XVII. The Flight of Two
Owls
Summer as it was, the east wind set poor Hepzibah's few remaining
teeth chattering in her head, as she and Clifford faced it, on
their way up Pyncheon Street, and towards the centre of the town.
Not merely was it the shiver which this pitiless blast brought to
her frame (although her feet and hands, especially, had never
seemed so death-a-cold as now), but there was a moral sensation,
mingling itself with the physical chill, and causing her to shake
more in spirit than in body. The world's broad, bleak atmosphere
was all so comfortless! Such, indeed, is the impression which it
makes on every new adventurer, even if he plunge into it while the
warmest tide of life is bubbling through his veins. What, then,
must it have been to Hepzibah and Clifford,—so time-stricken as
they were, yet so like children in their inexperience,—as they left
the doorstep, and passed from beneath the wide shelter of the
Pyncheon Elm! They were wandering all abroad, on precisely such a
pilgrimage as a child often meditates, to the world's end, with
perhaps a sixpence and a biscuit in his pocket. In Hepzibah's mind,
there was the wretched consciousness of being adrift. She had lost
the faculty of self-guidance; but, in view of the difficulties
around her, felt it hardly worth an effort to regain it, and was,
moreover, incapable of making one. As they proceeded on their
strange expedition, she now and then cast a look sidelong at
Clifford, and could not but observe that he was possessed and
swayed by a powerful excitement. It was this, indeed, that gave him
the control which he had at once, and so irresistibly, established
over his movements. It not a little resembled the exhilaration of
wine. Or, it might more fancifully be compared to a joyous piece of
music, played with wild vivacity, but upon a disordered instrument.
As the cracked jarring note might always be heard, and as it jarred
loudest amidst the loftiest exultation of the melody, so was there
a continual quake through Clifford, causing him most to quiver
while he wore a triumphant smile, and seemed almost under a
necessity to skip in his gait. They met few people abroad, even on
passing from the retired neighborhood of the House of the Seven
Gables into what was ordinarily the more thronged and busier
portion of the town. Glistening sidewalks, with little pools of
rain, here and there, along their unequal surface; umbrellas
displayed ostentatiously in the shop-windows, as if the life of
trade had concentrated itself in that one article; wet leaves of
the, horse-chestnut or elm-trees, torn off untimely by the blast
and scattered along the public way; an unsightly, accumulation of
mud in the middle of the street, which perversely grew the more
unclean for its long and laborious washing,—these were the more
definable points of a very sombre picture. In the way of movement
and human life, there was the hasty rattle of a cab or coach, its
driver protected by a waterproof cap over his head and shoulders;
the forlorn figure of an old man, who seemed to have crept out of
some subterranean sewer, and was stooping along the kennel, and
poking the wet rubbish with a stick, in quest of rusty nails; a
merchant or two, at the door of the post-office, together with an
editor and a miscellaneous politician, awaiting a dilatory mail; a
few visages of retired sea-captains at the window of an insurance
office, looking out vacantly at the vacant street, blaspheming at
the weather, and fretting at the dearth as well of public news as
local gossip. What a treasure-trove to these venerable quidnuncs,
could they have guessed the secret which Hepzibah and Clifford were
carrying along with them! But their two figures attracted hardly so
much notice as that of a young girl, who passed at the same
instant, and happened to raise her skirt a trifle too high above
her ankles. Had it been a sunny and cheerful day, they could hardly
have gone through the streets without making themselves obnoxious
to remark. Now, probably, they were felt to be in keeping with the
dismal and bitter weather, and therefore did not stand out in
strong relief, as if the sun were shining on them, but melted into
the gray gloom and were forgotten as soon as gone. Poor Hepzibah!
Could she have understood this fact, it would have brought her some
little comfort; for, to all her other troubles, —strange to
say!—there was added the womanish and old-maiden-like misery
arising from a sense of unseemliness in her attire. Thus, she was
fain to shrink deeper into herself, as it were, as if in the hope
of making people suppose that here was only a cloak and hood,
threadbare and woefully faded, taking an airing in the midst of the
storm, without any wearer! As they went on, the feeling of
indistinctness and unreal ity kept dimly hovering round about her,
and so diffusing itself into her system that one of her hands was
hardly palpable to the touch of the other. Any certainty would have
been preferable to this. She whispered to herself, again and again,
"Am I awake?—Am I awake?" and sometimes exposed her face to the
chill spatter of the wind, for the sake of its rude assurance that
she was. Whether it was Clifford's purpose, or only chance, had led
them thither, they now found themselves passing beneath the arched
entrance of a large structure of gray stone. Within, there was a
spacious breadth, and an airy height from floor to roof, now
partially filled with smoke and steam, which eddied voluminously
upward and formed a mimic cloud-region over their heads. A train of
cars was just ready for a start; the locomotive was fretting and
fuming, like a steed impatient for a headlong rush; and the bell
rang out its hasty peal, so well expressing the brief summons which
life vouchsafes to us in its hurried career. Without question or
delay,—with the irresistible decision, if not rather to be called
recklessness, which had so strangely taken possession of him, and
through him of Hepzibah,—Clifford impelled her towards the cars,
and assisted her to enter. The signal was given; the engine puffed
forth its short, quick breaths; the train began its movement; and,
along with a hundred other passengers, these two unwonted
travellers sped onward like the wind. At last, therefore, and after
so long estrangement from everything that the world acted or
enjoyed, they had been drawn into the great current of human life,
and were swept away with it, as by the suction of fate itself.
Still haunted with the idea that not one of the past incidents,
inclusive of Judge Pyncheon's visit, could be real, the recluse of
the Seven Gables murmured in her brother's ear,— "Clifford!
Clifford! Is not this a dream?" "A dream, Hepzibah!" repeated he,
almost laughing in her face. "On the contrary, I have never been
awake before!" Meanwhile, looking from the window, they could see
the world racing past them. At one moment, they were rattling
through a solitude; the next, a village had grown up around them; a
few breaths more, and it had vanished, as if swallowed by an
earthquake. The spires of meeting-houses seemed set adrift from
their foundations; the broad-based hills glided away. Everything
was unfixed from its age-long rest, and moving at whirlwind speed
in a direction opposite to their own. Within the car there was the
usual interior life of the railroad, offering little to the
observation of other passengers, but full of novelty for this pair
of strangely enfranchised prisoners. It was novelty enough, indeed,
that there were fifty human beings in close relation with them,
under one long and narrow roof, and drawn onward by the same mighty
influence that had taken their two selves into its grasp. It seemed
marvellous how all these people could remain so quietly in their
seats, while so much noisy strength was at work in their behalf.
Some, with tickets in their hats (long travellers these, before
whom lay a hundred miles of railroad), had plunged into the English
scenery and adventures of pamphlet novels, and were keeping company
with dukes and earls. Others, whose briefer span forbade their
devoting themselves to studies so abstruse, beguiled the little
tedium of the way with penny-papers. A party of girls, and one
young man, on opposite sides of the car, found huge amusement in a
game of ball. They tossed it to and fro, with peals of laughter
that might be measured by mile-lengths; for, faster than the nimble
ball could fly, the merry players fled unconsciously along, leaving
the trail of their mirth afar behind, and ending their game under
another sky than had witnessed its commencement. Boys, with apples,
cakes, candy, and rolls of variously tinctured
lozenges,—merchandise that reminded Hepzibah of her deserted
shop,—appeared at each momentary stopping-place, doing up their
business in a hurry, or breaking it short off, lest the market
should ravish them away with it. New people continually entered.
Old acquaintances—for such they soon grew to be, in this rapid
current of affairs—continually departed. Here and there, amid the
rumble and the tumult, sat one asleep. Sleep; sport; business;
graver or lighter study; and the common and inevitable movement
onward! It was life itself! Clifford's naturally poignant
sympathies were all aroused. He caught the color of what was
passing about him, and threw it back more vividly than he received
it, but mixed, nevertheless, with a lurid and portentous hue.
Hepzibah, on the other hand, felt herself more apart from human
kind than even in the seclusion which she had just quitted. "You
are not happy, Hepzibah!" said Clifford apart, in a tone of
aproach. "You are thinking of that dismal old house, and of Cousin,
Jaffrey"—here came the quake through him,—"and of Cousin Jaffrey
sitting there, all by himself! Take my advice, —follow my
example,—and let such things slip aside. Here we are, in the world,
Hepzibah!—in the midst of life!—in the throng of our fellow beings!
Let you and I be happy! As happy as that youth and those pretty
girls, at their game of ball!" "Happy—" thought Hepzibah, bitterly
conscious, at the word, of her dull and heavy heart, with the
frozen pain in it,— "happy. He is mad already; and, if I could once
feel myself broad awake, I should go mad too!" If a fixed idea be
madness, she was perhaps not remote from it. Fast and far as they
had rattled and clattered along the iron track, they might just as
well, as regarded Hepzibah's mental images, have been passing up
and down Pyncheon Street. With miles and miles of varied scenery
between, there was no scene for her save the seven old gable-peaks,
with their moss, and the tuft of weeds in one of the angles, and
the shop-window, and a customer shaking the door, and compelling
the little bell to jingle fiercely, but without disturbing Judge
Pyncheon! This one old house was everywhere! It transported its
great, lumbering bulk with more than railroad speed, and set itself
phlegmatically down on whatever spot she glanced at. The quality of
Hepzibah's mind was too unmalleable to take new impressions so
readily as Clifford's. He had a winged nature; she was rather of
the vegetable kind, and could hardly be kept long alive, if drawn
up by the roots. Thus it happened that the relation heretofore
existing between her brother and herself was changed. At home, she
was his guardian; here, Clifford had become hers, and seemed to
comprehend whatever belonged to their new position with a singular
rapidity of intelligence. He had been startled into manhood and
intellectual vigor; or, at least, into a condition that resembled
them, though it might be both diseased and transitory. The
conductor now applied for their tickets; and Clifford, who had made
himself the purse-bearer, put a bank-note into his hand, as he had
observed others do. "For the lady and yourself?" asked the
conductor. "And how far?" "As far as that will carry us," said
Clifford. "It is no great matter. We are riding for pleasure
merely." "You choose a strange day for it, sir!" remarked a
gimlet-eyed old gentleman on the other side of the car, looking at
Clifford and his companion, as if curious to make them out." The
best chance of pleasure, in an easterly rain, I take it, is in a
man's own house, with a nice little fire in the chimney." "I cannot
precisely agree with you," said Clifford, courteously bowing to the
old gentleman, and at once taking up the clew of conversation which
the latter had proffered. "It had just occurred to me, on the
contrary, that this admirable invention of the railroad —with the
vast and inevitable improvements to be looked for, both as to speed
and convenience—is destined to do away with those stale ideas of
home and fireside, and substitute something better." "In the name
of common-sense," asked the old gentleman rather testily, "what can
be better for a man than his own parlor and chimney-corner?" "These
things have not the merit which many good people attribute to
them," replied Clifford. "They may be said, in few and pithy words,
to have ill served a poor purpose. My impression is, that our
wonderfully increased and still increasing facilities of locomotion
are destined to bring us around again to the nomadic state. You are
aware, my dear sir,—you must have observed it in your own
experience,—that all human progress is in a circle; or, to use a
more accurate and beautiful figure, in an ascending spiral curve.
While we fancy ourselves going straight forward, and attaining, at
every step, an entirely new position of affairs, we do actually
return to something long ago tried and abandoned, but which we now
find etherealized, refined, and perfected to its ideal. The past is
but a coarse and sensual prophecy of the present and the future. To
apply this truth to the topic now under discussion. In the early
epochs of our race, men dwelt in temporary huts, of bowers of
branches, as easily constructed as a bird's-nest, and which they
built,—if it should be called building, when such sweet homes of a
summer solstice rather grew than were made with hands,—which
Nature, we will say, assisted them to rear where fruit abounded,
where fish and game were plentiful, or, most especially, where the
sense of beauty was to be gratified by a lovelier shade than
elsewhere, and a more exquisite arrangement of lake, wood, and
hill. This life possessed a charm which, ever since man quitted it,
has vanished from existence. And it typified some thing better than
itself. It had its drawbacks; such as hunger and thirst, inclement
weather, hot sunshine, and weary and foot-blistering marches over
barren and ugly tracts, that lay between the sites desirable for
their fertility and beauty. But in our ascending spiral, we escape
all this. These railroads—could but the whistle be made musical,
and the rumble and the jar got rid of—are positively the greatest
blessing that the ages have wrought out for us. They give us wings;
they annihilate the toil and dust of pilgrimage; they spiritualize
travel! Transition being so facile, what can be any man's
inducement to tarry in one spot? Why, therefore, should he build a
more cumbrous habitation than can readily be carried off with him?
Why should he make himself a prisoner for life in brick, and stone,
and old worm-eaten timber, when he may just as easily dwell, in one
sense, nowhere,—in a better sense, wherever the fit and beautiful
shall offer him a home?" Clifford's countenance glowed, as he
divulged this theory; a youthful character shone out from within,
converting the wrinkles and pallid duskiness of age into an almost
transparent mask. The merry girls let their ball drop upon the
floor, and gazed at him. They said to themselves, perhaps, that,
before his hair was gray and the crow's-feet tracked his temples,
this now decaying man must have stamped the impress of his features
on many a woman's heart. But, alas! no woman's eye had seen his
face while it was beautiful. "I should scarcely call it an improved
state of things," observed Clifford's new acquaintance, "to live
everywhere and nowhere!" "Would you not?" exclaimed Clifford, with
singular energy. "It is as clear to me as sunshine,—were there any
in the sky,—that the greatest possible stumbling-blocks in the path
of human happiness and improvement are these heaps of bricks and
stones, consolidated with mortar, or hewn timber, fastened together
with spike-nails, which men painfully contrive for their own
torment, and call them house and home! The soul needs air; a wide
sweep and frequent change of it. Morbid influences, in a
thousand-fold variety, gather about hearths, and pollute the life
of households. There is no such unwholesome atmosphere as that of
an old home, rendered poisonous by one's defunct forefathers and
relatives. I speak of what I know. There is a certain house within
my familiar recollection,—one of those peaked-gable (there are
seven of them), projecting-storied edifices, such as you
occasionally see in our older towns,—a rusty, crazy, creaky,
dry-rotted, dingy, dark, and miserable old dungeon, with an arched
window over the porch, and a little shop-door on one side, and a
great, melancholy elm before it! Now, sir, whenever my thoughts
recur to this seven-gabled mansion (the fact is so very curious
that I must needs mention it), immediately I have a vision or image
of an elderly man, of remarkably stern countenance, sitting in an
oaken elbow-chair, dead, stone-dead, with an ugly flow of blood
upon his shirt-bosom! Dead, but with open eyes! He taints the whole
house, as I remember it. I could never flourish there, nor be
happy, nor do nor enjoy what God meant me to do and enjoy." His
face darkened, and seemed to contract, and shrivel itself up, and
wither into age. "Never, sir" he repeated. "I could never draw
cheerful breath there!" "I should think not," said the old
gentleman, eyeing Clifford earnestly, and rather apprehensively. "I
should conceive not, sir, with that notion in your head!" "Surely
not," continued Clifford; "and it were a relief to me if that house
could be torn down, or burnt up, and so the earth be rid of it, and
grass be sown abundantly over its foundation. Not that I should
ever visit its site again! for, sir, the farther I get away from
it, the more does the joy, the lightsome freshness, the heart-leap,
the intellectual dance, the youth, in short,—yes, my youth, my
youth!—the more does it come back to me. No longer ago than this
morning, I was old. I remember looking in the glass, and wondering
at my own gray hair, and the wrinkles, many and deep, right across
my brow, and the furrows down my cheeks, and the prodigious
trampling of crow's-feet about my temples! It was too soon! I could
not bear it! Age had no right to come! I had not lived! But now do
I look old? If so, my aspect belies me strangely; for—a great
weight being off my mind—I feel in the very heyday of my youth,
with the world and my best days before me!" "I trust you may find
it so," said the old gentleman, who seemed rather embarrassed, and
desirous of avoiding the observation which Clifford's wild talk
drew on them both. "You have my best wishes for it." "For Heaven's
sake, dear Clifford, be quiet!" whispered his sister. "They think
you mad." "Be quiet yourself, Hepzibah!" returned her brother. "No
matter what they think! I am not mad. For the first time in thirty
years my thoughts gush up and find words ready for them. I must
talk, and I will!" He turned again towards the old gentleman, and
renewed the conversation. "Yes, my dear sir," said he, "it is my
firm belief and hope that these terms of roof and hearth-stone,
which have so long been held to embody something sacred, are soon
to pass out of men's daily use, and be forgotten. Just imagine, for
a moment, how much of human evil will crumble away, with this one
change! What we call real estate—the solid ground to build a house
on—is the broad foundation on which nearly all the guilt of this
world rests. A man will commit almost any wrong,—he will heap up an
immense pile of wickedness, as hard as granite, and which will
weigh as heavily upon his soul, to eternal ages,—only to build a
great, gloomy, dark-chambered mansion, for himself to die in, and
for his posterity to be miserable in. He lays his own dead corpse
beneath the underpinning, as one may say, and hangs his frowning
picture on the wall, and, after thus converting himself into an
evil destiny, expects his remotest great-grandchildren to be happy
there. I do not speak wildly. I have just such a house in my mind's
eye!" "Then, sir," said the old gentleman, getting anxious to drop
the subject, "you are not to blame for leaving it." "Within the
lifetime of the child already born," Clifford went on, "all this
will be done away. The world is growing too ethereal and spiritual
to bear these enormities a great while longer. To me, though, for a
considerable period of time, I have lived chiefly in retirement,
and know less of such things than most men,—even to me, the
harbingers of a better era are unmistakable. Mesmerism, now! Will
that effect nothing, think you, towards purging away the grossness
out of human life?" "All a humbug!" growled the old gentleman."
These rapping spirits, that little Phoebe told us of, the other
day," said Clifford,—"what are these but the messengers of the
spiritual world, knocking at the door of substance? And it shall be
flung wide open!" "A humbug, again!" cried the old gentleman,
growing more and more testy at these glimpses of Clifford's
metaphysics. "I should like to rap with a good stick on the empty
pates of the dolts who circulate such nonsense!" "Then there is
electricity,—the demon, the angel, the mighty physical power, the
all-pervading intelligence!" exclaimed Clifford. "Is that a humbug,
too? Is it a fact—or have I dreamt it—that, by means of
electricity, the world of matter has become a great nerve,
vibrating thousands of miles in a breathless point of time? Rather,
the round globe is a vast head, a brain, instinct with
intelligence! Or, shall we say, it is itself a thought, nothing but
thought, and no longer the substance which we deemed it!" "If you
mean the telegraph," said the old gentleman, glancing his eye
toward its wire, alongside the rail-track, "it is an excellent
thing,—that is, of course, if the speculators in cotton and
politics don't get possession of it. A great thing, indeed, sir,
particularly as regards the detection of bank-robbers and
murderers." "I don't quite like it, in that point of view," replied
Clifford. "A bank-robber, and what you call a murderer, likewise,
has his rights, which men of enlightened humanity and conscience
should regard in so much the more liberal spirit, because the bulk
of society is prone to controvert their existence. An almost
spiritual medium, like the electric telegraph, should be
consecrated to high, deep, joyful, and holy missions. Lovers, day
by, day—hour by hour, if so often moved to do it,—might send their
heart-throbs from Maine to Florida, with some such words as these
'I love you forever!' —'My heart runs over with love!'—'I love you
more than I can!' and, again, at the next message 'I have lived an
hour longer, and love you twice as much!' Or, when a good man has
departed, his distant friend should be conscious of an electric
thrill, as from the world of happy spirits, telling him 'Your dear
friend is in bliss!' Or, to an absent husband, should come tidings
thus 'An immortal being, of whom you are the father, has this
moment come from God!' and immediately its little voice would seem
to have reached so far, and to be echoing in his heart. But for
these poor rogues, the bank-robbers,—who, after all, are about as
honest as nine people in ten, except that they disregard certain
formalities, and prefer to transact business at midnight rather
than 'Change- hours, —and for these murderers, as you phrase it,
who are often excusable in the motives of their deed, and deserve
to be ranked among public benefactors, if we consider only its
result,—for unfortunate individuals like these, I really cannot
applaud the enlistment of an immaterial and miraculous power in the
universal world-hunt at their heels!" "You can't, hey?" cried the
old gentleman, with a hard look. "Positively, no!" answered
Clifford. "It puts them too miserably at disadvantage. For example,
sir, in a dark, low, cross-beamed, panelled room of an old house,
let us suppose a dead man, sitting in an arm-chair, with a
blood-stain on his shirt-bosom, —and let us add to our hypothesis
another man, issuing from the house, which he feels to be
over-filled with the dead man's presence,—and let us lastly imagine
him fleeing, Heaven knows whither, at the speed of a hurricane, by
railroad! Now, sir, if the fugutive alight in some distant town,
and find all the people babbling about that self-same dead man,
whom he has fled so far to avoid the sight and thought of, will you
not allow that his natural rights have been infringed? He has been
deprived of his city of refuge, and, in my humble opinion, has
suffered infinite wrong!" "You are a strange man; sir" said the old
gentleman, bringing his gimlet-eye to a point on Clifford, as if
determined to bore right into him. "I can't see through you!" "No,
I'll be bound you can't!" cried Clifford, laughing. "And yet, my
dear sir, I am as transparent as the water of Maule's well! But
come, Hepzibah! We have flown far enough for once. Let us alight,
as the birds do, and perch ourselves on the nearest twig, and
consult wither we shall fly next!" Just then, as it happened, the
train reached a solitary way-station. Taking advantage of the brief
pause, Clifford left the car, and drew Hepzibah along with him. A
moment afterwards, the train—with all the life of its interior,
amid which Clifford had made himself so conspicuous an object—was
gliding away in the distance, and rapidly lessening to a point
which, in another moment, vanished. The world had fled away from
these two wanderers. They gazed drearily about them. At a little
distance stood a wooden church, black with age, and in a dismal
state of ruin and decay, with broken windows, a great rift through
the main body of the edifice, and a rafter dangling from the top of
the square tower. Farther off was a farm-house, in the old style,
as venerably black as the church, with a roof sloping downward from
the three-story peak, to within a man's height of the ground. It
seemed uninhabited. There were the relics of a wood-pile, indeed,
near the door, but with grass sprouting up among the chips and
scattered logs. The small rain-drops came down aslant; the wind was
not turbulent, but sullen, and full of chilly moisture. Clifford
shivered from head to foot. The wild effervescence of his
mood—which had so readily supplied thoughts, fantasies, and a
strange aptitude of words, and impelled him to talk from the mere
necessity of giving vent to this bubbling-up gush of ideas had
entirely subsided. A powerful excitement had given him energy and
vivacity. Its operation over, he forthwith began to sink. "You must
take the lead now, Hepzibah!" murmured he, with a torpid and
reluctant utterance. "Do with me as you will!" She knelt down upon
the platform where they were standing and lifted her clasped hands
to the sky. The dull, gray weight of clouds made it invisible; but
it was no hour for disbelief,—no juncture this to question that
there was a sky above, and an Almighty Father looking from it! "O
God!"—ejaculated poor, gaunt Hepzibah,—then paused a moment, to
consider what her prayer should be,—"O God,—our Father, —are we not
thy children? Have mercy on us!"