Chapter II

When he got home, Vronsky found there a
note from Anna. She wrote, “I am ill and unhappy. I cannot come
out,1 but I
cannot go on longer without seeing you. Come in this evening.
Alexey Alexandrovitch goes to the council at seven and will be
there till ten.” Thinking for an instant of the strangeness of her
bidding him come straight to her, in spite of her husband’s
insisting on her not receiving him, he decided to go.
Vronsky had that winter got his promotion, was now
a colonel, had left the regimental quarters, and was living alone.
After having some lunch, he lay down on the sofa immediately, and
in five minutes memories of the hideous scenes he had witnessed
during the last few days were confused together and joined on to a
mental image of Anna and of the peasant who had played an important
part in the bear-hunt, and Vronsky fell asleep. He waked up in the
dark, trembling with horror, and made haste to light a candle.
“What was it? What? What was the dreadful thing I dreamed? Yes,
yes; I think a little dirty man with a disheveled beard was
stooping down doing something, and all of a sudden he began saying
some strange words in French. Yes, there was nothing else in the
dream,” he said to himself. “But why was it so awful?” He vividly
recalled the peasant again and those incomprehensible French words
the peasant had uttered, and a chill of horror ran down his
spine.
“What nonsense!” thought Vronsky, and glanced at
his watch.
It was half-past eight already. He rang up his
servant, dressed in haste, and went out onto the steps, completely
forgetting the dream and only worried at being late. As he drove up
to the Karenins’ entrance he looked at his watch and saw it was ten
minutes to nine. A high, narrow carriage with a pair of grays was
standing at the entrance. He recognized Anna’s carriage. “She is
coming to me,” thought Vronsky, “and better she should. I don’t
like going into that house. But no matter; I can’t hide myself,” he
thought, and with that manner peculiar to him from childhood, as of
a man who has nothing to be ashamed of, Vronsky got out of his
sledge and went to the door. The door opened, and the hall-porter
with a rug on his arm called the carriage. Vronsky, though he did
not usually notice details, noticed at this moment the amazed
expression with which the porter glanced at him. In the very
doorway Vronsky almost ran up against Alexey Alexandrovitch. The
gas jet threw its full light on the bloodless, sunken face under
the black hat and on the white cravat, brilliant against the beaver
of the coat. Karenin’s fixed, dull eyes were fastened upon
Vronsky’s face. Vronsky bowed, and Alexey Alexandrovitch, chewing
his lips, lifted his hand to his hat and went on. Vronsky saw him
without looking round get into the carriage, pick up the rug and
the opera-glass at the window and disappear. Vronsky went into the
hall. His brows were scowling, and his eyes gleamed with a proud
and angry light in them.
“What a position!” he thought. “If he would fight,
would stand up for his honor, I could act, could express my
feelings; but this weakness or baseness . . . He puts me in the
position of playing false, which I never meant and never mean to
do.”
Vronsky’s ideas had changed since the day of his
conversation with Anna in the Vrede garden. Unconsciously yielding
to the weakness of Anna—who had surrendered herself up to him
utterly, and simply looked to him to decide her fate, ready to
submit to anything—he had long ceased to think that their tie might
end as he had thought then. His ambitious plans had retreated into
the background again, and feeling that he had got out of that
circle of activity in which everything was definite, he had given
himself entirely to his passion, and that passion was binding him
more and more closely to her.
He was still in the hall when he caught the sound
of her retreating footsteps. He knew she had been expecting him,
had listened for him, and was now going back to the
drawing-room.
“No,” she cried, on seeing him, and at the first
sound of her voice the tears came into her eyes. “No; if things are
to go on like this, the end will come much, much too soon.”
“What is it, dear one?”
“What? I’ve been waiting in agony for an hour, two
hours.... No, I won’t... I can’t quarrel with you. Of course you
couldn’t come. No, I won’t.” She laid her two hands on his
shoulders, and looked a long while at him with a profound,
passionate, and at the same time searching look. She was studying
his face to make up for the time she had not seen him. She was,
every time she saw him, making the picture of him in her
imagination (incomparably superior, impossible in reality) fit with
him as he really was.