CHAPTER 2
Liam Niall had regrets. Many regrets. Any
180-year-old man could expect to fuck up now and then. An immortal
man could expect to survive the fuckups with the burden of guilt
weighing ever heavier.
As the word “demon” reverberated between them, he
contemplated the incredulous woman before him. His delay finding
Jilly Chan, his failure to warn her that she’d been chosen by an
unbound demon that would possess her soul and doom her to an
eternity fighting the endless battle between good and evil . . .
Yeah, this particular fuckup was going to haunt him for a very long
time.
But as the leader of the Chicago league of
talyan—soul-damaged warriors possessed by repentant demons called
teshuva seeking salvation—he’d long ago stopped listening to the
little voice inside that warned of danger and destruction and doom.
Damn it, he was possessed by a demon hell-bent on obliterating
every lesser demonic emanation from the other-realm that had the
bad luck to cross his path. The little voice inside him was always
freaking out.
And so he had squelched the restlessness that had
kept him wandering the streets long after the rest of the league
retreated for the day to sleep off their wounds. But as the nights
passed, the little voice had gone from a whisper to a scream, until
he was frantic with the need to silence it. Roaming the
neighborhoods, he’d felt like he was missing something, and the
sensation had been unnerving.
As the league’s leader, missing something was
tantamount to betrayal. He’d looked for a ferales’ lair or malice
flock, or another potentially disastrous tear in the Veil like the
one that had nearly spelled their end just a few months ago. Even a
disturbance in the other-realm ethers could mean yet more peril for
his possessed fighters.
And then he’d found it.
Found her.
Trailing her unbound demon like a silk scarf, the
pixie with the triple-X-rated curves had instantly caught his eye,
as both a demon slayer and a male. Her black hair, spiked with
propane- flame blue, matched the titanium loop piercing the nostril
of her flat- bridged nose. Both affectations faded beside the
golden honey and cinnamon of her eyes.
That exotic regard had passed over him without
interest, focused as she was on handing out socks and sandwiches to
the homeless who’d gathered in the park that day. But even that
glancing heat had turned his watery bones to steam.
It shamed him now—without changing his belief
that he’d do exactly the same again—that he’d run back to the
familiar cold comforts of the league.
But one of his best fighters, Ferris Archer, had
looked him over and said, “You found her.”
For the first time in a long time, Liam rejected
necessity and played blissfully ignorant. “Found who?”
“You can’t just blow off the mated-talyan bond. I
should know.” Archer lifted one eyebrow in a self-deprecating
gesture. Winning that recent battle to save the city had proved
easier than winning Sera, the first female talya in living history,
though in the end, she’d only asked Archer to give up his death
wish, his bloody arrogance, and his heart.
“We don’t know anything about joined talyan,”
Liam objected. “Thanks to Bookie absconding with the only extant
reference.” He peered at Archer. “Unless Sera has found something
you haven’t told the rest of us bachelors.”
Archer schooled his expression, but a glint of
sinful pleasure—and a touch of that arrogance—brightened his eyes.
“She’s been working her way through the archives, trying to find
any references to female talyan, the mated bond, soulless armies,
and all the other crazy shit we’ve been facing lately. But there’s
a lot to go through, especially with no trained Bookkeeper.”
“Then if you don’t know anything—”
“I know that even with demon-amped strength, you
can’t run from this.”
“Since when do you believe in destiny?”
“Who said anything about destiny? I mean you
can’t run from this fight.”
Bowing to the inevitable, Liam had sent the
league’s best tracker to find the new female possessed. Haji had
learned that Jilly Chan spent more time on the street than at her
desk for her job with Reach Out, a halfway house for homeless
teens, but she’d been absent from her usual haunts, no doubt
subliminally unsettled by the other-realm forces focused on her.
The tracker had chased the intermittent energies of the unbound
demon with no luck. They’d missed picking her up before she got to
her apartment one night, and then a surge in demonic activity had
distracted them.
Finally, following the relentless echo in his
chest, like an indefinable hunger determined to assuage itself,
Liam had found the source of his unease facing down not one but
three ferales, with their demonic emanations clothed in menacing
corporeal husks.
The recent pack behavior of the previously
solitary ferales was worrisome enough; to think that they’d had
Jilly cornered, her demon’s powers latent and inaccessible until
the final ascension, made his blood curdle.
Now, staring at the pint-sized woman with the
hot-toddy eyes, he wondered which lucky bastard would help escort
her through the terrifying new life that awaited. For the merest
heartbeat, he wished . . . But no, overseeing the league itself and
the repentant teshuva’s eternal mission to atone was his
calling.
He glanced down at her shit-kicker boots. He
didn’t necessarily envy the man chosen to guide her next
steps.
She narrowed those heated eyes at him.
“Demon?”
He stifled a sigh. If the league kept adding new
fighters at the current rate, he’d have to come up with a welcome
kit, a handbook, and probably name tags. Since when had fighting
evil included management issues?
“This sounds insane, of course,” he
started.
“Yeah, why stop the reality thrill ride
now?”
“These . . .” He toed the butchered feralis.
“These are lesser demons, drawn to the demon that has possessed
you.”
She straightened, though the extra inches barely
lifted the blue spikes of her hair up to his chin. “Is my head
coming off next?”
Ignoring the ichor staining the hammer, he
slipped the weapon back into the sheath in his coat. The move
didn’t seem to particularly reassure her. He couldn’t blame her.
“The teshuva demon in you is repentant, seeking to atone for its
sins. Like the one in me.”
She stared at him. “You’re possessed. By a
demon.”
“You’re finding it hard to believe, I know. But
soon your demon will make its virgin ascension. Its influence will
spread completely through you. Then you’ll understand what I’m
saying. For now, I just need you to believe that you could’ve been
killed tonight by these monsters. And more of these will be drawn
to you until you’ve fully integrated the teshuva. So you’ll take
the guard I give you.”
Her glare struck him like a match head.
He shrugged. “Think you can stop me?”
She looked down at the tiny blade in her hand and
echoed his shrug.
“I’m not crazy,” he said. “And you’re not crazy,
seeing these entities or listening to me. I know you’ve gone
through some rough times lately, that you’ve been feeling isolated
and alone, as if you’ve drifted away from your life.”
“I suppose you stalkers prefer isolated victims.”
She flicked the blade in the box cutter another notch longer. “I
should warn you, lonely or not, I won’t go easy.”
“No doubt.” He refrained from explaining that a
demon-ridden warrior who went easy wouldn’t be much use in the
never-ending battle against evil. “I’m just telling you what we
know of possession. The other-realm entities that possess humans
always mark people already trapped between hammer and anvil, with
fire all around.”
“That doesn’t seem particularly fair.”
“Resisting temptation is easy when you’re feeling
strong.”
The restless flick of the box cutter in her hands
stilled, and a shadow darkened her eyes. “What do you know about
temptation?”
A curl of awareness made him stiffen against his
teshuva’s sudden predatory interest. “I can tell, based on the
trailing ethers around you, that the demon came to you—what?—last
night? Or maybe the night before.” Guilt pricked him. “I had people
looking, but they couldn’t find you.”
“Until too late,” she murmured, echoing him.
“Nothing like these things . . . these demons came for me before
tonight.” She pinned him with a needle-sharp gaze. “Before you.”
Then her eyes widened.
“What?” He stared into the black rounds of her
shock-expanded pupils, seeking that first hint of violet.
“Before you,” she said again to herself. “I
thought it was a dream.” Her gaze tripped over him, and his skin
prickled as if she’d physically swept her hand across his body. She
lingered on the mark at his temple, avoiding his eyes. “Never mind.
Th is is crazy. I have to go.”
He didn’t want to let her go. Because, he
convinced himself, the league needed all the fighters that came its
way. Not to mention the world didn’t need any rogue talyan,
confused by their demons, wandering the streets without purpose. At
least the battle between good and evil offered job security.
“Take the escort I’m giving you,” he urged. “For
the kids’ sake, if not for your own.”
That brought her gaze back to him. “Don’t try to
manipulate me.” Despite the exotic cast of her features, her tone
was raw icy Chicago street. “Especially not with the kids.”
“Noted.”
After a moment, she blew out a breath. “Fine,
somebody can walk me to the halfway house. And don’t bother telling
me not to go.”
He stepped back, out into the street, giving her
room to come out of the alley. She kept the box cutter in
hand.
She skirted the carcasses warily, her lip curled
in disgust. “I don’t want one of those inside me.”
“You’ve been possessed by a teshuva, a repentant
demon,” he reminded her. “These are ferales. Lesser emanations from
the tenebraeternum—the demon realm—that merge and mutate
human-realm matter into corporeal husks like these.”
She eyed him with only somewhat less disgust.
“Maybe I don’t want a . . . a teshuva in me either.”
If only his advance team had had more time to
build up a dossier on Jilly Chan. Maybe some of her secrets would
give him an insight to her personality, a clue, a weakness that
would bring her around more easily. Though he had a sneaking
suspicion that her weaknesses were even better guarded than the
rest of her.
“It chose you for a reason,” he said. “Something
made you vulnerable. You let it in, and if you reject it now, it
will tear open that vulnerability on its way out. You’d never be
whole again, in body, mind, or spirit.”
She flattened one hand against her ribs, under
her breast, as if she had a stitch in her side. “If there’s
something inside me, then I’m not whole anyway, am I?”
“Better than the alternatives.”
“Which are?”
“Death and damnation now.”
“Instead of?”
“Death and damnation later.”
She huffed back something that sounded like
laughter. “As a killer, you’re pretty impressive. As a welcoming
committee, you suck.”
“Thank you,” he said drily. He glanced across the
street, signaled with two fingers to the alley, then with another
finger pointed out the path the third feralis had taken. He gave
the roundup sign to have the talyan finish sweeping the area, and
he fell into step beside Jilly.
She watched him. “What was that?”
“Giving the crew their orders.”
“The crew. Of other demon-possessed
killers.”
He ignored the incredulity laced with mockery in
her voice.
“So you’re their boss?”
He lifted one shoulder in a reluctant shrug. It
felt as if the weight of the world pressed down on him there, but
that was just the heft of the hammer.
She kept the width of the empty sidewalk between
them. “How many demons are there?”
“Not as many repentant teshuva as quite
unrepentant tenebrae. You’ll meet the rest of our league
eventually.”
He watched her study the night, eyes narrowed and
nostrils flared so that the ring piercing winked. She couldn’t know
it, but the demon was already changing the way she looked into the
shadows. Although something about her told him she’d always faced
the darkness with defiance.
Who would make a good partner for her, with her
prickly punk attitude? Haji was too quiet. Jonah was too
straitlaced. Maybe Ecco, with his crude humor. No, she’d eviscerate
even that powerful fighter and ask no quarter.
The final stages of possession could get ugly as
the human and demonic elements struggled to find a new balance.
Archer and Sera had been reluctant to explain the details of how
they’d gotten through that last dangerous night. He’d have to bully
past their shared silence so he could make the right choice for
Jilly.
God knew, possession was hard enough
already.
To distract himself from the memories that
threatened, he asked, “What were you doing poking around this part
of town so late?”
“It’s part of my job, keeping an eye on the
kids.”
“Wouldn’t it be safer to keep an eye on them at
the halfway house instead of roaming crap neighborhoods after
midnight?”
Her lips twisted in wry agreement. “Iz got it
into his head to investigate the disappearance of a friend of
his.”
“What do the police—” Liam stopped himself. “I
suppose the authorities don’t have a lot of time to spend on a
missing street kid.”
Her lifted eyebrow implied he’d get no cookie for
that brilliant deduction. “Luckily, Dee ratted him out and brought
me here. And if you hadn’t come . . .” Her smile upended and
vanished.
He didn’t try to reassure her. Better that she
was frightened.
After a moment, she composed herself. “The kids
have been talking strange lately, and Iz blamed Andre’s
disappearance on things I couldn’t believe. I tried to tell him
Andre had been getting into some nasty stuff. Not strange, just
nasty, like dealing solvo.”
Dismay stiffened Liam’s spine. “Solvo and strange
are more closely linked than you know. If Andre was using, you
should write him off.”
One hard shake of her head rattled her blue
spikes. “I don’t write anyone off.”
“You don’t get a choice with solvo
addicts.”
“There’s a way back from everything—”
“Not from being soulless.”
“Soulless? But that’s crazy. . . .” She fell
silent.
“Solvo is the chemical distillation of a demon
weapon called desolator numinis. The soul
cleaver.” He let her walk most of a block without speaking. “You’re
thinking about what you’ve seen tonight, and that maybe it’s not so
crazy after all.”
“No,” she said softly. “It’s still crazy.”
“But true.”
She hesitated. “It would explain some
things.”
He put his hand on her arm to stop her. At the
feel of her, the shock that went through him had nothing to do with
demons and everything to do with temptation. God, when was the last
time he had touched a woman? The lack of a ready answer halted him
in his tracks.
When she faced him, her widened eyes exposed the
darker ring around her golden irises.
He shook off the potent jolt. If it didn’t rouse
his demon’s warning, then it didn’t matter. Never mind what else
might rouse in him.
“Look over there, by the fast-food place,” he
told her.
After a long moment, she dragged her startled
gaze off him and followed his directions. “What am I—Jesus, what is
that?”
The substance oozing around the entrance looked
vaguely like a ghostly rat covered in burned fryer oil gone bad.
Gone very, very bad. “It’s a malice. Another sort of lesser
tenebrae, but it stays incorporeal, unlike the ferales in the
alley. They skulk around in small flocks, drawn to chaotic negative
emotions.” He glanced at her. “Like yours.”
She recoiled. “It’s coming this way.”
“There are more coming. So get a grip.”
Her fingers tightened whitely on the box
cutter.
“Control your emotions,” he clarified.
“How am I supposed to do that?”
“Like me.” He turned her away from the malice, to
face him again. He stared into her eyes. “You can’t let it get to
you.”
He made it sound so easy, he almost convinced
himself.
“You said it already got to me, or something like
it.” Her chest heaved with an uneven breath.
He tightened his grip on her arm to draw her back
from the edge of bolting. Would she be fleeing the malice? Or him?
“Now you have to control it, dominate it.”
“The demon . . .”
“Your fear.”
She scowled as the word tripped a visible switch
in her from dread to annoyance. “I’ve faced worse than monster
blobs.” She narrowed her eyes, cutting him off. “Worse than
you.”
“Undoubtedly.” Why else would a demon choose her?
“You have new weapons now.”
She slowly drew in a breath that caught in her
throat once, as if it hurt. When she let it out, the tension
drained from her face. She pocketed the box cutter and let her arms
fall loose and ready to her sides. Those hot eyes still glinted at
him, half veiled behind short black lashes. “I don’t want a hammer.
Doesn’t accessorize well with my ass-kicking boots.”
He let her go. Guessing by the hard curl to her
lips, he’d lay odds she’d mentally lined up his ass for that
kicking too.