CHAPTER ONE
SHE was not going to do the girly thing and burst into
tears, Jodie told herself, gritting her teeth. It might be
growing dark; she might be feeling sick with that familiar
stomach-churning fear that she had made a big
mistake — and about more than just the direction she
had taken in that last village she had passed through
what seemed like for ever ago; tonight might be the
night she and John should have been spending at their
romantic honeymoon hotel — their first night as husband
and wife…but she was not going to cry. Not
now, and in fact not ever, ever again over any man.
Not ever. Love was out of her life and out of her
vocabulary and it was going to stay out.
She winced as her small hire car lurched into a
deep rut in the road — a road which was definitely
climbing towards the mountains when it should have
been dropping down towards the sea.
Her cousin and his wife, her only close family since
her parents" death in a car accident when Jodie was
nineteen, had tried to dissuade her from coming to
Italy.
"But everything’s paid for," she had reminded
them. "And besides…"
Besides, she wanted to be out of the country, and
she wanted to stay out of it for the next few weeks
during the build-up to John’s marriage to his new
fiance.e, Louise, who had taken Jodie’s place in his
heart, in his life, and in his future.
Not that she’d told her cousin David or Andrea, his
wife, about that part of her decision as yet. She knew
they would have tried to persuade her to stay at home.
But when home was a very small Cotswold market
town, where everyone knew you and knew that you
had been dumped by your fiance. less than a month
before your wedding because he had fallen in love
with someone else, it was not somewhere anyone with
any pride could possibly want to be. And Jodie had
as much pride as the next woman, if not more. So
much more that she longed to be able to prove to
everyone, but most especially to John and Louise
themselves, how little John’s treachery mattered to
her. Of course the most effective way to do that would
be to turn up at their wedding with another man — a
man who was better-looking and richer than John, and
who adored her. Oh, if only…
In your dreams, she scoffed mentally at herself.
There was no way that that scenario was likely to
happen.
"Jodie, you can’t possibly go to Italy on your own,"
David had protested, whilst he and Andrea had exchanged
meaningful looks she hadn’t been supposed
to see. It was probably just as well they were now in
Australia on an extended visit to Andrea’s parents.
"Why not?" she had demanded with brittle emphasis.
"After all, that’s the way I’m going to be spending
the rest of my life."
"Jodie, we both understand how hurt and shocked
you are," Andrea had added gently. "Don’t think that
David and I Don’t feel for you, but behaving like this
isn’t going to help."
"It will help me," Jodie had answered stubbornly.
***
It had been John’s idea that they spend their honeymoon
exploring Italy’s beautiful Amalfi coast.
Jodie winced as the hire car hit another pothole in
the road, which was so badly maintained that it was
becoming increasingly uncomfortable to drive.
Her leg was aching badly, and she was beginning
to regret not having chosen to spend her first night
closer to Naples. Where on earth was she? Nowhere
near where she was supposed to be, she suspected.
The directions for the small village set back from the
coast had been almost impossible to follow, detailing
roads she had not been able to find on her tourist map.
If John had been here with her none of this would
have happened. But John was not with her, and he
was never going to be with her again.
She must not think of her now ex-fiance., or the fact
that he had fallen out of love with her and in love
with someone else, or that he had been seeing that
someone else behind her back, or that virtually everyone
in her home village had apparently known about
it apart from Jodie herself. Louise, so Jodie’s friends
had now told her, had made it obvious that she
wanted and intended to have John from the moment
they had been introduced, following her parents"
move to the area. And Jodie, fool that she was, had
been oblivious to all of this, simply thinking that
Louise, as a newcomer, an outsider, was eager to
make friends. Now she was the outsider, Jodie reflected
bitterly. She should have realised how shallow
John was when he had told her that he loved her "in
spite of her leg". She winced as the pain in it intensified.
She was never going to make the kind of mistake
she had made with John again. From now on her heart
was going to be impervious to "love"—yes, even
though that meant at twenty-six she would be facing
the rest of her life alone. What made it worse was
that John had seemed so trustworthy, so honest and
so kind. She had let him into her life and, even more
humiliatingly painful to acknowledge now, into her
fears and her dreams. No way was she going to risk
having another man treat her as John had done — one
minute swearing eternal love, the next…
And as for John himself, he was welcome to
Louise, and they were obviously suited to one another,
too, since they were both deceitful cheats and
liars. But she, coward that she was, could not face
going home until the wedding was over, until all the
fuss had died down and until she was not going to be
the recipient of pitying looks, the subject of hushed
gossip.
"Well, let’s look on the bright side," Andrea had
said lightly when she had realised Jodie was not going
to be persuaded to abandon her plans. "You never
know — you might meet someone in Italy and fall
head over heels in love. Italian men are so gorgeously
sexy and passionate."
Italian men — or any kind of men — were off the life
menu for her from now on, Jodie told herself furiously.
Men, marriage, love — she no longer wanted
anything to do with any of them.
Angrily Jodie depressed the accelerator. She had
no idea where this appallingly bumpy road was going
to take her, but she wasn’t going to turn back. From
now on there would be no U-turns in her life, no
looking back in misery or despair, no regrets about
what might have been. She was going to face firmly
forward.
David and Andrea had been wonderfully kind to
her, offering her their spare room when she had sold
her cottage so that she could put the sale proceeds
towards the house she and John were buying — which
had not, with hindsight, been the most sensible of
things to do — but she couldn’t live with her cousin
and his wife for ever.
Luckily John had at least given her her money
back, but the break-up of their engagement had still
cost her her job, since she had worked for his father
in the family business. John was due to take over
when his father retired.
So now she had neither home nor job, and she was
going to be—
She yelped as the offside front wheel hit something
hard, the impact causing her to lurch forward painfully
against the constraint of her seat belt. How much
further was she going to have to drive before she
found some form of life? She was booked into a hotel
tonight, and according to her calculations she should
have reached her destination by now. Where on earth
was she? The road was climbing so steeply…
"You, I take it, are responsible for this? It has your
manipulative, destructive touch all over it, Caterina,"
Lorenzo Niccolo d’Este, Duce di Montesavro, accused
his cousin-in-law with savage contempt as he
threw his grandmother’s will onto the table between
them.
"If your grandmother took my feelings into account
when she made her will, then that was because—"
"Your feelings!" Lorenzo interrupted her bitingly.
"And what feelings exactly would those be? The same
feelings that led to you bullying my cousin to his
death?" He was making no attempt whatsoever to conceal
his contempt for her.
Two ugly red patches of angry colour burned betrayingly
on Caterina’s immaculately made-up face.
"I did not drive Gino to his death. He had a heart
attack."
"Yes, brought on by your behaviour."
"You had better be careful what you accuse me of,
Lorenzo, otherwise…"
"You dare to threaten me?" Lorenzo demanded.
"You may have managed to deceive my grandmother,
but you cannot deceive me."
He turned his back on her to pace the stone-flagged
floor of the Castillo’s Great Hall, his pent-up fury
rendering him as savagely dangerous as a caged animal
of prey.
"Admit it," he challenged as he swung round again
to confront her. "You came here deliberately intending
to manipulate and deceive an elderly dying
woman for your own ends."
"You know that I have no desire to quarrel with
you, Lorenzo," Caterina protested. "All I want—"
"I already know what you want," Lorenzo reminded
her coldly. "You want the privilege, the position, and
the wealth that becoming my wife would give you—
and it is for that reason that you harried a confused
elderly woman you knew to be dying into changing
her will. If you had any compassion, any—" He broke
off in disgust. "But of course you do not, as I already
know."
His furious contempt had caused the smile to fade
from her lips and her body to stiffen into hostility as
she abandoned any pretence of innocence.
"You can make as many accusations as you wish,
Lorenzo, but you cannot prove any of them," she
taunted him.
"Perhaps not in a court of law, but that does not
alter their veracity. My grandmother’s notary has told
me that when she summoned him to her bedside in
order to alter her will, she confided to him the reason
that she was doing so."
Lorenzo saw the look of unashamed triumph in
Caterina’s eyes.
"Admit it, Lorenzo. I have bested you. If you want
the Castillo — and we both know that you do — then
you will have to marry me. You have no other
choice." She laughed, throwing back her head to expose
the olive length of her throat, and Lorenzo had
a savage impulse to close his hands around it and
squeeze the laughter from her it. He did want the
Castillo. He wanted it very badly. And he was determined
to have it. And he was equally determined that
he was not going to be trapped into marrying
Caterina.
"You told my grandmother I loved you and wanted
to make you my wife. You told her that the fact that
you were so newly widowed, and that your husband
Gino was my cousin, meant that society would frown
upon an immediate marriage between us. And you
told her you were afraid my passion would overwhelm
me and that I would marry you anyway and
thus bring disgrace upon myself, didn’t you?" he accused
her. "You knew how na..ve my grandmother
was, how ignorant of modern mores. You tricked her
into believing you were confiding in her out of concern
for me. You told her you didn’t know what to
do or how you could protect me. Then you ""helped""
her to come up with the solution of changing her will,
so that instead of inheriting the Castillo from her — as
her previous will had stated — I would only inherit it
if I was married within six weeks of her death. As
you told her, everyone knows how important to me
the Castillo is. And then, as though that were not
enough, you conceived the added inducement of persuading
her to add that if I did not marry within those
six weeks, you would inherit the Castillo. You led her
to believe that in making those changes she was enabling
me to marry you, because I could say I was
fulfilling the terms of her will rather than following
the dictates of my heart."
"You can’t prove any of that." She shrugged contemptuously.
Lorenzo knew that what she had said was true.
"As I’ve already told you, Nonna confided her
thoughts to her notary," he continued acidly. "Unfortunately,
by the time he managed to alert me to what
was going on, it was too late."
"Much too late — for you." Caterina smirked at him.
"So you admit it?"
"So what if I do? You can’t prove it," Caterina repeated.
"And even if you could, what good would it
do?"
"Let me make this clear to you, Caterina. No matter
what my grandmother has written in her will, you will
never become my wife. You are the last woman I
would want to give my name to."
Caterina laughed. "You have no choice."
Lorenzo had a reputation for being a formidable
and ruthless adversary. He was the kind of man other
men both respected and feared — the kind of man
women dreamed excitedly of enticing into their beds.
He was also a superb male animal, strikingly handsome,
with a hormone-unleashing combination of arrogance
and a predatory, very dangerous male sexuality—
a sexuality that he wore as easily as a panther
wore its coat. He was not just a prize, but perhaps the
most coveted prize amongst the very best of Italy’s
most eligible and wealthy men. All through his twenties
gossip columns had seethed with excited interest,
trying to guess which high-born young woman he
would make his duchess. It certainly wasn’t from any
lack of willing partners to share his wealth and his
title, along with enjoying the sexual pleasure of mating
with such a vigorously sensual man, that he had
escaped into his thirties without making any kind of
formal commitment to the women who had pursued
him.
Lorenzo looked at his late cousin’s wife. He despised
and loathed her. But then, he despised most
women. From what he had experienced of them they
were all willing to give him whatever he wanted because
of what he had, what was outside the inner him:
wealth, a title, and a handsome male body. What he
actually was was of no interest to them. His thoughts,
his beliefs, all that went to make up the man who was
Lorenzo d’Este didn’t matter to them anywhere near
so much as his money and his social position.
"You have no choice, Lorenzo," Caterina repeated
softly. "If you want the Castillo you have to marry
me."
Lorenzo permitted his mouth to curl in sardonic
disdain.
"I have to marry, yes," he agreed softly. "But nowhere
does it say that I have to marry you. You have
obviously not read my grandmother’s will thoroughly."
Her face blanched, her narrowed eyes betraying her
confusion and distrust.
"What do you mean? Of course I have read it. I
dictated it! I—"
"I repeat, you did not read the will my grandmother
signed thoroughly enough," Lorenzo told her. "You
see, it stipulates only that I must marry within six
weeks of her death if I want to inherit the Castillo
from her. It does not specify who I should marry."
Caterina stared at him, unable to conceal her anger.
It stripped from her the good looks which had in her
youth made her a sought-after model, and left in their
place the ugliness of her true nature.
"No, that cannot be true. You have altered it,
changed it — you and that sneering notary. You
have— Where does it say? Let me see!"
She virtually flung herself at him and Lorenzo retrieved
the will he had thrown down onto the table
earlier. Seizing it, she read it, her face white with
rage.
"You have changed it. Somehow you have— She
wanted you to marry me!" She was almost hysterical
with fury.
"No." Lorenzo shook his head, his face impassive
as he watched her. "Nonna wanted to give me what
she believed I wanted. And that, most assuredly, is
not you."
As Lorenzo stood beneath the flickering light of the
old-fashioned flambeaux, the small abrupt movement
of his head was reflected and repeated in the shadows
from the flames.
The Castillo had been designed as a fortress rather
than a home, long before the Montesavro Dukes of
the Renaissance had captured it from their foes and
then clothed and softened its sheer stone walls with
the artistic richness of their age. It still possessed an
aura of forbidding and forbidden darkness.
Like Lorenzo himself.
Dark shadows carved hollows beneath the sculptured
bone structure he had inherited from the warrior
prince who had been the first of their line, and his
height and the breadth of his shoulders emphasised
the predatory sleekness of his body. His mouth was
thin-lipped—"cruel", women liked to call it, as they
begged for its hardness against their own and tried to
soften it into hunger for them. It was his eyes, though,
that were his most arresting feature. Curiously light
for an Italian, they were more silver than grey, and
piercingly determined to strip away his enemies" defences.
His well-groomed hair was thick and dark, his
suit hand-made and expensive. But then, he did not
need to depend on any inheritance from his late maternal
grandmother to make him a wealthy man. He
was already that in his own right.
There were those who said, foolishly and theatrically,
that for a man to accumulate so much money
there had to be some trickery involved — some sleight
of hand or hidden use of certain dark powers. But
Lorenzo had no time for such stupidity. He had made
his money simply by using his intelligence, by making
the right investments at the right time, and thus
building the respectable sum he had been left by his
parents into a fortune that ran into many, many millions.
Unlike his late cousin, Gino, who had allowed his
greedy wife to ruin him financially. His greedy widow
now, Lorenzo reminded himself savagely. Not that
Caterina had ever behaved like a widow, or indeed
like a wife.
Poor Gino, who had loved her so much. Lorenzo
lifted his hand to his forehead. It felt damp with perspiration.
Caused by guilt? It had after all been by
claiming friendship with him that Caterina had first
brought herself to Gino’s attention.
Lorenzo had been eighteen to Caterina’s twenty-
two when he had first met her, and was easily seduced
by her determination. It hadn’t taken him long,
though, to recognise her for the adventuress that she
was. No longer, in fact, than her first hint to him that
she expected him to repay her sexual favours with
expensive gifts. As a result of that, he had ended his
brief fling with her immediately.
He had been at university when she had inveigled
herself into his kinder cousin Gino’s heart and life,
and the next time he had seen her Caterina had been
wearing Gino’s engagement ring whilst his cousin
wore a besotted expression of adoration. He had tried
to warn his cousin then, of just what she was, but
Gino had been in too deeply ever to listen, and had
even accused him of jealousy. For the first time that
Lorenzo could remember they had quarrelled, with
Gino accusing Lorenzo of wanting Caterina for himself,
and she had cleverly played on that to keep them
apart until after her and Gino’s marriage.
Later, Lorenzo and his cousin had been reconciled,
but Gino had never stopped worshipping his wife,
even though she had been blatantly unfaithful to him
with a string of lovers.
"Where are you going?" Caterina demanded shrilly
as Lorenzo turned on his heel and walked away
from her.
From the other side of the hall Lorenzo looked
back at her.
"I am going," he told her evenly, "to find myself a
wife — any wife. Just so long as she is not you. You
could have seen to it that I was warned that my grandmother
was near to death, so that I could have been
here with her, but you chose not to. And we both
know why."
"You cannot marry someone else. I will not let
you."
"You cannot stop me."
She shook her head. "You will not find another
wife, Lorenzo. Or at least not the kind of wife you
would be willing to accept — not in such a sort space
of time. You are far too proud to marry some little
village girl of no social standing, and besides…" She
paused, then gave him a taunting look and said softly,
"If necessary I shall tell everyone about the child I
was to have had, whom you made me destroy."
"Your lover’s child," he reminded her. "Not Gino’s
child. You told me that yourself."
"But I shall tell others that it was your child. After
all, many people know that Gino believed you loved
me."
"I should have told him that I loathed you."
"He would not have believed you," Caterina told
him smugly. "Just as he would not have believed the
child was not his. How does it feel to know that you
are responsible for the taking of an unborn child"s
life, Lorenzo?"
He took a step towards her, a look of such blazing
fury in his eyes that she ran for the door, pulling it
open and sliding through it.
Lorenzo cursed savagely under his breath and then
went back to the table where he had dropped his
grandmother’s will.
He had been filled with fury and disbelief when his
grandmother’s notary had finally managed to make
contact with him to tell him of his fears, and how he
had managed to prevent Caterina from having all her
own way by deliberately removing her name from the
will so that it merely required Lorenzo to marry in
order to inherit, rather than specifically having to
marry Caterina.
The notary, almost as elderly as his grandmother
had been, had apologised to Lorenzo if he had done
the wrong thing, but Lorenzo had quickly reassured
him that he had not. Without the notary"s interference
Caterina would have trapped him very cleverly. She
was right about one thing. He did want the Castillo.
And he intended to have it.
Right now, though, he had to get away from it before
he did something he would regret, he reflected
as he strode out into the courtyard and breathed in
the clean tang of the evening air, mercifully devoid
of Caterina’s heavy, smothering perfume.
CHAPTER TWO
SHE was going to have to give in and do that U-turn
she had sworn she would not make, Jodie admitted
unhappily to herself. She hadn’t a clue where she was,
and the bright moonlight was illuminating a landscape
so barren and hostile that she was actually beginning
to feel quite unnerved. To one side of her the ground
dropped away with dramatic sharpness, and on the
other it was broken by various jagged outcroppings
of rock.
Up ahead of her she could see where the narrow
track widened out to provide a passing place.
Determinedly she headed for it, and started to manoeuvre
the vehicle so that she could turn round.
Suddenly there was a loud noise, and the back
wheels of the hire car began to spin whilst the car
itself lurched horribly to one side. Thoroughly
alarmed, Jodie put the car in neutral and climbed out,
her alarm turning to despair as she saw that one of
the rear wheels was stuck fast in a deep rut and looked
as though it had a flat tyre.
Now what was she going to do? She certainly
couldn’t drive anywhere in it.
She went back to the car, massaging her aching leg
as she did so. She was tired, and hungry, and thoroughly
miserable. Opening her bag, she reached for
her mobile phone, and the wallet in which she had
placed all the details of her travel arrangements and
car hire.
As she picked up the phone her eyes widened in
dismay. Her phone was already on, and by the looks
of it there was no signal. Not only that, but when she
attempted to dial a number anyway the phone gave
an ominous bleep and the display light died. She must
have left it on, and now the battery was flat. How
could she have been so stupid? She needed help, but
what was she going to do? Stay here and wait for
someone to drive past? She hadn’t seen another sign
of life, never mind another vehicle, for miles. Walk?
To where? Back down the hundreds of kilometres to
the last village she had passed through what felt like
hours ago? The pain in her leg was gnawing at her
now. Should she walk on up into the mountains? She
gave a small shiver.
She hadn’t seen another driver in the whole of the
time she had been on this road, but someone must use
it because she could see tyre tracks in the dust. She
looked up towards the mountains, and, as though
somehow her own despair had conjured it up, she saw
the distant lights of another vehicle racing towards
her.
The relief made her feel almost giddily weak.
Savagely Lorenzo depressed the accelerator of the
black Ferrari, letting the powerful car take his anger
and turn it into a speed that demanded every ounce
of his driving skill as he negotiated the twisting road
in front of him.
Caterina had been very clever, working on his
grandmother in the way that she had. Had he been
here… But he had not. He had been abroad, visiting
the scene of the latest world disaster, helping to find
ways of alleviating the misery of those who had been
caught in it via his unofficial and voluntary role
within the government, unifying different charities
and providing hands-on administrative practical help
and expertise.
The severity of this particular crisis had meant that
he had not even been able to return to Italy for his
grandmother’s funeral, although he had managed to
find time within his meeting-packed day to go into a
local place of worship and add his prayers to those
of her other mourners.
A gentle, unsophisticated woman, who had once
told him she had hoped as a young girl to become a
nun, she had died peacefully in her sleep.
The Castillo had come to her through her first husband
who, in the way of things in aristocratic circles,
had also been the second cousin of her second husband,
Lorenzo’s own father, which was why the
Castillo had been hers to leave as she wished.
He had always been her favourite out of her two
grandsons, Lorenzo knew. He had spent his holidays
with her after the divorce of his parents, and it had
been his grandmother he had turned to when his
mother had announced that she was marrying her
lover — a man Lorenzo detested.
He had never been able to bring himself to forgive
his mother for that. Not even now when she, like his
father, was dead. Her actions had opened his eyes to
the deceitful, self-serving ways of the female sex, and
their determination to put themselves first whilst laying
claim to a sanctity they did not possess. His
mother had always insisted that her decision to divorce
his father had been taken to spare him the pain
of growing up in an unhappy home. She had lied, of
course. His feelings had been the last thing on her
mind when she had lain in the arms of her lover and
chosen him above her husband and her son.
The Ferrari snarled and bucked at the bad condition
of the road. Lorenzo ignored its complaints and
changed gear, hurling it into a sharp corner, and then
cursed beneath his breath as, right in front of him, he
saw a car blocking the road and a young woman
standing beside it.
Jodie winced as she heard the screech of brakes,
choking on the dust raised by the Ferrari’s tyres as it
skidded to a halt only inches away from the side of
the hire car. Automatically she had made herself stand
upright, instead of leaning on her vehicle for support,
the moment she had seen the other car.
What kind of madman drove like that down a road
like this — and in the dark, too? she wondered shakily,
holding on to the door of the car for support as she
watched him uncoil himself from the driver’s seat and
come towards her.
"Disgraziata!" A stream of Italian followed the
snarlingly contemptuous word he had already hurled
at her. But Jodie was not going to let herself be cowed
by him — or by any man — ever again.
"When you’ve quite finished…" Jodie interrupted
him, her own voice every bit as hostile as his. "For a
start, I’m not Italian. I’m English. And—"
"English?" He made it sound as though he had
never heard the word before. "What are you doing
here? Why are you on this road? It is a private road
and leads only to the Castillo." The questions were
thrown at her like so many deadly sharp stiletto
knives.
"I took a wrong turning," Jodie defended herself. "I
was trying to turn round, but a wheel got stuck, and
now the tyre is flat."
She was pale and thin, her eyes huge in the exhausted
triangle of her small face, her fair hair
scraped back. She looked about sixteen, and an underfed
sixteen at that, Lorenzo decided unflatteringly,
as he swept her from head to toe with an experienced
male glance that took in the droop of her shoulders,
the hardly discernible shape of her breasts, the narrowness
of her waist and her hips, and the unexpected
length of the denim-clad legs attached to such a small
frame. Was she wearing heels, or were they really as
long as they looked?
"How old are you?" he demanded.
How old was she? Why on earth was he asking her
that?
"I’m twenty-six," Jodie responded stiffly, tilting her
chin as she looked up at him, determined not to be
intimidated by him despite the fact that she was already
aware that he was so spectacularly good-
looking she wanted to run away and hide before he
realised how pathetically inferior as a woman she was
to him as a man. Automatically, her hand went to her
bad leg. It was really hurting her now.
Twenty-six! Lorenzo frowned as he looked down
at her hands. No rings. "Why are you here on your
own?"
Jodie was beginning to feel she had had enough.
"Because I am on my own. Not that it is any business
of yours," she informed him.
"On the contrary, it is very much my business—
since you have seen fit to trespass on my land."
His land? Of course it would be his land; it possessed
exactly the same harsh, arrogant inhospitality as
he did.
"And what do you mean, you are on your own?"
she heard him demanding. "Surely you have a…a
husband, or a lover. A man, a partner, in your life."
Jodie winced, and then laughed bitterly. He didn’t
know about the still tender nerves he was brutalising.
"I thought I did," she agreed angrily, "but unfortunately
for me he decided he wanted to marry someone
else. This—" she gestured towards the landscape and
the car "—was supposed to be our honeymoon. But
now…" Just saying the words still hurt, but strangely
there was also a savage sense of relief in being able
to vent her emotions instead of having to keep them
locked inside her for the sake of others, as she had
had to do at home.
"Now what?" Lorenzo challenged her. "Now you
are travelling alone and looking for someone to replace
him in your bed? The coastal resorts are the
best hunting ground for that. Not the mountains."
Jodie drew in her breath in outraged fury. "How
dare you say that? I am most certainly not looking
for anyone, let alone someone to replace him. In fact,
that is the last thing I want to do," she found herself
adding. "I shall never let another man into my life to
hurt me. Never. From now on I intend to live by
myself and for myself." Bold words, but she meant
every single one of them!
Lorenzo frowned as he heard in her voice the passionate
intensity of her determination.
"You still want him so much?"
"No!" Jodie told him fiercely, without stopping to
wonder why he was asking such a personal thing. "I
Don’t want him at all — not now."
"So why are you here — running away?"
"I am not running away! I just Don’t want to be
there to see him marry someone else," she added defensively
when she saw the way he was looking at
her. "Especially when she’s all the things I’m not.
Exciting, glamorous, sexy…" Jodie lifted her hand to
her face to rub away the tears that had suddenly filled
her eyes. She had no idea why she was telling this
stranger all of this, admitting to him things she had
not even admitted to herself before.
"It is the man who determines whether or not a
woman is "sexy", as you put it," Lorenzo decreed
dismissively, as caught up in this strangely intimate
exchange as Jodie. "A skilled lover has it in his power
to create a full flowering of even the most tightly
closed bud."
A shock of tingling awareness quivered through her
belly as Jodie absorbed the meaning of his astoundingly
arrogant statement.
"Not that many young women are tightly closed
buds in this day and age," Lorenzo added sardonically,
as he watched the colour come and go in the
pale face that was so shadowed with tiredness.
"Modern women have claimed the right to their
own sexuality," Jodie responded fiercely. "They do
not—"
"It does not sound to me as though you have been
very effective in claiming yours," Lorenzo told her
derisively. "In fact, if I were to make an assessment
of it, I would guess that your experience is extremely
limited — otherwise you would not have lost your man
to another woman."
His sheer arrogant machismo both astounded and
infuriated her. But she was forced to admit that non
existent would have been a more accurate estimation
of her sexual expertise. Painfully she released the
pent-up breath his words had caused her to hold, in
shaky relief that he had not added to her existing humiliation
by somehow recognising that she was still
a virgin. Not by choice, though. All those months in
hospital, after the car crash in which her parents had
been killed and she had been so badly injured that at
one point it had been feared she would not survive,
had stolen a large chunk out of her life.
"Which, presumably, is why you are confusing
physical lust with love — a word, an emotion, your sex
has laid claim to and downvalued to the extent that
is now worthless," Lorenzo continued harshly.
"My sex?" Jodie took up the challenge immediately,
the gold-hued warmth of her eyes heating to an indignant
dark amber.
"Yes, your sex! Do you deny that women have now
become as much serial adulterers as they once
claimed only men could be? That their reasons for
marriage are based on their own selfish and shallow
emotions and needs — needs which in their eyes come
before the needs of anyone else, even the children
they bear?"
The bitterness she could hear in his voice momentarily
shocked Jodie into silence. But she rallied
quickly to defend her sex, pointing out, "If that is your
consistent experience of women, then maybe you are
the common factor — and the one to blame."
"I? So you believe that if a child is abandoned by
its mother, it is the child who is at fault? A novel
mindset — which only underlines what I have just
been saying!"
"No, that is not what I meant—" Jodie began.
But it was too late. He was ignoring her words to
demand autocratically, "What is your name?"
"Jodie. Jodie Oliver. What is your name?" she
asked equally firmly, not to be outdone.
For the first time since he had stopped his car she
sensed a momentary hesitation in him before he said
coolly, "Lorenzo."
"The Magnificent?" Jodie quipped, and then went
bright red as he looked at her.
Il Magnifico. That had always been Gino’s teasing
way of addressing him, claiming that it was no wonder
he had been so successful when he carried the
same name as one of Florence’s most famous Medici
rulers.
"You know the history of the Medici?" he shot at
Jodie.
"Some of it," she said neutrally, suddenly not wanting
any more argument with a stranger. She was beginning
to feel very tired and weak. "Look, I need to
get in touch with the car hire firm and tell them about
the car, but my mobile isn’t working. Could you possibly…?"
He must surely be going back through the
village she had driven through — there was nowhere
else to go. If he would take her there she might be
able to find a room for the night and telephone the
car rental people.
"Could I possibly what?" Lorenzo demanded. "Help
you? Certainly." She had just started to sag with relief
when he added softly, "Provided that you agree to
help me."
Instantly warning signals flashed their messages inside
her head, causing her to tense.
"Help you?" she repeated cautiously.
"Yes. I need a wife."
He was mad. Completely and utterly insane. She
was stuck on a deserted road with a madman.
"You…want me to help you find a wife?" she managed
to ask, as though it were the most natural request
in the world.
Lorenzo’s mouth compressed, and he gave her a
look of cold derision. "Don’t be ridiculous. No, I do
not want you to help me find a wife. I want you to
become my wife," he told her coolly.
CHAPTER THREE
SHE was being ridiculous?
"You want me to be your wife?" Jodie repeated
slowly. "I’m sorry, but—"
"You Don’t want to marry — ever. Yes, I know,"
Lorenzo interrupted dismissively. "But this would not
be an ordinary marriage. I need a wife, and I need
one within the next few weeks. I have as little real
desire for a wife as you have for a husband — although
for different reasons. Therefore it seems to me that
you and I could come to a mutually beneficial arrangement.
I get the wife I need, and you, after we
have been married for twelve months, get a divorce
and…shall we say one million pounds?"
Jodie blinked and shook her head, not sure that she
had actually heard him correctly.
"You want me to agree to marry you and stay with
you for twelve months?"
"You will be well reimbursed for your time — and
it is only your time and your status as my wife that I
shall require. Your presence in my bed will not be
part of the arrangement."
"You’re crazy," Jodie told him flatly. "I Don’t know
anything about you, and I—"
"You know that I am prepared to pay you a million
pounds to be my wife. As for the rest…" He gave an
arrogant shrug of his powerful shoulders, and told her,
briefly and dismissively, "There will be time later for
me to explain to you everything you need to know."
By rights she ought to be scared to death, Jodie
decided. But, despite the fact that she was obviously
in the presence of a madman, for some reason the
main emotion that filled her was not fear but bemusement.
Bemusement and a certain sense that fate
had listened in to her secret thoughts and decided to
take a hand in her life. Here was the opportunity—
the man — her pride had ached for…
Was she mad? She surely couldn’t be thinking of
accepting his ridiculous proposition?
"If you want a wife that badly, surely there must
be someone—"
"Many someones," Lorenzo stopped her sardonically.
"Unfortunately they would all want what I do
not want to give — it is amazing how easily your sex
claims undying love when money and social position
are involved."
"You mean you would be targeted by fortune-
hunters?" Jodie guessed shrewdly. It was obvious, after
all — not just from his car and his clothes, but more
betrayingly from his manner — that he was wealthy.
"Is that why you want to marry me, because a fake
marriage will keep them at bay?"
"Not exactly."
"Then why?"
"It’s a condition of my late grandmother’s will that
I either marry within a certain time of her death or I
forfeit…something that means a great deal to me."
Jodie’s forehead crinkled into a small frown.
"But why on earth would she do that? I mean, either
she wanted you to inherit whatever it is or she
didn’t."
"The situation is more complex than that, and involves…
other issues. Let us just say that my grandmother
was persuaded to do something that she
thought was in my best interests by someone who was
following their own agenda."
Jodie waited for him to continue, but instead he
reached for her hand. "Give me your car keys and—"
She gave a small, determined shake of her head.
"No." If she wasn’t already totally off men for life,
this man and his unbelievable arrogance would surely
be enough to put her off them, she decided angrily.
But at the same time an insidiously tempting possibility
had begun to form inside her head. What if
she were to agree, on condition that Lorenzo escorted
her to John and Louise’s wedding? With the whole
village invited, two extra guests wouldn’t cause any
problems…and, yes, she admitted it, there was a part
of her that was sore enough and woman enough to
want to be there, showing the world and the newly
married couple that not only did she not care about
their betrayal, but that she had a new partner of her
own. wasn’t there a saying, "Living well is the best
revenge"? And how much better could a discarded
and unwanted fiance.e live than by showing off her
new, better-looking and far more eligible man? A
man, moreover, who desperately wanted to marry her!
She was wrenched out of this mental triumphant
return to the scene of her humiliation by Lorenzo’s
arrogantly disbelieving voice. "No?"
It was ridiculous that she could even contemplate
doing something so shallow, and it showed the effect
that just a few minutes in the company of a man like
Lorenzo was having on her. She was not going to let
herself listen to the urgings of her pride. Leaving it
and her conscience to wage war on one another with
an undignified exchange of inner accusations, she
tried to do the sensible thing, and told Lorenzo firmly,
"Even someone as…as arrogant and used to getting
what they want as you seem to be must see that what
You’re suggesting just isn’t—"
"A million isn’t enough? Is that what You’re trying
to say?"
Her face burned. "The money has nothing to do
with it." The cynical look he gave her at that made
her burst out angrily, "I can’t be bought. Not by John,
and certainly not by you."
"John?"
He hadn’t pounced so much as leapt on her small
betrayal, and now he was looking at her as she imagined
a large sleek cat might look at a mouse it was
enjoying tormenting.
But she was not a mouse, and she wasn’t going to
be either bullied or tormented by any man ever again.
She lifted her head and told him coolly, "My exfiance.
He offered me money, too, but he was offering
it out of guilt, because he didn’t want to marry me,
not as a bribe because he did. He wanted me to be
the one to break off our engagement, so that no one
could accuse him of dumping me. Obviously you both
share the same male mindset. Like you, he thought
that he could buy what he wanted, regardless of what
I might be feeling." Despite her attempt to appear unaffected
by what she was revealing, a mixture of sadness
and cynicism shadowed her eyes. Her mouth
twisted slightly as she added, "In a way, I suppose he
did me a favour. Knowing that he thought so little of
me that he would buy his way out of our relationship
made me realise that I was better off without him."
"But, despite that, you still want him."
The unemotional statement made her heart thud
nauseatingly inside her chest.
"No!" she said quickly. "I do not ""still want him""."
"So why have you run away, if it is not because
you are afraid of what you still feel for him?"
"I have not run away! I’m having a holiday, and
when I go back…" The small involuntary movement
that caused her shoulders to droop as she contemplated
returning home was more telling that she realised.
When she went back — what? She had no job to
go back to. Not now. And no home — she had, after
all, sold her cottage, and even if she had not done so
she doubted that she would have wanted to live there,
with all its memories of her false happiness. But she
could go back with her head held high and on the arm
of a man she could truthfully say was going to become
her husband, she reminded herself.
And then what? He had already told her the marriage
was only to last twelve months.
Then she would shrug her shoulders and say, as so
many others did, that it hadn’t worked out. There was
far less shame in that than there was in being labelled
as a dumped reject.
"In twelve months" time you could go back with a
million pounds in your bank account," she heard
Lorenzo saying, as though he had read her mind.
It was so tempting to give in and agree. And she
resented him for putting her in a position where she
was tempted. What had she promised herself about
never being manipulated by a man again? Gritting her
teeth, Jodie pushed herself back from the edge of giving
in.
"If you really want a wife," she told him crossly,
"then why Don’t try finding one without using your
money? Someone who wants to marry you because
she loves you, and believes that in you she has found
a man who loves her back, a man she can respect and
trust, and…" She saw the way he was looking at her
and shook her head. "Oh, what’s the use? Men like
you and John are all the same. He only values the
kind of woman he can show off, the kind of woman
who makes other men envy him, and you only want
the kind of woman you can buy so that you can control
her and your relationship with her. Well, I am not
that kind of woman. And, no, I will not marry you."
As she turned away from him Lorenzo could feel
the anger surging through him. She was refusing him?
This…this too-thin nobody of a tourist — a woman
who had been rejected publicly by the man who had
promised to marry her? didn’t she realise just what
he was offering her or how fortunate she was?
Marriage to him would transform her instantly from
an unwanted dab of a woman into the wife of someone
wealthy enough to buy her ex-fiance. a hundred
thousand times over. She would instantly be raised to
a social height most women could only dream of, she
would be courted by the famous and the rich, and, if
she was intelligent enough to capitalise on what he
would be giving her when their marriage was over,
she could find herself a new husband. Any amount of
men would be only too willing to marry the woman
who had been selected by a man like him. All she
had to do in order to totally transform her life was
agree to be his wife.
And yet, instead of recognising her good fortune,
she was actually daring to take it upon herself to lecture
him! Well, she was no loss to him. She wouldn’t
have lasted a day, not even twelve hours once
Caterina had got her claws into her, and he was a fool
to have wasted his time on her in the first place. He
could drive down to the coast and find a dozen
women within one hour who would jump at the opportunity
she had turned down.
"Fine," he snapped, turning his back on Jodie as he
strode back towards the Ferrari.
He was leaving her here? He couldn’t — he
wouldn’t! Jodie’s eyes widened in mute shock as she
watched him walk away from her.
"No, wait!" she called out, as she stumbled anxiously
after him, gasping at the pain in her weak leg,
her anger giving way to a fear that was only slightly
alleviated when he eventually stopped and turned
round. "I need to get in touch with the car hire firm
and let them know what’s happened."
"They won’t be very happy about the fact that you
have damaged their vehicle. I hope you have brought
plenty of money with you," Lorenzo warned her
coldly.
"I’m insured," Jodie protested, but a cold, hard knot
of anxiety gripped her stomach as she remembered
her cousin warning her about the problems she would
face if she were to be involved in an accident.
"I doubt that will benefit you, especially when I
inform the authorities that you were driving on a private
road, and in doing so that you endangered not
just your own life but mine as well. You are going to
need a very good solicitor, and that will be very expensive."
"But that’s not true!" she protested. "You weren’t
even here when…"
Her voice trailed away as she saw the look in
his eyes.
"You’re trying to frighten me and — and blackmail
me!" she accused him.
He shrugged and continued to walk back to his car.
She watched helplessly as he opened the door, whilst
her emotions raged in impotent fury. He was the most
hateful, horrible man she had ever met — arrogant, selfish,
and the very last kind of man she would have
wanted to marry for any kind of reason. But a logical,
practical voice inside her head was pointing out that
it was late at night and she was miles from anywhere
down a private road, wholly dependent on the goodwill
of the man now about to leave her here.
He had started the engine and was pulling out to
drive past her. Panic filled her. She started to run towards
the car, gasping at the pain in her weak leg as
she flung herself at the driver’s door and banged on
it.
Expressionlessly, Lorenzo opened the window.
"All right, I’ll do it," she told him recklessly. "I’ll
marry you."
He was staring at her so impassively that she wondered
if he had changed his mind. Her heart started
hammering uncomfortably fast, making her feel
slightly sick.
"You’re agreeing to marry me?"
Jodie nodded her head, and then exhaled shakily in
relief as he pushed open the passenger door of the car
and said brusquely, "Give me your keys and wait here
whilst I get your things."
It was a warm night, but anxiety and exhaustion
were making her shiver slightly, so that her fingers
trembled against the impersonal hand he had stretched
out for her car keys. A prickle of unwanted sensation
raced up her arm, causing her to recoil from her physical
contact from him. He had long, elegant hands,
with lean, strong fingers — unlike John, who had had
somewhat plump hands with short fingers. The
knowledge that the stroke of those hands against a
woman"s body would deliver a dangerous level of
sensual pleasure pierced the thin skin of her defences,
making her emotional recoil from it even more intense
than her physical recoil from his touch.
Lorenzo frowned as he got out of the Ferrari and
strode over to Jodie’s hire car, unlocking the boot.
Her recoil from him had the hallmark of a kind of
sexual inexperience he had imagined no longer existed.
In fact, the last time he had seen a grown
woman recoil like that from a man"s casual touch had
been the last time he had visited his grandmother,
when he had sat with her watching one of the old
fashioned black and white films she’d loved so much.
He lived in a world peopled by the sophisticated, the
blase., the experienced, the rich and the aristocratic: a
world driven by cynicism and greed, by self-interest
and envy. Power did not go hand in hand with goodness,
as he had every reason to know. Jodie Oliver
wouldn’t survive a month in that world.
He shrugged away his thoughts. Her survival was
not his concern. He had other matters, another kind
of survival, to worry about, and she was merely the
instrument by which he would achieve that. Had he
genuinely wanted to marry her… His frown deepened.
What kind of thought was that? He had no desire
to marry anyone, much less a thin, wan-faced
young woman who had "broken heart" written all over
her.
He glanced down at the small case he had removed
from the boot of the car, and then went to check the
interior of the car itself.
"How long did you say you intended to stay away
from your home for?" he asked Jodie wryly as he
carried her things back to the Ferrari.
Jodie flushed at the implication she could hear in
his voice. "I have enough with me for my needs," she
told him defensively, adding with angry dignity, "And
there are such things as laundries, you know." She
wasn’t going to tell him that she had chosen her small
trolley case specifically because it was light enough
for her to lift, and that the last thing she had felt like
when she was packing had been bringing with her all
the pretty things she had bought for her honeymoon.
She felt the increase in weight of the car as Lorenzo
got back into the driver’s seat. There was a disconcerting
intimacy about being in a machine like this
one with a man who was so very much a man.
The scent of expensive leather reminded her poignantly
of an afternoon she had spent with John,
when he had gone to buy a new car and taken her
with him. They had visited showroom after showroom
as he admiringly inspected their top-of-the-range vehicles.
But none of them, no matter how expensive,
had come anywhere near being as luxurious as this
car, she thought now, her senses suddenly picking up
on the cool, subtle woody scent of male cologne
mixed with the very sensual smell of living, breathing
male flesh.
By the time she had finished absorbing the messages
with which her senses were bombarding her,
Lorenzo had reversed the Ferrari and turned it round.
"Where are we going?" she demanded uncertainly.
"To the Castillo."
The Castillo. It sounded impossibly grand. But five
minutes later, when she saw its steep escarpments rising
sharply up out of the rock face, she decided that
it was more barbaric than grand — like something left
over from another less civilised age. An age where
might was more valued than right; an age where a
man could take what he wanted simply because he
chose to do so. An age surely well suited to the man
seated next to her, she decided a little sourly.
They drove into the Castillo through a narrow
arched entrance, so evocative of the Middle Ages that
Jodie had to blink to dismiss her mental images of
chainmailed men at arms and heralds announcing
their arrival.
The empty courtyard was lit by the flames from
large metal sconces that threw moving shadows
against the imposing stone walls with their watching
narrow slit windows.
"What an extraordinary place," Jodie heard herself
saying apprehensively.
"The Castillo is a relic left over from a time when
men built fortresses rather than homes. I warn you, it
is every bit as inhospitable inside as it is out."
"You live here?" She couldn’t keep the dismay out
of her voice.
"I Don’t, but my grandmother did."
"So where…?" Jodie began, and then stopped uncertainly
as she saw the way his mouth was compressing.
It was obvious that he did not like her asking
so many questions. He had opened the door of
the car and she wrinkled her nose as she caught the
pungent smell of something burning. "Something’s on
fire," she told him.
Lorenzo shook his head. "It is merely the mixture
of wood and pitch that is used in the sconces. After
a while you will grow so accustomed to it that you
won’t even notice it," he added in a matter-of-fact
voice.
After a while? Did that mean that she was to live
here? Without electricity?
As though he had read her mind, Lorenzo informed
her, "My grandmother preferred the old-fashioned
way of life. Fortunately I was able to persuade her to
have a generator installed to provide electricity inside
the Castillo."
When one thought of an Italian castle one thought
of something out of a fairy tale, but this place was
nothing like that. Bleak and brooding, it made her
shudder just to look up at the granite walls.
"Come…"
Sitting in the Ferrari had caused her weak leg to
stiffen and seize up. Jodie could feel her face burning
as Lorenzo waited impatiently for her to get out of
her seat whilst he held the door open for her. The
agonising pain that shot through her leg as she finally
managed to do so made her bite down hard on her
bottom lip to stop herself from betraying what she
was feeling. John had hated anything that drew attention
to her infirmity, insisting that she always wore
jeans or trousers to hide the thinness of her leg with
its tell-tale scars.
"If you wear trousers no one is going to know that
there’s anything wrong with you," he had told her
more than once. Jodie could feel her throat closing
with painful tears. She had wanted so desperately to
hear him say to her that he didn’t care what she wore,
because he loved her so very much that every part of
her was equally precious to him. But, of course, men
were not like that. Louise had said as much when she
had explained to Jodie just why John preferred her.
"The trouble is, sweetie, that men Don’t like all that
disfigurement stuff. It makes them feel uncomfortable.
Plus, they want a woman they can show off—
not one they’ve got to apologise for."
"You mean some men Don’t," Jodie had corrected
her, with as much dignity as she could muster.
"Most men," Louise had insisted, before adding
bluntly, "After all, how many men besides John have
actually wanted so much as a date with you, Jodie?
Think about it. And let’s not forget," she had added,
pressing home her advantage, "any man is bound to
worry about what he’s going to have to face in the
future, with a wife who’s got health problems, from
a financial point of view alone."
"I haven’t got health problems," Jodie had objected.
"The hospital has given me a complete all-clear—"
"Because they can’t do any more for you. You told
me that yourself. Your leg is never going to be as it
was, is it? You get tired if you have to walk any
distance now — imagine how awful it would be for
poor John if in, say, ten years you needed to be in a
wheelchair. How would he cope? With the business
booming the way it is, John needs a wife who is a
social asset to him, not one who is going to be a
handicap. You really mustn’t be so selfish, Jodie.
John and I are trying to make this as easy for you as
we can."
It was the "John and I" that had done it, igniting
Jodie’s temper so that she had exploded and told her
one-time friend in no uncertain terms exactly what
she thought of both her and of John, ending up with,
"And, personally, the last kind of man I would want
to commit to is one so shallow that all he sees is what
lies on the surface. To be honest with you, Louise,
you’ve done me a big favour. If it hadn’t been for
you I might have gone ahead and married John with
out knowing how weak and unreliable he is. You obviously
aren’t as fussy in that regard as I am." She
had finished pointedly, "But I should be careful, if I
were you. After all, you won’t be young and glamorous
for ever, will you? And, since you’ve said yourself
that looks are so immensely important to John,
You’re going to have to live with the knowledge that
ultimately he may dump you for someone younger
and prettier."
She had been shaking from head to foot as she
walked away from Louise. And when John had turned
up on her doorstep less than an hour later, accusing
her of upsetting Louise, she hadn’t known whether to
laugh or to cry. In the end she had laughed. Somehow
it had seemed the better option.
It was then she had gone out and bought herself
the shortest denim miniskirt she could find. The accident
had not been her parents" fault, and she had
fought long and hard to be able to overcome her own
injuries. From now on, she had decided, she was going
to wear her scars with pride, and no man was
ever, ever again going to tell her to cover up her legs
because of them.
For ease of travelling, though, right now she was
wearing a pair of jeans — an old, faded pair of jeans
that made her look totally out of place next to
Lorenzo in his beautifully tailored suit, she thought,
as he propelled her across the courtyard and into a
cavernous baronial hall, his hand resting firmly on the
middle of her back.
CHAPTER FOUR
THE room they entered was furnished with several
pieces of intricately carved dark wooden furniture. A
coat of arms had been cut into the stone lintel above
the huge fireplace. The carpet on the stone floor beneath
her feet looked worn and shabby, and she could
see where the film of dust on a table in the middle of
the room had been disturbed by something thrown
down on it with such force that it had skidded through
it.
A door in the far wall was thrown open, and a
woman stood there, framed in the opening. Immediately
Jodie forgot her surroundings as she focused on
her. Tall and soigne.e, she was everything one imagined
a wealthy and elegant Italian woman should be.
Her dark hair was pulled back in a smooth knot to
reveal the perfect bone structure of her face. Dark
eyes flashed a look of triumphant possessive mockery
towards Lorenzo — the same kind of predatory female
look Jodie had seen in Louise’s eyes when she had
looked at John. The other woman hadn’t even seen
her, hidden as she was in the shadows. Who was she?
A sense of disquiet started to seep through her; an
awareness of deep and dark waters driven by dangerous
unseen currents that could suck her down into
their icy depths if she wasn’t careful. Instinctively
Jodie sensed that Louise and this woman were two of
a kind, and that knowledge was enough to rub against
the still painfully raw emotional nerves inside herself.
She looked at Lorenzo. He looked relaxed, but she
could feel his tension in the sudden increased pressure
of his fingers, where they were splayed across her
back. Something was going on here that she wasn’t
privy to — but what? So many unanswered questions,
and they were destined to remain unanswered, Jodie
guessed, as she watched the full mouth thin, crimson
with carefully applied lipgloss, and the delicate nostrils
flare. A huge diamond flashed blindingly as the
woman raised one hand to touch the deep vee neckline
of the expensive black dress she was wearing in
a deliberate gesture of enticement. What man could
resist following with his gaze the scarlet glisten of the
long nails as they rested briefly in the valley between
the tight, high fullness of her perfectly shaped
breasts?
Her dress moulded to a waist so small that Jodie
guessed it must be the result of a tightly laced corset,
before curving lushly over rounded hips. Its hemline
revealed a pair of long, slender, warmly tanned legs,
whilst her feet, with their scarlet-painted toenails,
were adorned with the highest and most delicate pair
of strappy sandals Jodie had ever seen. She looked
like someone who was about to walk into the most
sophisticated and luxurious kind of setting there was,
instead of being here in this dilapidated fortress in the
middle of nowhere.
A look of open triumph lit the Italian woman"s face
as she sashayed towards Lorenzo. But her brown eyes
lacked any kind of warmth, Jodie noticed, and as she
walked, talking quickly, her voice sounded harsh and
slightly flat, jarring against Jodie’s ears, rather than
warm and musical as she had expected.
She had almost reached them when Lorenzo held
up a commanding hand and said smoothly, "In
English, if you please, Caterina. That way, my wife-
to-be will be able to understand you."
The effect of his words on the woman was cataclysmic.
She stopped moving and turned to look at
Jodie, who discovered that she was being propelled
forward out of the shadows and anchored to
Lorenzo’s side by means of his almost manacle-like
grip on her wrist.
A furious, disbelieving female glare savaged Jodie
where she stood, followed by an equally furious outburst
of Italian.
"This way," Lorenzo instructed Jodie, ignoring her.
"No!" The woman placed herself in front of them,
and said in English, "You will not do this to me. You
cannot! Who is she?"
"I have just told you. My wife-to-be," Lorenzo answered
her dismissively.
"No. You cannot do this." The flat, metallic voice
was filled with fury. "No. No!" She was shaking her
head from side to side so violently that Jodie felt
dizzy, but not one single strand of the immaculately
coiffed hair escaped. "No," she repeated. "You will
not make such a nothing your duchessa, Lorenzo?"
His duchess?
"You will not speak so of my intended wife," she
heard Lorenzo saying coldly.
Dear God, what on earth had she got herself into?
"Where has she come from? What gutter did you—?"
Immediately a look of haughty rejection stiffened
Lorenzo’s expression, but Caterina ignored it, grabbing
hold of his arm and insisting, "Answer me,
Lorenzo, or I will…"
"Or you will what, Caterina?" he demanded unkindly,
removing her hand from his arm. "As it happens,
Jodie and I met some months ago. It was my
intention to bring her to the Castillo to meet my
grandmother, but unfortunately she died before I was
able to do so. Knowing now, though, that it was her
dearest wish that I should marry, I intend to follow
the dictates of my own heart as well as fulfil the terms
of her will by marrying Jodie as soon as possible."
Jodie blinked in disbelief as she listened to his entirely
fictitious account of their "relationship".
"You’re lying. None of that is true. I know the
truth, and I shall—"
"You know nothing, and you will do nothing."
Lorenzo stopped her immediately, adding grimly,
"And let me warn you now against any attempt on
your part to spread gossip or rumours about either my
wife-to-be or my marriage."
"You cannot threaten me, Lorenzo," Caterina almost
screamed at him. "Does she know why you are
marrying her? Does she know that it was your grandmother’s
dying wish that you should marry me? Does
she know that you—?"
"Silencio!" Lorenzo commanded harshly, his icy,
furious glare slicing down in front of her like a jagged-
toothed portcullis slicing into an enemy force.
"No. I will not be silent!" She swung round to give
Jodie a contemptuously hostile look. "Has he told you
that the only reason he is marrying you is because of
this place? Because unless he marries he cannot inherit
it?"
This woman must surely be the person with their
own agenda he had spoken of earlier, Jodie thought.
Somehow she managed to stop her expression from
betraying what she was feeling — a legacy, no doubt,
from all those hospital visits, and her determination
not to let others see her in pain and pity her for it.
Was Lorenzo really prepared to marry a woman he
didn’t know simply to inherit this grim, crumbling
fortress?
"It is impossible that he would want to marry a
woman like you," Caterina told her venomously.
Pain jerked through her. Caterina’s words were so
similar in content to the words Louise had said to
her — just as Caterina’s brunette beauty was also very
much like Louise’s. They ignited a surge of angry
pride inside Jodie that burned along her veins. She
took a deep breath, and then heard herself saying
recklessly, "But he is marrying me."
For a few seconds Jodie was so lost in the heady
euphoria of delivering the very words she had so
longed to deliver to Louise that nothing else mattered—
least of all the small inner voice trying desperately
to beg her to be more cautious.
Even when she heard Caterina’s infuriated shriek
and caught the scent of her alcohol-laden breath she
still didn’t realise her danger, and the other woman"s
scarlet-tipped hand was already raised to rake savagely
down the soft flesh of her face when Lorenzo
suddenly released Jodie and took hold of Caterina,
forcing her back from Jodie as he snapped, "Basta!
Enough."
"You cannot do this to me. I will not let you!"
Caterina screamed at Lorenzo.
Jodie’s head was ringing with the shock of listening
to her, and her body shook in the aftermath of
Caterina’s attempt to physically attack her.
"You will pack your things and leave the Castillo
immediately," she heard Lorenzo order bitingly.
"You cannot make me. I have as much right to be
here as you. Remember, until you are married the
Castillo belongs as much to me as it does to you. Only
when you are married does it become yours. And you
will not—"
"Basta!"
The command cracked across her outburst like a
whip against naked flesh, causing Jodie herself to
wince and shudder as she watched Lorenzo give the
other woman a hard shake before releasing her.
Ignoring Jodie, Caterina complained to Lorenzo,
"You have hurt me. Tomorrow there will be a
bruise…" She switched to Italian and said something
softly to him, then laughed mockingly.
Jodie waited impassively. Her female instincts,
honed now by the belated recognition of all those
glances and soft, not-quite-caught words she had witnessed
John and Louise exchanging in the weeks before
they had admitted their betrayal of her, were immediately
suspicious that what Caterina had said to
Lorenzo had been both intimate and sexual. Why?
Because their relationship had once been intimate and
sexual? Had been…or still was? There was clearly
animosity between them now — animosity and contempt
where Lorenzo was concerned — or at least that
was the way it seemed.
"He is using you. You know that, Don’t you? And
once he has what he wants he will discard you,"
Caterina told Jodie venomously, and then as abruptly
as she had arrived she was gone, banging the door
shut behind her as she left.
Completely ignoring what had just happened,
Lorenzo announced autocratically, "This way. I will
show you to our apartments."
The scene with Caterina had left her feeling slightly
sick and shaky now that it was over, Jodie realized.
Much as she had felt in the aftermath of Louise’s
revelations. But Lorenzo was already halfway towards
the door through which Caterina had disappeared, and
Jodie had to hurry to catch up with him. Beyond the
door was another hallway, this one containing an imposing
and unexpectedly elegant marble staircase.
"This part of the interior of the Castillo was remodelled
during the Renaissance," Lorenzo explained
when he saw her surprise.
At the top of the stairs a wide corridor branched to
the right and left. Lorenzo took the right fork, which
was dimly lit with old-fashioned electric wall lights,
beyond which Jodie could see a pair of ornate double
doors.
"My grandmother made this part of the Castillo
over to me for my own use after the divorce of my
parents," Lorenzo announced as he opened the doors.
"Gino always said—"
"Gino?" Jodie questioned, her thoughts still seething
with curiosity.
"My cousin, and Caterina’s late husband."
"She is a widow, then?" Jodie couldn’t help asking
him.
"Yes, she is a widow."
"And she lives here?"
A cynical grimace touched his mouth and then disappeared,
to be replaced by a look of bitterness.
"She has an apartment in Milan, but she moved
here when my grandmother became ill." He frowned,
and then said abruptly, "You ask too many questions.
It is late now, and I have things to do. I will explain
everything that you need to know tomorrow. Just remember
that so far as everyone else is concerned our
relationship is of some duration, as are our plans to
marry."
"Caterina said that your grandmother wanted you
to marry her," Jodie couldn’t help commenting.
His mouth hardened, and Jodie began to regret her
challenge.
"She was lying," he told her harshly. "She is the
one who desires a marriage between us, because she
covets my title and my wealth. Caterina is a bloodsucker
and a leech, a woman who has proved beyond
any doubt that she is happy to sell herself to the highest
bidder."
Jodie was curious to know more, but there was a
look on his face which said that the subject was now
closed. Cautiously she walked through the doors he
had just opened, and once she had done so her curiosity
about Caterina was pushed to one side by her
surprise. The room into which she had walked was
surprisingly modern, and furnished very simply. Plain
plastered walls had been painted a soft cream, and a
heavy-textured natural-coloured carpet covered the
floor, on which stood two large leather sofas.
"The original panelling was taken from this room
during the war, when the Castillo was occupied,"
Lorenzo informed her. "That was when my grandmother’s
first husband was killed." Jodie gave a small
shudder without knowing why she should suddenly
feel chilled.
"Where…where are Caterina’s rooms?" she asked
him uncertainly.
"She is occupying the state rooms, as did my grandmother,"
Lorenzo informed her dismissively, continuing
briskly before Jodie could ask any more questions,
"I shall arrange for my lawyer to come here
tomorrow so that we can draw up a contract and make
the necessary arrangements for our marriage."
Jodie tensed. "I’ve been thinking…"
"Caterina has alarmed you — is that it? You are
afraid of her?"
"No!" Jodie denied the charge vigorously. "I’m not
afraid of her at all."
Lorenzo lifted one dark eyebrow as though in disbelief.
"It isn’t that," Jodie insisted again, "but if you are
serious about this marriage between us, then I
want…"
"Yes?" Lorenzo invited her. It was just as he had
thought. Already she was working out how much she
could get out of him. "You want what? Two million
instead of one?"
Jodie flashed him an angry look. "No. I’ve already
told you I Don’t want your money."
"But you do want something?"
"Yes," she agreed, and took a deep breath. "I want
you to go with me to John and Louise’s wedding."
She held her breath, waiting for him to refuse, telling
herself that this would be the get-out, her reason
for insisting that she was not going to be dragged any
further into whatever devious plans he was hatching.
But, instead of refusing her, Lorenzo accused
softly, "So you do still want him?"
"No! I just want…" She paused and shook her head.
"I Don’t have to explain my reasons to you. Those are
my terms for marrying you. It is up to you whether
or not you accept them." Please, let him refuse…
"Very well, then. We will go to your ex-fiance."s
wedding, but it will be as husband and wife."
Jodie could feel her body sag with relief. Relief?
Because of a fatalistic sense of having any more decisions
taken out of her hands? Because she had
weakly handed over control of her life to an arrogant
stranger?
"Come with me…"
Tiredly, Jodie followed him through another set of
doors that led into a very male study, and from there
into an ante-room from which two doors opened.
"This is my room," Lorenzo informed her, indicating
one door, "and this is the guest room."
He was looking at her almost as though he was
testing her, as though he was waiting for her to make
a choice. Determinedly she stepped towards the door
to the guest room and turned the handle.
Like the other rooms, it was decorated and furnished
in a plain, modern style, but all Jodie was interested
in was the wonderful large bed. Her leg was
hurting so much she was beginning to drag it slightly.
"Those doors on either side of the bed lead into a
dressing room and a bathroom," she could hear
Lorenzo explaining. "I shall have your bag sent up.
Are you hungry?"
Jodie shook her head. She had gone beyond that.
All she wanted was to lie down and feel the pain
easing out of her leg. She took a step forward and her
weak leg, already overtired from the long drive, buckled
and started to give way. Automatically she put out
her hands to try and save herself as she fell. She heard
Lorenzo cursing, and then he was reaching for her,
just managing to catch her before she hit the floor,
yanking her back to her feet so sharply that the pain
slicing into her made her cry out.
"Diablo! What is it? what’s wrong?"
"Nothing. It’s just my leg," Jodie told him, pushing
him away and trying to stand up straight. But it was
too late. Her leg had had enough and was refusing to
support her properly. She could see the way Lorenzo
was frowning. Immediately her chin tilted proudly.
"I have a problem with my leg. I was in an accident
and it was damaged. Sometimes when it gets overtired…"
She looked away from him. "If you Don’t
want to marry me because of it, then—"
"Is that what he told you? The man you were to
marry?" Lorenzo guessed. "That he didn’t want you
because of it?"
Jodie’s face burned. She had said too much — a
mistake she could only put down to her tiredness and
the stress of everything that had happened to her.
"No."
"But it was a cause of some conflict between you?"
Lorenzo continued to probe.
"He didn’t like the fact that it was…damaged." She
made an attempt at a dismissive shrug. "But then,
that’s only natural, isn’t it? Men do like beautiful
women, and—"
"It is an intrinsic part of human nature to value
beauty," Lorenzo told her. "But sometimes the greatest
beauty of all comes only through suffering and pain."
Jodie looked at him uncertainly. She was too tired
to try and analyse such a cryptic, sombre remark.
Instead, she looked longingly towards the bed.
Lorenzo followed the direction of her gaze.
"I’ll leave you now. You should find everything
you need in the bathroom, but if you do not then just
ask Pietro when he brings up your case. He will inform
Maria, and she will attend to it."
"Pietro and Maria," she said, carefully repeating
their names. "Your servants?"
"They look after the Castillo. Originally they were
employed by my grandmother. By rights they should
both retire, but this has always been their home and
it would be a cruelty to send them away now — or to
imply that they are not able to be of any use," he
added warningly. "Once I have spoken with my lawyer,
and put in hand the arrangements for our marriage,
I shall address the matter of making this place
more habitable."
They were going to be living here? There were so
many questions she knew she ought to be asking, but
right now she was too exhausted to care about anything
other than getting some sleep.
CHAPTER FIVE
AT LEAST the bath water was hot, and the towels
Maria had brought for her, bustling importantly into
the bedroom on a stream of incomprehensible Italian
whilst she inspected Jodie with her sharp gaze, were
deliciously soft and thick.
As in the bedroom, the decor in her en suite bathroom
was very plain, but there was no mistaking the
quality of the sanitaryware or the cool smartness of
the marble covering the floor and walls.
Wrapped in one of the towels, Jodie padded barefoot
back to her bedroom and opened her case,
quickly searching through it for the nightshirt she
knew she had packed. But when she lifted her neatly
packed tops out of the case she started to frown. Her
nightshirt was there, all right, but so also was the
deliciously frivolous new underwear she had bought
for her honeymoon: bras and short knickers in floral
patterns; silk thongs that fastened with satin bows; a
sheer floral mini-slip that was so pretty she hadn’t
been able to resist it; even the cream lace and satin
basque she had bought on a sudden impulse one
lunchtime after yet another evening spent with John
refusing to do anything more than indulge in gentle
"petting".
She hadn’t known then, of course, that the reason
he had not taken their intimacy to its logical conclusion
had not been because he had loved her so much,
but because he had loved her so little. Now, thanks
to Louise, she knew that all the time she had been
aching for him and admiring his restraint he had secretly
been turned off by her.
What on earth was this stuff doing in her case? She
found the answer in a small note from her cousin-inlaw,
tucked in between the folds of her nightshirt.
It seemed such a pity not to take these with you.
You never know, you might meet someone who will
appreciate them — and you.
Jodie almost laughed out loud. Andrea had had
more of a presentiment than even she could have
guessed! As a bride-to-be, she ought to be able to find
a use for such frivolous items, but she knew that
Lorenzo would be even less appreciative of both them
and her than John had been.
She pulled on her nightgown and closed the case,
placing it on the floor before crawling into the middle
of the huge bed and switching off the light.
By rights she ought to be thinking about the situation
she had put herself into and working out how
best to extricate herself from it, but she was far, far
too tired.
Lorenzo shut down his computer and got up from the
desk where he had been working. He had e-mailed
several people: his lawyer, explaining to him his
plans — or at least as much of them as he wanted him
to know; a certain very highly placed diplomat who
owed him several favours, requesting his help in cutting
through the normal procedures so that he could
marry his British fiance.e as quickly as possible; and
the Cardinal, who was his second cousin once re-
moved. Fortuitously he already had in his possession
Jodie’s passport, having found it in the wallet of
travel documents she had left on the passenger seat
of her car, and he had faxed its details to all three
men. His instructions to his lawyer were that he
should draw up a marriage agreement with the utmost
haste, and at the same time to make arrangements for
the sole ownership of the Castillo to be transferred to
Lorenzo, in accordance with the terms of his grandmother’s
will.
He then left his apartments and headed downstairs,
striding through the warren of unused rooms with
their old-fashioned furnishings and musty air until he
reached the door he wanted. Already the tension was
building inside him, and along with it the excitement;
already his senses were anticipating the pleasure that
lay ahead of him. He would marry a dozen pale-faced,
too-thin English women if necessary, in order to satisfy
the desire that had driven him for so long.
The cramping pain seizing her leg muscles was savage
and unrelenting, wrenching Jodie out of her deep
sleep with a sharp cry of pain.
Lorenzo heard it as he walked out of his bathroom,
his forehead pleating into a frown when it was repeated.
Securing his towel round his hips, he strode
towards the guest room, thrusting open the door and
switching on the light.
Jodie was lying in the middle of the bed, desperately
trying to massage the pain out of her locked
muscles.
Lorenzo recognised immediately what was happening.
Going over to the bed, he took hold of her by
her shoulders, demanding curtly, "What is it? Cramp?"
Jodie nodded her head, and managed to gasp painfully,
"Yes. In my leg…"
The intensity of the pain had turned her face bonegrey,
and Lorenzo could see the small beads of perspiration
forming on her forehead.
"Do you suffer like this often?"
Why was he asking her that? Was he afraid of saddling
himself with a wife who would be a liability
even if she was only a twelve-month wife?
"No, only when I get overtired — oh!" Jodie winced
and cried out as his strong fingers found the exact
spot on her leg where the pain was bunched.
"Lie still," Lorenzo instructed her. "It’s all right."
He added, when she looked warily at him, "I do know
what I’m doing."
Jodie would have continued to resist if a second
bout of cramp hadn’t seized her, leaving her with no
energy to do anything other than focus on coping with
the searing pain. Lorenzo cursed out loud and then
lifted her up, ignoring her protests as he turned her
over and placed her back on the bed.
Now, with her legs exposed by the ridiculously infantile
elongated tee shirt she was wearing, he could
see that he had been right about their length, and that
she had not been wearing heels. He could also see
that one of her legs was slightly more slender than
the other, and that on the inside of its knee there was
a delicate silver tracery of scars.
With the cramp continuing its brutal assault on her,
Jodie wasn’t even aware that she was digging her fingers
into Lorenzo’s arm as she willed herself not to
cry out. This was the worst she could ever remember
it being.
Lorenzo waited until her grip had started to relax
before releasing himself and going quickly to work,
his long, lean fingers probing the knot of locked muscle
until Jodie wanted to scream in agony. She tried
to drag her leg free of his fingers, but then slowly,
blissfully, they started to take away the pain, kneading
and stroking until the muscle began to relax. A tiny
quiver jerked through her muscle and automatically
she clenched it, waiting for a fresh onslaught, her
whole body shaking.
"Relax…" Lorenzo was still massaging her leg, but
now the long, firm strokes of his hands were moving
upwards, and the tension that was gripping her as she
felt his fingers brushing against the hem of her nightshirt
was caused by the cramping sensation in her
stomach, not her leg. And it had nothing whatsoever
to do with over-tiredness.
"To judge from these scars you must have had several
operations?"
Jodie tensed again. She wanted to pull her leg
away, but she was afraid to move in case in doing so
she caused the hem of her nightshirt to ride even
higher. It was too late now to wish she had put on
some underwear as well as the nightshirt.
"Yes," she said briefly.
"How many?"
She exhaled. "Does it matter? It isn’t as if You’re
going to be left having to look after me if I end up
in a wheelchair or anything, is it?"
"Is that a possibility?" He was still massaging her
leg, but now his fingers were slowly stroking over the
tight scar tissue itself. For some odd reason Jodie discovered
that she badly wanted to cry. No one had ever
touched her scars with anything other than clinical
detachment. The long months in hospital had inured
her to physical examinations, to doctors discussing
her as though she were a piece of broken equipment
they were trying to piece together again and put in
working order. Which, of course, to them, was exactly
what she had been. She was grateful to them for everything
they had done for her — how could she not
be? — but at the same time…
At the same time what? Secretly, she had craved a
more personal touch, a comforting, knowing touch
that neither flinched from her scars nor made a dramatic
fuss about them.
But not a touch that made her feel the way
Lorenzo’s touch was making her feel!
"No. My leg is always going to be weak, but it has
healed properly now," she blurted out, then bit her lip,
not wanting to remember those horrifying days when
the doctors had feared they might have to amputate.
"Thank you. You can stop now. The cramp has gone,"
she told him as she forced herself to concentrate on
something — anything — other than on the smooth gliding
stroke of his fingers against her skin. No lover
could have… No lover? Now what was she thinking?
She rolled over so that she could face him, all too
conscious of the warm weight of his hand where it
still lay across her bare thigh, her eyes widening as
she took in what she hadn’t realised before: namely
that all he was wearing was a towel, wrapped low on
his hips, and that the body it revealed was enough to
make any right-thinking woman go weak with female
appreciation. But from now on she was not going to
allow herself to want any man, she reminded herself
fiercely, and certainly not a man like this one. Every
instinct she possessed told her he was far too dangerous.
He was an autocratic alpha male who was
determined to get what he wanted, no matter who he
had to use in order to do so, and it was that she ought
to be concentrating her attention on — not the taut
muscles of his flat belly, or the distracting maleness
of the body hair that arrowed downwards to where
his towel had slipped slightly to reveal where it began
thickening out. Jodie touched her tongue-tip to her
lips and sucked in a shaky gulp of air.
Lorenzo removed his hand from her thigh and
straightened, pausing in the act of resecuring his towel
to watch as Jodie focused on the movement of his
hands, her breathing accelerating.
"If you keep on looking at me like that," he began
in a warning tone, "I’m going to think—"
"What do you mean?" Jodie protested, her face
burning.
"You were looking at me like a girl looking at her
first man," Lorenzo said mockingly. "Which leads me
to wonder what kind of woman you are that you look
at me like that — and what kind of man this ex-fiance.
of yours was to give you that need."
"I wasn’t looking at you like anything," Jodie argued
frantically. "You’re imagining it. No modern
woman needs to wonder what a man"s body looks
like."
"So it wouldn’t bother you, then, if I weren’t wearing
this?" Lorenzo suggested, his fingers resting
against the top of his towel.
Jodie made a valiant attempt at a small nonchalant
shrug. "No — why should it? One naked male body is
much like any other."
"Was your ex-fiance. circumcised?"
Jodie opened her mouth and then closed it again,
her face slowly turning a deep shade of pink whilst
her heart skidded and bounced around inside her chest
cavity as though seeking the same invisible escape
route as her thoughts. Was he asking her that because
he had guessed that she simply didn’t know? Because
he wanted to humiliate her by making her admit how
limited her sexual experience really was?
"Er…why do you ask?"
"Why Don’t you answer?"
"I’m not questioning you about your past sex life.
And if we"re going to get married—"
"If? There is no if about it. I’ve already contacted
my lawyer. He"ll be here in the morning."
"It will take quite a long time to go through all the
legal formalities, I expect."
"Not for us. Once we have seen Alfredo we shall
be leaving for Florence."
"Florence?"
"I have some business to attend to there, and you
will want to buy a wedding outfit."
"A wedding outfit?"
The dark eyebrows lifted. "I take it that you didn’t
bring your bridal gown with you when you ran
away?"
Jodie looked away from him. "No, I didn’t," she
agreed quietly. Her wedding dress was still hanging
up in the shop where she had bought it, paid for but
never collected.
Lorenzo watched her impassively. "There are any
number of designer shops in Florence. You are bound
to find something in one of them."
Designer shops? Finding something would be the
easy bit, Jodie reflected; paying for it at designer shop
prices with her limited budget would be the hard part.
She moistened her lips with the tip of her tongue.
"What if…? What if I’ve changed my mind?"
"I shan’t let you."
"But you can’t stop me."
The way he was looking at her brought it home to
her that she was trapped here in this ancient stronghold,
where no doubt his ancestors had once held their
prisoners captive in the depths of its dank dungeons.
"What is it exactly that you are so afraid of?" he
asked.
"I’m not afraid of anything — or anyone," Jodie lied.
"So there is no reason why we should not be married,
then, is there? It is an arrangement from which
we both stand to gain something of importance to us.
When is this ex-fiance. of yours to marry?"
"The middle of next month."
"Bene. We will be married ourselves by then, so
you will have the pleasure of introducing me to him
as your husband. Now, it is late, and tomorrow there
is much to be done."
"Why Don’t you want to marry Caterina?"
Immediately his face hardened. "That is no concern
of yours," he told her dauntingly. "I shall leave you
now to sleep. With any luck the cramp will not return."
In other words, mind your own business, Jodie reflected
ruefully as she watched him leave.
CHAPTER SIX
THE sound of her bedroom door opening and the rattle
of crockery brought Jodie out of a complicated dream
in which she had been forced to watch as John walked
down the aisle towards his waiting bride. But when
he reached her it wasn’t John who was marrying
someone else but Lorenzo. Bizarrely, instead of feeling
relieved, she had actually felt searingly jealous.
"Buongiorno," Maria greeted her cheerfully as she
put down the tray she was carrying and then walked
over to the windows to draw back the heavy curtains.
Sunshine immediately flooded the room, followed by
deliciously soft warm air as Maria opened the windows
to reveal a small balcony.
The smell of fresh coffee and the sight of rolls and
fruit made Jodie salivate with hunger.
"Grazie, Maria." She thanked the elderly maid with
a warm smile, pushing back the bedclothes as Maria
turned to leave the room.
She hadn’t realised her room had a balcony, and
when she hurried over to investigate it she discovered
that it looked out onto an enclosed courtyard garden
that was almost Moorish in style. Fretted archways
were swathed with tumbling masses of pink roses, and
from her vantage point above them she could look
down into the heart of the garden to a fish pond,
where an ornate fountain sent sprays of water jetting
upwards before they fell back to dimple the surface
of the pond, disturbing the fat goldfish basking in the
morning sunshine.
Returning to the bedroom, Jodie poured herself a
cup of coffee and then headed back to the balcony.
It was wide enough to hold a small wrought-iron table
and two chairs, and she was just about to sit down on
one of them when her bedroom door opened a second
time. Thinking that Maria had come back, she looked
up with a smile that faded as she saw that it was not
Maria who had come in but Lorenzo.
"Bene, you are awake. Alfredo has telephoned to
say that he is on his way and will be here within the
hour. I trust you slept well, with no return of your
cramp?"
"No — I mean, yes — I did sleep well, and, no, the
cramp didn’t come back." It hadn’t come back, but
the faint tingle in her flesh where he had massaged it
had kept her awake for a long time after he had gone.
Unlike her, Lorenzo was fully dressed, making her
feel acutely conscious of the brevity of her nightshirt.
Not that he was looking at her. Instead he was frowning
as he stared at something on the floor beside her
bed, next to the case she had been too tired to unpack
last night.
Striding over to it, he leaned down and retrieved
the basque she had forgotten to put back in the case,
holding it up between his thumb and forefingers and
looking at her with a query in his scowl.
"What is this?"
"What does it look like?" Jodie challenged him
crossly
"It looks like something a certain type of showgirl
might wear."
"It…it was part of my trousseau," Jodie told him
reluctantly. She certainly didn’t want him thinking it
was something she had brought with her to wear on
holiday. "It got into my case by…by mistake."
"Your trousseau? You mean you were going to
wear this as a means of enticing your husband to
make love to you? What was he? Some kind of bondage
fetishist?"
It took several seconds for his meaning to hit her
defences.
"It’s a chainstore basque, that’s all," she told him
furiously. "If you want to give it some kind of sleazy,
sordid interpretation, then that’s up to you." She was
perilously close to angry tears of humiliation as she
remembered the shy uncertainty with which she had
purchased the boned and lace-tied item of underwear,
hoping that it might tempt John to behave more passionately
towards her. "Right now They’re a fashion
item. Some women even wear them as outerwear."
"Yes, I have seen them. They display their breasts
as crudely as whores, offering up their wares for any
man who feels like examining them."
Whores? Was he suggesting…? "I suppose the way
you like your women dressed is—" Jodie began angrily,
only to have Lorenzo interrupt her.
"The way I like to see a woman dressed is in something
that hints subtly at her sexuality instead of
flaunting it, and in fabrics as sensual as her skin. Not
clothes that make her look like either a child or a
whore," he told her and he dropped her basque onto
the bed.
A child? Was he referring to her nightshirt?
"How is your leg this morning?" he added calmly,
as he helped himself to a cup of coffee and walked
over to the balcony to join her.
Suddenly what had seemed like a pleasant spot to
enjoy the morning air had become an intensely intimate
and very small space. Had he deliberately referred
to her leg now because he guessed how sensitively
aware she was that its weakness made her less
desirable as a woman? If she hadn’t already sworn
off men and love for ever, Jodie decided bitterly, then
surely Lorenzo would have been enough to make her
do so.
"It’s fine. Anyone can get cramp, you know," she
told him defensively. "Even someone with two perfectly
normal legs."
"Which you think yours are not? There are many
places in the world where people, often children, subjected
to the injustice of wars they Don’t understand,
have been left with injuries, including the loss of
limbs, that make a mere weakness such as yours
something they would welcome."
Jodie listened to him in disbelieving fury. Was he
actually daring to preach at her? When he lived the
kind of privileged life isolated from reality he obviously
did?
"What would you know about other people"s suffering?"
she demanded scornfully. "I bet the closest
you have ever been to witnessing the ravages of war
is in a newspaper or on a television screen."
She put her cup down on the small table with a
small angry movement and made to walk past him
back into the bedroom. But Lorenzo, who had become
engrossed in looking down into the garden, put his
hand on her arm to stop her.
"Caterina is watching us from the garden," he told
Jodie quietly.
"So?"
Putting down his own cup, he turned towards her,
saying softly, "So this…"
He was closing the distance between them and
there was nowhere for her to go. His arms locked
round her, imprisoning her, their warmth pressing
through the thin fabric of her nightshirt. His hands
spread against her back, curving her into his own
body as though she were completely formless and
malleable, his to do with as he chose. One hand remained
flat against the small of her back, arching her
against him — draping her against him, she recognised
dizzily — whilst the other slid up to her neck, his fingers
burrowing into the soft thickness of her hair, tangling
in it so that he could draw her head back and
lift her face towards his own.
Trembling from head to foot with furious outrage,
Jodie glared up at him.
His head blotted out the sunlight as he lowered it
so that his mouth could take possession of hers. Jodi
stiffened defensively, not daring to move. His lips felt
cool and firm against her own. She could smell the
fresh scent of soap and clean linen. Stubbornly she
refused to return his kiss. The pad of his thumb
stroked caressingly behind her ear and against the vulnerable
flesh of her neck, and a small betraying shudder
of reaction galvanised her whole body.
His lips brushed hers, the silver-grey eyes glinting
with a knowledge that made her whole body burn as
he demanded silkily, "Don’t you even know how to
kiss properly? And you were betrothed! Open your
mouth."
Faced with a choice of being branded as a woman
so sexually inept that she couldn’t even kiss, or giving
in to his arrogant demand, Jodie chose female pride
over anger. Her lips softened and parted, the golden
shimmer of her gaze meshing recklessly with the hypnotic
silver of Lorenzo’s as though it were a lodestone
luring her to a destiny she couldn’t escape. Her mouth
clung to his and her arms lifted to wrap around his
neck. She could feel the warmth of the sun on her
back, but it was the heat of Lorenzo’s touch that her
flesh was responding to, the sensation of his hand
spread flat against the bare skin of her back beneath
her nightshirt, whilst she stood on tiptoe, arched
against him, kissing him with a sensual intimacy that
would normally have shocked her.
She could feel his hand shaping her waist and then
moving upwards to cup her bare breast beneath the
nightshirt, his thumb-pad brushing with deliberate
emphasis against her suddenly tight nipple, making it
and her quiver as readily as a bow drawn by an expert
archer. His other hand was massaging the base of her
spine and then moving lower, pushing aside her briefs
so that he could stroke the naked rounded curve of
her bottom.
The sudden fierce sexual thrust of Lorenzo’s
tongue against her own brought her up intimately
against him, her breath escaping on a soft, shivered
rush of pleasure. "What is it?" Lorenzo whispered.
"Do you want me to stroke your breasts? To kiss them
and caress them? Do you want me to take your nipple
into my mouth and bring it and you to the highest
pinnacle of pleasure? Is that what you are asking me
for with that wanton thrust of your hips against
mine?" As he was whispering to her Lorenzo’s hand
moved round to caress the soft swell of her sex.
This was what she had longed for so much from
John — desire, intimacy, sensuality — and she absorbed
it into herself with each and every one of her senses,
lost in a private world of erotic pleasure.
It was the sound of angry footsteps crunching
across the gravel beneath the balcony that brought her
back to reality, her body stiffening in outraged rebuttal
as she wrenched her mouth from beneath
Lorenzo’s.
"You had no right to do that," she told him angrily.
"So why didn’t you stop me?" Lorenzo shrugged,
infuriatingly matter-of-fact.
She hadn’t stopped him because she had been enjoying
what was happening too much to want to,
Jodie realised guiltily. "You said there would be
no…no intimacy between us," she retorted, sidestepping
Lorenzo’s charge.
"That wasn’t intimacy," Lorenzo informed her. "If
I’d wanted intimacy with you, I’d have taken you
somewhere where we couldn’t be overheard, and right
now, instead of standing here glowering at me, you’d
be lying under me, and the only words you’d be uttering
would be your eager pleas for my possession.
As I warned you, I was simply demonstrating for
Caterina’s benefit the fact that you and I are to marry.
Or is that glower you are giving me because you are
not lying beneath me right now, while I show that
virginal body of yours what sex is all about?"
"I am not—"
"You are not a virgin? Is that what you were going
to tell me?"
"I wasn’t going to say that. I was going to say that
I’m not interested in having sex with you."
"So you are a virgin?"
"What if I am? Is it a crime?"
"In law, no. Against nature, yes. Where is the plea-
sure in a closed book that has never been read? A
song that that never been sung? A scent that has never
filled the air with its fragrance or a woman who has
never cried out her fulfilment to the lover who has
taken her to it?"
Beneath them the golden silence of the morning
was suddenly broken by the sound of a car arriving
in the adjacent courtyard.
"That will be Alfredo," Lorenzo told her, suddenly
businesslike. "Come through into my office as soon
as you are dressed. Alfredo will want to go through
all the necessary paperwork for our marriage."
As she watched him leave, Jodie wanted very badly
to tell him that she had changed her mind; to break
through his arrogance and to pierce his pride the way
he had pierced hers. How could she possibly have
reacted to him as she had? How could she have let
her guard down so far that she had actually physically
responded to him? Now he obviously thought that he
could use her own vulnerability against her to make
her do anything he wanted her to do. Anything. Every
word he had just said to her, every look he had given
her, had said quite plainly that he now believed she
was his for the taking.
But she wasn’t, and she never, ever would be. She
knew that, and she was going to make sure that he
knew it as well. And if she couldn’t? How much did
she really want to bolster her pride and appear at John
and Louise’s wedding with her own brand-new husband?
Enough to take that risk?
More than enough, Jodie decided with renewed determination
as she gathered up some clean clothes and
headed for the shower. Especially since she already
knew that, no matter what Lorenzo said or did, or
even fleetingly made her feel, nothing could alter the
fact that she simply did not want an intimate one-toone
emotional or physical relationship with a man
ever again. John had shown her that she could not
trust his sex, and if John could not be trusted to mean
it when he said that he loved her and wanted to marry
her, then she certainly wasn’t going to risk trusting a
man like Lorenzo!
Fifteen minutes later, showered and dressed, and with
her still damp hair caught back off her face, Jodie
hesitated outside the door to the study-cum-office
Lorenzo had shown her the previous night.
She could have sworn she hadn’t betrayed her presence
by the smallest sound, much less even raised her
hand to knock politely on the door, but somehow
Lorenzo must have divined it, because before she
could do so he was opening the door and taking her
by the arm to draw her into the room. Taking her by
the arm or imprisoning her? Certainly to any onlooker
the way the strong, lean fingers were curling round
her wrist might look both protective and possessive—
the hold of a lover wanting to establish the exclusivity
of a relationship — but she, of course, knew better.
"I was just beginning to wonder what was keeping
you," he told her.
"I’ve only been half an hour," Jodie protested defensively.
"A lifetime for us to be apart," he told her softly,
giving her a look of such sexually explicit hunger that
her own eyes widened and darkened before she could
stop herself from reacting to it. She was awed by the
impact of a look that somehow managed to convey a
desire to strip every item of clothing from her body
and explore and pleasure it in the most intimate way
possible, but at the same time made it fiercely clear
that he also wanted to wrap that same body in the
protection of his love and adoration, to keep it and
her for himself alone. What on earth must it be like
to be truly loved and desired by a man who looked
at one like that? A man who was not either afraid of
or embarrassed to show his feelings? But Lorenzo had
no feelings for her, she reminded herself, and nor did
she want him to.
"Alfredo, come and let me introduce you to my
wife-to-be."
Lorenzo’s lawyer was about the same age as
Lorenzo himself, but nothing like so tall or so awesomely
good-looking, Jodie thought. He did, though,
have very nice, warm brown twinkling eyes, and a
kind smile.
"Lorenzo has just been telling me about you. I
thought he must be exaggerating, in that deranged
way that lovers have, but now I see that he was not
doing you justice," Alfredo complimented Jodie
warmly.
Lorenzo’s lawyer was just being courteous, that
was clear, albeit in a flattering, slightly over-the-top
way. Jodie knew that, but she still couldn’t help dimpling
him a laughing smile, immediately feeling at
ease with him.
"No wonder you are so anxious to rush her to the
altar, Lorenzo," Alfredo continued. "In your shoes—"
"But you are not in my shoes, are you?" Lorenzo
pointed out, with what Jodie thought was almost insufferable
arrogance.
The lawyer, though, did not seem to be offended.
Instead he laughed and said, "There is no need to be
jealous, my friend. I can see that Jodie only has eyes
for you." Whilst Jodie was still digesting this untruth,
he continued, "I was just asking Lorenzo where you
met. I assume it must have been when he was out of
the country, in the aftermath of that dreadful earthquake.
I know that Lorenzo was there in his capacity
of adviser to those government officials who run our
own aid programmes. Which reminds me, Lorenzo—
I have, as you instructed, ensured that sufficient
money has been put aside to cover the medical fees
of the children who are to join the prosthetic limb
replacement programme." Alfredo turned to Jodie and
gave her a charming smile accompanied by a small
rueful shrug. "You will already know that your husband-
to-be has a soft heart and digs deep into his
pockets to help those in need. Did you meet him
through his charitable work?"
Jodie could feel her face starting to burn as she
remembered her earlier accusatory comments to
Lorenzo. And she couldn’t even allow herself the satisfaction
of inwardly believing that Lorenzo had
primed his lawyer to speak as he had. One look at
Lorenzo’s grim expression was enough to make it
plain that Alfredo’s unwitting revelations had not
pleased him.
"Jodie does not work in any capacity for any of the
aid programmes, Alfredo." Lorenzo stopped him. "As
it happens I met her some time ago, when I was in
England. I had planned to bring her here to meet my
grandmother, but unfortunately Nonna died before I
could do so…which brings me to the matter of my
late cousin’s widow, Caterina."
"She can have no claim on the Castillo once you
have complied with the terms of your grandmother’s
will and are married," Alfredo assured Lorenzo immediately.
"No claim on the Castillo, no, but it seems that
Caterina feels she has the right to make a claim on
me," Lorenzo told him cynically.
Alfredo started to frown. "But that is impossible."
"Indeed. But Caterina, as we both know, is somewhat
prone to exaggeration. Ridiculously, she has
even suggested that my grandmother wished me to
marry her! Having run through Gino’s money, and
dragged his name in the gutter, it seems she desires
to do the same with mine."
"There has been gossip about her," Alfredo agreed
uncomfortably.
"Indeed. And I do not wish there to be any about
my marriage or my future wife, so perhaps a few
words in the right ears to warn them to ignore anything
Caterina might have to say?" Lorenzo suggested
smoothly.
"An excellent idea," Alfredo agreed, whilst Jodie
listened and silently digested the suavely subtle, lethal
way in which Lorenzo was dismantling Caterina’s
power base. When it came to getting what he wanted,
Lorenzo was obviously a ruthless opponent. A ruthless,
arrogant, dangerous man — who voluntarily gave
both his time and his wealth to help the young victims
of far-off wars and disasters. That wasn’t just one
man, it was two very different men inside the same
skin — like Janus, the double-faced Roman god of beginnings
and endings, from whom the month of
January took its name. Lorenzo was an enigma of a
man, and the polar differences within himself made
him toxically dangerous. But not to her. No man
would ever again be a danger to her.
"I have brought with me all the various documents
you will both need to sign in preparation for your
marriage. The Cardinal was most helpful. He suggested
the Church of the Madonna in Florence for the
service, and he has undertaken to arrange for the
banns to be read from this Sunday. Since the law is
that they must be read on two consecutive Sundays
before the marriage can be conducted, that means that
you can be married just over two weeks from today."
Banns? And a church service? Their marriage was
to be just a temporary business arrangement: it didn’t
need to be celebrated in church. A simple civil ceremony
was all that was necessary. Jodie started to step
forward, but somehow Lorenzo had managed to get
between her and Alfredo. She could feel his fingers
curling determinedly around her wrist, and she could
see the warning in his eyes as he lifted her now tightly
clenched palm towards his lips.
"You have done well, Alfredo," he said approvingly,
without shifting his gaze from Jodie. "Hasn’t
he, cara?"
His lips were caressing her knuckles, each individual
one in turn, until, helplessly, she could feel her
fingers uncurling from her palm, as though eager for
more.
"I have also prepared the necessary papers for you
both to sign with regard to the financial agreement.
There is one for you to sign, Jodie, renouncing any
future financial claim you might have against Lorenzo
in the event of a divorce, and the other which you
asked me to draw up, Lorenzo, stating that in the
event of the marriage breaking down within twelve
months of the ceremony you will pay Jodie one mil-
lion pounds sterling, plus a further million pounds for
every year after that that you remain married."
"I’ll sign the papers renouncing any future claim I
might have against Lorenzo, but I Don’t want his
money." The words were spoken before Jodie could
stop herself. She could see that Alfredo looked both
rueful and slightly embarrassed.
"Of course it is unpleasant to have to talk about
such things now, before you are even married, but—"
"I Don’t want the money," Jodie repeated.
"This is something we can discuss in private later,"
Lorenzo informed her in a warning tone, before turning
to smile at Alfredo and telling him, "You have a
long journey back to Rome, so the sooner we get all
the paperwork dealt with, the better."
"Why do we have to have a church service instead of
just a civil ceremony?"
It was over an hour since Alfredo had left, but
Jodie’s system was still in full adrenalin-producing
mode as she confronted Lorenzo across the width of
his desk.
"Why should we not? It is customary within my
family, and will be expected."
"You should have told me before. I thought we
would just be having a civil wedding. Being married
in church will make it seem so real…"
Lorenzo was frowning now.
"Our marriage will be real," he informed her. "That
is the whole point of undertaking it. It has to be
"real", as you put it, in order for me to fulfil the
terms of my grandmother’s will. Or at least, "real"
in the sense that it will be conducted as a real wedding.
We shall not, of course, be consummating it."
"No, we most certainly won’t," Jodie agreed vehemently.
"I’m beginning to wish that I had never got
involved in any of this."
"It is too late for that now, and besides, you will
be well remunerated."
"I’ve already told you I Don’t want your money.
All I want is for you to attend John and Louise’s
wedding with me."
"I could hardly have that put in the marriage contract.
As it is, there is bound to be some degree of
gossip and speculation about our relationship. You
have Alfredo on your side, though. He was obviously
afraid that your feelings had been hurt by the necessity
of legalising the financial aspects of our marriage."
"You could never hurt my feelings. You aren’t important
enough to me, and I intend to make sure that
no man ever is from now on."
"You intend to die a virgin?"
He was mocking her, Jodie knew.
"And if I do? There are more important things in
life than sex!"
"How would you know? By your own admission,
you have never truly experienced it."
Jodie had had enough.
"A woman does not need to have penetration in
order to experience sexual pleasure. Nor does she
need a man," she told him frankly.
"Is that the only way you feel able to allow yourself
to reach fulfilment? Either by your own hand or
through the use of some battery-driven device that
cannot—?"
"No! I wasn’t talking about me. I just meant… I’m
not listening to any more of this." Jodie could feel her
face burning with self-conscious colour as she covered
her ears with her hands.
"I am simply making the point that you are rejecting
something without having experienced it."
"What about you? You’re rejecting marriage, aren’t
you — at least a proper marriage? And you haven’t
been married, have you?"
"I haven’t been married myself, but I have witnessed
the marriages of others and seen what a destructive
sham the state of marriage is — how it is used
to cover greed and selfishness, and how children born
into it are left to deal with the fall-out from their
parents" deceit."
"That isn’t true of all marriages. Some Don’t work
out, yes, but there are happy marriages. My cousin
and his wife love one another very deeply, and my
parents were happy together…"
"Really? So how come this wonderful gene that has
enabled them to achieve the rare state of bliss bypassed
you?"
"It’s all down to having the ability to pick the right
partner. I realised with John that I Don’t have that
ability, and that is why I never intend to let myself
fall in love again. But that doesn’t mean I Don’t believe
marriage can work or that some people — other
people — have the ability to make the right partner
choice and to share commitment."
"Only a fool believes that sexual love can be permanent,"
Lorenzo told her challengingly, as though
he expected her to disagree with him. But Jodie was
wary of getting involved in any more arguments that
featured sex. Every time she did, a funny little sensation
deep inside her sprang into life and pulsed in
such an intimate and demanding way that she could
barely concentrate on what she was saying because
of it.
"Oh, and by the way," Lorenzo continued, "Don’t
think that I was taken in by that artful comment of
yours about not wanting the million pounds. What are
you hoping? That if you refuse it now then later,
when we divorce, you will be in a much stronger
position to claim far more? If that is the case, let me
warn you—"
Jodie had had enough. "No, let me warn you that
the only reason I am marrying you is so that I can
show John he isn’t the only man in the world, and so
that I can hold my head up high at home, instead of
being pitied. It’s my pride that’s motivating me, not
any desire for money. I do not want your money! And
I certainly Don’t want your…your sexual expertise,
either!"
"that’s just as well, because you aren’t going to be
offered it," Lorenzo said unkindly. "It amazes me that
still in this modern day the myth persists that adult,
sexually mature men have a secret yearning for the
untutored body of a virgin. Personally I can think of
nothing more unenticing. Maybe that was why your
ex-fiance. chose someone else over you. Have you
thought of that?"
Had she thought of it? There had been endless
nights and days when she had thought of nothing else
in those early weeks. Nights when she had lain in bed,
feverishly wondering how she might suddenly transform
herself from a virgin into an alluringly experienced
woman who could seduce him away from
Louise just as Louise had seduced John away from
her. But that had been in the maddening furnace of
new rejection, and those fires, with their dangerous,
damaging compulsion to prove herself as a woman,
had now cooled. And they certainly weren’t going to
be re-ignited by a man like Lorenzo — a man who
looked and behaved as though he knew everything
there was to know about a woman"s sensuality and a
man"s ability to rouse and enjoy it.
The pulsing inside her body suddenly became
sharply intense. Not just a pulse now, but a deep-
seated ache as well.
CHAPTER SEVEN
"THERE is something I want to say to you."
Caterina stood in front of Jodie, blocking her exit
from the pretty garden she had left her room to explore.
"Alfredo was here earlier. Why?"
"isn’t that something you should be asking
Lorenzo, not me?" Jodie tried to head her off.
"He doesn’t want to marry you really. It’s me he
wants. he’s always wanted me and he always will.
Always and for ever. I was his first woman and I shall
be his last. But, because I chose to marry his cousin,
Lorenzo feels he has to punish me, and to show me
that he no longer cares. But he does. He still wants
me, and I can prove it any time I like."
Jodie could feel herself wanting to reject the intimacy
of the information being forced on her, along
with the shockingly graphic images that were already
forming inside her head. She was no voyeur, she told
herself angrily, and the last thing she wanted to imagine
was Lorenzo making love to Caterina.
"Whatever he may have told you, the only reason
he’s marrying you is because his own stubborn pride
makes him believe that he has to resist his feelings
for me to prove how strong he is. The truth is that
Lorenzo is afraid of his need for me," Caterina
boasted, adding mockingly, "When he beds you it will
be me he is imagining he is holding, and me he secretly
wishes he were holding." She gave Jodie a con
temptuous look, the same kind of look that Louise
had given her. Her heart seemed to miss a beat, and
she could feel what must surely only be an echo of
remembered pain and rejection stealing away her self-
confidence and hard-won self-belief.
"You and Lorenzo may once have been lovers—"
she began bravely.
"May? There is no ""may"" about it. We were."
Caterina stopped her. "He adored me, worshipped me.
He could not resist me."
Jodie’s stomach rolled queasily. Inside her head she
could hear Louise saying triumphantly to her, "John
can’t resist me."
"There was a quarrel — a misunderstanding. Lorenzo
was young and hot-headed. I could not allow him to
treat me thus, so to teach him a lesson I left him."
Jodie could well imagine how Lorenzo must have
reacted to that kind of treatment. His pride would certainly
have been outraged. But surely true love was
stronger than pride?
"He is only marrying you because he does not have
any feelings for you. Lorenzo is afraid of his feelings
for me and that makes him fight against them. But he
will not fight them for ever. He cannot. His desire for
me is too strong."
"that’s ridiculous," Jodie forced herself to protest.
"After all, there is nothing to stop him marrying you
if he wanted to do so."
"It is his mother who is to blame for his ridiculous
refusal to marry me," Caterina insisted angrily. "It is
because of her that he fears to publicly acknowledge
his love for me. Because of her he tries to deny and
reject it. But I can still make him want me."
"isn’t his mother dead?" Jodie pointed out.
"Lorenzo has never forgiven his mother for betraying
his father and leaving them both when she went
off with her lover." Caterina gave a small, almost contemptuous
shrug. "Such a fuss about nothing. He was
a child of seven, with a father rich enough to provide
him with all the care he needed. But, no, that was not
good enough for Lorenzo. He wanted his mother to
come back…he even pleaded with her to come back.
Gino told me. He adored her. They both did—
Lorenzo and his father. She could do no wrong. To
them she was a madonna. I have told Lorenzo many
times that it is crazy for him to still brood now on
what happened when he was a child. Women leave
their husbands and their children all the time, and
Lorenzo will leave your bed for mine if you are fool
enough to marry him," she warned Jodie. "I shall
make sure of it. And I promise you, when I do, he
will not be able to resist me."
Just as John had not been able to resist Louise.
What was it about women like Louise and Caterina
that made men so vulnerable to them and so impervious
to their selfishness?
For a woman who professed to love Lorenzo as
much as Caterina was doing, Jodie reflected, she
didn’t seem to have very much sympathy with him.
For a seven-year-old boy to lose the mother he loved
as intensely as Caterina had said Lorenzo did must
have had a deeply psychological effect on him. And
if he had actually loved Caterina, her marriage to his
cousin must surely have intensified his belief that
women were not to be trusted, and that they were
amoral, shallow and selfish cheats.
What am I doing? Jodie asked herself wryly. Surely
she wasn’t actually feeling sympathy for Lorenzo?
As she watched Caterina walk away, Jodie told herself
that it was a good job she was not marrying
Lorenzo for love.
Jodie turned to look at the granite hulk of the Castillo
walls. She was alone in the garden now, Caterina apparently
having grown tired of issuing her dark warnings.
She would not have entered an unwanted marriage
in order to possess such a place, Jodie thought
wryly, but she was not Lorenzo. It must be a matter
of family pride to him that he was its master.
She tensed as she heard footsteps on the gravel,
recognising them immediately as Lorenzo’s. A tiny
feathering of sensation started to uncurl slowly inside
her: a potent blend of danger, excitement, and challenge
pumped intoxicatingly throughout her whole
body by the jerky, speeded-up bursts of her heartbeat.
It was reassuring to compare what she was feeling
now with the emotions and sensations she had felt
when she had first met John. The two reactions had
nothing in common, and therefore this feeling she had
now was not a sign that she was in any way attracted
to Lorenzo.
"I saw Caterina speaking with you earlier. Tell me
what she was saying."
It was typical of him, of course, that he should not
only make such a demand but actually expect it to be
met — as though he had the right to question her, and
also to be answered.
Jodie answered him as bluntly. "She told me that
you were lovers."
"And what else?" he demanded, refusing to react.
Jodie shrugged her shoulders. "Only that you would
do anything to gain possession of the Castillo — but
then I already knew that. And that your mother deserted
you and your father when you were a small
child — which of course I did not."
Now she had the reaction she had not had before.
Immediately Lorenzo’s expression hardened. "My
childhood is in the past and has no bearing on either
the present or the future."
He was wrong about that, Jodie decided. It was
obvious from the way he was reacting that his childhood
held painful issues which had never been resolved.
"How is your leg? I noticed that you were rubbing
it earlier, when Alfredo was here."
What had motivated that comment? Concern for
her? Or a deliberate attempt to change the subject?
Jodie knew which she believed was the more likely
reason, but that wasn’t enough to stop her answering
him.
"that’s just a…a habit I have. It doesn’t mean…
My leg’s fine." She was behaving in as flustered a
manner as though he had paid her some kind of unexpected
compliment, she realised angrily. John’s rejection
might have battered her self-esteem, but it certainly
hadn’t reduced her to the pathetic state where
she was grateful to a man for asking after her health!
But Lorenzo’s comment had reminded her of something
she knew she had to do.
And now was probably a good time to do it, she
thought, since the fading light meant that Lorenzo
wouldn’t be able to see her red face.
"I–I owe you an apology," she told him abruptly.
"I realise from what Alfredo said that I was wrong to
suggest that you knew nothing about the horrors
of war."
"You are apologising to me for an error of judgement?"
Jodie risked a quick glance up at him through the
indigo-tinted evening air, and discovered that the
downward curve of his mouth was revealing the same
cynical disbelief she could hear in his voice.
"Yes, I am," she said. "But if you’d told me about
your aid work in the first place, I wouldn’t have
needed to, would I?"
"Ah, I thought so. I’ve yet to meet any woman who
will genuinely admit that she could be to blame for
anything."
"that’s the most ridiculous exaggeration I have
ever heard!" Jodie objected immediately. "It’s like
saying that—"
"That You’re never going to trust another man because
one man has let you down?" Lorenzo suggested
silkily.
"No! that’s a personal decision I’ve made about
my own future. It doesn’t mean — and I have never
said — that all men can’t be trusted. Maybe you should
look more closely at why you think the way you do,
instead of making unfounded accusations against my
sex!" she told him recklessly.
"That was an apology?" Lorenzo said derisively.
She felt so tempted to tell him that she had changed
her mind, and he would have to find someone else to
help him to secure his wretched Castillo. But her determination
to salve her pride with the possession of
a husband to replace the one she had so humiliatingly
lost was stubbornly refusing to let her do so. She
would withstand whatever she had to in order to enjoy
the sweet satisfaction of seeing John and Louise’s expression
when she introduced them to her "husband".
She didn’t want revenge, or money — such negative
aspirations were empty and worthless — but she so
badly did want the ego-boosting experience of seeing
everyone’s faces when she turned up at the wedding
with Lorenzo.
With a handsome, multi-millionaire, titled husband
at her side, no one was going to pity her, or glance
at her leg when they thought she wasn’t looking, or
whisper about her, explaining who she was and what
had happened. Yes, it was shallow. Yes, it was foolish.
Yes, a part of her felt ashamed that she should
give in to such a need. But she was still going to do
it. And if it turned out that she ended up upstaging
the bride? Tough!
A small shiver of shocked awareness of her own
growing strength tingled over her skin. Two months
ago she had been so low she couldn’t even have contemplated
feeling like this. Who knew what she could
achieve once the wedding was behind her? She could
begin a whole new life, a life doing the things she
wanted to do, without having to worry about pleasing
any man ever again.
"What are you hoping for? That he will turn round
at the altar, see you and leave her?" Lorenzo demanded
harshly.
Jodie stared at him and blurted out, "How did you
know I was thinking about John?"
"There is a certain look in your eyes when you do
so."
"Well, You’re wrong," she fibbed. "I wasn’t thinking
about him. I was thinking about what I am going to
do in the future. I wasn’t well enough to go to university,
or to train to do anything after the accident,
but there is nothing to stop me doing so now."
"Most admirable," Lorenzo said, making it clear
that he found her mission statement for the future anything
but. "Now, if we Don’t go in soon Maria will
be coming to warn us that it is time for dinner. I hope
you like pasta, because that is all you are likely to
get. Her cooking is of the plain and simple variety,
but at least it might add some flesh to your bones."
Perhaps she was a little bit on the thin side — emotional
pain did that to a person, after all — but there
was no need for him to keep on pointing it out to her,
was there? Jodie decided crossly as she turned away
from him.
"Be careful," he warned her sharply. "There is a step
here—"
But it was already too late, and Jodie gave a small
cry as she missed it in the darkness and stumbled
forward.
Powerful hands seized her waist, and, as he had
done before, Lorenzo caught her before she hit the
ground, lifting her back onto her feet and steadying
her there.
When was it that her instincts registered and recognised
the subtle shift in the way those hands were
holding her? The movement that took their hold on
her body and turned it from the impersonal dig of his
fingers into the curve of her waist as he supported her
into an explorative search for the femaleness of that
curve? Was it really after it was too late to check or
reject his instinctive male reaction? Had he really
drawn her closer? Or had she been the one to move
towards him?
In the shadowy darkness it was impossible for her
to see his face, or to judge which of them had promoted
the body-to-body intimacy they were now
sharing, and she hoped it was equally impossible for
him to read her expression.
He bent his head towards her and took her mouth
in a shockingly intimate kiss of hard passion that was
over almost as soon as it had begun. Then, without a
word of either apology or explanation, he released
her.
She was in more danger of stumbling now than she
had been before, Jodie realised, as her suddenly shaky
legs carried her unsteadily towards the light of the
Castillo.
Jodie was on the verge of falling asleep when she
heard the sound of Lorenzo’s bedroom door opening.
Sucking in her breath, she tensed her body, her concentration
focused on her own door, but the firm footsteps
were already fading as Lorenzo walked past her
room without even hesitating.
Jodie sat up and looked at her watch. It was gone
midnight. Where was he going? To Caterina? And if
he was there was no reason for her to be concerned,
was there? And certainly not enough to lie here wide
awake, checking her watch every few minutes, her
ears stretched for the sound of his return, like a jealous
lover.
CHAPTER EIGHT
FLORENCE! How well its medieval ruler Lorenzo de
Medici had loved his city, and how willingly he had
shown that love, commissioning the best of the
Renaissance"s gifted artists to embellish and enhance
both its glory and his own.
Jodie could only catch her breath as she sat beside
Lorenzo in the Ferrari whilst he edged it through the
city"s busy traffic, stretching every sense she could to
take in as much as possible of the wonders all around
her. Lorenzo turned off the busy main road that ran
alongside the River Arno and drove the Ferrari down
a street lined with elegant seventeenth-century buildings.
"My apartment is in the block above us," he informed
Jodie casually, as he turned into a narrow alleyway
and then down into an underground car park.
Jodie’s eyes adjusted to the gloom of the car park
after the brilliance of the sunlit street. He had already
informed her that he lived in Florence, but he hadn’t
said as yet just where they would be living once they
were married. Given the choice she would far rather
be in Florence than the Castillo, Jodie thought as they
left the car.
Lorenzo guided her towards a door which opened
onto a flight of stairs that took them up to an impressive
entrance hall, with an equally impressive coat of
arms prominently displayed above its main doorway.
The same coat of arms, surely, which she had seen
carved into the fireplace lintel in the great hall of the
Castillo?
"Come — the lift is this way," Lorenzo instructed
her. "My apartment is on the top two floors. I chose
it when I had the Palazzo remodelled because of its
views — although my grandmother used to complain
that she wished I had chosen one at ground level. She
did not care for enclosed spaces or lifts."
"The Palazzo?" Jodie questioned suspiciously
"Does that mean that the whole of this building—?"
"Was originally the home of my family? Yes. The
Palazzo was built for the tenth Duce, who had many
business interests in Florence. During my grandfather"s
lifetime it fell into disrepair — much like the
Castillo. When I inherited it I was faced with two
choices. Either I abandoned it and sold it, or I restored
it and found a way to make it pay for itself.
Converting it into apartments seemed the most sensible
option. That way I could retain control over any
work to be done."
"Is this where we will be living, then?" Jodie asked
as they got out of the lift and she followed him across
an elegant marble-floored outer hallway to a pair of
intricately carved heavy wooden doors.
"There will be times when we will live here in
Florence, yes, which is why—" He broke off from
whatever he had been about to say to unlock the doors
before opening them for her.
The room beyond them was another hallway: a
long, rectangular double-height space, with a gallery
around the whole of the upper storey. Its ceiling was
domed in the centre and painted with allegorical
scenes from mythology, whilst its walls were hung
with paintings.
"My family were at one time renowned patrons of
the arts. The eleventh Duce enjoyed entertaining the
English visitors who came to Florence in the seventeenth
and eighteenth centuries. He held court here in
the Palazzo, and his mistress"s salons were famous."
"His mistress"s salons?" Jodie queried uncertainly.
"The eleventh Duce was something of a rebel.
While he stayed here in Florence, and set up home
with his mistress, his wife and children were banished
to a villa outside the city. He was a great patron of
beauty in all its forms. He caused something of a
scandal in Florence by having his mistress depicted
in a series of paintings, each one portraying her readiness
to receive him in a different sexual position. It
is rumoured, in fact, that in order for the artist to
faithfully portray the correct angles of her body, the
original sketches were made whilst she and the Duce
were in the act of making love. But the Duce’s figure
was removed by the artist for her final painting, so
that her patron could visualise his lover’s body as she
waited to receive him."
"Oh," said Jodie weakly. "The artist was a woman?"
Lorenzo shrugged. "My ancestor was probably concerned
that a male artist might find such an erotic
commission too much for his self-control. And rumour
has it that Cosimo himself was not averse to
persuading his artist to abandon her work in order to
join them in their pursuit of sexual pleasure."
When Jodie couldn’t help glancing at the walls,
Lorenzo told her grimly, "You will not find any of
the paintings here — they vanished a long time ago—
looted, so it is believed, on Napoleon"s instructions.
He had heard of them and wanted them. If they still
exist they will be in the possession of some private
collector." Lorenzo give another shrug. "Their value
was not in the hand of the artist who painted them so
much as in their notoriety." He flicked back the cuff
of the linen jacket he was wearing and glanced at his
watch.
"It is now almost four o"clock. I telephoned ahead
and arranged for you to have a private showing at a
designer salon on Via Tornabuoni. The manager there
understands the situation, and she will help you to
select a suitable wardrobe — including a wedding
dress. It isn’t very far from here, and—"
"No!" Jodie could see the look of hauteur darkening
Lorenzo’s eyes. He obviously didn’t like having his
plans questioned. Tough, she decided grittily. No way
was she going to be treated like some kind of mindless
doll he could have dressed up in over-priced designer
clothes to suit his own idea of how his wife
should look.
"I agree that I need to buy something suitable to be
married in, but I am perfectly capable of making my
own choice and paying for whatever I need with my
own money. Think of how much medical care you
could donate to those children in need, instead of
wasting money on designer clothes for me," she urged
him.
"You have a valid point," he agreed. "But Italian
society, like any other society, has its rules and its
obligations. For you as my wife not to be dressed as
the other wives will cause questions to be asked—
which could raise doubts as to the true validity of our
marriage. That in turn could lead to a legal challenge
that the terms of my grandmother’s will are not being
met. Indeed, I wouldn’t put it past Caterina to do
everything she can to achieve just that. And, since the
whole purpose of this marriage is to meet those terms,
it is necessary that we both conform to society’s expectations.
If it will make you feel any better, I shall
undertake to donate an equal amount to charity as you
spend on clothes."
"that’s bribery," Jodie told him, but Lorenzo was
already walking away from her, leaving her no choice
but to follow him.
To her surprise the gallery opened out into a second,
even longer single-storey rectangular space, this
one housing more modern paintings and sculptures.
"Like my ancestors, I substitute my own lack of
artistic skill by taking an interest in and supporting
those who do have it," Lorenzo was explaining dryly.
But Jodie wasn’t fully listening to him. Instead her
attention had been caught by the large wall space in
the middle of the gallery, which was filled with what
seemed to be unsophisticated, childlike drawings.
"Ah, my most valued commissions," Lorenzo told
her quietly.
Jodie looked at him uncertainly. "They look like
children’s drawings."
"That is exactly what they are. These drawings
were all produced by children who have lost limbs—
sometimes but not always a dominant hand — as victims
of a variety of wars. These drawings were done
after they had been fitted with their new limbs, as part
of their ongoing therapy. The very special paintings
in the middle of the wall are painted with those new
limbs."
Jodie discovered that emotional tears had suddenly
rushed to fill her eyes. Blinking them away, she told
Lorenzo huskily, "No wonder you value them so
much."
He turned away. "I shall introduce you to Assunta,
who is my housekeeper here, and she will show you
over the rest of the apartment while I make some
telephone calls."
In other words, he was bored with her company
and wanted to be free of it. Well, that certainly did
not bother her, Jodie assured herself ten minutes later,
as she was handed over into the care of a shrewd-
eyed middle-aged woman who subjected her to open
scrutiny and then inclined her head. In excellent
English, she said calmly, "If you will come this way,
please…"
Half an hour later Jodie had seen every room in
the apartment, which covered not one but two floors
of the Palazzo and included an astonishingly luxuriant
roof garden.
It was plain that Lorenzo favoured modern design
and furnishings over antiques, but she had to admit
that the strong lines of the furniture complemented
the large rooms with their high ceilings.
Her bedroom was across the corridor from
Lorenzo’s, and had its own dressing room and bathroom.
To Jodie’s relief, Assunta unbent enough to
explain that she had worked in London for a time at
a restaurant owned by a cousin of her father, which
was where she had learned her English. Now a
widow, who prized her independence, she added that
working for Lorenzo had up until now suited her very
nicely.
"I shan’t be wanting to interfere in the way you
manage things," Jodie assured her, picking up her cue.
Indeed, she would not! She doubted that Lorenzo
would thank her if she were to be the cause of his
housekeeper handing in her notice.
"It is my cousin Theresa who is housekeeper at the
Duce’s villa near Sienna. It is a very good place for
bambini there, with much space and fresh air."
Another hint? Jodie wondered as she stood beneath
the welcome spray of the shower, mentally revising
their conversation. Well, she certainly wouldn’t be
providing Lorenzo with his bambini. The shower continued
to pound her skin with its needle-sharp spray
whilst Jodie stood perfectly still and let images of
small dark haired children stampede over her defences
and trample them into nothing.
There was a sharp rap on her bathroom door and
she heard Lorenzo calling out briskly, "It is time for
us to leave."
"I’m nearly ready," she fibbed, and then gave a
small gasp as he took her at her word and walked into
the bathroom.
Was it possible to be caught at any worse disadvantage
than naked and dripping wet? Jodie wondered,
pink-cheeked, as Lorenzo folded his arms and
leaned against the now closed door.
"That is nearly ready?" he demanded pithily.
"It won’t take me long to dry myself and get
dressed…" And it would take her even less time if he
wasn’t standing between her and the thick warm towels
on the towel rail on the other side of the bathroom.
Why didn’t he leave? Did he really expect her to walk
past him stark naked while he subjected her to more
of that steely scrutiny with which he was already
openly studying her legs? Out of habit she turned to
one side, trying to tuck her injured leg out of sight,
more anxious to conceal that from him than either her
breasts or the neat soft triangle of damp curls covering
her sex.
"Do you want to have a closer look at my leg?" she
demanded tartly. "I know the scars aren’t a pretty
sight, but Don’t worry — I can cover them up."
Lorenzo took his time about lifting his gaze from
her legs to her face, and when he eventually did so
her heart thumped heavily against her ribs.
"Perhaps I should have you painted like this," he
told her softly. "A fair-haired Northern water nymph,
with legs long enough to encourage a man to imagine
how it would feel to have them wrapped around him.
Or maybe spread on a silk-covered bed, with them
wantonly open, begging for the touch of your lover’s
lips against their tender flesh. There are sexual positions
that require… No! Do not look at me with that
hungry virgin look in your eyes," he told her sharply.
"Otherwise I might be tempted to satisfy that hunger
for you."
"You were the one who came in here," Jodie reminded
him. "I didn’t invite you."
"Liar. You invite me every time you look at me,
with those virginal half-glances that say how curious
you are to know what it is like to lie with a man."
"That is not true!" Jodie said hotly. "If I wanted to
have sex with a man, which I do not, then you are
the last man I would choose."
She realised immediately that she had gone too
far — Lorenzo was so arrogantly male that there was
no way he would allow her to get away with that kind
of challenge to his masculinity. But it was too late.
He was striding towards her, ignoring both her
shocked cry of protest and the effect her wet body
was having on his clothes as he hauled her out of the
shower and picked her up in his arms.
"Put me down," Jodi demanded, but Lorenzo wasn’t
listening to her. Instead he was carrying her through
her bedroom and towards the bed, where he put her
down against the pale green silk coverlet and held her
there.
He knelt over her and demanded softly, "So, what
is it you want to know most? How it feels to have a
man caress you here, like this?" Still holding her
shoulder with his left hand, he trailed the fingers of
his right hand down the whole length of her body to
her knee, and then slowly stroked up the inside of her
clenched thigh.
Helplessly, Jodie closed her eyes as her flesh absorbed
the intimacy of his touch and then reacted with
a series of sensual shudders that ricocheted relentlessly
through her.
"Ah, so you like that? And this?" His lips were
caressing the sensitive spot just behind her ear, causing
the ache deep inside her body to become a fiercely
urgent eager pulse.
Jodie moaned in outraged protest. He had no right
to be doing this to her.
But Lorenzo had obviously mistaken the cause of
her moan, because he murmured, "More curiosity?
Very well, then — you shall have your answer." His
hand swept up over her body to her breast, shaping it
and then rubbing the pad of his thumb over the erect
swelling of her nipple until all she could visualise
inside her head was his tongue curling round her nipple
and then lapping rhythmically at it.
Knowing her own desire had never been an issue
for her; it was having that desire not just satisfied but
aroused to the pitch it was being aroused to now that
had always been her problem. She had imagined she
might feel like this, but her imagination had fallen
way short of the reality, she acknowledged dizzily as
she locked her fingers in the thick darkness of
Lorenzo’s hair and urged his head down towards her
eager nipple. In the afternoon sunshine that filled the
room through the slats in the window blind, she could
see the telltale hardness of Lorenzo’s erection, and
her senses twisted with sweet triumph at the sight of
his arousal.
"Still curious?" Lorenzo’s tongue stroked the sensitive
flesh of her nipple and her body arched up towards
him for more. His hand dipped between her
legs, his palm warm against the eager swelling of her
mound. Instinctively Jodie held her breath, willing
him to part the closed lips of her sex and find the wet
heat waiting so urgently for him. Reality, reason, responsibility
were forgotten. She was like someone
possessed by a sudden fever — taken over by it so that
it overruled every other control system within her.
The knowing fingers answered her silent plea, parting
the soft pads of flesh and then stroking her with intimately
long, slow strokes that made her cry out
whilst her body jerked in frantic response.
"Now you see what your curiosity has brought you
to," she heard Lorenzo saying thickly. But he wasn’t
making any attempt to stop giving her the pleasure
his touch was inciting. Instead his touch became
stronger and deeper, until — suddenly and shockingly—
the ache inside her became a fierce convulsion
that gripped her and then exploded into an intense
orgasm.
Jodie lay stiffly on the bed, refusing to look at
Lorenzo. She felt scorched by the humiliation of what
had happened, and too close to tears to risk allowing
herself to speak. Not because she had had an orgasm
— it wasn’t her first, after all — but because of
the way she had had it. And because of the man who
had called it up out of her body so effortlessly.
"You shouldn’t have done that," she finally managed
to say.
"No," Lorenzo agreed heavily. "I should not."
Jodie closed her eyes. She could feel him withdrawing
from her as he stood up.
"I’ll go and ring the salon and tell them we shall
be later than arranged."
Why had she let that happen? Why hadn’t she
stopped him straight away? Her post-orgasm lethargy
clung heavily to her body as she showered again and
dressed as quickly as she could, promising herself that
it was never, ever going to happen again. Lorenzo
was a man — and an Italian — he was probably driven
by machismo and all those other things that gave such
men their powerful sexuality. And of course her unwitting
challenge had meant that he had had to make
his point to her. Other than that she had no idea why
he had done what he had — only that he must not be
allowed to do so again.
Lorenzo stood in his study and looked broodingly
out of the window. He had never been the kind of
man who allowed himself to be driven or ridden by
the needs of his body, so why, why had he allowed
himself to give in to them now? She was just another
woman, that was all, and not even an obviously sexually
available woman.
Not sexually available, no, but sexually responsive…
Lorenzo closed his eyes and immediately saw
Jodie as he had seen her minutes before, lying naked
on the bed, giving herself up to her pleasure…the
pleasure he had given her. Immediately his body, still
half tumescent from its earlier unsatisfied arousal,
stiffened into a painfully hard erection. He couldn’t
possibly want her as badly as that. Wanting the
woman — the virgin — he had chosen to marry for
purely practical reasons was a complication he did not
need in his life right now.
How had he managed to find a woman who was
still a virgin — a hungry sexually curious virgin — who
looked at him with a question in her eyes as old as
Eve? But he couldn’t afford the time it would take to
find someone to replace her now. At the moment
Caterina was still shocked enough for him to gain the
upper hand in the war between them, but once she
had time to recover from that shock she would be
back to her plots and the subtle, mind-poisoning tricks
at which she excelled. And besides, by now the whole
of Florence probably knew the identity of his bride-
to-be.
What did one wear to buy clothes sold in a designer
showroom? Jodie wondered ruefully. Probably not
what she was wearing — which was her spare pair of
clean jeans and a clean top — but since she had
brought only the bare necessities to Italy with her,
they would have to do.
Lorenzo was waiting for her when she found her
way back to the main salon. As soon as she walked
into the room he announced grimly, as he ushered her
towards the main door, "What happened earlier in
your room must not be allowed to happen again."
He was looking at her, speaking to her — lecturing
her, almost! — as though it had been her fault, Jodie
recognised indignantly as they stepped into the lift.
"It certainly mustn’t," she agreed fiercely. "But I
wasn’t the one who instigated it."
"Maybe not. But you didn’t stop me, did you?" The
lift had reached the ground floor.
"Why do men always blame women when it is they
who—?" Jodie began heatedly, only to be stopped by
Lorenzo.
"It was Eve who offered Adam the apple," he reminded
her flatly, as he held open the lift door for
her.
"Man"s eternal get-out," Jodie seethed. "The
woman tempted me…"
"So you admit that you did?" Lorenzo demanded as
he guided her towards the street exit.
"I admit no such thing," Jodie retorted angrily,
blinking in the fierce sunlight.
"It will take less time if we walk to Via
Tornabuoni," Lorenzo informed her as he took hold
of her arm and nodded in the direction they were to
walk, ignoring her fury. "It is this way. We will cut
through this alleyway here, which brings us out into
this square."
Jodie forgot her annoyance and caught her breath
in awed delight at her surroundings. She longed to be
able to take her time and absorb everything around
her, but Lorenzo was hurrying her through the square
and down another narrow street, where an ancient
church crouched between the other buildings, its
doors open in welcome.
Via Tornabuoni turned out to be a wide street filled
with imposing buildings and even more imposing
shops — so much so that Jodie found herself hanging
back a little when they reached one store. A uniformed
doorman opened the door for them and
Lorenzo ushered her inside. Almost immediately a
soigne.e, pencil-thin, immaculately groomed young
woman who looked more like a model than a sales
assistant glided towards them, her attention focused
on Lorenzo rather than Jodie. Of course Jodie
couldn’t understand what Lorenzo was saying to her,
but there was no mistaking its impact. They were ushered
towards the back of the store and into an enclosed
private area, where Ms Soigne.e disappeared
and was replaced by a slightly older, even more
dauntingly stunning woman, who quickly introduced
herself as the direttrice of the store.
"I received your message and conveyed it to the
maestro," she informed them reverently in English.
"The designer has himself selected several gowns for
your consideration, and they have been couriered here
from Milano."
They were being left in no doubt as to the great
honour being bestowed on them, Jodie reflected, but
she had to admit that it was equally obvious that the
direttrice was very impressed by Lorenzo.
She turned to look anxiously at Jodie and then exhaled
slightly. "Bene, your fiance.e is not tall, it is true,
but she has the right slenderness for our clothes. If
you will come with me…"
"I am afraid that I have several business appointments
I must keep," Lorenzo apologised. "But I know
I can leave my fiance.e safely in your hands. I shall
return for her in two hours."
The direttrice looked disappointed, but resigned,
whilst Jodie watched Lorenzo leave and told herself
that it was ridiculous for her to feel somehow abandoned.
She was taken to a private room, where she perched
on a small gilt chair as label-clad acolytes reverently
presented her with a selection of wedding gowns from
what she understood from the direttrice was the very
latest collection.
Jodie was no designer label junkie, but these were
very special, and she was forced to admit that she
was in danger of losing her heart to them all. But in
the end there could only be one choice, and she made
it, rebelliously selecting a gown that was in fact a
tightly fitting corset bodice with an elegantly draped
skirt that fitted it so perfectly it looked as though it
were actually a dress and not two pieces.
The direttrice beamed her approval.
"Yes, that is the one I would have chosen for you.
It is very simple, but very elegant, very regal — truly
a wedding gown for a princess. We have guessed your
size from the Duce’s description of you. So many
times a man tells us one thing and we discover…"
She gave a small resigned shrug. "But fortunately the
Duce was correct."
Half an hour later, Jodie faced her own reflection
in the mirror. A young woman who was almost a
stranger to her looked back. Jodie blinked and felt her
eyes blur with emotional tears. If only her parents,
her mother, could have seen her dressed like this. The
gown made her look taller, and emphasised her tiny
waist. A fitted lace jacket with three-quarter sleeves
concealed any bare flesh. The train was so long and
so heavy that Jodie worried that she wouldn’t be able
to manage it.
"It is perfect for you," the direttrice sighed ecstatically.
"The maestro will be so pleased. Now, for the
other things you will need…"
It was another hour before the direttrice finally declared
herself satisfied, by which time Jodie had been
provided with a deliciously curvy suit that could be
dressed up for evening or worn more simply during
the daytime, along with a selection of tops to go with
it, two pairs of impossibly flatteringly cut trousers, a
summer-weight coat with a matching skirt, two pretty
silky dresses, plus shoes and handbags, and what
seemed like an enormous amount of "everyday
things", as the direttrice had called them, from the
designer"s more casual jeans-based range. The only
way she could assuage her guilt over such blatant
consumerism would be to insist that Lorenzo made
good his promise to make a charity donation equivalent
to the cost of her new clothes, Jodie reflected.
She was just beginning to get tired, and felt relieved
when the door to the private room opened and
Lorenzo walked in.
"You have everything you need?" he asked her.
Jodie nodded her head.
Thanking the direttrice, who promised that those
items that were in need of small alterations would be
delivered to the apartment by the following afternoon,
Lorenzo ushered her back out onto the now dark
street.
"Are you hungry?" he asked.
"Very," Jodie admitted.
"There is a restaurant a short distance from here
where they serve simple but excellent local food."
The restaurant was down a narrow street, its tables
set out on the pavement, and they had to edge their
way to one of the few tables that was empty.
"If you would like me to recommend something for
you?" Lorenzo offered once they were seated and the
waiter had brought menus.
"Yes, please — but nothing too heavy," Jodie begged
him, "otherwise I won’t be able to sleep."
"Very well, then. Perhaps not the affettati misti to
start with, which is a traditional selection of cold
meats, but instead pinzimonio, which is fresh vegetables
with olive oil?"
"That sounds perfect," Jodie agreed.
"Then, if it will not be too heavy for you, you
should try the lasagne al forno — it is a speciality of
Florence and like no other lasagne you will ever have
tasted," he assured her.
Smiling, Jodie nodded her head. "What are you going
to have?" she asked him.
"I shall start with the affettati misti and then I think
calamari in zimino — stewed squid," he explained, and
Jodie pulled a face.
All around them other diners were talking and
laughing, whole families eating together, Jodie noticed
slightly enviously. Her only family were her
cousin David and his wife Andrea, and though she
and David had always got on well, there was a nine-
year gap between them. David had already been married
when her parents had been killed, and his parents—
her father"s brother and his wife — had returned
to her aunt"s home country of Canada.
"Tomorrow morning I have arranged for us to visit
my bank," Lorenzo was telling her. "There are some
papers there it is necessary for you to sign. I have
opened a bank account for you, and the family betrothal
ring is in the bank"s vaults, along with certain
other pieces of jewellery. The ring will have to be
cleaned, and possibly resized — although, like you, my
mother had very slender fingers."
Their first course had arrived, but Jodie discovered
that she had lost her appetite a little.
"what’s wrong?" Lorenzo asked her.
"I Don’t feel happy about the idea of wearing a
valuable piece of jewellery," she told him truthfully.
"Especially not some kind of family heirloom. What
if I were to lose it?"
"I am the head of my family and you are to be my
bride. It will be expected that you will wear the family
betrothal ring," Lorenzo told her firmly.
"couldn’t you have a copy made or something?"
Jodie persisted.
Lorenzo started to frown. "If it concerns you so
much, then I shall think about it. Now, eat your dinner—
otherwise Carlo will think that you do not like
his food, and to a Florentine that is a very great insult."
The next morning Lorenzo allowed Jodie a little more
time to gaze in awe at her surroundings as they
walked through the city to his bank. She was wearing
some of her new clothes — an outfit she had privately
labelled Roman Holiday, because it comprised a pair
of linen Capri pants in a mixture of creams and tans
that sat low on her hips, teamed with a plain tan top.
Woven wedges with tan ties and a quirky little bag
completed the outfit, to which Jodie had been forced
by the bright morning sunshine to add her own sunglasses.
Although she was too engrossed in her surroundings
to be aware of the admiring male glances she
was collecting, Lorenzo most certainly wasn’t.
Remembered bitterness darkened his eyes. Women
were too vulnerable to the flattery of other men and
their own egos, as he already knew. But it didn’t matter
to him how many other men found Jodie desirable,
did it? He had no feelings for her, and nor was he
going to allow himself to develop any.
"This way."
Lorenzo’s curt instruction reminded Jodie of how
much she disliked and resented his arrogance. She felt
nothing but pity for the poor woman who did eventually
become his "real" wife, she decided.
Nowadays Florence might be famous for its works
of art, but there had been a time when its fame had
rested on the reputation of its bankers — of whom the
Medici family had been members, Jodie remembered
as they stepped into the cool, cathedral-like sombreness
of Lorenzo’s bank.
The formalities appertaining to the opening of a
bank account for her were soon dealt with, allowing
them to be taken down a marble stairway to an impressive
pillared and gilded room patrolled by two
armed guards. They were given a key and escorted to
one of several small private rooms, furnished with a
table and several chairs. Here they had to wait for the
vault manager and one of the armed guards to return
with a locked safety deposit box, which was put on
the desk in front of Lorenzo. He then produced a key
and inserted it into the lock. Only then did the manager
and the guard leave them to lock themselves in
the small room.
Only the hum of the air-conditioning broke the silence
as Lorenzo turned the key. She was, Jodie discovered,
actually holding her breath.
Lorenzo lifted the lid of the box. Quickly Jodie
looked away. She had very mixed feelings about old
and priceless jewellery. For one thing, it always
seemed to possess a dark and tainted history — if not
because of the way it had been mined, then often
because of the acts of cruelty and greed of those people
who had wanted to possess it. No wonder priceless
stones were so often said to be cursed.
Lorenzo looked down into the box. The last time
it had been opened had been following the death of
his mother. He had a savage impulse to slam the lid
shut, to take Jodie by the hand and to go out into the
bright warmth of the sunshine. But he could not do
that. He was a Montesavro, and the head of his family,
and besides, what ghosts — if there were such
things — could possibly lurk here, in this piece of
metal? His fingers closed round the familiar faded
velvet box he remembered from his childhood.
"Here it is," he told Jodie brusquely, closing the
safety deposit box and relocking it before opening the
ring box.
"There is a legend that when the woman who wears
this ring is pure the stone glows with a particular clarity.
My mother always claimed that it was the stone
itself that was clouded," he added cynically, as Jodie
stared in disbelief at the huge rectangular emerald surrounded
by white flashing diamonds.
"I can’t possibly wear that," she protested. "I’d be
terrified of losing it. I wouldn’t feel safe unless I had
an armed guard with me. It must be worth…" She
shook her head, and Lorenzo frowned, recognising
not awed excitement in her voice at the thought of
the ring"s value but instead shocked distaste. A
woman who felt distaste rather than excitement at the
thought of wearing expensive jewellery? Such a
woman was so far removed from his own experience
that he hadn’t imagined one might exist.
"let’s see if it fits before we start arguing about
whether or not you will wear it," he told her coolly.
Jodie could feel her hand starting to shake when
Lorenzo gripped her wrist and then slid the ring down
onto her ring finger. The very weight of it felt uncomfortable.
Jodie frowned, and immediately went to
tug it off.
"No, leave it!"
The peremptory bite of Lorenzo’s voice shocked
her into stillness.
Lorenzo’s frown deepened as he studied the ring,
lifting her hand so that he could inspect it more
closely.
"what’s wrong?" she asked him uncertainly.
"Look into it and tell me what you can see,"
Lorenzo instructed her.
Reluctantly Jodie did so. "I can’t see anything," she
told him, confused.
And neither could he, Lorenzo acknowledged. The
ring was totally free of the vague cloudiness which
he remembered had so dissatisfied his mother. A freak
of chance? A difference in chemical reactions between
one woman"s skin and another"s? There had to
be a logical reason for the clarity of the emerald when
Jodie wore it.
Oblivious to the conflicting emotions Lorenzo was
trying to repress, Jodie tugged off the ring and handed
it back to him.
"I meant what I said. I’m not wearing it," she told
him hardily.
"We shall see. Certainly you will have to wear it
on Sunday, when we attend church for the first reading
of our banns," Lorenzo informed her.
She knew someone who would be envious of her
supposed betrothal ring, Jodie thought half an hour
later, after they had left the bank. And that was
Louise. Jodie could well imagine her reaction were
she to turn up at John’s wedding wearing it!
Automatically, to cheer herself up, she tried to conjure
up some satisfying images of her moment of triumph—
but somehow the sense of elation she wanted
just wasn’t there. But that was the only reason she
was putting herself through this whole palaver, allowing
herself to be bullied and hectored…and made love
to…by Lorenzo. wasn’t it?
CHAPTER NINE
THERE could be far, far worse ways in which to spend
the next twelve months than exploring this wonderful
city, Jodie thought happily as she took her reluctant
leave of the Medici Palace and headed for the Piazza
Signoria.
She had the day to herself, Lorenzo having announced
earlier that he had some business to attend
to and would be gone until after lunch. Not that she
minded — not one little bit. It was just the sight of so
many couples strolling hand in hand that was making
her aware of not having his imperious, imposing presence
at her side, and nothing at all personal. How
could it be? She was determined not to let down her
emotional guard with any man ever again, and even
if she hadn’t been she would have to be a complete
fool to fall in love with a man like Lorenzo.
No, it was just the warmth of the summer sun and
the effect of Florence itself on her emotions that was
giving her that inner feeling of sadness. Of course if
Lorenzo had been with her he would have been able
to tell her much more about the city than any guidebook.
But determinedly she reminded herself firmly
of how the tension that had somehow crept into even
their most mundane conversational exchanges made
her feel on edge — as though somehow she was on a
constant adrenalin surge, her body waiting… For
what? For him to touch her again? Her thoughts were
drifting down dangerous pathways, she warned
herself.
She tried to focus on the square and its famous
sculptures, pausing to check the guidebook she had
bought earlier. While she was living here she could
even try to learn Italian and turn her year of marriage
into a means of adding to her future CV. That would
give her something far better to occupy her thoughts
than these dangerous sensual longings that had begun
to creep up on her so disturbingly. Of course Lorenzo
would be a good lover, she told herself scathingly.
She didn’t need to experience his lovemaking at first
hand to know that!
The city was busy with other tourists, and by the
time she had walked as far as the Uffizi, having decided
to leave exploring the Palazzo Vecchio for another
occasion, she was beginning to feel both tired
and thirsty. There was a cafe.-bar in the square near
to the apartment, she remembered, and it would not
take her long to walk there.
When she got there, the small square was so busy
that at first she thought she wouldn’t be able to get a
table. But finally she found one, and sat down with a
small sigh of relief.
Half an hour later, she was just finishing her second
cup of coffee when a handsome young Italian approached
her table.
"Scusi, signorina," he apologised, giving her a
boldly flattering smile. "May I share your table? Only
the cafe. is full and…"
He was very good-looking, and quite obviously an
expert at recognising solitary female tourists, Jodie
reflected in rueful amusement as she looked back
at him.
From the other side of the square Lorenzo watched
the age-old tableau being played out in front of him.
Young male Florentines traditionally spent the summer
months flirting with gullible female tourists — so
much so, in fact, that it was an accepted rite of passage
that moved from the discreet pick-up, via walks
through the city, to the speedy conclusion of sex in
the tourist"s hotel and another notch in her partner"s
belt. And of course Jodie, with her woman"s body so
eager to make up for her lost teenage years, even if
she was not prepared to acknowledge it, would no
doubt fall into this particular young Florentine"s
hands like a ripe peach.
Lorenzo could already see how openly responsive
she was to her admirer, tilting her head back to look
up at him, no doubt smiling at him… How often had
he seen his mother give that same smile to her lover
when as a young boy she had used him to camouflage
those early meetings. When he had also smiled guilelessly
at the man with whom she’d planned to betray
his father. Well, Jodie was not going to get the opportunity
to follow his mother"s example, no matter
how clinically businesslike their own marriage was to
be. Purposefully he started to make his way toward
the cafe..
"Please do have the table," Jodie told the waiting
young man gently. "I was just about to leave anyway."
"No — why Don’t you stay and allow me to buy you
another cup of coffee?" he suggested, leaning towards
her, his hand reaching to her arm.
Immediately Jodie stood up and stepped back from
him, shaking her head as she refused politely. "No,
thank you." She could see the confusion and disbelief
in his eyes and had to struggle not to laugh. He was
very good-looking, and no doubt used to having his
overtures met with far more acceptances than refusals.
Lorenzo came to an abrupt halt as he saw the way
Jodie got up from the table and then shook her head.
Her body language made her feelings quite plain, and
he could see from the sag of the young man"s shoulders
that he was as aware as Lorenzo that he had been
turned down.
Jodie took her bill to the cash desk and, having paid
it, started to head back towards Lorenzo’s apartment.
Lorenzo turned the small incident over inside his
head, frowning as he did so. He tried to visualise either
his mother or Caterina doing what Jodie had just
done in the same situation, knowing that neither of
them would have walked away as she had. Could
Jodie be different from them? Could she be that rare
woman — at least in his experience — who was not
driven by ego and vanity, who did not need a constant
influx of new and admiring male attention?
As he walked past the cafe. his young fellow citizen
was already eyeing up another tourist, who, to judge
from the way she was smiling back at him, was rather
more appreciative of his endeavours than Jodie had
been.
It had become impossible for her to walk into the
apartment without having to go and stand in front of
Lorenzo’s "children of courage" gallery, Jodie knew,
and each time she did she saw something new in the
artwork that she hadn’t seen before. On a low table
beneath the drawings there was an expensive leather-
bound album in which Lorenzo had placed details of
every child whose work hung in the gallery. She was
studying it when Lorenzo walked in.
"Tired of sightseeing?" he asked her.
"My feet are," Jodie admitted ruefully. "So I
thought I’d come back and do some reading instead.
I bought lots of books about Florence while I was
out. Some of them have descriptions in several different
languages, but I was thinking, while I’m here,
I’d like to try to learn Italian."
"Since we shall be moving between Florence and
the Castillo, it might not be wise for you to enrol in
a formal language school, if that is what you were
thinking. But it would certainly be possible to hire a
private tutor if you wish," Lorenzo offered, adding,
"Have you had lunch yet?"
Jodie shook her head. "No. I stopped for a cup of
coffee at the cafe. in the square." She paused and wrinkled
her nose.
"You didn’t enjoy it?"
"The coffee was fine, but I got hit on by one of
those professional flirty types. I suppose that’s one of
the downsides of being alone."
"Some women enjoy the attention."
Jodie closed the album and stood up. "Well, I didn’t."
Lorenzo could see that she meant what she was
saying.
"Why Don’t I ask Assunta to make us some lunch
and bring it up to the roof garden? You can read your
guidebooks to me if you wish — in Italian."
Jodie was staring at him in astonishment, and
Lorenzo had to admit he was just as startled by his
own suggestion. He had intended to spend the afternoon
working, not playing at being a language tutor.
She really, really did not want to do this, Jodie realised,
hesitating in front of the entrance to the church
where their banns were to be read for the first time
this morning.
As though he sensed her reluctance, Lorenzo
stepped forward and took hold of her arm, so that she
had no option other than to step forward with him.
She had had to guess at what to wear, opting in the
end for a plain black linen skirt and a short-sleeved
chocolate-brown tee-shirt, over which she had draped
one of the beautiful multicoloured silk squares she
had found tucked away with her new clothes as a
small gift from the store, thinking that if necessary
she could adjust the square and cover her head.
She had been glad she had opted for dark colours
when she had seen Lorenzo, wearing a formal dark
suit complete with a crisp white shirt and a tie. Now,
unable to stop herself looking slightly anxiously towards
him, she stepped with him into a world that
was totally unfamiliar to her. She recognised how forbidding
and arrogant he looked. Take away the suit
and clothe him in the costume of a Medici warlord,
and he could have been a Renaissance soldier prince,
she decided with a small shudder.
The huge emerald on her ring finger flashed green
fire in the sunlight, and someone in the small congregation
filing in through the narrow door gasped — although
whether in awe or shock, Jodie didn’t know.
Although no one spoke, it was obvious from the looks
that were exchanged that the other worshippers knew
Lorenzo, and Jodie could feel the sharp weight of
their speculation resting almost as heavily on her as
the betrothal ring.
People entered the dark interior of the church and
slipped into pews, kneeling immediately in prayer,
and Jodie turned towards the nearest pew herself, only
to find that Lorenzo was shaking his head and walking
past. Their footsteps echoed on the cold stone
floor, the stones themselves worn and slippery with
use. Ahead of them at the altar the priest kneeled,
head bowed in prayer, whilst smoke from the incense
drifted lazily upwards in the beam of light coming in
through the narrow stained glass windows.
They had reached the last pew, and Jodie’s eyes
widened a little when she recognised Lorenzo’s family
crest carved into the wood. A little uncomfortably
she bowed her own head in prayer. A prayer for her
parents, and for David and Andrea, for her friends
and for all those in need, and then to her own astonishment
she found herself suddenly praying fiercely
that Lorenzo might find some way of making peace
with his own past.
Even though she knew why they were here in the
church, she was still not prepared for the effect hearing
their banns read had on her — or the emotional
poignancy and turmoil she felt. Unconnected images
blurred her vision — a sunny day, and her parents
laughing down at her as they walked together; the
shock of learning of their deaths; her aunt and uncle"s
unhappy faces as they struggled to explain to her what
had happened, and that she herself might still lose her
leg; the first time she stood up properly after the accident;
the first time John had asked her out, standing
awkwardly beside her desk in the small office where
she had worked for his father; the first time he had
kissed her, and the let-down feeling of disappointment
she had had because she didn’t feel more excited.
The small ceremony they had just been part of
should surely be about more than fulfilling the demands
of someone"s pride, or gaining material pos-
sessions, and she should now be standing here outside
the church feeling uplifted by the promise of future
shared love — instead of which she actually felt
slightly guilty and shabby.
The priest was heading towards them, smiling
warmly as he congratulated them, his warmth increasing
Jodie’s discomfort. He was tall and unexpectedly
vigorously male, with an intent gaze.
"If there are any matters you feel you wish to discuss
with me, my child, I am at your disposal," he
told Jodie gently, in excellent English.
"My grandmother’s will has meant that we have
had to change our plans to marry in England and
bring our wedding forward," Lorenzo informed him,
slightly coolly. "And we are grateful to you for your
co-operation."
The priest inclined his head gravely, and Lorenzo
placed his hand in the middle of Jodie’s back in what
she bemusedly recognised as a classic male possessive
gesture, firmly ushering her away. She could feel
the warmth of his hand through her top, and the wilful
thought crept into her mind, like the incense smoke
rising to the light, that had they truly been in love she
might have turned to look up at him and smile at him,
and his hand might have stroked her flesh in mute
promise as he returned her smile. But they were not
in love, and she had absolutely no wish for them to
be in love!
"I wish we didn’t have to get married in church,"
she told him uncomfortably as they made their way
back to the Palazzo. "It made me feel so guilty when
Father Ignatius prayed for us and for our marriage,
knowing that it isn’t going to be a real marriage."
"A real marriage as in a sexual marriage, I assume
you mean?"
"No." Jodie denied it immediately, but she could
see from his expression that he didn’t believe her.
"Real marriage is about much more than just sex," she
persisted.
"But sex is a part of it — and you, as we both know,
are dangerously curious to know the reality of a man"s
possession."
"You keep saying that, but it isn’t true!"
"Your lips say one thing," Lorenzo told her softly,
"but your eyes say another."
She might be a virgin, but she could still recognise
the growing sexual tension between them for what it
was, Jodie decided shakily.
"I need to return to the Castillo for a few days,"
Lorenzo added abruptly. "It would be easier to leave
you here in Florence, but, since we are so newly betrothed,
it would be better if you were to accompany
me. When is your next fitting for the wedding dress?"
"On Thursday."
"Bene, we shall be back by then."
Jodie looked at the emerald ring she had just removed
and replaced in its box, prior to getting ready for bed.
The apartment was well set up with burglar alarms,
she knew that, but even so she didn’t feel happy about
the thought of the ring being in her room overnight,
and would far rather it were in Lorenzo’s keeping.
Closing the box, she picked it up and hurried out
of her own room and across the corridor, hesitating
briefly before she knocked on Lorenzo’s bedroom
door.
His brisk "Si?" had her opening the door and step
ping into the room, explaining, "I’ve brought you the
ring. I wanted to…" Her voice trailed away as her
gaze slid helplessly over the smooth golden flesh of
his torso, where it was revealed by the unbuttoned
shirt he was removing.
"You wanted to what?" he prompted silkily, walking
past her to close the door before shrugging off his
shirt completely. The gold strap of his watch gleamed
subtly in the lamplight, the dark vee of his body hair
a silky mesh of male sexuality that riveted and
trapped her spellbound gaze.
Her mouth had gone dry. She touched her tongue-
tip to her lips, unable to focus properly on answering
him, her senses too overwhelmed by the sight of him.
He was so arrogantly, so devastatingly, so magnificently
male.
If just the sight of those broad shoulders and that
solidly muscled chest could make her feel like this,
what would it do to her to see him fully naked? She
drew a deep, juddering breath of silent recognition at
the ache uncoiling inside her.
"The ring," she managed to tell him unsteadily,
stretching out the hand in which she was holding the
small box. "I want you to have it."
"Do you? Or do you mean you want me to have
you, to satisfy that curiosity of yours and to satisfy
you along with it?"
Beneath her angry outrage a shiver of something
sensual and excited stroked her senses. Was he right?
Was that secretly why she had come to his room?
Because she had wanted…hoped…?
Lorenzo watched as her expression reflected her
feelings. Somehow she was burrowing deeper and
deeper into his thoughts, causing him to question
things — beliefs — he did not want to question. He
might be better at concealing his desire than she was,
but that didn’t mean he was any better at controlling
it, he knew.
"I didn’t come here for that reason at all," Jodie
protested belatedly. "I just didn’t want to be responsible
for looking after the ring." Could he hear in her
voice, as she could, her own uncertainty about her
subconscious motivation?
"As you Don’t want to be responsible for "looking
after" your own virginity any more?" Lorenzo suggested
harshly. "You are overwhelmed by your virginal
curiosity — admit it! It eats at you, and aches
deep inside you, keeping you awake at night, wondering…
wanting…"
"No," Jodie breathed, but she knew she might just
as well have been saying yes. "I Don’t want you," she
said fiercely, trying to cling on to some kind of reality.
"Not me," Lorenzo agreed. "But you do want what
I can give you — the knowledge your time in hospital
has denied you. You want to know what it feels like
to know a man"s body, to know a man"s possession.
You can deny it with these," he told her mockingly,
reaching out and rubbing the pad of his thumb against
her parted lips, "as much as you wish, but I could take
them now with my own and they would tell me something
very different."
"No," Jodie repeated, but she was looking helplessly
up into his eyes, just standing there without
moving as he came to her and slowly slid his hands
up over her arms, from her wrists to her shoulders,
and she trembled almost violently with sensual pleasure
and anticipation. He was drawing her closer, so
close that the hot, primitive male scent of him engulfed
her. She put her lips to the bare flesh of his
collarbone with a small moan, and then pressed eager
open-mouthed kisses the length of his throat, greedily
tasting his flesh before running her tongue-tip over
his Adam"s apple whilst her fingers dug into the hard
muscles of his shoulders and she strained against him.
Was this what happened when a woman was a virgin?
Lorenzo wondered, as he struggled to control his
sudden savage longing to feel her mouth on every part
of him. This wild, wanton outpouring of need — not
for male possession, but for the right to take her own
pleasure in whatever way she wished? And why
should he stop her? Why should he not let her take
her pleasure where she wished and in whatever way
she wished?
He looked down at her, to where he could see outlined
by her strappy top the stiff thrust of her nipples,
and his male instincts surged in feral need. He cupped
her face and took her mouth with his own, driving
into it with the slow rhythmic thrust of his tongue as
he tugged down her top with his free hand until her
breasts spilled over the fabric, creamily fleshed, with
warm brown nipples already swollen hard with desire.
Jodie didn’t even hear herself moan with hot
delight at the feel of Lorenzo’s naked flesh against
her own. She was lost in her own arousal. His silky
dark body hair sensitised her already eager nipples
while the stroke of his tongue in the hollow behind
her ear brought her arching compulsively into him,
into him and against him, grinding her hips against
his body in a frenzy of eager longing.
Jodie could see their twinned images in the bedroom
mirrors, and she watched passion-bound as
Lorenzo cupped her breast and readied the dark peak
of her nipple for the downward descent of his head
and the deliberately erotic caress of his tongue.
This time as she arched her body up to his, willingly
sacrificing it to her growing pleasure, Jodie did
hear herself cry out in female longing. But the sound
of her own desire only increased the fevered beat of
her blood as it surged through her veins, heating her
belly and spreading through it an ache that weakened
her muscles and softened her flesh into warm, wet
compliance.
When Lorenzo picked her up bodily, she wrapped
her arms around him and gasped in pleasure to feel
him suckling on the taut peak of her nipple whilst he
tugged off the rest of her clothes.
By the time he placed her on the bed they were
both naked, and he was leaning over her whilst he
trailed slow kisses over her openly eager body. Jodie
could see how the thick strength of his erection rose
stiffly toward his belly, and she yearned to reach out
and touch it.
The sensation of Lorenzo circling her navel with
his tongue-tip as his hand stroked slowly up the inside
of her thigh was melting away whatever desire she
might have had to conjure up some kind of resistance.
Her rapt gaze was fixed unashamedly and avidly on
his erection.
Lorenzo lifted his head to watch her as she reached
out half hesitantly and took him in her hand, her eyes
widening as she absorbed the texture and heat. A soft
slow burn of excited colour warmed her skin when
she registered the pulse that flooded his darkly engorged
thickness. She stroked him with fervent female
appreciation and approval, and Lorenzo closed
his eyes and exhaled, unable to withstand his body"s
longing to enjoy her wondering exploration.
How powerful it made her feel to touch Lorenzo
like this, and how eternally female, in a way that
somehow connected her with the whole of her sex
from the dawn of time. It was woman who aroused
this maleness in a man, woman who controlled and
commanded it, drawing from it her own pleasure as
well as allowing man to take his. Her fingers explored
and stroked, and her lips parted and her breath caught
on a small whisper of soft wanton pleasure as she felt
the response Lorenzo couldn’t quite control. He felt
so rigid, and yet at the same time so malleable. Silky
desire flushed her, tempted her to bend her head
and…
"No!"
The harshness of Lorenzo’s refusal sent a shock
through her. Confusion and disappointment darkened
her gaze as it met his, and then returned to cling to
his now openly pulsing stiffness.
If he let her place her lips against him now, he
wouldn’t be able to control himself, Lorenzo knew.
She had already aroused him well beyond his own
personal safety limit. If he let her caress him so intimately,
he wouldn’t be able to stop himself from
taking her.
"Why not?" Jodie protested.
"We can’t have full sex," he answered her curtly.
With her own arousal an unsatisfied ache that physically
hurt, Jodie persisted doggedly, "Why not?"
"I Don’t have any condoms, and there’s no way I
intend to fall into the trap of fathering a child I Don’t
want and which ultimately I would have to pay for,"
he told her harshly.
"wouldn’t it have been better to have thought of
that earlier?" Jodie asked him pointedly as she moved
away from him and got off the bed, retrieving her
clothes and redressing with clumsy haste.
No way was she going to let him guess how much
his rejection of her reminded her of John’s, or how
much it and he had hurt her. And she certainly didn’t
want him to know how shamingly and how very, very
much she was aching deep inside herself for what he
was not going to give her.
How foolish she had been to think that she was in
control of his desire. In this relationship she wasn’t
in control of anything, she decided bitterly, as she
almost ran for the door, desperate for the sanctuary
of her own bedroom.
CHAPTER TEN
JODIE tensed as she heard the sound she had been
lying awake waiting for. The now familiar click of
Lorenzo’s bedroom door being opened very quietly,
and then closed again equally secretively.
In two days" time they would be getting married,
but on no less than four occasions now Jodie had been
aware of Lorenzo leaving his bedroom late at night
and not returning to it for at least an hour. And
Caterina was still living at the Castillo, in Lorenzo’s
late grandmother’s rooms. If Caterina had made good
her threat to get Lorenzo back into her bed, then
surely she had a right to know about it? Even though
she was only going to be a temporary wife.
Getting out of bed, Jodie pulled on her robe and
slipped her feet into a pair of soft-soled shoes. She
was determined to confront Lorenzo with her suspicions.
Being a business arrangement wife was one
thing, but being the unwanted wife of a man who had
a mistress was very definitely another. And the kind
of humiliating situation she had no intention of allowing
Lorenzo to put her in.
She hurried along the landing to the top of the
stairs, and as she looked anxiously down them she
saw Lorenzo’s shadow moving swiftly along the hallway
below. Determinedly she hurried after him, wondering
why he had not simply used the upper corridor
that led to Caterina’s apartments.
Several narrow passageways led off the hallway
which linked the old part of the Castillo to this newer
wing, which had been added in the seventeenth century.
Which passage had Lorenzo taken? There was
a light burning on the stairs that led down to a lower
level. Exhaling nervously, Jodie turned down them.
The stairs were directly under Caterina’s apartment,
so perhaps—
She gave a small shocked scream as suddenly, out
of the shadows, a hand curled round her wrist.
"What the hell do you think You’re doing?"
"Lorenzo!"
He must have realised that she was following him
and waited to trap her.
"I wanted to know where you were going. This is
the fourth time I’ve heard you leave your room late
at night," she told him boldly, lifting her chin.
"You were spying on me?"
The narrow-eyed look he was giving her was making
her feel acutely uncomfortable, but she wasn’t
going to let him see that.
"If I’m going to marry you then I have a right to
know if You’re having sex with Caterina."
"What?"
"I won’t marry you if you are," Jodie told him
fiercely. "And I mean that."
"You mean You’re snooping around following me
because you thought you were going to find me in
Caterina’s bed?"
Put that way, he made it sound as though her behaviour
was verging on the bunny-boiling, Jodie realised
guiltily. How could she tell him that his rejection
of her, so closely mirroring John’s lack of sexual interest
in her, had not only heightened her own insecurities
but had also led to her wondering if, like
John, Lorenzo was actually finding sexual satisfaction
with someone else?
"You can’t deny that you and she have been lovers,"
she told him stubbornly.
"Have been, yes," he agreed tersely. "But that was
nearly twenty years ago, when I was a boy."
"She says you still want her."
"She may choose to think that, but it is most certainly
not true," Lorenzo told her firmly. His fingers
were still clamped round her wrist, and suddenly he
cursed beneath his breath, saying grimly, "You want
to know where I go? Very well, then — come with
me."
He was walking so fast along the narrow, tunnellike
corridor in front of them that Jodie almost had to
run to keep up with him. She could smell damp, and
see it too on the vaulted curve of the ancient stone
walls. She gave a small shiver, and then a shocked
gasp as they reached a heavy oak door and Lorenzo
told her emotionlessly, "The corridor beyond here was
once know as the via eternal, because it led to the
Castillo’s dungeons and torture chambers."
"The torture chambers?" Jodie could hear the horrified
revulsion in her own voice.
Lorenzo gave a dismissive shrug as he unlocked
and then opened the heavy oak door. "They were considered
a necessary part of warfare."
"In medieval times, perhaps," Jodie acknowledged.
"But—"
"No, not merely in medieval times," Lorenzo interrupted,
his voice and his expression both so savagely
forbidding that she shivered.
Beyond the door lay a large cavernous room with
a low, vaulted ceiling. Wine racks leaned emptily
against one wall, whilst moisture dripped onto the
floor from the ceiling.
"It’s all right," Lorenzo told her following her anxious
upward glance. "The ceiling is quite safe, and the
coldness of the air, although unpleasant, does have
certain merits."
"More torture for the prisoners?" Jodie suggested
sharply.
"My grandmother’s first husband was imprisoned
down here for a time."
The unexpectedness of Lorenzo’s low-voiced comment
sent a shock through her.
"He was against Mussolini and made the mistake
of saying so; for that he was imprisoned and tortured
in his own home. My grandmother never really got
over it. Oh, she remarried after his death, but her heart
wasn’t really in it. She often told me herself that,
given a free choice, she would have preferred to retire
to the contemplative life of a convent — but she had
promised him that she would provide his house with
an heir. Her marriage to my own grandfather was arranged
by her first husband as he lay dying from the
damage inflicted on his body by his torturers. They
stole many works of art from the Castillo — and emptied
the wine racks," he added grimly, nodding in the
direction of the empty racks. "But there was one treasure
they were not able to take."
Jodie looked round the bleak, cold underground
room in bewilderment.
"Down here?"
Lorenzo shook his head. "No. Come with me."
He led her over to a small door that opened onto
another set of stairs. "These lead up to the main salon
of what used to be the state apartments."
"Caterina’s rooms?" Jodie questioned him uncertainly.
"She sleeps in what was my grandmother’s room,
which forms part of the state apartments, yes — which
is why I use these stairs to reach the salon instead of
the main corridor stairs."
They had reached the top of the stairs and another
door.
"Through here, in the main salon, concealed by the
fabric which my grandmother’s first husband had specially
applied to the walls, is a series of wall paintings
by a pupil of Leonardo. Although, according to my
grandmother, family legend insists that the Master
himself had a hand in their execution."
As he spoke he was ushering her into a large elegant
room, its walls hung with green silk fabric. The
room was shabby and slightly neglected, with dust
motes hanging in the air along with the faint smell of
roses.
"The Duce was afraid that Mussolini’s men would
lay claim to the Castillo because of the paintings, and
so he had them covered up. It was his dream that one
day they would be fully restored. Our family is a large
one, and there are some members of it who feel that
the Castillo should be sold and the proceeds shared.
My grandmother wanted to leave the Castillo to me
because she knew I would fulfil on her behalf the
promise she made to her dying first husband."
"So why did she make it condition of her will that
you must marry?"
"That was through Caterina’s interference. My
grandmother was a gentle person who thought only
good of others. Caterina seized her chance after Gino
died and managed to convince Nonna that we were
star-crossed lovers and I wanted to marry her. She is
what one might term an adventuress, to whom marriage
to my cousin Gino gave social standing. She
had hoped to raise herself even higher by trapping me
into marriage with her. Money and social position are
all that matter to her."
Jodie frowned. Her instincts were telling her that
what he was saying was the truth, and that Caterina
had lied to her.
"Caterina knows how important the Castillo is to
me," Lorenzo continued. "Gino had told her of my
promise to our grandmother, and she thought she
could use that to force my hand. Fortunately for me,
my grandmother’s notary managed to conceal from
Caterina the fact that he had omitted her name from
the final signed copy of the will, so that it read merely
that I had to marry, instead of stating that I had to
marry Caterina. And, as if the situation weren’t complicated
enough already, she has been encouraging
some Russian syndicate to believe that the Castillo
will be available to buy. They wish to convert it into
a luxury hotel."
"But why do you come here at night?"
"Because I cannot do so during the day, when
Caterina is here, and because I have a need to commune
with the past, to assure the man who gave his
life to preserve it that I will do my best to fulfil his
dream." He gave a small shrug. "At the same time, I
have dreams of my own. I would like to see the
Castillo turned into a rehabilitation centre for the
young victims of war — a place where they can recover
physically and emotionally. I want it to be a
centre for young artists and artisans, gifted craftspeople
who will work on the restoration that is needed
and train their young apprentices to follow in their
footsteps. I want to banish from the Castillo, and from
the lives of young victims of war, at least some of
the shadows and dark places, and to fill them instead
with light and the pleasure of living. The meetings I
have been having in Florence are connected with my
plans for the Castillo. As soon as we are married, and
the Castillo is legally mine, my first and most important
duty is to put in hand the restoration of the paintings."
Jodie had to blink fiercely to disperse her foolish
tears, her earlier antagonistic suspicions of him swept
away by a sudden surge of admiration.
"It sounds wonderful — a truly noble enterprise," she
told him huskily, looking up at him, her admiration
warming her eyes.
Lorenzo looked back at her and Jodie caught her
breath as he took a step towards her, quickly disentangling
her gaze from his whilst her heart raced and
thudded.
"Caterina does not think so. She would far rather
the place was sold and my money was hers to do with
as she chooses. She drove my cousin to his death, and
even if I loved her rather than loathed her I could
never forgive her for that," Lorenzo told her harshly.
Jodie gave a small shiver.
"But you must have loved her once…"
"Why? Because I had sex with her?" Lorenzo shook
his head. "I was eighteen and driven by the desires of
my body, that was all." As he was being driven by
them right now, if he was honest, to take hold of Jodie
and take her back to his bed, so that he could finish
what had been started the night she had returned the
betrothal ring to him. There hadn’t been a single night
since then when he had not thought of doing so—
ached to do so. she’d got under his skin in a way that
no other woman had, mental images of her filling his
head and stealing away his thoughts whilst his body
raged and pulsed. Angrily he fought against the longing
taking hold of him.
Every bride felt nervous — it went with the territory,
Jodie assured herself as the alarmingly efficient stylist
the designer salon had insisted on sending to help her,
plus a seamstress and a dresser, bustled round her
bedroom.
Who would have thought that a small, quiet wedding
would involve so much strategic planning? A
little ruefully, Jodie suspected that it was her gown
rather than her that was the cause of the stylist"s relentless
insistence on overseeing every detail of her
wedding-day appearance — right down to the spa treatments
she had arranged for Jodie the previous day.
Now, massaged plucked, waxed and tinted to within
an inch of her life, Jodie tried to imagine how she
might be feeling if this was the real thing, a real wedding,
and she was standing here nervously being laced
into her corset in anticipation of making her vows to
a man she really loved and who really loved her.
But of course that was never going to happen.
Because she was never going to love a man, was she?
Was she? she repeated insistently, when her question
was met by a stubborn silence from the reassuring
inner voice that should have acknowledged and
agreed.
"No, you must pull it tighter," she could hear the
stylist instructing the dresser, and she winced as the
breath was squeezed out of her lungs.
Her hair had been arranged in an artless mix of
loose plaits coiled softly into an "up do" and then
threaded with invisible thread strung with diamonds
to complement the pearl and diamond embroidery on
her gown. A make-up artist had spent what felt like
hours working on her face to make it look as though
she wasn’t actually wearing any make-up at all,
merely a soft glow, although her eyelids had been
brushed with a subtle gold-green powder which made
them look enormous as well as reflecting the green
glitter of the emerald.
By the time the stylist was satisfied with the narrowness
of her waist, Jodie was afraid she might pass
out from an inability to breathe.
"Come and look," the stylist insisted, taking her to
stand in front of the full-length mirror.
The reflection gazing back at her was totally unfamiliar.
Huge gold eyes ringed with curling black
lashes looked at her, soft rose lips surely much fuller
than hers parted to show pearly white teeth. The
cream corset bodice of her gown revealed lushly
curved breasts and an impossibly narrow waist, whilst
silky fine cream hold-ups covered legs that seemed to
go on for ever, thanks to the height of the heels she
was having to wear.
"Bene," the stylist pronounced, beckoning to the
dresser. "Now for the skirt."
Heaven knew how she would have managed to
dress herself, Jodie reflected half an hour afterwards,
when both skirt and train had finally been arranged
to the stylist"s satisfaction, and the cream lace veil
and bodice had been slipped on to cover her hair and
bare skin.
There was a knock on the door, and some flurried
conversation out of Jodie’s earshot, and then the stylist
was handing her flowers and telling her urgently,
"It is time for you to leave…"
CHAPTER ELEVEN
FINALLY it was over: the church service, the walkabout
she hadn’t realised she would be expected to
make, greeting the well-wishers, the friends of
Lorenzo’s, who had included his lawyer and his
charming wife, and the impromptu wedding lunch
which Carlo had insisted on preparing for them whilst
everyone else in the restaurant joined in the celebration.
Nine hours of it in all, during which Jodie had
not dared to attempt to eat or drink, never mind sit
down.
And now they were finally alone, Assunta having
prepared and left them a cold supper before coming
to the church to see them married. Jodie was so exhausted
she could barely stand. The corset had become
a form of excruciating torture from which she
ached to be free with every muscle in her body that
hadn’t been numbed by its pressure.
In the hallway of the apartment, she headed for the
stairs, picking up her long skirts.
"You are tired?" Lorenzo guessed.
She could barely nod her head. Tired didn’t even
begin to describe her physical and emotional exhaustion.
Emotional exhaustion? Because of what, exactly?
She felt like kicking the unwanted inner voice
for probing and prodding — it, after all, knew as well
as she did exactly how she had felt standing next to
Lorenzo whilst the priest spoke the words of the marriage
ceremony. The light from the windows had illuminated
her face, but the inner light illuminating her
understanding of a truth she hadn’t wanted to recognise
had been far more powerful. She had hated the
feeling of deceit that had clung to her, the sense of
guilt and shame at the way they were using vows that
should have been sacred to suit their own purposes.
"I’ll come up with you," she heard Lorenzo saying.
How could a mere dress weigh so much? By the
time she reached the top of the stairs her heart was
pounding nauseatingly, and she was feeling oddly
light-headed.
Outside the door to her bedroom, Lorenzo touched
her lightly on the shoulder and said coolly, "If you’ve
got a minute…?"
They had only just been married, and he was asking
her if she had got a minute as though they were no
more than acquaintances. But then, wasn’t that exactly
what they were?
She could see that he was waiting for her to cross
the corridor and follow him into his room. Her leg
was aching painfully, but she refused to let it drag.
She stepped into his bedroom and stood as close to
the door as she could, refusing to look at the bed.
Lorenzo had walked over to the tallboy, where he"d
picked up something, and now he was walking back
towards her.
"Knowing how you feel about the emerald, I
thought you might prefer to wear this instead. Oh, and
you can keep it afterwards if you wish," he told her
with a dismissive shrug.
Silently Jodie took the small box from him and
opened it. Inside was a perfect pear-shaped solitaire
diamond. Mutely, she looked at it.
"I couldn’t possibly keep that. It must have been
very expensive."
Lorenzo was frowning at her as though her refusal
displeased him. "As you wish," he agreed curtly. "It
isn’t of any real consequence."
"Like our marriage," Jodie heard herself saying
shakily. "I really would have preferred not to have
had a church ceremony. It made me feel—" She broke
off and shook her head as she realised the impossibility
of making Lorenzo understand how she had felt.
The sudden action caused a wave of dizziness to
swamp her, followed by the shocked realisation that
she was about to faint. Instinctively she made grab
for the nearest solid object, which just happened to
be Lorenzo. As she swayed towards him Lorenzo
caught hold of her.
"It’s the dress," she managed to tell him. "It’s laced
so very tightly…"
The next minute he was turning her round, supporting
her with one arm whilst he inspected the fastenings
of her bodice and demanded grimly, "Why
didn’t you say something? How the hell does this
thing come off?"
"The skirt and the train have to come off first, before
I can remove the bodice," Jodie told him weakly.
"They’re just hooked onto it."
Before she could stop him he was feeling for the
tiny fastenings, unsnapping them with ruthless speed.
When they were all free the train and skirt sighed
softly to the floor, leaving Jodie standing in her silk
stockings, high heels, tiny boy-short briefs — and the
unbearably tight bodice.
"What on earth possessed you to wear something
so tight?" Lorenzo demanded.
"It wasn’t my idea. It was the stylist"s," Jodie admitted.
"She insisted on it being so tightly laced."
"How does it fasten?"
"It’s laced on the inside, and then fastened with
hooks and eyes." Just the effort of speaking was making
her feel sick from her inability to draw enough
air into her lungs.
"Don’t move," Lorenzo told her, leaving her standing
in the middle of the floor as he went over to the
tallboy and opened a drawer. When he came back he
was holding a pair of scissors.
"No, you can’t—" Jodie protested weakly, but it
was too late. He was already cutting into the fabric,
ignoring her protests.
She almost cried from the sheer bliss of simply
being able to breathe naturally as the corset fell away.
"Dio! It’s a wonder your flesh is not numbed and
dead," Lorenzo said critically as he studied the red
marks on her pale skin where the corset had cut into
her. "And why did you not say before now that your
leg is paining you?"
"Because it isn’t," Jodie fibbed.
"Yes, it is. Go and lie down on the bed. I will
massage it for you."
"there’s no need for you to do that," she protested.
"I’ll be fine now that I’m free of the corset." She
folded her arms over her breasts, suddenly, now that
she didn’t have to worry about taking her next breath,
acutely conscious her state of undress, but as she
shifted her weight from one foot to the other a sharp
pain shot up her injured leg, causing her to smother
a gasp of pain.
Lorenzo muttered something she couldn’t translate
and then picked her up, ignoring her tired protest as
he carried her over to the bed.
"You are the most stubborn woman I have ever
met," he told her grimly as he put her down. "Now,
lie down and I will massage your leg for you."
She wanted to refuse — out of pride if nothing
else — but the truth was that her leg was really hurting,
and the thought of having the pain massaged away
was too tempting to refuse.
Silently she lay down on her front and closed her
eyes. She had forgotten about the stockings she was
still wearing, and tensed as Lorenzo removed them—
as clinically and efficiently as though she were made
of plastic rather than female flesh and blood, she acknowledged
wryly. But her flesh knew that he was
male, and its response to the firm massaging movement
of his fingers against the aching muscles in her
thigh was most definitely not clinical.
She had originally lain on her stomach to conceal
from him both her naked breasts and her expression—
not so much out of modesty, but out of fear of what
they might reveal to him. Now, as she felt her nipples
hardening when his fingers stroked and kneaded her
aching flesh, she was very glad that she had done so.
As his fingers drew the pain out of her flesh their
touch replaced it with a very different kind of ache,
beginning deep inside her with a small fluttering pulse
that quickly grew stronger until the desire it generated
was spreading outwards into every nerve-ending.
Uncomfortably she pulled away, and moved to sit up,
fearing that somehow Lorenzo might guess what she
was experiencing.
"what’s the matter?" he demanded. "Are you worried
that I might try to seduce you?"
He was mocking her, she knew that. "No, of course
not. Why would I think that? After all, I already know
that you Don’t desire me."
She had rolled over now, and was sitting up. But
she couldn’t get off the bed because Lorenzo was
standing immediately in front of her.
"And you want me to desire you?"
"No!" she said fiercely.
"You’re lying." Lorenzo accused her, shocking her
as he suddenly drew her up to stand virtually body-
to-body with him. "But then, lying is second nature
to your sex, isn’t it?"
Yes, she was lying, Jodie admitted. Because she
had no other alternative, no other way to protect herself.
Why was he behaving like this towards her?
she’d realised from what Caterina had told her that
his childhood experiences with his mother and her
unfaithfulness to his father had given him a low opinion
of her sex, and a need to protect himself from
emotional pain, but that was no reason for him to
punish her. Just as she had no real reason to brand all
men as faithless, shallow cheats because of the way
John had behaved towards her? She swallowed uncomfortably,
unable to ignore her own inner critical
voice.
"You’re lying," Lorenzo repeated. "Admit it."
"Admit what?" Jodie challenged him recklessly.
"That I want you? Why? What purpose or benefit is
there in my doing that? You Don’t want me. All you
want is for me to give you an excuse to go on telling
yourself that all women are like your mother and
Caterina. Well, we aren’t. You want me to lie to you
because that way you can keep on telling yourself that
all women are the same. Because You’re afraid of
wanting—"
"Enough!"
Jodie tried to protest, but it was too late. His mouth
was already covering hers, his hands almost bruising
the tender flesh of her upper arms as he held her to
him so hard that she could feel the buttons on his
shirt pressing into her skin.
"I am afraid of nothing," Lorenzo whispered
fiercely against her mouth. "Least of all of wanting
you. And to prove it…"
Before she could evade him he was kissing her,
deeply and intimately, whilst his hands stroked over
her body to cup her breasts.
She should stop him. She knew that. But her own
desire was stronger than her will-power. The anger
that had flared up between them had unleashed a passion
in Lorenzo that ignited her own and overwhelmed
her careful restraint. He lifted one hand to
her head, sliding his fingers into her hair and exposing
the slender vulnerability of her neck to the sensual
assault of his lips.
Shudders of hot, illicit pleasure that began where
his mouth caressed her skin and ended deep inside
the female heart of hers seized her, took her to a place
where reality didn’t exist and all that mattered was
following the lure of the primitive surge of her own
desire for him.
He had captured her nipple between the long lean
finger and thumb of his free hand and was playing
softly with it, then less softly when both it and its
partner stiffened with excitement. The erotic sensation
of him tugging sensually on it was relayed to her
through what felt like a million tiny nerve-endings,
magnifying the pleasure so much that she was racked
helplessly by its domination as it took her and filled
her, weakening her will-power along with her bones,
and focusing all of her straining concentration not on
the urgent warnings of her defences, but instead on
the wet heat between her legs, and the desire-swollen
flesh she ached for Lorenzo to touch.
Had she actually verbally said what she wanted?
She had communicated it to him somehow, Jodie realised
dizzily, as his fingers untangled from her hair and
his hand stroked down her body, moulding her hipbone,
his fingers pressing into the curves of her bottom
as he held her with both hands and pulled her
into his own body so that she could feel how hard
and aroused he was. He kissed her with shockingly
deliberate intimacy as he caressed the quivering flesh
of her stomach, then stroked his fingers along the hip-
hugging line of her silky knickers, teasing her eager
flesh with a softly tantalising touch that made her
press closer to him until he responded to her need and
slipped his hand into the softly fluted leg of her underwear
to cover her sex.
Completely lost, Jodie made a small delirious
sound of pleasure into his kiss that turned to a broken
exclamation of shocked delight when he slid his fingers
into her waiting wetness. The feel of the slow
movement of his fingers over her aroused flesh was
both an exquisite pleasure and an almost unbearable
torment. She wanted him to go on doing what he was
doing, but she wanted him inside her as well, filling
her, satisfying the need that was tightening round her.
She moaned out loud as he plucked softly at the
aroused nub of her clitoris, her own hand going immediately
to the thick thrust of his own erection, easily visible
beneath his clothes but frustratingly separated
from the full intimacy of her touch by them.
"Wait," she heard him tell her thickly, and then he
was lifting her, placing her back on the bed before
swiftly removing his clothes. She lay back, her head
on the pillows, watching him with an absorbed, hungry,
unashamed eagerness, her breath coming in soft
little panting gasps of need, her hand resting over her
own sex, not to protect it, but to quieten it as it pulsed
its clamouring message of readiness.
His nakedness excited her so much. She couldn’t
drag her gaze away from the stiff length of his erection
as it thrust upwards from the soft dark mat of his
body hair. It crossed her mind that she should be feeling
virginal fear instead of such a delirious sense of
eager excitement. He was leaning over her, removing
her briefs, watching her as he did so. Heat and shock
suffused her as he slowly slid one finger the length
of her wetness. Greedily her body lifted towards him
and his finger traced her again, stroking and lingering,
caressing the hard little nub of excitement clamouring
for his attention and then slowly, very deliberately,
sliding inside her. Jodie gasped and then moaned in
delight as she felt him stretching her gently, still caressing
her.
His body was covering hers now, and he was kissing
her. Eagerly she kissed him back, only stopping
when she felt the loss of his pleasure-giving fingers.
Her eyes rounded and her face burned when he lifted
his hand towards her lips and told her thickly, "Taste
yourself on me." Hesitantly she opened her mouth and
let him place his fingers within it, closing her eyes
and obeying his whispered, "Suck them," as she drew
in the taste of her own arousal mingled with the taste
of his skin and felt the power of the aphrodisiac he
was giving her.
Now she was totally lost, a mindless slave to her
own sexuality and need as his hands and his mouth
caressed every part of her. Her shoulder, the inner
flesh of her arm, her breasts, her belly, and she
writhed and moaned and reached for him with her
own hands and mouth, savouring the sharp taste of
him as she breathed in his intimate man scent and felt
its erotic impact on her senses. She ached to let her
tongue-tip circle the stiff shiny head of his sex, but
Lorenzo wouldn’t let her. Instead his tongue was exploring
her, tracing a sensual pathway of fiery pleasure
over her wetness, stroking firmly against her clitoris,
taking her far, far beyond the furthermost
reaches of her own sensual imaginings. She wanted
him so much. Too much…
Abruptly, reality pierced her sexual arousal and she
tensed, pushing Lorenzo away whilst her body
screamed its pain at her denial of its pleasure.
Lorenzo sat up, frowning, and made to take her in
his arms, but Jodie resisted him and shook her head,
telling him fiercely, "No!"
"What? What are you saying? You want me — you
were giving yourself to me…" he insisted fiercely.
"And you want to prove that all women are like
your mother — that we all lie and cheat. Yes, I do want
you," she agreed shakily. "But I want my self-respect
more."
As she spoke she was wriggling away from his restraining
arm and getting off the bed, hurriedly gathering
up her scattered clothes, fully aware that
Lorenzo was watching her but not daring to look back
at him in case her resolve wasn’t able to withstand
her doing so.
Lorenzo lay on his bed and stared up at the ceiling.
The ache he could feel inside himself was just physical,
that was all. And the emotion burning inside him
was just furious anger that Jodie should dare to say
to him what she had. She meant nothing to him.
Nothing!
The emptiness of his bed without her was something
that he welcomed, rather than regretted. As he
would welcome the emptiness of his life once she had
gone from it, he assured himself fiercely.
The reason he had been so sexually aroused by her,
so sexually lost in the sweetness of her, was simply
that it had been too long since there had been a
woman in his bed. And that was a need he could
easily satisfy. Right now, if necessary, simply by
making a phone call. And if he couldn’t reach any of
the many women whom he knew would be pleased
to receive his summons — well, he knew, although not
from personal experience, that Florence, like any
other city, had its high-priced and high-class hookers,
women who knew how to please a man without making
any demands on him other than their fee.
But why pay a hooker when remembering one was
enough to cool his sexual desire? When he had first
met Caterina she had made no secret of the fact that
she had several rich lovers, even if later she had
claimed that it was not true and that he had misunderstood
her. And his mother, with the expensive gifts
she had received…a reward for her infidelity, even if
they had only been from one lover. His heart started
to thud angrily.
He got up off the bed. Five minutes later, standing
beneath the lash of the shower, he could feel his heartbeat
returning to normal.
What really infuriated him was that Jodie, whom
he had begun to consider someone whose thinking
was sound and rational, should start making such ridiculous
and unfounded accusations. How dared she
accuse him of being so emotionally damaged that he
wanted her to lie to him to reinforce his belief that
her sex could not be trusted? He had proved that he
trusted her, had talked to her about things that were
so close to his heart he had never discussed them with
anyone else. Did she really think that he would do
that and then try to create a reason to mistrust her? It
was totally illogical that he should do such a thing—
like a panicking child trying to protect itself from being
hurt because it feared to love.
After all, it wasn’t as though he was afraid he might
be falling in love with her and was fighting desperately
against doing so, was it? Was it?
He turned off the shower and reached for a towel.
CHAPTER TWELVE
THEY had been married for nearly a week, during
which time no mention had been made by either of
them of the night of their wedding. Lorenzo was icily
polite and indifferent towards her when they were together,
and Jodie had taken to spending so much time
sightseeing that at night she simply fell into an exhausted
sleep the moment she went to bed.
But now they were back at the Castillo, the final
paperwork having been dealt with to transfer its ownership
to Lorenzo.
"I have not forgotten that I still have to fulfil my
part of our bargain," he told Jodie crisply as they
crossed the Castillo’s courtyard. "I have put in hand
the necessary arrangements for us to fly to London at
the end of the week for your ex-fiance."s wedding. The
Cotswolds hotel I have booked us into is in a place
named Lower Slaughter?"
"Oh, yes. I know it," Jodie acknowledged. If it was
the hotel she thought it must be, it was very exclusive
and expensive.
"I thought you would want to keep some distance
between ourselves and your former home."
"Yes, I do," Jodie agreed colourlessly. She certainly
did not want anyone realising that she and her brand-
new husband were sleeping in separate rooms.
Especially not when she was going to be flaunting her
happily married state under everyone’s nose. She exhaled
hesitantly.
"I’ve been thinking," she told Lorenzo quietly. "I’m
not sure that It’s such a good idea for me to…to go
ahead with what I’d planned."
"But that was your whole purpose in agreeing to
marrying me."
"Yes, I know."
They had reached the hallway now, and Lorenzo
was frowning as he studied the untidy pile of suitcases
and boxes heaped in the middle of the floor.
"We"ll discuss this later," he told Jodie as an inner
door opened.
Caterina swept in, declaring dramatically, "So, you
have arrived to flaunt your triumph and throw me out,
have you? Well, You’re too late. I am leaving of my
own accord. You think you have gained a victory,
Lorenzo. But in truth you have gained nothing other
than this crumbling ruin and a wife you do not want.
And all for what? For the sake of some old paintings
and so that you can keep a promise made to an old
woman," she taunted him bitterly. "We could have had
so much together, but now it is too late. Ilya will be
here for me soon."
"Ilya?" Lorenzo questioned sharply.
"Yes. We met when he was interested in buying
this place. He has been a good…friend to me. And
now…" She pouted and then smiled rapaciously.
"You mean he’s your lover?" Lorenzo checked her
curtly.
"Why should I answer you? But, yes, we are lovers,
and we will be married once his divorce comes
through. He is sending a driver for me, and someone
to collect my things."
She turned and looked at Jodie. "Be careful that
Lorenzo doesn’t use you as he did me. And, if he
does, make sure that he doesn’t impregnate you.
Because he will force you to abort your child, just as
he forced me to abort mine."
Jodie could feel the blood leaving her face. She
looked wildly towards Lorenzo, expecting to hear him
deny Caterina’s horrific accusations, but instead he
simply turned on his heel and left.
"that’s not true," Jodie whispered. "It can’t possibly
be. Lorenzo would never—"
"What? Have you fallen in love with him already?"
Caterina mocked her. "You little fool. You mean
nothing to him, and you never will. And it is true.
Lorenzo forced me to abort my child. If you Don’t
believe me, go and ask him. He will not spare you
by lying to you about it. Not Lorenzo. His pride
wouldn’t let him." She started to laugh, stepping past
Jodie as a car swept into the courtyard.
Jodie had no idea how long she had been out here,
sitting alone in the Castillo garden, trying to cope
with the violence of her turbulent emotions.
It wasn’t true what Caterina had said to her, she
told herself stubbornly. She had not fallen in love
with Lorenzo. But she wanted him. Physical desire
was not love. But it was a manifestation of it. She
could not love a man who not only did not love her,
but who did not even recognise what love was. But
what if she did?
"It’s getting dark, and if you stay out here much
longer You’ll risk ending up with your leg aching."
She hadn’t heard Lorenzo come into the garden,
and automatically she moved deeper into the shadows,
because she was afraid of what he might read in
her expression. She tensed as he sat down beside her.
"You’re right. I’d better go in," she told him in a
thin, emotionless voice.
"Why Don’t you want to go back to England?"
"What?" Jodie looked at him blankly. She had almost
forgotten their earlier conversation, thanks to the
inner turmoil Caterina’s comments had caused her.
"There must be some reason," Lorenzo persisted.
"I’m not sure that It’s something that I want to do
any more," she admitted reluctantly. "It seemed a
good idea at the time, and…and it even gave me a
sense of purpose — something to focus on. But now…"
Now her old life seemed a million years away, and
she didn’t care what John and Louise did or thought,
because now… Because now what? A fear that she
didn’t want to give any room to was uncurling inside
her with all the clinging tenacity of a killer vine. Was
this seismic shift in her emotional focus because she
was falling in love with Lorenzo?
Falling in love? That implied that she was in the
middle of an act she could halt, she decided with relief,
clinging to that thought in desperation. And she
would halt it, she decided fiercely.
"I think we should go."
"Do you?" If she argued with him now, would he
start thinking that it was because she might be falling
in love with him? No way did she want that.
"Yes. It will help you to find closure and be a way
to draw a line under your relationship with both of
them. Then you will be able to move on."
"Mmm. I suppose You’re right."
"I know that I’m right," Lorenzo said. "I just
wish…"
"What? That you had married Caterina?"
"No," he denied sharply.
"Did you…? Was it…? Was it true what she said
about — about the baby?" Jodie whispered, unable to
stop herself from asking the question that had been
splintering and festering inside her since Caterina had
made her accusation.
"Yes," Lorenzo admitted heavily.
Jodie shuddered. "Your own child!" she protested
with revulsion. "How—?"
"No! Caterina was not… It was not my child. But
that does not diminish my guilt. I hadn’t thought…
That was the trouble. I didn’t think. I just assumed,
with the arrogance and stupidity of youth, that—" He
broke off and Jodie could see the tension in his jaw.
"Caterina and Gino had been engaged for about six
months when she boasted to me that she had a new
lover. She had never forgiven me for ending our brief
relationship, and I think she thought she could make
me jealous. She told me that she was to have his
child, but she had told Gino the child was his. I was
angry on behalf of my cousin, whom I knew loved
her deeply, with all the self-righteous anger of the
very young. I tried to force her hand. I told her she
must tell Gino the truth or I would do so myself. I
wanted Gino to know what she was — and, yes, it is
true I hoped he would end the engagement. For his
own sake. But instead of telling Gino the truth she
had her pregnancy terminated — and told Gino she had
lost the child. He was devastated, and immediately
insisted on marrying her. So, through my interference,
one life was lost and another destroyed."
Jodie had to swallow as she heard the raw emotion
in his voice. "You weren’t responsible."
"Yes, I was. If I had not interfered she would have
had the child."
"And she would have gone on lying to your
cousin."
"I tried to play at being God, and no man should
do that. I tried to control her behaviour because I had
not been able to control my mother"s. She left my
father and she left me, too, to be with her lover.
Caterina stayed with Gino, but, like my mother, she
sacrificed her child for her own ends. It felt like I had
murdered my own brother."
As she heard the pain in his voice it occurred to
Jodie that Caterina must have known how he would
react, and that her decision would have been motivated
by her desire to inflict that pain and guilt on
him.
"I can never forgive myself for it — never!"
"It was Caterina who made the decision — not you,"
Jodie pointed out quietly. "It was her child, and her
body. You weren’t even the father."
"If I had been there is no way she would have been
allowed to do what she did," Lorenzo told Jodie passionately.
"Not even if I had to lock her up for nine
months to make sure of it." He fell silent for a moment,
then spoke more quietly. "My mother once told
me that she hadn’t wanted me. She hadn’t even really
wanted to marry my father. There had been family
pressure, and she had decided that marriage to him
was at least a form of escape from the strict control
of her parents." Lorenzo’s voice was bleak.
"I was so lucky to have two parents who loved one
another, and me," Jodie commented softly. She
couldn’t begin to image what it must have been like
for a young child to be told by his mother that he
wasn’t wanted.
"She was little more than a child when she got married.
Seventeen, and my father was twenty-four. He
loved her intensely. Too much. Her lover was a racing
driver she met through a friend. So much more exciting
than my father. She used to take me with her
when she went to meet him. I had no idea then of the
truth. I thought… He showed me his car and…"
And you liked him, Jodie recognised compassionately.
You liked him, and then you felt you had betrayed
your father — just as your mother had done.
"They ran away together in the end, and my mother
died of blood poisoning in South America, where he
was racing. My father never got over losing her, and
I swore then that I would never…"
"Trust another woman?" Jodie finished for him.
"Let my emotions control me," Lorenzo corrected
her.
"Do we really have to stay married for a year?" she
asked him. "After all, you’ve got the Castillo now,
and Caterina has left…"
"Our arrangement was that we would remain married
for one year," he reminded her curtly. "To change
that now would give rise to gossip and speculation,
and although Caterina has left she could decide to
challenge the will if she thought she might win such
a case. I Don’t want that."
"Twelve months seems such a long time."
"No longer than it was when you agreed to remain
with me for that period."
But then she hadn’t known what she knew now,
had she? Then she hadn’t known that she would be
in danger of falling in love with him, that every extra
day she had to spend close to him would increase her
danger. But she could hardly tell him that.
"What will happen with the Castillo now?" Jodie
asked, knowing that there was nothing she could say
to explain her reluctance to stay with him that would
not give her away.
"I am arranging for several experts to come out and
inspect the paintings so that we can discuss how best
to restore them, and I also intend to put in hand the
necessary work to convert the Castillo into a centre
for rehabilitation and artistic excellence. I have spoken
already with several of Florence’s master guilders
and other craftsmen— But none of this can be of
much interest to you," he told her tersely.
Jodie dipped her head so that he couldn’t see how
much his careless words had hurt her. But of course
he didn’t see her as a part of the future he was planning.
Why should he?
What was the matter with him? Lorenzo derided
himself. Just because he felt a connection with Jodie
that he had never experienced with anyone else, a
closeness to her, it didn’t mean anything. And it certainly
didn’t mean that he was falling in love with
her. He could feel himself tensing, outwardly and inwardly,
as though he were trying to lock out his
thoughts and feelings — and not just lock them out,
but squeeze the very life out of them as well.
Because he was too afraid of them to allow them
to exist? For centuries, out of ignorance and prejudice,
man had sought to control what it feared by
destroying it. Was he doing the same? If he was really
so afraid of the effect Jodie was having on him, then
why hadn’t he seized the chance she had offered to
get rid of her? Because he wasn’t afraid at all. Why
should he be? What was there to fear? Jodie meant
nothing to him, and when the time came for them to
go their separate ways he would be able to do so
without a single qualm or regret.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
THEIR flight from Florence by executive jet, followed
by a helicopter pick-up from Heathrow to their hotel,
had been accomplished with so much speed and in so
much luxury that Jodie felt as though she were taking
part in some kind of TV extravaganza rather than real
life. They"d been escorted from the helicopter to their
suite with a focused concentration on their comfort
that had bemused her and made Lorenzo look even
more saturnine and arrogant than ever.
The stunningly beautiful seventeenth-century
Cotswold stone hotel had originally been a private
house. Now owned by a consortium of wealthy entrepreneurs,
who had originally bought and remodelled
it as an exclusive private members" country
club, it catered for the wealthy and demanding. Its
Michelin-starred restaurant was fabled and notoriously
selective about its clientele, its spa was a favourite
haunt of the A-list celebrity set, and it was
the favourite venue for private events in that same
set. A coterie of very wealthy clients were said to
have set up a private gambling club there, in which
fortunes were lost and made, and the world"s style
critics had declared it the place they would most like
to be.
From the welcoming hallway, with its antiques and
air of a country seat home, to the decor of their suite,
complete with vases of exactly the same flowers she
had had at their wedding and the latest Italian busi-
ness magazines, everything breathed exclusivity and
attention to detail.
This truly was a different world, Jodie thought, as
their personal butler assured her that her clothes
would be unpacked and pressed within an hour.
"I’ve arranged for us to have a hire car delivered
here today, so that I can familiarise myself with the
area ahead of the wedding," Lorenzo remarked.
"John’s parents are holding an open house party
tonight. The whole village is invited."
"We shall be attending?"
Did she really want to? Somehow the heat that had
scorched her pride and driven her to long to be able
to stand tall amongst those who knew her with a new
man at her side had cooled to an indifference that
made her wonder why she was here at all.
John, Louise, and the pain they had caused her, had
lost their power over her emotions. The life she had
known and lived before she had met Lorenzo felt so
distant from her now. Already she was making new
friends in Florence; she was developing new interests,
a wider outlook on life. She could not see herself
coming back here at the end of her year of marriage
to Lorenzo. But what would she do? Stay in Florence?
No, that would be too painful.
Painful? Why? But of course she already knew the
answer to that question. She had suspected it the night
he had told her about the history of Castillo’s hidden
paintings. And she had known it the evening she had
sat in the Castillo garden and listened to him telling
her about his childhood, his feelings.
"I’m not sure that this is a good idea any more,"
she told Lorenzo uncomfortably.
"Why not? Because You’re afraid of what you
might learn about your own feelings?"
"No! There isn’t anything to learn about them. I
already know how I feel." How true that was!
She still loved this blind fool of a man who had so
stupidly chosen another woman over her, Lorenzo
thought angrily.
"You are afraid that when you see this ex-fiance.of
yours you will be so overcome that you won’t be able
to stop yourself from running to him and begging him
to take you back?" he suggested grimly.
"that’s ridiculous," Jodie objected. "Apart from
anything else, I’m a married woman now."
"And You’re na..ve enough to believe your wedding
ring will prove an effective barrier to your emotions?"
"It doesn’t have to. I Don’t have any emotions for
John any more. He means nothing to me now. that’s
why I Don’t want to go."
Her voice rang with conviction, and Lorenzo felt
his heart slam into his ribs, urging him to ask the
question it so badly wanted answered. Ignoring it, he
flicked back the sleeve of his jacket without allowing
her to reply and told her curtly, "It’s almost lunchtime.
I suggest we have something to eat, then we can collect
the car and I can familiarise myself with this evening"s
route."
The Cotswolds lay drowsing under the warmth of the
summer sunshine, its villages filled with coachloads
of tourists. And, as she did every summer, Jodie wondered
what those drovers who had once brought their
sheep to market along these traditional roads would
have thought if they could be transported to modern
times.
The small market town of Lower Uffington, where
Jodie had grown up, was slightly off the normal tourist
track, fortunately, and Jodie felt her stomach muscles
start to clench with tension as she sat stiffly in
the passenger seat of the hired Bentley. Lorenzo negotiated
the narrow lanes as they dipped down between
familiar grey stone walls and passed the sign
that marked the boundary to the town.
Up ahead of them lay the pretty town square, with
its traditional wool merchants" houses lining its narrow
streets, beyond which the road started to rise towards
the Cotswold uplands where sheep still grazed,
as they had done for so many centuries. Its wool market
had made the town prosperous, and that prosperity
was still evident in its buildings.
Her own little cottage was hidden out of sight down
a narrow lane, its garden tucking its feet into the small
river that ran behind the main street. A pang of mingled
pain and nostalgia gripped her, but it wasn’t so
severe as she had dreaded. Anywhere could be home
if it was shared with the person you loved, she realised.
A small sign indicated the opening between two
houses that led to the yard belonging to John’s father"s
building business, and Jodie exhaled sharply as
she saw John’s car parked at the side of the road close
to it.
"What is it?" Lorenzo demanded.
"Nothing."
And that was the truth. The sight of John’s car,
which in the early days of their break-up would have
filled her with aching pain and loss, now didn’t affect
her at all — apart from a slight feeling of relief once
they had driven past it, in case John himself should
have appeared and seen her.
At the end of the town, set in its own pretty green,
was the church, small and squat, its stained glass windows
picked out by the sunlight. Preparations were
obviously already in hand for tomorrow"s wedding,
Jodie recognised as she saw bunches of white flowers
tied up with white ribbon and netting ornamenting the
old-fashioned gate.
John’s family, like her own, had been here for
many generations. John’s parents were relatively well
to do, and their converted farmhouse with its large
garden was just outside the town.
"Can we stop?" Jodie asked Lorenzo.
"If you wish." He swung the car round into the
small car park, and brought it to a halt.
There was one thing she did want to do, Jodie acknowledged.
One very personal visit she had to make.
"there’s no need to come with me," she told
Lorenzo as she reached to open the car door. "I shan’t
be very long."
"I may as well. I need to stretch my legs," Lorenzo
answered her.
She could see him frowning when she headed for
the church. And his frown deepened when, instead of
using the main gate, with its floral decorations, she
chose to make a small detour and open a much
smaller gate which led across the immaculate green
and then behind the church to the graveyard.
No one else seemed to be around, but even if there
had been, and she had seen someone she knew, Jodie
would not have allowed herself to be detained. She
had known when she stood in the church in Florence,
making her vows to Lorenzo, that this was something
she wanted to do.
She took the familiar narrow path that wove its way
between large mossed grey tombstones, so ancient
that their engraving had almost worn away, heading
deeper into the graveyard until she came to the place
she wanted.
There, set into the mown grass beneath a canopy
of soft leaves, was the small plaque that marked a
shared grave.
"My parents," she told Lorenzo simply.
Tears blurred her eyes, and her hand shook slightly
as she reached into her handbag and carefully withdrew
the small box in which she had stored the petals
from her wedding bouquet. Taking them out, she scattered
them tenderly on her parents" grave.
When she turned to look at Lorenzo a huge lump
formed in her throat. His head was bowed in prayer.
"It’s silly, I know, but I wanted them to know…"
She stopped and bit her lip.
"Do you want to go inside the church?" Lorenzo
asked.
Jodie shook her head. "No. They’ll be getting it
ready for the wedding and I Don’t want…"
"You Don’t want what? To confront the friend who
stole your fiance.? I thought that was why we are
here?"
"John’s an adult. No one forced him to break his
engagement to me for Louise." Her head had begun
to ache slightly. "Can we go back to the car?"
Lorenzo shrugged. "If that is what you want."
What she wanted was for Lorenzo to love her as
she had discovered she loved him. What she wanted
was to be back in Florence with him, living her life
with him, creating a future with him.
"I’m getting a headache," she told him instead.
"It is probably anxiety. What exactly are you hoping
for tonight, Jodie?"
You. I’m hoping for you to look at me and love me.
"I’m not hoping for anything."
"No? You’re not hoping secretly that John will see
you and recognise that it is you he wants after all?"
"that’s not going to happen."
"But you want it to?"
"No."
They were back at the car, and Jodie was so engrossed
in rejecting Lorenzo’s suggestion that she
didn’t notice the woman looking sharply at her until
a familiar voice announced in surprise, "Jodie? Good
heavens! I thought you were still away."
Lucy Hartley — whose husband worked for John’s
father!
Somehow or other Jodie managed to produce the
necessary smile. "It’s just a flying visit," she explained.
"I wanted to show my…my husband—"
"Your husband? You’re married?"
To Jodie’s relief, Lorenzo stepped forward and extended
his hand. Quickly Jodie performed the introductions,
watching Lucy’s eyes widen as she did so.
"You’ll be going to John’s parents" open house
party this evening, will you?" she enquired.
"We certainly hope to do so," Lorenzo answered
smoothly, before Jodie could say anything. "If we
won’t be encroaching. Jodie has told me so much
about her home and her friends, and I’m looking forward
to meeting them."
"Oh, no. I’m sure that Sheila and Bill will be only
too delighted." Lucy was beaming. "I’ll certainly tell
them I’ve seen you. Where are you staying, just in
case anyone asks?"
Reluctantly Jodie told her, and saw how her eyes
widened a little more in recognition of the exclusivity
of the hotel.
"My! You have gone up in the world, Jodie!"
Jodie could feel her face starting to burn.
"We must go — but hopefully we shall see you this
evening," Lorenzo offered politely, quickly steering
Jodie away before she could give vent to her feelings.
"That woman is such a snob," she complained angrily
as Lorenzo unlocked the car and opened the
door for her. "The moment I mentioned the hotel she
was all over us like a rash. And she doesn’t even
know about your title."
Lorenzo closed the passenger door and walked
round to get into his own side of the car.
As soon as he had started the engine, Jodie told
him fiercely, "Lorenzo, I Don’t want to go tonight.
When I first said that I wanted to, I wasn’t thinking
things through properly. I Don’t think we should go."
"We can hardly not go now," Lorenzo pointed out
calmly. "We will be expected."
She ought to be grateful to Lorenzo, Jodie knew.
He had rearranged his schedule in order to accommodate
this visit for her, and now here she was, telling
him that she didn’t want to be here.
Lorenzo looked at Jodie’s averted profile. He could
see the effect the thought of seeing her ex-fiance. and
his bride-to-be was having on her, and how much it
was upsetting her. So why was he insisting on her
doing so? What was he trying to prove that was worth
proving? Why didn’t he put his foot down on the
accelerator, head for the hotel and take her back to
Italy before she could change her mind? Once there,
he would have nearly a whole year…
A year in which to what? To persuade her to remain
married to him? That was what he wanted, was
it?
What if it was? It didn’t mean anything other than
that he was beginning to feel that it would be easier
to remain married to her than not to do so. Marriage
gave a man a certain sense of purpose and stability.
Just because previously he had not considered the
value of an old-fashioned arranged marriage, that did
not mean he was so inflexible in his thinking that he
could not recognise it now. He and Jodie were married,
after all; there was much to be said from a practical
point of view for them staying married.
He would still be able to maintain his emotional
barriers. Once he had assured himself that she accepted
that this ex-fiance. of hers was now unavailable
to her, and a part of her past, he felt confident that
they could develop a working relationship.
And a sexual relationship? His body tightened in
betrayal.
Jodie in turn would have the protection of a husband
and a life of comfort. There could even be children,
if she wished. He frowned sharply as this magnanimous
thought provoked a reaction within his
body and his emotions that went a whole lot farther
than any mere sense of self-laudatory approval of his
generosity. He had never previously considered the
production of children an essential part of his life
plan — he had more than enough male relatives to produce
the next Duce — but with the future of the
Castillo to be considered it made sense for him to
have heirs of his own to hand it on to. And Jodie
would not desert her children.
He braked sharply to avoid a cyclist, mentally denying
that his immediate and instinctive belief was a
rash emotional reaction rather than one based on
logic.
He wouldn’t, he decided as he turned into the hotel
grounds, make any firm decision until after tonight,
when he had seen how Jodie reacted to the sight of
her ex-fiance.. If after that, and further careful thought,
he was convinced that their marriage had a future,
once they were back in Italy he would tell her so.
She really wished she hadn’t ever said she wanted to
do this. Jodie studied her reflection in the bedroom
mirror and smoothed a nervous hand over her beautifully
cut cream cre.pe trousers.
"Ready?"
Numbly she nodded her head as Lorenzo walked
into her bedroom. He looked exactly what he was: a
tall, dark, impossibly handsome and even more impossibly
arrogant, totally male man — the kind of man
any woman would be attracted to. The kind of man
any woman could see would make her emotionally
vulnerable if she wasn’t careful. What a pity she
hadn’t been woman enough to recognise that right
from the start.
She could see the way he was looking at her, but
if she had been hoping for a compliment about her
appearance she was in for a disappointment, she realised.
As she started to head for the bedroom door he
reached out and stopped her. For one wild heartbeat
her head was filled with impossible images and even
more implausible scenarios — Lorenzo taking her into
his arms and refusing to let her go; Lorenzo insisting
that he wanted to keep her here in this room and make
love to her; Lorenzo telling her passionately that he
loved her. Weakly she refused to admit how much
she wished they could actually happen, and tried to
focus instead on what Lorenzo was saying to her.
"I think you should wear this tonight."
She looked down at the familiar emerald ring.
"It is, after all, your betrothal ring," Lorenzo
pointed out, "and a symbol of our relationship."
Wordlessly Jodie reached out to take it from him,
but he shook his head slightly and took hold of her
hand, sliding the ring onto her finger himself.
Tears stung her eyes. Foolish, foolish tears that betrayed
to her just how badly she had misjudged her
own vulnerability. Only a woman deeply in love
could feel the way she felt right now.
It didn’t take them very long to reach John’s parents"
home. A marquee had been set up in the garden,
and the field adjacent to the house already contained
several rows of neatly parked cars.
They were greeted at the gate by a young dinner-
suited cousin of John’s, who recognised Jodie and
gaped slightly at her, then blushed.
"I suppose we ought to try and find John’s parents
first," Jodie told Lorenzo.
"That sounds a good idea," he agreed.
"what’s that you’ve got?" Jodie asked curiously,
noticing the small parcel he was carrying.
"Hand-made chocolates for our hostess," he informed
her, adding, "I’ll have a dozen bottles of wine
sent to our host later."
Jodie gave him a rueful look and reached into her
bag, producing an almost identically wrapped box.
"Snap," she told him, laughing up at him, smiling naturally
for the first time since they had arrived in
England.
"Jodie! Lucy said that she’d seen you in town this
afternoon."
Jodie’s smile vanished as she saw John’s mother
standing in front of them.
Instinctively she moved closer to Lorenzo. John’s
mother was scrutinising them both very sharply, Jodie
saw, and her chin suddenly lifted as she looked back
at her.
"I hope we aren’t gatecrashing?" she said calmly.
"May I introduce my husband to you, Sheila?"
"Your husband? Lucy did say, but I wasn’t sure…
My goodness, this is a surprise." John’s mother gave
a small tinkling laugh. "And there we were, worrying
about you being upset and broken-hearted."
"Jodie recognised very quickly that calf love means
nothing when one finds the real thing." Lorenzo’s
smile might have taken some of the sting out of his
words, but Jodie still gave him a sharp look, and
wasn’t surprised to see the cold gleam in his eyes.
"Well, I hope the two of you will be very happy,
Mr…" Sheila began insincerely.
"Lorenzo Niccolo d’Este, Duce di Montesavro,"
Lorenzo introduced himself, with cool, insouciant
confidence.
"You’re a duke?" Sheila asked faintly.
Lorenzo inclined his head in assent, and said
suavely, "But please do call me Lorenzo."
Suddenly Jodie was almost beginning to enjoy herself.
"And how is Councillor Higgins?" she asked
sweetly, turning to explain to Lorenzo, "John’s father
is a local councillor."
John’s mother had, she noticed, begun to turn an
unflattering shade of pink. It was funny how Jodie
was beginning to remember all those occasions on
which John’s parents had let her know that they considered
her to be just that little bit inferior to them.
Of course she was behaving very badly, she knew,
but sometimes behaving badly could be fun!
"that’s one of the benefits of being married to you
and not to John," she murmured to Lorenzo as they
moved away to allow Sheila to greet some new arrivals.
"What is?"
"No mother-in-law," she said succinctly.
By now they had begun to attract rather a lot of
attention, as people recognised her and did a small
double take before turning to look more closely and
curiously.
Lorenzo had put his hand beneath her elbow in a
very solicitous manner — probably because he was
afraid that she might trip in her high heels and end
up flat on her face and thus disgrace them both, Jodie
reflected as she managed to negotiate the unlevel
ground.
"Jodie…"
She spun round with a genuine smile as she heard
the warmth and pleasure in the voice of the local doctor.
"Dr Philips!"
He gave her an enthusiastic hug and then smiled
down at her. "You’re looking well."
"Italian food, Italian sunshine—"
"And an Italian husband," Lorenzo cut in, making
the doctor laugh.
"I shouldn’t say this," the doctor whispered with a
grin, "but I always thought you were wasted on young
John. A nice enough lad, but a bit on the weak side—
and very much under his mother"s thumb."
"Poor John — that’s not very kind," Jodie protested,
but she still laughed.
Lorenzo lifted two glasses of wine from a passing
waiter"s tray and handed Jodie one.
She still hadn’t seen either Louise or John, although
she thought she had caught sight of Louise’s
parents. She had always liked Louise’s mother, but
she had no wish to see her now. Naturally, as a
mother, she would support her daughter no matter
what that daughter might have done.
And besides, honesty compelled Jodie to admit that
if Louise and John did love one another, then surely
it was only right and proper that they should be together.
She no longer cared what they did, because
her own life and her own feelings had moved on. She
looked at Lorenzo and allowed herself the pleasure of
a private fantasy in which she would suggest to him
that they leave and go back to their hotel. He"d agree
with satisfying alacrity and an even more satisfyingly
intimate smile because of the sensual pleasures to
come. She gave a small sigh as she relinquished this
unlikely but, oh, so alluring scenario.
"Your leg?" Lorenzo questioned immediately, misunderstanding
the reason for her sigh.
Should she fib and pretend that it was bothering
her so that they could leave?
But before she could say anything the vicar and his
wife had joined them, and Lorenzo had become involved
in a discussion with them about Florence.
Jodie took a small sip of her drink, and was looking
for somewhere to put her glass when she heard Louise
saying sharply, "I want a word with you!"
Louise was on her own, and there was no sign of
John.
"Don’t think I Don’t know what You’re up to and
what You’re doing here," her ex-friend whispered angrily.
Jodie could feel her face starting to burn. She was
guiltily aware of her original motive in coming here.
But perhaps there was a chance, instead, to forgive—
to end the bitterness between them?
"This is real life, Jodie, not some romantic novel,"
Louise was saying. "John isn’t going to take one look
at you and throw me over to come back to you."
"Good. Because I honestly Don’t want him to,"
Jodie told her. "Louise, I’m married now, and I—"
"Married? You?" Louise gave her a contemptuous
look. "You might have taken everyone else in, but I
Don’t believe it for one minute. My guess is that you
aren’t married at all — you certainly Don’t look it—
and I think your supposed ""husband"" is some actor
you’ve hired." She glared at Jodie angrily. "No man
as good-looking as he is would want you, with that
leg of yours. everyone’s laughing at you. You know
that, Don’t you? Pretending that you’ve married a
duke. As if! And that ridiculous ring that You’re wearing,"
she added, her lip curling. "It’s so obvious that
It’s fake — just like you and just like your marriage.
I’ll bet You’re still that same pathetic little virgin you
were when John dumped you."
Instinctively Jodie looked towards Lorenzo, a silent
plea in her eyes. He looked back at her.
And then he was coming towards them, responding
to the silent emotional message she had sent him.
Relief filled her. It was all she could do not to throw
herself into his arms and beg him to take her away.
Lorenzo felt Jodie’s pain in his own heart. Fury
and an instinctive desire to protect her boiled through
him. He had heard what Louise had said to her, and
he hadn’t needed the silent plea she had sent him,
begging for his help, to take him to her side. He
wanted to snatch her up and take her away from these
people who did not appreciate her, from the man who
had not loved her as she so deserved to be loved…as
he in his stupidity had tried to refuse to love her. But
now that love was filling him and driving out everything
else, everyone else. Nothing, no one mattered
other than Jodie and her happiness.
He reached her and took hold of her hand, watching
as relief shone emotionally in her eyes.
"For your information," he told Louise coldly, "I
am not an actor. Jodie and I are married, and I worship
the beauty of her body almost as much as I love
the sweetness of her nature. And as for the authenticity
of both my title and my family betrothal ring…"
The look he gave Louise was so withering that Jodie
was surprised it didn’t shrivel her to nothing on the
spot.
"Since you are engaged to a man who obviously
cannot tell what is genuine and what is not, I suppose
one might expect to hear you expressing ill-informed
and ignorant opinions," he continued levelly. "And so
far as our reason for being here goes…" Lorenzo now
raised his voice slightly, as a curious crowd gathered
around them. "That was my decision. I wanted to see
where Jodie had grown up, to meet the people she
had grown up amongst. And I confess I also wanted
to meet the man who was foolish enough to give her
up. Jodie merely wanted to offer you both her best
wishes."
Lorenzo was still holding her hand, Jodie recognised,
and what was more he was holding it very
firmly in his own as he moved protectively closer to
her. Automatically she leaned in to him, welcoming
the sensation of his body absorbing the sick, trembling
shock of her own.
"What a pitiful creature you are," Lorenzo said to
Louise in a very quiet voice, inaudible to most of
those around them. "You steal a friend"s fiance., and
then, because of your inadequacy and lack of emotional
depth, you are forced to live in fear of losing
him back to her."
Louise turned from red to white as Lorenzo’s cutting
words hit home, and suddenly the woman Jodie
had always thought of as such a beauty actually
looked ugly.
John had come hurrying over to Louise’s side and
was looking helplessly back and forth between the
women. When she looked at him Jodie recognised
how poorly he compared with Lorenzo, and how
weak he was as a man. If she hadn’t already realised
she didn’t love him any more, she surely would have
done so now.
"Are you ready to leave?" Lorenzo asked Jodie.
Silently she nodded her head.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
THEY had driven back to their hotel in silence, and
Jodie was only thankful that Lorenzo wasn’t saying
anything. Now that they were back in their suite she
realised how shocked and distressed Louise’s spiteful
attack had left her feeling.
All she wanted was the privacy of her room, so
that she could give way to the tears that weren’t far
off, and to her relief Lorenzo made no comment when
she said quickly, "My head aches. I…I think I might
as well have an early night."
In her room she undressed and then showered, drying
herself quickly before padding across to the bed
and slipping between the cool clean sheets, reflecting
that it was just as well that Louise had not known she
and Lorenzo were sleeping in separate rooms.
She tensed as she heard a firm tap on her bedroom
door and Lorenzo calling out, "I’ve ordered you some
supper. I’ll bring it in for you."
It was too late to tell him that she didn’t want it.
He was already opening the door and pushing a
heavily laden trolley into the room.
"It’s just a cold salad and a pot of tea. I remember
you said you liked to drink tea when you had a headache.
Or is your pain that of a heartache?" he asked
her dryly.
Jodie bit her lip and struggled to sit up, whilst holding
on to the protective cover of the bedding. Taking
a deep breath, she said huskily, "Lorenzo, I haven’t
thanked you yet for…for…for supporting me with
what you said to Louise."
"You are my wife. When it comes to the validity
of our marriage being questioned, naturally you have
my support. Equally naturally, I could not allow that
foolish woman to make her ridiculous accusations unchecked."
Jodie shook her head. "We both know it wasn’t
your idea that we should come here."
"No, it was yours, because you wanted to see your
ex-fiance.. You are better off without him, you know,"
he told her coolly. "The impression I gained from the
people I spoke with is that he is a rather weak and
shallow young man, very much still dominated by his
mother."
"Louise’s family are quite well off, and I suppose
that, coupled with Sheila"s concerns about my health,
would have made her think Louise would be a better
wife for John — not that I want him. He means nothing
to me now. I can see him for what he is, and I think
I’m lucky not to be marrying him."
Lorenzo frowned. "You sound as though you really
mean that."
"I do. I’d stopped loving him before I left England.
Coming back has just confirmed what I already
knew." In more ways than one, she admitted, but of
course she couldn’t tell Lorenzo that coming back and
seeing John had shown her just how strong her love
for Lorenzo was compared with the feelings she had
once thought she had for John. She still had her pride,
and that pride was stinging badly now from Louise’s
attack on her.
She chewed on her bottom lip and then said unhappily,
"I should have realised that people would
guess that our marriage isn’t real and that you Don’t
want me." She laughed a little wildly. "I suppose I
must have ""unwanted virgin"" written all over me,
what with my leg, and—"
"What nonsense is this?" Lorenzo demanded, putting
down the cup of tea he had been pouring for her
and coming over to stand beside the bed.
"It isn’t nonsense," Jodie persisted miserably. "John
rejected me because of my leg, and It’s because of it
that I’m still a virgin. I hate knowing that other people
pity me, and…and look down on me because of it,"
she told him fiercely. "And I just wish that…"
"That what?"
"That when Louise looked at me she had seen a
true woman."
Lorenzo sat down on the bed next to her.
"If that is really what you want, it is achieved easily
enough," he told her smokily. "Because, far from sharing
your idiotic ex-fiance."s opinion, I happen to desire
you very much."
Jodie swallowed and squeaked uncertainly,
"You…you do?"