CHAPTER 19
KAELEER
*Bastard?*
Daemon opened his eyes, not sure if the call that
had broken his sleep had been real or part of a dream.
*Bastard?*
Ebon-gray psychic thread. No doubt now that the
call was real. *Prick?* He waited. Didn’t get a response. Just a
sense of pain running through that psychic thread.
*Lucivar?*
*I need help.*
Daemon flung the sheet aside and rolled out of bed,
startling Jaenelle. *Where are you?*
*Home.*
*Are you hurt?*
*No. Marian . . .* Pain. Grief.
Mother Night. *I’ll be there as soon as I
can.*
He rushed into the adjoining bedroom to dress.
Jaenelle rushed in right behind him.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
“I don’t know.” He pulled on trousers and a shirt
that he didn’t bother to button. He grabbed a jacket, shoes, and
socks, then vanished them. “Something about Marian.”
“May the Darkness have mercy.” Jaenelle ran back to
her bedroom, hollering as she went, “Get one of the Coaches. I’m
going with you.”
He hesitated, even considered arguing with her. She
was still in the days of her moontime when she couldn’t use more
than basic Craft without causing herself excruciating pain. But she
was a Healer, the best Healer in the whole damn Realm, and she was
Lucivar’s sister and Queen. If Marian needed more help than the
Eyrien Healer could provide, Jaenelle would step in, no matter the
cost.
And this time, as long as her own life wasn’t at
risk, he wouldn’t try to stop her.
“I’ll wait for you downstairs.” He was out of the
room and running through the Hall to reach the outer door closest
to the stables and the building that housed the carriages and
Coaches.
The footmen who were on night duty didn’t call to
him, but word must have passed as they figured out his direction
because Beale was waiting at the outer door for him.
“Because of your haste and the late hour, I assumed
the small Coach would be sufficient,” Beale said. “It’s being
brought around to the landing web since that would be more
convenient for the Lady.”
Still panting from the run, Daemon nodded. It
seemed Beale was thinking a lot more clearly than he was. “Guess I
should have contacted you to begin with.”
“You have other things on your mind.”
He hurried through the corridors, buttoning his
shirt as he went, and reached the great hall at the same time
Jaenelle came running down the stairs. They raced out the open
front door to the Coach on the landing web.
Holt waited beside the Coach, dressed in nothing
but a pair of short trousers. As Jaenelle entered the Coach, a
basket suddenly appeared beside the footman. He grabbed it and
shoved it into Daemon’s hands.
“The best Mrs. Beale could do in the time,” Holt
said.
Daemon handed the basket to Jaenelle and took the
driver’s seat while Holt closed the door and moved away from the
landing web.
Jaenelle took the seat beside Daemon, still holding
the basket. “Did Lucivar say anything?”
“He’s scared, he’s grieving, and he’s in
pain.”
She didn’t ask anything else.
He raised the Coach off the landing web, caught the
Black Wind, and raced to Ebon Rih as fast as the Black could take
them.
“Wait until I set this thing down,” Daemon snapped
as Jaenelle started to rise from her seat. “If you fall off the
damn mountain, you won’t help any of us.”
She gave him a look that normally produced a cold
sweat. He ignored the look, just as he ignored the odd way his
hands trembled when he remembered the way Lucivar sounded.
Couldn’t think about that. One of them needed to be
the warrior who could draw the line and defend it. It didn’t sound
like Lucivar was in any shape to defend anything, including
himself.
Especially himself.
Daemon opened the Coach door, and they both rocked
back from the emotions flooding from the eyrie above them.
“Can you deal with him?” Jaenelle asked.
“I’ll deal.”
She left the Coach and raced up the stairs. He
stayed a couple of steps behind her so he wouldn’t trip her. She
ran past Lucivar, who was standing in the flagstone courtyard in
front of the eyrie—standing so perfectly still, as if even a deep
breath might shatter him.
Daemon approached his brother slowly, cautiously.
“Lucivar.”
Lucivar continued to stare straight ahead, but one
tear slipped down his face.
Daemon did a fast psychic probe of the eyrie and
surrounding land. Marian and Nurian, the Eyrien Healer, were inside
with Jaenelle. But the other two people he’d expected to find were
missing. *Father?* he called on a Black spear thread.
*Daemonar is with me at the Keep,* Saetan said.
*Take care of Lucivar.*
*Done.* Knowing the boy was safe, he focused once
again on his brother. “Lucivar?”
“Miscarriage.” Lucivar’s voice broke. “We lost the
baby.”
Mother Night. “I’m sorry.”
Daemon brushed a finger over Lucivar’s shoulder, an
offer of contact with no expectations. A moment later, he was
holding on to a sobbing man.
“Is it my fault, Daemon?” Lucivar asked. “Is it my
fault?”
“How could it be?” Daemon stroked Lucivar’s hair
and added another layer to the soothing spells he was wrapping
around his brother.
“Sh-she got pregnant during the rut. You know what
we’re like during that time. You know. Maybe I damaged her
inside. Maybe . . .”
“Shh.” Daemon rocked him gently. Rocked and
soothed. He had a feeling Saetan was doing much the same thing with
a frightened little boy. “Shh.”
He wouldn’t let Lucivar say it, wouldn’t let
Lucivar keep thinking that. But it was possible, and they both knew
it. That was part of the pain. Until Nurian—or more to the point,
Jaenelle—said otherwise, it was a possibility.
The tears finally eased, but Lucivar still clung to
him. Since he was facing the eyrie, he saw Jaenelle first.
“Prick,” he whispered.
Lucivar straightened up, wiped his eyes, and turned
toward her. Jaenelle studied Lucivar. “If you’ve been out here
grieving, that’s fine. If you’ve been out here blaming yourself,
you’re going to piss off your wife as well as your sister.”
“Cat . . . ?” Lucivar looked so vulnerable.
“There was nothing you had done before—or could
have done now—to change this,” Jaenelle said gently. “The babe
didn’t form right. It couldn’t survive, so Marian’s body released
it. A simple and natural thing, despite how much the heart hurts
because of it.”
“Marian?” Daemon asked.
“She’ll be fine in every way,” Jaenelle said, still
looking at Lucivar. “She needs to rest for a few days—and she needs
to grieve without feeling that you see her grief as a kind of
blame. Marian lost a baby tonight. So did you.” She turned her head
toward the eyrie. “Nurian has everything cleaned up. Go be with
your wife, Lucivar. She needs you.”
Lucivar hesitated. Then he gently touched
Jaenelle’s cheek and went into the eyrie.
Daemon slipped an arm around her waist. “Did you
tell him the truth?”
She gave him a puzzled look. “Why would I tell him
anything else?”
“To spare him if he was responsible for the
miscarriage.”
The air around them chilled. “A smart man wouldn’t
call a Healer a liar,” she said too softly.
“A smart man also knows that Healers sometimes
lie.” He looked in her eyes and waited.
“Healers sometimes lie,” Jaenelle acknowledged.
“But not this time. Blaming himself for something that wasn’t his
fault and wasn’t anything he could have changed is an indulgence
his wife and son can’t afford. Neither can he. If you can’t help
him see that, his father will.”
Interesting. Especially since she sounded
absolutely sure of that.
Nurian walked out of the eyrie, looking tired. “I
have a healing brew simmering on the stove. Needs another ten
minutes.”
“I can finish it,” Jaenelle said.
“I took the linens,” Nurian said, lowering her
voice. “Marian asked if I could get them cleansed, but . . .”
Jaenelle shook her head. “A Black Widow might be
able to cleanse the psychic residue out of the cloth enough to be
acceptable to Marian, but no one is going to be able to cleanse
those linens enough for Lucivar to tolerate. We’ll get them
replaced.”
“I thought that would be the way of it.” Nurian
paused. “Should I wake Jillian and send her to the Keep to watch
Daemonar?”
“Let her sleep. It would be better to have her help
later in the morning when the High Lord needs to rest. You get some
rest too. We’ll be here to look after them.”
“All right. I’ll be back in the morning.”
Spreading her wings, Nurian flew to the eyrie she
shared with her younger sister.
“I’d better keep an eye on that brew.” Jaenelle
gave Daemon a quick kiss and walked into the eyrie.
He was still standing outside an hour later when
Surreal showed up.
“I heard, more or less,” she said as she climbed
the last stair and joined him in the courtyard. “So who needs to be
babied and who needs to be bullied?”
“What did you hear?”
“Something is wrong with Marian. Lucivar is
distraught. Daemonar is staying with Uncle Saetan.” Surreal hooked
her hair behind one ear. “And you’re in trouble, by the way. Mostly
forgiven because it was clear you had left your brains somewhere
between the bedroom and the landing web and couldn’t be relied on
right now.”
He stiffened. “I beg your pardon?”
“Apparently there are rules when there is a family
crisis. You broke the rules.”
“I wasn’t aware of any,” he said coldly.
“Uh-huh. Uncle Saetan is, and after you arrived
here, he contacted Beale, and Beale then informed Mrs. Beale of
where you were and why. Rainier is on his way, but he has to wait
for the first round of food Mrs. Beale has prepared. Chaosti is
also on his way, but he’ll stop at the Hall for whatever wasn’t
ready when Rainier headed out.”
Hell’s fire. Was any of that supposed to make
sense? “Surreal.” “Don’t snarl at me. You’re the one who pissed off
your cook by not telling her there was a family emergency and
asking her to prepare food so none of us needed to think about
that.”
“Marian lost the baby. No one gives a damn about
food right now.”
“Shit.” She looked out over the mountain.
“Shit.”
He didn’t like being jabbed about it, but there
were going to be a lot of people coming and going over the next few
days to give whatever help they could, and they would need to be
fed.
Surreal drew in a breath and huffed it out. “All
right, then. You and Uncle Saetan can baby Marian until she starts
snarling at you, and Jaenelle and I will bully Lucivar.”
He bristled. “Don’t you think Lucivar deserves a
little pampering too?”
She gave him an odd look. “Sugar, to an Eyrien
male, being bullied is a kind of pampering. Don’t ask me
why, but sometimes nothing says ‘I love you’ to a male better than
getting a whack upside the head.”
She walked into the eyrie, leaving him out there to
ponder the perversity of his own gender and the mystery of
hers.