CHAPTER
21
Hit takes
her own scans after I do, compiling data. It would be just
our luck to arrive during hibernation season again. I’d come in
trying to bring a hatchling home, and wind up waking another one.
But no. That can’t happen, not without March. I won’t touch any
birthing mounds as he did, nor will I sing the Coming-Forth song.
Things will be different this time. I’ll make it better.
So I ask, “Do you see any life signs down
there?”
“Thousands.”
Thank Mary. Unlike last
time, the ship sails through the atmosphere smoothly. I stare out
at the tangles of green jungle flashing past the hull. It’s
raining, but on Marakeq that’s nothing new. If the Mareq are
active, then it’s a warm shower.
Either Hit’s a better pilot than March—and to be
fair, he was out of practice when we put down here the first
time—or this ship’s more maneuverable. It might be a combination of
the two. Either way, within moments, we set down gently in a muddy
clearing less than a klick from the river. No damage that I can
see.
“Really well-done.”
She flashes me a cocky grin. “Like you expected
anything else.”
“True enough.”
I check the small bundle beneath my shirt, and
Baby-Z2 seems content enough, plenty warm and lapping at the
protein on my chest. If things go well, I won’t be wearing him for
long. I’ll give him back to his mother to assuage my sore
conscience. Leaving the cockpit, I head for the hub to look for
Vel.
Not surprisingly, he’s already waiting with his
ubiquitous bounty-hunter pack, weatherproof gear in hand. We can’t
afford to let the hatchling get cold or to have the rain wash his
food supply off my skin. It’s a couple of kilometers to the
settlement from here. While Hit might have been able to take us in
closer, I was afraid of frightening them. I want to ensure a
peaceable exchange.
In transit, I downloaded all the sounds Fugitive
scientists have recorded, and my chip has been working on
processing them. Nonhuman languages are more difficult to decipher
because sometimes the sounds don’t have equivalent word meanings;
they’re more nuances, intimations, and hints. But the Mareq tongue
appears to be fairly complex, and my chip now has some idea how to
decode them, which means my vocalizer can attempt a reply.
After checking Baby-Z2 one final time, I shrug
into the slicker and take my pack from Vel. “Ready?”
“I am.”
“We’re gone,” I call, without touching the comm
since it’s a small ship. “I’ll signal when and if it’s safe for you
to join us.”
“Because I can’t wait to take my own walk in the
mud,” Dina grumbles.
But she smacks me on the back as a measure of
her affection when I go past her toward the exit ramp. I lead the
way with Vel at my back, the way it should always be. He’s been
quiet since we left Gehenna, but I’m hoping this mission will
distract him from his loss. Deep down I know one person can’t
replace another, but at least he’s not alone.
“Do you need scrubbers?” I’m already fitting
mine in place.
The last time, Doc reminded me to wear them, but
he’s gone, and I have Vel at my side instead of March. Everything
changed once on this planet. I think this is where I started to
love him, no matter how much I didn’t want to. I can’t shake the
feeling that everything is about to change again.
“Yes. The atmosphere has spores and pollens that
make raw inhalation a risky proposition.”
It also contains trace elements of chlorine,
hence the scrubbers. Vel fits himself with compact breathing
apparatus, slightly different from my nasal plugs, but they
function in the same fashion. Once we’re ready, we step off the
ship and into the muck. The planet is every bit as dismal as I
remember, algae growing in the mud sucking around our feet. All
around us, the jungle breathes, leaves rustling, rain spattering on
the sodden trunks. But even the plants have a secondary layer of
green growing over the top of them, moss or mold in swirling
patterns.
Before we move away from the ship, he scans the
area with his handheld. “No large predators.”
“The Mareq hunt to keep the territory
surrounding their settlements safe.”
That’s all I remember from Canton Farr, other
than the fact that he was a terrifying lunatic. As far as I know,
none of the Fugitive scientists who studied the Mareq ever made
contact, which means this is a historic moment, and it should be
recorded for posterity.
“Turn on your ocular cam?”
“Already done,” Vel answers.
“Then let’s move out.”
The air is hot and sticky, even beyond the rain.
There’s a heaviness to it that weighs on a warm-blooded creature,
though I imagine it’s quite comfortable for the Mareq, who depend
on the weather to regulate their body temperature. It must be
simple and peaceful to live according to the changing
seasons.
Vel follows a path down to the river, no more
than an area where the vegetation has thinned from frequent
passage. Rain sluices down his back; he isn’t wearing protective
gear. No need when you’re already armored. Beneath my shirt and
slicker, Baby-Z2 wriggles around, a testament to his
fortitude.
Almost there, little
guy.
The hike is miserable. Neither of us complains,
however. At the swollen stream, Vel reaches for my hand, and we
cross together, fighting the current. It rushes at my legs, trying
to topple me, but with his help, I push onto the other shore. He
stands for a moment in the rain, face upturned.
“Did you know, Sirantha, that my people cannot
weep?”
I didn’t, actually.
He continues, “We have no tear ducts. Instead,
on Ithiss- Tor, there is a mourning song, uttered by every
surviving member of the clutch.”
“Do you only sing for clutchmates?”
“Or progenitors.”
“Never for friends or partners?”
He shakes his head, water dripping from his
mandible. “It is not done. But here, it is as if the whole world
weeps.”
“Teach me,” I say impulsively. “Teach me, and
I’ll sing with you. For Adele.”
“Now?”
“Yes. Please.”
And so I learn the mourning song. It is full of
clicks and hisses and long-held low notes, sounds I could never
make without my vocalizer. Though I know it’s imprecise at best,
the chip in my head translates it thus:
Oh, though you are gone beyond
all knowing
We will join you one day
Many become one
In the wholeness of the Iglogth
Away, away, far you are becoming
We are less with your loss
Away, away, our song sends you safely
But we keep you always in our minds.
Away, away,
Away.
We will join you one day
Many become one
In the wholeness of the Iglogth
Away, away, far you are becoming
We are less with your loss
Away, away, our song sends you safely
But we keep you always in our minds.
Away, away,
Away.
The last note stretches for an unbearably long
time. I’m sure I would find it painful, were my throat doing the
work. All around us, the jungle falls quiet. And then the most
extraordinary thing occurs. The insects in the wetlands echo the
sounds back to us, imperfect, but mimicked, as if they recognize
the gravitas of this moment. For a glorious, astonishing moment,
it’s as if a whole clutch mourns Adele properly.
Vel reels with it, stumbling back to brace
against a rain- slick tree. His posture communicates such raw pain
that I’m helpless as to how to help. And then I realize he’s
shaking, not from cold, but the Ithtorian equivalent of silent
tears. I pull him to me because that’s the human way, and he’s lost
a human love. Surely it will offer him some comfort.
He rubs the side of his face against the top of
my head. It’s not a kiss like he gave Adele, cheek to cheek, but
it’s more than he’s ever done before. So I guess I’m doing
something right. His claws dig into my back, hurting me a little,
but it’s a pain I’ll bear gladly. Endless moments later, he steps
away, composed once more, and now the rain is only rain.
“Better?” I ask.
Vel responds with a quiet inclination of his
head. He is not prone to such emotional displays, but that doesn’t
mean he feels nothing. “Shall we continue?”
The rest of the journey passes in silence. As
before, I glimpse the settlement through a tangle of trees. This
time, however, the mounds are not dark and silent. Small lights are
set all around; they look to be some natural-glowing lichen, and
there is movement, the Mareq going about their daily lives. My
stomach coils into a knot, and I touch Baby-Z2 reflexively. The
hatchling makes a quiet sound beneath my hand, a little trill. He’s
still there, still whole and healthy, my offering to those from
whom I stole. Mary grant it’s enough.