SIXTEEN
They were on round three of the
argument.
Max had taken a shower, put on a clean T-shirt and
jeans, grabbed the channel changer, and now sat on the lumpy sofa
with his bare feet up on an ottoman, trying to watch the late news
on a television screen the size of a breadbox while he patiently
waited for Ellie to calm down and be reasonable. He doubted it was
going to happen anytime soon.
The remote kept falling apart in his hand. It had
been duct taped together, but the tape was obviously old. He made
the mental note to buy a universal remote tomorrow or another roll
of tape. It was downright barbaric not to have a decent channel
changer.
“Are you listening to me?” she demanded.
“Yes, I am,” he lied.
God, she looked good. He watched her resume her
pacing while she ranted. She had also showered and was now wearing
a pale pink-and-white-striped nightgown that barely touched her
knees, and a matching long cotton robe that tied at the waist. The
robe was too big for her, and the hem dragged on the floor, but to
him she looked sexier than if she had been wearing a flimsy
negligee. She looked hot in everything she wore, even the baggy
scrubs he’d first seen her in.
Unaware of where his thoughts were, Ellie continued
her tirade. She had every reason to be upset. She hadn’t said a
word while he’d explained his reason for coming to Winston Falls
and his intent to be her shadow until the two of them returned to
her home, but when he’d finished explaining, she’d reacted. She
hadn’t flipped out on him, though. She’d become outraged, and he
much preferred that reaction. Furious was better to work with than
terrified or weepy.
“You are not telling my father or my mother.” She
was so irate her voice shook. She wasn’t a screamer, and he
appreciated that, too.
“Yes, I am,” he calmly announced for the sixth or
seventh time now. “They need to be aware of the danger.”
“You aren’t even certain the Landrys hired anyone
to kill Sean or me.”
“Yes, I am certain. Ellie, we’ve been over this.
I’m staying with you until you’re safely back home.”
“Then what?”
“If Willis Cogburn hasn’t been captured or killed,
another agent will take over.”
“Killed?”
“If he tries to hurt you, damn right I’ll kill
him.” Anger swelled up inside him at the thought of anyone hurting
her.
“You have to capture him, not shoot him,” she
muttered. “Then you can make a deal with him for a lighter sentence
so he’ll testify against the Landrys.”
“You’re a physician, not an attorney,” he
countered.
“It makes sense, doesn’t it? Ask a lawyer. He’ll
agree with me. Willis Cogburn should stay alive to testify.”
“I am a lawyer,” he said. “And I’m telling you, hit
men don’t usually testify. And if I have to shoot him, I’m shooting
to kill.”
Hands on hips, she glared at him. “When did you
become a lawyer?”
The conversation was becoming ludicrous. She was
acting as though he’d pulled a fast one on her by going to law
school.
“Right after I graduated from Vanderbilt.”
“Where?”
He smiled. “Vanderbilt University Law School in
Nashville,” he said.
“Then the FBI?”
“Yes.”
“So you’re smart, too.”
He shrugged. Tired of pacing, Ellie went into the
tiny kitchen. She got a Diet Coke out of the refrigerator, got
another for Max, and went back to the living room. She sat down
beside him, handed him his drink, and swung her feet up on the
ottoman next to his.
“You saw the look on my father’s face when you got
out of your car and he noticed the gun at your side. In that
instant, he went from happy to scared.” She put her unopened can on
the table, sat back, and said, “I’ve taught him to expect the
worst.”
Max put his arm around her and pulled her into his
side. “Ellie, you know I’m right. Your dad needs to be aware, and
I’m required to inform him of the possible danger. It’s just the
way it is.”
“I’ve put him through enough.”
“You’ve put him through enough? You haven’t
done anything wrong. You are not responsible for Evan Patterson’s
obsession.”
“Intellectually, I know that’s true, but in my
heart, I feel as though I’m at fault somehow. I know it doesn’t
make any sense, but there it is all the same.”
“How old were you when it started with
Patterson?”
“I had just had my eleventh birthday.” It was a
full year of hell, she thought but didn’t say.
“Reason it through. You were a little girl. You
didn’t do or say anything to encourage him.”
“I wasn’t the only one affected by his bizarre
behavior. Some days, especially when my dad wasn’t home, he would
walk up and down our street, staring at our house as he passed by.
He would do it for hours and hours,” she said. “Annie was
terrified. She had to have all the lights on in her bedroom at
night, and I could hear her crying under the covers. That’s why
she’s becoming a lawyer. She’ll end up doing something in criminal
justice. Ava went the other way. She lashed out. She was angry all
the time—angry at me.”
“Come on. You know none of this is your
fault.”
“That doesn’t change how my family feels. My poor
dad is quietly freaking out because no one can find Patterson, and
now you want to tell him that there’s a killer out there hunting
me.”
She stood, grabbed her can of soda, and put it back
in the refrigerator. There was a door at the end of the kitchen
that led down into the garage. She made sure it was locked, then
checked the other door to make absolutely certain both dead bolts
were in place, and headed to the bedroom.
She hadn’t even thought about the sleeping
arrangements or a bed with Max in it until she opened the door to
the room she’d slept in the night before. There was a queen-size
bed her parents had gotten at a discount store. In the smaller
bedroom was a double bed that used to belong to her aunt Eleanor,
the woman she was named after. The bed had been in her aunt’s guest
room, but when the older woman downsized, she’d donated the bed to
the apartment.
Ellie thought she should probably sleep there
because Max was so much bigger than she was.
Or she could sleep with him. That thought sent her
heart racing. No, that can’t happen, she told herself. She wanted
him to go away, not stay . . . didn’t she?
Talk about conflicted. Back home, after their date,
he’d kissed her senseless, and when he’d left, she had regretted
not sleeping with him. And now? Max was just feet away from her,
and right this minute she couldn’t come up with a single reason why
she shouldn’t throw herself into his arms.
The apartment seemed to be closing in on her. The
air conditioner had stopped, and the temperature was rising.
Thinking about wrapping her arms around Max’s hard body wasn’t
helping her cool off. Just one night. What would be the harm?
Ellie went into the bathroom and brushed her teeth
again just to give herself time to come to her senses. Yes, she
wanted him. Okay, nothing wrong with admitting it, and, yes, it
would be amazing and electrifying, but it would also just be a
brief physical release. A great, mind-blowing release, she
qualified.
The fantasies were bombarding her, but she blocked
them from her mind. She couldn’t let her hormones or her animal
instincts take control. Besides, Max would still be here in the
morning, so she couldn’t pretend she’d had a temporary lack of
sanity.
She took a good long look in the mirror and shook
her head at her reflection. She wanted more than casual sex. She
wanted romance. She felt silly admitting it, even though it was
true. She had worked so long and so hard on her career that it had
all but consumed her, leaving no room for the fanciful or the
impractical. But deep down, it had always been there. She was a
romantic at heart. There wasn’t anything practical or reasonable
about it.
Okay, she’d made up her mind. She wasn’t a rabbit,
and she wasn’t going to hop into bed with any man—no matter how hot
he was—without first having an emotional connection.
As she was opening the door, it suddenly occurred
to her that all her angst might have been for nothing. Max hadn’t
made any moves or given any indication that he’d like to go to bed
with her. Still, the electricity was there between them. If she
could feel it, so could he.
When she entered the living room, Max was sitting
on the sofa, leaning forward with all the broken pieces of the
channel changer spread out on the ottoman in front of him. The old
tape hadn’t held, and the plastic cover had broken in several
places.
“Someone must have thrown this against a couple of
walls,” he remarked. “Is there any tape around?”
“I’ll look,” she said as she retied the belt on her
robe. It dragged on the floor when she walked into the kitchen, and
she really wanted to take the thing off because the air was
becoming stifling.
She found some Scotch tape in one of the kitchen
drawers and two thick rubber bands.
Max quickly put the remote back together and
reinforced it with the rubber bands, then he sat back and began to
channelsurf. She sat down next to him.
“Men and their remotes,” she said, shaking her
head.
“Women and their hair stuff,” he countered.
She laughed. “Hair stuff?”
He shrugged. “You know. That lacquer stuff they
spray on their hair. You don’t,” he added, “but a lot of women
do.”
“What do you mean, I don’t?”
He put his arm around her and his fingers slid
through her hair. “It’s soft, not stiff, and my fingers don’t get
caught.”
“What kind of women have you been going out
with?”
He didn’t answer. He was rubbing the back of her
neck, though, and it felt wonderful.
“Your hair’s so soft. Smells good, too. Like
strawberries.”
“How do you know . . .”
He smiled. “I’ve got a good memory.”
Whoa. So did she. She remembered his mouth on hers,
the touch of his tongue rubbing against hers, the taste of him, the
way he’d held her in his arms, his masculine scent . . . oh yes,
she had a good memory, too.
She cleared her throat. “It’s hot in here.”
“Yes, it is,” he said, turning back to the
television. “Did you turn the air conditioner up?”
“I should explain how the thermostat works. It’s
right outside your bedroom door,” she said. “You get the bigger bed
because you’re . . .”
Wow. All he had to do was look at her, and she lost
her train of thought. There was a warm glint in his eyes that
captivated her. The man just kept getting better and better.
“Because I’m what?”
She didn’t have a clue. “What?”
He grinned. “You said I get the bigger bedroom . .
.”
“Because you’re bigger than I am. It’s a queen, so
your feet may still hang over.”
“And the thermostat?”
“What about it?” She really needed to stop staring
at him so she could concentrate.
“What is it I need to know?”
She forced herself to look at the television when
she explained. “It only has two settings no matter where you turn
the dial. Hot, like now—only it will get hotter—or cold—and not
just cold, arctic cold. You choose,” she said.
“Sweat or freeze are the choices?”
“Yes.”
“Freeze.”
She patted his knee. “Then that’s what we’ll hope
for.”
He laughed. “You don’t have any control over
it?”
“Sorry, no.”
She’d found out the night before how faulty the air
conditioner was. She had alternated between near heatstroke and
frostbite all night long. It was miserable. She had intended to
mention the problem to her father this morning, but she’d forgotten
about it until now, and the heat index was rapidly rising.
She loosened the neck of her robe and fanned
herself. “Do you mind if I watch SportsCenter? The roundup
is coming on soon.”
He handed her the remote as he asked, “How old is
the air conditioner?”
“It’s brand-new.”
“Then why . . .”
She found the channel, muted the program that was
ending, and turned to Max. “Daddy got a deal,” she explained. “He
doesn’t buy anything unless he can get a great deal.”
“I don’t care if he got it for half price, if it
doesn’t work—”
“Half price isn’t a deal to my father. Eighty
percent maybe, but not fifty.”
He shook his head. “He should take it back.”
“Yes, he should,” she agreed. “But he won’t. He’ll
get a repairman to fix it one of these days. I’ll mention it to him
tomorrow. Would you like a beer? You can’t watch
SportsCenter without a beer.”
“Sweetheart, you’re a dream come true. A beautiful
woman who likes SportsCenter and drinks beer.”
“We’re not such a rare breed,” she said.
She put his unopened can of Diet Coke back in the
refrigerator, got out two bottles of Bud Light and a jar of mixed
nuts, and went back to the sofa. She handed Max one bottle, twisted
the cap off the other, then tapped his bottle and took a
drink.
She put the jar of nuts on the table and sat down
next to him. “It’s getting hotter in here,” she said as she placed
the cold bottle against the side of her neck. She adjusted her
position on the couch a couple of times and ended up leaning into
him. “I’d move over and give you some room, but there’s a lump, and
it’s very uncomfortable. I think a spring’s about to pop
through.”
“I like you pressed against me.”
“I’m not making you hot?” After asking the
suggestive question, she put her bottle against his cheek. “Feel
good?”
“You feel good. The roundup is on.”
It was one of her favorite shows, and tonight the
topic was once again the upcoming football season. Simon’s name was
mentioned about a dozen times. Max was answering texts, but she
noticed he smiled whenever one of the commentators complimented his
brother. He didn’t show any reaction to the criticisms.
Halfway through the program, Ellie removed her
robe. She didn’t care whether it was appropriate or not. She was
burning up.
“We could open the windows in the bedrooms, maybe
get a crosswind. They’re the only windows that open.”
“What’s it like outside now?”
She found her cell phone, looked up the weather,
and groaned. “It’s ninety and humid. I think we’re going to have to
sleep in the house tonight. This is worse than paint fumes.”
“I don’t think so,” he said. “It’s not so
bad.”
“I can suffer through it if you can,” she said.
“And it’s only for one night. We’re leaving tomorrow.”
He nodded. “Good,” he said. “I was going to bring
it up if you didn’t. We can’t stay here. If there were a fire, we’d
be trapped, and walking down the outside steps would give anyone a
clear shot. We’re going to have to find a better place to stay, one
that isn’t open—”
“We’re not trapped here,” she argued. “We could go
down the stairs that lead into the garage or even go out one of the
back windows. There’s a rope in the garage, and it really isn’t too
much of a jump . . .” She stopped, realizing there was no need to
protest. “You misunderstand. I want to leave Winston Falls and go
back to St. Louis. If I stay here, I’m putting my family in
danger.”
Ellie stared at the television but she wasn’t
paying attention to the program. Frustration was building inside
her again because she didn’t have any control over what was
happening. She put her beer down and went to check the thermostat.
She hadn’t even touched it when she felt a blast of cold air come
through the vent in the hall.
“We now have air-conditioning,” she
announced.
“Good to hear.” He turned off the television and
stood. “Are you serious about going back home?”
He was walking toward her, and she was feeling
breathless again. “Yes, I’m serious.”
“How will your dad feel about your leaving?”
She thought about it a few seconds and then said,
“He’ll be relieved, and that will make him feel guilty.”
“When are you going to talk to him?”
“First thing in the morning,” she said. She leaned
against the wall, and he stopped in front of her.
“And your mother?”
“Oh God. She’ll have a fit. She won’t believe
anything I say once I tell her I’m leaving. It’s not going to be
pretty,” she added.
The dark look in his eyes made swallowing
difficult. She wanted him to take her into his arms. She wanted
him. She tried to block the thought but didn’t have much success.
Did he have to be so provocative and mesmerizing?
“There’s no need to tell why we’re leaving,” she
said. “Agreed? You are not going to tell my father about Willis
Cogburn.”
“Yeah, sweetheart, I am. I’m obligated to warn him
of the possible danger.”
“But I’ll be gone—”
“Doesn’t matter.”
She poked him in the chest. “This is exactly why
I’m not going to sleep with you. You’d feel obligated to
tell.”
Max brushed her hair over her shoulder and trailed
his fingers down the side of her cheek. Her skin was silky and
soft, and he didn’t think there was a single flaw in her
complexion. “I don’t remember asking . . .”
“Then you don’t want . . .”
He leaned down. “I didn’t say that.”
She smiled sweetly. “I could have you in bed in
less than ten minutes.”
Max loved the way she smiled. Her eyes sparkled
with such devilment. Damn, he wanted her. He leaned even closer
until his mouth was just inches above hers and whispered, “Five
minutes, sweetheart. That’s all it would take me to get you in my
bed.”
Ellie could feel all her resolve melting away. She
tilted her head and closed her eyes. His mouth brushed hers.
“This isn’t a good idea,” she said. Her voice was
so faint, it was barely audible.
“I know,” he said as he circled her mouth with
gentle kisses.
“You’re here because of your job, and we shouldn’t
let anything interfere,” she whispered breathlessly.
“You’re right.” His lips moved to her
earlobe.
“We’ve got to stop.” She sighed.
“Uh-huh,” he said as he nibbled on her ear.
It took every last ounce of willpower to slowly
pull away, but Ellie gently pushed against his chest and stepped
back.
“Good night,” she said.
She walked into her room. Closing the door was the
hardest thing she had ever done in her life.