caught in the bog had a musty taste.”
“So where does the name come from, then-Offermossen, ‘the Sacrificial Bog’?”
“Sacrifices from the old days,” said Gerlof. “Archaeologists have found Roman gold and silver here, and the skeletons of hundreds of animals that had been thrown into the water-lots of horses.” He fell silent, then added: “And human bones.”
Gerlof nodded. “Slaves, perhaps, or prisoners of war. I suppose some powerful person decided that was all they were good for. As far as I understand it, they were pushed down beneath the water with long poles while they were still alive… then the bodies just lay there until the archaeologists found them.” He gazed out over the water and went on: “Perhaps that’s why the eels still come up here, year after year. They probably remember the taste, I mean they like eating the flesh of-”
Tilda stepped away from the stone wall and looked at him. He nodded.
“Okay, okay, I’m just rambling. Shall we get going?”
Once they had parked the car, Gerlof made his way slowly across the gravel, leaning on his stick and Tilda’s arm. She let go briefly to knock on the glass pane in the kitchen door.
Joakim Westin opened the door after the second knock.
His voice was quiet and he looked even more tired than the last time she’d seen him, Tilda thought. But he shook hands with her, even smiled, and his earlier anger over the mix-up with the names seemed to have disappeared.
“I’m very sorry about your loss,” said Gerlof.
Westin nodded. “Thank you.”
“I’m a widower myself.”
“Yes, but it wasn’t the result of an accident, it was a long illness… my Ellen got diabetes, then heart problems.”
“No, it was many years ago,” said Gerlof. “But of course it’s still hard sometimes. The memories are still strong.”
Westin looked at Gerlof and nodded silently. “Come in.”
The children were at preschool, and the atmosphere in the bright rooms was silent and solemn. Tilda could see that Westin had worked hard over the past few weeks. Almost the whole of the ground floor had been painted and wallpapered, and it was beginning to look like a real home.
“It almost feels like a journey back in time,” she said as they walked into the big drawing room. “Like walking into a nineteenth-century manor house.”
“Thank you,” said Joakim.
He took it as a compliment, despite the fact that Tilda was mainly envious of the size of the room. She still wouldn’t want to live out here.
“Where did you find all the furniture?” asked Gerlof.
“We searched and searched… both here on the island and in Stockholm,” said Joakim. “Large rooms need large pieces of furniture to occupy the space. We’ve often looked for old pieces that we could renovate.”
“That’s a good approach,” said Gerlof. “These days people rarely set any store by their possessions. They don’t repair things that are broken, they simply throw them away. It’s buying things that’s important, not looking after them.”
Tilda realized that he enjoyed going around old houses. For Gerlof the pleasure in seeing beautiful, well-made possessions went hand in hand with the knowledge of the hard work that lay behind them. Tilda had seen him sitting and contemplating items he owned-an old seaman’s chest or a collection of linen hand towels-as if he could feel all the memories they brought with them.
“I imagine you get kind of addicted to this?” asked Gerlof.
“Addicted to what?” said Joakim.
“Fixing up houses.”
He was smiling, but Joakim shook his head.
“It’s not an addiction. It’s not as if we want a new kitchen every year, like some families in Stockholm… and this is only the second house we’ve taken on. Before that we only fixed up apartments.”
“So where was the first house?”
“Outside Stockholm, in Bromma. A beautiful detached house that we renovated from top to bottom.”
“And why did you move? What was wrong with the house?”
Joakim avoided meeting Gerlof’s eye. “There was nothing wrong… we really liked the house. But it’s good to move up to something bigger now and again. Financially, above all.”
“You take out a loan and find a run-down apartment in a good location and start renovating it in the evenings and on the weekends, while living there at the same time. Then you
find the right buyer and sell it for much more than you paid… then you take out a new loan and buy another rundown apartment in an even better location.”
“And you sell that one too?”
Joakim nodded. “Of course it wouldn’t be possible to make money out of property if the demand for places to live wasn’t so high. I mean, everybody wants to live in Stockholm.”
“Not me,” said Gerlof.
“But lots of people do… prices are going up all the time.”
“So both you and your wife were good at fixing places up?” said Tilda.
“We actually met when we both went to an open house at an apartment,” said Joakim with fresh energy in his voice. “An old lady had been living in a big apartment with a whole lot of cats. The location was perfect, but Katrine and I were the only ones who could put up with the stench, and stayed behind. We went for coffee afterward and talked about what could be done with the place…It became our first project together.”
Gerlof turned and looked around the drawing room, his expression grim. “And of course you’re intending to do the same thing with Eel Point,” he said. “Move in, renovate it, sell it.”
Joakim shook his head. “We’d intended to stay here for many years. We wanted to rent out rooms, maybe even open a small restaurant.” He looked out of the window and added, “We didn’t really have a set plan for everything we wanted to do, but we knew we were going to be happy here…”
His energy had disappeared again, Tilda could see. The silence in the white room was oppressive.
After a tour of the house they sat down in the kitchen with a cup of coffee.
“Tilda said you wanted to hear some stories about the manor,” said Gerlof.
“I’d like that,” said Joakim, “if there are any.”
“Oh, there are,” said Gerlof. “But I suppose you mean ghost stories? Is that the kind of thing you’re interested in?”
Joakim hesitated, as if he was afraid someone might be eavesdropping, then said, “I’d just like to know if anyone else has experienced unusual things here,” he said. “I’ve felt… or imagined I’ve felt… the presence of the dead at Eel Point. Both out by the lighthouses and here inside the manor. Others who have been here seem to have had a similar experience.”
Tilda said nothing, but she was thinking of the October evening when she had waited here for Westin. She had been alone here then-but it hadn’t really felt that way.
“Those who have lived here in times gone by are still here,” said Gerlof, his coffee cup in his hand. “Do you think they rest only in graveyards?”
“But that’s where they’re buried,” said Joakim quietly.
“Not always.” Gerlof nodded toward the expanse of plowed fields at the back of the house. “The dead are our neighbors everywhere here on the island, and you just have to get used to it. The whole countryside is full of old graves… tumuli containing chambers from the Stone Age, burial cairns and cists from the Bronze Age, and the burial grounds of the Vikings.”
Gerlof turned to look out toward the sea, where the horizon had disappeared in a damp winter fog.
“And there’s a churchyard out there too,” he said. “The whole of the east coast is a graveyard for hundreds of ships that ran up on the sandbanks and were smashed to pieces, and for all the sailors who drowned. Many of those who went to sea in days gone by couldn’t even swim.”
Joakim nodded and closed his eyes. “I didn’t believe in anything,” he said. “Before we came here I didn’t believe the dead could come back… but now I don’t know what to believe. A number of remarkable things have happened here.”
Silence fell in the kitchen.
“Whatever you might feel of the dead, or whatever you think you might see,” said Gerlof slowly, “it can be dangerous to let them rule our actions.”
“Yes,” said Joakim quietly.
“And to try to call them up… or ask questions.”
“You never know what answers you might get,” said Gerlof.
Joakim looked down into his coffee cup and nodded. “But I have wondered about this story that says they will return here.”
“The dead. When I was having coffee with the neighbors, they told me a story: those who have died here at the manor return home every Christmas. I was just wondering if there were any more tales about that?”
“Oh, that’s an old story,” said Gerlof. “It’s told in many places, not just here at Eel Point. The Christmas vigil of the dead, that’s when those who have passed away during the year return for their own Christmas service. Anyone who disturbed them at that time had to run for their life.”
Joakim nodded. “An encounter with the dead.”
“Exactly. There was a strong belief that people would be able to see the dead again… and not only in church. In their homes too.”
“According to folk beliefs, you should place a candle in the window at Christmas,” said Gerlof, “so that the dead can find their way home.”
Joakim leaned forward. “But was that just those who had passed away in the house,” he said, “or other dead people as well?”
“You mean drowned sailors?” said Gerlof.
“Sailors… or other members of the family who have passed away somewhere else. Did they come back at Christmas as well?”
Gerlof glanced briefly at Tilda, then shook his head. “This is just a story, you know,” he said. “There are many superstitions surrounding Christmas… It was the turning point of the year, after all, when the darkness was at its peak and death was at its closest. Then the days grew longer again, and life returned.”
Joakim didn’t say anything.
“I’m looking forward to that,” he said eventually. “It’s so dark now… I’m looking forward to the turning point.”
A few minutes later they were outside saying goodbye. Joakim held out his hand.
“You have a beautiful home out here,” said Gerlof, shaking it. “But be careful of the blizzard.”
“The blizzard,” said Joakim. “It’s supposed to be a really big snowstorm down here, isn’t it?”
Gerlof nodded. “It doesn’t come every year, but I’m pretty sure it will come this winter. And it comes quickly. You don’t want to be outdoors down here by the sea when that happens. Especially not the children.”
“So how do people on Öland know when something like that is coming?” asked Joakim. “Can you feel it in the air?”
“We look at the thermometer and listen to the weather forecasts,” said Gerlof. “The cold has arrived early this year, and that’s usually a bad sign.”
“Okay,” said Joakim with a smile. “We’ll be careful.”
“You do that.” Gerlof nodded and set off toward the car, supported by Tilda, but he suddenly stopped, let go of her arm, and turned around. “One more thing… what was your wife wearing on the day of her accident?”
Joakim Westin stopped smiling. “I’m sorry?”
“Do you remember what clothes she was wearing that day?”
“Yes… but they were nothing special,” said Joakim. “Boots, jeans, and a winter jacket.”
“Have you still got them?”
Joakim nodded, looking tired and tortured again. “The hospital gave them to me. In a parcel.”
“Could I take a look at them?”
“You mean… you want to borrow them?”
“Borrow them, yes. I won’t damage them in any way, I just want to look at them.”
“Okay… but they’re still all parceled up,” said Joakim. “I’ll go and get them.”
He went back into the house.
“Can you take care of the parcel, Tilda?” said Gerlof, setting off toward the car once more.
When Tilda had started the engine and driven out through the gate, Gerlof leaned back in his seat.
“So, we had our little chat,” he said with a sigh. “I suppose I was a bit of a canny old man after all. It’s difficult to avoid it.”
A brown parcel containing Katrine Westin’s clothes was lying on his knee. Tilda glanced at it.
“What was all that business with the clothes? Why did you want to borrow them?”
Gerlof looked down at his knee. “It was just something that occurred to me when we were standing out there by the bog. About how the sacrifices were carried out there.”
“What do you mean? That Katrine Westin was some kind of sacrifice?”
Gerlof looked out through the windshield, over toward the bog. “I’ll tell you more very soon, when I’ve looked at the clothes.”
Tilda pulled out onto the main road.
“This visit worried me a little,” she said.
“I’m worried about Joakim Westin, and about his children…
It felt as if you were sitting there in the kitchen talking about folktales, while Westin regarded them as reality.”
“Yes,” said Gerlof, “but I think it was good for him to talk a little. He’s still grieving for his wife, which is not so strange after all.”
“No,” said Tilda. “But I thought he talked about her as if she were still alive… as if he were expecting to see her again.”
After the break-in at Hagelby vicarage and the flight through the forest, it was two weeks before the Serelius brothers came back to Borgholm. But suddenly there they were at Henrik’s door one evening, at the worst possible moment.
Because by that time the quiet but rhythmic knocking in his apartment had started to become intolerable, like a dripping faucet that couldn’t be turned off.
At first Henrik was convinced that it was coming from the old stable lantern, and after three difficult nights with the constant sound of tapping, he put it in the car. The following morning he drove over to the east coast and put the lantern in the boathouse.
But the knocking continued the next night, and now it was coming from inside the wall in the hallway. But not always the same wall-the sound seemed to move slowly behind the wallpaper.
If it wasn’t the lantern, then it must be something else he had brought with him from the forest, or from that fucking death chamber he’d been crawling around in.
Unless of course it was something that had sneaked into his apartment through the brothers’ Ouija board. Those nights when they had sat around the kitchen table staring at the glass as it moved beneath Tommy’s finger, it had definitely felt as if something invisible was in the room.
Whatever it was, it was getting on Henrik’s nerves. Every night he wandered back and forth between the bedroom and the kitchen, terrified of going to bed and turning off the light.
In sheer desperation he had called Camilla, his ex-girlfriend. They hadn’t been in touch for several months, but she sounded pleased to hear from him. They had talked for almost an hour.
Henrik’s nerves were at the breaking point when his doorbell rang three days later, and the sight of Tommy and Freddy at the door didn’t exactly make him feel any better.
Tommy was wearing sunglasses and his hands were twitching. He wasn’t smiling.
“Let us in.”
It wasn’t a friendly reunion. Henrik wanted money from the Serelius brothers, but they had none-they hadn’t sold any of the stolen goods yet. He knew they wanted to do one more trip to the north of the island, but Henrik didn’t want to.
And he didn’t want to discuss any of it with them tonight, because he had a visitor.
“We can’t talk now,” he said.
“Sure we can,” said Tommy.
“Who is it?” asked Camilla from the sofa in front of the TV.
The brothers craned their necks curiously to see who the female voice belonged to.
“It’s just… two friends,” said Henrik over his shoulder. “From Kalmar. But they’re not staying.”
Tommy lowered his sunglasses and gave Henrik a long look. It made him step outside and pull the door closed behind him.
“Congratulations,” said Tommy. “Is this a new find, or an old one you’ve dug up?”
“It’s the girl I used to live with,” said Henrik quietly. “Camilla.”
“Fuck me… she took you back?”
“I called her,” said Henrik. “But she was the one who wanted to meet up.”
“Nice,” said Tommy without a smile. “But what shall we do now, then?”
“Our joint project.”
“It’s over,” said Henrik. “Apart from the money.”
They stared at one another, Henrik and the brothers. Then he sighed.
“We can’t talk out here on the stairs,” he said. “One of you can come in.”
In the end Freddy lumbered back out to the van. Henrik led Tommy into the kitchen and closed the door behind them. He lowered his voice:
“We’re going to sort this out right now, then you can go.”
But Tommy was still more interested in Camilla, and asked loudly and clearly, “So has she moved back in? Is that why you look so fucking tired?”
Henrik shook his head. “That’s something else,” he said. “I’m not sleeping well.”
“I expect that’ll be your conscience,” said Tommy. “But the old guy will be okay, they’ll patch him up.”
“Who the fuck knocked him down?” hissed Henrik. “Don’t you remember?”
“It was you,” said Tommy. “You kicked him.”
“Me? But I was behind you in the hallway!”
“You stood on the old guy’s hand and broke it, Henrik. If they find us, you’re going down.”
“For fuck’s sake, we’re all going down!” Henrik glanced toward the door and lowered his voice again. “I can’t talk any more now.”
“You want money,” said Tommy. “Don’t you?”
“I’ve got money,” said Henrik. “I’ve got a job during the day, for fuck’s sake!”
“But you need more,” said Tommy, nodding toward the other room. “They’re expensive to run.”
Henrik sighed. “It’s not the fucking money that’s the problem, it’s all the stolen stuff in the boathouse. We need to get it sold.”
“We’ll sell it,” said Tommy. “But first we’re going to do one more trip… the last trip to the north. To the manor house.”
“What manor house?”
“The one with all the paintings… the one Aleister told us about.”
“Eel Point,” said Henrik quietly.
“That’s the one. When shall we go?”
“Wait a minute…I was there last summer. I went just about everywhere, but I didn’t see any fucking paintings. And besides…”
Henrik didn’t say any more. He remembered the echoing rooms and corridors at Eel Point. He had enjoyed working for Katrine Westin, the woman who lived there with her two small children. But the place itself had felt forbidding even in August, despite the fact that the Westin family had given it a thorough cleaning and started a massive renovation project. What would it be like there now, in December?
“Nothing,” he said. “But I didn’t see any paintings at Eel Point.”
“They’re probably hidden, then,” said Tommy.
There was a faint knocking sound.
Henrik jumped, then realized it was just an ordinary knock at the kitchen door. He went over and opened it.
Camilla was standing outside. She didn’t look pleased.
“Will you be done soon? Otherwise I’m going home, Henrik.”
“We’re done,” he said.
Camilla was small and slender, much shorter than the men. Tommy smiled sweetly down at her and held out his hand.
“Hi there… Tommy,” he said, in a quiet, polite voice Henrik had never heard before.
They shook hands so vigorously, the buckles on Tommy’s jacket jingled. Then he nodded at Henrik and moved toward the door.
“Okay, so that’s agreed then,” he said to Henrik. “I’ll call you.”
Henrik locked the front door behind Tommy, then went and joined Camilla on the sofa. They sat in silence and finished watching the film they’d started before the brothers turned up.
“Do you think I should stay, Henrik?” she asked half an hour later, when it was almost eleven o’clock.
“If you want to,” he said. “That would be good.”
After midnight they were lying next to each other in the little bedroom, and for Henrik it was like being taken six months back in time. As if everything was as it should be. It was just fantastic that Camilla had come back, and the only thing that was bothering him now was the persistent Serelius brothers.
And the knocking.
Henrik was listening for it, but all he could hear was the sound of Camilla’s soft breathing. She had fallen asleep with no problem.
Silence. No noises inside the walls.
He didn’t want to think about the knocking now. Or about the visit from the Serelius brothers. Or about the manor house at Eel Point.
Camilla had come back, but Henrik didn’t dare to discuss with her exactly what their relationship was. They weren’t living together, anyway. Early the next morning he got up and went off to work in Marnäs.
She was still in the apartment then, but when he got home it was empty. There was no reply when he rang her.
That night he lay alone in his bed again, and when he had turned out the light the noises started in the hallway. There was a knocking sound inside the walls, quiet but persistent.
Henrik raised his head from the pillow.
“Shut the fuck up!” he yelled out into the room.
The knocking paused briefly, then resumed.
The last year of the fifties-that’s when my own story begins. The story of Mirja at the manor house at Eel Point, and of Torun and her paintings of the blizzard.
I was sixteen years old and fatherless when I arrived at the lighthouse station. But I had Torun. She had taught me something all girls ought to learn: never to be dependent on men.
– MIRJA RAMBE
The two men my artistic mother, Torun, hated most were Stalin and Hitler. She was born a couple of years before the First World War and grew up on Bondegatan in Stockholm, but she was restless and wanted to venture out into the world. She loved painting, and at the beginning of the 1930s she went to art school in Gothenburg first of all, and then on to Paris, where, according to Torun, people constantly mistook her for Greta Garbo. Her paintings attracted a certain amount of attention, but she wanted to get back to Sweden when the war broke out, and traveled back via Copenhagen. There she met a Danish artist and managed to fit in a quick romance before Hitler’s soldiers suddenly appeared on the streets.
When she got home to Sweden, Torun discovered that she was pregnant. According to her, she wrote several letters to the father-to-be, my Danish daddy. It might be true. However, he never got in touch.
I was born in the winter of 1941, when fear covered the world. At that time Torun was living in Stockholm, where all the lights had been turned off and everything was rationed. She kept on moving to different rooms for unmarried mothers, poky little holes rented out by disapproving old ladies, and supported herself by cleaning for the rich folk of Östermalm.
She had neither the time nor the money to be able to paint.
It can’t have been easy. I know it wasn’t easy.
When I first heard the dead whispering in the barn at Eel Point, I wasn’t afraid. I’d experienced far worse in Stockholm.
One summer after the war, when I am seven or eight years old, I start to have problems peeing. It’s terribly painful. Torun says I’ve been swimming too much, and takes me to a doctor with a beard on one of Stockholm’s widest streets. He’s nice, my mother says. He charges next to nothing to see children.
The doctor is very friendly when he says hello. He is old, he must be at least fifty, and his coat is all creased. He smells of booze.
I have to go in and lie down on my back in a special room in his surgery, which also stinks of booze, and the doctor closes the door behind us.
“Unbutton your skirt,” he says. “Pull it up and just relax.”
I am alone with the doctor, and he is very thorough. But at last he is satisfied.
“If you tell anyone about this, they’ll put you away in an institution,” he says, patting me on the head.
He buttons up his coat. Then he gives me a shiny one-krona coin and we go back to Torun in the waiting room-I stagger along, my legs trembling, and I feel even more ill than I did before, but the doctor says there isn’t anything serious wrong with me. I am a good girl, and he will prescribe some suitable medicine.
My mother is furious when I refuse to take the doctor’s tablets.
At the beginning of the 1950s, Torun takes me to Öland. It is one of her ideas. I don’t think she had any connection
with the island, but just as when she traveled to Paris, she longs for an artistic environment. And of course Öland is famous for its light and for the artists who have succeeded in capturing it. My mother babbles about Nils Kreuger, Gottfrid Kallstenius, and Per Ekström.
I am just happy to be leaving the city where that old doctor lives.
We arrive in Borgholm on the ferry. We have all our possessions with us in three suitcases, plus Torun’s package of canvases and oils. Borgholm is a neat little town, but my mother is unhappy there. She thinks the people are stiff and haughty. Besides, it’s much cheaper to live out in the country, so after a year or so we move again, to a red outbuilding in the village of Rörby. We have to sleep under three blankets, because it is always so cold and drafty.
I start at the local school. All the children there think I speak a kind of affected big-city talk. I don’t say what I think of their dialect, but I still don’t make any friends.
Soon after we end up out in the country, I start to draw in earnest; I draw white figures with red mouths and Torun thinks they’re angels, but it is the doctor and his slashed mouth that I am drawing.
When I was born, Hitler was the big bad wolf, but I grow up filled with the fear of Stalin and the Soviet Union. If the Russians want to, they can conquer Sweden in four hours with their airplanes, according to my mother. First they will occupy Gotland and Öland, then they will take the rest of the country.
But for me, as a child, four hours is quite a long time, and I give a great deal of thought to what I would do during this last period of freedom. If the news comes that the Soviet planes are on their way, I will run off to the store in Rörby and stuff myself with as much chocolate as I can, I’ll eat all they’ve got, then I’ll grab some crayons and paper and watercolors and rush back home. Then I’ll be able to cope with
living the rest of my life as a communist, just as long as I can carry on painting.
We move around as lodgers from one place to another, and every room we rent stinks of oils and turpentine. Torun makes enough money to live on by cleaning, but paints in her spare time-she goes out with her easel and paints and paints.
In the last fall of the 1950s we move again, to an even cheaper room. It is in an old building at the manor house at Eel Point. An outbuilding, built of limestone, with whitewashed walls. Cool and pleasant to live in during the hot summer days, but freezing cold the rest of the year.
When I find out that we are going to live near lighthouses, of course I get a whole lot of magical pictures in my head. Dark, stormy nights, ships in trouble out at sea, and heroic lighthouse keepers.
Torun and I move in one October day, and I immediately feel unwelcome there. Eel Point is a cold and windy place. Walking between the big wooden buildings feels like sneaking around some desolate castle courtyard.
The pictures in my imagination turn out to be entirely false. The lighthouse keepers have left Eel Point, and only come to visit a few times a year-the lighthouses were converted to electricity a year or so after the war, and ten years later everything was automated. There’s an old watchman; his name is Ragnar Davidsson and he lumbers around at Eel Point as if he owned the place.
A couple of months after we move in, I experience my first blizzard-and almost end up an orphan at the same time. It is the middle of December, and when I get home from school, Torun isn’t there. One of her easels and the bag with her oils in it is also missing. Twilight falls and it begins to snow; the wind from the sea grows stronger.
Torun doesn’t come back. At first I am angry with her, then I start to feel afraid. I have never seen so much snow whirling past the windows. The flakes are not falling, they are slicing through the air. The wind shakes the windowpanes.
Half an hour or so after the storm begins, a small figure finally appears, plowing through the snowdrifts in the inner courtyard.
I hurry outside, grab hold of Torun before she collapses, and help her inside, to the fire.
The bag is still hanging over her shoulder, but the easel has been swept away in the storm. Her eyes are swollen shut; grains of ice mixed with sand have blown into them, and she can hardly see. When I take off her clothes, they are soaked; she is frozen stiff.
She had been sitting painting on the far side of the peat bog, Offermossen, when the clouds gathered and the storm came. She tried to take a shortcut through the tussocks of grass and the thin ice of the bog, but fell into the water and had to fight her way onto firmer ground. She whispers:
“The dead came up out of the bog… lots of them, clawing at me, ripping and tearing… they were cold, so cold. They wanted my warmth.”
Torun is rambling. I get her to drink some hot tea and put her to bed.
She sleeps peacefully for more than twelve hours, and I keep watch by the window as the snowfall gradually diminishes during the night.
When Torun wakes up, she is still talking about the dead who walked in the blizzard.
Her eyes are scratched and bloodshot, but the very next evening she sits down at a canvas and begins to paint.
Just when Tilda had stopped thinking about Martin Ahlquist every morning and night, the telephone rang in her little kitchen. She thought it was Gerlof, and picked up the receiver without any misgivings.
It was Martin.
“I just wanted to see how you were. Make sure everything’s okay.”
Tilda didn’t speak; the pains in her stomach came back immediately. She gazed out at the empty quays in the harbor.
“Fine,” she said eventually.
“Fine, or just okay?”
“Do you fancy having a visitor?” asked Martin.
“Isn’t it lonely in northern Öland anymore?”
“Yes, but I’m keeping busy.”
The conversation was not unpleasant, but it was short. Martin ended by asking if he could ring her again, and she said yes in a very small voice.
The wound somewhere between her heart and her stomach started bleeding again.
It isn’t Martin who’s ringing, she thought, it’s his hormones. He’s just horny and wants a change from his wife again; he can’t cope with everyday life…
The worst of it was that she still wanted him to come over, preferably that very night. It was sick.
She should have mailed the letter to his wife long ago, but she was still carrying it around in her purse like a brick.
Tilda worked long hours. She worked almost all the time to avoid thinking about Martin.
In the evenings she would sit for hours preparing the talks on traffic awareness or law and order that she was due to give in schools or to local companies. And as often as she could, in between the talks, the foot patrols, and the paperwork, she went out in her police car all over the area.
One Tuesday afternoon, on the deserted coast road, she slowed down when she saw the twin lighthouses at Eel Point. But she didn’t stop; instead she turned down toward the neighboring property where a farming family lived. Their name was Carlsson, she recalled. Her only visit there had been on that long, difficult night after Katrine Westin had drowned, when Joakim had broken down in the neighbors’ hallway.
The lady of the house, Maria Carlsson, recognized her at once when she rang the doorbell.
“No, we haven’t seen much of Joakim this fall,” she said when they were sitting at the kitchen table. “We haven’t fallen out, nothing like that, but he tends to keep himself to himself. His children play with our Andreas sometimes.”
“And what about his wife, Katrine?” said Tilda. “Did you
see more of her when she was living there alone with the children?”
“She came over for coffee a couple of times… but I think she had her hands full with the house. And of course we work long hours too.”
“Did you notice whether she had visitors?”
“Visitors?” said Maria. “Well, there were a few workmen there, toward the end of the summer.”
“But did you ever see a boat there?” said Tilda. “At Eel Point, I mean.”
Maria pushed back her bangs and thought about it.
“No, not that I remember. Nobody would have seen it from here anyway. The view is pretty much obscured.”
She pointed toward the window in the northeast, and Tilda could see that the view of the lighthouses was blocked by the big barn on the far side of the yard.
“But did you perhaps hear the sound of a boat at some point?” she ventured. “The sound of an engine?”
Maria shook her head. “You do hear boats chugging past sometimes when there’s no wind, but I don’t usually take any notice of it…”
When Tilda got outside, she stopped by the car and glanced to the south. There was a group of red boathouses out on the nearest point, but not a soul in sight.
And no boats surging through the water.
She got back in the car and realized it was time to put this particular criminal investigation to bed-and it had never really been an investigation anyway.
When she got back to the station, she moved the file containing her notes on Katrine Westin into the tray marked Non-Priority.
She had four substantial piles of paper on her desk, and half a dozen dirty coffee cups. Hans Majner’s desk on the other side of the room was, in contrast, completely empty of papers. Sometimes she had the urge to dump a huge bundle of traffic reports on his desk, but it always passed.
In the evenings Tilda took off her uniform, got into her own little Ford, and drove around getting to know Öland, while listening to the recordings she had made with Gerlof. Most of them sounded good, the microphone picking up both his and Tilda’s voices, and she could hear that he had become more and more accustomed to talking each time they met.
It was during one of these outings they she finally found the van Edla Gustafsson had mentioned.
She had driven down to Borgholm, toured around the streets of the town for a while, then continued on south across the bridge to Kalmar. There were lots of streets there, lots of huge parking lots, and she drove slowly past hundreds of vehicles without spotting a dark van. The whole thing just seemed hopeless.
After half an hour, when she heard on the local radio that there was horse racing tonight, she left the center and headed for the racecourse. The enclosed course was illuminated with huge spotlights. There was money to be won and lost in there, but Tilda stayed in the car and drove slowly along the rows of parked cars.
Suddenly she slammed on the brakes.
She had passed a van. It said kalmar pipes & welding on the sides, and it was black.
Tilda made a note of the license number and reversed into a parking space a little further along. Then she called the central control number, asked them to look up the plates, and found that they belonged to a forty-seven-year-old man with no police record, in a village outside Helsingborg. The van had no record of traffic offenses, but it had been deregistered since August.
Aha, thought Tilda. She also asked them to check out the firm called Kalmar Pipes & Welding, but no such firm was registered.
Tilda switched off the engine and settled down to wait.
“Yes, Ragnar used to fish illegally up by Eel Point,” said Gerlof in her headphones. “He was in fishing waters belonging to other people sometimes, but of course he always denied it…”
After fifty minutes the spectators started pouring out through the gates. Two powerfully built men aged around twenty-five stopped by the dark van.
Tilda took off her headphones and straightened up in her seat.
One of the men was taller and broader than the other, but she couldn’t make out any clear facial features. She peered through the darkness as the man got into the van, and wished she had a telescope.
The men responsible for the break-ins? Impossible to tell, of course.
They’re just ordinary workmen, darling, she heard Martin’s self-assured voice saying in the back of her mind, but she ignored him.
The men drove out of the parking lot. Tilda started her own car and put it in first gear.
The van drove away from the racecourse, out onto the freeway and on toward Kalmar. Tilda followed, a couple of hundred yards behind.
Eventually they reached a high-rise apartment block not far from the hospital, and the van slowed down and pulled in by the sidewalk. The men got out and disappeared through a doorway.
Tilda sat and waited. After thirty seconds the lights went on in a couple of windows on the second floor.
She quickly wrote down the address. If these were the burglars, then at least she now knew where they lived. The best thing would of course be to go into the apartment to search for stolen goods, but her only justification for doing so was old Edla’s information that the van had been on Öland. That wasn’t enough.
“I’ve given up on the investigation into Katrine Westin’s death,” said Tilda as she was having coffee with Gerlof a couple of evenings later.
“Her murder, you mean?”
“It wasn’t a murder.”
“Oh yes,” said Gerlof. “I think it was.”
Tilda said nothing, she merely sighed and took out the tape recorder.
“Shall we do one last-”
But Gerlof interrupted her.
“I saw a man almost murdered once, without anyone touching him.”
Tilda put the tape recorder down on the table, but didn’t switch it on.
“It was out by Timmernabben, a few years before the war,” Gerlof went on. “Two cargo ships carrying stone were moored up side by side, in perfect harmony. But aboard one was a first mate from Byxelkrok, and aboard the other an ordinary seaman from Degerhamn. They got into an argument about something, and stood yelling at each other across the gunwales. In the end one of them spat at the other… then it got serious. They started hurling shards of stone at each other, and in the end the guy from Degerhamn jumped up onto the gunwale to get across to the other ship. But he didn’t get far, because his opponent met him with a boat hook.”
Gerlof paused, drank a little of his coffee, and went on:
“Boat hooks these days are pathetic things made of plastic, but this was a sturdy wooden pole with a big iron hook on one end. So when this lout came hurtling over the gunwale, his shirt got caught on the hook, and he stopped in midair. Then he fell straight down like a stone into the water between the ships, with his shirt still tangled up on the boat hook… and he didn’t come up again, because the other guy
was holding him under the water.” He looked at Tilda. “It was more or less the same as they did with those poor souls who were pushed down into the water with poles out on the peat bog.”
“But he survived?”
“Oh yes, the rest of us broke up the fight and got him out. But he only just made it.”
Tilda looked at the tape recorder. She should have switched it on.
Gerlof bent down and started rustling with some paper under the table.
“Anyway, it was that fight I was thinking of when I asked to see Katrine Westin’s clothes,” he said. “And now I’ve had a look at them.”
He took an item of clothing out of the paper bag. It was a gray cotton top with a hood.
“The murderer came to Eel Point by boat,” said Gerlof. “He put in by the stone jetty, where Katrine Westin was waiting… and she stayed where she was, so she must have trusted him. He was holding a boat hook, which of course was perfectly natural because that’s what you use when you put in. But this was one of the old kind… a long pole with an iron hook that he twisted into the hood of her top, then he used it to drag her down into the water. Then he held her down until it was over.”
Gerlof spread the top out on the table, and Tilda saw that the hood was torn. Something sharp had ripped two inch-long holes in the gray fabric.
Often when Joakim looked out of the kitchen window in the evening, he would see Rasputin slinking off to go hunting. But sometimes he thought he caught a glimpse of other black shapes moving out there-sometimes on four legs, sometimes on two.
The first few times, Joakim had hurried out onto the veranda steps to get a better look, but the inner courtyard had always been empty.
The shadows lengthened around Eel Point with every evening, and Joakim felt that the sense of unease in the house was also increasing as Christmas approached. The howling of the wind rose and fell around the eaves, and there was a constant tapping and creaking in the house.
If there were some unseen visitor at the manor, it wasn’t Katrine, he knew that. She was still keeping herself from him.
“I’ve brought the clothes back,” said Gerlof, handing over the brown package to Joakim on the other side of the table.
“Did you get anything out of them?”
“But you don’t want to tell me what it was?”
“Soon,” said Gerlof. “When I’ve finished thinking.”
Joakim had never visited an old people’s home, as far as he remembered. Both sets of grandparents had remained at home until a ripe old age, and had spent their final days in the hospital. But he was sitting here now, drinking coffee in silence in Gerlof Davidsson’s room at the home at Marnäs. A candleholder with two lit Advent candles was the only sign that Christmas was coming.
A series of old objects hung on the walls: ships’ name-plates, framed ships’ certificates, and black-and-white photographs of two-masted sailing ships.
“Those are pictures of my cargo ships,” said Gerlof. “I had three different ones.”
“Are any of them still around?”
“Just one. She’s at a sailing club down in Karlskrona. The other two are gone… one of them burned, the other sank.”
Joakim looked down at the package of Katrine’s clothes, then looked out of the only window in the room. Twilight was already starting to fall.
“I have to pick up my children in an hour,” he said. “Can we talk for a while?”
“Of course,” said Gerlof. “The only thing on my schedule this afternoon was a talk on incontinence in the dayroom. It wasn’t all that appealing.”
For a long time Joakim had wanted to talk to someone about what had happened in the fall, someone who knew Eel Point. The pastor at the church in Marnäs seemed to have such rigid views, and Mirja Rambe thought too much about herself.
It was only when Gerlof Davidsson came out to the house and proved himself to be a good listener that he thought he might have found the right person. A kind of father confessor.
“I never asked you when you came out to the house, but… do you believe in ghosts?”
Gerlof shook his head. “I neither believe nor don’t believe,” he said. “I do collect ghost stories, but not in order to prove anything. And of course there are so many theories about ghosts… that they are part of the framework of old houses, or electromagnetic radiation.”
“Or just patches on the cornea,” said Joakim.
“Exactly,” said Gerlof. He was silent for a few seconds, then went on: “Of course, I could tell you a story I’ve never written about in any folk history book, but it’s the only real ghostly experience I’ve had.”
“I took over my first cargo ship when I was seventeen,” said Gerlof. “I’d been at sea for a couple of years before that, saving up, and my father helped out with the finances. I knew exactly which ship I wanted to buy, a single-masted sailing ship with an engine; she was called Ingrid Maria, and her home port was Borgholm. The owner, Gerhard Marten, was in his sixties and had sailed cargo ships all his life. But then he developed heart problems and his doctor told him he couldn’t go to sea anymore. Ingrid Maria was for sale, and the price was three thousand five hundred kronor.”
“That was cheap, wasn’t it?” said Joakim.
“Yes, that was a good price even then,” said Gerlof, and continued: “The evening I was due to go and hand over the money to Marten, I took a walk down to the harbor to have a look at her. It was April, and the ice had just disappeared from the sound. The sun was going down, and there was hardly anybody around in the harbor… the only person I saw was old Gerhard. He was walking around on the deck of the Ingrid Maria, as if he was finding it difficult to part with her, and I went aboard. I don’t remember what we talked
about, but I took a short walk around the deck with him, and he pointed out a few little things that would need repairing. Then he told me to look after her, and we parted company. I went ashore and walked home to my parents’ house to have dinner and pick up the envelope containing the money.”
Gerlof fell silent, looking at the pictures of the cargo ships on the wall.
“At about seven o’clock I cycled over to the Marten family cottage north of Borgholm,” he went on. “But I arrived to find a house in mourning. Marten’s wife was there, her eyes red with weeping. Gerhard Marten was dead, it turned out. He had signed the purchase agreement the night before, then walked down to the shore early in the morning with his shotgun, and shot himself in the head.”
“In the morning?” said Joakim.
“That same morning, yes. So when I met Gerhard Marten down in the harbor, he had actually been dead for many hours. I can’t explain it… but I know that I met him that evening. We even shook hands.”
“So you met a ghost,” said Joakim.
Gerlof looked at him.
“Perhaps. But it doesn’t prove anything. It certainly doesn’t prove that there’s life after death.”
Joakim shifted in his seat and looked down at the parcel of clothes.
“I’m worried about my daughter, Livia,” he said. “She’s six years old, and she talks in her sleep. She always has done… but since my wife died she’s started to dream about her.”
“Is that so strange?” said Gerlof. “I dream about my late wife sometimes, and she’s been dead for many years.”
“Yes… but it’s the same dream, over and over again. Livia dreams that her mother comes to Eel Point, but can’t get into the house.”
Gerlof listened in silence.
“And sometimes she dreams about Ethel too,” Joakim went on. “That’s what worries me the most.”
“Who’s Ethel?” asked Gerlof.
“She was my sister. She was three years older than me.” Joakim sighed. “That’s my own ghost story. Kind of.”
“Tell me about her,” said Gerlof quietly.
Joakim nodded wearily. It was time.
“Ethel was a drug addict,” he said. “She died one winter’s night close to where we lived… two weeks before Christmas, a year ago.”
“I’m sorry,” said Gerlof.
“Thank you,” said Joakim, and went on: “I lied to you when I saw you last time… when you asked why we’d sold the house in Bromma and moved here. It had a lot to do with what happened to my sister. Once Ethel was dead, we didn’t want to stay in Stockholm.”
He stopped speaking again. He wanted to talk about this, and yet he didn’t want to. He didn’t really want to remember Ethel and her death. Nor Katrine’s long depression.
“But you miss your sister?” said Gerlof.
Joakim thought about it.
“A little.” That sounded terrible, so he added, “I miss her the way she used to be before… before the drugs. Ethel used to talk a lot, she always had so many plans. She was going to open a hair salon, she was going to be a music teacher… but after a while you just got so tired of it all, because none of the plans involved giving up the drugs. It was like watching someone sitting in a burning house, planning a party in the middle of the flames.”
“So how did it start?” asked Gerlof, sounding almost apologetic. “I know so little about that world…”
“For Ethel it started with hash,” said Joakim. “Weed, as they called it. It was cool to smoke at parties and concerts. And life was a party for Ethel in her teens; she played the piano and the guitar. She taught me to play a little too.”
He smiled to himself.
“It sounds as if you were very fond of her,” said Gerlof.
“Yes, Ethel was happy and funny,” said Joakim. “She was
pretty too, and popular with the boys. And she partied a lot; with amphetamines she could party even more. She must have dropped twenty pounds in weight, although she was already thin. She was away more and more. Then our father died of cancer, and I think it was around then she started with heroin… brown heroin. Her laughter grew harsher and more hoarse.”
He took a sip of his coffee and went on quickly:
“Nobody who smokes heroin thinks they’re a real user. You’re not a junkie. But sooner or later you switch to needles, because it’s cheaper… you need less heroin per dose. But you still need to come up with at least fifteen hundred kronor for supplies every day. That’s a lot of money, particularly when you haven’t got any. So you start stealing. You take your elderly mother’s money, or steal the jewelry she’s inherited.”
Joakim looked at the Advent candles and added:
“On Christmas Eve, when we were sitting in my mother’s house eating ham and meatballs, there was always an empty chair at the table. As usual Ethel had promised to come, but she was in the city center looking for drugs. For her that was routine, just everyday life. And routines are the most difficult thing to break, however terrible they are.”
He was deep into his confession now, not even aware if Gerlof was listening any longer.
“So you know that everything has gone to hell and that your sister is in the middle of the city gathering money for drugs, and her social worker never calls back… but you go off to your teaching job in the morning and have dinner with the family and work on your new house in the evening, and you try not to think and feel so much.” He lowered his eyes. “Either you try to forget, or you try to find her. My father used to go out looking in the evenings, before he got too sick. I did too. On the streets, in the squares, in the subway stations and the emergency psych wards…We soon learned where she might be.”
He fell silent. In his mind he was back in the city, among
the drug users and those sleeping rough, among all the lonely, half-dead souls who spent their nights chasing around out there.
“That must have taken a great deal of strength,” said Gerlof quietly.
“Yes… but I wasn’t out every night. I could have looked for her more often.”
“And you could also have given up.”
Joakim nodded grimly. He had one more thing to tell Gerlof about Ethel, the most difficult thing of all to talk about:
“What was in fact the beginning of the end happened two years ago,” he said. “Ethel had been in rehab that winter, and it had gone well. When she went in, she weighed less than a hundred pounds, her body was covered in bruises, and her cheeks looked completely hollow. But when she came home to Stockholm, she was much healthier. She had been clean for almost three months and had put some weight on… so we let her stay in our guest room. And it worked well. She wasn’t allowed to look after Gabriel, but she used to play a lot with Livia in the evenings, they got on really well.”
He remembered that they had begun to hope again at that time, he and Katrine. They had begun to trust Ethel. Not to the extent that they would dare to invite people to dinner when she was home, but they had started to go for long walks in the evenings, leaving Ethel to look after Livia and Gabriel. And it had gone well every time.
“One evening in March, Katrine and I went to see a movie,” he went on. “When we got back to the house after a couple of hours, it was dark and empty. There was only Gabriel there, sleeping in his cot with a soaking wet diaper. Ethel had gone, and she had taken two things with her: my cell phone and Livia.”
He stopped speaking and closed his eyes.
“I knew where she’d gone, of course,” he continued. “The craving had returned and she had taken the subway into the city to buy heroin. She had done it so many times before.
Bought a tab for five hundred kronor, injected it in some toilet, and rested for a few hours, until the craving came back again… The problem this time was that she had Livia with her.”
The memories of that night came back to Joakim-ice-cold memories of growing panic. He had hurled himself into the car and driven around the areas close to the central station. He had done it before, either alone or with Katrine. But then he had been worried about what could have happened to Ethel.
This time he was terrified for Livia.
“I found Ethel in the end,” he said, looking at Gerlof. “She was lying in the dark graveyard at Klara church. She had curled up next to a tomb and passed out. Livia was sitting beside her in thin clothes, ice cold and apathetic. I called an ambulance and made sure Ethel went into detox. Again. Then I drove home to Bromma with Livia.”
He fell silent.
“Katrine made me choose after that,” he said in a low voice. “And I chose my family.”
“You made the right choice,” said Gerlof.
Joakim nodded, although he would still have preferred not to make that choice.
“After that night I told Ethel not to come near our house anymore… but she did. We didn’t let her in, but in the evenings, two or three times a week, she would stand at our gate in her scruffy denim jacket staring at the Apple House. Sometimes she would open our mail, to see if there was any money or a check in the envelope. And sometimes she had a guy with her… some skeleton standing next to her, shaking.”
He paused and thought about the fact that this was one of his last memories of his sister: standing by the gate, her face deathly pale, her hair standing on end.
“Ethel used to just stand there yelling,” he said to Gerlof. “She yelled stuff about… about Katrine. Sometimes about me too, but mostly about Katrine. She would roar and bawl until the neighbors started peeping through their curtains, and I would have to go out and give her some money.”
“Did that help?”
“Yes… it worked at the time, but of course it meant that she came back the next time she was broke. It became a vicious cycle. Katrine and I felt… besieged. I would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and hear Ethel shouting by the gate, but when I looked out, the street would be empty.”
“Was Livia at home when your sister turned up?”
“Most of the time, yes.”
“Did she hear Ethel yelling?”
“I think so. She hasn’t talked about it, but I’m sure she did.” Joakim closed his eyes. “Those were dark days… a terrible time. And Katrine started to wish that Ethel would die. She would talk about it late at night, in bed. Ethel might take an overdose, sooner or later. Preferably sooner. I think that’s what we were both hoping for.”
“And that’s what happened?”
“Yes, eventually. The telephone rang at eleven-thirty one night. When it rang so late, we knew it was about Ethel, it always was.”
A year ago, thought Joakim, but it felt like ten.
It was his mother, Ingrid, who told them the news. Ethel had been found drowned in Bromma, just below the area where their house was.
Katrine had even heard her earlier. Ethel had been standing there at the gate as usual at around seven o’clock, yelling, then the screaming had stopped.
When Katrine looked out, she was gone.
“Ethel had gone down to the walkway by the shore,” said Joakim. “She had sat down by a boathouse and pushed the needle in, then she had tumbled into the freezing water. And that was the end of her.”
“Weren’t you home that night?” asked Gerlof.
“I came home later…Livia and I were at a children’s party.”
“That was probably a good thing. For her sake.”
“Yes. And for a while we hoped that everything would settle
down,” said Joakim. “But I kept on waking up at night thinking that I could hear Ethel yelling out in the street. And Katrine just lost all her joy in life…We’d finished renovating the Apple House by that time and it was lovely, but she just couldn’t relax there. So last winter we started talking about moving out to the country, moving south, maybe finding a place here on Öland. And in the end that’s what we did.”
He fell silent and looked at his watch. Twenty past four. It felt as if he had talked more during this last hour than during the whole of the fall.
“I have to go and pick up my children,” he said.
“Did anyone ask how all this made you feel?” said Gerlof.
“Me?” said Joakim, getting up. “I felt terrific, of course.”
“I don’t believe that.”
“No. But we’ve never talked about how we feel in my family. And we never really talked about Ethel’s problems, either.” He looked at Gerlof. “You just don’t tell people that your sister is a junkie. Katrine was the first… you could say I dragged her into all this.”
Gerlof sat there in silence, apparently lost in thought.
“What did Ethel want?” he said. “Why did she keep on coming to your house? Was it just to get the money for drugs?”
Joakim pulled on his jacket without answering.
“Not just that,” he said eventually. “She wanted her daughter back as well.”
Joakim hesitated. This was also difficult to talk about, but in the end he came out with it:
“There was no father… he died of an overdose. Katrine and I were Livia’s godparents, and social services awarded her care to us four years ago. We adopted her last year… Livia is ours now.”
“But she’s Ethel’s child?” said Gerlof.
“No. Not any longer.”
Tilda had put in a report on the black van to headquarters in Borgholm, describing it as an “interesting” vehicle worth looking out for. But Öland was a big place and the number of police officers out patrolling the roads was small.
And Gerlof’s talk of a murderer with a boat hook at Eel Point? She hadn’t put in a report on that particular theory. Without any proof that there had in fact been a boat out by the point, it was impossible to instigate a murder investigation-it would take more than a few holes in a top.
“I’ve returned the clothes to Joakim Westin,” said Gerlof the next time he called her.
“Did you tell him about your murder theory?” said Tilda.