XIV. Phoebe's Good-By
Holgrave, plunging into his tale with the energy and absorption
natural to a young author, had given a good deal of action to the
parts capable of being developed and exemplified in that manner. He
now observed that a certain remarkable drowsiness (wholly unlike
that with which the reader possibly feels himself affected) had
been flung over the senses of his auditress. It was the effect,
unquestionably, of the mystic gesticulations by which he had sought
to bring bodily before Phoebe's perception the figure of the
mesmerizing carpenter. With the lids drooping over her eyes,—now
lifted for an instant, and drawn down again as with leaden
weights,—she leaned slightly towards him, and seemed almost to
regulate her breath by his. Holgrave gazed at her, as he rolled up
his manuscript, and recognized an incipient stage of that curious
psychological condition which, as he had himself told Phoebe, he
possessed more than an ordinary faculty of producing. A veil was
beginning to be muffled about her, in which she could behold only
him, and live only in his thoughts and emotions. His glance, as he
fastened it on the young girl, grew involuntarily more
concentrated; in his attitude there was the consciousness of power,
investing his hardly mature figure with a dignity that did not
belong to its physical manifestation. It was evident, that, with
but one wave of his hand and a corresponding effort of his will, he
could complete his mastery over Phoebe's yet free and virgin
spirit: he could establish an influence over this good, pure, and
simple child, as dangerous, and perhaps as disastrous, as that
which the carpenter of his legend had acquired and exercised over
the ill-fated Alice. To a disposition like Holgrave's, at once
speculative and active, there is no temptation so great as the
opportunity of acquiring empire over the human spirit; nor any idea
more seductive to a young man than to become the arbiter of a young
girl's destiny. Let us, therefore, —whatever his defects of nature
and education, and in spite of his scorn for creeds and
institutions,—concede to the daguerreotypist the rare and high
quality of reverence for another's individuality. Let us allow him
integrity, also, forever after to be confided in; since he forbade
himself to twine that one link more which might have rendered his
spell over Phoebe indissoluble. He made a slight gesture upward
with his hand. "You really mortify me, my dear Miss Phoebe!" he
exclaimed, smiling half-sarcastically at her. "My poor story, it is
but too evident, will never do for Godey or Graham! Only think of
your falling asleep at what I hoped the newspaper critics would
pronounce a most brilliant, powerful, imaginative, pathetic, and
original winding up! Well, the manuscript must serve to light lamps
with;—if, indeed, being so imbued with my gentle dulness, it is any
longer capable of flame!" "Me asleep! How can you say so?" answered
Phoebe, as unconscious of the crisis through which she had passed
as an infant of the precipice to the verge of which it has rolled.
"No, no! I consider myself as having been very attentive; and,
though I don't remember the incidents quite distinctly, yet I have
an impression of a vast deal of trouble and calamity,—so, no doubt,
the story will prove exceedingly attractive." By this time the sun
had gone down, and was tinting the clouds towards the zenith with
those bright hues which are not seen there until some time after
sunset, and when the horizon has quite lost its richer brilliancy.
The moon, too, which had long been climbing overhead, and
unobtrusively melting its disk into the azure,—like an ambitious
demagogue, who hides his aspiring purpose by assuming the prevalent
hue of popular sentiment,—now began to shine out, broad and oval,
in its middle pathway. These silvery beams were already powerful
enough to change the character of the lingering daylight. They
softened and embellished the aspect of the old house; although the
shadows fell deeper into the angles of its many gables, and lay
brooding under the projecting story, and within the half-open door.
With the lapse of every moment, the garden grew more picturesque;
the fruit-trees, shrubbery, and flower-bushes had a dark obscurity
among them. The commonplace characteristics—which, at noontide, it
seemed to have taken a century of sordid life to accumulate—were
now transfigured by a charm of romance. A hundred mysterious years
were whispering among the leaves, whenever the slight sea-breeze
found its way thither and stirred them. Through the foliage that
roofed the little summer-house the moonlight flickered to and fro,
and fell silvery white on the dark floor, the table, and the
circular bench, with a continual shift and play, according as the
chinks and wayward crevices among the twigs admitted or shut out
the glimmer. So sweetly cool was the atmosphere, after all the
feverish day, that the summer eve might be fancied as sprinkling
dews and liquid moonlight, with a dash of icy temper in them, out
of a silver vase. Here and there, a few drops of this freshness
were scattered on a human heart, and gave it youth again, and
sympathy with the eternal youth of nature. The artist chanced to be
one on whom the reviving influence fell. It made him feel—what he
sometimes almost forgot, thrust so early as he had been into the
rude struggle of man with man—how youthful he still was. "It seems
to me," he observed, "that I never watched the coming of so
beautiful an eve, and never felt anything so very much like
happiness as at this moment. After all, what a good world we live
in! How good, and beautiful! How young it is, too, with nothing
really rotten or age-worn in it! This old house, for example, which
sometimes has positively oppressed my breath with its smell of
decaying timber! And this garden, where the black mould always
clings to my spade, as if I were a sexton delving in a graveyard!
Could I keep the feeling that now possesses me, the garden would
every day be virgin soil, with the earth's first freshness in the
flavor of its beans and squashes; and the house!—it would be like a
bower in Eden, blossoming with the earliest roses that God ever
made. Moonlight, and the sentiment in man's heart responsive to it,
are the greatest of renovators and reformers. And all other reform
and renovation, I suppose, will prove to be no better than
moonshine!" "I have been happier than I am now; at least, much
gayer," said Phoebe thoughtfully. "Yet I am sensible of a great
charm in this brightening moonlight; and I love to watch how the
day, tired as it is, lags away reluctantly, and hates to be called
yesterday so soon. I never cared much about moonlight before. What
is there, I wonder, so beautiful in it, to-night?" "And you have
never felt it before?" inquired the artist, looking earnestly at
the girl through the twilight. "Never," answered Phoebe; "and life
does not look the same, now that I have felt it so. It seems as if
I had looked at everything, hitherto, in broad daylight, or else in
the ruddy light of a cheerful fire, glimmering and dancing through
a room. Ah, poor me!" she added, with a half-melancholy laugh. "I
shall never be so merry as before I knew Cousin Hepzibah and poor
Cousin Clifford. I have grown a great deal older, in this little
time. Older, and, I hope, wiser, and,—not exactly sadder,—but,
certainly, with not half so much lightness in my spirits! I have
given them my sunshine, and have been glad to give it; but, of
course, I cannot both give and keep it. They are welcome,
notwithstanding!" "You have lost nothing, Phoebe, worth keeping,
nor which it was possible to keep," said Holgrave after a pause.
"Our first youth is of no value; for we are never conscious of it
until after it is gone. But sometimes—always, I suspect, unless one
is exceedingly unfortunate—there comes a sense of second youth,
gushing out of the heart's joy at being in love; or, possibly, it
may come to crown some other grand festival in life, if any other
such there be. This bemoaning of one's self (as you do now) over
the first, careless, shallow gayety of youth departed, and this
profound happiness at youth regained,—so much deeper and richer
than that we lost,—are essential to the soul's development. In some
cases, the two states come almost simultaneously, and mingle the
sadness and the rapture in one mysterious emotion." "I hardly think
I understand you," said Phoebe. "No wonder," replied Holgrave,
smiling; "for I have told you a secret which I hardly began to know
before I found myself giving it utterance. remember it, however;
and when the truth becomes clear to you, then think of this
moonlight scene!" "It is entirely moonlight now, except only a
little flush of faint crimson, upward from the west, between those
buildings," remarked Phoebe. "I must go in. Cousin Hepzibah is not
quick at figures, and will give herself a headache over the day's
accounts, unless I help her." But Holgrave detained her a little
longer. "Miss Hepzibah tells me," observed he, "that you return to
the country in a few days." "Yes, but only for a little while,"
answered Phoebe; "for I look upon this as my present home. I go to
make a few arrangements, and to take a more deliberate leave of my
mother and friends. It is pleasant to live where one is much
desired and very useful; and I think I may have the satisfaction of
feeling myself so here." "You surely may, and more than you
imagine," said the artist. "Whatever health, comfort, and natural
life exists in the house is embodied in your person. These
blessings came along with you, and will vanish when you leave the
threshold. Miss Hepzibah, by secluding herself from society, has
lost all true relation with it, and is, in fact, dead; although she
galvanizes herself into a semblance of life, and stands behind her
counter, afflicting the world with a greatly-to-be-deprecated
scowl. Your poor cousin Clifford is another dead and long-buried
person, on whom the governor and council have wrought a necromantic
miracle. I should not wonder if he were to crumble away, some
morning, after you are gone, and nothing be seen of him more,
except a heap of dust. Miss Hepzibah, at any rate, will lose what
little flexibility she has. They both exist by you." "I should be
very sorry to think so," answered Phoebe gravely. "But it is true
that my small abilities were precisely what they needed; and I have
a real interest in their welfare,—an odd kind of motherly
sentiment,—which I wish you would not laugh at! And let me tell you
frankly, Mr. Holgrave, I am sometimes puzzled to know whether you
wish them well or ill." "Undoubtedly," said the daguerreotypist, "I
do feel an interest in this antiquated, poverty-stricken old maiden
lady, and this degraded and shattered gentleman,—this abortive
lover of the beautiful. A kindly interest, too, helpless old
children that they are! But you have no conception what a different
kind of heart mine is from your own. It is not my impulse, as
regards these two individuals, either to help or hinder; but to
look on, to analyze, to explain matters to myself, and to
comprehend the drama which, for almost two hundred years, has been
dragging its slow length over the ground where you and I now tread.
If permitted to witness the close, I doubt not to derive a moral
satisfaction from it, go matters how they may. There is a
conviction within me that the end draws nigh. But, though
Providence sent you hither to help, and sends me only as a
privileged and meet spectator, I pledge myself to lend these
unfortunate beings whatever aid I can!" "I wish you would speak
more plainly," cried Phoebe, perplexed and displeased; "and, above
all, that you would feel more like a Christian and a human being!
How is it possible to see people in distress without desiring, more
than anything else, to help and comfort them? You talk as if this
old house were a theatre; and you seem to look at Hepzibah's and
Clifford's misfortunes, and those of generations before them, as a
tragedy, such as I have seen acted in the hall of a country hotel,
only the present one appears to be played exclusively for your
amusement. I do not like this. The play costs the performers too
much, and the audience is too cold-hearted." "You are severe," said
Holgrave, compelled to recognize a degree of truth in the piquant
sketch of his own mood. "And then," continued Phoebe, "what can you
mean by your conviction, which you tell me of, that the end is
drawing near? Do you know of any new trouble hanging over my poor
relatives? If so, tell me at once, and I will not leave them!"
"Forgive me, Phoebe!" said the daguerreotypist, holding out his
hand, to which the girl was constrained to yield her own." I am
somewhat of a mystic, it must be confessed. The tendency is in my
blood, together with the faculty of mesmerism, which might have
brought me to Gallows Hill, in the good old times of witchcraft.
Believe me, if I were really aware of any secret, the disclosure of
which would benefit your friends,—who are my own friends,
likewise,—you should learn it before we part. But I have no such
knowledge." "You hold something back!" said Phoebe. "Nothing,—no
secrets but my own," answered Holgrave. "I can perceive, indeed,
that Judge Pyncheon still keeps his eye on Clifford, in whose ruin
he had so large a share. His motives and intentions, however are a
mystery to me. He is a determined and relentless man, with the
genuine character of an inquisitor; and had he any object to gain
by putting Clifford to the rack, I verily believe that he would
wrench his joints from their sockets, in order to accomplish it.
But, so wealthy and eminent as he is, —so powerful in his own
strength, and in the support of society on all sides,—what can
Judge Pyncheon have to hope or fear from the imbecile, branded,
half-torpid Clifford?" "Yet," urged Phoebe, "you did speak as if
misfortune were impending!" "Oh, that was because I am morbid!"
replied the artist. "My mind has a twist aside, like almost
everybody's mind, except your own. Moreover, it is so strange to
find myself an inmate of this old Pyncheon House, and sitting in
this old garden—(hark, how Maule's well is murmuring!)—that, were
it only for this one circumstance, I cannot help fancying that
Destiny is arranging its fifth act for a catastrophe." "There."
cried Phoebe with renewed vexation; for she was by nature as
hostile to mystery as the sunshine to a dark corner. "You puzzle me
more than ever!" "Then let us part friends!" said Holgrave,
pressing her hand. "Or, if not friends, let us part before you
entirely hate me. You, who love everybody else in the world!"
"Good-by, then," said Phoebe frankly. "I do not mean to be angry a
great while, and should be sorry to have you think so. There has
Cousin Hepzibah been standing in the shadow of the doorway, this
quarter of an hour past! She thinks I stay too long in the damp
garden. So, good-night, and good-by." On the second morning
thereafter, Phoebe might have been seen, in her straw bonnet, with
a shawl on one arm and a little carpet-bag on the other, bidding
adieu to Hepzibah and Cousin Clifford. She was to take a seat in
the next train of cars, which would transport her to within half a
dozen miles of her country village. The tears were in Phoebe's
eyes; a smile, dewy with affectionate regret, was glimmering around
her pleasant mouth. She wondered how it came to pass, that her life
of a few weeks, here in this heavy-hearted old mansion, had taken
such hold of her, and so melted into her associations, as now to
seem a more important centre-point of remembrance than all which
had gone before. How had Hepzibah—grim, silent, and irresponsive to
her overflow of cordial sentiment—contrived to win so much love?
And Clifford, —in his abortive decay, with the mystery of fearful
crime upon him, and the close prison-atmosphere yet lurking in his
breath, —how had he transformed himself into the simplest child,
whom Phoebe felt bound to watch over, and be, as it were, the
providence of his unconsidered hours! Everything, at that instant
of farewell, stood out prominently to her view. Look where she
would, lay her hand on what she might, the object responded to her
consciousness, as if a moist human heart were in it. She peeped
from the window into the garden, and felt herself more regretful at
leaving this spot of black earth, vitiated with such an age-long
growth of weeds, than joyful at the idea of again scenting her pine
forests and fresh clover-fields. She called Chanticleer, his two
wives, and the venerable chicken, and threw them some crumbs of
bread from the breakfast-table. These being hastily gobbled up, the
chicken spread its wings, and alighted close by Phoebe on the
window-sill, where it looked gravely into her face and vented its
emotions in a croak. Phoebe bade it be a good old chicken during
her absence, and promised to bring it a little bag of buckwheat.
"Ah, Phoebe!" remarked Hepzibah, "you do not smile so naturally as
when you came to us! Then, the smile chose to shine out; now, you
choose it should. It is well that you are going back, for a little
while, into your native air. There has been too much weight on your
spirits. The house is too gloomy and lonesome; the shop is full of
vexations; and as for me, I have no faculty of making things look
brighter than they are. Dear Clifford has been your only comfort!"
"Come hither, Phoebe," suddenly cried her cousin Clifford, who had
said very little all the morning. "Close!—closer!—and look me in
the face!" Phoebe put one of her small hands on each elbow of his
chair, and leaned her face towards him, so that he might peruse it
as carefully as he would. It is probable that the latent emotions
of this parting hour had revived, in some degree, his bedimmed and
enfeebled faculties. At any rate, Phoebe soon felt that, if not the
profound insight of a seer, yet a more than feminine delicacy of
appreciation, was making her heart the subject of its regard. A
moment before, she had known nothing which she would have sought to
hide. Now, as if some secret were hinted to her own consciousness
through the medium of another's perception, she was fain to let her
eyelids droop beneath Clifford's gaze. A blush, too,—the redder,
because she strove hard to keep it down,—ascended bigger and
higher, in a tide of fitful progress, until even her brow was all
suffused with it. "It is enough, Phoebe," said Clifford, with a
melancholy smile. "When I first saw you, you were the prettiest
little maiden in the world; and now you have deepened into beauty.
Girlhood has passed into womanhood; the bud is a bloom! Go, now—I
feel lonelier than I did." Phoebe took leave of the desolate
couple, and passed through the shop, twinkling her eyelids to shake
off a dew-drop; for—considering how brief her absence was to be,
and therefore the folly of being cast down about it—she would not
so far acknowledge her tears as to dry them with her handkerchief.
On the doorstep, she met the little urchin whose marvellous feats
of gastronomy have been recorded in the earlier pages of our
narrative. She took from the window some specimen or other of
natural history,—her eyes being too dim with moisture to inform her
accurately whether it was a rabbit or a hippopotamus,—put it into
the child's hand as a parting gift, and went her way. Old Uncle
Venner was just coming out of his door, with a wood-horse and saw
on his shoulder; and, trudging along the street, he scrupled not to
keep company with Phoebe, so far as their paths lay together; nor,
in spite of his patched coat and rusty beaver, and the curious
fashion of his tow-cloth trousers, could she find it in her heart
to outwalk him. "We shall miss you, next Sabbath afternoon,"
observed the street philosopher." It is unaccountable how little
while it takes some folks to grow just as natural to a man as his
own breath; and, begging your pardon, Miss Phoebe (though there can
be no offence in an old man's saying it), that's just what you've
grown to me! My years have been a great many, and your life is but
just beginning; and yet, you are somehow as familiar to me as if I
had found you at my mother's door, and you had blossomed, like a
running vine, all along my pathway since. Come back soon, or I
shall be gone to my farm; for I begin to find these wood-sawing
jobs a little too tough for my back-ache." "Very soon, Uncle
Venner," replied Phoebe. "And let it be all the sooner, Phoebe, for
the sake of those poor souls yonder," continued her companion.
"They can never do without you, now,—never, Phoebe; never—no more
than if one of God's angels had been living with them, and making
their dismal house pleasant and comfortable! Don't it seem to you
they'd be in a sad case, if, some pleasant summer morning like
this, the angel should spread his wings, and fly to the place he
came from? Well, just so they feel, now that you're going home by
the railroad! They can't bear it, Miss Phoebe; so be sure to come
back!" "I am no angel, Uncle Venner," said Phoebe, smiling, as she
offered him her hand at the street-corner. "But, I suppose, people
never feel so much like angels as when they are doing what little
good they may. So I shall certainly come back!" Thus parted the old
man and the rosy girl; and Phoebe took the wings of the morning,
and was soon flitting almost as rapidly away as if endowed with the
aerial locomotion of the angels to whom Uncle Venner had so
graciously compared her.