NIGHT: SOL 1

JAMIE WAITED UNTIL THEY AT LAST QUIETED DOWN BEFORE he stripped off his clothes and pulled a pair of Jockey shorts and a tee shirt from his garment bag.

I ought to unpack the clothes and stow them away properly, he told himself. But he felt too tired, drained physically and emotionally, to do anything but lie back on his bunk. I’ll get up early tomorrow and do it.

He had plugged his laptop into the dome’s power line and set it up beside the bunk, where he could reach the keyboard easily. He tapped into a news broadcast from Earth, realizing that whatever he saw and heard had been beamed from a satellite a quarter-hour earlier.

Most of the major news and entertainment networks on Earth had gladly agreed to beam their broadcasts to Mars, free of charge. The expedition planners had willingly paid the costs of setting up the transmitters; a link with home was important for the explorers’ emotional well-being, even if the link was only electronic.

Jamie saw the eight of them in their blank-faced hard suits, standing on the red sands of Mars, mouthing their little speeches. Then the screen cut to scenes of schoolchildren watching the landing ceremony. The second landing on Mars did not draw the huge throngs of people that the first landing had.

Jamie stretched back on his bunk and locked his fingers behind his head. Well, that’s natural enough, I guess. The first time’s exciting for the general public. The second landing looks a lot like the first one did. There won’t be any excitement back home unless we run into some real trouble.

Or unless we find—

Someone tapped at his door.

Almost annoyed at the interruption, Jamie called, “Who is it?”

“Vijay.”

Jamie swung his legs off the bunk and stood up. “Hold on for a second.” He grabbed his discarded coveralls and pulled them on. As he sealed the Velcro front seam he stepped to the door and unlatched it.

“Something wrong?” he asked.

She had changed from her standard coveralls to a bulky, loose-fitting nubby turtleneck sweater and a pair of shapeless baggy slacks. She sure isn’t flaunting her body, Jamie thought. But she does like bright colors. The sweater was coral red, the slacks sunshine yellow.

“No, nothing wrong,” she said, holding up a sealed plastic bag in one hand. “Just your vitamin delivery service, mate.”

“Oh.” Jamie took the bag from her hand.

“This week’s supply of the supplements you’ll need,” she said. Shektar had personally delivered the vitamin supplements to every member of the expedition all through the flight from Earth.

“Right.”

“Don’t want you coming down with scurvy,” Shektar said, almost impishly. The whole ground team of the first expedition had done just that when their vitamin supplement supply had been contaminated.

“No,” Jamie agreed, “once is enough.”

“Do you have time for a nightcap, or are you ready for sleep?”

He almost snorted at her. “After the blast you guys had, you still want a nightcap?”

“Orange juice, Jamie. Blood sugar.”

“I thought you’d be needing aspirin.”

“No worries,” she said, leading the way toward the galley. “I didn’t drink enough to hurt.”

The dome was dimly lit now; since the partitions of the privacy compartments only rose eight feet high, nighttime illumination was kept low.

“Where’d you learn those songs?” he asked, following her across the shadowy floor.

“The benefits of a college education.”

“Some education.”

Vijay looked at him curiously. “Din’t you ever get drunk at college and sing bawdy songs?”

“No, I guess not,” Jamie said, thinking of how many Navahos he had seen reeling from beer.

“You don’t have to look so disapproving,” she said, with a smile.

“I didn’t realize I was.”

“You’re scowling like a cut snake.”

“Like a what?”

“I mean, it’s not as if we’d gone completely devo. Nobody jumped me.”

She isn’t drunk or hung over, Jamie realized. She’s the expedition’s psychologist as well as our medic. This little visit isn’t personal, it’s professional. She’s testing me.

Is she wearing perfume? he wondered. A faint flowery scent tickled his nostrils. Maybe she’s using perfume to cover up body odor. Without the water from the recycler, they had gone without showering after their long sweaty day of physical labor.

“I wish somebody had brought some beer along,” Shektar said as she tapped the dispenser for a squirt of orange juice. Once the water line was working properly they would mix powdered concentrate with fresh water and save the precious prepackaged supplies for emergencies.

“Why wish for beer when you’ve got champagne?” Jamie asked.

She shrugged, and the motion stirred him despite the bulky sweater. “Aussie beer’s a lot better than Aussie fizz,” she said.

Jamie wished for hot chocolate, settled for a tea bag and a squirt of hot water.

“Rank has its privileges,” Shektar murmured as they sat at the table.

Jamie blinked at her, puzzled.

“You’re using some of our reserve water supply,” she explained.

“Oh, that. We’ll bring the generator on-line tomorrow. We won’t run short of water.”

She leaned back in her chair, as relaxed as if they were in a neighborhood café. “If we do run short, we’ll have to return to Earth, won’t we?”

“We won’t.”

“You’re very confident.”

Jamie made himself smile at her. “Is this a psych test?”

She smiled back. “No, not really. I just wanted a chance to talk to you privately for a few minutes. Hard to do on the ship.”

“Easier here.”

“Yes. Much roomier here in this dome.”

“So?”

Shektar took a sip of juice, then put her plastic cup down on the table. Leaning slightly toward Jamie, she said, “You and Dex are going to have an explosion soon if you’re not careful.”

So that’s it, Jamie thought. Aloud, he replied, “No, we’re not. I won’t let that happen.”

“How can you prevent it?”

Jamie hesitated, then answered, “I’m not going to lose my temper. I can understand how he feels and I’m not going to let it bother me.”

“It already bothers you. That’s obvious.”

“Look,” Jamie said, “I know that Dex’s father was a major driving force behind getting this expedition funded. But we’re a long way from daddy now. Dex is going to have to figure that out for himself. Here on Mars it doesn’t count who your father is or what happened back on Earth. Here on Mars the only thing that counts is what you can do, what you can accomplish.”

“Nice theory, but—”

“I’m not going to let him get under my skin,” Jamie insisted, consciously keeping himself from clenching his fists. “The work we’ve got to do here is too important to let personalities get in the way.”

“Do you really think you can spend a year and a half here without some sort of confrontation?” Shektar’s face was deadly serious, her eyes locked onto Jamie’s.

“Yes,” he said. He couldn’t look away from those eyes: so deep and dark, shining and grave. Her midnight black hair was pulled away from her face, pinned back behind her neck. Jamie wondered what she would do if he reached back there and unpinned it, let it fall loosely around her shoulders. He recalled that it had been nearly a year since he’d made love.

Shektar seemed to sense something. She looked away briefly.

“I can do it,” Jamie assured her, trying to keep his voice light and relaxed. “I won’t let him get to me.”

“The stoic Indian, hey?” she said, without humor. “Let your enemies burn you at the stake without uttering a peep.”

Jamie grasped her slender wrist. “Nobody’s going to burn me, and nobody’s going to die here. We’re going to explore as much of this planet as we can and Dex will just have to learn that he’s a member of the team, not the mission director.”

“He’s an alpha male, y’know. Just like you.”

“What’s that mean?”

Shektar looked into his eyes again. “You’re both natural leaders. You both have to be top dog. It’s a prescription for trouble. Maybe disaster.”

Feeling nettled, almost angry, Jamie asked, “How did you psychologists allow the two of us to come on this mission?”

“Because,” she answered, “Dex was clever enough to hide it. He knew what the psychologists were testing for and he fooled all of them.”

“You too?”

“Me too,” she admitted. “It wasn’t until the two of you started arguing on the way out here that I realized what a mistake we’ve made.”

“You mean I’ve got the same psychological profile as he does?”

“You’re both alpha males, that’s clear as sunshine. You’re natural-born competitors.”

Jamie shook his head, more in wonder than disbelief.

She mistook the gesture. “Look at what you did on the first expedition. You took it over, din’t you? You overwhelmed that Russian cosmonaut who was supposed to be the leader of the ground team and you even pushed the mission director into letting you go to the Grand Canyon, din’t you?”

“Well … yeah …”

Very seriously, she said, “That’s alpha male behavior, Jamie. Top dog. Ruler of the roost. King of the hill.”

“And you’re saying Dex is just like me?”

“Same profile. Different personality, in many ways, but he’s got the same kind of devils driving him that you have.”

Jamie blew out a breath. Then he asked, “Are you having the same talk with him?”

“Not yet. I wanted to speak with you first.”

“Do you think talking to him will do any good?”

“No. Frankly, I don’t.”

“Hmm.”

“He can’t alter his basic personality any more than you can. You can’t change yourself. The only reason I brought this up to you is because you’re the mission director and I thought you had to know what you’re up against.”

“What we’re all up against—us,” Jamie said.

“That’s right,” Shektar agreed. “We’re all in the same canoe, aren’t we?”

Jamie mulled it over in silence for several moments. Shektar watched him, unmoving, leaving her wrist in his grasp.

“Okay,” Jamie said at last. “I don’t know if it’ll do any good to mention this to Dex or not.”

“It might heighten his competitive drive. Give him a stimulus to push harder.”

“Then leave him alone,” Jamie said quickly. “Let me deal with it.”

She disengaged her wrist gently. “I’ll try to help all I can, Jamie.”

He grinned ruefully. “Maybe you could slip a couple of kilos of tranquilizers into his vitamin supply.”

She smiled back at him. “Sorry to drop this load on you the first night, but I thought you’d better know about it as soon as possible.”

“Right. Thanks.”

She gulped down the rest of her orange juice, then said goodnight and headed for her quarters.

Jamie sat alone in the dim nighttime lighting. The dome structure was darkened by an electrical current that polarized the plastic to keep the interior heat from escaping into the frigid night. Everyone else was asleep, or at least in their own quarters.

Watching Shektar walk away from him, Jamie realized again that sex would be a problem sooner or later. She could wear six overcoats and it still wouldn’t help, he knew. The other women, too. Month after month, living this close to them—maybe she’ll have to start putting suppressants in our food.

There had been no trouble about sex during the five-month flight to Mars; except for one night, if anyone had bedded down with anyone else, they had kept it quiet. That one night had involved Dex, Jamie knew. Had it been Vijay with him? He had never asked, never really wanted to know.

Jamie remembered Dr. Li’s fumbling little lecture, from six years earlier:

“We all have healthy sex drive,” the first expedition’s director had said. “We will be living together for nearly two years. As your expedition commander I expect you to behave in adult manner. Adult human beings, not childish monkeys.”

Good advice, Jamie thought. Behave in an adult manner. Great advice.

Vijay with Dex. A one-night stand, he told himself. Doesn’t mean anything. Not much it doesn’t. Then why is she warning me about him? What game is she playing?

He sat at the galley table for a long time, listening to the chugs and hums of the equipment that was keeping them alive on the surface of Mars, waiting for the familiar sounds to soothe him, reassure him that everything was normal.

It didn’t work. Jamie leaned back and peered up into the shadows of the dome overhead, trying to close his mind to it all. Find the balance, he commanded himself. Find the path. He closed his eyes, deliberately slowed his breathing. Then he heard it. The soft keening of the wind outside, stroking gently against the plastic bubble from another world.

Hear it, Grandfather? he asked silently. That’s the breath of Mars, the voice of the red world. It’s a gentle world, Grandfather. It welcomes us.

There’s nothing to fear here on Mars, Jamie thought. We’ve got the proper equipment, we can protect ourselves and live and work here. Mars doesn’t want to harm us. As long as we don’t do anything foolish, Mars will be good to us.

The real dangers are those we carry with us: envy, ambition, jealousy, fear and greed and hate. We carry it all with us, locked in our hearts. Even here on Mars, we haven’t changed. It’s all here with us because we brought it ourselves.

He thought he heard above the sighing of the cold night wind the mad laughter of the trickster Coyote.