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Jonathan Kellerman

Where there is life there is devotion. Where there is death there is obsession. Patty Bigelow thought she’d finally figured life out. Then her wayward sister Leila abandons her child, Tanya, on her doorstep. The aunt and troubled niece slowly learn to live together, with the help of Dr Alex Delaware’s counselling. Now, fifteen years later, Tanya is back in Alex’s office, a self-possessed Harvard student, about to enter graduate school in clinical psychology. Patty – the only real mother she's ever known – has died and left Tanya with a chilling legacy: a deathbed confession that her aunt murdered a man years earlier. Tanya has tried to let go of the confession. But it soon becomes clear that nothing short of finding out the truth will do. And she needs Alex’s help…

Jonathan Kellerman


Book 21 in the Alex Delaware series, 2007

To Faye


Patty Bigelow hated surprises and did her best to avoid them.

God had other ideas.

Patty’s concept of a supreme being wavered between Ho-Ho-Ho Santa and a Fire-Eyed Odin thrusting thunderbolts.

Either way, a white-bearded guy bunking down in the clouds. Depending on his mood, dispensing goodies or playing marbles with the planets.

If pressed, Patty would’ve called herself an agnostic. But when life went haywire why not be like everyone else and blame A Greater Power?

The night Lydia surprised her, Patty had been home for a couple of hours, trying to wind down after a tough day in the E.R. Mellowing out with a beer, then another, and when that didn’t work, giving in to The Urge.

First, she straightened the apartment, doing stuff that didn’t need doing. She ended up using a toothbrush on the kitchen counter grout, cleaned the toothbrush with a wire brush that she washed under hot water and picked clean. Still tense, she saved the best for last: arranging her shoes-wiping each loafer, sneaker, and sandal clean with a chamois, sorting and re-sorting by color, making sure everything pointed outward at precisely the same angle.

Time for blouses and sweaters…the doorbell rang.

One twenty a.m. in Hollywood, who the heck would be dropping in?

Patty got irritated, then nervous. Should’ve bought that gun. She took a carving knife to the door, made sure to use the peephole.

Saw black sky, no one out there…oh, yes there was.

When she realized what Lydia had done, she stood there, too stunned to blame anyone.

Lydia Bigelow Nardulli Soames Biefenbach was Patty’s baby sister but she’d crammed a lot more living into her thirty-five years than Patty wanted to think about.

Dropout years, groupie years, barmaid years, sitting-on-back-of-the-Harley years. Vegas, Miami, San Antonio, Fresno, Mexico, New Mexico, Wyoming, Montana. No time for postcards or sisterly calls, the only time Patty heard from Liddie had to do with money.

Lydia was quick to point out that the arrests were chickenshit, nothing that ever stuck. Responding to Patty’s silence when she collect-called from some backcountry lockup and wheedled bail money.

She always paid the money back, Patty granted her that. Always the same schedule: six months later, to the day.

Liddie could be efficient when she wanted to, but not when it came to men. Before, in between, and after the three stupid marriages flowed an endless parade of pierced, inked, dirty-fingernailed, vacant-eyed losers who Liddie insisted on calling her “honeys.”

All that fooling around, but miraculously only one kid.

Three years ago, Lydia taking twenty-three hours to push the baby out, alone in some osteopathic hospital outside of Missoula. Tanya Marie, five pounds, six ounces. Liddie sent Patty a newborn picture and Patty sent money. Most newborns were red and monkeylike but this kid looked pretty cute. Two years later, Lydia and Tanya showed up at Patty’s door, dropping in on the way to Alaska.

No talk about why Juneau, were they meeting anyone, was Liddie clean. No hints about who the father was. Patty wondered if Lydia even knew.

Patty was no kid person and her neck got tight when she saw the toddler holding Liddie’s hand. Expecting some wild little brat, given the circumstances. Her niece turned out to be sweet and quiet, kind of pretty with wispy white-blond hair, searching green eyes that would’ve fit a middle-aged woman, and restless hands.

“Drop-in” stretched to a ten-day stay. Patty ended up deciding Tanya was real cute, not much of a pain, if you didn’t count the stink of dirty diapers.

Just as suddenly as she’d shown up, Liddie announced they were leaving.

Patty was relieved but also disappointed. “You did okay, Lid, she’s a real little lady.” Standing in her front door, watching as Lydia dragged the kid out with one hand, toted a battered suitcase with the other. A Yellow Cab idled at the curb, belching smog. Noise rose from down on the boulevard. Across the street a bum slouched past.

Lydia flipped her hair and grinned. Her once-gorgeous smile was insulted by two seriously chipped front teeth.

“A lady? Meaning not like me, Pats?”

“Oh, stop, take it for what it was,” said Patty.

“Hey,” said Lydia, “I’m a slut and proud of it.” Shaking her chest and wiggling her butt. Laughing loud enough for the cabbie to turn his head.

Tanya was two but she must’ve known Mommy was being inappropriate because she winced. Patty was sure of it.

Patty wanted to protect her. “All I meant to say was she’s great, you can bring her anytime.” Smiling at Tanya but the kid was looking at the sidewalk.

Liddie laughed. “Even with all those shitty diapers?”

Now the kid stared off into the distance. Patty walked over to her and touched the top of her little head. Tanya started to recoil, then froze.

Patty bent a bit and talked softly. “You’re a good girl, a real little lady.”

Tanya laced her hands in front of her and mustered up the most painful little smile Patty had ever seen.

As if some inner voice was coaching her in the fine points of niece-to-aunt etiquette.

Lydia said, “Shitty diapers are okay? Cool, I’ll remember that, Pats, on the off chance we ever roll around here again.”

“What’s in Juneau?”

“Snow.” Lydia laughed and her boobs bounced, barely restrained by a hot-pink halter top. She had tattoos now, too many of them. Her hair looked dry and coarse, her eyes were getting grainy around the edges, and those long dancer’s legs were getting jiggly around the inner thighs. All that and the broken teeth shouted Racing Over the Hill! Patty wondered what would happen when all of Lydia ’s looks went south.

“Stay warm,” she said.

“Oh, yeah,” said Lydia. “I got my ways for that.” Taking hold of the little girl’s wrist and pulling her toward the car.

Patty went after them. Bent to get eye-level with the kid as Lydia handed the suitcase off to the cabbie. “Nice to meet you, little Tanya.”

That sounded awkward. What did she know about kids?

Tanya bit her lip, chewed hard.

Now here it was, thirteen months later, a hot night in June, the air stinking of Patty didn’t know what, and the kid was back at her door, tiny as ever, wearing saggy jeans and a frayed white top, her hair curlier, more yellow than white.

Biting and gnawing exactly the same way. Holding a stuffed orca that was coming apart at the seams.

This time, she stared straight up at Patty.

A rumbling red Firebird was parked exactly where the cab had been. One of those souped-up numbers with a spoiler and fat tires and wire dealies clamping down the hood. The hood thumped like a fibrillating heart.

As Patty hurried toward the car the Firebird peeled out, Lydia ’s platinum shag barely visible through the tinted glass on the passenger side.

Patty thought her sister had waved, but she was never really sure.

The kid hadn’t moved.

When Patty got back to her, Tanya reached in a pocket and held out a note.

Cheap white paper, red letterhead from the Crazy Eight Motor Hotel, Holcomb, Nevada.

Below that, Lydia’s handwriting, way too pretty for someone with only junior high. Lydia had never put any effort into learning penmanship or anything else during those nine years but things came easy to her.

The kid started to whimper.

Patty took her hand-cold and teeny and soft-and read the note.

Dear Big Sis,

You said she was a lady.

Maybe with you she can really turn out to be one.

Little Sis


“Not a whodunit,” said Milo. “A did-it-even-happen?”

I said, “You think it’s a waste of time.”

“Don’t you?”

I shrugged. We both drank.

“We’re talking terminal illness, probably went to her brain,” he said. “That’s a mere layman’s theory.”

He pulled his glass closer, churned little viscous waves with his stirrer. We were at a steak house a couple miles west of downtown, facing up to massive T-bones, salads bigger than some people’s lawns, icy Martinis.

One thirty p.m., a cool Wednesday afternoon, celebrating the end of a monthlong lust-murder trial. The defendant, a woman whose artistic pretensions led her to a killing partnership, had surprised everyone by pleading guilty.

When Milo slogged out of the courtroom, I asked him why she’d given up.

“No reason given. Maybe she’s hoping for a shot at parole.”

“Could that ever happen?”

“You’d think not, but if the zeitgeist gets mushy, who the hell knows?”

“Big words this early?” I said.

“Ethos, social ambience, take your pick. What I’m saying is for the last few years everyone’s been big on wiping out crime. Then we do our job too well and John Q. gets complacent. The Times just ran one of their heartrending series about how a life sentence for murder actually means life and ain’t that tragic. More of that and we’re back to the sweet days of easy parole.”

“That assumes people read the paper.”

He huffed.

I’d been subpoenaed as prosecution witness, had spent four weeks on call, three days sitting on a wooden bench in a long, gray corridor of the Criminal Court Building on Temple.

At nine thirty a.m. I’d been working a crossword puzzle when Tanya Bigelow phoned to tell me her mother had died of cancer a month ago and she wanted a session.

It had been years since I’d seen her or her mother. “I’m so sorry, Tanya. I can see you today.”

“Thank you, Dr. Delaware.” Her voice caught.

“Is there anything you want to tell me now?”

“Not really-it’s not about grief. It’s something…I’m sure you’ll think it’s strange.”

I waited. She told me some of it. “You probably think I’m obsessing.”

“Not at all,” I said. Lying in the service of therapy.

“I’m really not, Dr. Delaware. Mommy wouldn’t have-sorry, I have to run to class. Can you see me later this afternoon?”

“How about five thirty?”

“Thank you so much, Dr. Delaware. Mom always respected you.”

Milo sawed along the bone, held up a wedge of meat for inspection. The lighting made his face a gravel yard. “This look like prime to you?”

“Tastes fine,” I said. “I probably shouldn’t have told you about the call-confidentiality. But if it turns out to be anything serious, you know I’ll be back.”

The steak disappeared between his lips. His jaws worked and the acne pits on his cheeks became dancing commas. He used his free hand to push a lick of black hair off a mottled forehead. Swallowing, he said, “Sad about Patty.”

“You knew her?”

“Used to see her in the E.R. when I dropped in on Rick. Hi, how’s it going, have a nice day.”

“Did you know she was sick?”

“Only way I’d know was if Rick told me and we’ve got a new rule: No business-talk after hours.”

When cases are open, a homicide detective’s hours never end. Rick Silverman works the E.R. at Cedars for long stretches. The two of them talk about boundaries all the time but their plans die young.

I said, “So you have no idea if she was still working with Rick?”

“Same answer. Confessing some ‘terrible thing’ that she did, huh? Makes no sense, Alex. Why would the kid want to dredge stuff up about her mother?”

Because the kid gets hold of something and doesn’t let go. “Good question.”

“When did you treat her?”

“First time was twelve years ago, she was seven.”

“Twelve on the nose, not approximately,” he said.

“Some cases you remember.”

“Tough case?”

“She did fine.”

“Super-shrink scores again.”

“Lucky,” I said.

He stared at me. Ate more steak. Put his fork down. “This ain’t prime, at most it’s choice.”

We left the restaurant and he returned downtown for a paper-clearing meeting at the D.A.’s office. I took Sixth Street to its western terminus at San Vicente, where a red light gave me time to phone the Cedars-Sinai emergency room. I asked for Dr. Richard Silverman and was still on hold when the light turned green. Hanging up, I continued north to La Cienega, then west on Gracie Allen into the sprawl of the hospital grounds.

Patty Bigelow, dead at fifty-four. She’d always seemed so sturdy.

Parking in a visitors lot, I walked toward the E.R. entrance, trying to recall the last time I’d spoken to Rick professionally since he’d sent Patty and Tanya my way.


My best friend was a gay homicide detective but that didn’t translate to frequent contact with the man he lived with. In the course of a year, I might chat with Rick half a dozen times when he picked up the phone at their house, the tone always light, neither of us wanting to prolong. Toss in a few dinners at celebratory times-Robin and I laughing and toasting with the two of them-and that was it.

When I reached the sliding glass doors, I put on my best doctor swagger. I’d dressed for court in a blue pin-striped suit, white shirt, yellow tie, shiny shoes. The receptionist barely looked up.

The E.R. was quiet, a few elderly patients languishing on gurneys, no electricity or tragedy in the air. As I approached the triage bay, I spotted Rick walking toward me, flanked by a couple of residents. All three of them wore blood-speckled scrubs, and Rick had on a long white coat. The residents wore badges. Rick didn’t; everyone knows who he is.

When he saw me, he said something to the others that made them depart.

Detouring to a sink, he scrubbed with Betadine, dried off, extended a hand. “Alex.”

I’m always careful not to exert too much pressure on fingers that suture blood vessels. Rick’s grip was the usual combination of firm and tentative.

His long, lean face was capped by tight gray curls. His military mustache held on to some brown but the tips had faded. Smart enough to know better, he still frequents tanning salons. Today’s bronze veneer looked fresh-maybe a noontime bake instead of lunch.

Milo stands between six two and three, depending on how his mood affects his posture. His weight fluctuates between two forty and way too high. Rick’s six feet even but sometimes he appears just as tall as “the Big Guy” because his back’s straight and he never tops one seventy.

Today, I noticed a stoop I’d never seen before.

He said, “What brings you here?”

“I dropped in to see you.”

“Me? What’s up?”

“Patty Bigelow.”

“Patty,” he said, eyeing the exit sign. “I could use some coffee.”

We poured from the doctors’ urn and walked to an empty examining room that smelled of alcohol and methane. Rick sat in the doctor’s chair and I perched on the table.

He noticed that the paper roll on the table needed changing, said, “Scoot up for a sec,” and ripped it free. Wadding and tossing, he washed his hands again. “So Tanya did call you. The last time I saw her was a few days after Patty died. She needed some help getting hold of Patty’s effects, was running into hospital bureaucracy, but even after I helped with that I got the feeling she wanted to talk about something. I asked her if there was anything else, she said no. Then about a week after that, she phoned, asked if you were still in practice or were you doing police work exclusively. I said from what I understood, you were always available to former patients. She thanked me but once again, I got the feeling she was holding back. I didn’t say anything to you in case she didn’t follow through. I’m glad she did. Poor kid.”

I said, “What kind of cancer got Patty?”

“Pancreatic. By the time she was diagnosed, it had eaten her liver. A couple of weeks before, I noticed her looking worn down, but Patty on two cylinders was better than most people on full-burn.”

He blinked. “When I saw she was jaundiced, I insisted she get it checked out. Three weeks later she was gone.”

“Oh, man.”

“Nazi war criminals make it to ninety, she dies.” He massaged one hand with the other. “I always thought of Patty as one of those intrepid settler women who could hunt bison or whatever, skin, butcher, cook, turn the leftovers into useful objects.”

He pulled at one eyelid. “All those years working with her and I couldn’t do a damn thing to change the outcome. I got her the best oncologist I know and made sure Joe Michelle-our chief of anesthesiology-managed her pain personally.”

“Did you spend much time with her at the end?”

“Not as much as I should’ve,” he said. “I’d show up, we’d make a little small talk, she’d kick me out. I’d argue to make sure she meant it. She meant it.”

He plucked at his mustache. “All those years she was my main RN, but apart from occasional coffee in the cafeteria, we never socialized, Alex. When I took over, I was an all-work, no-play jerk. My staff managed to show me the error of my ways and I got more socially oriented. Holiday parties, keeping a list of people’s birthdays, making sure there were cakes and flowers, all that morale-boosting stuff.” He smiled. “One year, at the Christmas party, Big Guy agreed to be Santa.”

“That’s an image.”

“Ho, ho, ho, grumble, grumble. Thank God there were no kids to sit in his lap. What I was getting at, Alex, is that Patty wasn’t at that party or any other. Always straight home when she finished charting. When I tried to convince her otherwise it was ‘I love you, Richard, but I am needed at home.’”

“Single-parent responsibilities?”

“Guess so. Tanya was the one person Patty tolerated in her hospital room. Kid seems sweet. Premed, she told me she’s thinking psychiatry or neurology. Maybe you made a good impression.”

He got up, stretched his arms over his head. Sat back down.

“Alex, the poor kid’s not even twenty years old and she’s alone.” He reached for his coffee, stared into the cup, didn’t drink. “Any particular reason you took the time to come over here?”

“I was wondering if there was anything about Patty I should know.”

“She got sick, she died, it stinks,” he said. “Why am I thinking that’s not what you’re after?”

I considered how much to tell him. Technically, he could be thought of as the referring physician. Or not.

I said, “Tanya’s wanting to see me has nothing to do with grief. She wants to talk about a ‘terrible thing’ Patty confessed on her deathbed.”

His head shot forward. “What?”

“That’s as much as she’d say over the phone. Make any sense to you?”

“Sounds ridiculous to me. Patty was the most moral person I’ve met. Tanya’s stressed out. People say all kinds of things when they’re under pressure.”

“That could be it.”

He thought for a while. “Maybe this ‘terrible thing’ was Patty’s guilt about leaving Tanya. Or she was just talking nonsense because of how sick she was.”

“Did the disease affect her cognition?”

“Wouldn’t surprise me, but it’s not my field. Talk to her oncologist. Tziporah Ganz.” His beeper sounded and he read the text message. “Beverly Hills EMTs, infarc arriving momentarily…gotta go try to save someone, Alex.”

He walked me through the glass doors, and I thanked him for his time.

“For what it was worth. I’m sure all this melodrama will fizzle to nothing.” He rolled his shoulders. “Thought you and Big Guy were stuck in court for the rest of the century.”

“The case closed this morning. Surprise guilty plea.”

His beeper went off again. “Maybe that’s Himself giving me the good news…nope, more data from the ambulance…eighty-six-year-old male with subterranean pulse…at least we’re talking a full life span.”

He stashed the beeper. “Not that anyone makes those value judgments, of course.”

“Of course.”

We shook hands again.

He said, “The primary ‘terrible thing’ is Patty’s gone. I’m certain it’ll all boil down to Tanya being stressed out. You’ll help her come to grips with that.”

As I turned to leave, he said, “Patty was a great nurse. She should have attended some of those parties.”


My house sits high above Beverly Glen, paper-white and sharp-edged, a pale wound in the green. Sometimes as I approach, it seems a foreign place, fashioned for someone with cold sensibilities. Inside, it’s high walls, big windows, hard floors, soft furniture to gentle the edges. An assertive silence I can live with because Robin’s back.

This week she was away, at a luthiers’ convention up in Healdsburg, showing two guitars and a mandolin. But for the trial, I might’ve gone with her.

We’re back together after two breakups, seem to be getting it right. When I start wondering about the future, I stop myself. If you want to get fancy, that’s cognitive behavior therapy.

Along with her clothes and her books and her drawing pencils, she brought a ten-week-old, fawn-colored French bulldog pup and offered me naming honors. The dog flourished in the company of strangers so I christened her Blanche.

She’s six months old now, a wrinkly, soft-bellied, flat-faced ball of serenity who spends most of her day sleeping. Her predecessor, a feisty brindle stud named Spike, had died peacefully at a mature age. I’d rescued him but he’d chosen Robin as his love object. So far, Blanche didn’t discriminate.

The first time Milo saw her, he said, “This one you could think of as almost kinda pretty.”

Blanche made a little purring sound, rubbed her knobby head against his shin, and turned up her lips.

“Is it smiling at me or is it gas?”

“Smiling,” I said. “She does that.”

He got down and took a closer look. Blanche licked his hand, moved in for the cuddle. “This is the same species as Spike?”

I said, “Think of you and Robin.”

No welcoming bark as I passed through the kitchen and entered the laundry room. Blanche dozed in her crate, door open. My whispered “Good afternoon” caused her to open one huge brown eye. The natural stub that serves as a tail for Frenchies began bobbing frenetically but the rest of her remained inert.

“Hey, Sleeping Beauty.”

She lifted the other eyelid, yawned, considered her options. Finally padded out and shook herself awake. I picked her up and carried her into the kitchen. The liver snap I offered would’ve sent Spike into a feeding frenzy. Blanche allowed me to hold it as she nibbled daintily. I toted her into the bedroom and placed her on a chair. She sighed and went back to sleep.

“That’s because I’m such a fascinating guy.”

I searched the storage closet for Tanya Bigelow’s chart, found it at the bottom of a drawer, and skimmed. Initial treatment at age seven, one follow-up three years later.

Nothing relevant in my notes. No surprise.

At five twenty the bell rang.

A clear-skinned young blonde in a white oxford shirt and pressed jeans stood on the front landing. “You look exactly the same, Dr. Delaware.”

Undersized child had morphed to petite young woman. I searched for memory jags, came up with a few: the same triangular face, square chin, pale green eyes. The tremulous lips.

I wondered if I’d have picked her out on the street.

I said, “You’ve changed a bit,” and motioned her in.

“I sure hope so,” she said. “Last time I was a baby.”

Anthropologists say blond is attractive because so few towheads stay that way, it represents youth. Tanya’s yellow curls had relaxed to honey waves. She wore it long, gathered in a high knot held in place by black chopsticks.

No resemblance to Patty at all.

Why should there be?

We headed up the hallway. As we neared the office, Blanche stepped out. Shook herself, yawned, padded forward. I scooped her up.

“Now, this is different,” said Tanya. “The only livestock you had last time were those gorgeous fish.”

“They’re still here.”

She reached out to pet the dog, changed her mind.

“Her name is Blanche. She’s well beyond friendly and into gregarious.”

Tanya extended a cautious finger. “Hi, cutie.” A puppy shiver jelloed Blanche’s rotund little body. A moist black nose sniffed in Tanya’s direction. Meaty lips curled upward.

“Am I anthropomorphizing, Dr. Delaware, or is she smiling?”

“You’re not, she is.”

So cute.”

“I’ll put her back in her crate and we can get started.”

“A crate? Is that necessary?”

“It makes her feel more secure.”

She looked doubtful.

I said, “Think of a baby in a crib as opposed to rolling around in open space.”

“I guess,” she said, “but don’t banish her on my account. I love dogs.” She rubbed the top of Blanche’s head.

“Want to hold her?”

“I…if she’s okay with it.”

Blanche went along with the transfer with nary a twitch. Someone should study her brain chemistry and package it.

“She’s so warm-hey, cutie. Is she a pug?”

“French bulldog. If she gets too heavy-”

“Don’t worry, I’m stronger than I look.”

We settled in facing chairs.

“Comfy leather,” she said, stroking an arm. “That’s the same…” Looking down at Blanche. “Am I holding her correctly?”


She looked around the room. “Nothing in here has changed but the rest of the house is totally different. It used to be smaller. With wood sides, right? At first I didn’t think I had the right address.”

“We rebuilt a few years ago.” A psychopath had made the decision for us, torching everything we owned.

Tanya said, “It came out extremely stylish.”

“Thank you.”

“So,” she said. “Here I am.”

“Good to see you, Tanya.”

“Same here.” She looked around. “You probably think I should talk about Mommy’s death.”

“If you want to.”

“I really don’t, Dr. Delaware. I’m not in denial, it’s been a nightmare, I never thought I’d experience anything this horrifying. But I’m handling my grief as well as can be expected-does that sound like denial?”

“You’re the best judge of that, Tanya.”

“Well,” she said, “I really feel I am. I don’t bottle up my feelings. On the contrary, I cry. Oh, boy, I cry plenty. I still wake up every morning expecting to see her, but…”

Her eyes misted.

“It hasn’t been long,” I said.

“Sometimes it seems like yesterday. Sometimes, it’s as if she’s been gone forever…I suspected she was sick before she did.”

“She wasn’t feeling well?”

“She just wasn’t herself for a couple of weeks.”

Same thing Rick had said.

“Not that it stopped her from double-shifting or cooking or keeping up the house, but her appetite dropped and she started losing weight. When I pointed it out, she said don’t complain, maybe she’d finally be skinny. But that was the point. Mommy could never lose weight, no matter how hard she tried. I’m premed, knew enough bio to wonder about diabetes. One night, when she’d barely touched her dinner, I pointed out what was happening. She said it was just menopause, no big deal. But she’d started going into menopause two years ago and women typically gain, they don’t lose. I pointed that out but she brushed me off. Finally, a week later, she was forced to check it out.”

“Forced by what?”

“Dr. Silverman noticed the yellow in her eyes and insisted. But even with that, before she agreed to see a doc, she had blood drawn in the E.R. When the results came back, Dr. Silverman ordered an emergency CAT scan. The tumor was sitting right in the middle of the pancreas and there were metastases in her liver and her stomach and her intestines. She went downhill fast. Sometimes I wonder if the shock of knowing took all the fight out of her. Or maybe it was just the natural course of the disease.”

She sat straight-backed, dry-eyed. Petted Blanche slowly. Someone who didn’t know her might judge her detached.

I said, “How long was she ill?”

“From the day of diagnosis, twenty-five days. Most of that was spent in the hospital; she became too weak to live at home. In the beginning, she did her best to be ornery-complaining her tray wasn’t taken away promptly, griping that float nurses weren’t like regular nurses, there was no continuity of care. Every shift, she insisted on reading her chart, double-checked that her vitals had been recorded accurately. I guess it made her feel in control. Mommy was always big on control. Did she ever tell you about her childhood?”

“A bit.”

“Enough for you to know what happened to her in New Mexico?”

I nodded.

Small hands clenched. “It’s a miracle she turned out so wonderful.”

“She was a terrific person,” I said.

“She was an incredible person.” She studied an etching on the left wall. “That first week in the hospital, she was an absolute despot. Then she got too sick to fight, mostly slept and read fan rags-that’s what she called celebrity magazines. That’s when I knew it was really bad.”

She turned her lips inward. “Us, People, Star, OK! Stuff she’d always made fun of when I brought it home for weekend reading. I’m no star-chaser but I do work-study at the U. library fifteen hours a week and between that and premed, why not enjoy a little guilty pleasure? Mommy loved to kid me. Her fun reading consisted of investment books, the financial pages, and nursing journals. At heart she was an intellectual. People tended to underestimate her.”

“Serious error in judgment,” I said.

She petted Blanche. “True, but the country-girl image could also work against her. She told me before she met Dr. Silverman she never got what she deserved from her bosses. He appreciated her, made sure she received her promotions…anyway, I think you can see that I’m working through the grief. I don’t repress. Just the opposite, I force myself to remember everything I can. Like when you have a splinter and dig deep.”

I nodded.

“Sometimes,” she said, “I freak out, cry it out, get too tired to feel anything. Nights are the worst. I have nonstop dreams. That’s normal, right?”

“Dreams in which she appears?”

“It’s more than that. She’s there. Talks to me. I see her lips move, hear sound but can’t make out the words, it’s frustrating…sometimes I can smell her-the way she always smelled at night, toothpaste and talcum powder, it’s so vivid. Then I wake up and she’s not there and there’s a huge feeling of deflation. But I know that’s typical. I read several books on grief.”

She recited half a dozen titles. I knew four. Two were good.

“I found them on the Web, chose the ones with the best feedback.” Wincing. “I’ll just have to go through this. What I do need help with-and please forgive me but I’m not even sure you’re the right person to talk to about it…” Her cheeks colored. “I thought of talking to Dr. Silverman…I turned to you because Mommy respected you. So do I, of course. You helped me…” She compressed her lips again. Plinked one thumbnail with the other.

Smiling at me. “You’re not allowed to be angry, right?”

“What would I be angry about?”

“If I wasn’t totally up front-okay, let me just get it out. The real reason I’m here is that you work with that detective-Dr. Silverman’s significant other. I would’ve gone straight to Dr. Silverman but I really don’t know him that well and you were my therapist so I can tell you anything.” Deep breath. “Right?”

“You want me to put you in contact with Detective Sturgis.”

“If you think he can help.”


“Investigating,” she said. “Finding out exactly what happened.”

“The ‘terrible thing’ your mother confessed.”

“It wasn’t a confession, more like…there was drive there, Dr. Delaware. Drive and determination. Exactly the way Mommy got when a problem needed to be solved. You’re thinking I’m being ridiculous, she was sick, her brain was impaired. But as sick as she was, she clearly wanted me to focus.”

“On the terrible thing.”

She blinked. “My eyes itch. May I have a tissue, please?”

Swiping her lids, she exhaled.

Blanche’s flews billowed.

Tanya looked down at her. “Did she just imitate me?”

“Think of it as empathy.”

“Whoa. She’s the perfect psychologist’s dog.” Sudden smile. “When does she get her own Ph.D.?”

You talk to her,” I said. “She wants to be an attorney.”

When she stopped laughing, she said, “What was that? Comic relief?”

“Think of it as a pause for air.”

“Yes…so may I tell you exactly what happened?”

That’s what they pay me for.

I said, “I’m listening.”


“The second week was all about pain,” she said. “That was everyone’s focus except Mommy’s.”

“Hers was…”

“Getting stuff done. What she called putting her ducks in a row. At first, it upset me. I wanted to take care of her, tell her how much I loved her, but when I started to do that she’d cut me off. ‘Let’s talk about your future.’ Saying it slowly, gasping, struggling, and I’m thinking it’s a future without her.”

“Maybe that distracted her from the pain.”

The muscles around her eyes shivered. “Dr. Michelle-the anesthesiologist-had her hooked up to a morphine drip. The idea was to give her a constant flow, so she’d experience as little discomfort as possible. Most of the time she turned it off. I overheard Dr. Michelle tell a nurse she had to be suffering but there was nothing he could do. Do you remember how totally obstinate she could be?”

“She had definite opinions.”

“Ducks in a row,” she said. “She lectured and I had to take notes, there were so many details. It was like being in school.”

“What kind of details?”

“Financial. Financial security was a big thing for her. She told me about a trust fund she’d set up for my education when I was four. She thought I had no idea but I used to hear her talking to her broker over the phone. I pretended to be amazed. There were two life insurance policies with me as the sole beneficiary. She was proud of paying off the house, having no debts, between my job and the investments I’d be able to pay the property taxes and all the routine bills. She ordered me to sell my car-actually quoted me the blue-book value-and to keep hers because it was newer, would require less maintenance. She spelled out exactly how much I could spend per month, told me to get by with less if I could help it but always to dress well, appearances counted. Then there were all the phone numbers: broker, lawyer, accountant, plumber, electrician. She’d already contacted everyone, they were expecting to hear from me. I had to be in charge of my own life, now, and she expected I’d be mature enough to handle it. When she got to the part about selling her clothes at a garage sale or on eBay, I started crying and begged her to stop.”

“Did she?” I said.

“Tears always worked with Mommy. When I was little I took advantage of that.”

“All that planning for your future had to be overwhelming.”

“She’s going on about property tax and I’m like, ‘Soon, she’s not going to exist.’ It empowered her, Dr. Delaware, but it was tough. I had to recite back what I’d learned, like a pop quiz.”

“Knowing you understood was a comfort for her.”

“I hope so. I only wish we could’ve spent more time…that’s selfish, the key is to focus on the person who’s suffering, right?”

That sounded like a quote from a book.

“Of course.”

She hugged herself with one hand, kept the other on Blanche. Blanche licked her hand. Tanya started crying.

Pulling her hair loose, she freed a blond mane that she shook violently before reknotting and jamming in the chopsticks.

“Okay,” she said. “I’ll get to the point. It was Friday night. I got to the hospital later than usual, because I had organic chem lab and a lot of studying. Mommy looked so weak, I couldn’t believe the change since the morning. Her eyes were shut, her skin was greenish gray, her hands were like packages of twigs. The fan rags were piled up all around her, it looked like she was being swallowed by paper. I started straightening. She opened her eyes and whispered something I couldn’t hear so I put my ear close to her mouth.”

Twisting a chopstick. “At first I couldn’t even feel her breath and I pulled away, panicked. But she was looking straight up at me, the light was still on inside. Do you remember her eyes? How sharp and dark they were? They were like that then, Dr. Delaware-focused, staring up at me, she was moving her lips but they were so dry she couldn’t get the sound out. I wet a towel and she made a little kissy pucker and I bent and she touched her lips to my cheek. Then somehow she managed to push up with her head to get closer so I leaned down farther. She got one hand behind my neck and pressed. I could feel her I.V. tubing tickling the back of my ear.” She looked away. “I need to walk around.”

Placing Blanche on the floor, she stood. Blanche trotted over and settled in my lap.

Tanya crossed the room twice, then returned to her chair but remained on her feet. A hank of hair fell loose, blocking one eye. Her chest heaved.

“Her breath was like ice. She started talking again-gasping the words. What she said was, ‘Did bad.’ Then she repeated it. I said you could never do anything bad. She hissed so loud it hurt my ear, said, ‘Terrible thing, baby,’ and I could feel her face tremble.”

Stretching the corners of her eyes, she let go, took a deep breath. “This is the part I didn’t tell you over the phone. She said, ‘Killed him. Close by. Know it. Know.’ I’m still trying to figure it out. There were no men in her personal life, so it couldn’t mean close as in a relationship. The only other thing I can think of is she was being literal. Someone who lived near us. I’ve been racking my brains to see if I can remember some neighbor dying in a weird way, and I can’t. Just before I came to see you, we were living in Hollywood and I remember hearing sirens all the time and once in a while some drunk would knock on the door, but that’s it. Not that I’d ever believe she could ever hurt someone deliberately.”

She sat down.

I said, “You don’t know what to believe.”

“You think this is totally crazy. I did, too. I resisted dealing with it. But I can’t let go of it. Not because of my tendencies. Because Mommy wanted me to learn the truth. That’s what she meant by ‘Know it.’ It was important to her that I understand because the whole last week she was ordering my future and this was part of it.”

I kept silent.

“Maybe it is crazy. But the least I can do is check it out. That’s why I thought maybe Detective Sturgis could run a computer search on the places we lived to see if something happened nearby and we’d learn nothing and that would be it.”

Child of the cyber-age. I said, “LAPD’s computer system is pretty primitive, but I’ll ask. Before we get into that, you might consider-”

“If I’m prepared to learn something horrible. The answer is no, not really, but I don’t believe Mommy actually killed someone. That would be totally insane. What I’m thinking is at the worst she was involved in some kind of accident that she blamed herself for and she wanted to make sure it didn’t come back on me. Like a legal claim. She wanted to make sure I was prepared.”

She sat forward, played with her hair, used a long thick swatch to cover her eyes, let it drop.

I said, “After she told you all this, what did you say?”

“Nothing, because she fell asleep. It was like she’d unburdened herself and now she could rest. For the first time since she’d been hospitalized, she looked peaceful. I sat there for a while. Her nurse came in, checked her vitals, turned on the morphine drip, said she’d be out for at least six hours, I could leave and come back. I stuck around a little longer, finally went home because I had a test to study for.”

One hand clawed a chair arm. “The call came at three a.m. Mommy had passed in her sleep.”

“I’m so sorry, Tanya.”

“They said she didn’t suffer. I’d like to think that she went peacefully because she was able to express herself that last time. I need to honor her memory by following through. Since she died, I’ve been replaying it every day. ‘Terrible thing.’ ‘Killed him, close by.’ Sometimes it feels ridiculous, like one of those corny scenes you see in old movies: ‘the killer was-’ and then the person drops back and closes their eyes? But I know Mommy wouldn’t have wasted the time and energy she had left if it wasn’t important. Will you talk to Detective Sturgis?”

“Of course.”

“Maybe if you tell him what Mommy was like, he won’t think I’m totally whack. I’m so glad I came back to you. You understand why she was more than the best mother. I didn’t come out of her womb and when Lydia ditched me, it would have been easy to send me off somewhere and go on living her life. Instead, she gave me a life.”

“You brought meaning to her life, as well.”

“I hope.”

“Her pride in you was obvious, Tanya.”

“It wasn’t equal, Dr. Delaware. Without her I’d be nothing.” She glanced at her watch.

“We’ve got time left,” I said.

“That’s really all I have to talk about.” She stood again. Out of her purse came a white business-sized envelope that she’d brought to me. P. L. Bigelow embossed on the back flap, an address on Canfield Avenue. Inside was a sheet folded in perfect thirds. Typed list, centered.

Four other addresses, each accompanied by Tanya’s handwritten notation.

Cherokee Avenue, Hollywood. We lived here four years, from when I was three until I was seven.

Hudson Avenue, Hancock Park. Two years, seven until around nine or so.

Fourth Street, the Wilshire district. One year, nine to ten.

Culver Boulevard, Culver City. Two years, ten until twelve, then we bought the duplex.

Constructing the timeline using her age. Playing adult but clinging to the self-centered world view of an adolescent.

I said, “Maybe whatever happened was relatively recent.”

Pretending to be a believer.

“At Canfield? No, it’s been peaceful there. And I was older when we moved, would know if something happened in the neighborhood. By the way, I relinquish all confidentiality so feel free to tell Detective Sturgis anything you want. Here, I’ve put it in writing.”

Out of the purse came another razor-creased paper. Handwritten release note, composed in the stilted wording of amateur legalese. Then a check, made out to the discounted fee I’d billed her mother ten years ago. Twenty percent of what I got nowadays.

“Is that okay?”


She headed for the door. “Thank you, Dr. Delaware.”

“Did your mother ever talk about any malpractice cases at the hospital?”

“No. Why?”

“The E.R.’s a high-risk unit. What if a patient she was involved with died and she felt responsible?”

“No way she’d ever mess someone up fatally, Dr. Delaware. She knew more than some of the doctors.”

“Lawsuits don’t always depend upon truth,” I said. “In a hospital situation, lawyers sometimes go after anyone who blinked at the patient.”

She leaned against the door. “Malpractice. Oh, my God, why didn’t I think of that? There could be some huge lawsuit pending and she was worried someone would go after my trust fund. Or the duplex. She wanted to tell me more but ran out of steam-you’re brilliant, Dr. Delaware!”

“It’s just a suggestion-”

“But a great one. Scientific parsimony, right? Go for the simplest explanation. I can’t believe I didn’t think of it.”

“You’ve had a lot on your mind. I’ll call Dr. Silverman right now.”

I reached the E.R. Rick was in surgery. “He’ll call back. If there’s something to tell you, I promise to let you know right away.”

“Thank you so much, Dr. Delaware-no offense but can we be sure Dr. Silverman will be up front? Maybe his lawyers have told him not to discuss-okay, sorry, that’s stupid, I’m being paranoid.”

“Still want me to talk to Detective Sturgis?”

“Only if Dr. Silverman says there was no malpractice issue for Mommy, but something tells me you’ve figured it out. She always said you were brilliant.”

Ten years ago my treatment of her had been anything but. I smiled and walked her out.

When we reached her van, I said, “Once we resolve this, would you consider a couple more sessions?”

“To accomplish what?”

“I’d like to know more about your living circumstances and who you have for support.”

“My living circumstances haven’t changed. The duplex is all paid off, and the downstairs tenants are a really nice young family, the Friedmans. Their rent covers expenses plus extras. They’re in Israel for Dr. Friedman’s sabbatical but they advanced me a year’s worth and are planning to come back. Mommy’s insurance and investments will take care of me until I finish at the U. If I end up at a private med school, I may have to take out some loans. But physicians do fine, I’ll pay them off. My friends at school give me support, there’s a group of us, all premed, they’re very cool and understanding.”

“Sounds good,” I said, “but I’d still feel better if you were open to coming back.”

“I will be, I promise, Dr. Delaware. Just as soon as my exams are over.” She smiled. “Don’t worry, I’m not having any of my old problems. I appreciate your caring. Mommy always said for you it was more than a job. She told me I should observe you, learn what caring for patients meant.”

“How old were you when she told you that?”

“That was…right before the second time I saw you, we’d just moved to Culver, so…ten.”

“At ten, you knew you wanted to be a physician?”

“I’ve always wanted to be a physician.”

As we descended the stairs, she said, “Do you believe in the Hereafter?”

“It’s a comforting concept.”

“Meaning you don’t?”

“Depends on what day you catch me.” Images of my parents flashed in my head. Dad, red-nosed, in boozer’s heaven. Were there celestial procedures in place for unpredictable behavior?

Maybe Mom could finally be happy, nestled in some heavenly duplicate bridge club.

“Well,” she said, “that’s honest. I guess it’s the same for me. Mostly I think in terms of scientific logic, show me the data. But lately I find myself believing in the spirit world, because I sense her with me. It’s not constant, just sometimes, when I’m alone. I’ll be doing something and feel her. It could be just my emotional need but the day it stops may be when I show up for some real therapy.”


Rick said, “No, nothing like that, current or past. In fact, we’re having a nice quiet spell, shyster-wise. And when the vultures swoop, they avoid the nurses. No financial incentive.”

“Did Patty moonlight?”

“Not since she’s worked for me. When she wanted extra money, she double-shifted.”

“Where did she work before she came to Cedars?”

“Kaiser Sunset, but only for a year. Scratch the malpractice angle, Alex.”

“Okay, thanks.”

“How’s Tanya doing?”

“As well as can be expected.”

“Good. Gotta run. Thanks for seeing her.”

Straight to the point. Surgical. Just like his original referral.

“I know you’re not doing much therapy, Alex, but this sounds more like a consultation.”

“Who’s the consultee?”

“Best nurse I ever worked with, a woman named Patty Bigelow. A few years ago her sister dumped a kid on her, then left for parts unknown. Sister died in a motorcycle accident and Patty adopted the girl, who’s now seven. She’s got some parenting questions. Can you see her?”


“I appreciate it…”

“Anything else I should know?”

“About what?” he said.

“Patty, the girl.”

“I’ve only seen the girl in passing. Cute little thing. Patty’s super-organized. Maybe a little too much for a kid.”

“A perfectionist.”

“You could say that. She fits in great in my E.R. It was hard for her to admit having a problem. I don’t know why she chose me to tell.”

“She trusts you.”

“Could be that…I’ll give her your number, gotta run.”

An hour later, Patty Bigelow had called. “Hi, Doctor. I won’t gab on the phone because you sell your time and I’m no mooch. When’s your next opening?”

“I could see you today at six.”

“Nope,” she said, “on shift until seven and Tanya’s out of day care at eight, so I’m in for the evening. Tomorrow I’m off.”

“How about ten a.m.?”

“Great, thanks. Should I bring Tanya?”

“No, let’s talk first.”

“I was hoping you’d say that. What’s your fee?”

I told her, said I’d be cutting it in half.

“That’s seriously below average,” she said. “Dr. Silverman assures me you’re not.”

We debated for a while. I prevailed.

Patty said, “I don’t usually give in, Dr. Delaware. You might be just the right person for Tanya.”

The next morning, at nine forty-two, I was out on the landing when a blue minivan pulled up in front of the house. The engine switched off but the vehicle stayed in place.

A woman with short brown hair sat behind the wheel, balancing a checkbook. As I approached she put it away.

“Ms. Bigelow?”

A hand shot out the window. Compact, nails cut square. “Patty. I’m early, didn’t want to bother you.”

“No bother, c’mon in.”

She got out of the car, holding a black briefcase. “Tanya’s medical records. Do you have a Xerox machine?”

“I do, but let’s talk first.”

“Whatever you say.” She climbed the stairs just ahead of me. I put her at forty or so. Short and dark-eyed and round-faced, wearing a navy turtleneck over easy-fit jeans and spotless white tennies. The clothes made no attempt to streamline a broad, blocky body. Brown hair streaked with gray was cut in an anti-style as frivolous as a lug wrench. No makeup but good skin, ruddy with a faint underglow and no age lines. She smelled of shampoo.

When we reached the stairs to the front landing, she said, “Real pretty out here.”

“It is.”

No more conversation as we headed to the office. Midway there, she paused to straighten a picture with a fingertip. Hanging back a half step, as if to avoid notice. I noticed anyway and she grinned. “Sorry.”

“Hey,” I said, “I’ll take all the help I can get.”

“Be careful what you ask for, Doctor.”

She scanned my diplomas and perched on the edge of a chair. “I see another couple more crooked ones.”

“Earthquake country,” I said. “The ground’s always shifting.”

“You’ve got that right, we’re living in a jelly jar. Ever try museum wax? Little dab on the bottom center of the frame and if you need to get it off the wall you can peel it without leaving a mark.”

“Thanks for the tip.”

Positioning the briefcase so that its front end was flush with a chair leg, she said, “May I?” and got up before I could answer. When the prints were straight, she returned to her chair and folded her hands in her lap. A peachy blush coined the upper rims of her cheeks. High cheekbones, the only bits of definition in the wide, smooth face. “Sorry, again, but it really drives me nuts. Should I talk about Tanya or me?”

“How about both?”

“Any preference as to order?”

“Tell it the way you want,” I said.

“Okay. In a really small nutshell here’s my story, so you’ll understand Tanya. My sister and I grew up on a ranch outside of Galisteo, New Mexico. Both our folks were drunks. My mother was the ranch cook, good in the kitchen but she didn’t give a hoot about mothering. My father was the foreman and when he got plastered, he came into our bedroom and did ugly stuff to me and my sister-I don’t need to go into details, do I?”

“Not unless you want to.”

“I don’t want to. It affected my sister and me differently. She turned wild and chased men and drank and took every drug she could get her hands on. She’s gone, now, motorcycle crash.” Short, deep breath. “I became a Goody Two-shoes. The two of us weren’t very close. As it turned out, I have no interest in men. None. Or women, in case you’re curious.”

“I’m always curious, but that hadn’t occurred to me.”

“No?” she said. “Some folks think I’m pretty butch.”

I said nothing.

“Also, seeing as how Richard-Dr. Silverman-was the one who referred me and how people jump to conclusions, I could understand you thinking I was gay.”

“I work hard at not jumping to conclusions.”

“It wouldn’t bother me if I was gay, but I’m not. I have no interest in anybody’s anything below the waist. If you need a label, how about asexual? That make me crazy in your book?”


Another partial smile. “You’re probably just saying that because you want to develop whatchamacallit rapport.”

I said, “You’re not interested in sex. That’s your prerogative. So far I’ve heard nothing crazy.”

“Society thinks it’s weird.”

“Then we won’t let Society into the office.”

She smiled. “Moving on: My sister-Lydia, she went by Liddie-couldn’t keep her pants on. Maybe God played tricks, huh? Two girls dividing up one sex drive?”

“Hers on Monday, yours on Tuesday but she got greedy?”

She laughed. “Sense of humor’s important in your business.”

“Your business, too.”

“You know much about my job?”

“Dr. Silverman told me you’re the best nurse he’s ever worked with.”

“The man exaggerates,” she said, but her eyes sparkled. “Okay, maybe just a slight exaggeration, ’cause off the bat I can’t think of anyone better. Last night we had a guy, a gardener, mangled both hands in a lawn mower. Too much empathy and you find yourself depressed all the time…speaking of bad stuff, plenty happened to my sister, but nothing she didn’t earn. She died on back of a Harley on the way to a big bike meet in South Dakota. No helmet, same for the genius driving. He took a turn wrong, they went flying off the road.”

“Sorry to hear about that.”

She squinted. “I cried some but-and this is going to sound cold-the way Liddie lived it was a miracle it didn’t happen sooner. Anyway, the gist of all this is to explain how I came to have Tanya. She’s Liddie’s biologically but one day when she was three, Liddie decided she didn’t want her anymore and dumped her on my doorstep. Literally, middle of the night, I hear the doorbell, go out, find Tanya clutching a stuffed toy, some killer whale souvenir she got in Alaska. Liddie’s parked in a hotwheels at the curb and when I go to talk to her, the car peels out. That was four years ago and I never heard from her again, didn’t even get the death notice until a year after the accident because Liddie was carrying fake I.D., it took the highway cops awhile to figure out who she was.”

“How did Tanya react?”

“She cried for a few days, then she stopped. She’d ask about Liddie from time to time but nothing chronic. My answer was always Mommy loved her, had left her with me ’cause I could take better care of her. I bought a book on explaining death to kids, used the parts that made sense and discarded the parts that didn’t. Overall, Tanya seemed to accept it pretty well. Asked the right questions. Then she went about her business. I kept telling her Mommy loved her, would always love her. After maybe the gazillionth time I said it, Tanya looks up at me and says, ‘You’re my mommy. You love me.’ Next day I started the adoption process.” Blinking and looking away. “This at all helpful, so far?”

“Perfect,” I said.

“Maybe you’ll find out something I missed but she really seemed to deal with it okay. She’s a smart kid, her teacher has her at a half year ahead of the class. Got a grown-up way about her, which makes sense, given the years she spent traipsing around with Liddie. My influence, too, maybe. I’m no kid person, don’t have a clue about ’em. So I treat her like she understands everything.”

“Sounds like that’s working.”

“So how come I’m here, huh?” She looked down at her shoes, placed them together. Moved them a foot apart. “You probably noticed I’m a little strange in the neatness department. Need to have everything just so, nothing out of place, no surprises. Maybe because of the things my father did to me, but who cares why, the point is that’s how I am and I like it. Keeps life organized and when you’re busy, believe me, that’s a big help.”

“Making things predictable.”

“Exactly. Like the way I hang my clothes. Everything’s grouped by color, style, sleeve length. Blouses in one section, then jeans, then uniforms, et cetera. Why waste time looking in the morning? A couple of times, when I was working a shift that had me getting up when it was still dark, there were power outages. I’m talking a pitch-black house. I could get dressed, no problem, because I knew exactly where everything was hanging.”

“It works for you.”

“Sure does,” she said. “But now I’m thinking maybe I should’ve kept some of that to myself, not revealed it to Tanya.”

“She’s doing the same things?”

“She’s always been neat for a kid, which is fine by me. We clean house together, have fun doing it. But lately, it’s more than that. She’s got these little routines, won’t go to sleep until she checks under her bed, first it was five times, then ten, now it’s twenty-five, maybe even more. Top of that, she’s got to straighten her drapes and kiss them, goes to the bathroom five times in a row, washes her hands until the soap’s gone. I went in there once and she was polishing the spigots.”

“How long has this been going on?”

“It started right around when she turned five.”

“Two years ago.”

“Give or take. But it wasn’t a big deal until recently.”

“Any recent changes?”

“We moved to a new place-got a sublease in a house in Hancock Park. No problems, there. Tanya’s fine except for the routines.”

“Do the routines always begin before bedtime?”

“That’s the peak period,” she said, “but it’s moved into other times and it’s starting to affect her schoolwork. Not in terms of neglecting her obligations-just the opposite. She’ll tear up her work and redo it, over and over, unless I make her stop. Lately, she started getting real picky about her school lunch. If the sandwich isn’t cut exactly on the right bias, she wants to make another one.”

Reaching down, she touched the briefcase. “Want to see any of her records?”

“Has she had any unusual illnesses or injuries?”


“Then I’ll read the records later. Do you have information about her birth?”

“Nothing. I had to run titers on her to make sure she’d been vaccinated. She had, I’ll grant Liddie that.” She leaned forward. “You need to understand, Doctor, the only time I met Tanya before Liddie dropped her off was once, when she was two. She and Liddie stayed with me a couple of weeks before heading up to Juneau, Alaska. Like I said, I’m no kid person. But I ended up liking her. Sweet, quiet, didn’t get underfoot. She’s still that way, I couldn’t ask for a better daughter. It’s just these new habits are making me wonder about my approach. I did some reading on OCD in kids and they say it could be genetic, in the brain, serotonin uptake, they’re trying various meds as treatment.”

“Nowadays, most everything is attributed to neurotransmitters.”

“You don’t recommend meds on scientific grounds? Or you don’t like them because Ph.D.’s can’t use them?”

“Meds have their place and if you’re interested in that route, I’d be happy to refer you to a good child psychiatrist. I’ve found childhood OCD to respond well to nondrug treatments.”

“Such as?”

“Cognitive behavior therapy, other anxiety-reduction techniques. Sometimes just finding out what’s making the child tense and remedying it is enough.”

“Tanya doesn’t seem nervous, Doc. Just intensely focused.”

“OCD’s rooted in anxiety. Her habits are doing their job so the tension’s masked, but you’re describing a steadily expanding pattern.”

She thought about that. “Guess so…listen, no offense meant by that remark about Ph.D.’s.”

“None taken,” I said. “You’re an informed consumer who wants the best for her child.”

“I’m a mother who feels bad because her kid seems to be losing control. And I blame myself because I need for everything to be predictable and everyone to be happy. And that’s about as realistic as world peace.”

“I’m a people-pleaser, too, Ms. Bigelow. If I wasn’t, I could’ve been a lawyer and billed more per hour.”

She laughed. “Now that I fixed your pictures, you do seem like a pretty organized guy. So you think you can help Tanya just by talking?”

“My approach would be to develop whatchamacallit rapport, see if there’s anything on her mind that you’re unaware of, find out if she’s interested in changing, and help her change.”

“What if she doesn’t want to change?”

“My experience has been that kids aren’t happy being bound by all those routines. They just don’t see a way out. Have you talked to her about any of this?”

“I started to,” she said. “Last week or so, when she got into the curtain-kissing. I guess I lost my patience and told her to stop being silly. She gave me a look that cut me right here.” Touching her left breast. “Like I’d wounded her. I immediately felt like a truckful of manure and had to leave the room to do some breathing. When I gathered the gumption to go back in there and apologize, the lights were off and she was in bed. But when I leaned down to kiss her, her body was all tight and she was gripping the covers-with the fingernails, you know? I told myself whoa, Patty, you’re screwing the kid up, time for professional advice. I talked to Richard-Dr. Silverman-and first thing out of his mouth is your name. He said you’re the best. After meeting you, I’m feeling good. You don’t judge, you listen. And those degrees ain’t too shabby, either. So when can you see Tanya?”

“I’ve got an opening in a couple of days, but if it’s urgent, I’ll make time tonight.”

“Naw,” she said. “I think I can handle a couple of days. Got any advice beyond lay off and don’t say anything stupid?”

“Explain to Tanya that you’re bringing her to a doctor who doesn’t give shots and won’t hurt her in any way. Use the word ‘psychologist’ and tell her I help kids who are nervous or worried by talking to them, drawings, playing games. Tell her she won’t be forced to do anything she doesn’t want to.”

She opened the briefcase, found a legal pad, scrawled notes. “I think I’ve got all that…sounds fine except for the games. Tanya doesn’t like games, can’t even get her to use a deck of cards.”

“What does she like?”

“Drawing’s okay, she’s pretty good at that. Also, she does cutouts-paper dolls, she can handle a scissors like a pro. Maybe she’ll be a surgeon.”

“Like Rick.”

“That would be okay with me. So what time in a couple of days?”

We set up the appointment. She said, “Fine, thanks much,” and paid me in cash. Smiling. “You’re sure you only want half?”

I smiled back, photocopied Tanya’s medical records, and returned the originals to her. Five minutes to go, but she said, “We covered everything,” and got up.

Then: “Just talking helps, even if it’s genetic?”

I said, “There may be a genetic component. Most tendencies are a combination of nature and nurture. But tendencies aren’t programmed like blood types.”

“People can change.”

“If they didn’t, I’d be out of business.”

That evening at five, she called me through my service. “Doc, if an appointment tonight’s still an option, I’ll take you up on it. Tanya started in on her homework, tore it up, redid it, then she got all hysterical. Crying that she could never do anything right. Saying I was ashamed of her, she was a bad girl, like Liddie. Nothing like that ever came out of my mouth but maybe I somehow communicated…Right now she’s calm, but not a calm I like. Way too quiet, generally she chatters away. I haven’t told her I made an appointment with you. If you say tonight’s okay, I’ll explain it to her in the car.”

“C’mon over,” I said.

“You’re a saint.”

She showed up an hour later, with a little blond girl in hand. In her other hand was a small white jar.

“Museum wax,” she said. “Long as I was coming here. This is Tanya Bigelow, my beautiful, smart daughter. Tanya, meet Dr. Delaware. He’s going to help you.”


Milo touched a corner of the newspaper he’d slid across the booth. “Cute, huh?”

Ten a.m., North Hollywood. Hot Friday in the Valley, the Du-par’s on Ventura east of Laurel Canyon.

I’d left a message for Tanya about no malpractice issue, told her I’d be contacting Detective Sturgis. An hour later I was watching him jab the front-page Times article with his fork.

Breathless coverage of the founding of a mental health program in Tahiti by a former film agent and a retired studio head. Diploma mill doctorate for her, deep pockets and May-December infatuation for him. The agenda was past-life regression, a Chinese menu of meditation games, all the therapy you could eat for two hundred grand a pop, no refunds. The projected client base was “people in the public eye.”

I said, “What a scoop.”

“Probably some kiss-ass reporter with a screenplay.”

“That’s networking, dude.”

“Curse of the millennium. Hollywood sharks peddling mental health, what a concept. If you get in a tropical mood, maybe they’re hiring.”

I laughed and slid the paper back.

“Hey,” he said, “you’re not on the stand, volunteer an opinion.”

“I get paid for opinions.”

He grumbled something about “dogmatism.”

I said, “How’s this: Taking life advice from people like that is like learning the tango from gorillas.”

“Eloquent. Now I might even listen to the further details of your little mystery.”

We were putting away stacks of pancakes and drinking coffee strong enough to make my pulse race. With Milo, food smooths the process.

I’d driven out to Studio City because he’d been on the other side of the hill since midnight, cleaning up the details of a Mar Vista gang homicide whose tentacles had spread into Van Nuys and Panorama City. Another big one that would finally close. One more meeting with the D.A. and he’d be on a two-week vacation.

Rick was scheduled tight and couldn’t travel. Too bad for Milo, lucky for me. I had designs on his leisure.

I told him everything Tanya had said.

He said, “First a ‘terrible thing,’ now it’s a murder? Alex, I’m not prying into clinical details, but be brutally frank: Is this kid stable?”

“Nothing points otherwise.”

“Meaning you’re not sure.”

“She’s functioning well,” I said. “All things considered.”

“Mommy offed some neighbor? But she really didn’t? What exactly does she want?”

“I’m not sure she knows. I figure we do a little searching, come up empty, I’ll have more authority to ease her away from it. If I don’t make an attempt, I lose her as a patient. She talks a good case about handling her grief, but there’s a long way to go. If she falls I’d like to be around to catch her.”

He played with the edge of the newspaper. “Sounds like you’re a bit involved in this one.”

“If it’s too much of a hassle-”

“I’m not refusing, I’m contextualizing. Even if I wanted to say no, there are domestic issues at stake. Rick thinks Patty was some kind of saint. ‘It’s great you’ll be free to help, Alex.’”

“Let’s hear it for the zeitgeist,” I said.

He threw money on the table that I returned to him.

“Fine, you’re in a higher tax bracket.” Hoisting his bulk out of the booth.

“When do we start?” I said.


“You lead the way, I’ll be your loyal assistant.”

“Oh, sure,” he said. “And I’ve got a life regression package to sell you.”

I walked him to his unmarked as he studied the list of addresses.

He copied it into his notepad. “She moved around a bit, didn’t she…so the kid’s theory is Mommy was trying to protect her from some kind of revenge?”

“Less than a theory,” I said. “She was tossing out possibilities.”

“Here’s one: Mommy was impaired and talked gibberish.”

“Tanya’s not ready to see that.”

“I asked Rick about the whole brain damage thing,” he said. “Unwilling to commit-all you doctor types are alike. Okay, let’s be organized so we don’t have to backtrack. You talk to Patty’s oncologist and see if you can nail down some medical specifics. I’ll hit the assessor’s office and find out Patty’s local residences before she took Tanya in. She from SoCal?”

“New Mexico.”

“Where in New Mexico?”

“Outside Galisteo.”

“If this terrible thing went down out of state, good luck.” He snorted. “Listen to me. Like it really happened.”

“I appreciate this-”

“I will file your gratitude under Things To Exploit At An Opportune Time. Another thing you can do is play computer games, see if Patty shows up anywhere in cyberspace. Plug in those four addresses. Anything else that strikes your fancy.”

“Has the department database gotten any better?”

“Last coupla times I’ve able to boot up and not blow a fuse.”

“Given an address, can you pull up crimes on neighboring streets?”

“Oh, sure, me and Bill Gates just did that yesterday. No, it’s a mess. Recent cases have been entered but for the most part we’re talking cardboard boxes in storage. Department’s notion of pattern-tracing is the pin board and the board changes every year. Maybe we’ll get lucky and it is something recent. ‘Close by,’ huh? That could be the same street but down the block, one street over, a quarter mile up to the cul-de-sac, turn left, toss salt over your left shoulder. For all we know, Alex, she meant something ungeographical. Close by as in a friend.”

“Tanya said she had no relationships with men.”

“What about women? A bisexual triangle could get nasty, there was one a few years ago in Florida, woman had her girlfriend gut-shoot her old man for insurance money.”

“Patty told me she was asexual.”

“You asked her about her sexuality?”

“She brought it up during the intake.”

“The intake was on the kid so why would Mama’s sex life be relevant?”

I had no answer for that.

He said, “What was the context, Alex?”

“Letting me know she wasn’t gay. But not in a defensive way. More matter-of-fact, this is who I am. Then she asked me if I thought she was abnormal.”

“So she was uptight about being considered gay. Meaning she probably was gay. Meaning she coulda been doing stuff Tanya didn’t know about.”

“I guess it’s possible.”

“People with secrets parcel out what they want other people to know, right? If we’re going to start excavating this woman’s life, Tanya could learn things she doesn’t want to. Is she psychologically ready for that?”

“If she runs off excavating by herself, it could be worse.”

“She’d do that?”

“She’s a determined young woman.”

“Obsessive? Rick said Patty had tendencies in that direction. Did the kid start imitating her and that’s why you treated her?”

I stared at him. “Very good, Sigmund.”

“All these years absorbing your wisdom, something was bound to rub off.”

He opened his car door. “Get ready for a whole new world of false starts and dead ends.”

“Your optimism is touching.”

“Optimism is denial for chumps with no life experience.”

“What’s pessimism?” I said.

“Religion without God.”

He got in the car, started up the engine.

I said, “I just thought of something. What about Isaac Gomez? He was compiling some pretty good databases.”

“Petra’s boy genius…yeah, maybe he’ll have some spare time. Hollywood went this whole year without a single murder. If it stays that quiet, the chatter has Stu Bishop vaulting to assistant chief.”

“What’s Petra been doing with herself?”

“My guess would be digging up cold cases.”

“Patty and Tanya’s first address was in Hollywood,” I said. “Back then there were plenty of murders. Maybe Petra will want to hear about this.”

“An unsolved she just happens to be working on? Wouldn’t that be screenplay-cute. Sure, call her. Talk to Dr. Gomez, too, if Petra’s cool with that.”

“Will do, boss.”

“Keep up that attitude, assistant, and you just might make the grade.”

I took Laurel Canyon south to the city, used the red light at Crescent Heights and Sunset to call Hollywood Division and asked for Detective Connor.

“She’s out,” said the civilian clerk.

“Is Isaac Gomez still working there?”


“Graduate student intern,” I said. “He was doing research on-”

“Not listed,” said the clerk.

“Could you connect me to Detective Connor’s voice mail?”

“Voice mail’s down.”

“Do you have another number for her?”


I drove east. At Fuller and Sunset, a group of Nordic-looking tourists risked a crosswalk sprint and nearly got pulverized by a Suburban. Naive Europeans, pretending L.A. was a real city and walking was legal. I could hear Milo laughing.

As I neared La Brea, development continued its encroachment: big-box outlets and strip malls and chain restaurants sweeping through blocks that had once hosted by-the-hour motels and ptomaine palaces.

Some things never change: Hookers of both primary genders and a few that couldn’t be determined were working the street with ebullience. My eyes must’ve been restless because a couple of them waved at me.

Heading north to Hollywood Boulevard and hooking a right, I cruised past the Chinese Theatre, the Kodak Theatre, the tourist traps attempting to feed off the overflow, continued to Cherokee Avenue. Just past the hustle of the boulevard sat a couple of padlocked clubs, mean and sad the way nightspots get during the daylight. Trash was piled at the curb and birdshit pollocked the sidewalk.

Farther north, the block had been rehabbed a bit, with relatively clean multiplex apartment buildings promising Security elbowing shabby prewar structures that offered no illusion of safety.

The first address on Tanya’s list matched one of the old ones. A three-story, brick-colored stucco building a short walk below Franklin. Plain front, frizzy lawn, limp beds of overwatered succulents struggling to breathe. As tired-looking as the homeless guy pushing a shopping cart nowhere. He made split-second, paranoid eye contact, shook his head as if I were hopeless, and trudged on.

A cloudy glass door cut through the center of the brick-colored building, but two ground-floor units in front had entrance from the street. Tanya remembered drunks knocking on the door, so my bet was on one of those.

I got out and tried the handle on the glass door. Cold and unpleasantly crusty but unlocked.

Inside, a back-to-front hallway carpeted in gray poly smelled of mold and orange-scented air freshener. Twenty-three mail slots just inside the door. Liver-colored doors lined the murky space. Lots of interviews, if it ever came to that.

A door at the rear of the hall opened and a man stuck his head out, scratched the crook of one arm. Sixty or so, gray hair flying like dandelion fuzz, haloed by sickly light. Scrawny but potbellied, wearing a blue satin Dodger jacket over striped pajama bottoms.

He scratched again. Worked his jaws and lowered his head. “Yeah?”

I said, “Just leaving.”

He stood there, watching until I made good on that promise.

South on Highland took me through two miles of film labs, tape-dupe services, costume warehouses, prop shops. All those people who’d never be thanked on Oscar night.

Between Melrose and Beverly a few dowager apartment buildings clung to twenties elegance. The rest didn’t even try. A turn onto Beverly took me around the southern edge of the Wilshire Country Club and into Hancock Park.

Hudson Avenue is one of the district’s grandest streets, and the second address on Tanya’s list matched a massive, multigabled, slate-roofed, brick Tudor piled atop a sloping lawn that had been skinned as close as a putting green. Five-foot bronze urns flanking the front door hosted lemon trees studded with fruit. Double doors under a limestone arch were carved exuberantly. A black filigree gate offered a view of a long cobbled driveway. A white Mercedes convertible sat behind a green Bentley Flying Spur hand-fashioned in the fifties.

This was where Patty and Tanya had just moved when they first came to see me. Renting space in a house. The owners of this house didn’t appear to need the extra income. Patty had been certain the move hadn’t been stressful for Tanya. Face-slapping contrast with the sad building on Cherokee made me a believer, and I wondered now about the specifics of the transition.

I sat there and enjoyed the view. No one came out of the mansion or any of its stately neighbors. But for a couple of lusty squirrels in a sycamore tree, no movement at all. In L.A. luxury means pretending no one else inhabits the planet.

I put in a call to Patty’s oncologist, Tziporah Ganz, left a message with her service.

One of the squirrels scampered over to the left-hand lemon tree, got hold of a juicy one, and tugged. Before it could complete the theft, one of the double doors opened and a short, dark-haired maid in a pink uniform charged out wielding a broom. The animal faced off, then thought better of it. The maid turned to reenter the mansion and noticed me.


Another hostile reception.

I drove away.

Address three was a quick drive: Fourth Street off La Jolla. Tanya had returned to my office just after leaving there for Culver City.

The house turned out to be a Spanish Revival duplex on a pleasant leafy street of matching structures. The only distinguishing feature of the building where the Bigelows had lived was a concrete pad in lieu of a lawn. The only vehicle in sight was a deep red Austin Mini with vanity plates that read PLOTGRL.

Solidly middle-class, respectable, but a whole different planet after Hudson Avenue. Maybe Patty had wanted more room than rented mansion space afforded.

My final stop was a solid forty-minute drive in thick traffic to a grubby stretch of Culver Boulevard just west of Sepulveda and the 405 overpass.

The lot bore six identical gray-framed, tar-roofed boxes that ringed the crumbled remains of a plaster fountain. Two brown-skinned preschoolers played in the dirt, unattended.

Classic L.A. bungalow court. Classic refuge of transients, has-beens, almost-weres.

These bungalows weren’t much bigger than sheds. The property had been neglected to the point of peeling paint and curling roof shingles and sagging foundations. Traffic roared by. Pothole-axle encounters lent a syncopated conga beat to the engine concerto.

Maybe it had been spiffier in Patty’s day, but this part of town had never been fashionable.

Climbing the residential ladder, then down to this. Patty had come across solid and stable. Her housing pattern seemed anything but.

Perhaps it came down to thrift. Saving up cash for a down payment on her own place. Within two years, she’d pulled it off, snagging a duplex near Beverlywood on a nurse’s salary.

Even so, there had to be better choices than moving Tanya to another “sketchy neighborhood.”

Then another possibility hit me: That kind of jumping around was what you saw in habitual gamblers and others whose habits roller-coastered their finances.

Patty had achieved Westside homeownership, a trust fund, and two life insurance policies for Tanya on a nurse’s salary.


Remarkable, really. Maybe she’d been a savvy stock-market player.

Or had acquired an additional source of revenue.

A hospital nurse with too much money led to an obvious what-if: drug pilferage and resale. Stealthy dope dealer didn’t sync with what I knew about Patty but how well did I really know her?

But if she had a secret criminal life, why stir up the pot with a deathbed confession and chance Tanya finding out?

People with secrets parcel out what they want you to know.

Until something shattered their inhibitions. Had Patty’s proclamation been the agonized product of a disease-addled mind? An illness-fueled stab at confession and expiation?

I sat in the car and tossed that around. No way, too ugly. It just didn’t sit right.

Sounds like you’re a bit involved in this one.

“So what,” I said to no one.

A muscular guy in a ski cap pulled down to his eyebrows skulked by with an unleashed, pink-nosed white pit bull. The dog stopped, circled back, pressed its snout against my passenger window, created a little pink, pulsating rosebud. No smiling for this canine. A low-pitched growl thrummed the glass.

Ski-cap was staring, too.

My day for warm welcomes. I pulled away slowly enough so the dog wouldn’t lose balance.

No one thanked me.


The encounter with the pit made me appreciate Blanche. As soon as I got home, I took her down to the garden for a puppy stroll, made sure her curiosity didn’t land her in the fishpond.

One message at my service: Dr. Tziporah Ganz.

I called back, told her I was Tanya Bigelow’s therapist and had some questions about Patty’s mental status during her final days.

“Tanya’s having psychological problems?” she said. Her voice was soft, slightly accented-Middle Europe.

“No,” I said. “Just the typical adjustments, it’s a tough situation.”

“Tragic situation. Why is Tanya concerned about dementia?”

“She isn’t, I am. Patty charged Tanya with taking care of lots of details that could turn burdensome. I’m wondering if Patty’s intent needs to be taken literally.”

“Details? I don’t understand.”

“Postmortem instructions that Patty thought would benefit Tanya. Tanya goes to school full-time, holds down a part-time job, and is faced with living alone. She was devoted to her mother and right now her personality won’t allow her to deviate from Patty’s wishes. Nor would I try to convince her otherwise. But I am looking for an out in case she gets overwhelmed.”

“The dying person reaches out for one last burst of control,” she said. “I’ve seen that. And Patty was an exacting person. Unfortunately, I can’t give you a clear answer about her mental status. Strictly speaking, there were no clinical reasons for the disease to affect her thinking-no brain lesion, no obvious neuropathy. But any severe illness and its effects-dehydration, jaundice, electrolytic imbalance-can affect cognition, and Patty was a very sick woman. If you choose to tell Tanya that Patty was impaired, I wouldn’t contradict you. However, I won’t be comfortable being quoted as a primary source.”

“I understand.”

“Dr. Delaware, I don’t want to tell you your business, but my experience has been that survivors don’t want to give up responsibilities even when they are burdensome.”

“Mine as well,” I said. “In what way was Patty exacting?”

“She attempted to control every aspect of her hospitalization. Not that I blame her.”

“Were there compliance issues?”

“No, because there was no treatment. Her decision.”

“Did you agree?”

“It’s always hard to stand back and watch someone die, but, honestly, there was nothing I could do for her. The goal became making her last days as comfortable as possible. Even there, she opted for less.”

“Resisting the morphine drip, despite the anesthesiologist’s best efforts.”

“The anesthesiologist is my husband,” she said. “Obviously I’m biased but there’s no one better than Joseph. And yes, Patty resisted him. Still, I’m not judging. This was a relatively young woman who learned suddenly that she was going to die.”

“Did she ever talk about that?”

“Infrequently and in a detached manner. As if she was describing a patient. I guess she needed to depersonalize a horrible situation. Is Tanya really doing okay? She seemed mature for her age, but that can be a problem, too.”

“I’m keeping my eyes open. Is there anything else you can tell me?”

“About Patty? How about this: Last year my brother ended up in the E.R. Auto accident, pretty nasty. He’s a dentist, was worried about a compression injury of one of his hands. Patty was on the night Gil came in and took care of him. Gil was sufficiently impressed enough to write a letter to Nursing Administration. He told me she was cool under pressure-absolutely unflappable, nothing got past her. When she was referred to me, I remembered her name, felt extremely sad. I wish I could’ve done more for her.”

“You gave her what she needed,” I said.

“That’s kind of you to say.” Small, edgy laugh. “Good luck with Tanya.”

Petra answered her cell phone. “Detective Connor.”

I filled her in.

She said, “Exactly where on Cherokee did this woman live?”

I gave her the address.

“I think I know it. Kind of raw sienna on the outside, not exactly posh?”

“That’s the one.”

“I’ve made busts pretty close to there but nothing in that building specifically. Back then, Cherokee was a tough hood. According to all the old-timers who delight in telling me The Way It Was. Not the best place to raise a daughter.”

“Having a daughter wasn’t in her plans.” I explained how Tanya had come to live with Patty.

“Good Samaritan,” she said. “A nurse, to boot. Doesn’t sound like one of the bad guys.”

“I doubt she is.”

“Deathbed confession, huh? We love those. Sorry, Alex, nothing I’ve seen in the cold files matches that. Mostly, what I’ve been doing is compensating for other people’s screwups. You read the murder books, everyone knows who the bad guy is but someone was too lazy or there just wasn’t enough to prove it. But I’ll have another look in the fridge.”


“A did-it-even-happen, huh? Milo came up with that all by his lonesome?”

“He’s applying for copyright as we speak.”

“He darn well should. Take all the credit and none of the blame-that’s one of his, too.”

“Words he doesn’t live by,” I said. “Is Isaac still working with you?”

“Isaac? Ah, the database. No, the boy wonder is no longer tagging along. Finished his Ph.D. in BioStatistics, starting med school in August.”

“Double doctor,” I said. “What is he, ten years old?”

“Just turned twenty-three, what a slacker. The obvious question is why I don’t have a copy of his CD-ROM. The answer is he offered it to me but with all the static the department’s been getting about privacy violations, he had to submit a formal application to Parker Center first.”

“They made him apply to donate his own data?”

“In triplicate. After which the brass showed its gratitude by ignoring him for months, kept passing the forms to various committees, then Community Relations, legal counsel, the janitors, the catering truck drivers. We still haven’t heard back. If the bosses don’t get off their collectively spreading duff, I may just find myself a personal copy by accident. It’s nuts. Here I am going through boxes and breaking fingernails and Isaac’s got years worth of mayhem on a disk. Not that you just heard any of that.”

“Heard what?” I said.

“Thank you, sir.”

“What kind of static is the department getting about privacy?”

“Mario Fortuno,” she said.

“Private eye to the stars,” I said. “That was what, three years ago?”

“Three and a half is when they got him on the explosives charge but the larger issue is his wiretapping and what I hear is the fallout from that is just beginning.”

“What do illegal taps have to do with Isaac’s crime stats?”

“Fortuno gained access to personal data, had people stalked and harassed and generated some not-so-subtle threats to citizens who’d offended his honcho clients. One way he got the info-and once again you never heard it from me-is by bribing sources at DMV, the phone company, various banks. And the department.”

“Oh,” I said.

“Oh, indeed. If Fortuno ever opens up, there are Hollywood honchos and big-time criminal defense lawyers who could find themselves in the defendant’s chair.”

“Code of silence, so far?”

“In the beginning he put out the omerta line, guy loves the whole Mafia intrigue thing. But what I hear is he’s got six more years on a nine-year sentence and prison life hasn’t been fun. Whatever happens or doesn’t, the brass hears ‘computer disk,’ there’s a stampede to the little boys’ room.”

“Is there anything stopping me, as a concerned private citizen, from talking to Doctor-Doctor Gomez who is now a concerned private citizen?”

“Gee,” she said, “that’s an interesting question. Here’s his phone number.”

“Thanks, Petra. Good talking to you.”

“Same here,” she said. “I think I’ll cut out early and get file dust out of my hair.”

Isaac Gomez answered at his parents’ Union district apartment.

“Hey, Dr. Delaware.”

“Congratulations, Dr. Gomez.”

“Dr. Gomez is some guy with gray hair and bifocals,” he said. “Though if you ask my mother, I’ve already earned tenure and it’s only a matter of time before the Nobel committee knocks at our door.”

“Your mother’s cooking might clinch the award,” I said. “Getting ready for med school?”

“I’m not sure you can ever be ready. I sat in on a few classes last semester and after grad school it seemed regressive, everyone sitting in one room, no curriculum flexibility. One factor might make it more enjoyable. My girlfriend will be in the class.”

“Congrats again.”

“Yes, it’s great.”

Heather Salcido was a tiny, dark-haired beauty whom Isaac had saved from a killer. As good a foundation as any for romance.

“She’d already taken the premed courses studying for her RN. I convinced her to take the MCATS. She scored high, applied, got in. She’s still a little apprehensive but I’m certain she’ll excel. We’re hoping seeing each other daily will help ease the process. So why are you calling?”

I told him.

He said, “Making you a copy of the disks-there are two-is no problem. But they’re encrypted and fairly inaccessible unless you’ve had experience decoding.”

“Not since I worked with the Navajos and unlocked secret Nazi transmissions.”

“Ha. Why don’t you give me the specific addresses on your list and I’ll check for straightaway matches. If I don’t find any, I’ll program a search function that pulls up loci in a steadily widening concentric net where we can adjust for radius. Do you have any geographical criterion in mind?”

Close by.

I said, “Not yet.”

“Okay, so we’ll adopt an empirical approach. Swing the net-like a seine-and analyze which patterns emerge. I could do it in, say in a couple of days?”

“That would be great, Isaac. I really appreciate it.”

“One complication, Dr. Delaware. Heather and I are taking a trip to Asia-last vacation before the grind. Once we’re there, I won’t be available because Myanmar-what used to be Burma-is part of our itinerary and the government there has been known to confiscate computers and refuse entry to anyone trying to bring one in.”

“Maybe that’ll be good for you,” I said.

“How so?”

“Pure vacation, no encumbrances.”

“That’s what Heather says, but to me a computer’s no encumbrance. The notion of traveling without one feels like leaving an arm or a leg at home. It’ll be interesting to see how I adapt.”

Talking about himself as a research subject. I thought of Patty’s detachment. The partitions we all build.

He said, “Meanwhile, give me those streets and I’ll play around.”

Two hours of my own computer games produced no citation or image of Patty Bigelow, no crimes at any of the four addresses.

I made a grilled cheese sandwich that I shared with Blanche. When I poured coffee, she opened her mouth and panted. A coffee-coated fingertip placed on her tongue caused her to back away, shake her head, and spit.

“Everyone’s a critic,” I said. “Next time I’ll brew espresso.”

I tried Robin’s cell, got her voice on message tape. After wondering some more about Patty’s housing choices, I tried Tanya.

“No malpractice,” she said. “Dr. Silverman’s sure?”

“He is.”

“Okay…have you been able to learn anything?”

“Detective Sturgis is going to do some introductory investigation.”

“That’s great,” she said. Flat voice.

“Everything okay, Tanya?”

“I’m a little tired.”

“When you have more energy, I’d like to talk to you again.”

“Sure,” she said. “Eventually.”

“I don’t mean therapy,” I said. “I’d like to find out more about all the places you and your mother lived. For background.”

“Oh,” she said. “Sure, I can do that. I’ve some straightening up to do, then it’s back to campus for study group. Summer school’s supposed to be more mellow but the profs don’t seem to realize that. And with the quarter system, you barely have time to buy books before midterms…could we do it late, say nine thirty? No forget that, I don’t want to impose.”

“It doesn’t need to be tonight, Tanya.”

“I hate having things pile up, Dr. Delaware. If you had time, so would I, but of course that’s not right. You need your evenings-”

“Nine thirty’s fine.”

“You’re sure?”


“Could we make it nine forty-five, just to be safe? I could come back to your office or you could come to my house-maybe you’d like to see the home Mommy made.”

“I would.”

“Great!” she said. “I’ll make coffee.”


At nine twenty, as I was crating Blanche, my private line rang.

A welcome voice said, “I love you.”

“Love you, too. Having fun?”

“I’m coming home a day early. The lectures were good but it’s starting to feel like school. I sold that F5 replica, some dot-com guy kept upping the ante.”

Robin had spent a year acquiring the aged fiddle-grain maple and red spruce billets for the elaborately carved mandolin, had worked on tapping and shaving and shaping for another twelve months, brought the finished product to Healdsburg for display only.

“Must’ve been a nice ante?” I said.

“Twenty-one thousand.”

“Whoa. Congratulations.”

“I hated to part with it, but a girl has her price. I guess…I figure to set out early Sunday morning, be back by evening. What’s your schedule like?”


“Has the little blonde moved in on my territory, yet?”

“The little blonde eats kibble and sleeps all day.”

“The quiet ones,” she said, “they always bear watching.”

I drove to Tanya’s house, thinking back to the first time I’d met her.

Skinny little blond girl wearing a dress, anklet socks, and shiny sandals. Back pressed to the wall of my waiting area, as if the carpet was bottomless water.

When I’d stepped out of the office, Patty had touched Tanya’s cheek gently. Tanya’s nod was grave, a movement so brief it bordered on tic. Fingers as delicate as fettuccini gripped her mother’s chunky hand. A shiny foot tapped. The other was planted on the imaginary shoreline.

I bent to child’s eye level. “Nice to meet you, Tanya.”

Murmured reply. All I could make out was “you.”

Patty said, “Tanya chose her outfit. She likes to dress up, has excellent taste.”

“Very pretty, Tanya.”

Tanya mouth-breathed; I smelled hamburger and onion.

I said, “Let’s go in there. Mom can come, too, if you’d like.”

Patty said, “Or I don’t have to.” She hugged the little girl and stepped away. Tanya didn’t move.

“I’ll be right here, honey. You’ll be okay, I super-promise.”

Tanya looked up at her. Took a deep breath. Gave another grim little nod and stepped forward.

She surveyed the props on the play table. Open-sided dollhouse, family-member figurines, pencils, crayons, markers, a stack of paper. Prolonged eye contact with the paper.

“Do you like to draw?”


“If you feel like drawing now, that’s fine.”

She picked up a pencil and drew a slow, wispy circle. Sat back, frowned. “It’s bumpy.”

“Is bumpy okay?”

Pale green eyes studied me. She put the pencil down. “I came here to break my habits.”

“Mom told you that?”

“She said if I want to, I should tell you.”

“Which habits bother you the most, Tanya?”

“Mommy told you all of them.”

“She did. But I’d like to know what you think.”

Puzzled look.

“They’re your habits,” I said. “You’re in charge over them.”

“I don’t want to be in charge.”

“You’re ready to let go of the habits.”


“What’s that, Tanya?”

“They’re bad.”

“Bad like scary?”

Head shake. “They make me busy.”

The pencil was an inch from where it had lain originally and she rolled it back. Adjusted the tip, then the eraser. Readjusted and tried, without success, to smooth a curling corner of paper.

“That bumpy circle,” I said, “could be the start of a person’s face.”

“Can I throw it out?”


Folding and unfolding the sheet lengthwise, she ripped slowly along the crease. Repeated the process with each of the halves.

“Where, please?”

I pointed at the wastebasket. She dropped the pieces in, one by one, watched them drop, returned to the table.

“So you want to break your habits.”


“You and Mommy agree on that.”


“You and Mommy are a team.”

That seemed to puzzle her.

“You and Mommy agree most of the time.”

“We love each other.”

“Loving means agreeing.”


She drew a pair of circles, one twice the diameter of the other. Squinted and hunched and added primitive features.

“Lumpy again,” she pronounced. Another trip to the trash can.

“You really don’t like lumpy,” I said.

“I like it to be good.”

Selecting a third piece of paper, she put the pencil down and traced circles with her finger. Looked up at the ceiling. Tapped the fingers of one hand, then the other.

“What kinds of things do you and Mommy do together?”

She retrieved the pencil. Twirled it. “There was a mother when I was a baby. She was too weak and Mommy wanted to take care of me…she was Mommy’s sister.”

“The other mother.”

“She was called Lydia. She died in a accident. Mommy and I get sad when we think about her.”

“Do you think about her a lot?”

Flicking the paper stack, she selected a female figurine, placed it in the house’s living room. “We also have a fish.”

“At home?”

“In the kitchen.”

“In a tank?”

“Uh-uh a bowl.”

“A goldfish?”

“Uh-uh goldfish are too dirty, the man said.”

“What man is that?”

“From the fish store. Mr. Stan Park.”

“What kind of fish did Mr. Park sell you?”

“A guppy. Real small.”

“Does the guppy have a name?”

“We thought it was a girl but it got color on the tail.”

“So it’s a boy.”

“We changed the name.”

“From a girl name to a boy name?”

“He was Charlotte, now he’s Charlie.”

“How does Charlie feel about being a boy instead of a girl?”

“He’s a fish. He doesn’t think.”

“He never thinks about anything? Like ‘I wonder when Tanya will change my water?’”

“His brain is too little for words.”

“So he just swims back and forth and doesn’t worry about anything,” I said.


“Do you worry?”

“Fish also don’t have stomachs,” she said. “Food goes in and out so don’t feed them too much.”

“You know a lot about fish.”

“I read a book.” Tiny hands drifted to the stack of paper, squared the corners.

“I have some fish, too.”


“No, they’re called koi. Kind of like giant goldfish but all different colors.”

Skeptical stare. “Where?”

“Outside in a pond. Want to see?”

“If Mommy lets me.”

We walked out to the van. Patty looked up from her newspaper. “So soon?”

“He has giant fish, Mommy.” Tanya’s arms spread.


“Outside in a giant pond.”

“We’re going to feed them,” I said. “Want to come along?”

“Hmm,” said Patty. “No, I’ll just let the two of you get to know each other.”


At Beverwil and Pico, less than a mile from Tanya’s house, my service beeped in.

“It’s Flora, Doctor. Detective Sturgis called. He’ll be out for a while but you can try him in a couple of hours.”

“Did he say what it was about?”

“No, Doctor. It was just him being him.”


“You know,” she said. “The way he always is, Mr. Jokey. He told me with my voice I should be on the radio selling beachfront condos in Colorado.”

“You do have a nice voice, Flora.”

“I used to,” she said. “If only I could quit smoking. He sounds kind of cute. Is he?”

“Depends on your perspective.”

Canfield Avenue was narrow and dark and quiet, but no sign of anything remotely ominous.

No reason for there to be. I’d slipped into thinking this was real.

Point me at a puzzle and aim.

Years ago, I’d been the perfect therapist for Patty and Tanya. They hadn’t known the real reason why, never would.

Alexander is very bright but he seems to feel a need for absolute perfection that can lead to some emotion in the classroom. I rarely label a child overly conscientious but that may apply, here.

Alexander needs to understand that not everyone in 3rd grade learns as quickly as he does and that making mistakes is acceptable.

Alexander is doing well in junior high but he needs to work on exhibiting more self-control when projects don’t go as planned.

Alex is an excellent student, particularly in science, but he doesn’t seem to endorse the concept of group work. Hopefully high school will teach him to accept himself as a member of a team…

Year after year of well-meaning teachers, leaving conferences with my parents, convinced their insights were beneficial.

He’s so hard on himself, Mr. and Mrs. Delaware.

Dad responding with the jovial, knowing grin. Mom at his side, docile, silent, ladylike in a clean dress and the one pair of shoes with heels.

How could any of those teachers have known that when Dad wasn’t feeling jovial, imperfection could result in rages as predictable as snakebites.

That falling short meant a beefy workingman’s belt scourging a child’s narrow back, next day’s welts and bruises concealed by shirts and sweaters and silence.

No way for the teachers to grasp that when too much discussion filled the house, Mom had been known to lock herself in her bedroom for days. Leaving Dad, banished, fuming, reeking of beer-and-shots, lurching through the four remaining rooms of the house in search of someone to blame.

My sister, Em, the sib I hadn’t spoken to in years, had been quick to sniff the air and get away, an ace escape artist. I’d thought her selfish because the rules made her safe: You didn’t hit girls, at least not with a strap.

Boys were another matter…

Enough nostalgia, mawkish fellow, self-pity’s a lousy aperitif.

Besides, I’d put it all behind me, courtesy of the training therapy required by my doctoral program.

A stroke of good luck: random assignment to a kind, wise woman. The mandatory six months stretching to a year, then two. Then three.

The changes I saw in myself reaffirmed my career choice: If you knew what you were doing, this psychotherapy stuff worked.

By my final year of grad school, the cognitive starbursts and compulsive corrections were gone. Farewell, also, to rituals, invisible or otherwise.

Death of the near-religious belief that symmetry was all.

Which wasn’t to say vestiges didn’t crop up from time to time.

The occasional bout of insomnia, the sudden stabs of inexplicable tension.

Preoccupation that led nowhere.

Therapy taught me to accept all that as proof of my humanness, and when I chatted with my parents over the phone I was able to hang up without fingernail crescents bloodying my palms.

The best tonic was taking care of other people. I started off hoping that no parent who stepped into my office saw me as anyone other than the amiable, calm, understanding fellow with whom they entrusted their children’s psyches.

Several years of success made me believe I’d pulled it off.

Sometimes I allowed myself a bit of leeway. Like following through on Patty Bigelow’s museum wax suggestion. Because that was a housekeeping issue, nothing wrong with a bit of geometry, right?

My patients’ faith kept me up at night, devising treatment plans.

Patty Bigelow’s faith had endured and I wasn’t sure I’d earned it.

Now she was dead and her child was depending on me and I was making a house call.

A bit involved.

The duplex was Spanish Revival, not dissimilar from the building on Fourth Street. Peach-toned stucco, mullioned windows inset with stained-glass bluebirds, flat lawn instead of a car park; a young paper birch weeping dead center.

Alarm company sign staked to the left. Lights on in the second story. The stairs were whitened by high-voltage floodlights.

Tanya opened the door before I finished climbing. Loose hair shawled her shoulders. She looked exhausted.

“Thank God I’m not late,” she said.

“Tough study session?”

“Tough, but it was all good. Please. Come in.”

The living room was oak-floored, barrel-ceilinged, pale pink. Cream-colored tiles painted with lilies fronted the fireplace. A lilac chintz sofa faced the curtained picture window and two matching chairs. In between was a bleached wood coffee table with gilded rococo legs.

Patty had talked about being butch but she’d chosen delicate décor.

Above the couch, a dozen photographs were set low on the wall, framed identically in faux-driftwood.

The Story of Tanya from toddler to teen. Predictable shifts in hair-style, clothing, and makeup as Cute Tyke grew to Pretty Girl, but style-wise no signs of adolescent rebellion.

Patty made no appearance until the final photo: Tanya in a crimson cap and gown, her mother in a navy jacket and white turtleneck, holding up a diploma and beaming.

Tanya said, “Here’s one I just found,” and pointed to the sole photo on the coffee table. Black-framed portrait of a broad-faced young woman in a white uniform.

Patty’s upward gaze was solemn, so contrived it was almost comical. I pictured some hack photographer clicking away and uttering rote instructions. Think of your new career, dear…chin higher-higher-even higher-there you go. Next!

“She looks so hopeful,” said Tanya. “Please make yourself comfortable, I’ll get the coffee.”

She returned bearing a black plastic tray silk-screened to look like lacquer. Five Oreos were stacked on a plate like a miniature silo. Between a pair of mugs bearing the U.’s insignia a ramekin held packets of nondairy creamer, sugar, and sweetener, wedged tightly, like tiny brochures.

“Cream and sugar?”

“Black’s fine,” I said.

I sat in one of the chairs and she chose the sofa. “I don’t know anyone who drinks it black. My friends think coffee’s dessert.”

“Semi-blended soy mocha-java frappes with extra chocolate?”

She managed a tired smile, opened three sugars, dropped them into her cup. “Cookie?”

“No, thanks.”

“Mostly, I drink tea, but coffee’s good for long study nights.” She scooted toward the front edge of the sofa. “Sure you don’t want an Oreo?”


“I guess I’ll have one. You hear a lot about prying them apart but lots of people like the sandwich effect and I’m one of them.” Talking fast. Nibbling fast.

“So,” she said.

“I drove by each of the addresses on your list. It’s quite a mix.”

“The mansion as opposed to all those apartments?” she said. “Actually, we only lived in one room of the mansion. I remember thinking it was strange, such a gigantic house but we had less space than in the apartment. I used to worry about rolling off in the middle of the night on top of Mommy.”

“Did that ever happen?”

“No,” she said. “Sometimes she’d hold me. It felt safe.” She put the cookie down. “Sometimes she’d snore.”

Her eyes got wet. “They let us use the pool when Mommy had spare time and the gardens were beautiful, lots of big trees. I’d find places to hide, pretend I was in a forest somewhere.”

“Who owned the house?”

“The Bedard family,” she said. “The only one living there was the grandfather-Colonel Bedard. The family came by once in a while, but they lived far away. They wanted Mommy there to take care of him at night, after the day nurse went home.”

“An old man,” I said.

“Ancient. All bent over, extremely thin. He had filmy eyes-probably blue originally but now they were milky gray. No hair on his head. There was a huge library in the house and that’s where he sat all day. I remember him smelling of paper. Not gross, just a little stale, the way old people get.”

“Was he nice to you?”

“He really didn’t say or do much, just sat in that library with a blanket over his lap and a book in his hand. His face was kind of stiff-he must’ve had a stroke-so when he tried to smile nothing much happened. At first I was scared of him but then Mommy told me he was nice.”

“Did she move there to make more money?”

“That’s what I assume. Like I said, Dr. Delaware, financial security was important to her. Even in her spare time.”

“Reading financial books.”

“Want to see?”

A bedroom at the end of the hall had been converted to a no-nonsense office. U-build Swedish bookshelves and desk, black swivel chair, white file cabinets, desktop computer and printer.

“I’ve been through her files, it’s all money stuff.” She pointed to shelves stacked with back issues of Forbes, Barron’s, Money. A collection of investment guides ranged from reasoned strategy to improbable hucksterism. The lowest shelf held a pile of thin, glossy magazines. The top issue featured a close-up head-shot of an actress who’d lost her husband to another actress.

Tormented eyes. Perfect hair and makeup.

“The fan rags,” said Tanya. “The hospital boxed them up with her personal effects. Getting them back was a complete hassle. Some form I hadn’t filled out. I could see the box, right there behind the counter, but the woman in charge was being a real beeyotch, said I had to go somewhere else to get the forms and they were closed. When I started crying, she got on the phone, made a personal call, gossiping away as if I didn’t exist. I beeped Dr. Silverman and he just went behind the desk and got it. At the bottom of the box were Mommy’s armband and her reading glasses and the clothes she had on when she was admitted and this.”

She opened a desk drawer, held up a broken plastic band. “Should we go back and finish our coffee?”

Two sips later, I said, “So when you lived on Hudson, she was working two jobs.”

“Yes, but looking after the colonel wasn’t much trouble, he went to sleep at six and we were up early anyway so Mommy could drive me to school and make it to Cedars.”

“How’d she find out about the position?”

“No idea-maybe a bulletin board at the hospital? She never got into those kinds of details with me, just announced one day that we were moving to a big beautiful house in a high-class neighborhood.”

“How’d you feel about that?”

“I was used to moving around. From my days with Lydia. And it’s not like I had a ton of friends on Cherokee.”

“Hollywood could be a tough neighborhood back then.”

“It didn’t affect us.”

“Except when drunks pounded on the door.”

“That didn’t happen often. Mommy took care of it.”


“She’d shout through the door for them to go away and if that didn’t work, she’d threaten to call the cops. I don’t remember her actually calling the cops, so it must’ve worked.”

“Were you scared?”

“You’re saying that could be it? Some drunk got dangerous and she had to do something to him?”

“Anything’s possible but it’s way too early to theorize. Why’d you move from the mansion?”

“Colonel Bedard died. One morning Mommy went up to his room to give him his meds and there he was.”

“Was leaving such a beautiful place upsetting?”

“Not really, our room was pretty small.” She reached for her coffee. “Mommy liked the colonel but not his family. The few times they’d show up, she’d say, ‘Here they are.’ They rarely visited him, it was sad. The night after he died, I couldn’t sleep and found Mommy in the breakfast room sitting with the maid. Her name was…Cecilia-how did I remember that?-anyway, Mommy and Cecilia were just sitting there, looking down. Mommy led me back to bed, started talking about how money was important for security, but it should never get in the way of appreciation. I thought she meant that for me so I told her I appreciated her. She laughed and kissed me hard and said, ‘Not you, baby. You’re a lot smarter than some so-called grown-ups.’”

“The colonel’s family didn’t appreciate him.”

“That’s what I took it to mean.”

“Did anything out of the ordinary happen while you were living in the mansion?”

“Just the colonel’s death,” she said. “I guess you couldn’t call that out of the ordinary, seeing how old he was.”

She chewed around the rim of her Oreo.

“Okay,” I said, “let’s move on to Fourth Street.”

“That was a duplex, not as large as this one, but with a lot more space than we’d ever had. I was in my own room again with a great walk-in closet. The neighbors upstairs were Asian, quiet.”

“You stayed there less than a year.”

“Mommy said it was too expensive.”

“The first time you came to see me was right after you moved to Hudson Avenue. The second time was right after you moved from Fourth Street to Culver City.”

“You’re thinking I got stressed about moving?”

“Did you?”

“I honestly don’t think so, Dr. Delaware. Did I say anything back then about what was bothering me?”

“No,” I said.

“I guess I’m a pretty closed-up person.”

“You got better very quickly.”

“Is that acceptable from a psychologist’s standpoint? Changing behavior without going deep?”

“You’re the best judge of what’s okay for you.”

She smiled. “You always say that.”

She poured me another cup. Wiped droplets from the rim.

I said, “So Fourth Street was too expensive.”

“The rent was way too high. Mommy wanted to put together a down payment so she could buy.” She glanced at her mother’s photo, looked down at the floor.

“Culver Boulevard was another sketchy neighborhood,” I said.

“It wasn’t that bad. I stayed in the same school, had the same friends.”

“Saint Thomas. Even though you’re not Catholic.”

“You remember that?”

“Your mother felt it was important to tell me.”

“That we weren’t Catholic?”

“That she hadn’t lied about being Catholic to get you in.”

“That was Mommy,” she said, smiling. “She was up front with the priest, said if he could convince me to be Catholic it wouldn’t bother her, but not to get his hopes up.”

“What was her take on religion?”

“Live a good life and be tolerant-Dr. Delaware, I don’t want to be rude but I do need to study some more. Is there anything else I can tell you?”

“I think we’ve covered enough ground.”

“Thanks so much for coming over, it made me feel as if…it’s almost as if you were able to visit her. Now, I insist you take these Oreos-wait, I’ll go get a bag.”

She stood in the doorway as I descended the stairs. Waved before closing the door. Canfield Avenue had turned darker, barely limned by thinly spaced, anemic lamps.

As I walked to the Seville, something up at the second story caught my eye.

Back-and-forth movement, behind the drapes of Tanya’s picture window.

A figure pacing. Vanishing for an instant, then reappearing only to reverse direction.

The circuit repeated.

I waited until the twentieth passage before driving away.


I ate an Oreo while phoning Milo.

He barked, “Yeah?”

“I woke you?”

“Oh, it’s you-nah waking assumes I sleep. Up and festive-vacation, remember?”


“Are you talking with your mouth full?”

I swallowed. “Not anymore.”

“Late-night gourmet snack?”

“A cookie.”

“Got milk? My bud at the phone company found Patty’s old billing records. Cherokee was her first L.A. address. According to some vets Petra talked to the block was a big drug market back then. Interesting housing choice for a nice, respectable nurse, no? And she stayed six years.”

Perfect time to let go of my dope suspicions, but I held back.

He said, “Rick says she was thrifty bordering on Scrooge, so maybe cheap rent attracted her. Still, bringing up a little kid in a tough part of Hollywood doesn’t seem optimal.”

“She never expected to be bringing up a little kid.”

“True…I haven’t had time to look for open homicide cases near any of her cribs except for Hancock Park. Only thing that went down there was on June Street, one block west and two blocks south. Victim was a diamond dealer named Wilfred Hong, three masked gunmen broke in at three a.m. after disabling the alarm, shot Hong as he sat up in bed, no warning, but they didn’t shoot Mrs. Hong or two kids sleeping down the hall. After forcing her to pop the safe, they tied her up and made off with bags of loose stones and cash. Rumor had it Hong owed money and gems to lots of people. It stinks of pro talent and insider knowledge, so unless Patty was part of some high-level jewel heist gang, it ain’t worth our time. If anything is. Any new thoughts about the bigger picture?”

“Nope. Isaac said he’d run some calculations.”

“Beats hand-searches of old murder books. I’ve been thinking, Alex, before we spend any more time surmising, let’s visit each address, see if we can locate any neighbors who knew Patty. If no one remembers anything remotely homicidal, I say we’ve got license to quit and you find a way to break it to Tanya.”

“Okay,” I said. “When?”

“Pick me up at my place tomorrow morning, say ten. Bring bright-colored clothing, piña colada mix, and a celebratory attitude.”

“What are we celebrating?”

“I’m on vacation, remember? Or so they say.”

“Who’s ‘they’?”

“The gods of false hope.”

The small, neat house Milo shares with Rick sits on a West Hollywood side street shadowed by the green-blue bulk of the Design Center. Quiet during the week, sleepy-silent on Saturday.

The drought-resistant shrubs Rick had planted during a dry year were handling a wet year with mixed success. As I drove up, Milo was kneeling and pinching off dead branches. He straightened quickly, as if caught in a shameful act, patted the place where his gun bulged his jacket, and loped over to the car.

The jacket was a limp, brown, almost-tweed thing. His shirt was yellow wash-and-wear with a curling collar. Soot-gray trousers puddled over tan desert boots.

“That’s vacation garb?” I said, driving away.

“Conceptually, it’s a workday.”

A block later: “With no pay, I might add.”

“I’ll buy lunch.”

“We’ll go somewhere expensive.”

As I turned from Hollywood Boulevard onto Cherokee, he narrowed his eyes and lasered the block. When I pulled up in front of the brick-colored building, he said, “Definitely a dump. Any idea which apartment was hers?”

“One of those two in front.”

“Not what I’d want, security-wise…okay, let’s go bother someone.”

Knocks on both ground-floor units were met by silence. As he pushed the glass door to the main entrance, I said, “When I was by here, an older guy stepped out and got kind of territorial. Maybe he’s been around for a while.”

“Territorial how?”

“Glaring, wanting me gone.”

“Show me his door.”

Music seeped from the other side of the brown wood panel. Janis Joplin offering a piece of her heart.

Milo rapped hard. The music died and the man I’d seen yesterday came to the door holding a can of Mountain Dew in one hand, a Kit Kat bar in the other.

Thin gray hair flew away from a high dome. His horsey face was all wrinkles and sags. Not the easy transition of nature-the muddiness of premature aging. I revised my estimate to early fifties.

He wore a light blue pajama top under the same Dodger jacket. Blue satin was grease-speckled and moth-eaten, bleached to pink in spots. Frayed red sweats exposed white, hairless ankles. Bare feet tapered to ragged yellow nails. Where stubble didn’t sprout, his skin was pallid and flaky. Dull brown eyes struggled to stay open.

The room behind him was the color of congealed custard, strewn with food wrappers, take-out boxes, empty cups, dirty clothes. Warm, fetid air escaped to the hallway.

Milo’s badge didn’t do a thing for the man’s wakefulness. Bracing himself against the doorjamb, he drank soda, gave no sign he remembered me.

“Sir, we’re looking into a tenant who lived here a few years ago.”



A hoarse “Yeah?”

“We were wondering if you knew her.”

Runny nose that he swiped with his sleeve. “Who?”

“A woman named Patricia Bigelow.”



“What’d she do?” Clogged voice. Slurred enunciation.

“Why would you think she did anything?”

“You’re not here…because you…like my cooking.”

“You cook, huh?”

The man chomped the candy bar. The interior of his mouth was more gap than tooth.

Warm day but dressed for chill. Snarfing sugar, rotten dentition. No need to roll up his sleeves; I knew we wouldn’t be invited inside.

Milo said, “So you remember Patty Bigelow.”

No answer.

“Do you?


“She’s dead.”

The brown eyes blinked. “That’s too bad.”

“What can you tell us about her, sir?”

Ten-second delay, then a long, slow, laborious head shake as the old addict nudged the door with his knee. Milo placed a big hand on the knob.


“How well did you know Ms. Bigelow?”

Something changed in the brown eyes. New wariness. “I didn’t.”

“You were living here at the same time she was.”

“So were other people.”

“Any of them still around?”

“Doubt it.”

“People come and go.”


“How long have you been living here, sir?”

“Twenty years.” Glance down at his knee. “Gotta take a leak.” He made another halfhearted try at closing the door. Milo held fast and the guy started to fidget and blink. “C’mo-on, I need to-”

“Friend, I’m a murder guy, don’t care what magic potion gets you through the day.”

The man’s eyes closed. He swayed. Nodding off. Milo tapped his shoulder. “Trust me, pal, I’m not on speaking terms with any narcs.”

The eyes opened and shot us a who-me? “I’m clean.”

“And I’m Condoleezza Rice. Just tell us what you remember about Patty Bigelow and we’ll be out of your life.”

“Don’t remember anything.” We waited.

“She had a kid…okay?”

“What do you remember about the kid?”

“She…had one.”

“Who’d Patty hang with?”


“She have any friends?”


“Nice lady?”


“You and she didn’t hang out together?”



“Not my type.”


Another look at his knee. “Not my type.”

“When she lived here did anything of a criminal nature go down near the building?”


“Murder, rape, robbery, et cetera,” said Milo. “Any of that happen here while Patty Bigelow lived here?”


“What’s your name, sir?”

Hesitation. “Jordan.”

“That a first or a last?”

“Les Jordan.”



“Got a middle name?”


“As in Brando.”

Les Jordan shifted his weight. “Gotta piss.”

From the stain spreading at his crotch, truth in advertising.

He stared at it. No embarrassment, just resignation. His eyelids fluttered. “Told you.”

Milo said, “Have a nice day,” and turned heel.

The door slammed shut.

Most of the other tenants were out. The few we found were too young to be relevant.

Back in the car, Milo phoned Detective Sean Binchy and asked him to run a criminal check on Lester Marlon Jordan.

While we waited, I said, “Sean’s back on Homicide?”

“Nah, still wasting his time on armed robberies and other trivial matters. But the lad’s grateful for my tutelage so he avails himself-yeah, Sean, hold on, lemme get a pen.”

When he hung up, he said, “The charming Mr. Jordan has accumulated multiple arrests. Possession of heroin-big shock-and disorderlies. Five dismissals, three convictions, all bargained down to short stretches at County.”

“Choosing the right lawyer,” I said.

“Or he’s too penny-ante to waste prison space on. Mister Rogers might love all his neighbors but you’d think Patty woulda been more discriminating.”

“Maybe there’s a reason for that.”

“Such as?”

I took a deep breath, unloaded my dope suspicions.

“Respectable nurse dealing hospital junk on the side?” he said. “Rick considers her next to saintly and my impression was you concurred.”

“I do. Just thought I should mention it.”

“Dealing,” he said. “Jordan did get a little edgy when I pushed him about knowing her…know what I find interesting? Here’s Patty, an alleged solid citizen living in a dive, and once she moves from there, she’s hopping around every coupla years. But a scuzzy junkie like Lester Jordan manages to stay at the same address twenty years.”

“Maybe his family owns the building.”

“Or he got a source of steady income that’s managed to elude the justice system.”

“Simple possession raps, but he deals,” I said.

“He’s made it this far without dying, Alex. Having some control over the product would help. Nice respectable hospital nurse moves in, you can see his digging that.”

“For Tanya’s sake I hope that stays a theory.”

“Tanya’s the one did the Pandora bit.”

“Doesn’t mean she’s ready for what flies out of the box.”

The two of us sat there for a while.

He said, “Why Patty would tell her anything is still beyond me. On the other hand, maybe she was pure and this is just us cogitating out of control. We’ve been known to spin some pretty good theories in our spare time.”

I said, “Some of them have turned out to be real.”

“Listen to you,” he said. “I thought the key was to think positive. Whatever the hell that means.”

I kept quiet.

“Any further wisdom at this juncture?” he said.


“Onward to Fourth Street.”

Dappled shade from mature trees prettied the block. The same Mini Cooper was parked on the concrete pad. PLOTGRL.

Tanya had said Asians had lived above her so we headed for the duplex’s ground floor. The door was answered by a slim, ponytailed brunette in her late twenties. A pencil was wedged behind one ear. A fuzzy pink sweater hung over black tights. Freckled nose, amber eyes, sharp chin. Soft curves molded the sweater.

Milo’s badge made her giggle. “Cops? That is so weird. I’m right in the middle of a cop-show teleplay. Want to be my technical advisors?”

“What show?”

“A pilot,” she said. “The main hook is a girl detective who’s deaf because of a gunshot accident. She can’t hear the bad guys coming so she has to develop her other senses to their utmost. Overcompensation, you know? She’s an ace at sign language and that ends up being crucial in catching a serial killer.”

“Sounds interesting,” said Milo.

“Right now, it sounds sucko because what I’m really good at is comedy. But my agent says no one’s buying. Hopefully when I finish Hear No Evil it’ll suck less but not be too intelligent for the networks.”

She stuck out a hand, shook energetically. “Lisa Bergman. What brings you guys around on a weekend?”

Milo smiled at her. “Background check. You’re too young to help.”

“I’m older than I look, but you made my day. Can you at least tell me what’s going on-no names, just the basic story line? I can always use material.”

“The story line,” he said, “is we’re inquiring about a woman who lived here nine, ten years ago.”

“Nine, ten years ago,” said Lisa Bergman, “I was a junior at Reed.”

“There you go.”

“You’re saying something happened here?”

“A person of interest lived here. Who are your upstairs neighbors?”

“Four law students younger than me. What did this person of interest do?”

“She’s deceased,” said Milo.

“Deceased as in murdered?”

“Natural death, but we need to clear up some details about her life.”

“How come?”

“Financial issues. Nothing juicy enough for TV.”

“You’re sure?”

“Do debentures and tax-free municipal bonds sound like a hook?”

“Ugh,” said Lisa Bergman. Sliding the pencil from behind her ear, she touched the point to her lip, creating a tiny little temporary dimple. “You should go over and talk to Mary Whitbread. She’s the landlady.”

“Where can we find her?”

Stepping onto her porch, she pointed. “Five buildings down, the green one, first floor. She’ll probably be there.”


“No, she shops but mostly she’s around.” Nose-wrinkling frown.


“Between you and me, she drops by more than she has to,” said Bergman. “Supposedly to make sure the property’s being maintained but really just to schmooze. Once, I made the mistake of inviting her in for coffee. An hour later, she was still here and all my ideas for that day’s writing had floated away.”

She grinned. “Maybe that was good.”

Milo thanked her and wished her luck with her script.

She said, “From your mouth to God’s ears. If this gig doesn’t work out, I’ll have to go back to being an event planner.”

Mary Whitbread’s duplex was painted mint green with teal trim, fronted by impeccable grass, shaded by a gorgeously contorted sycamore.

Freshly swept tile porch, pretty flowers in pretty vases. A cheerful, “One second!” preceded the opening of a black lacquer door.

From Lisa Bergman’s description, I was expecting a mousy type in a housecoat. Mary Whitbread was fiftyish, tan, trim, and blond-coiffed, with huge blue eyes under eyebrows plucked to commas. Her white silk blouse was patterned with gold links and bugles and red orchids-Versace or trying to be-and tucked tight into tailored navy crepe slacks. Tiny waist, hard hips, sharp bosoms. Red spike-heeled sandals revealed nacreous toenail polish. Her fingernails were painted the crimson of the shoes.

“Hel-lo,” she proclaimed. “If you’re here about the vacancy, sorry, it’s been rented, the service forgot to de-list.”

Milo said, “Aw, shucks,” and flashed the badge.

“Police? My goodness.” Peering at us. “Now that I’m looking it’s obvious you’re not…in the market.”

“Is it.”

Mary Whitbread stepped out onto the porch and smiled. “What I meant was when I see two men looking for a place to rent together I assume-you know. Which isn’t to say that bothers me. Actually, they’re my favorite tenants. So meticulous, that great eye for proportion.”

She patted her hair. Flashed teeth. “So how can I help the police?”

“We’re inquiring about a former tenant.”

“One of my people got in trouble? Who?”

“No one’s in trouble, Ms. Whitbread-”

“Just call me Mary.” She took another step forward, moved right into Milo’s personal space.

“No one’s in trouble, Mary. One of your former tenants is deceased and there are some corollary investigations going on into financial matters.”

“Financial? White-collar crime?” she said. “Like Enron? World-com?”

“Nothing quite so monumental,” said Milo. “I’m sorry but I can’t discuss the details.”

Mary Whitbread pouted. “Meanie. Now you’ve got me all curious.”

Leaning forward, close enough to kiss. Milo retreated two steps. Mary Whitbread quickly claimed the space he’d vacated. “All right, Detective, I’ll bite. Who’s this mystery person?”

“Patricia Bigelow.”

False lashes fluttered. “Patty? She died? How sad. How in the world did it happen?”


“Cancer,” she repeated. “That’s terribly sad. She didn’t smoke.”

“You remember her.”

“I’m a people person. My people stay for years, often we become friends.”

“Patty Bigelow didn’t stay long.”

“No…I suppose she didn’t…cancer? She couldn’t have been too old.” She frowned. “That little girl of hers…Tamara? Losing her mother…you’re saying Patty became involved in some sort of money- laundering thing or whatever?”

Milo ran a finger across his lips.

“Sorry, Detective, I just find people so endlessly fascinating. Used to work as a casting agent in the industry and boy, that was a lesson in applied psychology. But your job, glimpsing the dark side, it must be endlessly fascinating.”

“Endlessly. What can you tell us about Patty Bigelow?”

“Well,” she said, “she paid her rent on time, kept the place up just fine. I certainly had no problems with her.”

“Did anyone else?”

More lash calisthenics. “Not that I’d know. I’m just saying we got along dandy. Have you been over to the apartment she occupied?”

“The tenant sent us here.”

“Lisa,” said Mary Whitbread. “Pretty girl. Her father pays the rent. Beverly Hills divorce lawyer, he’s been financing Lisa’s adventures for years. This month it’s screenwriting.”

I said, “Who lived above Patty?”

“A young couple from…Indonesia. Or Malaysia? Somewhere over there. They had Dutch names even though they were Oriental…Henry-no Hendrik. Hendrik and Astrid Van Dreesen. He was studying for a Ph.D., some scientific thing, she was…some sort of salesperson…electronics was his thing, I believe. They weren’t as meticulous about upkeep as you’d think. Being Oriental. We always assume they’ll be neat, right? But overall, good tenants. They stayed four years, then moved back to wherever they came from.”

“During the time Ms. Bigelow lived here, did anything out of the ordinary occur in the neighborhood?”

“Out of the ordinary as in a swindle or a con job or laundering?”

“Anything you can think of,” said Milo.

“Out of the ordinary…well…we don’t have the kind of problems you’d see in a lower-income neighborhood. I do recall a purse-snatching, a poor old lady knocked to her feet by a Mexican-a busboy at a restaurant on Wilshire…but that was after Patty’s time…there were a few burglaries, but the police caught whoever was behind them.” She clucked her tongue. “Was it lung cancer? When she applied to rent she said she didn’t smoke. And I never saw evidence that she did.”

“She was here less than a year,” I said. “Why’d she move?”

“The rent was beyond her budget,” said Whitbread. “With a child in parochial school, it became a burden, though I don’t know why you’d want that.”

“Not a fan of parochial school?”

“Those priests? Every day a new headline. But that was Patty’s choice. When she told me she was having difficulties I sensed she wanted me to reduce the rent but, of course, that was out of the question.”

“Of course.”

“In the real estate business, Detective, if one wants quality tenants, one must be fair but firm. Patty’s unit was in terrific condition, tons of original features from the twenties. It didn’t stay vacant long. Two gay guys, as a matter of fact, and they lived there for five years and the only reason they left was they bought a house up in the hills.”

She frowned. “Where did Patty move? I was never contacted by anyone for a reference.”

“Culver City,” said Milo.

“Ouch,” said Whitbread. “That’s a bit of a comedown.” Her eyes shifted to a spot over his shoulder.

A black Hummer had pulled up to the curb. Whitbread waved. Put her hand on my arm. “My son’s here-is there anything else, Detective?”

“No, ma’am.”

“Well then, nice talking to you.” She nudged me, smiled at Milo. “If at some point you are allowed to give a civilian some juicy details, please remember me.”

“Will do,” he said. “Thanks for your time.”

Clicking past us on red heels, she hurried to the Hummer and knocked on the passenger window. The glass had been tinted black. So had the grille and the rims.

As we pulled away, the driver’s door opened and a huge young black man in copper-colored sweats and matching athletic shoes got out. Midtwenties, shaved head, razor-trimmed mustache and goatee.

“That’s her kid?” said Milo. “I love this city.”

“Always surprises,” I said.

“Take a nap and your zip code’s changed.”

Mary Whitbread waved at us.

The giant did the same, but his heart wasn’t in it.


“This is different,” said Milo.

We were standing near the dead fountain that centered the bungalow court on Culver Boulevard. The bowl was cracked, crusted with dead bugs, splotched with vaguely organic stains. A broken toy truck lay on its side. As we’d stepped onto the property, the children who’d been playing in the dirt had scattered like finches.

No bells on any of the units’ warped doors. Milo’s knocks had produced baffled stares, murmured denials in Spanish. What we could see of the units’ interiors was dim and threadbare. A stale, morose uniformity shouted transience.

“I can try to find out who owned the property back then but it’s not going to lead anywhere.” His shoe nudged the fountain. “Patty didn’t ask Chatty Mary for references because she didn’t need any for this dump.”

I said, “That could’ve been the point.”

“What do you mean?”

“She moved to keep a low profile.”

“Money wasn’t the motive? Scared of something brought on by illicit commerce? I don’t know, Alex. If she was running why stay in town and keep the same job?”

“I was thinking guilt, not fear,” I said. “Running from herself.”

“The alleged ‘terrible thing’?”

“A step down the residential ladder might’ve seemed a bit of atonement.”

“Punishing herself,” he said. “Not caring if Tanya got punished in the process?”

“Tanya said she didn’t care.”

“Tanya sounds like a kid who’d say that.”

“She does put on a good face,” I said. “But kids are flexible. The main thing would’ve been the relationship between her and her mother.”

“And now she’s alone.”

We walked to the car. I said, “Maybe the move here really was about saving money.”

“Innocent till proven otherwise? Sure, why not. Now that we’ve had our useless geography lesson, what next?”

“Maybe we should narrow the geography down. If something had happened on Fourth Street, Chatty Mary would’ve remembered, so let’s put that aside for the moment.”

“Unless Chatty Mary didn’t want the neighborhood besmirched by tales of violence.”

“My guess is she’d still enjoy talking about a juicy crime. I agree that the murder on June Street is unlikely to be relevant and the only unusual thing that actually happened at the mansion-if you can call it that-was Colonel Bedard dying while under Patty’s care.”

“Not unusual-he was old.” He rubbed his face, like washing without water.

“What?” I said.

“If you want me to be creative, I can be.”

“Go for it.”

“An old guy suffering, a compassionate person-could think they were doing him a favor by helping the process along.”


“I told you it was creative.”

“If Patty had a tendency to play God, wouldn’t Rick know?”

“The E.R. is one thing, Alex. People come in to be saved. But watching some feeble old guy waste away? That could tug at the heartstrings-even a good person’s heartstrings. Nothing premeditated, she wasn’t a criminal. Something impulsive that she came to regret. Then she got sick, déjà-vued, and blurted it to Tanya. Maybe thinking about her own death got her obsessing on how she’d hastened the process for someone else. Or this whole deathbed confession thing is crap and you should concentrate on helping Tanya deal with being alone and I should spend my two weeks off watching TV.”

“Deaf detectives?”

“Jesus,” he said. “No, my concept of nirvana is TiVoing a month of Judge Judy, cooking up some microwave chili, and zoning out.”

“Truth and justice,” I said.

“Stupid people getting yelled at. If I were straight, I’d try to date that woman.”

I laughed. Gazed out the car window. None of the children had returned to the fountain. “First Patty’s a dope dealer, now she’s a mercy killer.”

“She said she killed a guy, Alex.”

“That she did.”

“I’ll tell you one thing,” he said. “No sense pursuing Colonel Bedard’s death. Whatever happened, the certificate’s going to say natural.”

He tilted his head toward the bungalow court. “In terms of this Eden, there was bound to be plenty of street crime back then, let’s see if Isaac pulls anything up. Not that I’m any more convinced something happened than I was yesterday. But if there was no euthanasia, my next bet would be something to do with the Cherokee drug market. Especially after meeting Lester Jordan. Let me sniff around some more, pay Jordan another social call.”

He yawned, stretched, closed his eyes. “Enough for one day. Drive.”

“TiVo time?” I said.

The eyes opened. “Not so fast, bucko. Expensive lunch on you.”

“Sure,” I said. “Afterward, we can revisit Jordan.”

“Nope, too soon. I’ll go it alone tomorrow.”

“What do you need me to do?”

He lowered the window and breathed in smog. “Play it by ear. Which is a nice way of saying I don’t have a damn idea.”

I got home at three, belly full of Thai food, took Blanche for a puppy trot around the garden, freshened her water, heard about her day, toted her and her food bowl into my office.

She ate as I had another go at Tanya’s file.

Starting at the beginning.

The tape-loop soundtrack of obsessive-compulsiveness is powered by anxiety. The noise can be switched off by SSRIs-drugs that increase the flow of serotonin to the brain. But not much is known about how psychoactive meds affect kids long-term, and when the patient stops taking the pills, the soundtrack cranks up again.

Cognitive behavior therapy takes longer and requires active participation by the patient, but it has no side effects and teaches self-help skills that can endure. By the time Tanya first came to see me, I’d successfully treated scores of kids with OCD, sampling from a grab bag of CBT methodologies.

I try to view every patient with a fresh eye, but after you’ve been in practice for a few years, preconceptions are inevitable, and when she arrived I had a plan in mind.

1. Build trust.

2. Find the anxious core.

3. When the time’s right, use thought-stopping, guided exposure, desensitization, or some combination, to replace tension with relaxation.

By the fourth session, rapport seemed set and I was ready to work. Tanya marched into the office and sat at the play table and said, “They’re gone.”

“Who is?”

“My habits.”

“Gone,” I said.

“I don’t do them anymore.”

“That’s great, Tanya.”


“How’d you do that?”

“You said I was being nervous so when I got nervous I chased the habit feelings away.”

“Chased them?”

“I said, ‘Stop, that’s stupid,’ and put other feelings inside.” Tapping her temple.

Would you like your clinical license to go, or will you eat it here?

“What other feelings did you put into your head?”

“Taking a walk with Mommy. Going to Disneyland.”

“Disneyland’s a favorite place?”

“Small World’s boring,” she said. “I like the Spinning Teacups.” Rotating one hand. “I like the pink cup.”

“Spinning Teacups is something you’ve done before with Mommy.”

“No,” she said, looking vexed. “We don’t really do it, Mommy gets sick when she spins. We watch.”

“You’d like to do it.”

“I pretend to do it.” Rotating both hands, now. Fast and choppy, like an agitated bus driver.

“You pretend to spin.”

“Fast,” she said.

“That makes the nervous feelings go away.”

Doubt sharpened the pale green eyes. “You said the habits were being nervous.”

“You’re absolutely right, Tanya. You did a great job.”

“I didn’t do it all,” she said.

“Someone helped you?”

Emphatic head shake. “I didn’t do it all the first time.”

“You did some of it.”

She turned away from me. “I looked under the bed. A little. I washed my hands a bunch of times. The second time I didn’t look under the bed and I only washed my hands once. I had to wash. To be clean, Mommy says to use soap and water before I go to sleep, and brush my teeth.”

“Sounds like a good idea.”

“Washing only once is a good idea,” she said. “More is stupid.”

“Mommy said it was stupid?”

No! I say it to myself.” She picked up a pencil, twirled, poked the playhouse.

“I’m really impressed, Tanya.”

No response.

“You must be proud of yourself.”

“Having habits made me tired,” she said, airily.

“And now you can handle them.”

“When I get nervous, I say ‘You’re being nervous, you don’t need those habits.’”

I said, “Perfect. You could be a doctor.”

She manipulated dolls. Worked hard at a poker face. Gave up and surrendered to a smile. “Mommy says no one’s perfect but I’m close.”

“Mommy would know.”

Giggle. “Um…can I draw?”

The second time, three years later, I expected dejection due to relapse, was surprised to see her straight-backed and strutting as she entered the office. Still small for her age, she dressed older-pressed khakis, white shirt under a navy V-necked sweater, immaculate brown loafers. Her hair was combed out and straight. Suggestions of maturity had begun to firm the contours of her face.

The play table that had occupied her at age seven was dismissed with a glance. She settled in one of the leather armchairs, crossed her legs, and said, “Guess I’m here again.”

“It’s good to see you, Tanya.”

“I’m sorry,” she said. “I did it again.”

“Your habits?”

“No. I mean they’re gone.”

“You cured yourself again.”

“Mommy said I should still come in.”

“That’s nothing to be sorry for.”

“I was going to come in a few weeks ago but I had too many tests, so I…”

“In the meantime you did the job yourself.”

“I don’t want to waste your time. And Mommy’s money. Mommy still wanted me to see you. She wants to make sure I’m okay.”

“Do you feel okay?”


“Then I guess you’re okay,” I said. “Boy, you did it even quicker than the first time. I’m impressed.”

“The first time you really did it,” she said. “You explained that I was doing all those things because I was nervous. Now I understand.” She sat up straighter. “I don’t know why I started again. At least this time it wasn’t as bad. I started washing and cleaning out my closet many times but I didn’t do any checking.”

“Were you nervous about anything?”

“Not really.”

“Mommy told me you moved.”

“I like it.”

“Sometimes even good change can make someone nervous.”

She thought about that. “I like it.”

“How’s school going?” I said.

“Pretty easy,” she said. “Boring. I had a bad cold right before the habits started up again. Mommy thought maybe I got tired and that’s why.”

“Sometimes that happens.”

“Every time I get a cold I need to be careful?”

“No,” I said. “But anytime you get really upset about something it would be a good idea to practice relaxing-do you still use Disneyland as a favorite place?”

“No way,” she said. “That’s immature.”

“You have a new place.”

Her eyes shifted sideways. “I just tell myself to be relaxed.”

“So school’s easy.”

“In some classes I have to work to get As.”

“Getting As is important.”

“Of course.”

“Are you feeling pressure?” I said.

“From Mommy?”

“From anyone.”

“She says do my best, that’s all. But…”

I waited.

“Sometimes,” she said, “it’s hard to study when it’s so boring, but I make myself. I don’t like writing papers and I hate social studies. Science and math are good, they make sense. I want to be a doctor. Helping people is useful.”

“That’s what your mother does.”

“Mommy says doctors are always going to be in charge, not nurses. I don’t like asking people for things.”

Long pause. “I think Mommy’s been a little nervous.”

“About what?”

“She doesn’t tell me.”

“You asked her?”

Slow smile.

“What’s funny, Tanya?”

“No way would I ask her.”

“Why not?”

“She’d say she’s okay and start asking if I’m okay.”

“You don’t want to worry her.”

“She’s got a full plate.”

Adult expression. I wondered how much time she spent with kids her age.

“How can you tell she’s been nervous, Tanya?”

“Not sitting still a lot…straightening the pictures. Sometimes she looks worried.” Fidgeting. “I’m really okay, I don’t think I need to come in again.”

“As long as you’re here, is there anything else you want to talk about…”

“Like what?”

“Like Mommy being nervous, how that affects you.”

“Please don’t tell her I told you.”

“Promise,” I said. “Same rule we had the first time.”

“You don’t tell unless I want you to,” she said. “She does it after I go to bed, thinks I don’t hear it.”

“Straightening up?”

“Mopping the floor even though it’s clean. Taking out cans from the shelves in the kitchen and putting them back. I hear doors open and close and when she moves chairs sometimes they rub against the floor. She does it at night because she doesn’t want me to know. Maybe she thinks I’ll catch it.”

“Like a cold.”

“Can that happen?”

“There are no germs for habits but sometimes when we live with people we imitate them.”

She gnawed her lip. “Should I try to help Mommy with her habits?”

“What do you think she’d say if you offered.”

Big smile. “‘I’m okay, honey.’ But I’d still like to help her.”

“I think the best thing you can do for her is just what you’re doing. Handle any problems that you can but ask for help when you can’t.”

She took a long time to digest that. “If it happens again, I’ll come back.”

“I always like hearing from you. It’s okay to call when things are going well.”

“Really?” she said. “Maybe I will.”

She never did.

The next day Patty phoned me. “I don’t know what you do but it’s a miracle. She sees you and she’s fine.”

“She’s gotten really good at understanding herself,” I said.

“I’m sure she does but you’re clearly guiding her. Thank you so much, Doctor. It’s good to know you’re around.”

“Is there anything else I can help you with?”

“Nope, can’t think of any.”

“The move’s been smooth?”

“Everything’s just fine. Thank you, Doctor. Bye.”


I put the chart aside, wondered about a link between Tanya’s childhood symptoms and the “terrible thing” that had occupied Patty’s final hours.

Or was Milo right and it all boiled down to a final burst of obsessive thinking in a woman whose entire life had been about order, facing the ultimate disorder?

Tanya’s initial visit had been shortly after the move to the Bedard mansion. Well before the colonel’s death but maybe she’d picked up on Patty’s tension about caring for the old man.

Killed him.

Milo had snatched the mercy-killing hypothesis out of the air, but his instincts were good. Had Patty, a decent person, struggled with the aftermath of an impulsive, crushingly permanent act?

How did I know Patty was decent?

Because everyone said so.

Because I wanted to believe it.

“Constricted thinking,” I said out loud.

Blanche looked up, batted her lashes. Sank back down and resumed some sort of pleasant canine dream.

I tossed it around some more, realized Tanya’s symptoms had started two years before Patty brought her to me. Still living on Cherokee.

The second episode was after the move from Fourth Street to Culver City. So maybe Tanya’s tension had been about transition, had no connection at all to anything criminal.

Blanche looked up again.

“You need to get out more, Blondie. Let’s take a ride.”

Hudson Avenue on Saturday was gloriously imposing, profoundly still.

The mansion’s slate roof was silvered by afternoon light. The lawn was green marzipan; the half-timbers decorating the facade, fresh bars of chocolate. But for a sprinkle of lemons littering the stone landing, everything was spotless.

The vintage Bentley and Mercedes were just where they’d been yesterday.

The cars-the entire neighborhood-screamed old money but there was no reason to think Colonel Bedard’s family had held on to the place. I scooped Blanche into my arms and walked to the double doors. The bell chimed Debussy or something like it. Rapid footsteps were followed by a click behind the peephole and one of the doors opened on the maid I’d seen chasing the squirrel.

Late forties, built low to the ground, skin the color of strong tea, black hair plaited into glossy coils. Wary black eyes. The pink uniform was spotless, edged with white lace. Legs in seamed stockings bowed as if clamping a cello. Her hand tightened around a chamois cloth stained with tarnish.

Blanche purred and did her smiley thing. The maid’s expression softened and I produced my LAPD consultant badge.

It’s a plasticized clip-on, long expired, and pretty much useless, but it impressed her enough to stifle a cluck of disapproval.

Tanya had mentioned the name of the housekeeper who’d worked with Patty…Cecilia. This woman was old enough to have been around twelve years ago.

“Are you Cecilia?”


“Are the owners home?”


“Mr. and Mrs. Bedard?”

“No home.”

Blanche panted.

“But they do live here?”

“What kind dog?”

“French bulldog.”


“Worth it.”

She frowned.

I said, “Do you remember Colonel Bedard?”

No answer.

“The old man who-”

“I no work for him.”

“But you knew him.”

“Cecilia work for him.”

“You know Cecilia?”

No answer. I flicked the I.D.

“My sister,” she said.

“Where can I find your sister?”

Longer pause.

“She’s not in trouble, just to ask a few questions.”


“Where’s that?”


Blanche purred some more.

“Nie dog,” said the woman. “Lie a mownkey.”

As she stepped back to close the door, a male voice said, “Who’s there, America?”

Before she could answer, a young man swung the second door wide, exposing a limestone-and-marble entry big enough for skating. Wall niches housed busts of long-dead men. The rear wall was ruled by a portrait of a white-wigged George Washington look-alike. To the right of the painting, a walk-through was brightened by glass doors that showcased expansive gardens.

“Hey,” said the young man. Medium height, midtwenties, frizzy dark hair, uncertain brown eyes. Indoor complexion, the haunted good looks of a teen idol softened by residual baby fat. He slumped a bit. Wore a wrinkled blue shirt, sleeves rolled to the elbows, olive cargo pants, yellow running shoes with loose laces. Pen marks stippled his fingers. The Timex on his left wrist had seen plenty of action. Milo would’ve approved.

“Police,” said America, hazarding another touch of Blanche’s forehead.

The young man watched, amused. “Cool dog. Police? What about?”

“I’m not a police officer but I am working with the police on an investigation into a woman who worked here around ten years ago.”

“Working with how?”

I showed him the clip-on.

“Ph.D.? In what?”


“Excellent,” he said. “If all goes right, I’ll have one of those. Not psych, physics. Ten years ago? What, one of those cold cases? Profiling?”

“Nothing glamorous. It’s a financial investigation.”

“Into someone who worked here-you mean Cecilia? Dad neglected to take out Social Security?”

America tensed up.

I said, “Not Cecilia, a woman named Patricia Bigelow. But if Cecilia remembers her it would be helpful.”

He looked at America. She said, “I tell him Cecilia in Guatemala.”

“I remember Patty,” he said. “The nurse who took care of my grandfather.” Extending a soft, ink-speckled hand. “Kyle Bedard. What’d she do?”

“She died but it’s not about murder. I can’t get into details.”

“Hush-hush confidential,” he said. “Sounds interesting. Want to come in?”

America said, “Meester Kyle, your father say-”

Kyle Bedard said, “Don’t worry, it’s cool.”

She walked away, wringing the chamois, as he let me in.

All that stone lowered the temperature ten degrees. I took a closer look at the colonial painting and Kyle Bedard chuckled. “My parents overpaid for it at Sotheby’s because some art consultant convinced them it was a family heirloom. My bet is some hack turned out dozens of them for Victorian social climbers.”

A walnut door to the left topped by a limestone pedicle opened on a book-lined room. The décor was Rich Man’s Library: enough leather binding to sacrifice a herd, gold-tasseled blue velvet drapes suspended from an etched brass rod that blocked out the day and spilled onto brass-inlaid parquet flooring, a massive blue-and-beige Sarouk covering most of the wood.

A carved partner’s desk bore bronze Tiffany desk pieces. A dragonfly lamp emitted brandy-colored light. Leather armchairs sagged where bottoms had lingered. A few strategically placed paintings of hunting scenes completed the image.

The room Tanya had described, the old man sitting in his wheelchair, reading, dozing.

But warring elements had intruded: acid-green beanbag in the center of the rug, piles of textbooks and notebooks and loose papers, three empty fried chicken buckets, take-out pizza box, bags of chips in various flavors and hues, soda cans, beer cans, crumpled napkins, a dandruff of crumbs.

A sleek silver laptop rested on the beanbag, flashing eerie light as the screensaver shifted: A bug-eyed Albert Einstein morphed to sullen Jim Morrison then to the Three Stooges engaged in some spirited eye-poking then back to Albie. A charging iPod suckled through a well-kinked electric cord.

Rich man’s library meets college dorm.

The room smelled like a dorm.

Kyle Bedard said, “I’m working on some calculations, the solitude’s helpful.”

“Who else lives here?”

“No one. Dad’s somewhere in Europe and Mom lives in Deer Valley and Los Gatos.”

“Ph.D. calculations?”

“An infinite array.”

“Where do you go to grad school?”

“The U. Did my undergrad at Princeton, thought of staying back east. Realized I’d had enough ice and sleet and people who thought they were British.”

“What area of physics are you working in?”

“Lasers as alternative energy sources. If my committee accepts my dissertation, my big wish is snagging a postdoc working with a genius doing cutting-edge research at Lawrence Livermore Lab. It would be cool to be part of something millennium-changing.”

“Getting close to finishing?”

“My data’s in and my writing should be finished by next year. But you’ve been through it, there are no guarantees. Show up for the orals, some committee member wants to screw you, you’re screwed. I should practice my ass-kissing skills but the work keeps distracting me.”

“That was my attitude,” I said. “It turned out fine.”

“Psych, huh? Clinical?”

I nodded.

“Thanks for that snippet of confidence-building therapy-here, sit?” Removing the laptop from the beanbag, he plopped down.

I positioned an armchair to face him, placed Blanche in my lap.

“That is one idiosyncratic dog-kind of a primate thing going on there,” he said. “What is she, some kind of miniature bulldog?”

“French bulldog.”

“Don’t you mean Freedom bulldog?”

I laughed. He smiled.

“So you remember Patty Bigelow.”

“I remember who she was. Grandfather was alive then and my parents were still together. We lived up in Atherton, didn’t come down to see him very often. I always liked coming here-to this room, the smell of the books. The room my parents would never think of entering, God forbid they’d learn something. So I was able to get some peace and quiet. He’s got some great stuff there, really rare editions.” Pointing to the shelves. “How’d Patty die?”


“That’s a drag. What kind of financial investigation did that elicit and why?”

“All I can tell you is her death raised some questions and the police are going back and interviewing everyone she worked for.”

“And they send you to interview the crazy people?”

I smiled.

He scratched his head. “Are you saying Patty embezzled? That would sure fit Mom’s preconceptions.”

“No, she’s not suspected of anything.”

“Hush-hush confidential? I can dig that. If I do get that fellowship at Lawrence it’ll be lips-sutured-shut.” He flexed his feet and the beanbag squeaked. “Cancer…I don’t remember her as being that old…I’m guessing she’d be in her fifties?”


“That’s way too young,” he said. “One-third of deaths are due to cancer. A fact Mom keeps reminding me of because she confuses lasers with radiation and is convinced I’m going to fry myself…Patty had a daughter, younger than me, seven or eight. Each time we visited, she’d run away and hide, I thought it was a crackup. One time I got bored and wandered out to the backyard. She was sitting in the bushes, counting leaves or whatever, talking to herself. I thought she looked lonely but figured she’d freak out if I startled her, so I left her alone. It’s got to be tough, losing her mom.”

Squeak squeak. “Funny the things you remember.”

“Do you remember anything else about Patricia Bigelow?”

“Let’s see,” he said. “She seemed to be taking decent care of Grandfather and by the end he was pretty much out of it. Dad appreciated her.”

“Mom didn’t?” I said.

“Mom has an exaggerated sense of social class.”

“Embezzlement fits her preconceptions.”

“She assumes the underclass will inevitably steal and the underclass is defined as anyone not as rich as her. When I was growing up, the maids had to open their purses for inspections every time they left the house. She’s a suspicious person, by nature. I don’t see her very often.” Weak smile. “We’re not exactly a cohesive social unit.” His foot nudged a pizza box. “I should clean this place up but I probably won’t. When Dad comes home and gets irate, my excuse will be that I was too busy. My real reason for noncompliance will be getting Dad irate. Immature, huh?” He threw back his head, poked at an eye. “Ouch, contact’s rubbing-okay, now it’s good.”

I said, “When’s your father returning?”

“A week, ten days, a month, a parsec. Basically, whenever he feels like it. He doesn’t work. Lives off Grandfather’s investments. Which I find a bit Edith Wharton. Even if you don’t need to work, why not do something useful? The plan was for me to get a token brokerage job, marry a rich, dull girl, sire the requisite dull child or two, retire early to a life of calculated indolence. The physics thing really makes Mom irate. ‘That’s work for hire, good for Jews and Chinese.’ She’s convinced I’m going to sire two-headed progeny.”

“Scholarship as rebellion,” I said.

“I could’ve been a dangerous felon or a drug-addled loser or joined the Green Party, but developing a work ethic seemed more subversive…so what else do I remember about Patty Bigelow…attentive to Grandfather, moved fast-as in ambulation. That definitely sticks in my memory. Always rushing around, making sure he had everything he needed. Maybe that was just for Dad’s benefit. If so, it failed. He believes any undue expenditure of energy is a vice. And he didn’t give a shit about Grandfather. They loathed each other.”

“Father-son issues?”

“Oh, boy,” he said. “Compared to them, Dad and I are drinking buds. As to why, no one clued me in on all the dirty little family secrets. Grandfather did appreciate the value of work. He made it on his own, joined the army in ’39-not a West Point deal, he started off as a technical noncom in Texas, ended up a lieutenant colonel designing communications systems in the ETO. After discharge, he got a job in television, switched to optics, then electronic components. He invented resistors and power cells and measurement equipment-oscillators, that kind of thing. Earned himself a slew of patents and made enough money for Mom and Dad to convince themselves we were Mayflower aristocracy.”

His toe nudged the KFC box. “I don’t know why I’m telling you all this. Maybe it’s what you guys call a demand characteristic-you want me to talk, so I do.”

“That’s a pretty esoteric term.”

“I took some psych as an undergrad. Found it interesting but I needed something less nebulous. Anyway, that’s all I remember about Ms. Bigelow.”

“How’d she come to work here.”

“I was a kid. Why would I know?”

“Sounds as if you were a pretty attentive kid.”

“Not really,” he said. “Actually, I was mostly in my own world. Just like Patty’s daughter, sitting in the bushes. I really need to get back to my calculations. World oil consumption depends on it. If you leave me your number, next time I talk to Dad I’ll tell him to call you.”

“Thanks.” I placed Blanche on the floor and stood.

She trotted straight to him. He chuckled and rubbed her neck. She smiled up at him.

“Cool dog. She can definitely stay here.”

“People keep making that offer.”

“Charisma,” he said. “From what I know of Grandfather he had it in spades.”

“Self-made man.”

“It’s a nice ideal,” he said. “I’ll settle for accomplishing anything.”


Isaac Gomez had sent me an e-mail.

Dear Dr. D,

These are the open homicides with male victims that I was able to find for the time periods you specified, listed in chronological order. I used a geographical criterion of a quarter-mile radius. No cases were found on your exact streets. There’d obviously be a much higher frequency of closed cases.

1. Cherokee Avenue Locus:

A. Rigoberto Alfredo Martinez, 19, gunshot wound to the head

B. Leland William Armbruster, 43, gunshot wound to the chest

C. Gerardo Escobedo, 22, multiple stab wounds to the chest

D. Christopher Blanding Stimple, 20, shotgun wounds to head and torso

2. Hudson Avenue Locus:

A. Wilfred Charles Hong, 43, multiple gunshot wounds to head and torso

3. Fourth Street Locus: no open homicides

4. Culver Boulevard Locus:

A. D’Meetri Antoine Stover, 34, gunshot wound to the torso

B. Thomas Anthony Beltran, 20, gunshot wounds to head and torso

C. Cesar Octavio Cruz, 21, gunshot wound to the head (Beltran and Cruz were murdered during the same incident)

Best wishes and good luck,


I forwarded the text to Milo, busied myself with paperwork for a couple of hours, got no callback.

Maybe he’d really gotten into a vacation mode.

Maybe I should, too. No more work over the weekend.

But Sunday morning I was up early, scanning cyberspace for the killings Isaac had found. Wilfred Hong’s unsolved murder was noted on a diamond dealer’s Web site. Gory details and warnings for his colleagues, but no new facts. None of the Hollywood cases were listed but the dual murder of Cesar Cruz and Thomas Beltran received notice in the Times archive. Cruz and Beltran were members of Westside Venice Boyzz with long police records, and their murders were termed “a possible gang retaliation slaying.” I crossed them off, along with Hong.

I clicked away until noon, trying different approaches to the remaining cases, starting with those in the Cherokee Avenue zone. Nothing on three of them, but I unearthed notice of Christopher Blanding Stimple’s death in a newspaper morgue at The Philadelphia Inquirer. Stimple, a Philly native and high school athlete, had been eulogized in a brief, paid-for obituary. His demise was listed as “accidental while Chris was visiting California.”

The family sanitizing the details of a shotgun homicide? No reason to do that in a case of murder, but suicide could inspire shame. Maybe the coroner had closed the case as self-inflicted but that conclusion hadn’t found its way into LAPD records. In any event, I couldn’t see Patty Bigelow blasting a twenty-year-old man with two barrels and crossed off Stimple.

At four p.m., I took a punishing run, showered, made coffee, straightened the house. At six thirty, Robin’s truck pulled up in front of the house.

She jumped out and hugged me hard. “Why do we ever stay apart?”

Moist cheek. Tears weren’t often part of Robin’s repertoire. I tried to draw her face away for a kiss. She hugged me tighter.

I’d made dinner reservations at the Hotel Bel-Air. She said, “I love that place but would you be disappointed if we just stayed in?”

“Shattered and ground to dust.” I canceled and called out for Chinese from a place in Westwood Village.

As she unpacked, she said, “Where’s Blondie?”


“Smart girl.”

She bathed, towel-dried her hair, put on some makeup, and emerged wearing a white sleeveless shift and nothing else. We were kissing in the kitchen when the food arrived. I overpaid the delivery boy, let the food go cold.

By nine, we were sitting near the pond, tossing random bits of egg roll and noodles to the koi.

“They’re Japanese,” she said. “But they sure go for Mandarin.”

“Diversity has made its mark everywhere.”

“Ha…this is so wonderful.” She winced, rubbed the side of her neck.


“Stiff from all the driving.” Crooked smile. “Also, that last position.”

“New one on me, too,” I said. “Creative.”

“Nothing ventured.”

I got up and massaged her upper shoulders.

“That feels good…a little lower-lower-perfect…I learned one thing over the weekend. The whole convention thing is getting old.”

“Too much like school.”

“Not just the lectures,” she said. “The social scene, too-who’s making money, who’s sleeping with who.”

“You made serious money on the F5,” I said.

“Nice big check for a working girl but petty cash for Mr. Dot-Com.” She rolled her head. “A little lower, still-yes…maybe he’ll even learn to play.”

“Not a note?”

“Not even a bad one. After he paid me, he wanted to have dinner. Discuss the historical roots of luthiery.”

“Good line.”

“Not good enough. I stayed in my room and watched movies.” Crooked smile. “Not much plot, but some interesting positions.”

“So I’ve seen.”

“Honey, you ain’t seen nothing yet.”

An hour later:

“It is good to be home.”

“Alex,” she said, “I’m the one who was gone.”



Milo called back Monday, just after four.

“All the Culver City cases were gang hits. CC detectives have a pretty good idea who the shooters were on Cruz, Beltran, and Stover but no one talked. Moving down the list, Wilfred Hong. The consensus is that Mrs. Hong was in on it. She was tied up but not tightly. A month after the funeral, she sold the house, moved with the kids to Hong Kong.”

“Maybe she was scared.”

“Not scared enough to avoid a new boyfriend. Guess what he does for a living.”

“Sells gems.”

“Ding. Onward to Hollywood. Gerardo Escobedo and Rigoberto Martinez are both in Petra’s fridge pile. Escobedo called himself Marilyn, wore hair and makeup to match. By nineteen he’d been hustling for three years, was known to get into anyone’s car. He was stabbed somewhere else, probably a park from the leaves and twigs, and dumped in an alley near Selma. Mucho overkill, everyone sees it as a trick gone bad. Martinez worked as a gardener with a crew out in Lawndale and had two priors for solicitation. Big guy, nearly three hundred pounds. Once he’d get in a room with a girl, he’d try to bully her out of full payment. Probably annoyed the wrong pimp. Christopher Stimple also had a hustler history-four busts. He was found in a rented room with a shotgun lying nearby, possible suicide, but since no one had ever seen him with any firearm and the position of the weapon wasn’t clear-cut, the coroner listed the COD as undetermined.”

“I found his obit online,” I said. “High school football hero, the family listed the COD as accidental.”

“Easier for them. In any event, I don’t see Patty blowing away some confused kid. Which brings me to Leland William Armbruster. White male, heroin addict, convicted felon, and generally annoying habitué of the Boulevard. His street name was Lowball. Forty-three years old when someone propelled three.22 slugs into his chest. Why am I not shocked to learn that one of his known associates was Lester Marion Jordan?”

“Interesting,” I said.

“Could turn out to be fascinating. Armbruster’s body was found on Las Palmas, a block west of Patty’s apartment and three blocks north.”

“Was Jordan a suspect in the shooting?”

“Nope, just a name that popped up in the file. The D on the case died a few years ago but he was thorough. Interviewed Jordan and several others in Lowball’s social circle. The clear picture is that when Lowball wasn’t high he had an abrasive personality. One informant described his voice as ‘cat claws on glass.’ Another opined that for Lowball heroin shoulda been court-ordered as a mood modifier. Another interesting tidbit is when the guy couldn’t score smack, he took anything. Including fortified wine, which turned him ugly.”

“Drunks used to knock on Patty’s door,” I said. “Tanya said shouting made most of them go away.”

“And maybe the ones who didn’t required more forceful handling?”

“According to Tanya, there was never a need to follow through.”

“According to Tanya,” he said. “A little kid sleeping in back. Alex, even if she tried to find out what was going on, Patty woulda shushed her and sent her to bed. Maybe Lowball and Patty got into a verbal altercation that heated up ugly. Here I was thinking no way would we find a damn thing and Armbruster pops up. His being a buddy of Jordan would explain Jordan getting antsy when we brought up Patty. It could also place him in the building. Maybe one of those times, Armbruster spots Patty, gets ideas. Comes back late at night, pounds the door. Patty yells for him to split, he does but he stews on it, decides his urges will not be denied. Next time she goes out, he’s lying in wait and, as they say, a confrontation ensues.”

“Be good to know if Patty had any registered guns.”

“Or unregistered. If she wanted serious protection on the streets she’d have to break the law. You know the deal with carry permits.”

“Movies stars, millionaires, and friends of the sheriff.”

“For sure not a working nurse with no juice. This was a woman who grew up on a ranch, Alex. Got abused by her father, struck out by herself, and made a point of having her shit together. Rick says she reminded him of a pioneer woman. I can see her packing. A.22 wouldn’t be too bulky for a woman’s handbag. Armbruster attacks her, she’s prepared. She mighta even felt good about it, at first.”

He turned silent. No sense elaborating.

He’d killed several men in Vietnam, a few more in the line of duty. I’d ended one life. Self-defense, no question about the necessity. But at odd times it could chew at you. Thinking about the children my psychopath would never sire.

“She carries it around all these years,” he went on. “Then she gets sick, her inhibitions drop, and she blurts it to Tanya. Anything that doesn’t fit?”

“Not so far.”

“Leland William Armbruster,” he said, savoring the name. “Let me do a little more background and if nothing contradictory comes up, I say we settle on ol’ Lowball as our dead guy and tell Tanya that Mommy operated with clear justification.”

“Maybe it was more than self-protection,” I said. “With Armbruster hanging around Patty’s building, he could’ve spotted Tanya. Given Patty’s personal history and her devotion as a mother, she’d have been vigilant about any threat to her child.”

“Lowball’s a kiddy-groping sleaze? Sure, I like that even better. Hell, even if it’s not true, we spin it that way for Tanya, she’s got yet another reason to feel good about Mommy…yeah, I like it enough to marry it. Big juicy happy ending and we all go out for pizza.”

I called Tanya at six. She phoned back at eight. “Sorry it took so long, Dr. Delaware.”


“What else?”

“How’ve you been doing?”

“Reasonably well. Is there anything new?”

“I have a question for you. Do you know if your mother ever owned a gun?”

“She did and I still have it. Why, did you find out something about a shooting near where we lived?”

“All kinds of things have come up but nothing dramatic, so far. Detective Sturgis thought if she did have a weapon it would be useful to rule it out. What kind is it?”

“Smith and Wesson semi-automatic,.22 caliber, that dark metal finish-bluing-with a wooden grip.”

“Sounds like you’ve handled it.”

“Mommy took me to the range to teach me how to shoot when I was around fourteen. She learned as a girl, thought it was a skill I should have. I was pretty good but I didn’t like it. Someplace out in the Valley, all these guys in camouflage. I said I didn’t want to continue and she said fine but if I wasn’t going to get proficient, she was going to separate the gun from the bullets for safety purposes. Are you saying Detective Sturgis actually wants to analyze it?”

“If you don’t mind.”

“Of course not,” she said. “I know she never really hurt anyone. Anyway…”

“I was re-reading your chart and the second time you came to see me you talked about her being nervous.”

“I did?” she said. “Did I give a reason?”

“No, but you described her straightening late at night, when she thought you were sleeping. You’d just moved from Fourth Street, so I wondered about some kind of stress related to the change. But both you and she said the move was a good one.”

“I honestly don’t remember any of that, Dr. Delaware…the mind sciences are ambiguous, aren’t they?”

Echoes of Kyle Bedard. “They can be.”

“I’ve been thinking about psychiatry as a specialty, wonder if I have the ability to deal with that level of ambiguity.”

“It’s a long way off before you need to decide,” I said.

“I guess,” she said. “But time passes quickly as you get older.”


Unless you’re a heart-transplant surgeon waiting for an organ, you don’t bring a phone or a beeper to the dining room at the Hotel Bel-Air.

Robin and I had decided tonight would be okay for a bit of glamour. We got a spot reservation, arrived at nine forty-five. She wore a sleeveless red sheath and black pearls I’d bought her years ago. Her auburn curls were combed soft and glossed with something that smelled good. I wore a black suit, a white shirt, and a red tie, figured I was doing a pretty good impression of someone who cared about haberdashery. The food was great, the wines were mellow, and when we left at eleven thirty, I felt flush.

We were in the bedroom, about to slip under the covers, when the phone rang.

“I woke you?” said Milo.

“That assumes I sleep.”

“I wouldn’t bug you but life just got complicated.”

Hollywood Boulevard after midnight was grubby sidewalks, night-haze that turned neon to grease smears, retreat of the tourists, goblins, bats, and ghouls emerging from their hidey-holes.

Clubs shuttered during daylight drew clumps of hollow-eyed kids and those who preyed upon them. Adrenalized bouncers looked for trouble. Night types beyond categorization loitered at the fringes of the crowd.

I made it halfway up Cherokee before the LAPD sawhorses and the uniform charged with protecting them stopped me.

Milo’s name coaxed a stare and a nod, then a muffled conversation with a two-way radio. “Park over by the side, sir, and proceed on foot.”

I hurried to the brick-colored building. Petra had called it raw sienna. Artist’s eye. Darkness shaded the stucco dull brown.

The uniform at the glass doors waved me in. Milo was up a ways, standing by an open door, talking to a skinny red-haired woman courageous enough to wear a mullet.

Coroner’s badge on her lapel. Investigator Leticia Mopp. Milo introduced her anyway.

She said, “Nice to meet you,” and turned back to him. “Rigor’s come and gone. Want another look before we pack him up?”

“Why not?” said Milo. “Always been the sentimental type.”

Mopp hung back and we crossed a toxic-dump living room. The few clean surfaces were pollened by fingerprint powder.

Petra Connor stood just outside a cramped gray bathroom at the rear. Stick-thin, ivory-skinned, and dark-eyed, she had on the usual black pantsuit. Hair that matched the suit was cropped in a glossy wedge. With her was another Hollywood detective I didn’t recognize, even younger.

She said, “Hey, Alex. Looks like everything converges, after all. This is Raul Biro.”

Biro was compact and broad-shouldered in a beige suit, brown shirt, and yellow tie. He smiled and nodded.

Petra said, “Love to chat, guys, but our job’s done here for the time being. We’ll talk tomorrow, Milo?”

“Count on it.”

“First new case in thirteen months,” she said. “I thought I missed the rush but now I’m not so sure. Raul doesn’t mind, right?”

Biro said, “Need the experience.”

The two of them left and Milo motioned me into the bathroom.

Lester Jordan sat hunched on his toilet wearing a periwinkle-blue terry robe that hung open on a pasty, ravaged body. His head hung low. The robe’s lapel swathed his neck. A rubber-tubing tourniquet around his left arm popped veins as kinked as an old garden hose. A syringe flashed silver on the filthy tile floor to his right. Not some homemade spike; this was a medical-quality disposable syringe, bright and shiny and empty. On the back of the commode sat the spoon-lighter kit and an empty Baggie.

“All these years and now he O.D.’s?” I said.

Milo gloved up. Carefully, almost tenderly, he took hold of Jordan’s chin and lifted the dead man’s head.

Around Jordan’s neck was another tourniquet. A white, braided cord, pulled so tight it nearly vanished in cold flesh. Triple-knotted in back, the hue blending in with Jordan’s pallor. Jordan’s eyes were half open, dry, alive as shirt buttons. His tongue drooped, black and distended, a Japanese eggplant.

Milo lowered the head just as gingerly. “I came here at ten thirty to talk to him about Leland Armbruster, found flashers and roadblocks, the full circus. Inside the apartment, Petra’s on her cell punching numbers. My phone rings. It’s me she’s calling. She says, ‘Beamed yourself up, Scotty?’”

“Karma,” I said.

“Who did I offend in some former life?”

“When was Jordan killed?”

“The estimate is eight to fifteen hours ago. No one spotted any visitors and that’s consistent with the scene. A window on the north side of the building was open and there’s some disturbance of the dirt but no clear footprints. Jordan got discovered because he left his music running-loud, the way it was when we were here. Next-door neighbors say that was his usual thing, there were tons of complaints but the landlord ignored them. The routine was someone pounds Jordan’s door long enough, he eventually stops. This time nothing worked and they called the cops.”

“Who are the next-door neighbors?”

“Two girls,” he said. “Dancers in a show at the Pantages.”

He took a long look at Jordan’s corpse. “Patrol officers show up half an hour later, bang the door, get no answer. They go around to the other side, see the open window, call for backup. Thank God they were smart enough not to touch anything, maybe we’ll get some physical evidence.”

Two crypt drivers arrived with a folded gurney. We slipped out of the bathroom, exited the building, walked to Milo’s car. No unmarked tonight; he was driving Rick’s white Porsche 928.

I said, “Jordan survives this long as an addict. We visit him to talk about Patty and a couple days later he’s dead.”

“High-risk lifestyle, anything can happen, but it does raise one’s eyebrows.” He demonstrated with his own shaggy hyphens. “No one remotely ominous knew we talked to Jordan-just that screenwriter, Bergman, and Chatty Mary Whitbread.”

“Saturday I went over to Hudson and spoke to Colonel Bedard’s grandson but Jordan’s name never came up.”

“Ominous fellow?”

“Hardly.” I summarized my impression of Kyle Bedard.

He said, “But if it is related to Patty, Jordan told someone we’d been around and got hushed for his troubles.”

“If someone cared that much about keeping the past buried, Tanya’s safety could be an issue.”

“If Patty hadn’t brought the whole thing up, we’d never have talked to Jordan and there might be no safety issue.”

“Maybe Patty knew something was going down whether or not she talked. In any event, I’m going to drive by Tanya’s.”

“Do that,” he said. “I’ll get some sleep and be bright and fresh for tomorrow’s challenges.”

But when I started up the Seville, the Porsche hummed behind me. I stuck my head out the driver’s window and he pulled alongside.

“What the hell,” he said, “let’s do a convoy. Don’t even think about saying ‘Ten-four.’”

Canfield Avenue at one thirty-five a.m. was silent and peaceful. Milo and I parked and got out.

He eyed the alarm company sign on the lawn. “Good start. I’ll sneak ’round back, make sure nothing’s out of order.”

“Tanya’s got a gun.”

“That so.”

I told him about Patty’s.22.

He said, “Same caliber as the one that did Lowball Armbruster.” He slipped a penlight out of a pocket. “If she shoots me, you can have my Official Detective pencil box.”

He returned three minutes later, gave a thumbs-up. “No sign of disturbance, she’s got a security light at the back door and bars on all the rear windows. Toss in the alarm and I certify it as safe. Let’s go home. Tomorrow I’ll follow up with Petra.”

I said, “We were wondering how Jordan managed to stay in the building so long. Now we find out the landlord never responded to the complaints about his music, even though that meant other tenants vacating.”

“Connections,” he said. “A family thing, like you said.”

“I’d like to know who’s got the deed to the building and if they owned it back in Patty’s day.”

“Petra got the landlord’s name from the dancing girls, hold on.” He pulled out his pad, used the penlight, flipped pages. “Deer Valley Properties in Utah, but it’s managed by a downtown firm.”

“Kyle Bedard’s mother lives in Deer Valley.”

He frowned, stared up the dark street. “My oh my.”

The following morning at ten, we were standing on the front steps of the mansion on Hudson Avenue, listening to the chimes of the doorbell. An hour ago, Milo had talked to the company that managed the building on Cherokee, verified that Lester Jordan was Mrs. Iona Bedard’s brother. Jordan was on their payroll as an “on-site inspector” but his duties were ambiguous and his three-hundred-dollar weekly paycheck traced back to Deer Valley.

“Company goes along with it in order to keep the building on their management list.” He eyed the Bentley and the Mercedes. “What do these people do for cash?”

“Born into the Lucky Sperm Club.”

The woman named America opened one of the double doors.

I smiled at her. She clutched her broom handle.

“Is Kyle here?”


“Do you have any idea where-”


My thank-you was cut short by the whoosh of solid walnut gliding into place.

Milo said, “Ah, the warmth of hearth and home.”

The physics building at the U. is a sixties-era assemblage of glass, white brick, and mosaic murals that portray great moments in fusion. Across an inverted fountain looms the psych building, where I’d gotten my union card. I’d never paid much attention to the less ambiguous goings-on yards away.

Milo and I had come prepared to wrestle with department secretaries but Kyle Bedard was in plain view, sitting on the rim of the fountain eating a sandwich and drinking orange juice from a plastic carton. Talking, in between bites, to a young woman.

She was small, blond, preppy in pink and khaki. Kyle wore a gray sweatshirt, baggy jeans, antiquarian sneakers. He’d traded his contacts for black-framed eyeglasses.

As we approached, he righted the specs, as if trying to refocus.

The girl turned.

I said, “Hi, Tanya.”


Milo took Kyle by the elbow and ushered him halfway around the fountain. Tanya pressed a hand to her cheek and gaped. I sat down next to her. “What’s going on, Dr. Delaware?”

“That’s Lieutenat Sturgis. He needs to talk to Kyle.”

“About what?”

“How’d you meet him, Tanya?”

The hand on her face pressed harder, created white spots. She turned to me. “Is he-are you going to tell me something creepy about him?”

Not yet. “No. How did-”

“He contacted me through Facebook, we had lunch yesterday, decided to do it again today. It wasn’t some stranger-stalk, Dr. Delaware. He said a police psychologist had been by to talk to him about my mother and that reminded him of when we were kids and he used to visit. I told him I knew you and that I remembered him, too. Always reading a book. He seems like a good person and he’s brilliant.”

“I’m sure he is,” I said.

“There is a problem?”

“Not with Kyle.”

“Then why are you here?”

“A man living in the building on Cherokee was murdered yesterday. The building’s owned by Kyle’s mother. She got it as part of a divorce settlement but back when you lived there it was owned by Colonel Bedard.”

“It’s all…connected?”

“It’s possible your mother got the job at the mansion because someone from Cherokee recommended her.”

“Who would do that?”

“That’s what we’re trying to find out.”

She reached for a half-empty yogurt container and squeezed. “I still don’t see why you’re talking to Kyle. He was a kid back then.”

“The man who was murdered was named Lester Jordan. Sound familiar?”

She shook her head.

“He was living there when you were. First-floor apartment, left side of the corridor, toward the back.”

“I’ve never heard of him, Dr. Delaware. Mommy never let me go inside the building alone. Who killed him?”

“We don’t know, yet.”

“You think Kyle knows?”

“Lester Jordan was Kyle’s mom’s brother.”

“And now he’s-oh, my God, you’re saying it’s because of what I started?”

“No, there’s no evidence of that, Tanya.”

“But you think it’s possible.” She grabbed a handful of hair and twisted. “Oh, my God, I couldn’t let go of it and now that man’s dead.”

“You are not to blame,” I said. “Zero responsibility.”

“This is horrible.”

“Tanya, Lester Jordan was a heroin addict who led a high-risk lifestyle, it’s a miracle he’s survived this long. Unless your mother and he had some kind of relationship when he was alive, there’s no reason to believe she’s connected to his death.”

“Of course they had no relationship, why would she hang out with someone like that?”

“It didn’t need to be a social connection,” I said. “An addict could require medical care from time to time.”

“You’re saying she helped him with overdoses?”

“Or with kicking his habit.”

Or feeding it.

“I never saw or heard of anything like that,” she said. “But I was so young.”

“Even if your mother did help Jordan, it doesn’t mean that had anything to do with his death. This was a man with an extensive criminal record. He associated with bad people. Lieutenant Sturgis is looking into Jordan’s background. He needs to talk to Kyle’s parents but they’re both out of town. Kyle was the next best thing.”

Letting go of her hair, she played with the yogurt cup. “I really can’t see Mommy knowing someone like that. Her big thing was protecting me from bad influences.”

“What about those drunks who knocked on the door?” I said. “That could’ve been an addict going through withdrawal.”

“I guess. I never saw her open the door. That was the whole point, keeping that world outside.”

“Sketchy neighborhood,” I said. “But she lived there for six years.”

“What are you saying?”

“Maybe she stayed that long because she was earning extra income caring for Lester Jordan. When Colonel Bedard needed nursing, his family remembered how effective she’d been and asked her to live in.”

“She never told me anything like that.”

“There’d be no reason to tell a seven-year-old.”

A clapping sound drew our attention. Milo’s hand landing on Kyle Bedard’s shoulder. Kyle flinched, made eye contact with Tanya.

She stared past him and he turned back to Milo.

Milo spoke a bit longer, gave Kyle a half salute and a wolf-grin. Kyle chanced another glance at Tanya, headed for the physics building. Fooling with his glasses and hitching his pants, he stepped inside.

Tanya said, “He left his lunch.”

Milo said, “His appetite may have waned.”

A big padded hand shot out. “Milo Sturgis.”


He sat down next to her. “Sorry to interrupt.”

“Lieutenant, I’ve never heard of that man, Jordan.”

“Didn’t expect you would, Tanya.”

“Kyle’s uncle,” she said. “How’d Kyle take the news?”

“He’s a little shaken,” said Milo.

“Do you think this happened because of me?”

Milo eyed the murals. Promethean figures lofting test tubes, holding calipers, watching sparks fly. “That would be a quantum leap, Tanya. Jordan’s lifestyle was what we call high-risk.”

“Dr. Delaware told me all that, but how can you be sure it’s not related?”

“We can’t, that’s why we’re here. You told Dr. Delaware you thought your mother brought up the ‘terrible thing’ because she was trying to protect you.”

“It was more a feeling than a rational thought, Lieutenant. I sensed it.”

“Nothing she actually said led you to that?”

“No, just her intensity. As if it was really important for me to have the knowledge. She used to say ‘Knowledge is power.’ It just felt like this was another example-pointing me in a certain way. That’s why I contacted Dr. Delaware.” Looking down. “So he could direct me to you.”

Milo scratched his nose. A pigeon swooped into the fountain’s plume. Drank, showered, shook its feathers dry, and departed. “Are you pretty aware of personal safety issues?”

“Am I in danger, Lieutenant Sturgis?”

“I’m not ready to put you in the witness protection program but I would like you to be careful.”


“The basics. Keep your doors and windows locked, turn on your alarm when you get home, look around before you get out of your car, don’t talk to strangers. Stuff you should be doing anyway.”

“I am,” she said. A trio of pigeons dive-bombed the fountain. “Is Kyle considered a stranger?”

“Not anymore, I guess-Tanya, I can’t give you a cookbook. There’s no problem hanging with him at a public place. In fact, that could be a positive if in the course of hanging you learn something useful.”

“You want me to spy on him?”

“Sometimes things come out in the course of conversation.”

“Like what?”

“Maybe Kyle will recall something about his uncle that will help close this murder.”

“Did Kyle say he was close to him?” said Tanya.

“He said the two of them haven’t had contact for years.” Milo smiled. “Tanya, my bet’s on Jordan’s addiction and criminal history being the main factors in his death. But Dr. Delaware tells me you’re mature and smart and you seem that way to me. So I’m being straight with you. At this point, nothing can be ruled out.”

She thought about that. “Makes sense…I can see Kyle not wanting to hang with someone like that. Beer’s the strongest thing he takes.”

I said, “How’d that come up?”

She blushed. “We were discussing…values. I guess that sounds geeky.”

Milo said, “Tanya, if more people paid attention to values, I’d have more leisure time.”

I said, “You were talking about values and drugs came up?”

“Actually, I brought it up. I mentioned I was thinking of becoming a psychiatrist and that the whole biological revolution interested me. Kyle said he had a cousin who was on medication for all sorts of behavior problems and from what he’d seen, he wasn’t sure that was the way to go. We ended up talking about where you draw the line between treatment and fostering chemical dependency. That’s what we were discussing when you showed up.”

Bouncing her knees. “Maybe Kyle has reservations about medication because of his uncle’s problems.”

“Could be,” I said.

“If he’s someone I shouldn’t be hanging with, just tell me.”

Milo said, “Keep your eyes open and trust your instincts.”

Her eyes shifted to the entrance of the physics building. “Is inside Bergson Hall considered a public place?”

“For the time being, yes.”

She stood, began collecting the food and depositing it in a bag.

He said, “Have you found your mother’s gun?”

She stopped moving. “Do I need to learn how to use it?”

“I’d like to have it for a few days to run some tests.”

“You think it was used to do something criminal?”

“I’m sure it wasn’t but let’s verify that. Do you know where it is?”

She nodded. “Should I bring it to your office?”

“How about I pick it up? When will you be home?”


“Sooner is better than later.”

“Let’s see…around five, five thirty. Six to be safe, if I end up doing some studying after work.” Checking her watch. “I’m due at the library right now.”

“Go ahead, see you at six,” he said. “Nice to meet you.”

“Nice to meet you, too,” she said. “And thank you for taking the time to help me. I really appreciate it.”

This time she held out a hand. Pumped Milo’s mitt then gave me a quick hug. “I know I’ve made things complicated…I feel safe with you on my side. Say hello to Dr. Silverman, Lieutenant. Mommy adored him.”

When she was gone, Milo said, “You lie to her, too?”

“You bet.”

“Good man.”


“One thing was true,” said Milo as we drove away from campus. “Can’t protect her twenty-four seven, she needs to look both ways and be smart. Think she got the message?”

“Probably,” I said. “All that gravitas you project. What did you learn from Kyle?”

“Uncle Lester was persona non grata, no one in the family had much contact with him. Last time Kyle remembers seeing him was after his parents divorced-shortly after the old man died. His mom and dad had been separated for a while and Kyle flew down from Atherton with her so she could get some art objects she considered hers. While she was scrounging, Jordan dropped by and Kyle answered the door. Jordan tried to make conversation, Mom saw who it was and told Kyle to go inside.”

“Kyle have any idea why Jordan dropped by?”

“Nope. But seeing as Jordan was an addict and she was supporting him, my bet would be he was hitting on her for extra cash. What did you lie to Tanya about?”

“I suggested Patty might have been helping Jordan with his addiction but said nothing about her feeding his habit.”

“All that medical-quality dope within reach and a junkie with a rich family. Yeah, it fits nicely, doesn’t it?”

I said, “Patty stayed there six years, got paid by the family to keep the black sheep out of their lives. The old man turned ill and his needs took priority over Jordan’s. When the colonel died, it was time for her to move on.”

“Moving her around like a chess piece.”

“Kyle’s mother has definite ideas about social class.” I told him about the daily purse inspection.

He said, “The wretched refuse. Still, if we’re right about Patty being helpful with Jordan, why not send her back to Cherokee after the old man was gone?”

“Jordan was Mrs. Bedard’s kin. I can see Mister not being thrilled about letting him live rent-free. Once he split from his wife, no more indulgence.”

“Good riddance to you and your loser brother,” he said. “Who just happened to be a pal of Lowball Leland Armbruster who just happened to get shot by a.22 while Patty was living a few blocks from the murder scene and just happened to own a.22. We handed Tanya a whole load of emotionally supportive bullshit, Alex. She was right to make the connection. Jordan survives twenty years shooting dope, we chat with him about Patty, and all of a sudden he’s sitting dead on his toilet. If ballistics matches Patty’s gun to the slug in Armbruster, we’re talking major-league complications. The kind that could lead to eliminating witnesses.”

“Jordan saw Patty shoot Armbruster? Who’d be threatened by that?”

“I’m saying Jordan knew something about the shooting that was worth killing for.” His cell chirped some kind of Hawaiian music. “Sturgis…hey, how’s it going…did you?” Big spreading smile. “Restores my faith in technology, kid. Yeah, let’s do that, say half an hour? The doctor’ll be there, too, maybe we’ll gain some deep intrapsychic insights.”

He hung up, still grinning.

I said, “Sean?”

“Petra. Jordan’s john was wiped clean and so was the inner sill of the open window. But the techies got a partial palm print from the ledge outside. Palms are finally being cataloged on AFIS and there’s a hit. Some naughty boy busted for assault last year. Ain’t it nice when the bad guys don’t learn?”

We sat with Petra in an empty interview room at Hollywood Division. Raul Biro was out recanvassing Lester Jordan’s building and its neighbors on Cherokee.

The room was windowless and hot and smelled of witch hazel. Petra had removed her black jacket. Underneath was a sleeveless gray silk shell. Her arms were white, smooth, sinewy, her nail polish a deep brown that fell just short of black. Lipstick of the same hue, a half tone lighter. She slid an arrest form across the table. Clipped to the top were full-face and profile mug shots.

“Gentlemen,” she said, “meet Robert Bertram Fisk.”

Fisk’s picture screamed the virtues of cliché: bony off-center countenance, head shaved clean, close-set eyes devoid of feeling and dark with menace. A skimpy mouth was further reduced by a heavy black mustache, right-angled down to his chin like a croquet wicket.

Basic Bad Guy.

The taut, corded, tattoo-brocaded neck substantially wider than Fisk’s jaws was overkill. But this was L.A., where subtlety could be a shuttle to obscurity.

Milo said, “You gotta be kidding. I’d take him for a social worker feeding the homeless.” He ran his finger down to the stats.

Male Caucasian, twenty-eight, five seven, one forty. A gallery of skin art.

“Little guy,” said Milo.

Petra said, “Didn’t stop him from taking on a big guy-the assault victim was six one, two ninety. It happened last year, in a downtown club. Fisk was working as some kind of bodyguard, got into an argument with another hunk of hired muscle named Bassett Bowland.”

She clawed her fingers. “First Fisk whipped off a few martial arts moves, then he pulled a one-handed move, got Bowland by the Adam’s apple and started squeezing. He came pretty close to crushing the guy’s neck before people pulled him off. Bowland lived but he suffered permanent vocal damage.”

“Fisk does this a year ago and he’s out?”

“It got pled down to misdemeanor battery, time served. The two weeks Fisk spent at County waiting to be arraigned was his entire sentence. According to the case file, Bowland didn’t want to cooperate and witnesses disappeared.”

“Any pressure for them to disappear?”

“Wouldn’t surprise me, but the main obstacle was Bowland. Humiliated by having his butt kicked by a guy half his weight, he absolutely refused to talk.”

“Fisk have any buddies?”

“No gang affiliation or felonious K.A.’s,” said Petra. “He seems to be more of a freelance, hangs around the club scene, sometimes he gets up on stage and thinks he’s dancing.”

I studied the scowling face. “Bet he doesn’t get too many bad reviews.”

Petra laughed. “The only other thing I can tell you about him is he fought in some of those tough-guy contests-barbarians in a wire cage, testosterone running amok.”

“You don’t like competitive sports?” said Milo.

She stuck out her tongue. “Five brothers meant I had to fake liking competitive sports. Now I’m a big girl and can admit they suck.”

I said, “Fisk uses a bare hand on a huge guy but slips a ligature around Jordan’s neck.”

“Maybe he didn’t want to leave a handprint on Jordan’s skin. Or a ligature was what he was instructed to use.”

“Hired hit,” said Milo.

“Fisk didn’t do it for dope. He’s got no narcotics history, just the opposite, and there was about a thousand bucks of heroin in Jordan’s bedroom drawer. But no cash in evidence, so maybe he went for the money.”

Milo flicked a corner of the arrest report. “What do you mean ‘just the opposite’?”

“Fisk seems to be one of those health nuts. Irwin Gold-the Central D who handled the assault-listed three different gyms Fisk frequented, wrote down he was into martial arts, yoga, meditation. We went to get him this morning at three. Unfortunately, Fisk hasn’t lived at his last known address for six months. Vacated soon after he got out of jail, no forwarding.”

“No parole officer?”

“Clean release, no parole.”

“Sounds more like a parking violation than choking someone out.”

“Fisk had no priors, and given Bassett Bowland’s size I suppose a case could be made for self-defense.”

“No priors,” said Milo. “A guy that aggressive stays clean for twenty-eight years?”

“Or doesn’t get caught,” I said.

Petra shadowboxed. “Maybe he channeled his aggressiveness.”

Milo said, “He channels, then all of a sudden he’s choking Bowland and a year later he’s a murderer.”

I said, “Maybe all it took was meeting the right person. Someone who needed a job done and was willing to pay.”

Petra nodded. “I like that.”

“From the way Jordan died-sitting there, no struggle-he was stoned or not alarmed seeing Fisk.”

Milo said, “Fisk crawls through the window and Jordan’s not alarmed?”

“Maybe someone else let Fisk in.”

“The contractor,” said Petra. “Maybe Jordan’s dealer. He supplies Jordan, Jordan fixes up, zones out heavily. Would’ve been easy enough to go to the bedroom, crack the window. Fisk is waiting by the side of the building, climbs in, sneaks behind Jordan, and slips the cord.”

No one spoke for a while.

Milo said, “Whose body did Fisk guard?”

“Gold’s notes just say he described himself as a bodyguard. And Gold is retired, traveling somewhere in Southeast Asia. Guess it’s time to start visiting gyms and yoga classes, what a drag.”

“You don’t like exercise, either?”

“All those automatons in spandex running nowhere fast, idiots thinking they’re never going to die? Spare me.”

“I’d take you for a runner, kid.”

“What, because I’m bony? Genetics, sir. You should see my brothers, all rails. Except for Bruce, who’s spreading a little, claims it’s creative individualism.”

Milo patted his gut. “Luck of the draw.”

“That and anxiety,” said Petra. “Getting too wound up to eat helps.”

“You wound up over Fisk?”

“I’d like to have him in that chair.” She slid the report back, placed it in a thin blue file. “Now it’s your turn to show and tell, guys. What’s the story on my victim and your nurse? Give me the long version.”

When we finished, she said, “Your dredging up the past is threatening someone big-time? Something to do with the Bedards?”

“Rich folk pay others to do their dirty work,” said Milo.

Petra traced the outline of one smooth, black eyebrow. “Maybe Fisk’s easy plea-down was more than Bowland being too embarrassed to testify.”

“Paid off to keep his mouth shut,” said Milo.

“If the Bedards are behind this, they just had one of their own killed.”

I said, “One of Mrs. Bedard’s own. She and hubby are long divorced.”

“Meaning Mister could be behind it,” she said. “But Missus owns the building. How would her ex know you’d been there to talk to Jordan? And if Missus has been out of Mister’s hair for a while, why would he care?”


Milo said, “Maybe we’re way off base. Jordan was no charmer. Guy like that could tick off lots of people.”

“On the other hand,” said Petra, “there’s ticking off and there’s setting yourself up as the target of a hit.” She turned to me. “What bothers me is that with a junkie like Jordan, it would’ve been easy to fake a burglary gone bad. Open drawers, toss stuff around. Instead, Fisk cleans up nicely except for one palm print, leaves a grand’s worth of heroin under Jordan’s skivvies. Leaves Jordan sitting there with a curtain cord around his neck and the music blasting. Making sure Jordan’s going to be discovered. This was a message hit.”

She frowned. “Generic curtain cord, by the way. No forensic possibilities, there.”

Opening the blue folder, she drew out a crime scene photo, studied it, pushed it across the table.

Lester Jordan, slumped on the toilet. I’d witnessed the reality but in some ways the snap was more brutal.

“Given Fisk’s rabbit,” she said, “I’m thinking we should talk to someone who’s seen his dark side.”

“Mr. Too-embarassed-to-testify,” said Milo.

“Him I do have a current address on, North Hollywood. I tried his number. A male voice answered, kind of hoarse, and I hung up. How say we subject Mr. Bowland to additional humiliation?”

Milo said, “I could use some recreation.”

Petra said, “As long as we don’t have to wear sweats.”


Bassett Bowland lived in a white, three-story apartment complex on Laurel Canyon, just south of Saticoy. That far north, Laurel ceases to be a leafy canyon and devolves to a noisy, smoggy mixture of low-rent commercial businesses and housing to match.

Sparkles embedded in the stucco gave the building the look of a Styrofoam cooler. A sign in front said units could be rented by the month. A ten-year-old brown Camaro in the rear carport matched Bowland’s DMV registration. His single was on the top floor, just off an open stairwell.

Petra pushed his doorbell. The resulting buzz was barely audible over traffic noise.

Just as she was about to try again, the door opened, and the space filled with flesh.

A refrigerator with limbs whispered, “Huh?”

“Bassett Bowland?”


“Detective Connor. This is Lieutenant Sturgis and Alex Delaware.”

Bowland rubbed the front of his neck and curled his mouth. Puffy cheeks inflated to grapefruit size nearly blocked out his eyes.

Pink grapefruit; his skin tone was Permanent Sunburn. Limp, bleached-blond hair fringed his shoulders. Porcine features belonged on a much smaller man. He wore a black System of a Down T-shirt, frayed red shorts, no shoes.

Not much older than Kyle Bedard but he hunched like an old man.

“May we come in?”

Bowland coughed, didn’t bother to cover his mouth. His raspy “I guess” was overpowered by the traffic.

The apartment was the usual lonely-guy combo of cheap furniture and wide-screen TV. The set was on mute. ESPN Classic, the L.A. Rams getting walloped by Dallas. It’s been a long time since Los Angeles has rooted for a home team.

Bowland glanced at the score, yawned, and dropped onto a black leatherette couch. A half-gallon carton of milk stood on the blue plastic counter of the kitchenette, spout open. A huge olive-green uniform hung from the knob of a kitchen cabinet. Military pockets, epaulets.

Petra said, “We’d like to talk to you about Robert Fisk.”

Piggy eyes jumped. “Whu for?” Even with the door closed and the traffic noise dimmed, his voice lacked volume.

“He’s a suspect in a crime and we’re doing background.”

“Little shit. Who’d he cold-cock this time?” Managing no more than a phlegmy whisper, each word taking effort.

“A guy in Hollywood,” said Petra. “Fisk’s a dirty fighter?”

“Cocksucker,” said Bowland. “Motherfucking cocksucker dipshit.” A melon fist pounded a catcher’s-mitt palm. Bowland’s arms and torso jiggled.

“What did the two of you fight about?”



“He jumped me.”

“Tell us about it.”

Bowland breathed in through his nose, exhaled through his mouth. “I was working. Bouncer.”

“At Rattlesnake,” said Petra.

“That’s what they called it that week.” Another pause for breath. Bowland touched the front of his throat. “Still hurts. Motherfucker. Tell me where he’s at and you don’t need to waste no time.”

Holding up a fist. Jumpy eyes tuned machismo down to pathetic.

“Don’t blame you for feeling that way,” said Petra, sitting next to him. He screwed up his lips, ran his tongue under one cheek. Each of his thighs was as broad as her body. “So you were working at Rattlesnake and then what happened?”

“Motherfucker comes in with some other motherfuckers, everything’s cool. Then motherfucker thinks he’s gonna get up and dance with the band. I tell him he ain’t, he smiles and gets off the stage, like he’s cool.”

Bowland sighed. “I’m walking him away from the stage, he starts running his mouth. But being cool, he knows I’m just doing my job, he’s been there, dude. I’m like you been there? You’re a toon, man, know whum saying?”

“He is a little guy, Bassett-can I call you Bassett?”

“Bass. Like the ale.” Bowland rubbed a thumb and forefinger together. “You do like this he could disappear, motherfucking toon.”

“So he’s cooperating with you, pretending to be friendly.”

“We keep walking, I get him past the bar, go have a drink bro, chill, he’s like I don’t drink, keep it real. Holds out his hand like this.”

He formed a power shake. “I wanna keep it cool so I do it know whum saying? Instead of shaking he gets me here.” Touching a wrist. “My fucking arm goes dead then he kicks me in the knee then he grabs me.”

“By the neck,” said Petra.

“Fucking iron claw,” said Bowland. “I’m hitting him upside the head, he’s kicking me.” Caressing a knee. “Dislocated the bone or something, I’m falling over and he’s still doing the claw. They told me he stomped my back but I’m big, you know, he didn’t break nothing.”

Rasping out the words had exhausted him. He panted, sat back hard enough to budge the couch.

“Sneak attack,” said Petra.

“Only way he coulda done it,” said Bowland. “That’s the whole story. Now I gotta sleep.”

“Working hard?”

His reply was a yawn.

“What kind of work you do, Bass?”



“Pawnshop on Van Nuys. Persians. Gotta wear that, pay to clean it.”

“Who’d Fisk come to the club with that night?”

“Other cocksuckers. He’s gonna get his.” Lazy smile as he formed a finger gun.

“We sympathize, Bass, but we are the law, so be careful.”

“I didn’t mean that,” said Bowland. “God’s gonna pay him back.”

“You’re religious?”

Bowland reached inside his T-shirt and drew out a small gold crucifix. “Everyone pays.”

“Fisk didn’t pay because you didn’t want to testify.”

Bowland didn’t answer.

“Guy did that to me, Bass, I’d want him to serve some jail time.”

Bowland appraised her slender frame. “Guy did that to you, he should get the death penalty.”

“As opposed to you?”

“I can handle myself.”

“I’m sure you can, but still-”

“What?” said Bowland. “I go to court and cry and everyone’s saying Bass is a pussy, needs the po-lice to do his game?”

He closed his eyes.

Petra said, “What else can you tell us about Fisk?”


“Ever see him before that night?”

“Coupla times.”

“He always hang with the same people?”


“How about some names?”

“One was Rosie,” said Bowland. “The other was Blazer.”

“Rosie his girl?”

“Black guy, he deejays sometimes.”

“At Rattlesnake?”


“Where, then?”


“How do you know he deejayed?”

“He told me.”



“Before Fisk attacked you.”


“You and Rosie were having a conversation.”

“We were by the stage and he was saying the band was okay but he could deejay more power by himself.”

“Ever have problems with him?”

Head shake. “Always cool.”

“What’s his last name?”


“What about Blazer?”

“Little guy, last name’s something with Pain.”

“Blazer Pain?”

“Something like that,” said Bowland.

“Black or white?”

“White. Thinks he’s a ceeleb.”

“Wants the VIP room?”

“There weren’t none at the Snake. Motherfucker just acts stupid.”

“Stupid, how?”

“Walks around like he’s all that.”

“Blazer Pain,” said Petra.

“Something like that.”

“Robert Fisk hung with these two regularly.”

“I guess.”

“You don’t know?”

“It was always crowded.”

“You were at the door, you saw who came in.”

Bowland shook his head. “Sometimes I was by the stage.”

“The night Fisk attacked you, where were you stationed?”

“The stage.”

“So you don’t know if Fisk came in with Rosie and Blazer.”

“I seen ’ em inside. Rosie was with Blazer then Blazer walks away and Rosie stays by the stage. Fisk’s like watching out for Blazer, then he comes back and says he’s gonna dance.”

“Watching out for Blazer how?”

“Standing close to the motherfucker, looking like, you know.” He narrowed his eyes, bobbed his head.

“Fisk was Blazer’s bodyguard?”


“Blazer needs a bodyguard?”

“Maybe he thinks so.”

“Do you know of any reason for him to need a bodyguard?”

“Ask him.”

“What I meant,” said Petra, “was does he engage in illegal activities.”

“Ask him.”

“Where can we find him?”

Bowland laughed. “Maybe in toon-town.” Yawning. “Gotta sleep.”

“Why are you so tired?” she said. “Never heard of a pawnshop with a night shift.”

“Gotta be there eight in the morning.”

“Till when?”

“One,” said Bowland.

“Part-time gig,” said Petra.

“Feels like full-time. Standing around looking at the crazy shit those Persians buy.”

She stood. “Bass, was not wanting to look like a wimp the only reason you didn’t testify?”


“No other reason?”

“Like what?”

“No one paid you to stay away?”

“Someone paid me, you think I’d be standing around looking at the crazy shit those Persians buy?”

Flipping on his back, he rested his hands on a mountain of belly and stared at the ceiling.

By the time we made it to the door, he was pretending to snore.

Loud, theatrical. More volume than he was able to produce by speaking.

Outside, standing next to her Accord, Petra said, “Rosie and Blazer Pain. Maybe the gang squad will have them on the moniker list.”

I said, “Rosie’s a deejay, Robert Fisk thinks he’s a dancer, and Blazer has visions of celebrity. ‘Pain’ could be a stage name.”

“Or an S and M angle.”

“The club scene,” said Milo. “You know what goes with that. Maybe Jordan will end up as just another dope hit.”

Petra said, “Gyms, now clubs. Great. One place I don’t have to go is Rattlesnake. I checked and it closed down three months after Fisk assaulted Bowland. Most of those dives are fly-by-night. This is not going to be simple.”

I said, “There are a couple of places right on Cherokee, just off the boulevard. Walking distance to Jordan’s place.”

“Meaning it would’ve been easy for Jordan to walk over and sell or buy or whatever,” she said. “Problem is I know those places, El Bandito and Baila Baila. They’re reggaeton, a Latino crowd, white and black guys wouldn’t make it past the door.”

She checked her watch. “Got some time before the night crawlers are out, maybe Eric and I can have some dinner. What’s on your schedule, guys?”

“Nothing too complicated,” said Milo. “Gotta pick up a gun.”

“The maybe match to Lowball Armbruster,” she said. “I’m still trying to locate the slugs dug out of him. Coroner claims they have them, but all those years pass, you know how it goes.”

“No casings on record?”

“Nope, either someone picked up after themselves or it was a revolver.”

I said, “Patty’s gun was a semi-auto.”

“Would Patty be someone who’d pick up?”

I nodded.

“Well,” she said, “it’s probably nothing, tons of.22s floating around. Meanwhile, I search for Robert Fisk.”

She crossed her fingers.

Milo said, “We could all use some luck.”


At six fifteen we pulled up in front of Tanya’s duplex. Over an hour of daylight left but the outdoor spots were on and the drapes were drawn.

The peephole on her door was covered by a tiny door. Before I knocked, it cracked an inch. A pale green eye inspected me.

“One second.” A bolt turned, then another.

She wore a pink buttondown shirt and a khaki skirt and held a plate of cookies. Big Daliesque chocolate-chip inventions, the chocolate soft and runny.

“I just got these out of the oven.”

Milo took one, finished it in two bites. “I like your style.”

“How about some coffee?”

While she was gone, he helped himself to another cookie. “Playing grown-up makes her feel in charge. Only reason I’m eating this is to be supportive.”

“That was my assumption from the beginning.”

He walked around the living room, parted the drapes, looked down at the street, took in the space. “Roomy.”

For a small girl.

Letting the curtains fall, he headed for the coffee table and examined Patty’s graduation photo.

Tanya returned with a mug of coffee and a wooden box. “Here it is.”

Milo wiped his hands and took the box. The interior was black foam with a gun-shaped cutout that cradled a small, blued pistol. He removed the clip. Empty. Dropped it into a Baggie and sniffed the weapon. “Oiled. Anyone use it recently?”

“Mommy took care of everything she owned, but I haven’t seen it for years.”

He shut the box, tucked it under his shoulder, reached for another cookie.

Tanya said, “You’re really not trying to match it to a specific crime?”

Milo looked at me.

I said, “An unsolved murder came up in the files. Another drug addict, a man who’d known Lester Jordan. He was shot a few blocks from your apartment on Cherokee with a.22 back when you lived there. There’s absolutely no reason to think your mom had anything to do with it. What’s more likely is this man and Jordan were both involved in a dope war. But let’s find out for sure so we can put your mind at ease.”

“My mind at ease? This is just-my God, it’s so weird!”

Milo said, “I don’t have to check if you don’t want me to.”

“No,” she said. “Do it, I want to know. Please.”

“As long as we’re here, does the name Robert Fisk mean anything to you?”

“No. Who is he?”

“An unpleasant fellow whose palm print was found on Lester Jordan’s windowsill.”

“You got him?” she said.

“No, we’re looking for him. Identifying him should speed things up.”

“Robert Fisk,” she said. “Has he killed other people?”

“Not that we know about.”

“Is there a good chance you’ll find him?”

“We’ll definitely get him.”

She turned away.

Milo said, “This whole idea of your mother doing something terrible has to be pretty upsetting. I’m sure it’ll come down to nothing.”

She focused past him, stared at the fireplace tiles.

He said, “Tanya, coming forth in the first place was extremely courageous. But like I just said, if you don’t want to continue, no harm, no foul.”

“That wouldn’t make you upset?”

“Not in the least. Officially, I’m on vacation. Give me the word and I go for the Hawaiian shirts.”

Her smile was feeble.

“Lester Jordan’s murder will be investigated fully by Hollywood Division, but anything to do with your mother has been and will continue to be unofficial.”


“Whatever you want, Tanya.”

“I don’t know what I-” She turned, faced us. “I’m so sorry, I thought I could handle anything that came up but now that someone-two people-have actually been killed…”

“That is a tough reality, but there’s no reason to connect it to your mother.”

Her eyes filled. He handed her a napkin, eyed the cookies.

She said, “But what if something did happen?”

“Everything I’ve heard about your mother tells me she was a terrific person. The chances of her doing anything that could be remotely considered criminal are pretty godda-they’re darn low.”

Tanya dabbed a tear, bounced the heels of her hands together, let her arms drop. “When she told me, I felt her reason was protecting me. I only wish I knew from what.”

“Quite possibly nothing, she was sick,” said Milo.


“We’re here to protect you now.”

She hung her head.

I said, “Tanya?”

“I was thinking of myself as a self-sufficient person-I’m sorry, thank you. Thank you so much. Would you like a cookie, too?”


She passed the tray to me, then Milo. He began to refuse, changed his mind. The third cookie went down in one bite.

“Another?” said Tanya.

“No, but they’re delish. Can I ask you a question about Kyle?”

She put the tray down. “What?”

“Did you end up talking to him again and if so, did he say anything about his uncle?”

“We spoke briefly. I had a class and he had an appointment with his dissertation chairman. He told me he couldn’t honestly grieve because he barely knew Jordan. He felt his mother might take it hard because Jordan was her only sibling, but he wasn’t sure, because she never mentioned Jordan. We talked some more about that-the whole sib thing-and then I had to go.”

I said, “Some more?”

“That’s what we discussed during our first lunch. Kyle’s an only child, just like me. There were aspects we both liked, others we didn’t. For me the bad part was not having someone to play with. Kyle feels he’s at risk for being selfish so he makes an effort to be altruistic-feeding the homeless, giving a portion of his trust fund to charity each year.”

“Nice guy,” said Milo, gobbling a fourth cookie. “These are great.”

“It’s just a mix.”

“Hey,” he said, “take all the credit and none of the blame.”

Her smile was weary.

“You okay here, by yourself?”

“I’m fine,” she said, looking to me for support.

I said, “Tanya’s good at asking for help when she needs it.”

Milo said, “Smart thinking. But if you need help, just ask.”

“Thank you, Lieutenant.”

At the door: “You’re a good person, Lieutenant Sturgis.”

Color spread under Milo’s ears.

Tanya said, “Is it still okay for me to talk to Kyle?”

“Unless he gives you a reason not to,” said Milo.

“Like what?”

“If he gets weird. Has he asked you out?”

“No, nothing like that. You really think you’ll find this Fisk pretty soon?”

“Everyone’s looking for him. Speaking of which, here’re a couple of other names: Rosie and Blazer Pain.”

“Who are they?”

“Two guys Fisk hung out with.”

“Blazer Pain? That sounds more like a band than a person.”

I said, “Robert Fisk considers himself a dancer and his pal Rosie deejays, so maybe there is a music connection.”

“A dancer?” she said. “But he killed someone?” Shuddering. “Once you’ve done something like that, how could you ever live with yourself?”

Milo reached for the doorknob. “I imagine it could be tough.”

Placing the gun box in the trunk of the Seville, he slumped in the passenger seat.

“Dropping the whole Patty thing is like putting toothpaste back in the tube. What’s the official shrink position on falsehood and perfidy?”

“Cops are allowed to lie.”

“There’s a direct answer for you.”

I said, “No sense alarming her, what’s the choice. Have you convinced yourself Jordan’s death was related to Patty?”

“No, but the more I think about it, the more I lean that way. We get a match on that gun, it’s gonna be harder to fib to the kid. Though I guess she doesn’t need to know unless we turn up some sort of threat to her.”

“Try keeping it from her,” I said. “And what we don’t tell her, Kyle might.”

“Feeds the homeless-think that was a line?”

“Don’t know.”

“Tanya’s got a crush on him, right? Go figure.”

“You don’t approve?”

“He’s a slob, kind of nerdy, no? She’s a good-looking girl.”

I drove.

Two blocks later: “Ol’ Kyle better be as righteous as he claims.”

I said, “When are you planning to ease up on her curfew and let her wear makeup?”

He glared at me. “You can really be that hands-off?”

“One part of me wants to take her home and have Robin mother her.”

“And the other?”

“The other reminds me of the value of boundaries.”

“Must be nice to have those.” He folded his arms across his gut. “That duplex is nice, but it’s kind of eerie, she’s like a kid playing house. At her age, I was living in a dorm. Total mess, psychologically, but at least there wasn’t all that silence pounding my head. You’re saying she can really be okay doing a solo act?”

“I’m keeping an eye out.”

“I’m gonna talk to Kyle again. Just to let him know.”

“Know what?”

“That I’m an interested party.”

Robin was in the living room, curled on a couch, thumbing through Gruhn and Carter’s Acoustic Guitars.

I sat down and kissed her. “Getting new ideas?”

She put the book down. “Appreciating why the old ones work so well. My day was good, how was yours?”

I gave her the basics.

She said, “Blazer Pain. Are you sure you don’t mean Blaise De Paine?” Spelling it.

“You know him?”

“I’ve heard that name at recording sessions and not in a friendly context. He’s a sampler-snips digital segments of other people’s songs, patches together club mixes. First musicians had to deal with synthesizers, now this.”

“Your basic techno-thievery.”

“But tough to pin down. Samplers use tiny bits that can’t be identified easily. Even if the sample can be documented, who says anyone can claim ownership over a combination of tones? And how would you arrive at a royalty fee? Guys like De Paine are everywhere but no one goes after them because they’re a minor annoyance compared to the serious bootleggers.”

“Maybe he sells other products,” I said. “Ever hear of any dope connection?”

“No, but it wouldn’t shock me. The whole club scene’s all about X, oxycodone, the thrill of the week.”

“Maybe a retro thrill. Lester Jordan was an old-fashioned junkie.”

“I wouldn’t call heroin retro. It never goes out of style completely.”

“Blaise De Paine,” I said. “No way that’s on his birth certificate.”

“I’d bet not, my dear. Want me to ask around?”

“That would be good.”

She got up.

I said, “I didn’t mean right now.”

“No time like the present.” She fluffed her hair, held up a fist. “Look at me, girl detective.”

Blaise De Paine pulled up twenty-eight cyber-hits, twenty-five of them rants on a chat line called BitterMusician.com. The remaining three consisted of De Paine’s name embedded in lists of partygoers.

Two club openings and the premiere of an indy film I’d never heard of.

The griping musicians grouped De Paine with “the usual cabal of digital scumbag thieves” but didn’t single him out.

An image search produced four blurry photos of a slight young man with spiky, blond-tipped black hair and oversized teeth that drew your eyes away from a forgettable face. In each shot, Blaise De Paine favored long fitted coats over a bare chest and gold jewelry. He might’ve been wearing mascara. The group shots featured pretty young faces.

No sign of a scowling Robert Fisk or any black men. Combining Robert Fisk and Rosie with De Paine’s name brought up nothing.

The images were still on screen when Robin came into the office. “That’s him? Looks young, but that makes sense, it’s a kid’s business. I made more calls and from what I can gather De Paine’s mixes are a small-time hustle, probably not his main source of income because he hasn’t been seen lately around the clubs and someone thought he’d heard that De Paine had a high-priced house in the hills, above the Strip. Dope could be his other line of business.”

“He dresses flamboyantly, so he loves attention. Wonder why he doesn’t have a Web site.”

“That is weird. Everyone has a Web site.”

“You don’t.”

“I like my privacy and my clients know how to find me.”

“Exactly,” I said.

“Ah,” she said. “This unearthing stuff gets interesting, doesn’t it?”


The next morning I introduced Blanche to a lightweight leash.

Twenty minutes of exercise was enough for her: When I carried her back to the house, she tucked her head under my chin.

The phone rang as I set out her water bowl.

Milo said, “The bad news is no sign yet of Robert Fisk, the other bad news is no one in any of the divisions has heard of Blazer Pain or Rosie.”

“That’s ’cause it’s Blaise De Paine.” I gave him the details.

“Music cheat, I’ll pass it along to Petra. The final bad news is the evidence room is still having trouble locating the bullets used on Leland Armbruster. In the theoretically positive category, Iona Bedard-Kyle’s mom-is in town to talk to Petra about Brother Lester. She’s staying at the Beverly Hilton, we’re invited to co-attend at ten a.m. If you’re interested, meet me in front at five to. Dress nice. Class consciousness, and all that.”

The lobby of the Beverly Hilton was a bright, vast amalgam of original fifties construction and postmodern, earth-toned upgrades.

Tourists waited to check in. Sharp-eyed executives and frightened minions wearing Hi I’m… badges hurried to meetings. Milo sat off to the side on a chocolate-brown sofa designed for someone thin, drinking coffee and watching people with the suspiciousness that never leaves him.

“Dressing nice” was a broad-shouldered suit one shade lighter than the couch. Some miracle fabric with a coarse weave that resembled shredded wheat. His shirt was barley yellow, his tie peacock blue. No desert boots; glossy brown oxfords I’d never seen before.

I said, “Nice spit shine.”

“These are older than Tanya. Can’t wear ’ em anymore. Bunions.”

He rubbed the offending bulge.

I said, “Nevertheless…”

“Protect and serve and suffer. Once a Catholic…”

A voice said, “Hey, guys.”

Petra Connor strode toward us wearing a brown pantsuit one shade darker than the couch and carrying a big beige purse.

“Oh, boy,” she said, eyeing Milo. “The Mud City twins.”

“Except for Dr. Nonconformist,” said Milo.

She touched the sleeve of my gray flannel jacket. “Thanks for rescuing us from gag-me, Alex. Thanks also for the Blaise De Paine info but if he owns a house in the hills, we can’t find it, and there’s no auto reg under that name. I’m not sure if I want to put too much time into him, the key is Robert Fisk. Lester Jordan’s autopsy is scheduled in three days but the initial screen came through. Massive amounts of opiates plus three cocktails’ worth of alcohol, no big surprise there, we found a nearly empty gin bottle in Jordan’s fridge. And that’s the longest speech I’ve delivered in a long time.”

We shared an elevator with a stunned-looking Swedish family. Iona Bedard’s suite was at the south end of the sixth floor. A black-haired woman shoved the door open, said, “You’re on time,” turned her back on us, and marched to an easy chair. Propping her feet on an ottoman, she reclaimed a smoldering pink cigarette from an ashtray.

The living room was bright, wide, and cold, with a long gray view of Century City. Furnished with the same ecru-to-topsoil formula as the lobby. Petra muttered, “Now I’ll be invisible,” and shut the door.

We stood around as Iona Bedard puffed and gazed at a chalky sky. An end table was piled with fashion magazines and glossy monthlies that pushed high-priced toys. Atop the stack was a sleek platinum lighter. A tray near her feet held a pitcher of iced tea and an empty glass. Iona Bedard didn’t invite us to sit and we stayed on our feet.

Petra said, “Thanks for meeting with us, ma’am.”

Bedard sucked in smoke and let it trail out of her nose. Midfifties, tall and leggy, she had wide, dark, heavily lined eyes that matched her ebony bouffant. Her black-and-pink houndstooth jacket and gray jeans were tailored to a bony frame that shouted self-denial. Her skin boasted of nicotine and sun exposure. The exception was a flat, glossy brow. That and the odd paralytic tilt along the outer edges of her eyelids screamed Botox.

She said, “I’m going to help you people. If you want to solve my brother’s murder, take a good hard look into my ex-husband. Do you have something to write on?”

Petra produced her pad.

Iona Bedard said, “Myron. Grant. Bedard. Fifty-seven years old, six feet tall, two forty, though he lies and claims to be lighter. His addresses are-write this down: 752 Park Avenue, Apartment 13A, New York 10021, Crookback Ranch, Aspen Valley, Colorado 81611, and an apartment in London that he calls a flat because he’s pretentious. Nine Carlos Place, Mayfair, W1, I don’t recall the crazy English postal code but it should be easy enough to find. Do you have all that down?”

“I do, ma’am,” said Petra. “Why should we be looking at Mr. Bedard?”

“Because he’s always despised Lester.”

“Personality conflict?”

“Baseless hatred,” said Bedard, as if explaining to an idiot. “Lester wasn’t the strongest person. Myron has no tolerance for weakness.”

Petra wrote something down. “Could you be more specific as to a motive for murder, ma’am?”

“Hatred isn’t sufficient?”

“Did Mr. Bedard and Mr. Jordan have any recent conflict?”

“It wouldn’t surprise me.”

“But you don’t know of any specific-”

“I’m trying to help you, dear. If I knew more, I’d tell you.”

“Where is Mr. Bedard at present?”

“I have no idea.”

Milo said, “Your son said he was in Europe.”

“If that’s what Kyle said, then I’m sure it was true. At the time Kyle said it.”


“Myron moves around. Locate a bevy of sluts and he won’t be far.”

Petra said, “He moves between his three residences?”

“And resorts and rented yachts and private jets and whatever whim of the moment seizes him.”

“Who owns the house on Hudson Avenue?”

Iona Bedard’s eyelids lowered. Her eye shadow was smoke-colored and glossy. She shifted her attention to Milo, then me, as if Petra had worn out the welcome mat. “That monstrosity is Myron’s as well.” Back to Petra: “I didn’t mention it because I assumed you knew about it. And because you’ll never find him there. He hates Los Angle-is. Fancies himself a waahrld traahvelar.”

“Anyone live there besides Kyle?”

“Kyle would prefer a small apartment appropriate for someone of his age. Myron refuses to pay for one.”

“Not a generous man.”

“When it comes to his own needs, he’s lavish.”

“Are you saying Mr. Bedard murdered Mr. Jordan and flew off to Europe?”

Bedard’s sigh was long, theatrical, world-weary. “People like Myron don’t do for themselves.”

“So we’re talking a contract killing.”

“I’m offering you insight, dear. Connect the dots.”

“Any idea who Mr. Bedard would hire for something like that?”

“I don’t consort with people like that.”

“Mr. Bedard’s motive would be resentment.”

“Myron despised Lester. Throughout our marriage, Lester was an issue for Myron.”

“In what way?”

“My helping Lester ate at Myron. What was I asking? Basic lodging for a family member who’d encountered more than his share of misfortune.”

“The apartment on Cherokee,” said Milo. “Lester lived there for free?”

Iona waved her cigarette. “Only one small apartment in a twenty-unit building. You’d have thought I was seeking to lease the Taj Mahal.”

“Mr. Bedard objected but he gave in.”

“It’s not as if Myron ever earned a dime. What reason did he have to object? And Lester earned his keep. He managed the building.”

“Mr. Bedard inherited his wealth,” said Petra.

“My family was by no means middle-class, dear, but we know the value of work. My father was a top financial advisor for Merrill Lynch and my mother was a world-class beauty and gifted painter who never went out in the sun without a parasol. Culture was an enormous component of my upbringing.”

No reason for her to smile, but she did. The movement created a network of facial creases in random spots, as if her head was tethered to invisible strings, manipulated by an unseen puppeteer. “Myron’s family had the means to acquire culture but they lacked the motivation. Most of the objects of quality in my father-in-law’s house were purchased at my suggestion. I have a degree in Art History from Weldon College. I’ll say one thing for the old man, he was willing to listen. Obviously not a genetic trait.”

Petra said, “Anything you could tell us about Mr. Jordan’s history would be helpful.”

“What do you mean by ‘history’?”

“Who he was, his friends, his interests. How he got involved with drugs.”

Iona Bedard flexed the pink cigarette, watched the smoke wiggle upward. Lifting her glass, she glanced at the pitcher.

Milo filled her glass. She drank, ground out her cigarette, pulled out a fresh smoke. Glanced at the platinum lighter.

Milo lit her up.

Three inhalations later, she said, “Lester’s essence went beyond his illness.”

“I’m sure it did,” said Petra. “But it would still be helpful to know-”

“Lester’s history is that he was a perfectly normal young man who had the misfortune of growing up in a family where normalcy wasn’t sufficient. My father was Bertram Jordan.”

Pausing to let the fact sink in.

She said, “Senior partner in Merrill’s main San Francisco office? My mother was a Dougherty. Without her, the Palace of Fine Arts would be nothing. Lester’s older than me. He wasn’t the student that I was but his gift was music. All he wanted was to play music but that was an anathema to my parents. They meant well but their disapproval was hard for Lester.”

“What instrument did he play?” said Petra.

“Clarinet, saxophone, oboe. He dabbled in trumpet, as well.”

“We didn’t find any instruments in his apartment.”

“Lester hadn’t played for years. His dreams were crushed.”

“By your parents?”

“By life,” said Iona Bedard. “Someone with a stronger constitution might’ve endured but Lester was artistic and sensitive and artistic people often lack backbone.”

I thought back to Jordan’s surly demeanor. Maybe dope and the passage of time had changed him. Or his sister was delusional.

She said, “Lester made one last stab at defying Father. Dropped out of college and joined up with a traveling jazz band. That’s when he learned bad habits.”

Petra said, “Heroin.”

Bedard glared at her. “You seem to relish reminding me.”

“Just trying to clarify the facts, Mrs. Bedard. What college did Mr. Jordan attend?”

“San Francisco State. During the turmoil. That Oriental fellow with the hat?”

“Pardon?” said Petra.

Bedard turned to us. “You’re of that age, educate her.”

I said, “Samuel Hayakawa was the chancellor of S.F. State during the sixties. It was a politicized campus.”

Iona Bedard said, “Lester never participated in that nonsense. Nor did he become a hippie. Just the opposite, he had no use for politics.”

“Just wanted to play music,” said Petra.

“He was a clean-cut young man who fell in with the wrong crowd.”

Placing her glass atop the fashion magazines, Bedard slashed the air. “End of story.”

Petra said, “Who were his recent friends?”

“I wouldn’t know.”

“You own the building on Cherokee, now.”

“A crumb tossed to me by Myron’s attorneys. I rarely visit. It’s all I received except for some moribund stocks and the house in Atherton that I insisted we purchase in the first place and I decorated from scratch.”

I said, “Kyle mentioned a place in Deer Valley.”

My cabin,” she said. “I’m the one who skis, Myron can barely handle a bunny slope, what use would he have with that? When may I retrieve Lester from wherever you people have him?”

“I’ll give you all the details, ma’am,” said Petra, “but first a few more questions. You have no knowledge of anyone your brother Jordan associated with recently?”

“Must I repeat myself?” Bedard puffed away, coughed roughly, covered her mouth with her hand belatedly.

“As the landlord-”

“I’m the landlord in title only, young lady. Checks are sent to me monthly, all of which I go over with a fine-tooth comb to make sure the management company I’ve hired doesn’t steal more than their customary amount.”

“What’s the name of the company?”

“Embezzlers, Incorporated.” Bedard chuckled at her own wit. “Brass Management. Arthur I. Brass. Jewish. When it comes to money, you might as well have them on your side. Now if you’ll excu-”

“Did Lester ever try to kick the habit?”

“Several times.”


“By enrolling in so-called rehab programs.”

“Who financed that?”

“I did. Another issue with Myron. As far as he was concerned, Lester could rot.”

“Several years ago, ma’am, there was a nurse who lived in the Cherokee building-”

“The lesbian,” said Iona Bedard. “Patricia something.”

“Patricia Bigelow.”

“That’s the one.”

“You know her to be a lesbian.”

“She certainly looked like one. Hair like a man. Not that I held any prejudice against her. She did her job professionally, I’ll grant her that.”

“What was her job?”

“Looking out for Lester. That was my idea. The day Myron showed her the apartment, I was visiting Lester and came up with an inspired idea.”

“Myron showed the apartments personally?”

“Back then, he did. At the insistence of his father, kicking and screaming all the way. When the old man had his stroke, Myron hired a management company. Not Brass, some Armenians who robbed him blind.”

“But that day, when Ms. Bigelow was looking to rent-”

“Myron and I had just completed nine holes at Wilshire. I craved a light lunch but Myron said he had to show an apartment at Cherokee. I said I might as well visit Lester. Patricia showed up. Afterward, Myron said he wasn’t sure he’d rent to her, she’d just moved to town, didn’t have much in the way of credit references or ready cash. Not that the tenants he chose were exemplary. But they had cash, much of which Myron pocketed unbeknownst to his father. On the other hand, he said, it was one of the front apartments on the street, which were harder to rent. And she was a nurse, so he supposed she’d be a steady worker. Then he waffled. That was Myron, unable to make decisions unless they pertained to his personal comfort. I said a nurse could come in handy. Thinking of Lester, immediately, because Lester had just been through a rough patch.”

“Overdose?” said Petra.

Iona glared. “A kind person would have jumped at the opportunity to help a family member. But anything that smacked of helping Lester irked Myron.”

“Ms. Bigelow did move in and she stayed for years.”

“That, my dear, is because I exploited Myron’s miserly nature by pointing out that hospitals and private nurses were expensive and we could have someone in-house.”

“A barter,” said Petra.

“Inspired,” said Bedard.

“What did looking after Mr. Jordan consist of?”

“Checking in on him, making sure he had food, coffee. Patricia was mannish but she knew her job. There were at least three instances where Lester might have fallen more seriously ill but for her presence.”

“What did she do?”

“Revived him, walked him around, whatever you do in those situations. One time she did have to call an ambulance but when they arrived, Lester was already on his feet and didn’t need to be taken to the hospital. Don’t get the wrong idea, dear. It wasn’t only those kinds of problems. When Lester came down with a cold or a flu, she was there.”

“Did she ever provide him with drugs?” said Milo.

“Of course not.”

“Of course not?” said Petra.

“She told me she detested drugs. At first she didn’t even want the job because of the nature of Lester’s illness. Which I thought was a bit huffy, considering her own lifestyle issues.”

“What convinced her?”

“Free rent and one thousand dollars a month in cash. Which I’m sure she didn’t declare to the IRS. Why are you asking so many questions about her?”

“Her name comes up when we ask around about your brother.”

“I don’t see why it would. But if you want evidence of Myron’s hateful nature, go ahead and talk to her. After the old man’s stroke, Myron announced that his father’s priorities outweighed Lester’s and that Patricia was moving to Hudson. Needless to say, I was furious. She was an excellent caretaker and Lester had gotten used to having her around. You’d think she might have been loyal, but there was Myron, with his forty pieces of silver.”

“He gave her a raise?”

“An additional thousand dollars a month and free use of the guest room. If you people have connections with the IRS, there’s a tip for you.”

Petra said, “You mentioned Mr. Bedard renting to disreputable types who paid cash. Anyone in particular?”

“Minorities,” said Iona Bedard. “That kind of thing.”

“Your brother didn’t associate with any other tenants?”

Bedard ground out her second cigarette and placed her glass on the floor with exaggerated care. “You really don’t understand, do you?”

“Understand what, ma’am?”

“Lester was ill. That doesn’t make him one of them.”

“How did he fare after Ms. Bigelow left?”

“Not well,” said Iona Bedard. “Myron refused to pay for another nurse or for any additional treatment. One time, Lester had to be taken to the county hospital, which I understand is a snake pit. Myron relished the I-told-you-so. The names he’d call Lester I won’t repeat.”

“Lester had some legal problems, as well.”

“All due to his illness.” Iona Bedard flicked ashes in the general vicinity of the tray. Most of them landed on the carpet. “Shortly after the old man died, my marriage finally accomplished what it should have accomplished years ago. Disintegrated. Circumstances forced me to beg Myron to allow Lester to stay at Cherokee and I don’t take well to begging. After the divorce I insisted on-and got-the building and that was that. Lester never beat his problem but his need for drugs did seem to be winding down a bit.”

“That can happen with addicts, if they live long enough,” said Petra. “Where did Lester’s financial support come from?”

Iona Bedard poked her chest. Waved dismissively. “Go on, you people, I’ve done your work for you. All you have to do is find the bastard.”

We didn’t move.

“Please,” said Bedard, making it sound like an order.

Petra said, “Does the name Robert Fisk mean anything to you?”

“There was a Bobby Fisk in my class at Atherton Prep. Flight surgeon in the navy.”

“What about Rosie?”

“The Riveter?”

“Blaise De Paine?”

Iona Bedard patted her coiffure. Laughed.

Petra said, “Something funny, ma’am?”

That, young lady, is not a real name. Now go on, do your job.”


On the ride down, we had the elevator to ourselves. Petra fanned herself and laughed. “That must’ve been one lousy prenup.”

Milo said, “If voodoo worked, ol’ Myron would be frying in oil.”

“She gives us no evidence he has anything to do with Lester, but on her say-so we’re supposed to track him down in Europe.”

“Hatred’s a great motivator.”

“I’m sure he adores her, too. After fifteen minutes, I’m ready to strangle her. But so what? For ten years Jordan’s been out of his life.”

I said, “As opposed to all those disreputable ‘minority’ types who shared Jordan’s lifestyle but were nothing like him.”

“Talk about denial,” said Petra. “One thing she’s probably right about. ‘De Paine’ is a moniker.”

We crossed the lobby in silence. Milo and I had parked in the hotel lot but Petra had left her Acura on Walden Drive across Wilshire, and we walked her over.

She unlocked the car and tossed her purse onto the passenger seat. “Any parting thoughts, guys?”

“It was me, I’d keep it basic,” said Milo.

“Concentrate on Fisk, anything else is a distraction. In terms of your Ms. Bigelow, I’m not seeing any stunning link. Even if she did channel hospital dope Jordan’s way, that’s also ancient history.”

“Seems to be,” said Milo.

“You have doubts?”

“The only sticking point is one day we’re talking to Jordan about Patty and soon after he gets dead.”

“The only possible connection would be he tipped someone off about some secret so big and bad he had to be silenced. Like what?”

Neither of us had an answer.

“Either way,” she said, “the key is finding Fisk.”

Milo said, “Dancing hit man. There’s a network show for you.”

I said, “Jordan was an ex-horn player. It keeps coming back to music.”

Petra said, “Jordan hadn’t played for years. The only music connection I can see is dope.”

“Or an anti-dope thing. As in Jordan pushing product on the wrong person.”

“Who’s the wrong person?”

“How about a music-biz honcho’s kid.”

“Daddy puts the hit on Lester for supplying his prodge? Great, I’d love to haul in more suspects, maybe Fisk will fink once we have him in custody. I got DMV on his wheels, from the lapsed files. ’Ninety-nine Mustang, red at the time, registration fees six months overdue. I also put in a rush subpoena on his phone records, let’s see what comes up. If I’m lucky maybe I can haul him in before Cruella phones the brass and trash-talks about us middle-class peons not following her cultivated instructions.”

Milo said, “Gonna cover your butt and look for her ex?”

She swung her purse. “I’ll sic Raul on it, give him some training in long-distance sleuthing.”

“Smart guy?” said Milo.

“Smart but real new. Quiet, though. I like that. See you, guys.”

We returned to the Hilton parking lot.

I said, “One thing meeting Iona was good for. Now we understand Patty’s housing choices.”

Milo said, “A thousand a month in cash for three years makes thirty-six K she didn’t have to declare. Then ol’ Myron moves her to Hudson and she’s raised to two grand. How long did she stay there?”

“Around two years.”

“Another forty-eight, for a grand total of eighty-four thou. Toss in her salary at the hospital, plus five years of free rent, and it’s a nice six-figure haul. Talk about a sweet deal, Alex. The downside was no job security. The old man dies, sayonara.”

“She moved to Fourth Street,” I said. “Nicest place yet, but she stayed less than a year. Maybe paying full rent was jarring. Or she was determined to save her cash now that she had some. Eighty-four thousand even at a conservative rate of interest could double in ten years. If she participated in the stock-market boom, she could’ve done significantly better. Downshifting to Culver Boulevard meant living in a dump but it got her to homeownership. Without the windfall from Myron Bedard, she might never have pulled it off. Her portfolio’s what started me wondering about dope, but maybe it’ll boil down to savvy investing.”

“Helped along by a little tax evasion.”

“That, too.”

Isaac Gomez’s e-mail read:

Hi, Dr. D. We’re in Bangkok and I’m writing this from an Internet café but the connection’s tenuous and we’re moving on so don’t bother responding. I woke up thinking about that crime trace and realized I’d made a methodological error by limiting myself to cases classified as homicides, as opposed to manslaughter, aggravated assault, or anything else that could’ve developed into murder but wasn’t reclassified. Unfortunately, there’s nothing I can do about it right now but when I get back in a few weeks, I’ll dig around the data a bit more and see what I can come up with. Hopefully, I haven’t missed anything crucial. Heather says hi. Best, IG

I thought about that, decided Isaac was parsing too meticulously. Patty had said she’d killed a man. Everyone was dancing around that, but I couldn’t forget it.

I was sitting on the couch, contemplating a warming shot of Chivas, when Blanche waddled into the office and nuzzled my shin. When I stood, she danced around a bit, then raced out the door.

I followed her down the hall, across the kitchen, to the back door. She sped with surprising agility down the stairs to the pond. Zeroed in on the locked bin that held the koi chow and began butting it with her flat nose.

“You’re into seafood now?” I scooped out a few pellets and offered them to her. She turned her head in disdain.

Head-butted the bin some more. Stared up at me.

When I tossed food to the fish, she swiveled and watched. Panted.

Gave a hoarse bark until I threw more pellets.

“Altruism?” I said.

I know the experts will label it anthropomorphism but she smiled with pure joy, I’ll swear to it.

Robin found the two of us by the water. Blanche jumped off my lap and greeted her. The fish swarmed, as they do when footsteps sound on the stone pathway.

“They’re starving,” she said. “I’ll go feed them.”

I said, “They’ve already dined. Extensively, because Blanche has appointed herself Official Caterer.”

“I know,” she said. “She did it yesterday, too. Any progress finding Fisk?”

“Not yet.”

“I networked some more on Blaise De Paine. The only thing I can add is that maybe possibly could be his house in the hills is on one of the bird streets. But don’t put much faith in it, hon. The person who told me wasn’t sure where he’d heard it or even if it was De Paine and not some other crook and he had no idea which bird. No one’s heard of Fisk or Rosie, though there is a black guy named Mosey, does some deejay work.”

“Last name?”

She shook her head. “He’s probably not who you want. The person who met him said he was a nice guy.”

“Where’d he meet him?”

“She. Some party, she was one of the dancers, hired by an agency in the Valley, she couldn’t recall the name.”

“Memory problems?”

“Maybe a bit blurred by recreational substances.”

“The bird streets,” I said. “Fog upon L.A., friends losing their way.”

“Poor George. Remember when I met him?”

“Ten years ago, fixing the Rickenbacher.”

“Sweet man,” she said. “So gifted, so modest.”

She sat down, rested her head on my shoulder. Blanche watched us kiss. Trotted back to the stairs and observed us with serenity.

An almost parental joy.

Robin said, “Let’s go inside. Spread our wings.”


By four p.m., Robin was sketching and I was at the computer running a search on mosey deejay.

One hit, no images.

Moses “Big Mosey” Grant was cited in a long list of people thanked for contributing to the success of a hospital fund-raiser.

Western Pediatric, where I’d trained and worked.

The party had been thrown a year ago by the Division of Endocrinology, the cause was juvenile diabetes, and the person offering thanks was the head, Dr. Elise Glass. Elise and I had worked together on several cases. I had her private number on file.

She said, “Hi, Alex. Are you back to seeing patients or is it still that police stuff?”

“As a matter of fact.” I asked her about Moses Grant.


“The deejay at your benefit last year.”

“Mosey? Please don’t tell me he’s in trouble.”

“You know him personally?”

“No, but I remember him. Huge but gentle and really good with the kids. Am I going to be disillusioned?”

“He’s not in trouble, but he’s been seen with someone who is. I’m sure it’ll turn out to be nothing.”

“I hope so. First he cut his fees, then he insisted on working for free, stayed extra hours. He understood what we’re about.”

“Diabetic relative?”

“Diabetic himself. Unfortunately, he doesn’t seem to be controlling it well. Toward the end of the evening, he was fading fast and I had to get him some juice.”

“How’d you come to hire him?”

“The Development Office hired him. He really seemed like a teddy bear, Alex.”

“I’m sure he is. Do you have a number for him?”

“That would be over in Development, too. Hold on, I’ll have Janice connect you.”

I waited as a recorded voice lectured me about nutrition and exercise.

“Development, this is Sue.”

“This is Dr. Delaware. I’m planning an event and heard you use an excellent deejay named Moses Grant. Do you know how I can reach him?”

“Hmm, let me check that.”

A new recorded message filled me in on the virtues of charitable giving. “We got him through a broker-The Party Line. Here’s the number.”

Valley exchange. Before I tried it, I plugged Moses Grant into the search engines and brought up a genealogy site and a lone reference to a miner who’d died in West Virginia a hundred and five years ago.

At The Party Line’s number, a hoarse male voice answered, “Agency, Eli Romaine.”

“I’m looking for a deejay you handle. Moses Grant.”

“Don’t handle him anymore,” said Romaine. “I’ve got better people. What kind of party are you doing?”

“Sweet sixteen,” I said. “I was told Grant’s one of the best.”

“It’s not rocket science, he knows how to push buttons. What kind of sweet sixteen are we talking about? Kids acting their age or pretending to be twenty-one? I’m asking ’cause the music’s different, depending.”

“These are just normal kids.”

Romaine’s laugh was a nicotine bark. “Okay, I’ve got guys who can go either way. Girls, too, but sweet sixteens always want guys. Preferably hot guys. I got a couple who could be on soap operas and also know how to push buttons. I also got dancers, I recommend some blond girls, to get the action going. It’s not that much more.”

“Grant wasn’t that good?” I said.

“Do you want someone who’s going to show up or not?”

“He flaked out.”

“Six months ago, so what kind of setup do you want?”

“Let me think about it.”

“Oh, Jesus,” he said. “This isn’t about sweet sixteen. What, he owes you money? Don’t waste my time.”


I reached Petra’s cell and gave her Moses Grant’s name.

She said, “Thanks. I’m on my way to San Diego. Robert Fisk’s Mustang showed up not far from the long-term parking lot at Lindbergh Field. I may have to go through the airlines one by one. This is handy, I can also search for Grant’s name on the manifests.”

“Good luck.”

“If Fisk flew bye-bye, I’ll need it. Bye.”

I put that aside and thought about Grant dropping out of sight half a year ago. Same time Robert Fisk had left his apartment and turned invisible.

Had Grant stopped taking party jobs from Romaine because he’d found a better gig? Altruistic teddy bear or not, doing the club scene with Blaise De Paine or some other music-biz remora could be more enticing than spinning Raffi and Dan Crow for sick kids. Or dealing with sixteen-year-olds yearning for twenty-one.

Or maybe Grant’s disappearance hadn’t been voluntary. A diabetic who failed to monitor his blood sugar could face all sorts of complications.

I decided to start with hospitals and if that didn’t pan out, move on to emergency rooms and long-term-care units. The information I was after was confidential and I’d have to lie my way through layers of medical bureaucracy. Blitheness and my title might help.

Grant’s 818 number said the logical place to start was the Valley. Then I remembered a hospital where I could be truthful.

Rick said, “I’m walking to my computer as we speak. There’s an overall billing file for inpatients. Outpatients I’m not sure about, they may be classed by department. So you think this Grant person might have something to do with Patty and that guy Jordan?”

“Grant was seen in the company of Jordan’s murderer.”

“The kickboxer who left the fingerprints.”

“Milo’s filled you in.”

“I’ve been bugging him to keep me posted. I don’t know if you’ve sensed it, Alex, but he’s done a total turnaround on Patty. At first it was all I could do to get him to take Tanya’s concerns seriously. Jordan’s murder changed his mind, he’s convinced it’s tied to Patty. He’s also convinced it’s his fault because it happened right after he talked to Jordan.”

“Didn’t know it bothered him that way.”

“Guilt’s what Big Guy’s all about…okay, I have entered the General Billing System…looks like I need a code…oh, would you look at this. The codes are listed right out in the open by department, talk about inane…okay, I’m typing in the E.R. code and…here we go: Grant, Moses Byron, male, twenty-six years old, 7502 Los Ojos, Woodland Hills…oh, boy.”


“Looks like he was one of ours. Came into the E.R. for hypoglycemia.”


“Two and a half months ago.”

“Right before Patty got sick.”

“The hairs on my neck are standing up, Alex.”

“Did he come in alone?”

“That wouldn’t be in the billing records unless someone else guaranteed payment…let’s see…the account was settled in full, $869.23, no insurance co-pay or Medi-Cal. Either Grant’s check was good or he paid cash. Let me go find his chart. That could take a bit, would you prefer bad music or silence?”

“I could use some quiet.”

Moments later: “Mr. Grant arrived at our portals barely conscious at three fourteen a.m. on a Saturday night. I was off, the attending was Pete Berger. Let’s check the nursing notes…oh, boy, they’re Patty’s. One of her double shifts.”

“What did she write?”

“Basic intake material…okay, she does mention Grant being brought by ‘friends,’ no names…one of them had communicated to the triage nurse that Grant had taken an insulin shot shortly before feeling faint and nearly passing out. We got some sugar in him, monitored his vitals, found some funny stuff with the R waves of his EEG and recommended admission for further observation. Grant refused, checked himself out against medical advice, we never saw him again.”

“Would Pete Berger remember?”

“With thousands of patients since? No way. And the resident was rotating through from Olive View. Let me try to reach both of them for you anyway, stay right there.”

Ten minutes later: “Neither of them remember Grant, let alone his friends. I’m sure Patty would have total recall, her memory was astonishing.”

“Which could be the point,” I said. “She saw something while taking care of Grant that upset her. Soon after, she got sick, but it stuck in her mind.”

“I guess so, but what could have bothered her that much…I told you she looked worn out two weeks before diagnosis. I’ve been assuming that was the disease taking its toll. You’re saying it could’ve been emotional stress?”

“At this point it’s theory, but it does establish another link between Patty and Lester Jordan. She took care of him and an associate of the guy who killed him.”

“Speaking of which,” he said, “Milo told me your suspicions about Patty pilfering drugs. I went back and checked our Class Three inventories for the last year and nothing looks funny. I’ve always run a really tight ship in that regard, Alex. I don’t delude myself that anything’s perfect and a twelve-month check says nothing about pilferage years ago but I have to believe that if anything significant was going on, I’d have known it. Beyond that, I just can’t see Patty involved in anything like that.”

“I can’t either.”

“Yet Tanya has a trust fund,” he said. “That’s been eating at me.”

“Milo didn’t tell you the new theory about that?”

“No. I’ve been on for the last two days, haven’t seen him.”

I told him about Myron Bedard’s cash payments to Patty plus five years of free rent.

He said, “That makes me feel a little bit better. What I just said about running a tight ship? I might as well be up front. When I didn’t check the dope cabinet personally, I had Patty do it.”

“There’s no evidence she stole drugs, Rick.”

“I guess I just want to hear you say it. Anything else I can do for you?”

“No,” I said. “Thanks for helping with Grant.”

“Sure. Listen, maybe it’s best if Big Guy doesn’t know the extent of my involvement. He likes to shield me from the bad stuff.”


The meeting took place the following night. Nine p.m. my house; Petra showed up first, at ten to the hour, though she’d driven from San Diego. “Big-rig overturn near Irvine, psycho traffic all the way to Newport and my cell phone battery died. Thank God I left early and changed into car clothes.”

That meant a black cowl-necked top, charcoal velvet sweatpants, and white sneakers. After a bathroom break, she accepted the offer of a phone battery and coffee and began chatting with Robin. When I came back, they were talking handbags and Blanche was on Petra’s lap.

“This one,” she said, “is star material.”

Robin said, “I know ostrich leg sounds gory but I like it better than straight ostrich.”

Petra said, “Is that the one with a larger pattern instead of dots? A little like croc but softer around the edges?”


“Oh, yeah, that’s nice. Poor bird-but they say ostriches are mean, so if you want to rationalize, there’s an out.”

“Cows are nice,” said Robin, “but I’m not limiting myself to hemp.”

I left to pour my own cup.

Milo arrived with a corner of a pizza wedge in one hand and tomato sauce stains above his lip. The shoulders and back of his sport coat were coated with fine gray dust and random flecks of paper. His tweed slacks were seasons too heavy for the warm night.

Taking a half-gallon milk carton from the fridge, he ripped at the spout and guzzled.

Robin said, “Want a cookie?”


“Mint Milanos.”

“Kind of you, kid, but my standards are high.”

Robin laughed and took Blanche to the bedroom.

Milo and Petra and I sat around the kitchen table.

She said, “So you found the bullets.”

Milo said, “After two days of digging around. Some genius in the evidence room wrote down a 5 instead of a 3 and then another genius modified that to an 8 and added the wrong year code. They also had it clear on the wrong side of the room, with boxes from ’sixty-two.”

“Maybe they were hoping you’d solve a few cold ones while you were there.” She leaned over and flicked dust from his jacket.

“I got Bob Deal in Ballistics to agree to run comparison tests tomorrow. Anything happen with the airlines?”

“If only,” she said. “Fisk’s name doesn’t show up on any outgoing flights since the day of Jordan’s murder and neither does Moses Grant’s. Plenty of prints in Fisk’s Mustang but so far the only ones that pull up an AFIS match are his. Stu got San Diego to agree to work it over, in the interests of time. They’ve gone over the interior and the trunk, haven’t found any body fluids. I’ve got a nice broad subpoena for all of Fisk’s phone records but I can’t find any evidence of a landline and if he uses a cell, it’s a rental.”

“Bad-guy habits,” said Milo. “Any papers in the car?”

“Old reg, some PowerBar wrappers. It’s neat but not freaky-clean, as if he did a recent wash. Back to our vic for a sec. Lester Jordan had only a landline, but it doesn’t look like he had much of a social life, maybe twenty calls a month. The only long-distances were to lona in Atherton and the last of those was seventy-four days ago.”

Milo said, “Close-knit family.”

“Regular Brady Bunch. The other numbers Jordan called were take-out restaurants and pay phones. The pay calls happened late at night, which fits with Jordan craving dope. Raul did a thorough recanvass of the building. Most of the tenants had no idea who Jordan was, it’s not a touchy-feely place where they greet each other in the hallways. And no one had heard Jordan was the manager, so if Iona’s palming him off as such for tax purposes, she’s scamming. But a few people said they’d noticed lowlifes going in and out of Jordan’s apartment in the wee hours. Still, the H left behind doesn’t indicate Jordan got dead because he was dealing. Or maybe Fisk really can’t stand drugs.”

Milo said, “Even so, there’d be a profit motive.”

“Maybe,” she said, “Fisk and whoever let him in got careless. They did leave the window open. In terms of Moses Grant, there’s absolutely no criminal record. Bassett Bowland saw Grant at Rattlesnake with Fisk and De Paine but he didn’t observe any conspiratorial behavior. Barring new information, I don’t think Grant merits much of my time.”

I said, “Here’s new information: A couple of weeks before she got sick, Patty Bigelow treated Grant at Cedars.”

“For what?”

“Low blood sugar. He’s diabetic.”

“He’s a sick guy, she’s a nurse, and Cedars is the main E.R. on the Westside. Thousands of people move through there, Alex.”

“Grant came in with friends.”

She pushed hair behind one ear, rubbed a temple with her thumb. “Another layer of complication. Okay, what else do we know about Grant?”

Milo said, “According to his landlord in Woodland Hills, he was a model tenant, no noise, no guests, even played his music with earphones. Then six months ago, he cut out on the rent with no notice. Landlord sued him in small claims and won, but she hasn’t collected because she can’t find him.”

I said, “Six months ago Robert Fisk skipped out on his rent.”

“The two of them moved in together?” she said. “Fine, I’ll keep Grant on the radar. Which so far has picked up nothing but noise.”

She pulled out a sheet of paper and slid it across the table. San Diego PD fax sheet, an enlargement of Grant’s driver’s license in the center. “Real big teddy bear.”

Milo peered at the photo. His neck muscles corded as he handed the paper to me.

Moses Grant had smiled for the DMV camera. Round dark face. Shaved head, barbered mustache, and goatee.

Six six, a wishful-thinking two fifty.

The giant who’d exited the Hummer at Mary Whitbread’s place.

Oh, here’s my son.

That’s her kid? I love this city.

Milo told Petra.

She said, “Grant’s mommy was Patty’s landlord? Everywhere this woman moves has some kind of hidden meaning?”

I said, “We assumed Grant was Mary Whitbread’s son because he was the only one who got out of the car. What if he was driving someone else who decided to stay out of sight? The Hummer’s windows were tinted black, no way to know who was riding.”

Milo said, “Lester Jordan was still alive then, but not for long. Mary Whitbread was the last person we spoke to about Patty. Soon after, Jordan’s dead.”

Petra took back the sheet. “Whitbread’s son is Robert Fisk? Grant hangs with Fisk, doing the club scene, drives for him. Fisk’s mommy tells him something about Patty that gets him worried so he takes care of business…meaning the second guy in the apartment could be Grant. Though why Jordan would let him in, I don’t know. Unless Grant really wasn’t a clean-living teddy bear.”

She laughed. “Know a judge who’d sign a warrant based on that? Not that I’ve got a place to search.”

I said, “There’s another candidate for Mary’s son. Blaise De Paine, the Music Sampler. Fisk and Grant were De Paine’s sidemen. I found pictures of him on the Web. He’s fair-haired like Whitbread. Dresses flamboyantly and parties with beautiful people, which makes him a good fit for flashy wheels.”

“Let’s have a look at this sweetheart,” said Petra.

We headed to my office. I downloaded the images.

Petra said, “Looks like a kid playing dress-up…kind of a retro Sergeant Pepper thing going. Not that I’m old enough to remember…Mary Whitbread, huh? ‘Pain’ is ‘bread’ in French.”


Milo studied Blaise De Paine’s poses. “Guy doesn’t dress, he costumes…a poseur. Which is Gallic for ‘bullshit artist.’”

“Pretentious and a thief,” I said. “Wonder what else he’s hiding.”


Petra used her LAPD password to log onto NCIC.

The system bounced back two felons named Whitbread: Francis Arthur, male Caucasian, seventy-eight years old, paroled from a twenty-year bank-robbery sentence forty-nine months ago and living in Lawrence, Kansas. Jerry Lee, male American Indian, fifty-two, serving the second half of an eighteen-year armed-robbery stretch at North Dakota State Penitentiary.

An auto check pulled up Mary Whitbread’s license and that of Peterson Ewan Whitbread, issued four years ago, living at the same address on Fourth Street. Peterson’s DOB made him twenty-eight years old. Five seven, one thirty, blond and blue.

Four years ago, he’d worn his hair long and lank. Half-shut eyes shouted boredom. Minus mascara, the spike-do, and club duds, just another bland baby-face aiming at sullen.

Petra said, “Peterson Whitbread ain’t too hip-hop a moniker, I can see why he’d reinvent. Still bunking with Mommy at twenty-four wouldn’t be good for the image, either.”

I said, “One of Robin’s sources thinks he lives on one of the bird streets.”

“Business must be good. Which bird?”

“Don’t know.”

“Who’s the source?”

“No one reliable.” I filled them in.

Petra leaned in closer to the screen. “He’s got on mascara…looks like nail polish, too. The albino Michael Jackson.” Sitting back. “A little showy guy like this would definitely use hired help for muscle. But if he did contract Lester Jordan’s murder because of something related to Patty, the motive has to stretch back to when Patty was taking care of Jordan. That would make Bread-Head anywhere from ten to sixteen.”

Milo said, “Adolescence is just temporary psychopathy, right?”

“Sometimes permanent,” she said. “So what kind of link between a bad-boy teen and a solid-citizen nurse would be worth killing over?”

“The only thing I can see connecting a punk, a junkie, and a nurse is you-know-what.”

She said, “If Patty did get involved with a felonious punk and peddled dope, why would she rent an apartment, years later, from the punk’s mommy?”

I said, “Maybe the terrible thing happened after she moved to Fourth.”

“Then what was Jordan’s connection?”

“Just because she wasn’t Jordan’s neighbor doesn’t mean she broke off contact with him.”

“An enduring relationship? Okay, fine. But let’s not forget that Isaac found no homicides on or near Fourth during the time Patty lived there.”

“Isaac’s having second thoughts.” I switched to my mailbox and downloaded the e-mail from Bangkok.

She read the letter. “That’s the high IQ talking, he’s never satisfied. But let’s go there for a sec, assume Patty’s big iniquity went down on or near Fourth but fell short of murder. So what, she exaggerated to Tanya because she was terminal, and impaired? And how would knowledge of a noncapital crime lead to Jordan getting killed?”

I said, “Maybe what Patty meant by killing someone was she supplied him with dope that killed him.”

“Her dealing wasn’t limited to her private patient? Yeah, that would make her a bad girl.”

She and Milo looked at me.

I said, “Take it wherever it goes.”

Petra said, “Now I have to. Back to Bread-Head. This is a guy who steals music for a living and maybe peddles dope. He can’t be too worried about some juvey misstep more than a decade ago.”

“What if a murder was committed?” I said. “Something that was never reported and that’s why Isaac didn’t pick it up. Patty didn’t participate directly but she conspired in a hush-up and it ate at her for years.”

Milo said, “Before I’m willing to give her that pass, let’s see if her gun matches the slugs dug out of Leland Armbruster.”

Petra swiveled away from the screen. “Guys, this is starting to sound like a Pick One From Column A situation with nothing on the menu that looks fresh. What I need is concrete evidence of a link between the participants.”

I said, “What if the friends who brought Moses Grant into the E.R. were Whitbread/De Paine and Robert Fisk? Patty recognized De Paine from her time on Fourth. That exhumed her guilt. Shortly after that, she became ill, started to obsess about the road not taken, was driven to stir things up. For all we know, De Paine recognized Patty, too. It shook him and he laid low. Then we came around talking about the past and his anxieties reignited.”

“Mommy told him you were asking about Patty?” she said. “But how does Jordan figure in?”

“Maybe Jordan was a participant in whatever happened and she knew it. De Paine was worried he couldn’t be counted on to keep his mouth shut.”

Milo said, “All these years he kept it shut.”

“Don’t know,” I said, “but if De Paine was doing business with Jordan, it explains the crime scene. Jordan let De Paine in and De Paine unlocked the rear window and let Fisk in. Or maybe De Paine did it himself and had Fisk along for support. Jordan nodding off heavily would’ve been an easy kill.”

Petra crossed her legs, rubbed an ankle. “De Paine’s that calculating but he doesn’t take Jordan’s dope?”

Milo said, “He’s smart enough to be careful.”

“Seems to me,” she said, “taking the drugs would’ve been smart, Milo. Easy misdirect to a heroin robbery.”

I said, “But that ran the risk of leading us back to Jordan’s supplier. Who could be De Paine.”

“So how does all this fit with Patty’s housing pattern? I understand her going from Jordan’s caretaker to the old man’s live-in nurse with a double in salary. But the same question remains: If she knew De Paine had been involved in a serious felony, why would she be his mother’s tenant? I realize she stayed less than a year but that’s still a long time to expose your kid to a super-bad influence.”

I had no answer.

Petra got up and fetched herself another cup of coffee. Milo phoned Rick and said, “Don’t wait up.”

When she returned, they settled next to each other on my leather couch.

Petra laughed.

He said, “What?”

“We look like patients-marital counseling or something.” She pressed her knees together, put on an exaggerated scowl. “Doc, I’ve tried to make the relationship work but he just won’t communicate.”

Milo said, “Nag nag nag.”

I said, “Time’s up, I’ll send a bill.”

Their smiles didn’t last long.

Milo said, “De Paine seems to be the glue in all this. He had to know Patty from when she lived on his block and he hangs with Robert Fisk.”

I said, “Let’s turn it another way. Patty didn’t know De Paine before she lived on his block. Lester Jordan knew both of them, but Patty wasn’t aware of it until later.”

“Then how’d Patty get to be Mary Whitbread’s tenant? Jordan referred her? Why would she take housing tips from a junkie?”

“Maybe she knew him as more than that.”

“They were buds?”

“She was a compassionate nurse, saw Jordan’s humanity,” I said. “After she moved out, they maintained communication.”

Petra said, “Or continued to do business.”

“That, too,” I admitted. “There’s another way Patty might’ve learned about the rental on Fourth. What if Myron Bedard helped her find new lodgings?”

“Why would he do that?”

“She’d taken good care of his father.”

“Benevolent Rich Guy?” she said. “What’s his link to Whitbread? And how does that tie De Paine to Jordan?”

“The Bedards own property,” I said. “Could be Myron owned Whitbread’s duplex back then. Or some neighboring apartments. Or he was connected to Mary Whitbread in another way. Iona said he was a philanderer. Mary’s an attractive woman. Ten years ago she wouldn’t have looked any worse.”

“Myron had a girlfriend,” Petra singsonged. “Killed two birds by sending her a tenant and easing his own guilt about evicting a single mom and her cute little kid?”

She turned to Milo.

He said, “It’s as good as anything else.”

“Teenage punk hooks up with a junkie who just happens to be the brother-in-law of his mommy’s sugar daddy?”

I said, “What do men talk to their mistresses about?”

She said, “My wife doesn’t understand me.”

“In Bedard’s case, my wife doesn’t understand me and she saddles me with a useless junkie brother-in-law. If Peterson Whitbread was a precocious teen criminal with a foot in the drug world, hearing that would’ve sparked his interest. He made contact with Jordan, the two of them ended up doing business. It’s possible Patty didn’t know about the connection when she moved to Mary’s building. She thought she was stepping up in the world, to a nice spacious duplex. Instead, she somehow got involved in a crime that involved the landlady’s son and Jordan.”

Milo said, “Patty told Tanya she killed a neighbor. Nothing comes up on or near Fourth.”

“What she actually said was a man ‘close by.’ Cherokee, Hudson, and Fourth span a wide range socioeconomically, but geographically, they’re spaced pretty closely.”

I pulled a Thomas Guide from my bookshelf, thumbed to a page, drew three red dots, passed the book to Petra.

She said, “Yeah, they are close…so we’d need to expand the geographical profile to what-all of Hollywood and Mid-Wilshire? Great.”

“But if I’m right about the crime occurring when Patty lived on Fourth it narrows the time frame to less than one year. It would also explain why Patty didn’t stay at Fourth very long. She’d done or seen something terrible and wanted out.”

“If she was that freaked out, why didn’t she leave town completely?”

“Maybe it wasn’t a matter of personal safety, just guilt-wanting to get away psychologically.”

The look that passed between them resonated. Predictably shrinky.

Milo said, “What if encountering Whitbread in the E.R. was more than bad reminiscence. Suppose he made a threatening remark to Patty.”

“How’s your little daughter doing, wink wink,” said Petra. “But why wouldn’t Patty report that immediately? Or use her little.22?” To Milo: “Find out yet when she registered it?”

“She didn’t.”

“By the time of the E.R. visit she was terminally ill,” I said.

“Even better,” she said. “She knows she’s going to die. If she’s nervous about Whitbread hurting Tanya, why not find him and go boom?”

I said, “You haven’t been able to locate him. Why would she have better luck?”

“All those years of keeping mum and all of a sudden he’s threatening her?”

“Maybe there was no overt threat, just a subtle remark that preyed on Patty’s mind. She had a special kind of mind. Obsessive, a brain racing nonstop. She learned to control it, some people do. But the tendencies remain and stress brings them out. Add cognitive problems due to her disease and there’s no telling how she’d process.”

Petra chewed her lip. “My brain’s ready for a pit stop…her place on Culver Boulevard isn’t that far from the other three places-what, five miles southwest?”

I said, “It’s a whole other page on the map. Literally and figuratively. More important, it had no link to the Bedards. She was out to disentangle herself.”

She closed the Thomas Guide. “One easy thing I can do tomorrow is find out who owned Whitbread’s building back then. Myron’s name shows up on the deed, I’m a little more receptive.” She grimaced. “She’s going to love that.”


“Cruella. Much as it pains me to admit it, she was right. Finding and talking to her ex is a must-do. But if she calls me young lady again in that tone, I bitch-slap her to Canada.”

We played with the computer for another hour, trying with no success to learn more about Moses Grant and Peterson Whitbread aka Blaise De Paine.

Petra said, “Boys, my eyes are crossing, let’s kick it in.”

I said, “One question: Tanya’s danger level.”

“If you’re right about Peterson threatening Patty because of some deep dark secret, it’s significant. How’s her home security situation?”

Milo said, “Decent. I gave her the lecture and she seemed to get it. I also did a few pass-throughs on her street. Nothing iffy, so far.”

“Nineteen years old and living alone,” said Petra. “Don’t know how I’d handle that. What exactly does she know about all of this?”

I said, “We told her about Jordan’s murder. She wanted to know if it was linked to her mother and we said there was no direct evidence of that.”

“She bought it?”


“Well,” she said, “if what we’ve tossed around tonight is remotely right-on, you’re not going to be able to sell that story too much longer…you’re seeing her in therapy, Alex?”

“No regular sessions, on an as-needed basis. How much do I tell her?”

Petra looked at Milo.

He said, “It’s your homicide, Detective Connor.”

“Hmm,” she said. “I wouldn’t want her knowing every investigative detail but she needs to understand enough not to be careless. Is there some other place she can live if she has to?”

“She has no other family,” I said. “Claims she has friends.”

“Claims? You think she’s lying?”

“She says she studies with other students but she’s never talked about any purely social relationships. And there’s nothing in her home that smacks of college life.”

“Sounds old before her time. Losing a parent can do that to you. You’re wondering if the dam’s going to break?”

“I’m keeping an eye on the water level.”

“She’s got one relationship,” said Milo. “Kyle Bedard tracked her down in Facebook, claimed he got curious after we talked to him about when Tanya and Patty lived in his grandfather’s house. We warned her about getting too involved, but you know kids.”

“Think he’s stalking her for an unhealthy reason?”

“Probably not, but who knows? That a fair assessment, Alex?”

I nodded.

“Another Bedard entanglement,” said Petra. “Alex, maybe you should guide her away from him. Somehow get it across that this family seems to wrap its tentacles around everything.”

“But give her no investigative details.”

She exhaled and fooled with her hair. “We do have a moral duty to protect her but scaring the hell out of her for nothing can’t be good for her mental health. Can she be trusted not to leak to Kyle or anyone else?”

“I think so.”

“Then follow your instincts.”

Milo said, “While you’re talking to her, maybe you can find out if she’s got any memories of Blaise De Paine.”

“Will do.”

Petra stood and rotated her neck. “Walk me to my chariot, gents.”

The next morning at nine, I left a message for Tanya to call.

By one p.m. I still hadn’t heard back. At ten after Milo phoned.

“Finally a bingo. When Patty moved into the duplex on Fourth, Mary Whitbread owned it, along with Whitbread’s own building and two others nearby. But two years before, all the properties had been owned by the Bedard family trust.”

“Myron sold them to her?”

“The trust did. The trustees were the old man and Myron.”

“Did she get a bargain price?”

“Sweet deal for the mistress? I’m no expert but the numbers don’t seem deflated, maybe Mary had her own source of dough. Your guess about Myron sending Patty over there is looking better. The other monumental finding is that the bullets excised from Leland Armbruster’s corpse did not match Patty’s gun.”

“Small blessing.”

He said, “Raul and Petra got in early to track Myron down in Europe. So far, zippo. The final autopsy results on Lester Jordan aren’t too profound: method of death, strangulation, mode of death, homicide. Robert Fisk still hasn’t surfaced and Petra can’t find current addresses on Blaise De Paine or Moses Grant. But, hey, if life was too easy, we’d start thinking we were more than apes with thin pelts.”

“No intelligent design for you?”

“Not when I read the newspaper.”

“Blaise De Paine is potentially accessible,” I said. “We know his mom.”

“Petra’s view on that-and I agree-is that revisiting Mary Whitbread right now would sound too many alarms and raise the risk of another vanishing felon. What I came up with is back-tracing the Hummer to an address, it’s not a common vehicle. There’s no such beast registered to De Paine or Peterson Whitbread, but he could be using another aka. I’m waiting for DMV to fax me a list of all Hummer registrations. In the meantime, I’ve been calling around at dealers, no luck, yet. Seeing as De Paine likes to make an impression, I wondered if it could be a rental and started with the Budget lot in Beverly Hills because they do all sorts of thrills-for-a-day, a couple of birthdays ago I rented Rick a Lamborghini. Gave him a backache, but that’s another story. Unfortunately, the only black Hummer on their lot has been on long-term loan to a film outfit. The other three are silver, red, and there’s a yellow convertible, talk about tasteful. I’m about to call Hertz.”

“The yellow one sounds right for your next birthday.”

“Oh, sure,” he said. “Rhino drives a Bumblebee.”

When Tanya hadn’t gotten back by three, I tried her again.

“Oh. Hi.” Soft voice, tense.

“Bad time?”

“No…I was actually going to call you. Mr. Fineman-Mommy’s accountant-asked me to look for some tax records and I found something in the bottom of the drawer.”


“Um-I’m not sure what it means. Can I show it to you?”

“Of course. One thing you should know: Your mother’s gun doesn’t match to any known crime and has been ruled out in the case we told you about.”

“That’s great,” she said. All the emotion of a cyborg.

“Everything okay, Tanya?”

“Yes…I was planning to leave for campus at five. I could drop by before then. If you’re not busy.”

“I’ll be waiting.”

“Is four thirty okay?”


She clicked off midway through my good-bye.


She arrived five minutes early, clutching a padded envelope. Gray knit gloves sheathed her hands though the weather was mild.

In the office, she tore the envelope flap, pulling out a photo and a sheet of lined paper folded twice over.

The snapshot showed Patty and Lester Jordan standing next to each other in the dirty-custard space that was Jordan’s living room. His hair was dark, wispy, and plastered to his skull. His eyes bagged, his legs bowed. A gray sweatshirt provided bulk that fooled no one.

Patty’s stocky body tilted toward Jordan, as if she was ready to break his fall.

Tanya unfolded the lined paper and handed it to me. The creases were grubby and the edges were fuzzy. A note in blue ballpoint printing read:

To the alleged Florence nightingale: I’m giving this back to you because you don’t give a damn. I don’t know why you think it’s professionally ok to do what you did. The old bastard’s rich, he can get anyone to change his diapers but who’s going to walk me around and wake-shake if I need that? I can understand others being manipulated by that a-hole’s $$$$$ but why you, Pat? You always said $$$$$ wasn’t a big deal to you. You always said honesty was everything, Pat. Obviously, all that talk about honesty was just the usual bullshit like what they shovel in all those fucking rehabs. Don’t get me wrong, Pat, I’m not p.o.’d, I’m HURT. Capital H. And you know where that leads with me, Pat. What else am I supposed to do, Pat? And whose fault will it be if I fall hard, Pat?

Enjoy the rest of your life.


Tanya said, “He says he’s not mad but that’s rage. Do you believe his arrogance? ‘Wake and shake’? She got him through an overdose, probably saved his life, so instead of being grateful, he guilt-trips her? And that last part-‘You know where that leads with me.’ He’s threatening to O.D. again, right? Implying it’ll be her fault. How does someone get so entitled!”

I said, “That’s an addict focusing on his own needs.”

“He probably became an addict because he was selfish. And weak. All those people who can’t hold it together.”

Her cheeks were ripe cherries. Her shoulders had bunched so sharply that her lapel rode up around her ears. She shook loose a torrent of hair, grabbed a handful, and twisted.

I sat down, motioned for her to do the same. She didn’t move, finally plopped on the couch.

“She did take excellent care of him,” I said. “That’s the reason Kyle’s father wanted her to care for his father.”

“The ‘A-hole with money.’ Wasn’t it his right to spend his money any way he wants? The colonel was dying, Dr. Delaware. Caring for him was good use of Mommy’s time.”

“Jordan wasn’t.”

“Look how he treated her, Dr. Delaware. You can’t call that rant rational. I don’t care what his problems were, there was no excuse. It’s not like he and Mommy were best friends. After seeing the picture, I vaguely remember seeing him-didn’t even know his name. Kyle barely knew him. Jordan lucked out by having a highly skilled nurse as a neighbor. When it was time to move on, he should’ve thanked her, not threatened to mess himself up.”

She slapped her knees. “I’m just so tired of people not being fair.”

I said, “You’re right. He should’ve been grateful.”

“After all she did for him, from the bottom of her heart.”

“Your mother was one of the kindest people I’ve ever met but we have learned that she got paid to look after Jordan.”

“How do you know that?”

“Kyle’s mother told us.”


“You know her?”

“Kyle told me what an incredibly self-centered person she is, never had time for him. Maybe it runs on that side of the family.”

More hair-pulling. “Okay, she got paid. Why not? But that doesn’t change things. It was Mommy’s right to move on.”

“Of course it was,” I said. “So you and Kyle have been talking regularly.”

“We hung out on campus a couple of times and yesterday we went to Coffee Bean. And I did ask him about Jordan but like I said, he barely knew him.”

“Has he seen the note and the photo?”

“No. Do I have to keep it a secret?”

“For the time being, that might be a good idea. How does Kyle feel about his father?”

“He’s okay with him. Why?”

“The detective investigating Jordan’s murder wants to talk to any extended family she can find. She’s been looking for Myron Bedard but hasn’t been able to locate him. Supposedly, he’s in Europe.”

“He is,” she said. “Paris. He called Kyle yesterday, offered to fly Kyle over, but Kyle’s too busy with his dissertation. Why does the detective want to speak to extended family?”

“That’s often where an investigation starts.”

“I thought this was a drug murder.”

“No one’s sure what it is, Tanya.”

She let out a long breath. “So she got paid. Why should she donate her time?”

“I didn’t want to upset you-”

“You didn’t. I appreciate the honesty. It means you respect my intelligence.”

She got up and paced the office. Tried to straighten a picture that was waxed in place, sat and jabbed a finger at the photo. “What I don’t get is why would she keep it all these years?”

“Maybe it meant something to her.”

“You’re saying she did feel guilty?”

“No, but she was a compassionate person,” I said. “Jordan’s pain could’ve touched her.”

“I guess…I’m so angry. It’s not a feeling I’m used to. I don’t like it.”

She buried her face in her hands. Looked up. “They’re coming back-my symptoms. I feel like I’m losing control. The house is so quiet at night, it’s worse than noise, I can’t sleep. Last night I fooled with my curtains for half an hour and then I washed my hands till they got like this.”

Tearing off a glove, she showed me knuckles rubbed raw.

I said, “We can work on all that.”

“Can or should?”



“How do you feel about hypnosis?”

“I’ve never really thought about it.”

“It’s basically deep relaxation and focused concentration. You’d be good at it.”

“I would? Why?”

“You’re intelligent.”

“I’m suggestible?”

I said, “All hypnosis is self-hypnosis. Receptivity is a skill that gets better with practice. Smart, creative people do the best because they’re comfortable being imaginative. I think it’s a good choice for you right now because you can get some quick results and go back to the excellent progress you made when you were a kid.”

No answer.


“If you say so.”

I began with rhythmic, deep breathing. After the third exhalation, she opened her eyes. “Where’s Blanche?”

“Sleeping in her crate.”


“Hold on.” I fetched the dog, placed her on the couch next to Tanya. Tanya stroked the top of her head. We resumed the breathing exercise. Within moments, Tanya’s body had started to loosen and Blanche was asleep, flews puffing and fluttering.

I counted backward from a hundred, using my induction monotone. Matched the rhythm of my voice to Blanche’s snorts. By seventy-four, Tanya’s lips had parted and her hands were still. I began inserting suggestions. Framing cues for each breath as an opportunity to relax.

At twenty-six, the light on my phone blinked.

I said, “Go deeper and deeper.”

Tanya slumped. With the tension gone, she looked like a child.

So far, so good. If I didn’t think too hard about the larger issues.

When an hour had passed, I gave her posthypnotic instructions for practice and prolonged relaxation and brought her out.

It took several tries for her eyes to stay open. “I feel…amazing…thank you. Was I hypnotized?”

“You were.”

“It didn’t feel…that strange. I wasn’t sure I could do it.”

“You’re a natural.”

Tanya yawned. Blanche followed suit. Tanya laughed, stretched, got to her feet. “Maybe one day you can hypnotize me to study better.”

“Having problems concentrating?”

“No,” she said quickly. “Not at all. I was kidding.”

“Actually,” I said, “being relaxed would help with exams.”



“Okay, I’ll remember that.” She reached into her bag. “I’ll practice every day-you did say something about that, right?”

“I did.”

“It’s a little…odd. I’m looking right at you but you’re…close and distant at the same time. And I can still hear your voice in the back of my head. What else did you tell me to do?”

“Nothing else,” I said. “You’re in control, not me.”

She rummaged in her purse. “Hmm…I know I’ve got a check here…”

“When would you like to come back?”

“Can I call you?” Extracting a white envelope, she placed it on the desk. “Signed and ready to go.” Her eyes shifted to Jordan’s letter and the photo. “You can keep them, I don’t want them.”

“I’ll pass them along to Lieutenant Sturgis.”

She stiffened. “Mommy helped him with his addiction, I don’t see how that would relate to his murder.”

“I don’t, either, but he might as well keep all the data. I would like to schedule another session, Tanya.”

“You really think so?”

“If money’s an issue-”

“No, not at all, I’m doing great in that department, have kept right on budget.”


“Dr. Delaware, I appreciate everything you’ve done-are still doing for me. I just don’t want to be too dependent.”

“I don’t see you as dependent, at all.”

“I’m here, again.”

“Tanya, how many nineteen-year-olds could do what you’re doing?”

“I’m almost twenty,” she said. “Sorry, thanks for the compliment. It’s just that…look at Jordan. All that rage because he couldn’t shake his dependency. Mommy taught me the importance of taking care of myself. I am not going to be one of them.”


“Weak, self-pitying people. I can’t afford to be that way.”

“I understand. But all I see is someone smart enough to ask for help when she needs it.”

“Thank you…I really feel I’m okay, what we did today was amazingly helpful.” She shook her arms to demonstrate. “Rubber girl. I’ll practice. If I forget something, I’ll get right in touch.”

I didn’t answer.

“I promise,” she said. “Okay?”


At the front door, she said, “Thanks for trusting me, Dr. Delaware. No need to walk me down.”

I watched her descend to her van. She never looked back.

Monday, the blinking light was a message from my service. Detective Sturgis had phoned.

I told Milo about Lester Jordan’s angry missive.

He said, “So the guy was an asshole, we saw that in person.”

“Maybe it clarifies things. From the note it’s clear that Patty helped him through an O.D., but there was no hint she supplied him with anything other than TLC.”

He said, “Great. Meanwhile, the hills are alive with the sound of suspects. I located a three-year-old black Hummer registered to Quick-Kut Music, address on the fourteen hundred block of Oriole Drive. I’m meeting Petra in an hour at Sunset and Doheny-near Gil Turner’s liquor store. Come fly with us, if you’re so inclined.”

The bird streets worm their way into the hills above the Strip, just east of Trousdale Estates, skinny, sinuous, haphazardly paved feats of engineering.

Mockingbird, Warbler, Thrasher, Skylark, Tanager.

Blue Jay Way, where George Harrison sat alone in a rental house, waiting for a press agent who’d made a wrong turn, staring out at a vast table of city shrouded by night and fog.

Easy to lose your way up there. Random cul-de-sacs and no-warning dead ends say someone in the city planner’s office had enjoyed playing darts. Grades are treacherous and jogging’s a life-threatening procedure due to the lack of sidewalks, Porsches and Ferraris buzzing the curb. The houses, many of them hidden behind hedges and walls, range from Palladian palaces to no-style boxes. They butt up against each other like rush-hour straphangers, teeter over the street. Squint a certain way on the bird streets and the hills seem to be trembling even when the ground is still.

The good part is heart-stopping views, some of the best in L.A., and seven- to eight-figure property values.

A twenty-eight-year-old music thief would need a serious income supplement to swing it and the obvious answer was dope. Despite that, I meant what I’d told Milo about Patty not being involved in the dope trade. Jordan’s note was personal-rage at losing an emotional safety net, not concern about being cut off from his supply.

Patty’s sin had been doing her job too well.

Yet she’d committed another iniquity, something serious enough to haunt her for years. And Lester Jordan had probably died because of it.

When I got to the liquor store, Milo stepped out of his unmarked, unfolding a map and wondering out loud if the topography of Oriole Drive allowed a decent vantage spot. Taking the padded envelope without comment, he dropped it onto the passenger seat and returned to the map.

Petra drove up in her Accord.

The two of them studied the street grid, decided to park at the bottom of Oriole and walk. Petra’s car would be the transport vehicle because it was unobtrusive.

“Not cool enough to be a local,” she said, tapping the hood, “but maybe they’ll think I’m a personal assistant.”

She drove north on Doheny Drive, used her stick shift to keep it smooth.

Milo said, “Nice gear-work, Detective Connor.”

“Had to drive better than my brothers.”

“For self-esteem?”


Every second property seemed to be under construction or renovation, and the side effects abounded: dust, din, workers darting across the road, gouges in the asphalt inflicted by heavy machinery.

As we climbed, the houses got smaller and plainer, some of the punier ones obviously subdivides of old estates. Oriole Drive began with the thirteen hundred block. We parked at the base and began a steep upward hike.

Petra’s long, lean legs were made for climbing and my self-punishing runs made the grade no big challenge. But Milo was panting and trying hard to hide it.

Petra kept an eye on him. He forged ahead of us. Wheezed, “You…know…CPR?”

She said, “Took a refresher last year but don’t you dare, Lieutenant.”

Glancing at me. I threw up my hands.

The scrape-scrape of his desert boots became our marching cadence.

A No Outlet sign appeared at the advent of the fourteen hundred block.

Fourteen sixty-two meant the top of the hill or close to it.

Milo gasped, “Oh, great.” Rubbed his lower back and trudged.

We passed a huge white contemporary house, then several plain-faced fifties boxes. What the Orwellian dialect known as Realtor-Speak would euphemize as “midcentury charmers.”

The part about “drop-dead views” would be righteous.

Milo pressed forward. Mopping his face with a handkerchief, he sucked in air and pointed.

Empty space where 1462 should’ve been.

What remained was a flat patch of brown dirt not much bigger than a trailer pad and surrounded by chain link. The gate was open. A construction permit packet hung on the fence.

A man stood at the far end of the lot, a few feet from the precipice, staring out at smoggy panorama.

Milo and Petra checked nearby vehicles. The closest was a gold BMW 740, parked at the crown of the cul-de-sac.

“Car’s not much bigger than the property,” he said. “L.A. affluence.”

Petra said, “That’s why I don’t paint landscapes.”

Unmindful of us, the man lit a cigarette, gazed, and smoked.

Milo coughed.

The man turned.

Petra waved.

The man didn’t return the gesture.

We walked onto the lot.

He lowered his cigarette and watched us.

Early forties, five eight or nine, with heavy shoulders, bulky arms and thighs, and a hard, round belly. A square, swarthy face was bottomed by an oversized chin. He wore a pale blue dress shirt with French cuffs, chunky gold cufflinks shaped like jet planes, sharply creased navy slacks, black croc loafers grayed by dust. The top button of the shirt was undone. Gray chest hair bristled and a gold chain nestled in the pelt. A thin red string circled his right wrist. A beeper and a cell phone hung from his waistband.

Wraparound Ray-Bans blocked the windows to his soul. The rest of his face was a tight mask of distrust.

“This is private property. If you want a free view, go to Mulhol-land.”

Petra flashed the badge.

“Police? What, he’s gone crazy?”

“Who, sir?”

“Him. Troupe, the lawyer.” Cocking his head toward the house to the south. “I keep telling him, all the permits are in order, there’s nothing you gonna do about it.”

Some kind of accent-familiar but I couldn’t place it.

“Now, what, he’s again yelling about the noise? We graded a week ago, how can you grade without noise?”

“We’re not here about that, Mr…”

“Avi Benezra. Then what do you want?”

I got the accent. A few years ago, we’d worked with an Israeli police superintendent named Daniel Sharavi. Benezra’s inflections were harsher, but similar.

Petra said, “We’re looking for the residents of 1462.”

Benezra removed his glasses, revealed soft, hazel eyes, squinting in amusement. “Ha, ha. Very funny.”

“Wish we were trying to be, sir.”

“The residents? Maybe worms and bugs.” Benezra laughed. “Who’s your intelligence source? The CIA?”

“How long has the house been gone, sir?”

“A year.” Thumb curl toward the neighboring house. “Troupe had quiet for a year so he got spoiled.”

“Fussy guy?”

“Fussy asshole,” said Benezra. “A lawyer.”

“Is he home?”

Avi Benezra said, “Never home. That’s why he’s crazy to complain. Maybe you can tell him to stop bothering me. You know why he’s mad? He wanted to buy it, put a pool on it. But he didn’t want to pay what it’s worth. Now I don’t wanna sell. Gonna build for myself. Why not?” He waved at the view. “It’s gonna be something, all glass, views to Palos Verdes.”

“Gorgeous,” said Petra.

“It’s what I do,” said Benezra. “I build, I’m a builder. Why not finally for me?”

“So you tore down the house a year ago?”

“No, no, no, a year ago is empty. I tore down five months ago and right away he’s driving me nuts, that bastard, complain to the zoning board, the mayor.” Spiraling a finger toward his temple. “Finally, I get the okay.”

“How long have you owned the property, Mr. Benezra?”

Benezra grinned. “You interested in buying?”

“I wish.”

“I buy five years ago, house was a piece of crap but that!” Another flourish at the view.

He smoked, shaded his eyes with his hand, gazed up at a jetliner climbing from Inglewood. “I’m gonna use as much glass as they let me with the new energy rules. I just finished building a gorgeous Mediterranean on Angelo Drive, nine thousand square feet, marble, granite, home theater, I’m ready to sell. Then my wife decides she wants to live in it. Okay, why not? Then, I get divorce and she gets the house. What, I should fight?”

“Have you ever rented to a man named Blaise De Paine?”

“Oh, boy,” said Benezra. “That one. Yeah, he was the last.”

“Problem tenant?”

“You call trashing every room and not paying a problem? To me, that’s a problem. My fault. I broke the rules, got clucked.”

Petra said, “Clucked?”

“I’m talking polite to a lady.”

She laughed. “Which rules did you break?”

“Avi’s rules. Two months in advance, plus damage deposit up front. Him I let go one month, no deposit. Stupid, I shoulda known better, the way he looked.”

“How’d he look?”

“Rock and roll,” said Benezra. “The hair, you know. But he was recommended.”

“By who?”

Benezra put his shades back on. “A guy.”

“Which guy, sir?”

“This is important?”

“It might be.”

“What’d he do?”

“Who referred him?” said Petra.

“Listen,” said Benezra, “I don’t want no problems.”

“If you haven’t done anything-”

“I didn’t do nothing. But this guy who referred him, he’s a little famous, you know?”

“Who, sir?”

“I don’t know nothing about his problems.”

“Whose problems, sir?”

Benezra sniffed the air, smoked greedily. “What I hired him for was legal. What he did for other people, I don’t wanna know.”

“Sir,” said Petra, “who are we talking about?”

“A guy I hired.”

“To do what?”

“Watch the wife. She wants the house on Angelo, nine thousand square feet, she can roll around in it, fine, okay. She wants the jewelry, okay. But my boat? Properties I had before I met her? Very very very not okay. I knew what she was doing with you-know-who, maybe this guy can prove it, she don’t get too pushy.”

“We’ve got no-fault divorce in California.”

“That’s the official stuff,” said Benezra. “But she got the fancy friends, the fund-raisers, lunch at Spago. Not gonna look good everyone knows she’s not so perfect. I hired him to get the evidence.”

“We’re talking a private investigator.”


“Because your wife…”

“You’re a woman. What do you think she did?”

“Slept around?”

“Not around. One guy, her eye doctor.” Tapping a black lens. “I pay ten thousand for LASIK so she don’t have to wear contact lenses, no more itchy itchy. She pay me back by getting another kinda treatment.” Chuckling.

“It’s good you can laugh about it,” said Petra.

“What, I should get an ulcer?”

“What’s the name of the private detective?”

“The famous one,” said Benezra. “Fortuno.”

“Mario Fortuno.”

“Yeah. He still in jail?”

“As far as I’ve heard, sir.”

“Good. He took my money, did nothing. The other stuff, I have no idea.”

“Did Fortuno say how he knew Blaise De Paine?”

Benezra ticked a finger. “A friend of a friend of a friend of a friend. ‘But he’s okay, Avi, trust me.’” He laughed louder. “Maybe I missed one of the friends.”

“What else did Fortuno tell you about De Paine?”

“Nothing else, I was stupid, but I figured a guy like that, he’s working for me, why would he cluck me? I even gave discount rent because the place was crap, it was gonna get tear-down soon.” Swiveling back toward the view. “Lookit that.”

Petra showed him one of the party photos taken off the Internet. “Is this the person we’re talking about?”

“That’s him. What’d he do?”

Moses Grant’s DMV shot produced a head shake. “Him I never seen. What, a gangster from Watts?”

Robert Fisk’s mug shot evoked raised eyebrows. “That one was here, seen him at least a coupla times. Maybe living here, even though the deal was only one person, we’re talking six hundred square feet, one bedroom, one bath. Used to be the garage of that bastard’s place back in the fifties, he buys two years ago, thinks everything should go back together but don’t wanna pay market. He drives me so crazy, I was going to leave green space but forget it, it’s gonna go inches from the property line.”

Petra waved Fisk’s image. “What makes you think this person was living here?”

“One time, I come for the rent, he was the only one in the house. No shirt on, crazy tattoos, doing exercises in front of the window-on a mat, you know? Judo, karate, something like that, clothes and crap all around. I try to make chat. I learned krav maga-Israeli-style karate-in the army. He said yeah, he knows it, then he shuts his eyes and goes back to breathing in and out and stretching the arms. I say sorry to bother you but what’s with the rent. He says he don’t know nothing, just visiting. Those tattoos, all over here”-touching his own chest-“and up to the neck. He’s a bad guy?”

“We’d like to talk to him. What else can you tell us about De Paine and Mario Fortuno?”

“That’s it.” Benezra looked at his watch. “I hire him to find out about her. He tells me she’s clucking the eye doctor, thank you very much, big-shot detective. That I already know because she sees twenty-twenty and she keeps making appointments.”

Shaking his head. “Thirteen thousand dollars for that, thank you very much. He should rot in jail.”

Milo said, “So he never followed through?”

“Always excuses,” said Benezra. “It takes time, Avi. We need to make sure it’s gonna be bona fide evidence, Avi. The eye doctor’s office is locked, Avi, maybe it’s gonna cost a little more, Avi.”

A wide smile nearly bisected his face. “I finally figure out I’m being clucked twice. Now I’m thinking maybe sue my divorce lawyer-he’s the one sent me to Fortuno. I call him, he tells me Fortuno ripped him off, too.”


“Hired him to write some documents, didn’t pay.”

“The lawyer’s name, please.”

“Oy,” said Benezra. “This is getting complicated. Okay, why not, I’m finished with him. Marvin Wallace, Roxbury and Wilshire.”

Benezra took a last drag of his cigarette, pinched it out, flicked it across the lot. “Always excuses for not doing the job, Fortuno. Finally he’s got a good one.”

“What’s that?” said Petra.

“The one you guys gave him. You put him in jail.”


We left Benezra worshipping his view and descended Oriole Drive.

Petra phoned Captain Stuart Bishop and filled him in, then clicked off. “He’ll make calls, but wants a meeting.”

“When?” said Milo.

“As soon as we get back to Hollywood.”


“You and me, Stu’s big on interdivisional communication.” She turned to me: “Your attendance is optional but certainly welcome. He said to thank you for helping his nephew.”

Last year the preschool-aged son of Bishop’s younger sister had been frightened by the evening news. Well-adjusted boy; a few sessions had been enough.

Confidentiality meant all I could do was smile.

Petra smiled back. “I thought you might say that.”

The captain’s office at Hollywood Division was a spare, white corner space livened by school art created by the six towheaded Bishop kids and masses of family photos. A white BYU Cougars mug shared a credenza with a case of Trader Joe’s bottled water. A window cracked two inches blew in air and heat and street noise.

Stu was a slim, closely shaven man around forty with searching gold eyes and wavy blond hair gone gray at the temples. He wore braided leather suspenders over a tapered pink shirt, a turquoise silk tie, glen plaid suit pants, glossy wingtips. A matching suit jacket hung on a bentwood rack. He reached for a water, offered us our own bottles. Milo accepted.

The son of an affluent Flintridge Mormon family, Stu had left the department while still a D III, cutting short a fast-track career to care for a wife with cancer. Kathy Bishop recovered but Stu stayed with corporate security work and occasional film consulting until he was wooed back as a captain by the new chief.

The new chief was a new golf buddy of Stu’s ophthalmologist father but few people carped. The amoral misanthrope Stu replaced had been shot to death by a jealous wife in a parking garage; three cops had attended the funeral, all out of obligation. Combine that with Stu’s street experience, his rep for backing up his colleagues, and an ability to work the brass without wholesaling his soul, and the honeymoon seemed durable.

As Stu’s former junior partner, Petra was in good shape for a promotion into administration. So far, she was sticking with detective work.

He filled his mug with water, sipped, and leaned back in his chair. “Your timing couldn’t be better, in terms of leaning on Fortuno. He’s become a person of exceptional interest to the federal government and no one wants a trivial matter like murder to get in the way. We’re not talking public knowledge but I called San Luis Obispo where he’s officially incarcerated, found out he was picked up a month ago by FBI agents and a U.S. Attorney and transferred to the downtown detention center. When I called there, I got a bunch of silence then a referral to the Feebie office at the Federal Building. A special agent I know played coy but finally let on that Fortuno’s been spending the month in a hotel at taxpayer expense.”

Milo said, “Spilling big-time.”

“I can only imagine.”

Petra said, “Thought Fortuno was into all that code of silence stuff.”

Milo said, “A little cell time can adjust your attitude.”

“You bet,” said Stu. “Assistant warden at San Luis said he bumped up against some genuine bad guys.”

Petra said, “I thought San Luis was a country club.”

“They’ve got tennis courts and dorm rooms, but it’s still prison. The idiots who kidnapped the Chowchilla school bus are up there and so’s Charleton Jennings.”

Milo said, “Cop killers get to play tennis?”

“They do after they work their way through the system for thirty years.”

Cop silence, all around.

Petra said, “Did you get any idea about who Fortuno’s going to spill on?”

“I got off-the-record semi-hints,” said Stu. “If my religion allowed me to bet, my wager would be on master manipulators of the defense attorney and showbiz honcho species.”

Milo whistled. “Straight to the top of the food chain.”

Stu said, “It’s definitely going to get interesting. Fortuno’s babysitters aren’t pleased about sharing him with us but they can’t risk us derailing them by leaking to the press. The deal is you can see him tonight at seven, one hour, no extensions. I put all three of your names down, figuring you might want Dr. D to analyze the guy.”

I said, “A hotel means a couch, why not.”

Petra said, “Which hotel?”

“Don’t know yet. Someone will call me at six and I’ll call you.”

She waved her hands. “Ooh, high intrigue.”

Stu said, “Helps federal types forget that mostly what they do is push paper.” Passing the flat of his hand over his own clean desk, he grinned. “As opposed to.”

Petra said, “Anytime you miss the gore.”

“Be careful what you ask for.” Stu stood, shrugged into his suit jacket. Smooth drape. “Got a budget meeting downtown. Talk to you at six, Petra. Good to see you guys.”

He held the door for us. As I passed through, he said, “I know you can’t say anything, but thanks again for Chad.”

Loews Beverly Hills was the usual case of Westside false advertising, located on Pico and Beverwil, half a mile south of the glitzy city. We took separate cars, parked with the valet, met in the lobby.

The same earth tones we’d seen at the Hilton.

Petra’s artist eyes picked up on it right away. “Welcome to Beige World, check your imagination at the door.”

No one paid us any attention as we crossed to the elevators. No sign of any special security, and when we were disgorged on the eleventh floor, the corridor was clear.

Petra’s knock on the door of Suite 1112 was met by silence. Then, padded footsteps. A chain held the door less than an inch ajar. Barely wide enough to see the expanding pupil of a light brown eye.

“I.D.,” said a boyish voice.

Petra showed her badge.


Milo flashed his credentials. My snap-on badge produced a “What’s that?” but no comment on the expiration date.

“Dr. Delaware is our behavioral consultant,” said Petra.

“This isn’t a profile case,” said the voice.

Another voice, from behind, shouted, “Let ’em in, I’m lonely.”

The door slammed shut. Muffled voices rose in pitch, then silenced.

We stood in the hall.

Milo said, “Shoulda brought my Aston Martin with the ejection seat, shot myself right through the goddamn win-”

The door opened wide. A young sandy-haired man in a gray suit, white shirt, and blue tie said, “Special Agent Wesley Wanamaker.” His face matched the boyish voice. He took another look at our I.D.’s, finally stepped back.

Two-bedroom suite, with nary a hue brighter than ecru. Ambiguous art dotted easy-care walls. Blackout drapes killed an eastern view Avi Benezra would’ve appreciated. The air was saturated with pizza and sweat. A greasy Domino box sat on an end table.

A pale, white-haired man waved from a stiff beige couch in the center of the living room. Sixty or so, narrow shoulders, widow’s hump bristling the hairs on the back of his neck. He wore a black cashmere V-neck, cream slacks that looked new, black Gucci loafers without socks. In his hand was a glass of something orange. As we approached, he winked at Petra and the same voice that had urged our admission said, “Long time, guys. And gal.”

Petra said, “Real long time, Mr. Fortuno. As in ever.”

Mario Fortuno said, “When you’re in love, everyone’s your friend.”

“Well then, since we’re all buddies, I’m sure you’ll be happy to tell us what we need to know about Peterson Whitbread aka-”

S.A. Wesley Wanamaker stepped between her and Fortuno. “Before we go any further, we need to get the rules straight. Mr. Fortuno is a convicted felon in custody of the FBI. As such, his movements and conversations are to be monitored at all times by the FBI. No inquiries regarding pending federal investigations will be allowed. You will have one hour to speak with Mr. Fortuno about approved topics…” Unbuttoning his coat, he drew out a pocket watch. “…three minutes of which have passed. Acknowledged?”

Yessir,” said Petra.

Behind Wanamaker’s back, Milo mouthed, “Asshole.”

When Wanamaker turned to face him, he said, “Ditto, Agent W.”

“Doctor,” said Wanamaker, “I need explicit acknowledgment from you, as well, seeing as you’re serving in the service of local law enforcement.”

“I acknowledge.”

Mario Fortuno said, “Do you believe this guy? Like I’m important.”

Wanamaker’s hand drew back his coat and revealed his shoulder weapon. Another eye flick at his watch: “Four minutes gone.”

Petra said, “May we start?”

Wanamaker stepped away. Fortuno picked his nose.

No chairs in sight, so we stood in front of him. His jaunty smile was dimmed by green-tinged jailhouse pallor. His white hair was thin, greased back, curling behind his ears. Puny, pocked chin, a bulb nose embroidered with gin blossoms. Squinty, hyperactive eyes the color of cigar ash were dragged down by pouches of skin. He fooled with his nose again, ground his index finger against his thumb.

Another lazy smile, off kilter and saurine. The offspring of a human-iguana mating.

Petra said, “Mr. Fortuno, we’re here about Peterson Whitbread aka Blaise De Paine. Please tell us everything you know about him.”

“Who says I’m cognizant of anything?” said Fortuno. Flat, mid-western inflection. Hint of emphasis on “cognizant.” As if he’d just memorized the word.

“You recommended him for tenancy at a house on Oriole Drive.”

“When was this?”

“Shortly before you went to jail.”

“Boy, my mind must be slipping.” Fortuno pointed at the pizza box. “Maybe too many carbs.”

Petra turned to Wanamaker.

He said, “Nonfederal matters don’t fall under compliance regulations.”

“Meaning,” Milo said, “he can jerk us around while you time us.”

Fortuno said, “God forbid.”

Petra said, “If you’re going to be uncooperative, Mario, let us know right now and we’re out of here.”

Fortuno tensed. Forced a smile. “A feminist.”

Petra turned heel. We followed.

When she reached the door, Fortuno said, “Ease up. There’s no free lunch.”

Milo said, “Spoken by someone getting federal babysitting at a four-star hotel.”

Wesley Wanamaker frowned.

Fortuno said, “Don’t fret, Ms. Pro-Choice. I don’t want a meal, just an amuse-bouche-that’s ‘hors d’oeuvre’ in French. And I’m not talking The Ivy or Le Dome or Hans Rockenwagner’s place, I love that place.”

Wanamaker said, “Food again? We’ve been through this. Our per diem budget is preset and no one but the FBI is authorized to-”

“I’m not talking cuisine, Mr. Literal.” To us: “These guys have no clue about metaphors and similes.”

“An English major,” said Milo.

“Journalism,” said Fortuno. “City College of Chicago, did a year until all the perfidy and falsehood got to me.”

Petra touched the doorknob.

Fortuno said, “I’m crushed. You just got here.”

She turned the knob and had a foot out in the hall when Fortuno said, “Let me talk to the shrink.”

S.A. Wanamaker said, “The door must remain closed at all times.”

Petra said, “No solo interviews, Mario.”

“Oh boy, another literal one,” said Fortuno. “What is it, all the TV and video games and microwaves in the brain, no one reads the classics anymore?” He waved. “Come back, honey, don’t let me rile you, I’m really a sociable person.”

“Plastique and machine guns in your office is sociable?”

S.A. Wanamaker said, “That topic is off limits, Officer.”

Fortuno’s arrest had been in the papers for weeks.

“Close the door, Officer.”

Petra complied, shot Fortuno a long, dark look.

Fortuno said, “You’ve got gorgeous melting eyes. No offense, I’m avuncular not lecherous. What I’m trying to get across here is I can possibly offer you some satisfaction vis-à-vis your subject. But the shrink’s the one who can make me happy.”

Wanamaker said, “Nine minutes down.”

Petra ignored him and moved closer to Fortuno. “You can possibly help us?”

“Let’s upgrade to probably.”

“What do you want from Dr. Delaware?”

“Come closer, dear,” said Fortuno. “Conversing so far away makes my throat hurt. All the artificial coolants in the AC system, dries up the sinuses, they won’t let me open the window. Or the curtains, I’m living like a gopher.”

Wanamaker said, “It’s dark, anyway. Stop complaining.”

Petra said, “How do I know you can help us?”

Fortuno said, “How’s this: The individual under question is a no-talent punk kid who purloins other people’s songs and cobbles them together in what the popular parlance terms ‘mixes.’”

The three of us returned to our former positions facing the couch.

Fortuno said, “Dr. Alexander Delaware, you’ve got street cred for helping kids. Anxieties, phobias-I like that paper you published on sleep problems. Could’ve used that with a few of mine, I have eight. From five wives, but that’s another story. Journal of Nervous and Mental Disease-July, five years ago. Is my memory serving me well?”

My name had been given to the feds a few hours ago. Fortuno had managed to research me.

I said, “What can I do for you?”

“One of my progeny, the youngest, Philip, he’s six. Quiet, a very quiet boy, know what I mean?”


“That, too. Extremely quiet. Sits and draws, doesn’t go outside to play, doesn’t like sports. His mother’s young, not too experienced in the parent department. With Philip, she’s a pushover, spoils him completely. He used to go to private school but now he’s in public school, due to the fact that I’m temporarily inconvenienced financially. Am I making myself lucid?”

“Philip’s having problems in his new school.”

“The other kids,” said Fortuno, “do not appear to appreciate him. In public school, you’ve got some tough little rats. A tough kid-a resilient kid-could cope. Philip, being quiet, does not cope so well. If I was there, perhaps I could aid him, but I am not and that makes me feel regretful. His mother tells me Philip comes home crying. Sometimes he doesn’t sleep well.” Throat clear. “He has also started to have…accidents. Number one and number two. Which does not help his popularity with his peer group. I, being out of the picture, feel partially culpable for all this. Then I find out you will be visiting and lo and behold I experience epiphanization: Saint Agnes has sent me someone who can help the problem.”

“I’ll be happy to see Philip.”

“As I said, my financial resources are limited. However, I do see that changing some time in the future and when that time comes you’ll be recompensed ably.”

“I understand.”

Fortuno clapped his hands, as if summoning a servant. “Excellent. When will you see Philip?”

“Have his mom call me.”

“She will do that. They live in Santa Barbara.”

“That’s ninety miles away. Maybe the best thing would be for me to find you a referral there.”

Fortuno’s mouth tightened and his eyes were black lines. “Maybe not.”

“It’s a long drive for a young chi-”

You drive to Philip,” he said. “When I am in a position to do so, I will compensate you for your fuel and your time-portal-to-portal, like what lawyers get. Like what I used to get. I’m not talking long-term Freudian or Jungian psychoanalysis. One visit, maybe two, three four-a consultation. In one of those articles you wrote, you said a lot of child therapy can be done short-term. Journal of Clinical and Consulting-”

“I can’t guarantee that in every case, Mr. Fortuno.”

“I’m not asking for a guarantee, Dr. Delaware. Two sessions, maybe three, four. After that, if you feel Philip’s needs are best served by a local expert, I will accept that. But you start the ball rolling, Dr. Delaware. Meet my son face-to-face and give me feedback. He’s a very quiet boy.”

“Okay,” I said.

Another clap. “Excellent. When?”

“Have his mother call me.”

“Give me something more specific.” An order, not a request. He sat up straighter, buoyed by the shred of control.

“Have her call and I promise I’ll drive up and meet with Philip as soon as I can,” I said. “You’ve done what you can, the rest is up to her.”

Fortuno breathed in sharply. “She will call you soon. Perhaps Philip can come visit you at that nice pretty white house. See those pretty fish in your pond.”

My gut tightened. “Happy to show them to him.”

Petra said, “Enough small talk.”


“Blaise De Paine,” said Mario Fortuno. “Rotten kid.”

“How so?”

“I do not approve of thievery. However…” Throat clear. “…in the course of my profession, I am forced to deal with individuals of dubious morality. Much the same as it is with you, Detectives.” To me: “You, too, given your long association with law enforcement. My Philip will be a breath of fresh air.”

Petra said, “What business did you do with De Paine?”

“His profession, such as it is, places him at various clubs and the like. Many of these nightspots feature so-called VIP lounges where inhibitions are relaxed, not to mention lavatories equipped surreptitiously with peepholes and hidden cameras by individuals of dubious ethics.”

“He sold you incriminating pictures of celebrities.”

Wanamaker said, “Be careful.”

“Wesley, I owe these good people something.”

“Be careful.”

Fortuno sighed. “Skirting some paper-thin ice here, what I believe I can tell you within the bounds of Special Agent Wanamaker’s approval is that Mr. De Paine found himself in possession of data concerning various individuals of interest to me for reasons I cannot and will not get into.”

“Does he also sell drugs?” said Petra.

Fortuno glanced at Wanamaker. The agent was silent. “If he did, I would not be shocked. However, I have no firsthand knowledge of such transactions and, in fact, possess a strong aversion to toxic substances as they de-oxidify the body.” Hoisting the orange juice. “Vitamin C.”

“Which substances does De Paine peddle?”

“I’d term his activities…eclectic.”


“It would not shock me.”


“Same answer.”


“Detective Connor,” said Fortuno, “the young man in question is enterprising. A type I’m sure we’re both familiar with.”

“What type is that?”

“The me generation. So many of them yearn for stardom but lack talent. Not to mention a moral core.”

Petra said, “What did you give De Paine for his information?”

Wanamaker waved a finger. “Uh-uh.”

“Did you trade him personal data for narcotics?”

Wanamaker said, “Change the subject, Detective.”

Fortuno’s cheeks quivered. “Wesley, throughout my relationship with you, your colleagues and your superiors, has anyone-anyone- come across a shred of evidence suggesting my active association with narcotics other than helping children of clients get clean and sober?”

Wanamaker looked at his watch.

Petra said, “How long were you and De Paine in business?”

“Awhile,” said Fortuno.

“Months or years?”

“The latter.”

“How many years?”

“I’d have to check my records.”

“Take a wild guess.”

“Five’s a nice round number.”

“What about Robert Fisk?”

“Who would that be, Detective?”

“A known associate of De Paine.” Petra showed Fortuno the mug shot.

“He looks like an extremely resentful person. Bad eyes…is he De Paine’s conduit for violence?”

“Why would you ask that?”

“Because De Paine is a sissy who avoids confrontation. Because you didn’t take time out from your busy day to visit me due to a shoplifting violation.”

“You don’t know Fisk.”

“Never heard of him, never laid eyes on him.”

“What about Moses Grant?” Flashing the DMV shot.

Fortuno said, “This person I have witnessed in De Paine’s company. I believe De Paine termed him his disk jockey. Another would-be music person. If you call that music.”

“Call what?”

“In less enlightened times, what would’ve been termed jungle rhythms. Being a Chicago person, Sinatra is more to my taste.”

“Sinatra was from New Jersey.”

“His music is esteemed in Chicago.”

“Tell me about Moses Grant.”

“I have seen him in the company of Mr. De Paine several times-three or four times. He never spoke in my presence. My impression was he was a lackey. I believe I saw him driving Mr. De Paine’s car.”

“What kind of vehicle?”

“Two vehicles, to be precise. One of those gas-guzzling Hummers and a Lexus sedan. The Lexus belongs to Mr. De Paine’s mother.”

“Mary Whitbread.”

Fortuno chuckled.

“What’s funny?” said Petra.

“How she came to call herself that.”

“You know her.”

“That,” said Fortuno, “is quite a story.”

“We’ve got time.”

Wanamaker said, “Forty-one minutes to be exact.”

Fortuno removed a loafer, slipped a finger between his toes, dug and scratched, produced something that seemed to intrigue him.

Petra said, “Mary Whitbread.”

“Her given name is Maria Baker. Her hometown is Chicago.”

“Old neighbor?” said Petra.

“We grew up in different neighborhoods. I became acquainted with Maria through my activities in law enforcement.”

“You were a cop?”

“I contemplated becoming one. Only briefly, all the perfidy and corruption…no offense, assorted gendarmes, but Chicago was quite a city back then and sometimes it was difficult to differentiate the good guys from the miscreants.”

“What was your association with the cops?”

“I did some security consulting to various political figures. Occasionally that led me to interface with your Windy City counterparts. Because of my familiarity with various individuals of Italian ancestry-”

“Uh-uh, nope,” said Wanamaker.

“Wesley,” said Fortuno, “at some point you need to develop a sense of trust. I have no intention of breaching our agreement, if for no other reason than a breach would not be in my best interests. The events that interest Detective Connor predate any you’d be concerned with and I am simply providing context-”

“Provide it another way.”

Fortuno drew back his lips, scratched pale, pink gum. “I met Maria Baker over thirty years ago.”

“Where?” said Petra.

“If my recollection serves me well, the first time was at a club called The Hi Hat. Maria danced there, as well as at other nighteries.” Lizard-smile. “Sans clothing. The Hat and the others were owned by various individuals of…a certain Mediterranean descent. From time to time, Maria became romantically entangled with some of these various individuals as well as with other individuals.”


Fortuno smiled. “Comedians, drummers, assorted riffraff. Maria was rather…easy to please. Unfortunately, there came a time when one of the individuals-of a certain descent-became deceased in a highly non-natural manner and Maria Baker became concerned for her personal safety. I, having just moved to Los Angeles, and through my associations with law enforcement in both cities, was able to facilitate her passage here. Maria took well to the climate. Meteorologically and professionally.”

“The profession being stripping.”

“As well as other aspects of show business.”

Milo said, “She became a casting agent.”

Fortuno broke into laughter.

“What’s funny?” said Petra.

“Who told you that?”

“She did.”

“Maria, Maria,” said Fortuno. Humming a few bars from the West Side Story tune. “That was music, Leonard Bernstein…Detectives, the primary aspect of casting that Maria Baker ever encountered was removing her clothing for gentlemen in Canoga Park.”

“Porn actress?” said Petra.

“I’m sure none of us are devotees of the genre,” said Fortuno. “However, we all know that the real Hollywood is Canoga Park.”

“Mary Whitbread was her stage name? That doesn’t sound too sexy.”

“The genre relies upon clichés, Detective. Or used to, back when the product was shown in theaters and plots were believed essential. One common motif is the innocent maid debauched. One rather successful film was a full-length feature titled Losing Her Innocence. The story line was hackneyed but effective. A Victorian chambermaid travels to London and is seduced by lords and dukes and the like.”

“The maid was Mary Whitbread.”

“Thirty years ago,” said Fortuno, “she had girl-next-door looks. The director thought she was so perfect that he used her real name as the basis for her nom de film.”

“Baker to Whitbread.”

Fortuno closed his eyes. “The essence of wide-eyed Victorian purity. Even as her orifices were explored.”

“Who was the director?”

“A gentleman named Salvatore Grasso. Deceased.”

“In a highly unnatural manner?”

“If you consider a stroke unnatural.”

“Wide-eyed purity,” said Milo. “You’re a fan of her work.”

“On the contrary, Lieutenant Sturgis. It bores me.” Half shutting his lids. “As I’m sure it does you.”

“Did your relationship with Mary ever turn personal?”

“With me,” said Fortuno, “everything is personal.” Turning away from Milo he faced Petra and leered. “Did I fuck her?”

She didn’t budge.

“The answer is yes. I fucked her. I fucked her at will, every which way, on numerous occasions. That doesn’t make me the member of an exclusive club. Nor was the relationship emotional.”

“Casual sex.”

“Your generation didn’t invent it, dear.”

“Tell us about the relationship.”

“I just did.”

“You helped her move to L.A., set her up in the porn business, and sampled the wares.”

“I didn’t set her up. I introduced her to various individuals. My sampling of the wares was by mutual consent.”

“Blaise De Paine is twenty-eight. You’ve known him since he was born.”

“I have.”

“What can you tell us about him?”

“Nothing more than I already have.”

“What’s the relationship between De Paine and his mother like.”

“Such as it is.”

“They don’t get along?”

“Mary probably thinks she’s a wonderful mother.”

“She isn’t?”

“Actresses,” said Fortuno. “It’s all about them.”

“Who’s his father?”

Fortuno held up his palms.

“There’s something you don’t know?” said Petra.

“There are many, many things I don’t know, Detective Connor. In this case, paternity would be difficult to ascertain. As I said, Mary was eclectic.”


“I haven’t had contact with her in a while.”

“Why’s that?”

“She lost her interest in courtesanship and found a substitute passion.”

“What’s that?” said Petra.

“Real estate. She owns buildings, collects rent, believes that makes her nobility.”

“How’d she get the money to buy buildings?”

“The old-fashioned way,” said Fortuno. “She fucked for it.”

“Any person in particular?”

“Quite the opposite.”

“How about some names of her benefactors?”

Wanamaker said, “How about not.”

Petra said, “We don’t care about any of the creeps he’s going to spill on, unless they’ve been involved in murder.”

“Same answer,” said Wanamaker.

“Whose murder?” said Fortuno.

“A man named Lester Jordan.”

Fortuno didn’t react, but holding still seemed to take effort. “Don’t know him.”

“You’re sure about that.”

“Couldn’t be surer.”

“Boy,” said Petra, “here we were thinking you were the Human Rolodex and look at all these holes in the data bank.”

Fortuno reached for his nose again. Picked with gusto.

“Life,” he said, “can be disillusioning.”

“Who else did De Paine hang out with?”

“I don’t pay attention to who punks hang out with.”

“You don’t like him.”

“He’s got no-”

“Moral core, I know,” said Petra. “As opposed to all your other vendors and clients.”

“Knowledge is power, Detective. I provide a legitimate service.”

“The federal government seems to feel otherwise.”

Wanamaker cleared his throat.

Petra said, “De Paine trashed the place he rented from Mr. Benezra and he cut out on several months’ rent.”

“That does not surprise me.”

“You knew he was a mope but you gave him references?”

“Mr. Benezra asked me to help find a short-term tenant at a rundown property he planned to demolish imminently. I happened to be speaking to Mary and she happened to mention that her son was looking for lodgings.”

“Thought you hadn’t seen her in a while?”

“She called me.”


“To help find lodgings for her son.”

“Where was he living at the time?”

“That she didn’t say.”

“Mary Whitbread owns properties,” said Petra. “Why would her son need to look for lodgings?”

“You’d have to ask her that.”

“She didn’t want him close by?”

Fortuno said, “That’s certainly possible.”

“He’s caused trouble for her.”

“I’m not aware of any specifics, but once again, it wouldn’t-”

“The notion of his being involved in murder doesn’t shock you.”

“I am unshockable, Detective.”

“Where did De Paine live after he left the house on Oriole Drive?”

Long, slow head shake. White strands came loose and Fortuno tamped them back in place. “I’ve told you all I know.”

Petra waited.

Fortuno drank orange juice.

Wanamaker reached for his pocket watch.

Petra said, “I know, the big hand’s on bureaucracy and the little hand’s on bureaucracy.” To Fortuno: “Give us something else about Blaise De Paine.”

Fortuno finished his juice, wiped his lips with the back of his sleeve. Wiped the sleeve on the couch and flicked pulp off a cushion.

“If you were us, Mario, where would you look for him?”

“Hmm,” said Fortuno. “I’d say Cherchez la femme. That’s French for ‘women are slicker than men.’ In this case, la mamacita.”

“Multilingual,” said Milo.

“Women love adroitness with language, Lieutenant. Not that such matters would concern you. Wesley, I do believe it’s time for my supper. Dr. Delaware, when you see Philip, tell him Daddy loves him.”


We sat in the hotel bar and drank Cokes.

Milo said, “A quiet boy. Fortuno’s worried his kid’s gay.”

Petra said, “That’s what he meant?”

His reply was half a smile.

She said, “Thanks for agreeing to see the kid, Alex.”

“Santa Barbara’s nice this time of year.”

“Mr. Insider didn’t end up telling us much other than De Paine’s mommy was a wild girl who loves real estate. Which ain’t exactly a rare L.A. bird. What’s Ms. Whitbread like?”

Milo said, “Friendly, flirtatious, well put together.”

I said, “Her son sells dirty pictures. She made them.”

“So we’re in Freud-World.”

“De Paine came by to visit when we were there, so there’s still some kind of relationship. Fortuno’s right: Keep an eye on her and she might lead you to him.”

“Day we met her, De Paine was right in front of us,” said Milo, rubbing his face.

Petra put her glass down. “Everything we hear about this guy turns up nasty. But he’s not a formal suspect on Jordan so no way I can get a tap on Mommy’s line-where’s Fortuno when we need him. In terms of surveillance, Fourth Street’s quiet and respectable and relatively low-rise. Not the ideal situation for a stakeout. Any ideas?”

Milo said, “After dark it would be easier.”

“True…okay, I’ll talk to Raul.”

I said, “Fortuno confirmed that Mary got into real estate with help from rich boyfriends. We know Myron Bedard sold her four buildings, including the two duplexes on Fourth. That confirms our guess about her being his mistress. It also strengthens our theory about De Paine meeting Lester Jordan through the Bedards. I’m convinced that whatever haunted Patty took place during the months she lived on Fourth.”

Milo said, “Myron takes Mary and her kid along when he checks out his tenants on Cherokee. The kid just happens to run into Jordan and sees an opportunity?”

“Whatever the case,” said Petra, “I’ve had no luck finding Myron Bedard. Or anyone else, for that matter. Why do I have this naggy little feeling that Fortuno played us?”

I said, “He played me to get therapy for his son. Maybe he really cares about the boy but mostly he needed to feel in control. What I find interesting is that he danced around every topic you brought up except Mary Whitbread.”

“You’re right, no problem laying out the details, there. Including how he did her. What was that, another power play?”

“He resents her. Or at the very least, he doesn’t care what happens to her, or her son. If he knew more, he’d have told us.”

“Dirty pictures for dope,” said Petra. Thin music issued from her purse and she fished out a phone playing the first eight notes of “Time After Time.” “Connor. Hey, Raul, what’s…you’re kidding. Give me the address. Be there in thirty to forty.”

She clicked off and stood. “Moses Grant has surfaced.”

“Excellent,” said Milo.

“Not really.”

The police own the crime scene but the coroner owns the body.

The three of us stood back from the scene, white-lit by night floods, as a coroner’s investigator named Sally Johannon gloved up and labored to turn Moses Grant’s massive corpse face-up. Two Central Division detectives named David Saunders and Kevin Bouleau stood nearby. Both were black, in their early thirties, dressed in well-cut dark suits.

A few feet away, Raul Biro, in a herringbone sport coat and gray slacks, scanned the crime scene.

For the third time, Johannon’s attempt to get a frontal view failed.

Grant had been dumped near the 110 North, just above Chinatown, cars whizzing by a few feet away. The estimate was one or two days of decomposition and bloat. Despite the wide-open spot, the smell was unmistakable and it adhered to my sinuses, the way it always does.

Sally Johannon winced. “There goes my sacroiliac.” She motioned for help. The two crypt drivers who’d come with the white van gloved up and the three of them completed the flip.

Grant’s sage-green velour tracksuit blended with the shrubbery and the eucalyptus saplings. A bush-clearing crew of County Jail trustees had found him. They were gone, now, ushered back to the comfort of incarceration. The ramp was blocked by a squad car but the freeway remained open and the auto roar was constant.

“One here,” said Johannon, pointing to a small, neat wound in Grant’s forehead. Her hands moved down the swell of Grant’s torso. “Two, three-four, five-and one here.” Indicating a rip in the velour dead center of Grant’s groin. “Someone didn’t like this poor guy.”

Petra said, “Any defense wounds?”

Johannon checked. “Nope, nothing.”

Milo said, “The shooter was facing him when he let go.”

David Saunders said, “Any shooter would probably be shorter than Grant. The crotch shot or one of the abdominals could’ve been the opener. Grant went down and the shooter kept pumping.”

“A crotch shot makes me wonder about a grudge,” said Kevin Bouleau. “Was he fooling with someone’s marital situation?”

Petra said, “Not that we know.”

“You’ve been looking for him for a while?”

“There’s a whole long story.”

“Can’t wait,” said Bouleau.

Sally Johannon said, “Let me double-check his legs…nope, that appears to be it, folks. From the size of the entry, I’d guess a.22, certainly not much bigger. No serious blood, so this wasn’t the kill-spot. You’re not going to find casings unless one lodged somewhere on his person and fell out.”

Kneeling lower, she ran her eyes down the tracksuit. “Any pockets on this thing…ah yes, here we go.”

Reaching inside the zip jacket, she turned a pocket inside out. “No I.D., sorry, people.”

Raul Biro said, “We know who he is.”

“Thanks to you,” said Petra. “Good work.”

Biro allowed himself a split-second smile. He’d been sitting at his desk working the phones while simultaneously monitoring incoming homicide calls on the scanner. Hearing about a downtown dump, he’d perked at the victim’s race and size, gotten to the scene early, and helped secure it.

“Praise the Lord,” said Saunders. “And His faithful servant, Detective Biro.”

Everyone knew what he meant. Without victim identification, days could be lost.

Biro said, “What do you want me to do now?”

Petra said, “Up to these guys.”

Saunders said, “Do you know if Mr. Grant has any local family?”

“We traced his residence a year back and he was living alone in the Valley. He was of interest to us as a K.A. of our suspect but nothing indicates he was a bad guy in his own right.”

“Someone sure thought he was.”

Johannon got to her feet. “Creak, creak, I’m getting too old for this.”

I put her at thirty-five.

Fetching her camera, she circled the body, taking small steps, snapping lots of shots. “Okay, he’s all yours. Where are your techies?”

Saunders said, “On the way.”

Kevin Bouleau said, “We’re ready to hear that story, Petra.”

One of the crypt drivers said, “Any idea when we can get going?”

Petra summed up what she knew about Grant. Saunders and Bouleau listened until she was through, then Saunders said, “This guy Fisk is the obvious choice, seeing as he’s already killed someone because of something the vic knew. Grant hung with these guys, probably also came to know too much. The only thing against that is Fisk strangled your vic.”

Petra said, “That went down in an apartment building full of people, so noise could’ve been a factor. And Grant was even bigger than Bowland, maybe too big to strangle.”

“So maybe he got shot somewhere secluded. No idea at all where he was living?”

“De Paine and Fisk were rooming together in the Hollywood Hills. No one saw Grant in the house, but it’s possible he was there. But even if he was, that was months ago.”

“Club dudes,” said Bouleau. “There’s lots of club activity on our turf. Abandoned buildings east of the Civic Center, it’s basically industrial, dead at night. Club dudes break in, bootleg electricity, run raves, peddle dope, take the money and run. Once the party’s over, it’s nice and quiet.”

Saunders said, “There’re a few places we can check out, see if any copious body fluids show up.”

Bouleau said, “That place on Santa Fe, for starts.”

Saunders nodded. “Used to be a textile warehouse, amazing what you find in these places.”

Petra said, “The one place the three of them were spotted together was the Rattlesnake.”

“That one’s long gone,” said Saunders. “Looks like we’re going to be up nights, Kev. You’re doing that, anyway, but my social life’s going to die.”

“You don’t deserve one,” said Bouleau. “Be like the rest of us and suffer.”

Saunders grinned. “Kev’s wife just had a baby.”

Milo said, “Congrats.”

Petra said, “That’s great, Kev. Boy or girl?”

Kevin Bouleau said, “Girl, Trina Louella. Best-looking baby in the known universe but she’s not into sleep.”

“If she can do thirty-six straight she can follow in her daddy’s footsteps.”

“Not going to happen,” said Bouleau. “Trina’s going to be a doctor.”

The banter died and the Central detectives began walking around the dump site, looking for casings that wouldn’t materialize. The LAPD Crime Scene van arrived and two techs got out carrying black cases.

As they began working, Petra corralled Raul Biro, asked him to watch Mary Whitbread’s duplex.

He said, “I can do that.”

“Are you free tonight?”

“I can be.”

She turned to us. “All this bloodshed just to squelch information? Whatever memory Patty resuscitated must’ve been major-league. I’m away from the idea that it was anything less than murder. So maybe Isaac didn’t pull anything up because it’s unreported, like you said. Which is not hopeful.”

She watched the techs crouch near the body. “Nothing for us to do here.”

We returned to our cars.

I said, “I know.22s are common but you might want to check the slugs in Grant against those taken from Leland Armbruster.”

Milo said, “De Paine shot Armbruster thirteen years ago and held on to his piece?”

“Thirteen years ago, De Paine was fifteen. If Armbruster was his first, the gun could be psychologically significant.”

“Sentimental value.”

Petra said, “Plus, he got away with it, so why ditch a lucky weapon? I agree, it’s worth a try. Grant’s autopsy won’t be prioritized because six bullet holes is no whodunit. But let me go back to talk to Saunders and Bouleau and see if they can push a little. Once the slugs are fished out, I’ll coordinate the ballistics. Raul, stick with me and let’s talk about tonight. See you later, guys.”

I got onto the 110 and sped south.

Milo said, “You can slow down now.”

I said, “I’m heading over to Tanya’s. Two people are dead in order to keep a secret. She’s outside the loop but De Paine and Fisk have no way of knowing that.”

“Did you talk to her about finding temporary lodgings?”

“Not yet.”

“Timing wasn’t right?”

“I should’ve made it right. Do me a favor and call her now.”

He tried her landline and her cell. Voice mail on both. “She’s probably studying.”

“Hope so.”

“One thing in her favor, Alex: With De Paine and Fisk doing the Osama bit, maybe they won’t risk coming out in the open.”

“They weren’t too scared to shoot Grant. Want me to drop you at your car or go straight to her place?”

“Straight’s always best,” he said. “So to speak.”


No van in Tanya’s driveway. Lights ambered the living room drapes. The outdoor spots seemed to shine brighter and I said so.

Milo said, “She probably upped the wattage. Good girl, she’s paying attention. She’s likely still on campus, cramming for a test or something. But let me check the premises to make you feel better.”

As he started to get out, a car across the street pulled away and drove toward Pico.

White Mercedes convertible. Classic model, conspicuous in this middle-class neighborhood.

I said, “Get back in.”

Milo said, “What-”

“That Benz heading north. We’ve seen it before.”

The convertible made a rolling stop and continued east on Pico without signaling. Moderate traffic made the tail easy. At La Cienega, the Mercedes hooked a left, picked up speed, sailed past La Cienega Park and the old Restaurant Row before pausing for a light at San Vicente. Then on to Third Street and a right turn.

Short ride past newer cafés and masses of valet-parked vehicles, then south on Orlando.

Milo said, “Hang at the corner.”

We watched the convertible cover a few blocks then turn left onto Fourth Street. Again, no signal.

“At the least I can get him for traffic violations. Switch off your lights and move up a bit.”

I pulled over just short of Orlando and Fourth and we watched as the Mercedes cruised up the block and paused in front of Mary Whitbread’s duplex.

Sitting there, in the middle of the street. A full minute passed before the brake lights went off.

Milo said, “He’s heading back to San Vicente, go, Alex.”

The Benz sped east on Beverly. I stayed three car lengths behind, followed the sleek white chassis through the Fairfax district and into Hancock Park.

When the Benz turned onto Hudson Avenue, Milo had me hang back again. “Let’s make sure any surprises are the ones we dish out.”

The Benz turned exactly where we knew it would.

I raced onto Hudson, pulled to the east side of the street, positioned the Seville the wrong way, directly in front of the Bedard mansion.

The white Mercedes was behind the green Bentley. Lights off, no engine sound. A weathered plastic rear window killed any view of the occupants.

No one exited the vehicle.

Milo pulled his little Maglite from a jacket pocket, unholstered his gun, and got out. Standing just behind the Benz, he aimed a sharp, bright beam through the plastic.

Police! Driver, open the door slowly.”


Do it. Driver out.” His rumble echoed amid the silent elegance. Jarring, but nary a light went on in the neighboring houses. People slept well on Hudson Avenue. Or pretended to.


The driver’s door opened partially. “Lieutenant? It’s me. Kyle.”

“Get out of the car, Kyle.”

“I-this is my own house.”

Do it. Now.”

A voice from the passenger seat said, “This is absur-”

“Quiet, passenger. Kyle, out.”

The door swung wider and Kyle Bedard stepped out squinting and blinking. He had on a fuzzy gray sweatshirt over olive cargo pants and the same yellow running shoes. The tips of his hair glinted in the flashlight beam like Fourth of July sparklers.

He said, “Can you please get that out of my eyes?”

Milo lowered the light.

“See, Lieutenant, it really is me. No one else wears shoes this ugly.”

Milo said, “I’m going to frisk you, son. Turn around.”

“You’re kidding.”

“Anything but.” He patted Kyle down, had him sit on the curb. “You next, passenger.”

The voice from the car said, “I don’t believe this.”

Kyle rubbed his eyes. Saw me and smiled. “In a surreal, kind of Jean-Luc Godard way, this is cool.”

The passenger laughed.


Kyle jumped.

The passenger said, “My name’s not Mohammed so why go to all the trouble?”

“For laughs,” said Milo. “Careless people have been known to get shot.”

“What’s funny about that?”


Kyle said, “That’s-”

“Okay, okay,” said the passenger. “I’m getting out. Don’t shoot me for God’s sake.”

The man who emerged was taller than Kyle and fifty pounds heavier, with a commodious paunch. Late fifties, deep tan, clean dome. The remaining hair was dark and long enough to collect in a ponytail that drooped past his shoulder blades. Sideburns fuller than Milo’s traveled toward a soft jawline. John Lennon glasses rode a beak nose. Both his chins were strong.

The overall image was Ben Franklin in Italian duds. A beautifully styled cream cashmere blazer was custom-tailored for a slimmer body. Chocolate slacks broke perfectly over caramel mesh loafers. The open collar of an electric-blue silk shirt was topped by a yellow-and-azure ascot. A wine-colored handkerchief tumbled from his breast pocket. I counted six gold rings on two hands, lots of glimmer.

A smile rich with scorn danced across thin lips. “Do I put my hands up? Say ‘Uncle’? Recite the Pledge of Allegiance?”

“Just stand there and relax, sir.”

“Due-diligence time, Lieutenant whatever-your-name-is. There’s a fifteen-gizmo Swiss Army knife in my right front trouser pocket, don’t nick yourself on the can opener. The only other potentially dangerous object on my person is my billfold. But seeing as there are no females in sight, I wouldn’t worry.”

His smile widened as Milo did the pat. “As long as we’re tangoing, I might as well introduce myself. Myron Bedard.”

Kyle said, “This is kind of cool, don’t you think, Dad?”

Myron Bedard laughed. “Son, I guess I’ll need some time to see it that way.”

When Milo finished, he apologized to Myron and allowed Kyle to get up from the curb.

Kyle brushed off the seat of his pants and stood next to his father. “Think any neighbors saw this, Dad?”

“If they did,” said Myron Bedard, “to hell with them.” To Milo: “Was that really necessary?”

“Unfortunately, yes.”

Bedard removed his glasses and wiped them with a corner of cashmere. “Doing your job…no hard feelings. Actually I don’t get it. I mean I see your point about being cautious for your personal safety, but Kyle said you know him, so why the hell go through that?”

“I’ve met Kyle once, Mr. Bedard. Don’t know him well enough to be sure of anything.”

“Oh, that’s-”

“We spotted you watching Tanya Bigelow’s duplex.”

“Spotted? We were just…” Sidelong glance at his son.

Kyle kept silent.

Milo said, “You were just what?”

Kyle looked down.

Myron Bedard said, “My son has a crush on the girl-is that okay to say, Kyle?”

Kyle cursed under his breath. “Guess it is now.”

“He’s concerned about her, wants to make sure she’s okay, that’s all. To show you the extent of his devotion, he picked me up from the airport and rather than head straight home, insisted we-”


“These are the police, son. No sense dissembling.”

Kyle faced us. “It was a dorky thing to do, I’m sorry.”

Milo said, “Why are you worried about Tanya, son?”

Myron Bedard said, “I pay his tuition so only I get to call him that.” Slapping Kyle’s back. “Just kidding, go on, Lieutenant-I didn’t catch your last name…”


Bedard extended his hand. He and Milo shook.

“Sturgis,” he said, “as in the big Harley meet. Ever been there, Lieutenant?”


“You should, it’s a blast. I’ve made it twelve years in a row. I alternate between a 95 Fatboy and a 2004 Speedster 883 Custom XL. There’s absolutely nothing like the Black Mountains in August, you make a pit stop in Keystone, near Mount Rushmore. There’s some serious partying going on.” He nudged Kyle. “Next year, you’ve got to make good on that promise and go with me, son.”

Kyle didn’t answer.

“Noncommittal,” said Myron Bedard. “He reverts to that when I’m being a pain in the ass. You should go, too, Lieutenant. I assume you bike.”

“Why’s that?”

“Don’t all cops bike?”

“Not this one.”

“Maybe it’s the highway patrol I’m thinking of. What’s Erik Estrada doing nowadays?”

Milo turned to Kyle. “Why are you worried about Tanya?”

“For the same reasons you are.”

“Such as?”

“Such as Uncle Lester being murdered right after you talk to him about Tanya’s mom. Such as Tanya living near Mary and Pete, such as the relationship between Mary and Uncle Lester.”

“Pete as in Peterson Whitbread.”

“He hated to be called that.”

“You know him.”

“We weren’t friends.”

“Same question,” said Milo.

“I saw him from time to time.”

“How long ago?”

“When we were kids.”

“How’d that happen to be?”

Myron Bedard stepped in front of his son. “Could we continue this discussion inside, please? I don’t want to be a spectacle.”


Bedard unlocked the mansion and disabled the alarm. “Entrez-vous.”

We followed him through the limestone marble hall, past the George Washington look-alike and the library where Kyle had set up his research post. The clutter had grown; more crumpled paper than hardwood floor.

Myron stopped to take in the mess.

“I know, Dad.”

“Eventually you will have to organize, Kyle.”

“I’m organized cognitively.”

“Different rules for geniuses?” Clapping his son’s shoulder again.

Kyle winced. Myron marched ahead of him, ponytail swinging, switching on lights, pausing to scan a stack of mail on an onyx table and slapping it back down.

An arched limestone passage took us to a vast, hexagonal room backed by the glass doors that showcased subtly lit formal gardens. The trees where Tanya remembered hiding out were Chinese elms and sycamores, manicured but lush. A fifty-foot swimming pool, old enough to retain a diving board, reflected the waffled contours of a lattice gazebo. A wet bar on the west end of the room sported enough bottles to stock a cruise ship.

Myron Bedard went straight for the bar, pausing to fool with more lamps-on, off, dim, dimmer, brighter. Settling for a heavy orange ambience, he selected a crystal Old-Fashioned glass, held it up, and squinted.

Kyle had lingered near the entrance to the room, staring at his shoes. The first time I’d seen him he’d looked like a squatter. Two days of beard growth fed the image. Given the opulence,