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Quinn Harrison had a
small, fan-shaped scar on his left shoulder blade. He said he got
it when he made the mistake of turning his back on a bad guy who
grabbed a tire iron and swung hard, but I wasn’t so sure I
believed him. To me, it looked more like the mark of a woman’s
stiletto heel.
Not that I was going
to get picky.
For one thing, Quinn
is not the type of guy to get picky with. I mean, because of the
whole macho, I’m-a-cop thing. And the fact that he’s just about
as gorgeous a hunk as any I’d ever met. It’s those green eyes
of his, and the way they’re shot through with amber and flecked
with blue. It makes him look a little standoffish. Like he’s
better than everyone else.
I guess after a
lifetime of seeing his own reflection looking back at him from the
mirror, he’s pretty much come to believe it.
That would explain
why we’ve butted heads a time or two when we’ve tripped over
each other during my investigations. Of course, I could be wrong.
When it comes to solving murders, Quinn’s attitude might stem
from the fact that he’s a professional and I’m a rank amateur
who has no business sticking my nose where it doesn’t belong. If
that’s true, then I guess I can forgive him: he doesn’t know
about the ghosts.
Not that I was going
to get picky about that, either.
Not at a time like
this.
I lightly traced the
boundaries of the scar on his back with the tip of one finger. At
the same time, I stifled a yawn.
“You’re
awake.†On the pillow next to mine, Quinn turned his head and
looked my way. His grin was as hot as it had been the night before
when we found ourselves suddenly out of the restaurant where we’d
been having dinner, in my apartment, in my bedroom, and yes, in my
bed. “Sleep well?â€
“I didn’t sleep
at all.†As if he didn’t know. He was, after all, the cause of
my sleeplessness. I boosted myself up long enough to glance at the
clock on my bedside table, fell back against the mattress, and
groaned. “I’ve got to be at work in two hours.â€
“Me, too.†Quinn
rolled over on his back, pushed a strand of inky hair out of his
eyes, and rested his head on one bent arm. “We could call in
sick.â€
“The morning after
my birthday? Ella might be a free-thinking ex-hippie, but she’d
never fall for that. She’s the mom of three teenaged girls,
remember. Comes with the territory. Moms have that spooky radar
thing going on. They can detect lies like I’m sick the day after I went out to celebrate my
birthday from a mile away.â€
“It’s just as
well. I’ve got a mountain of paperwork to fill out for a new case
I’m working on.†He sighed. I liked the way the whisper of it
rustled through my bedroom almost as much as I liked the feel of
his body next to mine. Sure, it sounds like a page out of one of
those romance novels my own mom loves so much, but just thinking
about everything we did during the night...
Well, let’s
suffice it to say that I needed to push back the covers, that’s
how hot I got.
“You’re not
getting up.†Quinn’s hands were large and his fingers were
long. He wrapped them around my wrist. “We’ve got two
hours.â€
“We do.†My
smile was a response to his. “And no, I’m not getting up. I’m
just hot.â€
“It’s
February.†He lifted his head long enough to look toward the
window. “And if I’m not mistaken, it’s snowing like a son of
a bitch.â€
“Which doesn’t
mean I can’t be hot.â€
“Oh, you’re hot,
all right.†He tickled a hand over my shoulders, down to my
stomach, and back up again, and like it had so many times during
the night, his touch made me tingle from head to toe. “Makes me
glad you were almost going to have to spend your birthday
alone.â€
“Ella had
something to do with you calling me, didn’t she?†I suspected
it was true the moment my office phone rang the afternoon before
and I heard Quinn’s voice on the line. “She’s such a softy!
She felt terrible that she had to back out of my birthday dinner
because one of the girls was coming down with the flu. She called
you and told you to call me. Admit it.†I poked him in the ribs.
“You wouldn’t have even known it was my birthday
otherwise.â€
“How could I know
when you never told me when your birthday was?â€
“You know how many
traffic tickets I’ve gotten. And how many parking tickets. You
keep reminding me about those. You know how tall I am and—†I
gulped. “And probably how much I weigh. Whether I tell you things
or not, you find them out. You know everything about
me.â€
Quinn flipped to his
side and propped his head on one hand. “Not everything. I do know
that you can’t seem to mind your own business. But I don’t know
exactly how you got involved in those murder investigations last
year. Or why.â€
It was an open
invitation and the perfect opportunity for me to come clean. In a
purely symbolic way, of course. And if ever there was a right time
to do it, this was it. Yeah, the sex was that good.
None of which
explained why I hesitated. Or why, after that moment’s
hesitation, I changed the subject. Or should I say I got the
subject back on track? After all, I wasn’t the one who changed it
in the first place.
“Ella’s a sucker
for the underdog. She didn’t want me to be alone on my birthday.
That’s why she told you to give me a call.â€
Quinn took the hint.
Or maybe he knew what I knew: the morning after the night before is
not the time to start an argument. Not when the night before was so
good and the morning after was promising more of the same.
“Ella’s a nice lady. And she got her wish. You didn’t spend
your birthday alone.â€
I snuggled further
into the mattress. “Something tells me this wasn’t what she had
in mind.â€
“Oh, come on! Give
the lady some credit. She might be middle-aged, but she’s not
dead. This was exactly what she had in mind.â€
It was so far from
every concept I’d ever had about Ella, I gasped. “She’d be
mortified.â€
“She’d be
jealous.â€
He was right. This
time, I was the one who grinned.
“So . . .†Quinn
had tucked his cell phone under his pillow. Such are the demands of
a homicide detective’s job. He reached for it and checked the
time. “Now we’ve got an hour and fifty minutes. How do you want
to spend the time?â€
Oh come on! I really
don’t have to say how I responded, do I?
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Good thing I live
close to Garden View Cemetery. By the time we were done, I had less
than an hour to get to work.
Freezing, I slipped
into my flannel robe and stood in front of my open closet,
wondering what to wear to the office, while Quinn took a shower,
then offered to make coffee and toast. While he was at it, he
called his lieutenant and, as casually as if it was an everyday
thing, told her he’d been delayed and he’d be a little
late.
Maybe it was an
everyday thing.
In spite of myself,
I wondered how many mornings he spent just like this. And where he
spent them. And who he spent them with.
Just as quickly, I
told myself to stop being small-minded, plucked a pair of
creamy-colored wool pants off their hanger, and went in search of
the brown mohair sweater my mom had given me for Christmas. By the
time I found it in a pile of clothes I’d brought home from the
dry cleaner and never put away, the coffee was ready, so before I
headed into the shower, I poured a cup and took a gulp. Quinn made
good coffee. Quinn, I can say with some authority, did a lot of
things really well.
“Oh no.†When I
turned to slip past where he was sitting at my kitchen table, he
grabbed my hand. He held out a piece of toast coated with
strawberry jam. “You haven’t eaten breakfast.â€
“I don’t have
time for breakfast.â€
“It’s the most
important meal of the day.â€
I could have argued.
I would have—honest—if he hadn’t pulled me onto his lap,
wrapped his arms around me, and put the toast to my lips. I took a
bite.
“See?†Quinn
settled me and reached around me for his coffee cup. He must have
been warm-blooded; he was wearing only boxers. His skin was still
warm from the shower. I sunk back against him. He smelled like my
mango bath gel. “Don’t you feel better already?â€
“I didn’t feel
bad to begin with.â€
He patted my butt.
“I’ll say.â€
“Not what I
meant.â€
“But true,
nonetheless.†Though it was piping hot, he drank down his coffee.
When he spoke again, I didn’t have to look over my shoulder to
know he was smiling. One night with Quinn and already, I could
recognize the purr of satisfaction in his voice. “I was just
thinking,†he said. “You know, about last fall. About what
might have happened if you never broke down and called
me.â€
Did my shoulders
automatically shoot back and my spine stiffen? I didn’t like to
think I was that touchy, but it was hard to deny facts. Before I
said a word, I forced myself to relax. I took another bite of
toast, too. Maybe the strawberry jam would sweeten the acid note in
my voice. “Is that what you call it, breaking down? I didn’t
know this was some kind of competition.â€
“Not what I
meant.†He shooed me away long enough to get up and pour another
cup of coffee, but when he sat back down and patted his lap,
inviting me to get comfortable again, I pretended not to notice.
“I meant I’m glad we’ve been seeing each
other.â€
“And we might not
be if I didn’t make the first move.â€
His shrug said it
all. “Last fall when you were messing around pretending to
investigate the death of that ancient rock star—â€
“I wasn’t
messing around. I found his killer, didn’t I?â€
“And nearly got
yourself killed in the bargain.†I would have been offended if it
wasn’t true. And if Quinn hadn’t risked his own life to save
mine when the killer got the best of me, tied me up, and tossed me
in Lake Erie.
He washed away his
comment with a sip of coffee. “I told you then that I wasn’t
going to be the one to come running after you. It’s not the way I
work.â€
“Oh, you work
things like this, do you?†My voice was sharper than I would have
liked, and I hoped Quinn didn’t notice. He never flinched, so
maybe he didn’t. Or maybe that meant he did. In an effort to
contain my frustration, I curled my hands into fists. “I don’t
think either one of us wants to fight.â€
“Who’s
fighting?†He finished the last of a piece of toast and brushed
the crumbs from his hands. When he was done with his coffee, he
took his cup to the sink. “I said I’m glad we’re seeing each
other. There, I’m being perfectly honest and aboveboard. I’m
showing my softer side the way women say men never do. Big points
for me.†He did his best to smooth my ruffled feathers with a
thousand-watt smile. “And hey, you have to admit, no matter what,
I’m better than that dead guy you said you were dating last
fall.â€
This time, I
didn’t smile back. I mean, how could I? Though Quinn thought
I’d been kidding the autumn before when I told him I had to pass
on a date with him because I was waiting at the cemetery for a dead
guy, he didn’t know I was as serious as a heart attack. In fact,
the dead guy in question wasn’t just any dead guy. He was rock
legend Damon Curtis, and truth be told, we weren’t just dating.
We were in love. Of course, the whole dead thing has a way of
ruining even the best of relationships. Damon was incorporeal. I
was pining. Our romance was doomed from the start.
But come to think of
it (and believe me, I’d thought about it plenty since the day I
solved his murder and Damon crossed over and left me with nothing
but questions about how I could live my empty life to its fullest),
what I had with him was far more real—and far more
profound—than anything I’d ever had with any other
guy.
Present company
included.
The thought caught
me off guard, and I gave myself a mental slap. Quinn had never
lied. He never pretended this was something more than it was. What
it was, was great sex and a night to remember, and back before I
met Damon, that had always been enough for me. It was enough for me
now.
Wasn’t
it?
My coffee tasted
bitter, and I went to the sink and spilled it out. “One too many
sour-apple martinis and even the most levelheaded girl is apt to do
crazy things,†I grumbled.
Quinn frowned in
return. “Are you saying you only went to bed with me because you
were drunk?â€
“Maybe not drunk
enough.â€
“Which means,
what? That you’re sorry we—â€
“I wasn’t.
Can’t that be enough?â€
“Does it have to
be?â€
Even I wasn’t sure
what we were arguing about; I only knew that there was some doubt
niggling at my insides, chilling all the places that had been
oh-so-hot just a short time before. Once upon a time, a night like
the one I’d just had would have been the stuff of dreams. And
now?
Now, I wondered
where we were headed, me and Quinn. I questioned whether we were
suited for each other and whether we could ever be compatible for
more than one night, no matter how incredible it happened to
be.
I found myself
examining a conscience I never even knew I had until I started into
this investigation-for-the-dead gig, and when I did, I had no
choice but to face the stark truth: I could never be completely
honest with Quinn—not about the ghosts or my Gift or the reason I
investigated murders that most people had long forgotten—because
if I was, he’d think I was a nut job. And if I couldn’t be
honest with him . . . Well, then we couldn’t ever have anything
that would pass for a relationship.
My shoulders
slumped. “Sorry,†I said, because let’s face it, even though
he and I were talking about different things, I was sorry, and it
was what he wanted to hear anyway. “I can be cranky in the
morning.â€
“That’s good to
know.†When he moved toward me, I didn’t back away. “I’ll
be careful from now on.â€
“Is there going to
be a now on?â€
He stopped in his
tracks. “Is that what this is about? I didn’t think you were
the kind of girl who was picky about—â€
“What? About
wanting the guy she’s with to respect her? To like her? About
wanting to know that he realizes she’s smart and savvy and
capable of doing more than just keeping him happy in
bed?â€
When he closed in on
me, a mischievous smile played around the corners of his mouth.
“I like you,†he said. He toyed with one end of the belt that
cinched my robe around my waist. “I respect you. I think you’re
savvy and capable and—â€
“Smart?†I
looked him in the eye.
“Not if it means
you getting tangled up in any more of my
investigations.â€
“Oh, like I really
have a choice!â€
“Don’t
you?â€
It was another
opportunity to tell him about my Gift, and I so didn’t want to go
there. There were worse things than arguing with Quinn about . . .
er . . . whatever it was we were arguing about. I might be willing
to bare my body and my fantasies to him, but when it came to my
soul, that was another thing altogether.
I back-stepped
toward the bathroom. “I’ve got to get moving,†I
said.
“Right now?†He
loosened the tie on my robe and slipped his hands inside.
“You’ve got—â€
“Thirty
minutes.†My suspicions were confirmed by the clock that hung
above the sink.
Which didn’t mean
it was easy to ignore the thrill that raced up my spine when Quinn
skimmed his hands over my hips.
And have I mentioned
that Quinn’s got a chest that looks as if it were chipped out of
marble?
“Really, I’ve
got to get going.†I made a halfhearted attempt to pull away, and
I wasn’t sure if I was disappointed or relieved when he let me
go.
Before I could
decide—or change my mind—I hurried into the bathroom. When I
turned on the shower, I made sure the water was cold.
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Even a ticking clock
and the sense of obligation I felt to get to work reasonably on
time wasn’t enough to hurry me. Not too much, anyway. A girl has
to have standards, after all, and I’m all about tradition. I
wasn’t about to start a new one by arriving at the office without
makeup or with my hair a mess. By the time I walked out of the
bathroom fit to be seen in public, Quinn was dressed. He was also
just snapping closed my cell phone.
“It rang just as I
was walking by,†he said by way of explanation. “That was
Dan.â€
I stopped mid-stride
and gave him a look I can only imagine was
incredulous.
“Dan? Dan
Callahan?â€
“That’s what the
guy said. And get this, he said he was returning your call from
back in the fall. Nothing like waiting a few months to catch up on
messages, huh?â€
“Dan? Dan
Callahan?â€
Quinn is not known
for his patience. Which explains why he didn’t bother answering a
second time. He slanted me a look. “You’re
surprised.â€
“You think?â€
Sarcasm did not become me, and I avoided it on all occasions.
Except, of course, when it was absolutely necessary. Too taken by
surprise to do anything else, I flopped down on the couch. “Dan?
Are you sure that’s what he said?â€
This time, he
didn’t even pretend he was listening. Quinn went over to the
dining room table where he’d left his shoulder holster and gun
the night before. He strapped the holster on and slipped his suit
coat over it.
“You didn’t call
this Dan guy around the same time you called me last fall, did you?
I mean, you weren’t hedging your bets or anything, were
you?â€
This time, I got to
be the one who avoided the question. “What did he want?†I
asked instead.
Quinn shrugged.
“Said he’s been busy. Said he’s sorry he hasn’t had the
chance to return your call. Something about being out of the
country for the last couple months. He said he read about that
rock-and-roll murder investigation in all the papers and he said to
tell you he was glad he was able to help you solve your case.†He
looked at me hard. “You had a case? And he helped you solve
it?â€
I thought about the
best way to answer and decided almost instantly there was no use
even trying. What Dan had done was provide me with the
EVP—that’s electronic voice phenomenon, a term used by
paranormal investigators to explain the ghostly sounds they
sometimes record—that enabled me to get my investigation on the
right track.
Quinn’s Burberry
raincoat was tossed on a living room chair. He picked it up, but he
never took his eyes off me.
I may have been in
shock from the news of Dan’s call, but I’m not stupid. I knew
Quinn was waiting for me to tell him who, exactly, Dan was. I might
have done it, too. If only I could figure it out
myself.
See, Dan Callahan
was just another of the big question marks in my life, a brain
researcher who wasn’t, who knew more about ghosts than he should
have even though he said he didn’t. Get it? He’d been MIA for
months, and now, out of nowhere, he was back. Just like that. And
just like that, I was supposed to find the words that made sense of
it all?
I shook my head,
trying to clear my thoughts as I struggled for an explanation that
would appease Quinn and help me sort through the tidal wave of
emotions that swamped me. “Dan’s this guy I know,†I
said.
“I’m this guy
you know.â€
“I don’t know
Dan like I know you.†I didn’t say it to satisfy any caveman
tendencies Quinn might have. Unfortunate or otherwise, it happened
to be the truth. “Dan and I are just friends. Not even friends.
We’re acquaintances.â€
Was I imagining the
spark of satisfaction that flared in Quinn’s impossibly green
eyes? I think not. He headed for the door. “Dan said he’s going
to be out of town for a couple weeks, but he’ll give you a call
when he gets back.â€
“OK.†It seemed
like a perfectly stupid thing to say considering the enormity of
all Quinn had just told me. “Did he say anything
else?â€
“Well yeah, he
did.†With his hand on the doorknob, Quinn paused and turned to
me. “He said that now that you’ve had a chance to think about
everything he did for you, maybe you’ll trust him and you two can
finally be open and honest with each other. Call me nuts, but I
don’t think a guy who leaves another guy—me—a message about
being open and honest with you is exactly ready to be open and
honest with you. If you know what I mean.â€
So much for my
trying to dodge the bullet with the ol’ we’re just friends story. I wasn’t sure how I
was going to explain what I didn’t understand myself, but as it
turned out, I didn’t have to. My phone rang again.
Yeah, I was a little
fast picking it up. And a little disappointed when I realized the
voice on the other end was Ella’s and not Dan’s. I listened to
her launch into what she had to say at the same time I watched
Quinn watch me. He thought it might be Dan, too, and when I nodded
and automatically responded to something my boss said with a
“Yes, Ella,†I saw some of the stiffness go out of his
shoulders.
When Ella was done
and I hung up, Quinn opened the door.
“I’ve got an FOP
meeting tonight,†he said, and explained with, “that’s the
Fraternal Order of Police. I’m giving a report about finances
and...well, stuff you wouldn’t be interested in. Tomorrow
night?â€
It took me a moment
to realize what he was asking.
“Tomorrow night?
You mean you want to—â€
“See you again?â€
Quinn laughed. “You don’t think I’m going to hold that
being-cranky-in-the-morning thing against you, do
you?â€
“And
Dan?â€
His chin came up a
fraction of an inch. “You said you were just
friends.â€
“We
are.â€
“Which means that
if I show up here tomorrow night, say about seven, we
could—â€
“I won’t be
here.†I looked at the phone in my hands. “That was Ella. Now
all three of her girls have the flu and she thinks she’s coming
down with it, too. She’s supposed to go to a cemetery conference,
and there’s no way. I have to go in her place.â€
“So no date
tomorrow night?â€
“No date
tomorrow.†My head was already reeling through the possibilities
of what I’d need to pack and whether I needed a quick trip to
Nordstrom for any last-minute outfits, and how I’d get to the
airport in time. “By tomorrow night, I’ll be in
Chicago.â€