CHAPTER III
THE CONNOISSEUR OF KISSES
FROM HIS UNDERGRADUATE DAYS as editor of The
Harvard Crimson Richard Caramel had desired to write. But as a
senior he had picked up the glorified illusion that certain men
were set aside for “service” and, going into the world, were to
accomplish a vague yearnful something which would react either in
eternal reward or, at the least, in the personal satisfaction of
having striven for the greatest good of the greatest number.
This spirit has long rocked the colleges in
America. It begins, as a rule, during the immaturities and facile
impressions of freshman year—sometimes back in preparatory school.
Prosperous apostles known for their emotional acting go the rounds
of the universities and, by frightening the amiable sheep and
dulling the quickening of interest and intellectual curiosity which
is the purpose of all education, distil a mysterious conviction of
sin, harking back to childhood crimes and to the ever-present
menace of “women.” To these lectures go the wicked youths to cheer
and joke and the timid to swallow the tasty pills, which would be
harmless if administered to farmers’ wives and pious drug-clerks
but are rather dangerous medicine for these “future leaders of
men.”
This octopus was strong enough to wind a sinuous
tentacle about Richard Caramel. The year after his graduation it
called him into the slums of New York to muck about with bewildered
Italians as secretary to an “Alien Young Men’s Rescue Association.”
He labored at it over a year before the monotony began to weary
him. The aliens kept coming inexhaustibly—Italians, Poles,
Scandinavians, Czechs, Armenians—with the same wrongs, the same
exceptionally ugly faces and very much the same smells, though he
fancied that these grew more profuse and diverse as the months
passed. His eventual conclusions about the expediency of service
were vague, but concerning his own relation to it they were abrupt
and decisive. Any amiable young man, his head ringing with the
latest crusade, could accomplish as much as he could with the
debris of Europe—and it was time for him to write.
He had been living in a down-town Y.M.C.A., but
when he quit the task of making sow-ear purses out of sows’ ears,
he moved up-town and went to work immediately as a reporter for The
Sun. He kept at this for a year, doing desultory writing on the
side, with little success, and then one day an infelicitous
incident peremptorily closed his newspaper career. On a February
afternoon he was assigned to report a parade of Squadron A. Snow
threatening, he went to sleep instead before a hot fire, and when
he woke up did a smooth column about the muffled beats of the
horses’ hoofs in the snow.... This he handed in. Next morning a
marked copy of the paper was sent down to the City Editor with a
scrawled note: “Fire the man who wrote this.” It seemed that
Squadron A had also seen the snow threatening—and had postponed the
parade until another day.
A week later he had begun “The Demon Lover.”
...
In January, the Monday of the months, Richard
Caramel’s nose was blue constantly, a sardonic blue, vaguely
suggestive of the flames licking around a sinner. His book was
nearly ready, and as it grew in completeness it seemed to grow also
in its demands, sapping him, overpowering him, until he walked
haggard and conquered in its shadow. Not only to Anthony and Maury
did he pour out his hopes and boasts and indecisions, but to any
one who could be prevailed upon to listen. He called on polite but
bewildered publishers, he discussed it with his casual vis-a-vis at
the Harvard Club; it was even claimed by Anthony that he had been
discovered, one Sunday night, debating the transposition of Chapter
Two with a literary ticket-collector in the chill and dismal
recesses of a Harlem subway-station. And latest among his
confidantes was Mrs. Gilbert, who sat with him by the hour and
alternated between Bilphism and literature in an intense
cross-fire.
“Shakespeare was a Bilphist,” she assured him
through a fixed smile. “Oh, yes! He was a Bilphist. It’s been
proved.”
At this Dick would look a bit blank.
“If you’ve read ‘Hamlet’ you can’t help but
see.”
“Well, he—he lived in a more credulous age—a more
religious age.
But she demanded the whole loaf:
“Oh, yes, but you see Bilphism isn’t a religion.
It’s the science of all religions.” She smiled defiantly at him.
This was the bon mot of her belief. There was something in
the arrangement of words which grasped her mind so definitely that
the statement became superior to any obligation to define itself.
It is not unlikely that she would have accepted any idea encased in
this radiant formula—which was perhaps not a formula; it was the
reductio ad absurdumg of all
formulas.
Then eventually, but gorgeously, would come Dick’s
turn.
“You’ve heard of the new poetry movement. You
haven’t? Well, it’s a lot of young poets that are breaking away
from the old forms and doing a lot of good. Well, what I was going
to say was that my book is going to start a new prose movement, a
sort of renaissance.”
“I’m sure it will,” beamed Mrs. Gilbert. “I’m
sure it will. I went to Jenny Martin last Tuesday, the
palmist, you know, that every one’s mad about. I told her my
nephew was engaged upon a work and she said she knew I’d be glad to
hear that his success would be extraordinary. But she’d
never seen you or known anything about you—not even your
name.”
Having made the proper noises to express his
amazement at this astounding phenomenon, Dick waved her theme by
him as though he were an arbitrary traffic policeman, and, so to
speak, beckoned forward his own traffic.
“I’m absorbed, Aunt Catherine,” he assured her, “I
really am. All my friends are joshing me—oh, I see the humor in it
and I don’t care. I think a person ought to be able to take
joshing. But I’ve got a sort of conviction,” he concluded
gloomily.
“You’re an ancient soul, I always say.”
“Maybe I am.” Dick had reached the stage where he
no longer fought, but submitted. He must be an ancient soul,
he fancied grotesquely; so old as to be absolutely rotten. However,
the reiterationof the phrase still somewhat embarrassed him and
sent uncomfortable shivers up his back. He changed the
subject.
“Where is my distinguished cousin Gloria?”
“She’s on the go somewhere, with some one.”
Dick paused, considered, and then, screwing up his
face into what was evidently begun as a smile but ended as a
terrifying frown, delivered a comment.
“I think my friend Anthony Patch is in love with
her.”
Mrs. Gilbert started, beamed half a second too
late, and breathed her “Really?” in the tone of a detective
play-whisper.
“I think so,” corrected Dick gravely. “She’s
the first girl I’ve ever seen him with, so much.”
“Well, of course,” said Mrs. Gilbert with
meticulous carelessness, “Gloria never makes me her confidante.
She’s very secretive. Between you and me”—she bent forward
cautiously, obviously determined that only Heaven and her nephew
should share her confession—“between you and me, I’d like to see
her settle down.”
Dick arose and paced the floor earnestly, a small,
active, already rotund young man, his hands thrust unnaturally into
his bulging pockets.
“I’m not claiming I’m right, mind you,” he assured
the infinitely-of-the-hotel steel-engraving which smirked
respectably back at him. “I’m saying nothing that I’d want Gloria
to know. But I think Mad Anthony is interested—tremendously so. He
talks about her constantly. In any one else that’d be a bad
sign.”
“Gloria is a very young soul—” began Mrs. Gilbert
eagerly, but her nephew interrupted with a hurried sentence:
“Gloria’d be a very young nut not to marry him.” He
stopped and faced her, his expression a battle map of lines and
dimples, squeezed and strained to its ultimate show of
intensity—this as if to make up by his sincerity for any
indiscretion in his words. “Gloria’s a wild one, Aunt Catherine.
She’s uncontrollable. How she’s done it I don’t know, but lately
she’s picked up a lot of the funniest friends. She doesn’t seem to
care. And the men she used to go with around New York were—” He
paused for breath.
“Yes-yes-yes,” interjected Mrs. Gilbert, with an
anaemic attempt to hide the immense interest with which she
listened.
“Well,” continued Richard Caramel gravely, “there
it is. I mean that the men she went with and the people she went
with used to be first rate. Now they aren’t.”
Mrs. Gilbert blinked very fast—her bosom trembled,
inflated, remained so for an instant, and with the exhalation her
words flowed out in a torrent.
She knew, she cried in a whisper; oh, yes, mothers
see these things. But what could she do? He knew Gloria. He’d seen
enough of Gloria to know how hopeless it was to try to deal with
her. Gloria had been so spoiled—in a rather complete and unusual
way. She had been suckled until she was three, for instance, when
she could probably have chewed sticks. Perhaps—one never knew—it
was this that had given that health and hardiness to her
whole personality. And then ever since she was twelve years old
she’d had boys about her so thick—oh, so thick one couldn’t
move. At sixteen she began going to dances at preparatory
schools, and then came the colleges; and everywhere she went, boys,
boys, boys.1 At first,
oh, until she was eighteen there had been so many that it never
seemed one any more than the others, but then she began to single
them out.
She knew there had been a string of affairs spread
over about three years, perhaps a dozen of them altogether.
Sometimes the men were undergraduates, sometimes just out of
college—they lasted on an average of several months each, with
short attractions in between. Once or twice they had endured longer
and her mother had hoped she would be engaged, but always a new one
came—a new one———
The men? Oh, she made them miserable, literally!
There was only one who had kept any sort of dignity, and he had
been a mere child, young Carter Kirby, of Kansas City, who was so
conceited anyway that he just sailed out on his vanity one
afternoon and left for Europe next day with his father. The others
had been—wretched. They never seemed to know when she was tired of
them, and Gloria had seldom been deliberately unkind. They would
keep phoning, writing letters to her, trying to see her, making
long trips after her around the country. Some of them had confided
in Mrs. Gilbert, told her with tears in their eyes that they would
never get over Gloria ... at least two of them had since married,
though.... But Gloria, it seemed, struck to kill—to this day Mr.
Carstairs called up once a week, and sent her flowers which she no
longer bothered to refuse.
Several times, twice, at least, Mrs. Gilbert knew
it had gone as far as a private engagement—with Tudor Baird and
that Holcome boy at Pasadena. She was sure it had, because—this
must go no further—she had come in unexpectedly and found Gloria
acting, well, very much engaged indeed. She had not spoken to her
daughter, of course. She had had a certain sense of delicacy and,
besides, each time she had expected an announcement in a few weeks.
But the announcement never came; instead, a new man came.
Scenes! Young men walking up and down the library
like caged tigers! Young men glaring at each other in the hall as
one came and the other left! Young men calling up on the telephone
and being hung up upon in desperation! Young men threatening South
America! ... Young men writing the most pathetic letters! (She said
nothing to this effect, but Dick fancied that Mrs. Gilbert’s eyes
had seen some of these letters. )
... And Gloria, between tears and laughter, sorry,
glad, out of love and in love, miserable, nervous, cool, amidst a
great returning of presents, substitution of pictures in immemorial
frames, and taking of hot baths and beginning again—with the
next.
That state of things continued, assumed an air of
permanency. Nothing harmed Gloria or changed her or moved her. And
then out of a clear sky one day she informed her mother that
undergraduates wearied her. She was absolutely going to no more
college dances.
This had begun the change—not so much in her actual
habits, for she danced, and had as many “dates” as ever—but they
were dates in a different spirit. Previously it had been a sort of
pride, a matter of her own vainglory. She had been, probably, the
most celebrated and sought-after young beauty in the country.
Gloria Gilbert of Kansas City! She had fed on it
ruthlessly—enjoying the crowds around her, the manner in which the
most desirable men singled her out; enjoying the fierce jealousy of
other girls; enjoying the fabulous, not to say scandalous, and, her
mother was glad to say, entirely unfounded rumors about her—for
instance, that she had gone in the Yale swimming-pool one night in
a chiffon evening dress.
And from loving it with a vanity that was almost
masculine—it had been in the nature of a triumphant and dazzling
career—she became suddenly anaesthetic to it. She retired. She who
had dominated countless parties, who had blown fragrantly through
many ballrooms to the tender tribute of many eyes, seemed to care
no longer. He who fell in love with her now was dismissed utterly,
almost angrily. She went listlessly with the most indifferent men.
She continually broke engagements, not as in the past from a cool
assurance that she was irreproachable, that the man she insulted
would return like a domestic animal—but indifferently, without
contempt or pride. She rarely stormed at men any more—she yawned at
them. She seemed—and it was so strange—she seemed to her mother to
be growing cold.
Richard Caramel listened. At first he had remained
standing, but as his aunt’s discourse waxed in content—it stands
here pruned by half, of all side references to the youth of
Gloria’s soul and to Mrs. Gilbert’s own mental distresses—he drew a
chair up and attended rigorously as she floated, between tears and
plaintive helplessness, down the long story of Gloria’s life. When
she came to the tale of this last year, a tale of the ends of
cigarettes left all over New York in little trays marked “Midnight
Frolic” and “Justine Johnson’s Little Club,” he began nodding his
head slowly, then faster and faster, until, as she finished on a
staccato note, it was bobbing briskly up and down, absurdly like a
doll’s wired head, expressing—almost anything.
In a sense Gloria’s past was an old story to him.
He had followed it with the eyes of a journalist, for he was going
to write a book about her some day. But his interests, just at
present, were family interests. He wanted to know, in particular,
who was this Joseph Bloeckman that he had seen her with several
times; and those two girls she was with constantly, “this” Rachael
Jerryl and “this” Miss Kane—surely Miss Kane wasn’t exactly the
sort one would associate with Gloria!
But the moment had passed. Mrs. Gilbert having
climbed the hill of exposition was about to glide swiftly down the
ski-jump of collapse. Her eyes were like a blue sky seen through
two round, red window-casements. The flesh about her mouth was
trembling.
And at the moment the door opened, admitting into
the room Gloria and the two young ladies lately mentioned.
Two Young Women
“Well!”
“How do you do, Mrs. Gilbert!”
Miss Kane and Miss Jerryl are presented to Mr.
Richard Caramel. “This is Dick” (laughter).
“I’ve heard so much about you,” says Miss Kane
between a giggle and a shout.
“How do you do,” says Miss Jerryl shyly.
Richard Caramel tries to move about as if his
figure were better. He is torn between his innate cordiality and
the fact that he considers these girls rather common—not at all the
Farmover type.
Gloria has disappeared into the bedroom.
“Do sit down,” beams Mrs. Gilbert, who is by now
quite herself. “Take off your things.” Dick is afraid she will make
some remark about the age of his soul, but he forgets his qualms in
completing a conscientious, novelist’s examination of the two young
women.
Muriel Kane had originated in a rising family of
East Orange. She was short rather than small, and hovered
audaciously between plumpness and width. Her hair was black and
elaborately arranged. This, in conjunction with her handsome,
rather bovine eyes, and her over-red lips, combined to make her
resemble Theda Bara,h the
prominent motion-picture actress. People told her constantly that
she was a “vampire,” and she believed them. She suspected hopefully
that they were afraid of her, and she did her utmost under all
circumstances to give the impression of danger. An imaginative man
could see the red flag that she constantly carried, waving it
wildly, beseechingly—and, alas, to little spectacular avail. She
was also tremendously timely: she knew the latest songs, all the
latest songs—when one of them was played on the phonograph she
would rise to her feet and rock her shoulders back and forth and
snap her fingers, and if there was no music she would accompany
herself by humming.
Her conversation was also timely: “I don’t care,”
she would say, “I should worry and lose my figure”—and again: “I
can’t make my feet behave when I hear that tune. Oh, baby!”
Her finger-nails were too long and ornate, polished
to a pink and unnatural fever. Her clothes were too tight, too
stylish, too vivid, her eyes too roguish, her smile too coy. She
was almost pitifully overemphasized from head to foot.
The other girl was obviously a more subtle
personality. She was an exquisitely dressed Jewess with dark hair
and a lovely milky pallor. She seemed shy and vague, and these two
qualities accentuated a rather delicate charm that floated about
her. Her family were “Episcopalians,” owned three smart women’s
shops along Fifth Avenue, and lived in a magnificent apartment on
Riverside Drive. It seemed to Dick, after a few moments, that she
was attempting to imitate Gloria—he wondered that people invariably
chose inimitable people to imitate.
“We had the most hectic time!” Muriel was
exclaiming enthusiastically. “There was a crazy woman behind us on
the bus. She was absitively, posolutely nutty! She kept
talking to herself about something she’d like to do to somebody or
something. I was petrified, but Gloria simply
wouldn’t get off.”
Mrs. Gilbert opened her mouth, properly awed.
“Really?”
“Oh, she was crazy. But we should worry, she didn’t
hurt us. Ugly! Gracious! The man across from us said her face ought
to be on a night-nurse in a home for the blind, and we all
howled, naturally, so the man tried to pick us up.”
Presently Gloria emerged from her bedroom and in
unison every eye turned on her. The two girls receded into a
shadowy background, unperceived, unmissed.
“We’ve been talking about you,” said Dick quickly,
“—your mother and I.”
“Well,” said Gloria.
A pause—Muriel turned to Dick.
“You’re a great writer, aren’t you?”
“I’m a writer,” he confessed sheepishly.
“I always say,” said Muriel earnestly, “that if I
ever had time to write down all my experiences it’d make a
wonderful book.”
Rachael giggled sympathetically; Richard Caramel’s
bow was almost stately. Muriel continued:
“But I don’t see how you can sit down and do it.
And poetry! Lordy, I can’t make two lines rhyme. Well, I should
worry!”
Richard Caramel with difficulty restrained a shout
of laughter. Gloria was chewing an amazing gum-drop and staring
moodily out the window. Mrs. Gilbert cleared her throat and
beamed.
“But you see,” she said in a sort of universal
exposition, “you’re not an ancient soul—like Richard.”
The Ancient Soul breathed a gasp of relief—it was
out at last.
Then as if she had been considering it for five
minutes, Gloria made a sudden announcement:
“I’m going to give a party.”
“Oh, can I come?” cried Muriel with facetious
daring.
“A dinner. Seven people: Muriel and Rachael and I,
and you, Dick, and Anthony, and that man named Noble—I liked
him—and Bloeckman.”
Muriel and Rachael went into soft and purring
ecstasies of enthusiasm. Mrs. Gilbert blinked and beamed. With an
air of casualness Dick broke in with a question:
“Who is this fellow Bloeckman, Gloria?”
Scenting a faint hostility, Gloria turned to
him.
“Joseph Bloeckman? He’s the moving-picture man.
Vice-president of ‘Films Par Excellence.’ He and father do a lot of
business.”
“Oh!”
“Well, will you all come?”
They would all come. A date was arranged within the
week. Dick rose, adjusted hat, coat, and muffler, and gave out a
general smile.
“By-by,” said Muriel, waving her hand gaily, “call
me up some time.”
Richard Caramel blushed for her.
Deplorable End of the Chevalier O’Keefe
It was Monday and Anthony took Geraldine Burke to
luncheon at the Beaux Arts—afterward they went up to his apartment
and he wheeled out the little rolling-table that held his supply of
liquor, selecting vermouth, gin, and absinthe for a proper
stimulant.
Geraldine Burke, usher at Keith’s, had been an
amusement of several months. She demanded so little that he liked
her, for since a lamentable affair with a débutante the preceding
summer, when he had discovered that after half a dozen kisses a
proposal was expected, he had been wary of girls of his own class.
It was only too easy to turn a critical eye on their imperfections:
some physical harshness or a general lack of personal delicacy—but
a girl who was usher at Keith’s was approached with a different
attitude. One could tolerate qualities in an intimate valet that
would be unforgivable in a mere acquaintance on one’s social
level.
Geraldine, curled up at the foot of the lounge,
considered him with narrow slanting eyes.
“You drink all the time, don’t you?” she said
suddenly.
“Why, I suppose so,” replied Anthony in some
surprise. “Don’t you?”
“Nope. I go on parties sometimes—you know, about
once a week, but I only take two or three drinks. You and your
friends keep on drinking all the time. I should think you’d ruin
your health.”
Anthony was somewhat touched.
“Why, aren’t you sweet to worry about me!”
“Well, I do.”
“I don’t drink so very much,” he declared. “Last
month I didn’t touch a drop for three weeks. And I only get really
tight about once a week.”
“But you have something to drink every day and
you’re only twenty-five. Haven’t you any ambition? Think what
you’ll be at forty?”
“I sincerely trust that I won’t live that
long.”
She clicked her tongue with her teeth.
“You cra-azy!” she said as he mixed another
cocktail—and then: “Are you any relation to Adam Patch?”
“Yes, he’s my grandfather.”
“Really?” She was obviously thrilled.
“Absolutely.”
“That’s funny. My daddy used to work for
him.”
“He’s a queer old man.”
“Is he nice?” she demanded.
“Well, in private life he’s seldom unnecessarily
disagreeable.”
“Tell us about him.”
“Why,” Anthony considered “—he’s all shrunken up
and he’s got the remains of some gray hair that always looks as
though the wind were in it. He’s very moral.”
“He’s done a lot of good,” said Geraldine with
intense gravity.
“Rot!” scoffed Anthony. “He’s a pious ass—a
chicken-brain.”
Her mind left the subject and flitted on.
“Why don’t you live with him?”
“Why don’t I board in a Methodist parsonage?”
“You cra-azy!”
Again she made a little clicking sound to express
disapproval. Anthony thought how moral was this little waif at
heart—how completely moral she would still be after the inevitable
wave came that would wash her off the sands of
respectability.
“Do you hate him?”
“I wonder. I never liked him. You never like people
who do things for you.”
“Does he hate you?”
“My dear Geraldine,” protested Anthony, frowning
humorously, “do have another cocktail. I annoy him. If I smoke a
cigarette he comes into the room sniffing. He’s a prig, a bore, and
something of a hypocrite. I probably wouldn’t be telling you this
if I hadn’t had a few drinks, but I don’t suppose it
matters.”
Geraldine was persistently interested. She held her
glass, untasted, between finger and thumb and regarded him with
eyes in which there was a touch of awe.
“How do you mean a hypocrite?”
“Well,” said Anthony impatiently, “maybe he’s not.
But he doesn’t like the things that I like, and so, as far as I’m
concerned, he’s uninteresting.”
“Hm.” Her curiosity seemed, at length, satisfied.
She sank back into the sofa and sipped her cocktail.
“You’re a funny one,” she commented thoughtfully
“Does everybody want to marry you because your grandfather is
rich?”
“They don’t—but I shouldn’t blame them if they did.
Still, you see, I never intend to marry.”
She scorned this.
“You’ll fall in love some day. Oh, you will—I
know.” She nodded wisely.
“It’d be idiotic to be overconfident. That’s what
ruined the Chevalier O’Keefe.”
“Who was he?”
“A creature of my splendid mind. He’s my one
creation, the Chevalier.”
“Cra-a-azy!” she murmured pleasantly, using the
clumsy rope-ladder with which she bridged all gaps and climbed
after her mental superiors. Subconsciously she felt that it
eliminated distances and brought the person whose imagination had
eluded her back within range.
“Oh, no!” objected Anthony, “oh, no, Geraldine. You
mustn’t play the alienist upon the Chevalier. If you feel yourself
unable to understand him I won’t bring him in. Besides, I should
feel a certain uneasiness because of his regrettable
reputation.”
“I guess I can understand anything that’s got any
sense to it,” answered Geraldine a bit testily.
“In that case there are various episodes in the
life of the Chevalier which might prove diverting.”
“Well?”
“It was his untimely end that caused me to think of
him and made him apropos in the conversation. I hate to introduce
him end foremost, but it seems inevitable that the Chevalier must
back into your life.”
“Well, what about him? Did he die?”
“He did! In this manner. He was an Irishman,
Geraldine, a semi-fictional Irishman—the wild sort with a genteel
brogue and ‘reddish hair.’ He was exiled from Erin in the late days
of chivalry and, of course, crossed over to France. Now the
Chevalier O’Keefe, Geraldine, had, like me, one weakness. He was
enormously susceptible to all sorts and conditions of women.
Besides being a sentimentalist he was a romantic, a vain fellow, a
man of wild passions, a little blind in one eye and almost
stone-blind in the other. Now a male roaming the world in this
condition is as helpless as a lion without teeth, and in
consequence the Chevalier was made utterly miserable for twenty
years by a series of women who hated him, used him, bored him,
aggravated him, sickened him, spent his money, made a fool of
him—in brief, as the world has it, loved him.
“This was bad, Geraldine, and as the Chevalier,
save for this one weakness, this exceeding susceptibility, was a
man of penetration, he decided that he would rescue himself once
and for all from these drains upon him. With this purpose he went
to a very famous monastery in Champagne called—well,
anachronistically known as St. Voltaire’s. It was the rule at St.
Voltaire’s that no monk could descend to the ground story of the
monastery so long as he lived, but should exist engaged in prayer
and contemplation in one of the four towers, which were called
after the four commandments of the monastery rule: Poverty,
Chastity, Obedience, and Silence.
“When the day came that was to witness the
Chevalier’s farewell to the world he was utterly happy. He gave all
his Greek books to his landlady, and his sword he sent in a golden
sheath to the King of France, and all his mementos of Ireland he
gave to the young Huguenot who sold fish in the street where he
lived.
“Then he rode out to St. Voltaire’s, slew his horse
at the door, and presented the carcass to the monastery cook.
“At five o’clock that night he felt, for the first
time, free—forever free from sex. No woman could enter the
monastery; no monk could descend below the second story. So as he
climbed the winding stair that led to his cell at the very top of
the Tower of Chastity he paused for a moment by an open window
which looked down fifty feet on to a road below. It was all so
beautiful, he thought, this world that he was leaving, the golden
shower of sun beating down upon the long fields, the spray of trees
in the distance, the vineyards, quiet and green, freshening wide
miles before him. He leaned his elbows on the window-casement and
gazed at the winding road.
“Now, as it happened, Therese, a peasant girl of
sixteen from a neighboring village, was at that moment passing
along this same road that ran in front of the monastery. Five
minutes before, the little piece of ribbon which held up the
stocking on her pretty left leg had worn through and broken. Being
a girl of rare modesty she had thought to wait until she arrived
home before repairing it, but it had bothered her to such an extent
that she felt she could endure it no longer. So, as she passed the
Tower of Chastity, she stopped and with a pretty gesture lifted her
skirt—as little as possible, be it said to her credit—to adjust her
garter.
“Up in the tower the newest arrival in the ancient
monastery of St. Voltaire, as though pulled forward by a gigantic
and irresistible hand, leaned from the window. Further he leaned
and further until suddenly one of the stones loosened under his
weight, broke from its cement with a soft powdery sound—and, first
headlong, then head over heels, finally in a vast and impressive
revolution tumbled the Chevalier O’Keefe, bound for the hard earth
and eternal damnation.
“Thérèse was so much upset by the occurrence that
she ran all the way home and for ten years spent an hour a day in
secret prayer for the soul of the monk whose neck and vows were
simultaneously broken on that unfortunate Sunday afternoon.
“And the Chevalier O’Keefe, being suspected of
suicide, was not buried in consecrated ground, but tumbled into a
field near by, where he doubtless improved the quality of the soil
for many years afterward. Such was the untimely end of a very brave
and gallant gentleman. What do you think, Geraldine?”
But Geraldine, lost long before, could only smile
roguishly, wave her first finger at him, and repeat her bridge-all,
her explain-all:
“Crazy!” she said, “you cra-a-azy!”
His thin face was kindly, she thought, and his eyes
quite gentle. She liked him because he was arrogant without being
conceited, and because, unlike the men she met about the theatre,
he had a horror of being conspicuous. What an odd, pointless story!
But she had enjoyed the part about the stocking!
After the fifth cocktail he kissed her, and between
laughter and bantering caresses and a half-stifled flare of passion
they passed an hour. At four-thirty she claimed an engagement, and
going into the bathroom she rearranged her hair. Refusing to let
him order her a taxi she stood for a moment in the doorway.
“You will get married,” she was insisting,
“you wait and see.”
Anthony was playing with an ancient tennis-ball,
and he bounced it carefully on the floor several times before he
answered with a soupçon of acidity:
“You’re a little idiot, Geraldine.”
She smiled provokingly.
“Oh, I am, am I? Want to bet?”
“That’d be silly too.”
“Oh, it would, would it? Well, I’ll just bet you’ll
marry somebody inside of a year.”
Anthony bounced the tennis-ball very hard. This was
one of his handsome days, she thought; a sort of intensity had
displaced the melancholy in his dark eyes.
“Geraldine,” he said, at length, “in the first
place I have no one I want to marry; in the second place I haven’t
enough money to support two people; in the third place I am
entirely opposed to marriage for people of my type; in the fourth
place I have a strong distaste for even the abstract consideration
of it.”
But Geraldine only narrowed her eyes knowingly,
made her clicking sound, and said she must be going. It was
late.
“Call me up soon,” she reminded him as he kissed
her good-by, “you haven’t for three weeks, you know.”
“I will,” he promised fervently.
He shut the door and coming back into the room
stood for a moment lost in thought with the tennis-ball still
clasped in his hand. There was one of his lonelinesses coming, one
of those times when he walked the streets or sat, aimless and
depressed, biting a pencil at his desk. It was a self-absorption
with no comfort, a demand for expression with no outlet, a sense of
time rushing by, ceaselessly and wastefully—assuaged only by that
conviction that there was nothing to waste, because all efforts and
attainments were equally valueless.
He thought with emotion—aloud, ejaculative, for he
was hurt and confused.
“No idea of getting married, by
God!”
Of a sudden he hurled the tennis-ball violently
across the room, where it barely missed the lamp, and, rebounding
here and there for a moment, lay still upon the floor.
Signlight and Moonlight
For her dinner Gloria had taken a table in the
Cascades at the Biltmore, and when the men met in the hall outside
a little after eight, “that person Bloeckman” was the target of six
masculine eyes. He was a stoutening, ruddy Jew of about
thirty-five, with an expressive face under smooth sandy hair—and,
no doubt, in most business gatherings his personality would have
been considered ingratiating. He sauntered up to the three younger
men, who stood in a group smoking as they waited for their hostess,
and introduced himself with a little too evident
assurance—nevertheless it is to be doubted whether he received the
intended impression of faint and ironic chill: there was no hint of
understanding in his manner.
“You related to Adam J. Patch?” he inquired of
Anthony, emitting two slender strings of smoke from nostrils
overwide.
Anthony admitted it with the ghost of a
smile.
“He’s a fine man,” pronounced Bloeckman profoundly.
“He’s a fine example of an American.”
“Yes,” agreed Anthony, “he certainly is.”
—I detest these underdone men, he thought coldly.
Boiled looking ! Ought to be shoved back in the oven; just one more
minute would do it.
Bloeckman squinted at his watch.
“Time these girls were showing up...”
—Anthony waited breathlessly; it came——
“...but then,” with a widening smile, “you know how
women are.”
The three young men nodded; Bloeckman looked
casually about him, his eyes resting critically on the ceiling and
then passing lower. His expression combined that of a
Middle-Western farmer appraising his wheat-crop and that of an
actor wondering whether he is observed—the public manner of all
good Americans. As he finished his survey he turned back quickly to
the reticent trio, determined to strike to their very heart and
core.
“You college men? ... Harvard, eh. I see the
Princeton boys beat you fellows in hockey.”
Unfortunate man. He had drawn another blank. They
had been three years out and heeded only the big football games.
Whether, after the failure of this sally, Mr. Bloeckman would have
perceived himself to be in a cynical atmosphere is problematical,
for—
Gloria arrived. Muriel arrived. Rachael arrived.
After a hurried “Hello, people!” uttered by Gloria and echoed by
the other two, the three swept by into the dressing-room.
A moment later Muriel appeared in a state of
elaborate undress and crept toward them. She was in her
element: her ebony hair was slicked straight back on her head; her
eyes were artificially darkened; she reeked of insistent perfume.
She was got up to the best of her ability as a siren, more
popularly a “vamp”—a picker up and thrower away of men, an
unscrupulous and fundamentally unmoved toyer with affections.
Something in the exhaustiveness of her attempt fascinated Maury at
first sight—a woman with wide hips affecting a pantherlike
litheness! As they waited the extra three minutes for Gloria, and,
by polite assumption, for Rachael, he was unable to take his eyes
from her. She would turn her head away, lowering her eyelashes and
biting her nether lip in an amazing exhibition of coyness. She
would rest her hands on her hips and sway from side to side in tune
to the music, saying:
“Did you ever hear such perfect ragtime? I just
can’t make my shoulders behave when I hear that.”
Mr. Bloeckman clapped his hands gallantly.
“You ought to be on the stage.”
“I’d like to be!” cried Muriel; “will you back
me?”
“I sure will.”
With becoming modesty Muriel ceased her motions and
turned to Maury, asking what he had “seen” this year. He
interpreted this as referring to the dramatic world, and they had a
gay and exhilarating exchange of titles, after this manner:
MURIEL: Have you seen “Peg o’ My Heart”?
MAURY: No, I haven’t.
MURIEL: (Eagerly) It’s wonderful! You want
to see it.
MAURY: Have you seen “Omar, the Tentmaker”?
MURIEL: No, but I hear it’s wonderful. I’m very
anxious to see it. Have you seen “Fair and Warmer”?
MAURY: (Hopefully) Yes.
MURIEL: I don’t think it’s very good. It’s
trashy.
MAURY: (Faintly) Yes, that’s true.
MURIEL: But I went to “Within the Law” last night
and I thought it was fine. Have you seen “The Little Café”?
...
This continued until they ran out of plays. Dick,
meanwhile, turned to Mr. Bloeckman, determined to extract what gold
he could from this unpromising load.
“I hear all the new novels are sold to the moving
pictures as soon as they come out.”
“That’s true. Of course the main thing in a moving
picture is a strong story.”
“Yes, I suppose so.”
“So many novels are all full of talk and
psychology. Of course those aren’t as valuable to us. It’s
impossible to make much of that interesting on the screen.”
“You want plots first,” said Richard
brilliantly.
“Of course. Plots first—” He paused, shifted his
gaze. His pause spread, included the others with all the authority
of a warning finger. Gloria followed by Rachael was coming out of
the dressing-room.
Among other things it developed during dinner that
Joseph Bloeckman never danced, but spent the music time watching
the others with the bored tolerance of an elder among children. He
was a dignified man and a proud one. Born in Munich he had begun
his American career as a peanut vender with a travelling circus. At
eighteen he was a side-show bally-hoo; later, the manager of the
side-show, and, soon after, the proprietor of a second-class
vaudeville house. Just when the moving picture had passed out of
the stage of a curiosity and become a promising industry he was an
ambitious young man of twenty-six with some money to invest,
nagging financial ambitions and a good working knowledge of the
popular show business. That had been nine years before. The
moving-picture industry had borne him up with it where it threw off
dozens of men with more financial ability, more imagination, and
more practical ideas ... and now he sat here and contemplated the
immortal Gloria for whom young Stuart Holcome had gone from New
York to Pasadena—watched her, and knew that presently she would
cease dancing and come back to sit on his left hand.
He hoped she would hurry. The oysters had been
standing some minutes.
Meanwhile Anthony, who had been placed on Gloria’s
left hand, was dancing with her, always in a certain fourth of the
floor. This, had there been stags, would have been a delicate
tribute to the girl, meaning “Damn you, don’t cut in!” It was very
consciously intimate.
“Well,” he began, looking down at her, “you look
mighty sweet to-night.”
She met his eyes over the horizontal half foot that
separated them.
“Thank you—Anthony.”
“In fact you’re uncomfortably beautiful,” he added.
There was no smile this time.
“And you’re very charming.”
“Isn’t this nice?” he laughed. “We actually approve
of each other.”
“Don’t you, usually?” She had caught quickly at his
remark, as she always did at any unexplained allusion to herself,
however faint.
He lowered his voice, and when he spoke there was
in it no more than a wisp of badinage.
“Does a priest approve the Pope?”
“I don’t know—but that’s probably the vaguest
compliment I ever received.”
“Perhaps I can muster a few bromides.”
“Well, I wouldn’t have you strain yourself. Look at
Muriel! Right here next to us.”
“He’s a rag-picker,
A rag-picker,
A rag-time picking man,
Rag-picking, picking, pick, pick,
Rag-pick, pick, pick.”i
A rag-picker,
A rag-time picking man,
Rag-picking, picking, pick, pick,
Rag-pick, pick, pick.”i
He glanced over his shoulder. Muriel was resting
her brilliant cheek against the lapel of Maury Noble’s dinner-coat
and her powdered left arm was apparently twisted around his head.
One was impelled to wonder why she failed to seize the nape of his
neck with her hand. Her eyes, turned ceiling-ward, rolled largely
back and forth; her hips swayed, and as she danced she kept up a
constant low singing. This at first seemed to be a translation of
the song into some foreign tongue but became eventually apparent as
an attempt to fill out the metre of the song with the only words
she knew—the words of the title——and so on, into phrases still more
strange and barbaric. When she caught the amused glances of Anthony
and Gloria she acknowledged them only with a faint smile and a
half-closing of her eyes, to indicate that the music entering into
her soul had put her into an ecstatic and exceedingly seductive
trance.
The music ended and they returned to their table,
whose solitary but dignified occupant arose and tendered each of
them a smile so ingratiating that it was as if he were shaking
their hands and congratulating them on a brilliant
performance.
“Blockhead never will dance! I think he has a
wooden leg,” remarked Gloria to the table at large. The three young
men started and the gentleman referred to winced perceptibly.
This was the one rough spot in the course of
Bloeckman’s acquaintance with Gloria. She relentlessly punned on
his name. First it had been “Block-house,” lately, the more
invidious “Blockhead.” He had requested with a strong undertone of
irony that she use his first name, and this she had done obediently
several times—then slipping, helpless, repentant but dissolved in
laughter, back into “Blockhead.”
It was a very sad and thoughtless thing.
“I’m afraid Mr. Bloeckman thinks we’re a frivolous
crowd,” sighed Muriel, waving a balanced oyster in his
direction.
“He has that air,” murmured Rachael. Anthony tried
to remember whether she had said anything before. He thought not.
It was her initial remark.
Mr. Bloeckman suddenly cleared his throat and said
in a loud, distinct voice:
“On the contrary. When a man speaks he’s merely
tradition. He has at best a few thousand years back of him. But
woman, why, she is the miraculous mouthpiece of posterity.”
In the stunned pause that followed this astounding
remark, Anthony choked suddenly on an oyster and hurried his napkin
to his face. Rachael and Muriel raised a mild if somewhat surprised
laugh, in which Dick and Maury joined, both of them red in the face
and restraining uproariousness with the most apparent
difficulty.
“—My God!” thought Anthony. “It’s a subtitle from
one of his movies. The man’s memorized it!”
Gloria alone made no sound. She fixed Mr. Bloeckman
with a glance of silent reproach.
“Well, for the love of Heaven! Where on earth did
you dig that up
Bloeckman looked at her uncertainly, not sure of
her intention. But in a moment he recovered his poise and assumed
the bland and consciously tolerant smile of an intellectual among
spoiled and callow youth.
The soup came up from the kitchen—but
simultaneously the orchestra leader came up from the bar, where he
had absorbed the tone color inherent in a seidel of beer. So the
soup was left to cool during the delivery of a ballad entitled
“Everything’s at Home Except Your Wife.”
Then the champagne—and the party assumed more
amusing proportions. The men, except Richard Caramel, drank freely;
Gloria and Muriel sipped a glass apiece; Rachael Jerryl took none.
They sat out the waltzes but danced to everything else—all except
Gloria, who seemed to tire after a while and preferred to sit
smoking at the table, her eyes now lazy, now eager, according to
whether she listened to Bloeckman or watched a pretty woman among
the dancers. Several times Anthony wondered what Bloeckman was
telling her. He was chewing a cigar back and forth in his mouth,
and had expanded after dinner to the extent of violent
gestures.
Ten o’clock found Gloria and Anthony beginning a
dance. Just as they were out of ear-shot of the table she said in a
low voice:
“Dance over by the door. I want to go down to the
drug-store.”
Obediently Anthony guided her through the crowd in
the designated direction; in the hall she left him for a moment, to
reappear with a cloak over her arm.
“I want some gum-drops,” she said, humorously
apologetic; “you can’t guess what for this time. It’s just that I
want to bite my finger-nails, and I will if I don’t get some
gum-drops.” She sighed, and resumed as they stepped into the empty
elevator: “I’ve been biting’em all day. A bit nervous, you see.
Excuse the pun. It was unintentional—the words just arranged
themselves. Gloria Gilbert, the female wag.”
Reaching the ground floor they naively avoided the
hotel candy counter, descended the wide front staircase, and
walking through several corridors found a drug-store in the Grand
Central Station. After an intense examination of the perfume
counter she made her purchase. Then on some mutual unmentioned
impulse they strolled, arm in arm, not in the direction from which
they had come, but out into Forty-third Street.
The night was alive with thaw; it was so nearly
warm that a breeze drifting low along the sidewalk brought to
Anthony a vision of an unhoped-for hyacinthine spring. Above in the
blue oblong of sky, around them in the caress of the drifting air,
the illusion of a new season carried relief from the stiff and
breathed-over atmosphere they had left, and for a hushed moment the
traffic sounds and the murmur of water flowing in the gutters
seemed an illusive and rarefied prolongation of that music to which
they had lately danced. When Anthony spoke it was with surety that
his words came from something breathless and desirous that the
night had conceived in their two hearts.
“Let’s take a taxi and ride around a bit!” he
suggested, without looking at her.
Oh, Gloria, Gloria!
A cab yawned at the curb. As it moved off like a
boat on a labyrinthine ocean and lost itself among the inchoate
night masses of the great buildings, among the now stilled, now
strident, cries and clangings, Anthony put his arm around the girl,
drew her over to him and kissed her damp, childish mouth.
She was silent. She turned her face up to him, pale
under the wisps and patches of light that trailed in like moonshine
through a foliage. Her eyes were gleaming ripples in the white lake
of her face; the shadows of her hair bordered the brow with a
persuasive unintimate dusk. No love was there, surely; nor the
imprint of any love. Her beauty was cool as this damp breeze, as
the moist softness of her own lips.
“You’re such a swan in this light,” he whispered
after a moment. There were silences as murmurous as sound. There
were pauses that seemed about to shatter and were only to be
snatched back to oblivion by the tightening of his arms about her
and the sense that she was resting there as a caught, gossamer
feather, drifted in out of the dark. Anthony laughed, noiselessly
and exultantly, turning his face up and away from her, half in an
overpowering rush of triumph, half lest her sight of him should
spoil the splendid immobility of her expression. Such a kiss—it was
a flower held against the face, never to be described, scarcely to
be remembered; as though her beauty were giving off emanations of
itself which settled transiently and already dissolving upon his
heart.
... The buildings fell away in melted shadows; this
was the Park now, and after a long while the great white ghost of
the Metropolitan Museum moved majestically past, echoing sonorously
to the rush of the cab.
“Why, Gloria! Why, Gloria!”
Her eyes appeared to regard him out of many
thousand years: all emotion she might have felt, all words she
might have uttered, would have seemed inadequate beside the
adequacy of her silence, ineloquent against the eloquence of her
beauty—and of her body, close to him, slender and cool.
“Tell him to turn around,” she murmured, “and drive
pretty fast going back....”
Up in the supper-room the air was hot. The table,
littered with napkins and ash-trays, was old and stale. It was
between dances as they entered, and Muriel Kane looked up with
roguishness extraordinary.
“Well, where have you been?”
“To call up mother,” answered Gloria coolly. “I
promised her I would. Did we miss a dance?”
Then followed an incident that though slight in
itself Anthony had cause to reflect on many years afterward. Joseph
Bloeckman, leaning well back in his chair, fixed him with a
peculiar glance, in which several emotions were curiously and
inextricably mingled. He did not greet Gloria except by rising, and
he immediately resumed a conversation with Richard Caramel about
the influence of literature on the moving pictures.
Magic
The stark and unexpected miracle of a night fades
out with the lingering death of the last stars and the premature
birth of the first newsboys. The flame retreats to some remote and
platonic fire; the white heat has gone from the iron and the glow
from the coal.
Along the shelves of Anthony’s library, filling a
wall amply, crept a chill and insolent pencil of sunlight touching
with frigid disapproval Therese of France and Ann the Superwoman,
Jenny of the Orient Ballet and Zuleika the Conjurer—and Hoosier
Cora—then down a shelf and into the years, resting pityingly on the
over-invoked shades of Helen, Thaïs, Salome, and Cleopatra.j
Anthony, shaved and bathed, sat in his most deeply
cushioned chair and watched it until at the steady rising of the
sun it lay glinting for a moment on the silk-ends of the rug—and
went out.
It was ten o‘clock. The Sunday Times, scattered
about his feet, proclaimed by rotogravure and editorial, by social
revelation and sporting sheet, that the world had been tremendously
engrossed during the past week in the business of moving toward
some splendid if somewhat indeterminate goal. For his part Anthony
had been once to his grandfather’s, twice to his broker‘s, and
three times to his tailor’s—and in the last hour of the week’s last
day he had kissed a very beautiful and charming girl.
When he reached home his imagination had been
teeming with high-pitched, unfamiliar dreams. There was suddenly no
question on his mind, no eternal problem for a solution and
resolution. He had experienced an emotion that was neither mental
nor physical, nor merely a mixture of the two, and the love of life
absorbed him for the present to the exclusion of all else. He was
content to let the experiment remain isolated and unique.
Almost impersonally he was convinced that no woman
he had ever met compared in any way with Gloria. She was deeply
herself; she was immeasurably sincere—of these things he was
certain. Beside her the two dozen schoolgirls and debutantes, young
married women and waifs and strays whom he had known were so many
females, in the word’s most contemptuous sense, breeders and
bearers, exuding still that faintly odorous atmosphere of the cave
and the nursery.
So far as he could see, she had neither submitted
to any will of his nor caressed his vanity—except as her pleasure
in his company was a caress. Indeed he had no reason for thinking
she had given him aught that she did not give to others. This was
as it should be. The idea of an entanglement growing out of the
evening was as remote as it would have been repugnant. And she had
disclaimed and buried the incident with a decisive untruth. Here
were two young people with fancy enough to distinguish a game from
its reality—who by the very casualness with which they met and
passed on would proclaim themselves unharmed.
Having decided this he went to the phone and called
up the Plaza Hotel.
Gloria was out. Her mother knew neither where she
had gone nor when she would return.
It was somehow at this point that the first
wrongness in the case asserted itself. There was an element of
callousness, almost of indecency, in Gloria’s absence from home. He
suspected that by going out she had intrigued him into a
disadvantage. Returning she would find his name, and smile. Most
discreetly! He should have waited a few hours in order to drive
home the utter inconsequence with which he regarded the incident.
What an asinine blunder! She would think he considered himself
particularly favored. She would think he was reacting with the most
inept intimacy to a quite trivial episode.
He remembered that during the previous month his
janitor, to whom he had delivered a rather muddled lecture on the
“brotherhoove man,” had come up next day and, on the basis of what
had happened the night before, seated himself in the window-seat
for a cordial and chatty half-hour. Anthony wondered in horror if
Gloria would regard him as he had regarded that man. Him—Anthony
Patch! Horror!
It never occurred to him that he was a passive
thing, acted upon by an influence above and beyond Gloria, that he
was merely the sensitive plate on which the photograph was made.
Some gargantuan photographer had focussed the camera on Gloria and
snap! the poor plate could but develop, confined like all
things to its nature.
But Anthony, lying upon his couch and staring at
the orange lamp, passed his thin fingers incessantly through his
dark hair and made new symbols for the hours. She was in a shop
now, it seemed, moving lithely among the velvets and the furs, her
own dress making, as she walked, a debonair rustle in that world of
silken rustles and cool soprano laughter and scents of many slain
but living flowers. The Minnies and Pearls and Jewels and Jennies
would gather round her like courtiers, bearing wispy frailties of
Georgette crepe, delicate chiffon to echo her cheeks in faint
pastel, milky lace to rest in pale disarray against her neck—damask
was used but to cover priests and divans in these days, and cloth
of Samarand was remembered only by the romantic poets.
She would go elsewhere after a while, tilting her
head a hundred ways under a hundred bonnets, seeking in vain for
mock cherries to match her lips or plumes that were graceful as her
own supple body.
Noon would come—she would hurry along Fifth Avenue,
a Nordic Ganymede,k her
fur coat swinging fashionably with her steps, her cheeks redder by
a stroke of the wind’s brush, her breath a delightful mist upon the
bracing air—and the doors of the Ritz would revolve, the crowd
would divide, fifty masculine eyes would start, stare, as she gave
back forgotten dreams to the husbands of many obese and comic
women.
One o’clock. With her fork she would tantalize the
heart of an adoring artichoke, while her escort served himself up
in the thick, dripping sentences of an enraptured man.
Four o’clock: her little feet moving to melody, her
face distinct in the crowd, her partner happy as a petted puppy and
mad as the immemorial hatter.... Then—then night would come
drifting down and perhaps another damp. The signs would spill their
light into the street. Who knew? No wiser than he, they haply
sought to recapture that picture done in cream and shadow they had
seen on the hushed Avenue the night before. And they might, ah,
they might! A thousand taxis would yawn at a thousand corners, and
only to him was that kiss forever lost and done. In a thousand
guises Thais would hail a cab and turn up her face for loving. And
her pallor would be virginal and lovely, and her kiss chaste as the
moon....
He sprang excitedly to his feet. How inappropriate
that she should be out! He had realized at last what he wanted—to
kiss her again, to find rest in her great immobility. She was the
end of all restlessness, all malcontent.
Anthony dressed and went out, as he should have
done long before, and down to Richard Caramel’s room to hear the
last revision of the last chapter of “The Demon Lover.” He did not
call Gloria again until six. He did not find her in until eight
and—oh, climax of anticlimaxes!—she could give him no engagement
until Tuesday afternoon. A broken piece of gutta-percha clattered
to the floor as he banged up the phone.
Black Magic
Tuesday was freezing cold. He called at a bleak
two o’clock and as they shook hands he wondered confusedly whether
he had ever kissed her; it was almost unbelievable—he seriously
doubted if she remembered it.
“I called you four times on Sunday,” he told
her.
“Did you?”
There was surprise in her voice and interest in her
expression. Silently he cursed himself for having told her. He
might have known her pride did not deal in such petty triumphs.
Even then he had not guessed at the truth—that never having had to
worry about men she had seldom used the wary subterfuges, the
playings out and haulings in, that were the stock in trade of her
sisterhood. When she liked a man, that was trick enough. Did she
think she loved him—there was an ultimate and fatal thrust. Her
charm endlessly preserved itself.
“I was anxious to see you,” he said simply. “I want
to talk to you—I mean really talk, somewhere where we can be alone.
May I?”
“What do you mean?”
He swallowed a sudden lump of panic. He felt that
she knew what he wanted.
“I mean, not at a tea-table,” he said.
“Well, all right, but not to-day. I want to get
some exercise. Let’s walk!”
It was bitter and raw. All the evil hate in the mad
heart of February was wrought into the forlorn and icy wind that
cut its way cruelly across Central Park and down along Fifth
Avenue. It was almost impossible to talk, and discomfort made him
distracted, so much so that he turned at Sixty-first Street to find
that she was no longer beside him. He looked around. She was forty
feet in the rear standing motionless, her face half hidden in her
fur-coat collar, moved either by anger or laughter—he could not
determine which. He started back.
“Don’t let me interrupt your walk!” she
called.
“I’m mighty sorry,” he answered in confusion. “Did
I go too fast?”
“I’m cold,” she announced. “I want to go home. And
you walk too fast.”
“I’m very sorry”
Side by side they started for the Plaza. He wished
he could see her face.
“Men don’t usually get so absorbed in themselves
when they’re with me.”
“I’m sorry.”
“That’s very interesting.”
“It is rather too cold to walk,” he said, briskly,
to hide his annoyance.
She made no answer and he wondered if she would
dismiss him at the hotel entrance. She walked in without speaking,
however, and to the elevator, throwing him a single remark as she
entered it:
“You’d better come up.”
He hesitated for the fraction of a moment.
“Perhaps I’d better call some other time.”
“Just as you say.” Her words were murmured as an
aside. The main concern of life was the adjusting of some stray
wisps of hair in the elevator mirror. Her cheeks were brilliant,
her eyes sparkled—she had never seemed so lovely, so exquisitely to
be desired.
Despising himself, he found that he was walking
down the tenth-floor corridor a subservient foot behind her; was in
the sitting-room while she disappeared to shed her furs. Something
had gone wrong-in his own eyes he had lost a shred of dignity; in
an unpremeditated yet significant encounter he had been completely
defeated.
However, by the time she reappeared in the
sitting-room he had explained himself to himself with sophistic
satisfaction. After all he had done the strongest thing, he
thought. He had wanted to come up, he had come. Yet what happened
later on that afternoon must be traced to the indignity he had
experienced in the elevator; the girl was worrying him intolerably,
so much so that when she came out he involuntarily drifted into
criticism.
“Who’s this Bloeckman, Gloria?”
“A business friend of father’s.”
“Odd sort of fellow!”
“He doesn’t like you either,” she said with a
sudden smile.
Anthony laughed.
“I’m flattered at his notice. He evidently
considers me a—” He broke off with “Is he in love with you?”
“I don’t know”
“The deuce you don’t,” he insisted. “Of course he
is. I remember the look he gave me when we got back to the table.
He’d probably have had me quietly assaulted by a delegation of
movie supes if you hadn’t invented that phone call.”
“He didn’t mind. I told him afterward what really
happened.”
“You told him!”
“He asked me.”
“I don’t like that very well,” he
remonstrated.
She laughed again.
“Oh, you don’t?”
“What business is it of his?”
“None. That’s why I told him.”
Anthony in a turmoil bit savagely at his
mouth.
“Why should I lie?” she demanded directly. “I’m not
ashamed of anything I do. It happened to interest him to know that
I kissed you, and I happened to be in a good humor, so I satisfied
his curiosity by a simple and precise ‘yes.’ Being rather a
sensible man, after his fashion, he dropped the subject.”
“Except to say that he hated me.”
“Oh, it worries you? Well, if you must probe this
stupendous matter to its depths he didn’t say he hated you. I
simply know he does.”
“It doesn’t wor—”
“Oh, let’s drop it!” she cried spiritedly. “It’s a
most uninteresting matter to me.”
With a tremendous effort Anthony made his
acquiescence a twist of subject, and they drifted into an ancient
question-and-answer game concerned with each other’s pasts,
gradually warming as they discovered the age-old, immemorial
resemblances in tastes and ideas. They said things that were more
revealing than they intended—but each pretended to accept the other
at face, or rather word, value.
The growth of intimacy is like that. First one
gives off his best picture, the bright and finished product mended
with bluff and falsehood and humor. Then more details are required
and one paints a second portrait, and a third—before long the best
lines cancel out—and the secret is exposed at last; the planes of
the pictures have intermingled and given us away, and though we
paint and paint we can no longer sell a picture. We must be
satisfied with hoping that such fatuous accounts of ourselves as we
make to our wives and children and business associates are accepted
as true.
“It seems to me,” Anthony was saying earnestly,
“that the position of a man with neither necessity nor ambition is
unfortunate. Heaven knows it’d be pathetic of me to be sorry for
myself—yet, sometimes I envy Dick.”
Her silence was encouragement. It was as near as
she ever came to an intentional lure.
“—And there used to be dignified occupations for a
gentleman who had leisure, things a little more constructive than
filling up the landscape with smoke or juggling some one else’s
money. There’s science, of course: sometimes I wish I’d taken a
good foundation, say at Boston Tech. But now, by golly, I’d have to
sit down for two years and struggle through the fundamentals of
physics and chemistry.”
She yawned.
“I’ve told you I don’t know what anybody ought to
do,” she said ungraciously, and at her indifference his rancor was
born again.
“Aren’t you interested in anything except
yourself?”
“Not much.”
He glared; his growing enjoyment in the
conversation was ripped to shreds. She had been irritable and
vindictive all day, and it seemed to him that for this moment he
hated her hard selfishness. He stared morosely at the fire.
Then a strange thing happened. She turned to him
and smiled, and as he saw her smile every rag of anger and hurt
vanity dropped from him—as though his very moods were but the outer
ripples of her own, as though emotion rose no longer in his breast
unless she saw fit to pull an omnipotent controlling thread.
He moved closer and taking her hand pulled her ever
so gently toward him until she half lay against his shoulder. She
smiled up at him as he kissed her.
“Gloria,” he whispered very softly. Again she had
made a magic, subtle and pervading as a spilt perfume, irresistible
and sweet.
Afterward, neither the next day nor after many
years, could he remember the important things of that afternoon.
Had she been moved? In his arms had she spoken a little—or at all?
What measure of enjoyment had she taken in his kisses? And had she
at any time lost herself ever so little?
Oh, for him there was no doubt. He had risen and
paced the floor in sheer ecstasy. That such a girl should be;
should poise curled in a corner of the couch like a swallow newly
landed from a clean swift flight, watching him with inscrutable
eyes. He would stop his pacing and, half shy each time at first,
drop his arm around her and find her kiss.
She was fascinating, he told her. He had never met
any one like her before. He besought her jauntily but earnestly to
send him away; he didn’t want to fall in love. He wasn’t coming to
see her any more—already she had haunted too many of his
ways.
What delicious romance! His true reaction was
neither fear nor sorrow—only this deep delight in being with her
that colored the banality of his words and made the mawkish seem
sad and the posturing seem wise. He would come back—eternally. He
should have known!
“This is all. It’s been very rare to have known
you, very strange and wonderful. But this wouldn’t do—and wouldn’t
last.” As he spoke there was in his heart that tremulousness that
we take for sincerity in ourselves.
Afterward he remembered one reply of hers to
something he had asked her. He remembered it in this form—perhaps
he had unconsciously arranged and polished it:
“A woman should be able to kiss a man beautifully
and romantically without any desire to be either his wife or his
mistress.”
As always when he was with her she seemed to grow
gradually older until at the end ruminations too deep for words
would be wintering in her eyes.
An hour passed, and the fire leaped up in little
ecstasies as though its fading life was sweet. It was five now, and
the clock over the mantel became articulate in sound. Then as if a
brutish sensibility in him was reminded by those thin, tinny beats
that the petals were falling from the flowered afternoon, Anthony
pulled her quickly to her feet and held her helpless, without
breath, in a kiss that was neither a game nor a tribute.
Her arms fell to her side. In an instant she was
free.
“Don’t!” she said quietly. “I don’t want
that.”
She sat down on the far side of the lounge and
gazed straight before her. A frown had gathered between her eyes.
Anthony sank down beside her and closed his hand over hers. It was
lifeless and unresponsive.
“Why, Gloria!” He made a motion as if to put his
arm about her but she drew away.
“I don’t want that,” she repeated.
“I’m very sorry,” he said, a little impatiently.
“I—I didn’t know you made such fine distinctions.”
She did not answer.
“Won’t you kiss me, Gloria?”
“I don’t want to.” It seemed to him she had not
moved for hours.
“A sudden change, isn’t it?” Annoyance was growing
in his voice.
“Is it?” She appeared uninterested. It was almost
as though she were looking at some one else.
“Perhaps I’d better go.”
No reply. He rose and regarded her angrily,
uncertainly. Again he sat down.
“Gloria, Gloria, won’t you kiss me?”
“No.” Her lips, parting for the word, had just
faintly stirred.
Again he got to his feet, this time with less
decision, less confidence.
“Then I’ll go.”
Silence.
“All right—I’ll go.”
He was aware of a certain irremediable lack of
originality in his remarks. Indeed he felt that the whole
atmosphere had grown oppressive. He wished she would speak, rail at
him, cry out upon him, anything but this pervasive and chilling
silence. He cursed himself for a weak fool; his clearest desire was
to move her, to hurt her, to see her wince. Helplessly,
involuntarily, he erred again.
“If you’re tired of kissing me I’d better
go.”
He saw her lips curl slightly and his last dignity
left him. She spoke, at length:
“I believe you’ve made that remark several times
before.”
He looked about him immediately, saw his hat and
coat on a chair—blundered into them, during an intolerable moment.
Looking again at the couch he perceived that she had not turned,
not even moved. With a shaken, immediately regretted “good-by” he
went quickly but without dignity from the room.
For over a moment Gloria made no sound. Her lips
were still curled; her glance was straight, proud, remote. Then her
eyes blurred a little, and she murmured three words half aloud to
the death-bound fire:
“Good-by, you ass!” she said.
Panic
The man had had the hardest blow of his life. He
knew at last what he wanted, but in finding it out it seemed that
he had put it forever beyond his grasp. He reached home in misery,
dropped into an armchair without even removing his overcoat, and
sat there for over an hour, his mind racing the paths of fruitless
and wretched self-absorption. She had sent him away! That was the
reiterated burden of his despair. Instead of seizing the girl and
holding her by sheer strength until she became passive to his
desire, instead of beating down her will by the force of his own,
he had walked, defeated and powerless, from her door, with the
corners of his mouth drooping and what force there might have been
in his grief and rage hidden behind the manner of a whipped
schoolboy. At one minute she had liked him tremendously—ah, she had
nearly loved him. In the next he had become a thing of indifference
to her, an insolent and efficiently humiliated man.
He had no great self-reproach—some, of course, but
there were other things dominant in him now, far more urgent. He
was not so much in love with Gloria as mad for her. Unless he could
have her near him again, kiss her, hold her close and acquiescent,
he wanted nothing more from life. By her three minutes of utter
unwavering indifference the girl had lifted herself from a high but
somehow casual position in his mind, to be instead his complete
preoccupation. However much his wild thoughts varied between a
passionate desire for her kisses and an equally passionate craving
to hurt and mar her, the residue of his mind craved in finer
fashion to possess the triumphant soul that had shone through those
three minutes. She was beautiful—but especially she was without
mercy. He must own that strength that could send him away.
At present no such analysis was possible to
Anthony. His clarity of mind, all those endless resources which he
thought his irony had brought him were swept aside. Not only for
that night but for the days and weeks that followed his books were
to be but furniture and his friends only people who lived and
walked in a nebulous outer world from which he was trying to
escape—that world was cold and full of bleak wind, and for a little
while he had seen into a warm house where fires shone.
About midnight he began to realize that he was
hungry. He went down into Fifty-second Street, where it was so cold
that he could scarcely see; the moisture froze on his lashes and in
the corners of his lips. Everywhere dreariness had come down from
the north, settling upon the thin and cheerless street, where black
bundled figures blacker still against the night, moved stumbling
along the sidewalk through the shrieking wind, sliding their feet
cautiously ahead as though they were on skis. Anthony turned over
toward Sixth Avenue, so absorbed in his thoughts as not to notice
that several passers-by had stared at him. His overcoat was wide
open, and the wind was biting in, hard and full of merciless
death.
... After a while a waitress spoke to him, a fat
waitress with black-rimmed eye-glasses from which dangled a long
black cord.
“Order, please!”
Her voice, he considered, was unnecessarily loud.
He looked up resentfully.
“You wanna order or doncha?”
“Of course,” he protested.
“Well, I ast you three times. This ain’t no
restroom.”
He glanced at the big clock and discovered with a
start that it was after two. He was down around Thirtieth Street
somewhere, and after a moment he found and translated the
in a white semicircle of letters upon the glass front. The place
was inhabited sparsely by three or four bleak and half-frozen
night-hawks.

“Give me some bacon and eggs and coffee,
please.”
The waitress bent upon him a last disgusted glance
and, looking ludicrously intellectual in her corded glasses,
hurried away.
God! Gloria’s kisses had been such flowers. He
remembered as though it had been years ago the low freshness of her
voice, the beautiful lines of her body shining through her clothes,
her face lily-colored under the lamps of the street—under the
lamps.
Misery struck at him again, piling a sort of terror
upon the ache and yearning. He had lost her. It was true—no denying
it, no softening it. But a new idea had seared his sky—what of
Bloeckman! What would happen now? There was a wealthy man,
middle-aged enough to be tolerant with a beautiful wife, to baby
her whims and indulge her unreason, to wear her as she perhaps
wished to be worn—a bright flower in his buttonhole, safe and
secure from the things she feared. He felt that she had been
playing with the idea of marrying Bloeckman, and it was well
possible that this disappointment in Anthony might throw her on
sudden impulse into Bloeckman’s arms.
The idea drove him childishly frantic. He wanted to
kill Bloeckman and make him suffer for his hideous presumption. He
was saying this over and over to himself with his teeth tight shut,
and a perfect orgy of hate and fright in his eyes.
But, behind this obscene jealousy, Anthony was in
love at last, profoundly and truly in love, as the word goes
between man and woman.
His coffee appeared at his elbow and gave off for a
certain time a gradually diminishing wisp of steam. The night
manager, seated at his desk, glanced at the motionless figure alone
at the last table, and then with a sigh moved down upon him just as
the hour-hand crossed the figure three on the big clock.
Wisdom
After another day the turmoil subsided and Anthony
began to exercise a measure of reason. He was in love—he cried it
passionately to himself. The things that a week before would have
seemed insuperable obstacles, his limited income, his desire to be
irresponsible and independent, had in this forty hours become the
merest chaff before the wind of his infatuation. If he did not
marry her his life would be a feeble parody on his own adolescence.
To be able to face people and to endure the constant reminder of
Gloria that all existence had become, it was necessary for him to
have hope. So he built hope desperately and tenaciously out of the
stuff of his dream, a hope flimsy enough, to be sure, a hope that
was cracked and dissipated a dozen times a day, a hope mothered by
mockery, but, nevertheless, a hope that would be brawn and sinew to
his self-respect.
Out of this developed a spark of wisdom, a true
perception of his own from out the effortless past.
“Memory is short,” he thought.
So very short. At the crucial point the Trust
President is on the stand, a potential criminal needing but one
push to be a jailbird, scorned by the upright for leagues around.
Let him be acquitted—and in a year all is forgotten. “Yes, he did
have some trouble once, just a technicality, I believe.” Oh, memory
is very short!
Anthony had seen Gloria altogether about a dozen
times, say two dozen hours. Supposing he left her alone for a
month, made no attempt to see her or speak to her, and avoided
every place where she might possibly be. Wasn’t it possible, the
more possible because she had never loved him, that at the end of
that time the rush of events would efface his personality from her
conscious mind, and with his personality his offense and
humiliation? She would forget, for there would be other men. He
winced. The implication struck out at him—other men. Two
months—God! Better three weeks, two weeks——
He thought this the second evening after the
catastrophe when he was undressing, and at this point he threw
himself down on the bed and lay there, trembling very slightly and
looking at the top of the canopy.
Two weeks—that was worse than no time at all. In
two weeks he would approach her much as he would have to now,
without personality or confidence—remaining still the man who had
gone too far and then for a period that in time was but a moment
but in fact an eternity, whined. No, two weeks was too short a
time. Whatever poignancy there had been for her in that afternoon
must have time to dull. He must give her a period when the incident
should fade, and then a new period when she should gradually begin
to think of him, no matter how dimly, with a true perspective that
would remember his pleasantness as well as his humiliation.
He fixed, finally, on six weeks as approximately
the interval best suited to his purpose, and on a desk calendar he
marked the days off, finding that it would fall on the ninth of
April. Very well, on that day he would phone and ask her if he
might call. Until then—silence.
After his decision a gradual improvement was
manifest. He had taken at least a step in the direction to which
hope pointed, and he realized that the less he brooded upon her the
better he would be able to give the desired impression when they
met.
In another hour he fell into a deep sleep.
The Interval
Nevertheless, though, as the days passed, the
glory of her hair dimmed perceptibly for him and in a year of
separation might have departed completely, the six weeks held many
abominable days. He dreaded the sight of Dick and Maury, imagining
wildly that they knew all—but when the three met it was Richard
Caramel and not Anthony who was the centre, of attention; “The
Demon Lover” had been accepted for immediate publication. Anthony
felt that from now on he moved apart. He no longer craved the
warmth and security of Maury’s society which had cheered him no
further back than November. Only Gloria could give that now and no
one else ever again. So Dick’s success rejoiced him only casually
and worried him not a little. It meant that the world was going
ahead—writing and reading and publishing—and living. And he wanted
the world to wait motionless and breathless for six weeks—while
Gloria forgot.
Two Encounters
His greatest satisfaction was in Geraldine’s
company. He took her once to dinner and the theatre and entertained
her several times in his apartment. When he was with her she
absorbed him, not as Gloria had, but quieting those erotic
sensibilities in him that worried over Gloria. It didn’t matter how
he kissed Geraldine. A kiss was a kiss—to be enjoyed to the utmost
for its short moment. To Geraldine things belonged in definite
pigeonholes: a kiss was one thing, anything further was quite
another; a kiss was all right; the other things were “bad.”
When half the interval was up two incidents
occurred on successive days that upset his increasing calm and
caused a temporary relapse.
The first was—he saw Gloria. It was a short
meeting. Both bowed. Both spoke, yet neither heard the other. But
when it was over Anthony read down a column of The Sun three times
in succession without understanding a single sentence.
One would have thought Sixth Avenue a safe street!
Having forsworn his barber at the Plaza he went around the corner
one morning to be shaved, and while waiting his turn he took off
coat and vest, and with his soft collar open at the neck stood near
the front of the shop. The day was an oasis in the cold desert of
March and the sidewalk was cheerful with a population of strolling
sun-worshippers. A stout woman upholstered in velvet, her flabby
cheeks too much massaged, swirled by with her poodle straining at
its leash—the effect being given of a tug bringing in an ocean
liner. Just behind them a man in a striped blue suit, walking
slue-footed in white-spatted feet, grinned at the sight and
catching Anthony’s eye, winked through the glass. Anthony laughed,
thrown immediately into that humor in which men and women were
graceless and absurd phantasms, grotesquely curved and rounded in a
rectangular world of their own building. They inspired the same
sensations in him as did those strange and monstrous fish who
inhabit the esoteric world of green in the aquarium.
Two more strollers caught his eye casually, a man
and a girl—then in a horrified instant the girl resolved herself
into Gloria. He stood here powerless; they came nearer and Gloria
glancing in, saw him. Her eyes widened and she smiled politely. Her
lips moved. She was less than five feet away.
“How do you do?” he muttered inanely.
Gloria, happy, beautiful, and young—with a man he
had never seen before!
It was then that the barber’s chair was vacated and
he read down the newspaper column three times in succession.
The second incident took place the next day. Going
into the Manhattan bar about seven he was confronted with
Bloeckman. As it happened, the room was nearly deserted, and before
the mutual recognition he had stationed himself within a foot of
the older man and ordered his drink, so it was inevitable that they
should converse.
“Hello, Mr. Patch,” said Bloeckman amiably
enough.
Anthony took the proffered hand and exchanged a few
aphorisms on the fluctuations of the mercury.
“Do you come in here much?” inquired
Bloeckman.
“No, very seldom.” He omitted to add that the Plaza
bar had, until lately, been his favorite.
“Nice bar. One of the best bars in town.”
Anthony nodded. Bloeckman emptied his glass and
picked up his cane. He was in evening dress.
“Well, I’ll be hurrying on. I’m going to dinner
with Miss Gilbert.”
Death looked suddenly out at him from two blue
eyes. Had he announced himself as his vis-à-vis’s prospective
murderer he could not have struck a more vital blow at Anthony. The
younger man must have reddened visibly, for his every nerve was in
instant clamor. With tremendous effort he mustered a rigid—oh, so
rigid—smile, and said a conventional good-by. But that night he lay
awake until after four, half wild with grief and fear and
abominable imaginings.
Weakness
And one day in the fifth week he called her up. He
had been sitting in his apartment trying to read “L’Éducation
Sentimental,”l and
something in the book had sent his thoughts racing in the direction
that, set free, they always took, like horses racing for a home
stable. With suddenly quickened breath he walked to the telephone.
When he gave the number it seemed to him that his voice faltered
and broke like a schoolboy’s. The Central must have heard the
pounding of his heart. The sound of the receiver being taken up at
the other end was a crack of doom, and Mrs. Gilbert’s voice, soft
as maple-syrup running into a glass container, had for him a
quality of horror in its single “Hello-o-ah?”
“Miss Gloria’s not feeling well. She’s lying down,
asleep. Who shall I say called?”
“Nobody!” he shouted.
In a wild panic he slammed down the receiver;
collapsed into his armchair in the cold sweat of breathless
relief.
Serenade
The first thing he said to her was: “Why, you’ve
bobbed your hair!” and she answered: “Yes, isn’t it
gorgeous?”
It was not fashionable then. It was to be
fashionable in five or six years. At that time it was considered
extremely daring.
“It’s all sunshine outdoors,” he said gravely.
“Don’t you want to take a walk?”
She put on a light coat and a quaintly piquant
Napoleon hat of Alice Blue, and they walked along the Avenue and
into the Zoo, where they properly admired the grandeur of the
elephant and the collar-height of the giraffe, but did not visit
the monkey-house because Gloria said that monkeys smelt so
bad.
Then they returned toward the Plaza, talking about
nothing, but glad for the spring singing in the air and for the
warm balm that lay upon the suddenly golden city. To their right
was the Park, while at the left a great bulk of granite and marble
muttered dully a millionaire’s chaotic message to whosoever would
listen: something about “I worked and I saved and I was sharper
than all Adam and here I sit, by golly, by golly!”
All the newest and most beautiful designs in
automobiles were out on Fifth Avenue, and ahead of them the Plaza
loomed up rather unusually white and attractive. The supple,
indolent Gloria walked a short shadow’s length ahead of him,
pouring out lazy casual comments that floated a moment on the
dazzling air before they reached his ear.
“Oh!” she cried, “I want to go south to Hot
Springs! I want to get out in the air and just roll around on the
new grass and forget there’s ever been any winter.”
“Don’t you, though!”
“I want to hear a million robins making a frightful
racket. I sort of like birds.”
“All women are birds,” he ventured.
“What kind am I?”—quick and eager.
“A swallow, I think, and sometimes a bird of
paradise. Most girls are sparrows, of course—see that row of
nurse-maids over there? They’re sparrows—or are they magpies? And
of course you’ve met canary girls—and robin girls.”
“And swan girls and parrot girls. All grown women
are hawks, I think, or owls.”
“What am I—a buzzard?”
She laughed and shook her head.
“Oh, no, you’re not a bird at all, do you think?
You’re a Russian wolfhound.”
Anthony remembered that they were white and always
looked unnaturally hungry. But then they were usually photographed
with dukes and princesses, so he was properly flattered.
“Dick’s a fox-terrier, a trick fox-terrier,” she
continued.
“And Maury’s a cat.” Simultaneously it occurred to
him how like Bloeckman was to a robust and offensive hog. But he
preserved a discreet silence.
Later, as they parted, Anthony asked when he might
see her again.
“Don’t you ever make long engagements?” he pleaded,
“even if it’s a week ahead, I think it’d be fun to spend a whole
day together, morning and afternoon both.”
“It would be, wouldn’t it?” She thought for a
moment. “Let’s do it next Sunday.”
“All right. I’ll map out a programme that’ll take
up every minute.”
He did. He even figured to a nicety what would
happen in the two hours when she would come to his apartment for
tea: how the good Bounds would have the windows wide to let in the
fresh breeze—but a fire going also lest there be chill in the
air—and how there would be clusters of flowers about in big cool
bowls that he would buy for the occasion. They would sit on the
lounge.
And when the day came they did sit upon the lounge.
After a while Anthony kissed her because it came about quite
naturally; he found sweetness sleeping still upon her lips, and
felt that he had never been away. The fire was bright and the
breeze sighing in through the curtains brought a mellow damp,
promising May and world of summer. His soul thrilled to remote
harmonies; he heard the strum of far guitars and waters lapping on
a warm Mediterranean shore—for he was young now as he would never
be again, and more triumphant than death.
Six o’clock stole down too soon and rang the
querulous melody of St. Anne’s chimes on the corner. Through the
gathering dusk they strolled to the Avenue, where the crowds, like
prisoners released, were walking with elastic step at last after
the long winter, and the tops of the busses were thronged with
congenial kings and the shops full of fine soft things for the
summer, the rare summer, the gay promising summer that seemed for
love what the winter was for money. Life was singing for his supper
on the corner! Life was handing round cocktails in the street! Old
women there were in that crowd who felt that they could have run
and won a hundred-yard dash!
In bed that night with the lights out and the cool
room swimming with moonlight, Anthony lay awake and played with
every minute of the day like a child playing in turn with each one
of a pile of long-wanted Christmas toys. He had told her gently,
almost in the middle of a kiss, that he loved her, and she had
smiled and held him closer and murmured, “I’m glad,” looking into
his eyes. There had been a new quality in her attitude, a new
growth of sheer physical attraction toward him and a strange
emotional tenseness, that was enough to make him clinch his hands
and draw in his breath at the recollection. He had felt nearer to
her than ever before. In a rare delight he cried aloud to the room
that he loved her.
He phoned next morning—no hesitation now, no
uncertainty—instead a delirious excitement that doubled and trebled
when he heard her voice:
“Good morning—Gloria.”
“Good morning.”
“That’s all I called you up to say—dear.”
“I’m glad you did.”
“I wish I could see you.”
“You will, to-morrow night.”
“That’s a long time, isn’t it?”
“Yes—” Her voice was reluctant. His hand tightened
on the receiver.
“Couldn’t I come to-night?” He dared anything in
the glory and revelation of that almost whispered “yes.”
“I have a date.”
“Oh—”
“But I might—I might be able to break it.”
“Oh!”—a sheer cry, a rhapsody. “Gloria?”
“What?”
“I love you. ”
Another pause and then:
“I—I’m glad.”
Happiness, remarked Maury Noble one day, is only
the first hour after the alleviation of some especially intense
misery. But oh, Anthony’s face as he walked down the tenth-floor
corridor of the Plaza that night! His dark eyes were
gleaming—around his mouth were lines it was a kindness to see. He
was handsome then if never before, bound for one of those immortal
moments which come so radiantly that their remembered light is
enough to see by for years.
He knocked and, at a word, entered. Gloria, dressed
in simple pink, starched and fresh as a flower, was across the
room, standing very still, and looking at him wide-eyed.
As he closed the door behind him she gave a little
cry and moved swiftly over the intervening space, her arms rising
in a premature caress as she came near. Together they crushed out
the stiff folds of her dress in one triumphant and enduring
embrace.