Inside the casino, it never happened. Nothing there can enter in. Only the whirl of lights and the electronic burbling of machines, rattle of dice in the craps table cups, an almost inaudible whisper of cards, the friction-free hum of roulette wheels turning. Nothing is permitted to change.

It is a sort of fifth-rate hell, and I a minor demon posted to it. A succubus too indifferent to suck. I have my regulars, of course. Sometimes I even know their names. I deal them cards and they lose money. Occasionally one of them wins, of course, but not for long.

“Mae,” tonight’s mark says. My name’s a little sinister in his faint Slavic accent. He’s told me his but I’ve forgotten. A retired airline pilot, I think he said. Some would find him good-looking, in that square-headed way all the pilots have. Silver hair and a face burnt to wrinkly leather. It takes a long time to catch a buzz from the watered drinks they give free here, but my regular has the determination to do it.

“When you get off work, Mae? When you coming home with me?” I part my painted lips to show my pleasant teeth to him, smooth away the black wing of my hair. I am conscious of not looking up at the dark bulb in the low tiled ceiling, where the two of us are captured by a fish-eye lens. I am older than he, perhaps a lot older, but as far as I know he doesn’t know it.

I show my hole card: eight to a jack. Not much of a hand, but my regular took a hit too many and he’s busted.

I might have worked a double shift, meaning sixteen hours straight. Sometimes I do. I don’t get tired. Even in a fifth-rate hell there is no sense of the passage of time. I don’t remember anything unusual that day—if there were fewer people than we normally got, a sudden emptying of the place, illumination from outside. No, I don’t think there was that. It hardly matters what I recall, since no one is going to call me to witness, at least not on that point.

Probably two hours of darkness remained by the time I got into my car. It takes barely a quarter of that to drive from the casino to my dwelling. I don’t listen to radio. I don’t like the chatter, and I don’t like music with singing in it, and I don’t like to hear guitars or strings. Maybe I listened to piano during the dark drive, Bach or Chopin, in a minor key. No voice told me what rent had been torn in the world that day. When I went into the desert, I still didn’t know.