CHAPTER 13
He had not been alone with his thoughts for a
very long time. Even when the demon rested, Corvus had always been
aware of it, if only from the bands of black that snaked up his
arms, once broken on the glaring sands of the Colosseum and healed
by the powers of darkness. As his demon dragged him through the
city, it saddened Corvus, now that he had his thoughts, that his
thoughts now were so . . . thoughtless.
Too, he had not imagined being alone would be sad
in itself.
Tilting his head so that his rolling eye would
align with its more attentive brother, he watched the empty husks
arrayed around him as the demon made its rounds. He was more than
them, at least, though he wasn’t sure why. Most of the solvo blanks
faded into listless apathy within a very short time. That he’d kept
any wit or awareness after his djinni-riddled soul had been
forcibly woven in the Veil between the realms puzzled him. Whether
it was a testament to his iron will, his long possession, or some
other quirk, he had no idea.
The soul-swiped husks were everywhere now, as
he’d seen on the demon’s daily forced marches. He could be proud of
himself that the powdery distillation of the desolator numinis had worked so well.
He was less entranced with the searing darklings
of smoke and metal that had begun coalescing around his own demon.
As his ill-fit demon yanked him around, the marks on his arms oozed
with a spoiled- egg stench that seemed the sweetest nectar to these
unfamiliar darklings. Not the old hulking fellows or little darting
black monsters that had once trailed in his wake. These new demons
consumed whatever they touched.
Without the tempering influence he once exerted,
his demon seemed set on a path that would end in the utter
devouring of all. Not his original intent, to be sure. Not even his
demon had understood they sought release, not obliteration. With
some ruin along the way, unavoidably, but certainly not the central
aim.
The demon set their feet for the next
congregation of husks. He couldn’t understand its obsession; once
they’d settled, the soulless carcasses never went anywhere. But his
lips were chanting something as he walked, and he realized they
were headed to one of the newer collections.
“Free her, free her,” he was saying.
Now he remembered. There were a few who longed
for release as much as he. One of those waited at this place. He’d
seen the trapped longing in her eyes, and he’d felt the kinship of
the demon-ridden. Oh, demonic powers hadn’t actually invaded her
soul; her damnation had been self-imposed.
It had been nice to not be alone. Stripping that
female talya of half her clothes and most of her teshuva all those
months ago had reminded him of the revels of his Roman master. Not
that he’d been invited to those, of course. Nero’s court
glassworker had strutted his prize gladiator on the sands, but
hadn’t trusted him around the lovely, delicate works of his trade.
Not just the glass, but the girls. No brute hands, he’d said—an
unfair branding, to Corvus’s mind, considering his virtuosity in
the Colosseum.
Then he’d been injured, and thrown aside. Even
broken glass was valued. But not him. The demon, though, had wanted
him, invited him to join it—slagged and reformed him into something
more. After that, he had invited himself to the next merrymaking.
But then the screaming had rather ruined the night, and the blood
overshadowed the beauty of the glass.
In two thousand years, he’d come to realize the
demon was no friend to him, and now it had decided to play master
without the subterfuge. But maybe, in the depths of his woe, he had
found another to share his pain.
Though he’d admit his hands lacked the finesse
they’d once had, and she looked as brittle as the ones who had
broken under his touch that night in his master’s house after his
possession.
Still, as the demon propelled him down the
street, his rolling eye looked eagerly ahead. And saw.
Though he had no control anymore, still the force
of his dismay locked his muscles, and the demon was forced to wait
with him.
The marks on his arms dripped poison with its
fury. Once again, he and the demon were in accord. Someone had
stolen the congregation and, with it, the one who had met his
eye.
“Jilly wants something.” Archer paced outside
the kitchen.
Liam craned his neck past the other man. To think
he’d ever underestimated how sometimes playing leader to a bunch of
violent, paranoid immortals got in the way of more important
things. “Dinner maybe?”
Archer snorted. “Oh, that’s not all she
wants.”
“Just because your mate offered to serve up your
choicer bits if you volunteered her for KP duty again doesn’t mean
all women fear subjugation by slotted spoon.”
“I’m telling you, when a woman feeds her man, she
has plans.”
“I’m not her—” Liam took a deep breath. “Well,
I’m not entirely opposed to the idea.”
Ecco stumped down the hall. “What ideas are we
talking about? And what is that smell? I want that.”
Liam fixed Archer with a smug stare. “See?
Sometimes it’s simple.”
“Did you just call me simple?” Ecco shouldered
past him. “Out of my way.”
One by one, other talyan drifted into the hall.
Liam had sent off the addicts—except for a couple who’d refused—to
various rehab programs, courtesy of Sera’s previous life and
hospital connections. With the coming twilight, that left only the
prehunt crowd at the warehouse, restless and well aware they,
unlike the junkies, had no chance of casting off the compulsions
that rode them.
They milled outside the door to the kitchenette,
reluctant to edge by him, until Liam fell into Ecco’s wake.
Jilly stood at the stove, a cheerful
red-and-white-striped towel hanging from the back pocket of her
jeans. The knot-work bracelet was shoved high on her forearm. She
didn’t look around, just said, “Get a bowl.”
Ecco stepped up with alacrity. He towered over
the petite Jilly with his outstretched bowl like some Oliver Twist
on ’roids. She ladled out the soup, and Liam heard the eager
inhalation of the talyan behind him as the fragrance rolled over
them.
An elbow in his ribs shoved him aside, and the
talyan streamed past him to get in line, never mind the usual
teshuva-triggered avoidance of close contact. Or, God forbid, a
little respect for their leader.
Good thing they’d never find out what a hard time
he’d given her about slapping down the platinum card for the
stockpot big enough to cook down a feralis. Not that the whiff of
chicken and dumplings coming his way had anything to do with
demonology. Heaven, maybe.
He waited in the doorway, arms crossed, while his
crew filed past the stoves. From the dinky oven, Jilly handed out
fist-sized domes of lightly browned biscuit. Almost the same color
as her eyes, he noted idly. The tightening in his belly was
definitely hunger. Of what sort, he wasn’t entirely sure.
He wished he’d held firm at the grocery store
when she wanted to get the insanely expensive industrial-sized jar
of honey. Not necessary, he’d argued. Talyan didn’t need to be
sweetened up. Listening to the men’s pleased murmurs as they
drizzled spoonfuls of the golden glaze over their biscuits, he
realized he wanted that all for himself.
As if he’d touched her shoulder, Jilly met his
gaze across the long metal table lined with talyan focused on their
bowls. She lifted her eyebrows and tipped the pot toward him.
Almost empty. She filled a last bowl and slid it across the
counter.
After a moment, he pushed away from the door. The
clink of spoons against empty bowls accompanied him across the room
along with the low murmur of voices as the men leaned back.
Content, he realized.
He walked up to Jilly. “Taming the savage
beasts?”
“Maybe.” She handed him a biscuit.
The dough warmed his palm. “Thanks.” He propped
his hip on the counter. His mouth watered and he forced himself not
to tip the bowl to his lips. No sense acting the savage,
half-starved beast.
She hummed to herself. “I used to cook for the
kids. I miss it a little, I guess.”
A velvety dumpling slipped over his tongue with a
hint of rosemary. Despite his pleasure—maybe because of it?—he
couldn’t take his attention from her. She scanned the room with
lips pursed. He imagined her keeping watch over her kids and was
half tempted to start a food fight. Except the soup was too good to
fling.
When she turned that eagle eye on him, he said,
“You know it’s good.”
She nodded. “The more they come together as a
team, the more likely they are to survive.”
“I meant your cooking. The halfway house’s loss
was our gain.”
She ran her gaze over him, foot to head. He held
himself still though his skin prickled even with his demon dormant
again. “A strong wind could blow you over. Well, assuming it was a
demon-driven wind. Which, lately, it has been.”
“I’m not Roald. I won’t walk off into the
ether.”
She met his gaze without blinking. “No one
intends to wander off.”
He put the bowl down gently and said, “I am not
one of your wayward youth.”
Though she half shuttered her spicy sweet eyes,
he felt the spark jump between them. “Yeah. I got that.”
The flare of attraction was hot and sudden and
pointless. He took a step back to let it sputter out. “Thanks for
dinner.”
She spun away to wash her hands.
Subtle, he thought.
Around them, the talyan were rising and
stretching, ready for the night. Jilly dried her hands and tossed
the towel at the sink. “Okay, let’s go.”
“Go?”
“Find Corvus. It’s why you let the other addicts
go, isn’t it?” She pinned him with a baleful eye. “I suppose
they’re wearing tracking collars.”
He met her gaze. “No. I have talyan following
them.”
“Fishing.”
“Protecting. If they go running back to Corvus,
they could be in danger. But I haven’t heard anything back from the
guards yet.”
Ecco walked between them, rinsed his bowl, and
put it in the dishwasher. “If Niall fucks up whatever you’re
talking about, come to me.”
“Go, teamwork,” Liam said wryly.
“Thank you,” she said over him.
Ecco flexed. “He’s not the sort to appreciate a
real handful of woman.”
“Stop while you’re ahead,” she suggested.
“See you on the street, then.” The other talyan,
following Ecco’s example, cleared their dishes.
Jonah brought up the rear, added soap, and
started the machine. “Your sister is still here.”
“Is that a problem?” Jilly’s tone implied it
better not be, and Liam wondered if he should frisk her for paring
knives.
Jonah shook his head. “She’ll be safer with us. I
heard Sera is bringing her angelic friend to talk to Dory.”
Jilly nodded cautiously. “She told me Nanette’s
ministry has a background with substance abuse.”
“Not to mention, she can heal with a touch.”
Jonah gave a decisive nod. “I hope it works.”
When the last talya had gone, Liam huffed.
“Anyone else you want to wrap around your finger?”
She glared at him. “Not really.”
He walked out, knowing she’d follow.
“Maybe Nanette can help Dory where I can’t,” she
said from behind him. “But I can at least make sure Corvus and his
solvo and his salambes won’t be waiting for her on the other
side.”
“We might not find him tonight.” Liam
cautioned.
“We have forever, but Dory doesn’t. We’ll find
him.”
If the determination in her eyes counted for
anything, he knew they would. He couldn’t leash her. He shouldn’t
even want to. The league—hell, the world—needed her fire and
zeal.
With a thud of bootheels, she matched his pace
down the hall. “I want a sword or something.”
The fate of the world might be looking up, but he
was doomed.
A wind that still stung with winter’s bite
hissed down the street in front of the warehouse to tug at his
coat, and the pull of the hammer made his shoulders ache, though
he’d carried it for a century without noticing its weight. Jilly’s
jab about being like Roald stung.
She was so used to thinking that broken was a
problem, she couldn’t see that cracks were good camouflage out
here. Cracks let the steam out, made him look bigger when all the
pieces were spread out. Cracks were good for a lot. He silenced his
grumbling when Jilly appeared.
She’d pulled the spikes of blue-striped hair into
twin tufts bristling like antennae on either side of her head. A
few errant strands trailed over her wary golden gaze. He eyed her
with trepidation and wondered aloud, “What are you packing? I
shouldn’t have left you down there by yourself. A chain saw?
Suitcase nuke?”
She snorted. A flicker in her hands, and she
revealed a double-curved weapon only a little wider than his spread
fingers. The two half- moon blades overlapped so that the horns of
one pointed outward while the horns of the other wrapped back to
protect the hand. The middle of one moon was leather wrapped where
she gripped it, but the other exposed edges gleamed with
sharp-honed perfection.
“It’s balanced like a good cleaver.” She smiled
and flipped the knife in her hand. The edges winked under the
streetlights.
He winced. “The demon can’t regenerate lost
fingers.”
“I won’t lose anything.”
Apparently she didn’t count that missing chunk of
her soul. He squelched the hollow thought. “Just be careful. The
teshuva lends you some natural—supernatural—talent in the mayhem
department, but you shouldn’t put all your faith in it.” He rubbed
his forehead. “Never mind faith. I mean you shouldn’t take chances
with the demon if you don’t have to.”
The knives disappeared into her pocket. “I
won’t,” she said. “Either one.”
Quiet as bats, the talyan left the warehouse.
They edged around him and disappeared into the night, their black
clothes merging with the gloom as they separated.
“Alone?” Jilly murmured.
“There’s too much evil for the good—or at least
the repentant—to bunch up. I’ll recall them if we have
cause.”
“You don’t sound like we have a chance.”
How to explain to her that after a certain number
of years—decades, for instance—it was hard to sound like anything?
“Finding Corvus isn’t something we’ll leave to chance. Come
on.”
“I need to do something first. Can I borrow your
phone for a second?” She was scowling at him even as the question
“Why?” formed on his lips. So he handed it over without asking,
just to prove he could.
She punched in a number, waited. “Dee, it’s
Jilly.” A spate of girlish squeals rang from the phone. Jilly
grimaced and held it away from her ear. “I’m fine.” She paused. “I
know. Yeah, I got another job.” She half turned from Liam. “No, I’m
sure not all bosses suck as bad as Envers. Listen, can you come
down to the alley for a couple minutes before lockout? I’ll be
there in a few minutes. Bring Iz, okay? And I want my phone
back.”
Liam studied her after she hung up. “You can’t
tell them.”
“What?”
“Anything. That’s why it’s easier to let it go.
Let them go.”
“I let them go all the time. When I can’t help
them, when I can. They all move on. I get that.” But her stiffly
held shoulders belied her acceptance.
His tyro fighter didn’t accept anything without a
fight. Even when she couldn’t win.
When their cab pulled up across the street from
the halfway house, the two teens were just coming down the stairs.
The four of them met around the side of the building, out of sight
of the front door.
The girl threw her arms around Jilly with the
same delighted squeal Liam recognized from the phone call. Despite
her enthusiasm, Dee fixed him over Jilly’s shoulder with a stare
too knowing for someone her age. “Your new boss is hot,” she
stage-whispered as she handed over Jilly’s cell phone.
Jilly pulled back. “Who says he’s my boss?”
“He has that ‘you got time to lean, you got time
to clean’ look.”
Jilly snorted. “Yeah, we do a lot of
cleaning.”
Dee faked a gasp. “But not leaning, I
hope?”
“Definitely not.” Jilly gave the teens a once-
over. “You two doing okay?”
They both nodded, Dee more decisively than
Iz.
The young man studied Liam. “You know what
happened to Andre. You know that thing we saw in the alley. That’s
why you wanted to see me and Dee.”
Liam lifted one eyebrow. “My advice? Just say
no.”
Dee snorted, sounding a lot like Jilly. “We’re
not dumb.”
Which didn’t really indicate whether she thought
drugs were dumb or he was for even bringing up the alternative.
When Jilly gave a faint shake of her head, he tightened his jaw
against the urge to demand compliance. Did they think they were
immortal? On solvo, they would be, without even the ability to
regret the choice.
“Andre won’t be coming back.” The faintest thread
of uncertainty wavered in Jilly’s tone. “But if you see him around,
I want you to stay away from him. No matter what. And then I want
you to call me. I’ll leave my phone with you, Dee.” She programmed
in the @1 business number. “And restrict your texting to after
class, yeah?”
Dee rolled her eyes but accepted the phone with a
nod.
Iz stuffed his hands in his pockets and gazed
sidelong at them. “Why’d you leave, Jilly?”
She hesitated, and this time Liam gave her that
slight shake of the head. “Nothing to do with you guys, you know
that. You already figured out that sometimes real life takes a hard
left turn and your only choice is to follow where it leads.”
Liam couldn’t completely stifle his cough of
amusement.
Iz glared at him. “You were the left turn,
weren’t you?”
Liam shrugged at the flare of antagonism. “Don’t
worry. She doesn’t follow all that blindly.”
After a moment, Iz’s stance softened. “Sometimes
that’s good, right?”
“Yeah. Remember that next time some stranger
comes around offering you candy.”
The teens groaned.
Jilly glanced back at the street. “You guys need
to be inside before doors close. Just remember.”
After a bit more groaning, the girls hugged
again. Iz hovered close, leaving Liam on the outside of the little
circle.
He and Jilly waited as the kids made their way
back inside. The door latched with an audible click.
Jilly sighed. “They’re no safer than
before.”
“And in no more danger,” Liam reminded her. “The
boy could be a Bookkeeper someday. He has the eyes for it.”
Jilly shuddered. “There’s a career path I’ll
never suggest.”
He gritted his teeth at her vehemence. “Right.
Wouldn’t want to give anyone the chance to help save the world.” He
strode out of the alley, forcing her to keep up.
“That’s our job, remember?”
Despite his stiff jaw, the question slipped out.
“And do you still blame me for it, as Iz does?”
She stuffed her hands in her pockets, then winced
and pulled one hand out to suck her finger where she’d obviously
nicked herself on the crescent-moon blades. “You explained already,
my penance trigger was tripped long before I met you.”
Her answer no more addressed his question than
the kids had agreed to stay away from drugs. But she didn’t need to
like him to do her job. The more she feared for her hooligans, the
harder she’d work. It only weakened his cause to reassure
her.
And revealed a weakness in himself that he wanted
her reassurance at all. His spine prickled, as if he’d swung his
hammer too wildly and left himself undefended. He couldn’t afford
to expose his doubts about his leadership. The talyan had enough
monstrous, ceaseless fears to deal with on a nightly basis without
his adding to their burden. Of course she blamed him. He blamed
himself for not somehow warning her off, even knowing she couldn’t
have—maybe wouldn’t have—listened.
Lucky him, the needs of the league ground on, and
didn’t care about his momentary lapse. As a poor smithy fleeing
starvation, he would’ve been grateful to know that he’d always have
a place. Instead, he suspected she would be less prickly to that
smithy than the league leader he had become.
He took them back to the apartment where they’d
found the haints. Already, the encrustations of birnenston were
sloughing off the walls and ceiling in the absence of the
sustaining demonic emanations. The rumble of the L rattled the
broken plywood over the windows, and a few beams of light shot
across the room.
“What are we looking for?” Jilly frowned down at
a pile of dust, all that was left of a burned-out haint.
“Darkness.”
“It’s already night.”
“Call your demon.”
“Oh. That darkness. What
am I—”
He touched her arm to turn her back toward the
dust, and all his senses sharpened, slanted.
She stumbled back from the pile when a cloud of
scintillating flecks coalesced, their pattern vaguely man-shaped.
“Tell me that’s not a soul. Or leftover sliced and diced
soul.”
Throughout the room, other glowing clouds
hovered. “Oh God,” she whispered.
“I doubt he’s around at the moment.”
“What are we going to do?”
“Nothing. We can’t repatriate them with their
destroyed bodies, although they seem unwavering in the search. And
apparently they can’t find their way to wherever an unbroken soul
should go.” He released her to rub his temple. “Just remember how
you summoned the teshuva to see. If we can find more, these
soulflies could lead us to other haint haunts. I don’t like this
sense of something smoldering.”
“Not these. The bodies are cold dust and
gone.”
“Yes, but back home, the peat marshes could burn
underground, unnoticed, and then blaze up out of control.” He let
his hand drop to his side. His fingers ached with the pressure of
his involuntary fist. “Where there are burned-out haint husks with
soulfly smoke, there’s bound to be hellfire.”
“Salambes. Maybe even Corvus.” She shuddered,
watching the soul flecks. When she hugged herself, the knot-work
bracelet glinted with their reflected emanations. “And he left
these shredded souls to wander. Lost. No, trapped. Never to be
freed.” Her eyes seemed dull as the ashed coals in a cold
forge.
Staring down into her stricken face, he frowned.
“I’d say they’re a little too free.” He tugged at her arm to bump
her away from the cloud.
Through her jacket, he felt her shiver again. A
scent like iron filings chilled his lungs, and gray mists curdled
around the edges of his vision.
He tightened his grip as he felt the world
shifting around them. “Oh no, you don’t. No slipping into the demon
realm. Not for them.” He dragged her close, as if he could build a
cage with his body to keep the bitter frost at bay.
“No hope,” she whispered. “No last chance.”
He’d thought the same himself, more than once,
but to hear the words on her lips tore his heart. For her, he
wanted to lie—never mind the fallen angel inside him—and say
everything would be all right. “I thought we agreed, no drifting.
Jilly?”
But she was gone, into the demon realm on a
downward spiral of anguish resonating with the doomed soulflies. So
much for her tough riot-grrl attitude. And so much for his
antidrifting commandments. What was the good of being boss if even
his big hands couldn’t hold her?
Ah, but he knew one technique guaranteed to light
her golden eyes again.
“For the good of the realm,” he murmured. Now he
was lying to himself, because the flare of desire as he lowered his
head had nothing at all to do with saving the world.
He kissed her.
Behind his closed lids, the crackle of ice
spread, deep through his bones. And still, his body burned with
wanting this, wanting her. He gathered her tighter yet, until the
twin points of the crescent knife in her pocket dug into his
flank.
Her cold lips opened to him.
Even with his eyes shut, brightness sparked
around him. The unnerving mélange of ice crystals, embers, and
shattered souls swirled between them, to bind them.
Closer and closer, forcing back the threatening
freeze even as her blade cut through the heavy canvas of his coat,
then his jeans, until the crescent knife scored his skin. Pain
spiked over the point of his hip, and the tickle of blood traced
down his groin. If he’d faintly hoped poking a hole in himself
would direct the flow away from other rampant parts of his anatomy,
no luck.
She warmed under his hands, and her breath sighed
over his skin. She clutched him, mirroring the strength of his
embrace, until, with no distance left between them, the other-realm
shine of the soulflies faded. Only the hot pulse of his heavy
flesh, the flash of craving as her tongue traced his upper lip,
remained. He growled against her mouth as the sensation pushed him
closer to the edge.
No, he was supposed to be pulling them back from the edge. He forced himself to lift his
head, dragging in a pained breath that whistled past his clenched
teeth. Jilly’s lips were wild red in her honey skin. When she
opened her eyes to meet his gaze, she was entirely present with
him.
She reached up and touched his temple. “It
shines.”
The reven. Thank God its
translucence revealed only glimpses of other-realm and not his
brain. He’d hate for her to see the thoughts circling up there.
None of it had anything to do with his duties to the league. “What
was drawing you away from me?”
“Those lights.” She pressed against him. He
didn’t wince although the knife dug deeper. “You Irish have all the
stories of marshlights leading travelers to their deaths.”
“Always a bedtime favorite.” He cupped his hand
around the back of her neck, avoiding the blue spikes of her hair
but soothing her disquiet. “We didn’t go to these lights, though.
They were drawn to us.”
She shivered and glanced over her shoulder.
The soul flecks had streamed away from their ash
piles, like miniature stars drawn off their celestial course by a
black hole. What had drawn them?
Liam laced his fingers through Jilly’s and pulled
her arm out to the side, as if they were about to waltz.
The flickers of light followed.
“Eh, why don’t they stay over there somewhere,
like, far away?” She flinched before they touched her. “The
bracelet, of course. It did come from a demon.”
“And demons do love a lost soul.” He let their
joined hands drop abruptly, and the soulflies swirled in the back
draft of air before resuming their slow descent toward the bracelet
again.
“I don’t want to be followed by lost
souls.”
He decided not to point out that she’d certainly
made a habit of it before this. Nobody liked hearing she’d walked
herself into the trap. “I don’t know how far they’ll roam from
their remains. Or what remains of their remains.”
“You knew they were here.”
He nodded. “From the haint-dust samples we
brought back to the warehouse.”
She narrowed her eyes. “How many of these must be
floating around the city? Are they all converging on me?”
He shrugged. “So far, it seems they need to be in
close proximity to you to be drawn off course from their body hunt.
More important, what effect are they having while they’re
wandering? They’re an unnatural by-product of the chemical
desolator numinis. Imagine the clog in
Chicago’s spiritual gutters.”
“Your compassion knows no bounds.”
He stared at her. “What does compassion have to
do with ridding the world of evil?”
“Duh.”
“We’re talking about capital- E Evil with long fangs. I can’t fight that back with
thoughts of loving- kindness and affirmation bumper
stickers.”
“Paper cuts can be a bitch.”
He scowled. “You’re the one creeped out by
stalker soulflies.”
She swung her arm and he ducked as the twinkling
cloud passed over him. Free of his grasp, she glanced at him over
her shoulder with an impish smile. “Who’s creeped out?”
Before he could answer, all his demon senses
kicked into high gear. She stiffened at the same time, and her
smile vanished under a straining tension. As one, they whirled to
face the bashed-out door where they’d entered.
The hall was empty, but ominous vibrations
rumbled through the floor.
“What is it?” she gasped. “The salambes?”
He crouched, waiting. “No haints left here.”
Without haint bodies, salambes would be no threat.
And he just really doubted his night would end so
simply.
Not that he felt any satisfaction about his
prediction when, in a rush of sulfurous emanations that blew the
soulflies apart, the feralis pack burst through the door.