ONE
The first time she slit a man’s throat she
felt sick to her stomach. The second time? Not so much.
After she cut five or six more, the blade in her
left hand began to feel like an extension of her body, and she
started to take it all in stride. The exhilaration subsided, and so
did the nausea. There was no longer a rush of anxiety, no longer a
racing heartbeat. Blood didn’t faze her. The thrill was gone, and
that, in her line of work, was a very good thing.
Dr. Eleanor Kathleen Sullivan, or Ellie as she was
called by her family and friends, was just four days shy of
completing a grueling surgical fellowship in one of the busiest
trauma centers in the Midwest. Since trauma was her specialty, she
had certainly seen her share of mangled and brutalized bodies. It
was her responsibility to put them back together, and as a senior
fellow, she had the added duty of training the first – and
second-year residents.
St. Vincent’s emergency room had been full since
4:00 A.M. that morning, and Ellie was finishing what she hoped was
her last surgery of the day, a repair of a splenic rupture. A
teenager, barely old enough to have a driver’s license, had decided
to test the limits of the speedometer in his parents’ Camry and had
lost control, rolling the car over an embankment and landing upside
down in an open field. Lucky for him, he had been wearing a seat
belt, and luckier still, a man following some distance behind him
had seen the whole thing and was able to call for an ambulance
immediately. The boy made it to the emergency room just in
time.
Ellie was observed by three second-year surgical
residents, who hung on her every word. She was a natural teacher
and, unlike 90 percent of the surgeons on staff at St. Vincent’s
Hospital, didn’t have much of an ego. She was amazingly patient
with the medical students and residents. While she worked, she
explained—and explained again—until they finally understood what
she was doing and why. No question was deemed too insignificant or
foolish, which was one of the many reasons they idolized her, and
for the male residents, the fact that she was drop-dead gorgeous
didn’t hurt. Because she was such a talented surgeon and supportive
teacher, all these fledgling doctors fought to sign up for her
rotation. Ironically, what they didn’t know was that she was
younger than most of them.
“You’re off duty this weekend, aren’t you,
Ellie?”
Ellie glanced over at Dr. Kevin Andrews, the
anesthesiologist, who had asked the question. He had joined the
staff six months before and, since the day he’d met Ellie, had been
hounding her to go out with him. He was an outrageous flirt and yet
very sweet. Blond hair, blue eyes, tall and well built with an
adorable smile, he could turn the head of almost every woman in the
hospital, but for Ellie there just wasn’t any spark.
“Yes, I am. I have the whole weekend off,” she
answered. “Charlie, would you like to close up for me?” she asked
one of the hovering residents.
“Absolutely, Dr. Sullivan.”
“You better hurry,” Andrews said. “I’m waking him
up.”
The resident looked panic-stricken.
“Take your time, Charlie. He’s just messing with
you,” she said, a smile in her voice.
“Tuesday’s your last day at St. Vincent’s, isn’t
it?” Andrews asked.
“That’s right. Tuesday’s my last official day. I
might help out on a temporary basis later on, but I’m not promising
anything yet.”
“Then you could decide to come back
permanently.”
She didn’t reply.
He persisted. “They’ll give you anything you want.
You could name your price, your hours . . . you should stay here,
Ellie. You belong here.”
She didn’t agree or disagree. In truth, she didn’t
know where she belonged. It had been such a hard road to get this
far, she hadn’t had time to think about the future. At least that
was the excuse she used for her indecision.
“Maybe,” she finally conceded. “I just don’t know
yet.”
She stood over Charlie, watching like a mother hen.
“I want those stitches tight.”
“Yes, Dr. Sullivan.”
“So Monday night is my last chance to take you to
heaven?” Andrews asked in a teasing drawl.
She laughed. “Heaven? Last week you were going to
rock my world. Now you’re going to take me to heaven?”
“I guarantee it. I’ve got testimonials if you want
to see them.”
“It’s not going to happen, Kevin.”
“I’m not giving up.”
She sighed. “I know.”
As she checked the last suture, she rolled her
shoulders and stretched her neck to one side then the other to get
the kinks out. She’d been in the OR since 5:00 A.M., which meant
she had been bent over patients for eleven hours. Sad to say, that
wasn’t a record for her.
She felt wrung out and stiff and sore. A good run
around the park would get those muscles moving, she decided, maybe
even rev up her energy.
“You know what would help you get rid of a stiff
neck?” Andrews said.
“Let me guess. A trip to heaven?”
One of the nurses snorted with laughter. “He’s
awfully persistent, Dr. Sullivan. Maybe you should give in.”
Ellie removed her gloves and dropped them in the
trash bag by the OR doors. “Thanks, Megan, but I think I’ll just go
for a run instead.” As she pushed the doors wide, she untied her
surgical mask and pulled off her cap, shaking her blond hair loose
to fall to her shoulders.
Twenty minutes later she was officially off duty.
She changed into her workout clothes, a pair of faded red shorts
and a white tank top. She double-tied her beat-up running shoes,
grabbed a rubber band and swept her hair up in a ponytail, slipped
her iPod into one pocket and her cell phone into the other, and she
was ready. Walking a maze of corridors to get outside, she avoided
the direct route through the ER for fear she’d get waylaid with
another case.
There was never a lack of patients rolling through
the doors. Along with the usual emergencies—the car accidents, the
heart attacks, the work injuries—the ER saw a steady stream of
victims of violent crimes. The vast majority were young men. Gangs
roamed the area east of the highway, and shooting one another
seemed to be a nightly sport. Since St. Vincent’s was the largest
trauma center in St. Louis, all the serious cases came to them.
Weekends were a nightmare for the staff. There were times,
especially during the hot summer months, when gurneys lined the
halls of the ER with patients handcuffed to the railings while they
waited to go into surgery. Additional police had to be routinely
called in to monitor them to make certain one gang member hadn’t
been placed too close to a rival.
Ellie became a member of the One Hundred Club when
she removed her one hundredth bullet. It wasn’t a club she wanted
to join, but she would always remember the case. The young man was
only twenty years old, and it was the third time he’d been shot.
She couldn’t forget his insolence and his cold, empty eyes. They
were almost as lifeless as the cadavers down in the morgue.
Patching up these boys so that they could return to the streets and
the same violence was heart wrenching, and she prayed, with every
surgery, that this time they would learn something, that this time
they would find a new life. It was a naive hope, but she clung to
it anyway.
Like the other overworked and underpaid residents
and fellows, Ellie operated on broken bodies, the consequence of
violence. But she had never actually witnessed a crime . . . until
today.
It was a hot and humid late afternoon. Two medical
students had caught up with Ellie just as she began her run on the
onemile track in Cambridge Park, a vast area that sat adjacent to
the hospital. Heavy rain clouds hung over them, and all three
panted for air. After the first mile, both students dropped out,
but Ellie was determined to get in at least one more mile before
calling it quits. She made mental lists as she ran. She had a
million things to do before heading home to Winston Falls.
Dear God, it was muggy. The humidity was so thick,
she felt as though she were running through a sauna. Sweat trickled
down the back of her neck, and her drenched clothes clung to her
body. Her friend Jennifer, a nurse in pediatrics, who was taking a
shortcut across the track to get to the ER entrance, shouted to
Ellie that she was crazy to run in this heat. Ellie waved and
continued on. She probably was crazy, but getting any time to work
out was such a luxury, she couldn’t afford to be choosy about the
weather.
Ellie could hear faint cheering coming from the new
soccer field across the street to the north, and as she rounded the
curve, she saw the players—high school – age girls—sprinting across
the field. From the large number of fans in the bleachers, she
guessed it was an important game.
The administrator of the hospital, the board, and a
plethora of attorneys had fought the soccer field. They wanted to
purchase the land to build another huge parking garage, and Ellie
was happy they had lost their bid. Like the track and small
playground to the south, the soccer field was far enough away from
the hospital that, no matter how much noise the teams and fans
made, the patients weren’t disturbed.
Ellie was a football, basketball, and soccer fan,
in that order. She loved to watch most sporting events. She admired
the grace, skill, and finesse of the players, probably because she
didn’t possess any of those attributes herself. She had been such
an awkward child, her mother had enrolled her in ballet classes,
and she never got to play a sport. When she wasn’t tripping over
her own feet trying to do a plié, she was reading. She was much
more comfortable with her books. Her aunt Vivien liked to call her
a bookworm.
No time to watch any games today, she thought. She
had way too much to do. She returned to her mental list of things
to be accomplished before she could head home to her sister’s
wedding. Oh God, how she dreaded that. She wished she had another
week to get ready for the ordeal; then admitted to herself that no
amount of time would prepare her for the whispers and the
sympathetic smiles from her friends and family. Who could blame
them? After all, her sister Ava was marrying Ellie’s ex-fiancé. It
was going to be a week of mortification, she decided. But, hey, she
was tough. She could handle it.
“Yeah, right,” she whispered.
And then there was Evan Patterson. Just thinking
about him made her stomach hurt. Would he dare show up in Winston
Falls? God, she hoped not. But if he did, would she need to get
another restraining order, even if she was going to be home for
only a few days? She could feel herself getting worked up and had
to force herself to calm down. She was an adult now, and she could
handle anything that came her way. Even a maniac, she told herself.
Besides, she was sure Evan wasn’t back in Winston Falls. If he had
returned, her father would have alerted her.
Ellie didn’t want to worry about Patterson now or
think about the wedding. Instead, she chose to focus on the task at
hand. Just a little more than a half mile to go, then a lovely cold
shower. She took her earphones from her pocket and was about to
turn on her iPod to listen to a lecture on new thoracotomy
procedures when she heard a loud pop.
Ellie stopped running. Lightning? She looked up at
the ominous sky just as another pop echoed, then a third and a
fourth in rapid succession. Had lightning hit a transformer? That
would explain the bursts . . . except there hadn’t been any
lightning.
Gunshots? Had to be. As many bullets as Ellie had
removed from gunshot victims, she’d never actually heard the sound
of a gun firing. The noise came from somewhere up ahead. She
glanced to the right toward the soccer field. No panic there. The
game was still going on, so she had to be wrong. If not gunshots .
. . then what?
Five or six seconds had passed since the first
popping sound. Ellie reached for her earphones again. Okay, she’d
been mistaken.
Then the screaming started.
Everything happened so fast. In the span of just a
few more seconds, Ellie observed the chaotic scene unfold in front
of her as though it were happening in slow motion.
In the distance, several men, wearing navy blue
T-shirts and vests with FBI in bold yellow letters printed on the
back, appeared almost out of nowhere and fanned out as they raced
toward the trees in the center of the park. People were scattering
every which way. Screams mingled with the cheers from the soccer
field, the fans and players apparently oblivious to what was
happening. A father ran from the playground toward the street with
two little boys. The children weren’t able to keep up, so the
father scooped them into his arms and kept running. Several people
who had been strolling through the park also scrambled to get away,
as did three boys who had been tossing a Frisbee. One of the boys
ran into the street, directly in front of an ambulance returning to
the hospital. The vehicle came to a screeching halt, and the boy
rushed around to the open window shouting something to the
paramedic as he pointed toward the trees.
Suddenly, a man and a woman, linked arm in arm,
drew her attention. They walked briskly toward her on the running
path. There was something off about both of them. The man had a
thick mustache. He wore dark glasses, a baseball cap pulled down
over his forehead, and a brown, hooded windbreaker zipped up to his
neck, a peculiar choice in the 90-degree weather. Was he all
bundled up to keep his clothes dry when the storm broke? The man
looked over his shoulder, his neck glistening with sweat. The woman
looked directly at Ellie. Her bizarre appearance was startling. A
short black wig sat slightly askew on her head with a few long
hairs hanging down the side of her neck. Her eyes were such an
intense, unnatural shade of green, she looked as though she were
wearing novelty contacts, the ones you’d buy for a Halloween party.
When the couple was about thirty feet away from Ellie, they veered
toward the street.
Someone shouted a command. Then one of the FBI
agents who had run into the trees appeared and headed straight for
the pair. The woman let go of the man and began to run as he slowed
and pulled something from his coat pocket. When he whirled around
to face the agent shouting at him, Ellie saw the gun. Before she
could react, he’d fired two shots. The first bullet struck the man
in pursuit, the force so great it knocked him back before he
crashed to the ground. The second bullet went wild. As Ellie dived
to the grass, the shooter spun around and pointed the gun toward
her. He didn’t pull the trigger but instead ran to the street and
jumped into a car that sped away.
The ambulance had just turned around to go in the
direction the boys were pointing, but when the gunshots were fired,
it changed course. Sirens on, the ambulance crossed over the curb
and swerved to miss the hospital emergency entrance sign. It
bounded across the park toward the gunshot victim, weaving in and
out of the crowd that was scrambling toward the boulevard.
Ellie jumped to her feet and ran after it. Her mind
was racing. Who were the surgeons on call tonight? Edmonds and
Walmer, she remembered, and she’d seen both of them in the
hospital. Good.
The target had been a good distance away from the
shooter, but he’d taken a direct hit to the torso. Ellie had no
idea how bad the wound was, but she thought, if she could stabilize
him, he’d make it to the OR.
The ambulance crossed the grassy area of the park
in no time and stopped a few feet away from the downed man. Two
paramedics leapt to the ground. Ellie recognized them: Mary Lynn
Scott and Russell Probst. Russell opened the back doors and pulled
out the gurney while Mary Lynn reached for the large orange trauma
bag and rushed forward, sliding to her knees beside the victim. By
the time Ellie reached the scene, four armed agents had surrounded
him. One knelt on the ground talking to the man, trying to keep him
calm, while three others stood over him.
The tallest of the three agents who were standing
blocked her view. He barely glanced at her as he brusquely ordered,
“You don’t need to see this. Go back to your soccer game.”
Go back to your game? Was he serious? Ellie was
about to protest when one of the paramedics looked up, spotted her,
and shouted, “Oh thank God. Dr. Sullivan.”
The agents looked at her skeptically and then
slowly moved out of her way so that she could get past. Mary Lynn
tossed her a pair of gloves, and Ellie pulled them on as she knelt
down beside the man to assess the injury. Blood saturated the man’s
shirt. She gently lifted the compress Mary Lynn had pressed to his
shoulder, saw the damage, and immediately sought to stem the
bleeding. While she gave orders to Russell and Mary Lynn, she kept
her voice steady. The patient was conscious, and she didn’t want
him to panic.
“How bad is it?” he asked.
She made it a point never to lie to a patient. That
didn’t mean she had to be brutally honest, however. “It’s bad, but
I’ve seen worse, much worse.”
Russell handed her a clamp, and she found the
source of the bleeding. The bullet hadn’t gone through but had made
quite an entrance.
Once Mary Lynn had gotten the IV line in, Ellie
nodded to her to begin the drip.
“What’s your name?” she asked as she began packing
the wound.
“Sean . . . Sean . . . ah, hell, I can’t remember
my last name.” His eyelids began to flutter as he struggled to stay
conscious.
The agent kneeling beside him said,
“Goodman.”
“Yeah, that’s right,” Sean said, his voice growing
weaker.
“Can you remember if you’re allergic to anything?”
Mary Lynn asked.
“Just bullets.” Sean stared at Ellie through
half-closed eyes. “Are you a doctor?”
“Yes,” she said, flashing a reassuring smile. She
finished packing the wound and leaned back on her heels.
“Dr. Sullivan’s a trauma surgeon,” Russell
explained. “If you had to get shot, she’s the one you want
operating on you. She’s the best there is.”
“Okay, he’s stable. You can take him,” Ellie said
as she peeled off her gloves and dropped them in the plastic
container Mary Lynn opened for her.
Sean suddenly grabbed her arm, his grip
surprisingly strong. “Wait . . .”
“Yes?”
“I want to marry Sara. Am I going to see her
again?”
She leaned over him. “Yes, you will,” she said.
“But first you’re going into the OR to get that bullet out. Now
sleep. It’s all good. The surgeon will take care of you.”
“Who’s on tonight?” Russell asked.
“Edmonds and Walmer,” Mary Lynn answered.
Sean tightened his hold on Ellie’s arm. “I want
you.” He didn’t give her time to respond but held tight and forced
himself to stay awake as he repeated, “He said you’re the best. I
want you to operate.”
She put her hand on top of his and nodded. “Okay,”
she said. “Okay, I’ll do it.”
She stood and stepped back to get out of the way so
that the paramedics could put Sean into the ambulance but was
stopped by something solid. It felt as though she’d just backed
into a slab of granite. The agent who had told her to go back to
her soccer game was blocking her exit with his warm, hard chest. He
put his hands on her shoulders to steady her, then let go. When he
still didn’t get out of her way, she stood her ground pressed
against him.
“Dr. Sullivan, do you want to ride with us?”
Russell called out.
“No, go ahead. He’s stable now.”
Russell swung the doors shut, jumped into the
driver’s seat, and the ambulance was on its way.
Ellie turned to the agent who had been kneeling
with Sean. “Was anyone else hurt?”
The granite wall behind her answered. “Not hurt,
dead.” He was very matter-of-fact.
“They weren’t ours,” another agent explained. “They
were wanted men.”
She turned around and came face to shoulders with
the most intimidating man she’d ever seen, and that was saying
something considering the monster chief of surgery she worked
under. This man didn’t look anything like him, though. The agent
was tall, dark, and scary, with thick black hair and penetrating,
steely gray eyes. His firm, square jaw was covered with at least
one day’s growth of beard, maybe two. He looked as though he hadn’t
slept in at least twenty-four hours, a look she knew all too
well.
Ellie’s heart skipped a beat. The man could scare
the quills off a porcupine. But, oh God, was he sexy! Ellie gave
herself a mental slap. An intimidating man who was built like a
monument and could melt iron with his menacing glare—this
was what she was attracted to?
The agent who had been kneeling stepped forward and
put out his hand. “I’m Agent Tom Bradley. Sean Goodman’s my
partner.” He introduced her to the two agents on his left and then
to the man in front of her. “Agent Max Daniels.”
She nodded. “If you’ll excuse me, I need to get to
the OR.” She didn’t wait for permission, but turned and ran back to
the hospital.
Thirty minutes later she was dropping the bullet
she’d retrieved from Sean’s shoulder into a small metal pan. “Bag
it and get it to one of the agents waiting outside. You know the
drill.”
Then the real work of repairing the damage began.
Ellie had learned over the years that there was no such thing as a
simple bullet wound. Bullets had a way of doing considerable damage
before settling, but Agent Goodman was lucky. His bullet hadn’t
penetrated any major organs or nerves.
Once she’d closed, she followed the patient to
recovery, wrote orders, and went to talk to the crowd gathered in
the surgical waiting room. A dozen people with worried faces sat
waiting for the news. Agent Daniels was standing, leaning against
the wall with his arms across his chest. His gaze followed her as
she entered the room, and her heart began to race. She knew she
looked a mess. She pulled off her cap and threaded her fingers
through her hair. Why in heaven’s name she wanted to look good for
him was beyond her comprehension, and yet she did.
“The surgeon’s here,” Daniels announced.
A petite young woman jumped up and rushed forward,
followed by Agent Bradley and a crowd of worried relatives.
“The surgery went well,” she began and then
explained some of what she had repaired, trying not to be too
technical. “I expect him to make a full recovery.”
Sara, his fiancée, was crying as she stammered her
thank-you. She shook Ellie’s hand and held on to it.
“You can see him in about an hour,” Ellie told her.
“He’s heavily sedated and he’s not going to know you’re there,” she
warned. “He’ll be in recovery for a while, then they’ll take him to
ICU. Once the nurses in ICU have him settled, they’ll send someone
to get you. Any questions?”
A frazzled-looking nurse appeared in the doorway.
“Dr. Sullivan?”
“Yes?”
“Would you mind looking at Mrs. Klein for us? She’s
Edmonds’s patient, but he’s in surgery.”
“I’ll be right there.”
She patted Sara’s hand and pulled free. “All right
then. It’s all good.”
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Agent Daniels
smile as she turned to leave. She walked down the corridor and had
just turned the corner when he caught up with her.
“Hey, Doctor.”
She turned around. Her stupid heart went into
overdrive again. “Yes?”
“We’re going to need to talk to you about the
shooting. You’ll have to give a statement.”
“When?”
“How about after you check on that patient?”
She couldn’t resist. “Gee, I don’t know. I hate to
miss soccer practice.”
She was laughing as she pushed the doors aside and
disappeared into ICU.
Max Daniels stood there staring after her, a slight
grin crossing his face.
“Damn,” he whispered. “Damn.”